norefusal
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i tend to be "ass half full of loads" in my outlook. sure i'm older and the world has gone 90% bottom, but there are more opportunities and more grit on my end. why a gl teen cumdump couldn't get laid to save his life is anyone's guess, but i remained a virgin well past YMCA being played on the radio despite a willingness to spread for anyone who asked. if i time traveled back, my teen self would be like "FML even this gross old man gets laid and i can't!" 😜
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while it's seems being a cumdump was something "i was born this way" i do think there is a way of realizing your true nature without being a slave to addiction. i turn it on and off all the time, sometimes for years on end. im glad ive experienced those door open, face down ass up nights at the bathhouse but also glad it's not been every night. no i don't regret entire days lost to the cruising park, nor do i regret those nites spent snuggling in front of tv w my hubby. nor do i regret all those times i topped. variety is the spice of life
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these are the typical feelings of isolation. reaching out to others who are in a similar situation and knowing you are not alone is key. i know it's helped tremendously for me to know im not alone and there are others going thru what im going thru. being gay can often be isolating so make sure to engage w others and know you've got a built in community of like minded people you were born into. it's an automatic club membership you can never revoke so use it to your advantage
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yes and no. im predominately italian so the goverment says im white but most people assume im not upon seeing me. i do however live a very white life in a very white country that is very segregated. unfortunately, i'm also attracted to men of color (and often, them to me). so i don't refuse to show up to all the predominately white gay events, but the small % of token men of color therefore disappoint me. so i cruise parks, sex shops etc purposefully to meet men of color as that seems to be where they hang out in my experience. it even seems to be one of the things that apps made worse as once you scroll past 6 pages of guys, only DMing the 4 men of color you saw, it's hard not to feel creepy. so i sleep w white guys too but honestly, the stupid questions! like what tropical nudist beach vacation did i take to get an all over tan in winter? bitch, this is natural skin color lol
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i feel like the story's protagonist lol on sat he was tied down, blindfolded, slammed, rough fucked and filled with his first toxic load w the promise of more to come... even my cunt is twitching for more at this point 😜
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one of the ideas/perks of anon is i don't know the sexual background of the tops. although in my experience, the self identified str8 guys feel the need to pronounce their heterosexual status post nut 😜 the "problem" is my hormone monster is not even remotely woke so finding out i'm full of some str8 boy's unwanted babies actually turns me on. 😜 -
Where did you get (or give) your last load?
norefusal replied to rawTOP's topic in General Discussion
went to the hotel room of an out of towner on their last night. i've only done this a handful of times but it's always good. all that pent up energy being released and me being rewarded with their multi-day load. -
First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking
norefusal replied to Teeslad70's topic in Your Last Load...
has he fucked you in his car yet? it's not very practical however it will make you feel more like a dirty slut making poor life choices 😜 -
you have 2 choices imo: 1. live in the moment and enjoy it for what it is. i spent most of my youth primarily enjoying the enhanced orgasm that came w being fucked. i have no idea what stupid label the gay community has for this, but tops were used by me to get off better. 2. if you are serious about flipping the script and becoming a total cunt - practice discipline and restraint. i wear a jock or thong to remind everyone upfront that my dick will not be an active participant in this. sometimes i hold my hands behind my head or back in mock restraint to thwart any urge to touch myself. blindfolds or masks help put me in the mood to just be holes for use. should you go the cumdump route, be aware that it's like all other addictions: the more you get the more you need/crave. you'll leave a hookup's house, his wet load fresh inside you, and immediately start hittin up his neighbors online for your next load. you'll leave the bathhouse dejected that you've only got 2-3 loads up your ass. again, try to live in the moment. you've just screwed around w 6 or 7 different guys in one nite, who cares if only half of them ended up breeding you. otherwise the disappointment that you weren't fucked "enough" will only snowball.
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to each his own. i would have flipped if my husband called me bitch no matter how many times his dick was up my ass. i was not that man's bitch! but i've since used it w hook ups and FBs for various reasons: but it's mostly to show subservience regardless of sexual act. it's an insult and only hot if you're in a dom/sub type situation. a bitch is a hole you use.
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everyone is different some guys think kissing is "gay" especially if they're a top, somehow breeding a guy isn't gay lol others feel that kissing is "cheating" where as breeding a stranger is "just sex" or maybe he's just dumb. so... was it hot gettin bred by an imbecile? 😜who needs brains when you e got a big cock lol
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i agree with those who say it's a sign of respect, but if the stars align, the cleaning will reawaken the beast and i'm treated to a second breeding 🐷
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Looking for advice from dominants on how to serve effectively
norefusal replied to Chuckybb's topic in BDSM Discussion
know what u want and try to commit to it. all guys like rough sex and anyone can be a cumdump. the question is do you want more and are you really willing to be mindfucked as well as merely fucked. often the dom will groom you. test you and see how far u are willing to go. play w you for hours on end like a cat w a mouse, edge u. how willing are you to be broken in? to be completely dominated, no questioned asked? -
level 5 for decades i guess. for most of the aids pandemic, i'd be too ashamed to ask for raw w a bf. but i'd let an anon rondo fuck me raw in the park.
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thank you for sharing here with us. i've shared my story in different ways over the years. at the time i shared it because i had to as it made me sick and really fucked up my whole life for several months. i described it only in factual terms and never used the r word. it still shocks me the reaction, especially by the ER doctors who hearing an obvious description of rape only took a dismissive " the fucked up things you fags do to yourselves" attitude. it still angers me. i sometime fantasize about suing them for malpractice. a few years later the term "date rape" suddenly became popular as people were more openly discussing how most of us get raped by someone we knew and trusted and still blamed ourselves for being naive. i started to share my story more then using the new phrase. a couple of years ago i revisited the subject w my current therapist and he asked "why not just call it sexual assault? that's what it was." Date rape is a way of softening it. The saddest part i feel is that whatever happened to that guy, im 100% sure he's been walking around all these years fully believing we had consensual sex, not even allowing himself to realize he's a rapist. ugh.
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love them both but pissing seems a tad more humiliating to me. i think it's the smell. but drinking piss is the ultimate imo as it's not just humiliation but requires the participation of the sub to accept and conform
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i'm not sure what you're asking. the main point of worry is preventative protection. it's why we take precautions, follow medical advice, get tested frequently for early detection, etc. but it sounds like you are already doing all that. are you asking if you should panic? i wouldn't advise it as it's counterproductive. try to relax and wait.
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Tested positive for Syphillis....
norefusal replied to Cubbtm4poz's topic in HIV/AIDS & Sexual Health Issues
good questions! i don't remember exactly which means neither were a big deal 1. i think it was just 2-3 days. seeing as i had them for a couple of weeks that seemed to last an eternity, it was almost as if the disappeared overnight by comparison 2. i think they told me 2 weeks. tbh i was so upset about testing positive i had 0 interest in hooking up for several weeks so it was easy for me to beyond the recommended period. just the memory of the joint pain alone put me off the idea of fucking -
hmm i'm intrigued. the only thing even close i experience is if im sucking dick for a really long time i get all stuffed up and my nose starts dripping lol
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i was both very lucky and unlucky as they spoiled me 😜 first dick i sucked was 8+ i'm guessing, first that fucked me was 7-7.5" i eventually got over my bigger is better fixation but the other problem was one guy was black, the other latin. both uncut. to this day i have a bad "i guess white dick is better than no dick" attitude 😜
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well these things are not mutually exclusive. fauci could have overstated the transmission of hiv via sperm but that doesn't change the fact that kennedy is a crack pot dabbling in pseudo science a fact based book written by a disinterested 3rd party would have been nice
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possible yes. probable, idk. i was single and slutty about a decade b4 marriage and about 5 years since. 1,000 fucks would be about a fuck and a half per week. so yeah, probably but i can't say for sure.
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i never thought i'd say this, but gays have ruined sex! 😜 wtf with all 101 pre-hook up questions. age? size? height? stats? pics? more pics? dude, you wanna fuck or not? back in last century when you'd meet guys in person and not ask for a brochure of selling points before sex, i had this one bf: how big was it? stupid huge like dude are u even human big. def way bigger than anything i've seen before or since. how far did i take it? as far as i could! each time i slobbered over it, both of us moaning in ecstasy, the one thing that never happened was one of us stopping so we could go get a ruler and start jotting down dimensions.
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i think i've told this story before but one day watching tv batman and robin jumped on their fireman poles in street clothes and then landed in the batcave in costume. realizing they'd been naked together at one point during the decent, i became obsessed w the image of the two guys naked side by side on stripper poles 😜
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giving head always makes me proud as i consider making someone cum w my mouth a skill. oddly, getting sucked is not my fav thing, mostly because i'm shocked at how bad most guys are at it. but i love the taste and smell of jizz and the fact that it lingers in my mouth long after i've swallowed.
