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It looks like they are available through hisaromas.com. I have the premium formula and they too pack a pretty good punch. side note about hisaromas, they are located here in the states, and ship USPS priority. Next time I order, I might try a bottle of the white label.

tickets.teampig.us has a spot that you can put your email in to be notified. I usually find them listed on bbrt in the LA area party listings. They usually put a posting up about 4-6 weeks ahead of the party.

contemplating, but live 2 hours drive, and have to be up at 6a for work.

294. several I know will not happen but definitely saw a lot on the list were checked off.

I have to admit I'm in the albolene camp. cheap, lasts forever and easy to clean up. Have yet to try coconut oil, but have heard lots of positive comments on that too.

I have to admit, I'm a "paper trail" kinda guy. Anytime I arrange a hookup I always make sure status is documented in any message exchanged (email, text, etc), and more importantly acknowledged and SAVED! It may not be fool-proof, but at least something can be shown.

I actually have a friend who recently (within 6 months) started prep for similar reasons. He and I talked about how to approach his doctor about getting it without actually coming out and saying he likes to be a slut on occasion. He for the most part told them the truth in that he doesn't use condoms. I'm pretty sure he left out the being a slut part. As for me, I actually have a straight male doctor and although my clinic goes through doctors like you wouldn't believe (I've had 7 docs in 12 years). I'm completely honest with each doctor. Perhaps not at my initial visit with the new doc since I like to get a feel for how they are but every doc within the second or third visit which is usually monthly fully understands that I do very frequently go to sex clubs and have unprotected anonymous sex with multiple guys each time. Aside from the HIV aspect, there are other STDs to worry about and having a doctor know your sexual practices allows them to include additional testing when needed. I'm sure there are doctors who do judge their patients, and I'm sure I've had doctors who do, but aside from the "you shouldn't do that", they should NEVER refuse any options to protect yourself if it's available, especially prep. The only barrier in that case is whether or not your insurance would cover it and many doctors will find a way around to get you covered. If on the other hand you don't have a doctor willing to offer preventive care, whatever it may be, keep in mind that when it does come time to treat, it might also signal that they won't always do everything to help you.

I experienced something along those lines a few months ago. I was at my usual sex club hanging out and BS'ing with the desk staff. It was getting pretty late, crowd thinning, etc. Had a couple of very hot daddy types come up to gain entry and not paying much attention I realized they were let in far more quickly than usual. They came around to check their stuff in and the desk guy that checked them in told me to go show "our guests around" Ended up finding myself in a sling being fucked, drawing an audience, etc. I later found out that he gave them free entry just to fuck and breed me. I'll admit I was a bit stunned at first, but it really turned me on to know what he did. Needless to say, I consider him a far better friend for that.

I've always been told that 8-1200 was considered "normal for healthy individuals", however that said, it does vary significantly from person to person (healthy even). I agree that the CD4% is a far better indicator, and generally doesn't fluctuate as wildly throughout the day as the cd4 count. In my initial years of living as poz (about the first 5 or so) my numbers were consistently low, starting off at 221 at my initial test, dropping down to 140 and staying below 200 for the best part of a year, and gradually breaking each century mark about every two years thereafter. At the time I was taking Zerit (nasty stuff!), Epivir, and Sustiva. After getting off that combo and moving to Epzicom and Sustiva, my cd4 count skyrocketted to the 700's within a couple months. Until that change, I barely broke 300 on my cd4 count. That said, it may be possible that the meds are the cause for the low cd4 count. Unfortunately without making a med change to confirm, I'm unable to say for certain that the meds are the direct cause. However, as stated earlier, as long as there isn't any illness involved, having a low cd4 count isn't something to get overly worried about. As long as the cd4% isn't abnormally low (should be in the 30% range) and viral load is undetectable, I'd say you're doing a pretty good job at keeping the virus under control. Bottom line, if your bud has his virus under control, there should be little to worry about. It's possible that his immune system, although doesn't have the higher cd4 count that is defined by "normal", is sufficient for his body.

I'll agree that these are some incredibly hot parties. I've been fortunate to attent two but was unable to make this most recent party due to prior work committments. Its by far more attendees than even the best night at a sex club, and plenty of uninhibited sex. And for those into it, usually plenty of poz talk while some lucky hole is getting bred.

Great topic. I'm the type that deals better with a cancellation than completely stood up. I realize sometimes things happen unexpectedly, and I am more than ok with a phone call with sufficient time before hand letting me know of a cancel or postponement or other means that indicates "hey, sorry". Being stood up however, lets just say dude better have some good sex for me to try again, and if I haven't experienced said sex, it won't happen! Bottom line, life is short. If there isn't enough respect for your time to let you know they're not coming, especially after you've taken time out to get ready, or cancelled other plans, etc, why should you bother a second time? Hell, for all you know, the guy who stood you up was standing you up for something they thought was better!

My personal feeling on this comes down to respect for the person. Bottom line, you have a relationship with this person that should be based on trust between each other. I agree that she doesn't need to know the details of how you contracted HIV, but she, at the VERY LEAST, deserves to know that there is risk. My suggestion is to get it out in the open and let her make the decision. I'll almost guarantee she'll get upset, ask questions, and initially push you away. It's fear that will be driving this. The best thing you can do is remain calm and collected, answering any questions she may have, but keeping details you don't want give to a minimum. She just needs to know it happened through a sexual encounter, not whom, or other details. Make sure you express your feelings about the future of any relationship with her. Especially if you'd still be okay with the occasional date, etc. If she really had feelings for you, she'll come back around after she's had time to absorb the news.

I remember the blood draw from my initial consultation. I felt similar, but I actually thought they took half the blood in my entire body (13 vials if I recall!). You're definitely off to a better start than I am. I waited 2 months before seeing a doctor, but that was more out of ignorance as to where to get treatment as all I had was a packet of documents the "devil woman who told me I was poz" gave me that I refused to look at. Keep in mind that this is just the start. I'm sure your doc will put you on meds to minimize the damage to your immune system. Don't worry too much about the side effects. Most meds will have something that is uncomfortable, but as long as it's tolerable, please continue to take them. After a couple weeks, the side effects should start to wear off. I was initially put on Zerit, Epivir and Sustiva. I actually kinda liked the side effects from the Sustiva. It was like taking a pill that would make me drunk (happy drunk) that would last an hour or so. Definitely not something to drive with, but one of the better side effects was intense dreams. Not so great if one has nightmares, as they're far more real feeling, but the sex dreams were incredible! LOL I'm sure I speak for everyone in that we would all like to be kept up to date. It's a stressful time, and we're all here to give our own insight on how we dealt with the initial days/weeks and even months after begining the journey you're starting. Just remember, we've all been there, and although some of us didn't have much of a support group initially, you do have that here with us and I'm sure many of us are more than willing to offer any support or suggestions to assist you.

I did the planned parenthood route when I initially tested. Big mistake to be honest. They're consultation to discuss my results (they wouldn't notify my in any manner than in person) was as I recall, brief, with little information. They only thing they did do was to give me a packet of brochures and other papers with local service information and pretty much said "good luck". Hopefully you're experience is better. As has been mentioned, there are LOTS of services available, especially if your in a large city, or nearby which it sounds like. Basically the choice now is what you choose to do. The services and knowledge to treat are there, and most likely free or low cost. The choice you choose to make now will greatly effect how your body and HIV live together. Getting treatment is ideal and will give you the best odds to live a healthy and normal life (aside from a couple pills perhaps). The other choice, well, don't think I need to explain that. I agree with HWS and try to go to someone who specializes with HIV. a GP can help with day to day health monitoring, or when something isn't quite right, but the specialist will help tailor your meds for whats right for you. To be honest, I only see my specialist since from a health standpoint I'm pretty good, and only the HIV needs watching (we're getting bored with the non-detectable tests though. LOL). Don't shy away from anything that calls itself a clinic though. Many times the word clinic illicits an image of something dirty, where treatment is minimal. Not so since many of the free/non-profit facilities can offer outstanding treatment but call themselves a clinic since they do offer free services. I would also, as I stated before, try to contact the local HIV/AIDS support services in your area. They have a current listing of all HIV doctors and can point you in the right direction to find someone who either accepts your insurance, or has a program that you may qualify for, or even both! The good news is, the services and treatments are available, it just sometimes takes a little footwork to find the right combination for you.

Tiger, I wholeheartedly agree with your first question regarding victim responsibility. In this country, and every other one that I'm aware of, there is a sense of responsibility for ones own actions, even if those actions, or lack of are personally damaging. I will admit I'm guilty of not disclosing my status to every one of my partners as I'm sure there are others as well, most frequently went visiting a sex club or other similar venue. I do however answer truthfully when asked and feel that in such situations I believe it best to always assume your partner(s) are poz, and if you aren't and don't want the risk you should either not be there, or take every damn preventive measure to ensure you don't come home with a souvineir. I think disclosure laws are appropriate to have, but I also feel that laws for victims should also be required such as not able to call "foul" if the "victim" didn't ask, but later finds out. Why does the law need to side with only one side, in this case, the victim when it should be shared responsibility with all involved. If the victim is going to engage in activites that potentially put them at risk, why should they be free and clear to do so, and when something happens based on their own actions, it's all about "poor me".

if your in the states, medical coverage changes are in effect. If you have mediocre insurance, there are programs available to supplement your coverage as long as you are income eligible. The first step you should take when you get your test result and it comes back poz is to take a few deep breaths. It's a BIG lifestyle change, especially if you aren't expecting it. The next step is to contact your local AIDS project if you have one (it may be in another city, but should still be in your county). Set up an appointment with a case worker. This is the person who will help you to apply for programs you may be eligible for in order to get medications your insurance may not cover. I was in your shoes many years ago (2002). For a couple months I had NO IDEA what was going to happen as I had no medical coverage, working minimum wage job, and living at home. Fortunately we had services that I qualified for and got treatment and doctors appointments set up, and even qualified for a program that was no cost. I'm sure there are others here who can sympathize with what you're feeling.....Your right to feel scared. It's a natural response to something that is sudden and unexpected. If you have questions, feel free to ask here so others can respond, or PM me and I can give you details about my experience and what I did.

Trimix is also available as a gel. I'm not sure how well it works compared to the injectable. I actually played with a guy last night who used it (injectable version). Made his cock incredibly hard! He was able to give me a good multiload breeding over the course of about 2 hours until time became an issue for me.

I have to agree that you should inform your doctor about your practices. Some doctors like to put their $.02 in when they hear of a patient who is less than careful, almost to the point of making you feel guilty. My suggestion is that you kindly inform your doctor that you are aware of the risks, but do not wish to change your behavior. If that becomes an issue, perhaps a new doctor might be in order. My doctor is vaguely aware of my behavior, and although he isn't exactly happy with it, does manage to treat me when the need arises. We also have a standing order for STD screenings at minimum every year, frequently every 6 months (or after a VERY good night at Slammer. LOL). I only say vaguely because the clinic I go through has gone through several specialists since I first started going there 12 years ago and in some cases have only seen a particular doctor a few times at most before he was replaced with another. Bottom line, you are the patient in need of treatment when the need presents itself, and the doctor is there being paid to provide the treatment you need, not to counsel or judge your behavior.

Not every encounter will be a success. Especially one in which you have little experience in playing the lead in. Some guys are naturally Dominant and can take on the role quite seamlessly. Others struggle or can't do it at all. It sounds from your description that you were honest and told him that you were concerned. IMO he should have stopped the pursuit once you made it clear that you were likely not what he was looking for. I find most guys that push for a particular scene expect it to turn out exactly the way they want. Unfortunately, in many cases it's the bottom, or submissive that wants a particular scene and pushes that desire in such a manner as to attempt to control the scene to suit their desire. It certainly sounds as if this is the case. I have to agree with PPB and attempt to contact him at a later date if you wish to enjoy the opportunity to play in capacity in which you are more comfortable.

Homeless tweeker guy I picked up the day after Christmas walking through the parking lot of my apartment complex. Had a simple request to use the shower....told him to come back later in the evening as I was on my way out. Had a bit of a thought to see if he wanted to trade the hot shower for a fuck. Caught up with him just around the corner and told him to come back in two hours and he could have a shower, if he would fuck me. About 3 hours later, knock on the door. Honestly.....terrible fuck. Now I can't seem to shake the guy as he's constantly coming over. Sketched out so bad he's always afraid someone is coming for him. Last time I ever do something like that and invite them back here.

Hungry4more, I've been fortunate to not have that happen, but a bit of advice is while you're exchanging messages and it looks like the hookup is certain to happen, hit google maps, or mapquest. This way you can see if it's a house, apartment, etc. It's also nice to have a visual for what your looking for, especially if it's a night time hookup.

My hole belongs to the top. The only conditions I place on the use of my hole (and body in general) is that I end the session in a similar condition in which it was found. As long as their isn't any physical damage, it's all good. Of course there are always risks of picking up a bug or two, and thats fine. I consider it "normal wear and tear". But on the otherhand if there are deliberate physical injuries such as broken skin, bruising, etc, that quickly approaches my hard limits and although I may be a sex pig, I'm not a punching bag or other device in which to let out agressions that are intended to cause physical harm.

I tend to consider piggy sex anything outside the social "norm". If it's unsafe, unsanitary, or socially taboo, chances are it's "piggy sex" and exactly what I'm looking for.

I have no experience with this, but I've been told some of those anti-snore sprays can help too. Just spray a little at the back of the throat.

That sounds pretty fun. I'm curious about the sex part too. I did notice however that it sounds like it's just a group event rather than the entire cruise being chartered.