I still think about my "What If" moment. I was 17, going to college and needed a room in the big city. So mid summer I went there several times hunting for a room which was not easy to find. At one point I responded to an ad to see a room in a house with 4 guys. Was brought to the living room. All four guys in shorts and shirtless. My gaydar went through the roof. On offer were two tiny rooms ups upstairs, one just big enough for a bed and the other just big enough for a desk and chair. Very disappointing. Funny things was all doors in all rooms upstairs had been removed. They really tried to sell it to me. Said it saved space, they all got along great so who needed doors? I could feel the sexual tension and two guys were very sexy, especially the one who showed me the rooms. Kept looking at me in a certain way. I didn't have any sexual experience at that time but could tell these guys were sharing more than just the house. I chickened out but never forgot it. What if I had taken those two rooms?
I found another room in a different house (mixed boys/girls). As luck would have it I found out not much later that the cruising park was around the corner there ;-) Spent may nights there hunting after I got my cherry popped in the video store by the sales guy. But always imagined what would have happened if I had moved in with those four guys.