in my twenties, i was really scared about having sex with hiv + guys, so ended up with no sex at all for most of the time
however i changed my attitude after i had met a few (in my 30ties) who were upfront about their status and were not bothered by it; some of them if they could would rather not have it, the others were fine with it; a lot depends on a person, but in general great people and great fuckers (great sex)
during first lockdown, i met a great guy, older than me (very early 60s), U for 15 years, very upfront about his hiv status; very carismatic & sweet bloke; i was on prep at the time and our first sex was 'safe' till the end of the session (only anal though , he was very respectful about it
our next sessions were stricktly bb, me still on prep (got to know him better). at one point as Prep messing up with my body (does not agree with it at all) , and conversation with him and his doctor, i stopped taking it and we have been fucking like that since then, no side effects, brilliant (U=U)
sometimes i would fantisese about being converted by him, and he would immedietly bring me down saying HIV is nothing funny, and if he could, he would never wanted to get infected ; and he would never wish that upon anyone,
i respect that. we still fuck as crazy, sex is off the charts, sleasy as fuck. he mentioned to me that in case (or when) i get it, he still gonna fuck with me; after saying that, i lost all my reservation about having bb sex with hiv+ guys and i go crazy as i can, not olny with him (mostly U guys - according to what they said
im sitll neg, but if or when i get it my attitude and approach will change, i do not know; all i know i will have still someone to play with 🙂