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I agree with you. I do have one nit-pick though. According to the most credible global dataset out there (calcSD), the average bone-pressed erect length is 5.5". In a room with 1000 men, only 83 would be bigger than you at 6.5". That said, I agree that the size of a bottom's dick doesn't matter.

Why not pull him aside, crack open your heart a little, and tell him you'd like to get to know him better on his own? It has the virtue of being true, and if he freaks out or says no you know where you stand.

Hmmm. I didn't get across that if I'm attracted to the essence of a person, the physicality steps back somewhat. I'm a big fan of "dark horses" where men don't show who they are very obviously and have the good stuff hidden inside them.

Although my first sexual experience at 12 was non-consensual with a mid-40s man, and I've definitely got some daddy/boy stuff going on, I'm not locked into the daddy thing. I'm a data guy, so I pulled (and conservatively estimated) the ages of the men who have given me the 102 loads since I started bottoming earlier this year. The youngest is 26 and the oldest is 74 years, with an average age of 43.4 and a mean of 41 years. At 48 loads, a 34 year old is the MVB (Most Valued Breeder), while a 54 and a 45 year old gave the most transformative sexual experiences, one with no load at all. The 34 year old MVB is a dom and gets an honorable mention for training my cunt to take long dick a long, long time. I'm drawn to men of any age with strong secondary sexual characteristics - strong, muscular, hairy, deep voice, beard, scruff, etc. Men who don't look sexually mature are a turn-off for me. If presented with a smooth slender 40 year old top and thicker, hairier, bearded 20 year old top I'd likely lean towards the one who looked most sexually mature - the 20 year old. However, experience and skill is definitely a factor as DannyBoyCMH says. It's much more complex than just age.

In my home country, Australia, the age of consent is generally 16 years old: They also allow young people undergoing sexual development to have sex with each other at younger ages.

I think I was always meant to be a bottom, but after being raped bloody as a child, getting fucked became a terrifying thing that got wired into my body even as what happened to me got pushed into a deep place in my mind. I was attracted to strong, muscular, masculine men even as a boy, but didn't get what that pull in me was. I dated a woman and fucked her at 21 and realized sex was okay, but not as incredible as people say. The first time I kissed a guy and made out I finally figured it out. Still, sex was terrifying to me and my body would go into shutdown if I got too close to getting fucked. The only way I could get close was to be incredibly young and horny and get very drunk to get past the terror. Topping was what I could do, even though my heart wasn't really in it. At best it was an adaptation to what happened to me, at worst a dead end. I felt more and more cut off from my sexual self as time passed. I wanted to bottom but couldn't get there. After lots of work on my mind and body, including work with a sacred intimate and exploring and accepting my kinks and submissive nature, I reconnected with that sexual self in earnest this year. I met with a guy and had an incredible experience with him. Profoundly connected sex in which I felt horny, safe, and was able to relax enough to be penetrated and fucked. More than that, his fucking me started a deep rolling sensation in my body that I knew from previous work was an assgasm. Since then I've accepted I was always wired to be a bottom and had it blocked by what happened to me. Now I honor who and what I am by taking bare cock and seed inside me. I just celebrated my 100th bare load in just 6 months of bottoming. I agree with BritBottom: I'm a bottom who loves connected intense sex, just like I always should have been.

I'm thinking I'm going to do this too. Any pointers on getting the good stuff in bulk cheaply?

Not at all. I meant literally to "search on the word cherish here" meaning on bz. It's a word I've used here often.

Brother, I think you need to search on the word cherish here and see how much we agree.

I agree with everything in the first paragraph. Perhaps its just how I'm wired, but I like a man who's spent time fucking my ass who's about to cum to fuck it into my ass. If a guy enjoys fucking me and doesn't cum that's fine with me too. I love the fuck. It's just that if he is going to cum then being denied his seed in my ass denies me the bond that barebacking and breeding creates.

The first two graphs here align best with my thoughts and feelings. I've had men of all sizes fuck me and its definitely about the man. I can't choose one over the other because they all deserve thirsty cunt to fuck and breed. Selfishly, I want that cunt to be mine.

What app do you use to keep track? I've been wanting to get one to help me keep track of the loads I take. I want to track the date, number of loads, and the source at a minimum. I don't count loads pumped in my mouth. What do people use?

I produce what one guy who got in my cunt and enjoyed it's slickness called "ass cum". I take fibre supplements and douche as little as possible.

I have to agree. Online fiction (like what you outlined) has led me into discovering a great deal about what I'm built for. Care to share your online fiction favorites with me/us?

I was feeling the need for some play on Sunday and, looking around on the apps, found an "I'm interested" message from a guy whose profile I'd looked at a few times before. A bi guy, shorter than me, younger than me, solid and strong looking with a thick, rigidly hard looking dick. After some back and forth on the app we agreed to get together at his place and switched to texting. I asked if he was okay with sharing face pics and he agreed. It turns out he's as cute as hell with a face full of scruff and a big sexy smile. I was keen before, but now I'm feeling even more keen. I get the directions and make the 25 minute trip to his place, walking up the few flights of stairs to the door. As I walk down the short corridor his door opens and I'm ushered in by the same handsome man I saw in his picture. After hellos and closing the door behind me we stand close and our hands are touching and exploring each others arms, chest, nipples, back, ass, with soft smiles blooming on our faces. I can feel his dick already very hard as he presses his hips into mine. Not the sometimes awkward and slightly nervous dance this time. We wander into the bedroom in his very clean and tidy home and, still standing, touch some more, kissing slowly and discovering he's a very good kisser. Breaking from our kiss with the big smiles that come with really good kissing we remove a few layers and get comfortable. I strip down to t-shirt and briefs, and he to his sport trunks. We climb onto his bed and make out, feeling something flowing back and forth between us. There's a sweet shyness to him that is very sexy on that strong and solid frame. I roll from my side to hover over him and kiss his soft wet lips before I lick and tease his nipples while my fingers tickle his balls and taint through his trunks. The sounds he's making tell me I'm on the right track. I move from nipple to nipple, licking, nibbling, sucking, while my fingers find the spongey inner shaft of his cock lying under his taint and stroke it firmly back and forth. I think its at this point he flips me on my back and hovers over me, kissing briefly before going after my nipple through my shirt. He says it's time we get everything off and agreeing I squirm out of my shirt and briefs, tossing them over the long horizon of the bed. Now that we're both naked he kneels, lifting and parting my legs, letting his hard and now wet-tipped cock drag up along the crack of my ass as he leans over me to suck and bite my nipples making me squirm slowly under him. I tell him that he can handle me as firmly as he likes, I like hard nipple play and being manhandled. He obliges and my dick chubs a little in response while my cunt is feeling more and more in need. He moves to my dick and starts to suck it, pausing to ask if it's okay. I tell him yes, of course, but I'm totally focused on my ass-hunger. As if reading my mind, his hands slide to my thighs and he flexes me, trailing his tongue into my furry crack and onto my hole. He wets his tongue and licks my hole until all the outer nerves are awake, then he presses my thighs to flex me open and pushes his firm tongue inside me. I make a long groaning sigh and relax to give him more access. He eats my hole until it starts to relax and, feeling the give he pushes his tongue in further and as he pulls out, leaves a pool of his saliva in its place. Straightening, he puts the head of his cock into that wet pool and holding my legs presses forward slightly so that I feel his knob slowly slide inside me. At this point I tell him I'm going to need lube because, well, most every time I have. He asks how it feels, and when I say good he rocks just a little in me, letting me get used to the sensation. Realizing it feels fine, I tell him to keep going. He keeps up the very gentle rocking in me and I feel his knob throb, harden and pull up on the muscle of my hole drawing a chest deep sound of satisfaction from me. He does this a few more times and flexes forward a little more, easily gliding in a few more inches. Rocking a couple of inches back and forth in me for a few seconds he slides all the way into me with the thick root of his cock stretching out my hole for the first time. My head goes back and a long deep "Ahhhhh" punches out as his cock seats in me fully. This is when he tells me he precums a great deal - easy penetration mystery solved. He doesn't know about my serious precum kink, so I have a big grin on my face when I tell him how much I love that. I suddenly realize all the slow rocking was him milking his precum into me to lube up my cunt and my smile gets even bigger. He moves his balls-deep cock around inside my cunt, getting me used to the thickness of it stretching me in different directions. Looking up at his scruffy face with my legs held wide by his strong arms, he begins to fuck into me with a slowly lengthening stroke. After a few minutes it becomes clear he knows his business, first fucking me slowly but firmly to the root, then building up to a good hard "slap" fuck that shakes my whole body and has me instinctively flexing my ass up onto his dick. I can't help how I'm moaning on his cock and watching his face as everything he's feeling plays across it. Every now and then as we fuck his shy face gives way to an intensely determined primal expression, a confident not-quite-sneering smile. This is the first time he tells me how incredible it feels to be inside me. It's been just over a month since he had sex, but I'm still pleased by how pleased he is. I return the favor by telling him how great it feels with his cock inside me, fucking me. He slows down his pace admitting he can cum several times but he really doesn't want to as he's enjoying the feeling of my ass snugly massaging his cock. I try using my cunt muscles to grip and stroke him and he sighs thrusting into me again. He fucks me soundly for over an hour, the changing pace and intensity feels so good, slow, firm, shallow, fast, hard, deep, and I'm incredibly turned on and ready to receive his load. During this time he flips me from missionary onto my sides with my body folded like a deck chair and snugly tucked between his legs as he leans in and finds a new deep part of my cunt to fuck and paint with his precum. I twist to keep eye contact as he fucks me, at first finding the change in position overwhelming with new sensation in my cunt until, after a few moments, I feel myself center as I focus just on his cock. He moans and I feel freshly awash with his precum. He quickly flips me back into missionary and leans over me as he presses all the way inside and begins to fuck me getting deeper and harder as he goes. Looking at his face I can see the shy guy is gone, he's 100% the primal horny ass-fucker I glimpsed earlier and I'm definitely about to get bred. I'm so in need of his seed in my cunt after more that an hour of intense fucking that all I can do is half-sob "Please" with each thrust as his whole body tightens and pounds into me. Then I feel his already rigid cock thicken and harden in me as his face is transformed and he pumps his seed down into my thirsty cunt. As he finishes cumming, he keeps moving inside my now well-bred cunt, just a little back and forth, feeling the slickness of his seed inside me. He didn't go soft, but now I feel him hardening up inside me and I know he's definitely good for longer. He starts fucking me again, clearly getting off on the feel of his seed in my cunt and working it into every part of me. Leaning back, he talks about how much he enjoys watching his cock penetrating my now very juicy hole, telling me how hot and sexy it is. Knowing he's looking, I relax my hole a little, holding it slightly open and he sees his cum peek out. He fucked into the slightly looser hole and groaned how much he loved that wet feeling and the sound his cock makes fucking me filled with his cum. Over the next hour he fucks me in missionary, on my left and right sides, on my stomach and breeds me in every position. At one stage he tells me he's got no more cum left in him and, hearing a challenge, I begin milking him with my cum-filled hole and managed to make him cum three more times. In the end we fucked for a little over two hours and he bred me nine times. We chatted as we cleaned up and I got ready to go. As we were kissing and hugging goodbye, I told him how much I loved having his cum in me and that I'd take good care of it for him. His still half-hard cock became rigid in a few seconds and he admitted that he really likes having his cum inside a man and for him to keep it there inside him. The temptation to fuck just one more time was strong, but we both had things to get done. I think there is plenty of kink potential on top of some incredible fucking action to be had in the future. Here's hoping he's up for a repeat sometime soon. Lifetime loads (well, since March 2019) was 84, now 93.

I think people often see dominance and submission as more of a performance than what it usually is - a subtle undercurrent. The best D/s sex is where you are seen as what you are and its coaxed out of you by your connection and the intensity of the play. Real power and control is subtle, not a big show of bluster. I enjoy when a Dom coaxes me out past my comfort zone into a place that gives him pleasure, but also allows me to feel pride in my growth under him. At the same time, I'd enjoy working with a submissive top in expanding their comfort zones. I'm often read as a Dom and placed in that role, but have no interest in penetrating, only in being penetrated. I do, however, have interest in controlling particular types of men and in shaping them, and forcing them to penetrate who, what, and how I'd like. It's called a Dominant/submissive dynamic for good reason - it's dynamic.

I think it's also worth noting that early sexual experiences, especially traumatic ones, can implant fetishes and kinks in us that flower and evolve later. After my rape at 12 by an adult acting in loco parentis, I was shut down sexually for a long, long time. In the process of recovery I had to look at and use the fetishes that sprang up in me to go the last mile. For me, it was taking the experience of being raped bloody with no control over what happened to me, and making being in the control of a stronger man work for me. Enter submissive and control fetishes of various types that I've used to move though the fear and terror he fucked into my ass and body and instead used as a path to a new sexual opening and rebirth. This is quite distinct from re-enacting the rape because it's my choice, it's my pleasure, and my rape isn't something I ever think about during or even after a man has been up to his nuts in my cunt. I've always liked older men, but it's settled to men who look very sexually mature (strong secondary sexual characteristics - beards, hair, strong, muscular, solid) and men who have a controlling to dominant sexual nature. I enjoy being manhandled, orgasm control and denial, bare breeding, impregnation/MPREG, being restrained/held down as I'm fucked, Dad/son role play (obviously), and the more authentically verbal he is, the better I like it. It doesn't have to be much. When I'm feeling overstimulated by his 9"+ dick in my cunt in the missionary position, my favorite dom top just says "Shhhh, take dick" a few times until I relax and feel him popping up into my sigmoid where he prefers to deep fuck his seed. I've only been getting fucked since March of 2019 and I'm still evolving. Fetishes made it possible.

Guys, there's a Colt Studio Group watermark in the (I believe morphed) image. Two minutes of searching finds that he's Mike Matters.

Older guys rule. A 74 year old daddy fucked, bred, and owned me so hard that I'm still feeling it weeks later. Age doesn't matter, but experience, intensity, and connection do. As much as it might suck for him, I'm seeing the upside in less enlightened guys ruling him out. I'll lay my cunt open for him to breed anytime.

Ha! I like the way your mind works.

Likely flagged for special attention and then marked for a replacement kit to be sent out for a better sample. 😉

It's true that different positions limit how much the fertile receiver can move their bodies, but it is almost always possible to add to the breeders pleasure somehow. Eye contact showing him what he's doing to your cunt, mind and body, using your cunt muscles to milk him root to knob, pushing your cunt back into his root, small whimpers as your body quakes with each fuck slap, etc. It's not just about the tops pleasure, its also about their joint mission - ensuring that the maximum virile seed is lodged deep in the receiving fertile cunt. Regardless of how physically controlled and immobile you might be, there are buttons that can be pushed to show your commitment to his pleasure and reason for living.

My training method is being used by a 9"+ dom top who is always knock-knock-knocking on that door. He fucks missionary to get most penetration and control of my cunt. That also means for him to be root deep in my cunt he has to fuck open that second hole (sigmoid flexure). He seems to really enjoy that process of overwhelming my cunt and hearing me react as he grinds into those inner muscles until he defeats them. That's when my whole body groans onto his cock as I'm deep-cunted with his knob and shaft resting inside my womb ready for breeding and impregnation. Once he's up in that juicy tight space is when I start taking his deepest fucking action and when he starts pumping his many, many loads into me. The added bonus being his seed stays up in me a long time for max absorption.

Thanks for articulating two things that have been bothering me. First, as a bottom I'm fucking the man, not a cock and the man is fucking me, not a hole. Sex involves the biggest sex organ, the brain, and the mind. In my mind it's the whole man that penetrates me, the whole man that fucks me, and the whole man that breeds me. While I get the convenience of shorthand like BBC and BWC, it objectifies and reduces a whole person to just his cock and, in the case of BBC, is arguably a product of the racist framing of black male sexuality as dangerous, savage, and bestial. Second, those who are sizest are playing the wrong side of the numbers game. I found some population cock size datasets (calcSD) and its a real reset on any preconceptions you might have on cock size. If you're in a room with 1000 other men and your dick is 8" then there is only one dick in the group bigger than yours. If 8" is the minimum size a specific bottom would take, 2 out of 1000 is crappy odds. I've always thought of my dick as average, but when I plugged its length in I discovered that only 122 men in the 1000 would have longer dicks. But for me it just means I have a good handle for tops to pull me onto them and control me. Some of the best fucks I've had have been from top men who have average dicks, but are superior in how they use their whole body and mind to take your body and mind where they want you to be. Finding those men is a numbers game too, and limiting the pool by cock size, age, ethnicity etc. just works against you. The last incredible man I found was 7 inches shorter than me, 18 years older, and a total boss daddy.

Commercial porn doesn't hit the spot with me most of the time. There are a few exceptions that line up with my specific kinks, but mostly it doesn't meet the "it feels authentic" bar for me. It's not to do with the quality of the porn or the men in it, instead it's to do with the psychological component of sex and how it plays out between the men. I learned that watching regular guys with a real world connection when they play and fuck and breed gets straight into my mind and nipples and cunt. I hesitate to call it "amateur porn", as that's now become a commercial porn genre, but it's the simplicity of horny guys who record themselves fucking unselfconsciously for their own pleasure and share it. It's made me want connected and intense fucking and breeding in my cunt, not a performance.