As a kid I would see a man wearing boots and getting hard wanting to be down at their feet worshipping their boots (at the time, didn't think of anything else since I recall it happening as early as 4-5 years old). It wasn't until my first experience with porno magazines at age 14 (70s "erotic movie review" featuring full bareback penetration--hetero though) that I started fantasizing about being in the position where the women were: getting my hole filled with an alpha cock on one end, orally worshipping another man dick, and being filled with semen. At 16, I first put a cock in my mouth and it felt natural to be doing that, like I was meant to all along--but when the guy tried sucking me I wasn't really enjoying it. At 17, I first swallowed someone else's cum & got fucked for the first time (bareback, btw). At 18, I was letting my bf at the time cum in me. All of it felt so natural & right, it was what I needed, but I tried to suppress it due to a relationship and being afraid of catching anything. It wasn't until 8 years ago or so that I began to embrace it and let go and just be a faggot: be proud of servicing cock, swallowing cum, getting fucked, and getting bred by any alpha who wants to use a faggot.