I'm in the middle of working through this and it's interesting.
My arousal is so tied to wanting to be treated like an object, however the moment i don't feel respected as a human something clicks and i turn off again.
This initially makes me (desperately) look to "give my power away", especially when im 'in the mood'. Feeling like i want to be treated like trash, used, etc. When it happens, it's a lot harder than i thought it would be and it makes it difficult to enjoy it.
So i appreciate the posting of the bottom & top actual being on equal footing. Where this play is a powerdynamic and trust and consent are important. Learning from it is a step to actually put it in practice and becoming a better person to myself too.