Only Interested In Bareback/breeding When Really Horny, And That Frustrates Me

[Guest]

I have always had apprehensions about being bred when I'm not at my horniest. When I am horned up however, I'm a fucking cum whore and I've even been bred by a couple of guys. It's always after the fact that I kind of regret having unsafe sex (despite how fucking hot it was). I've had a few HIV scares but nothing that came up positive, which is great...but I want to stop this fear of being bred because I believe there are actually more bareback guys who are into my other sexual interests (I'm very much into sounding, cock rings, ball stretching, pain play, BDSM, etc.) than those who only practice safe sex. I find vanilla sex to be boring even though I don't quite show it (I'm pretty introverted).

 

To be honest, I have been one of those younger guys who have rejected older daddy-types who have messaged me on hook-up sites like A4A when I see an HIV-positive status or no mention of status at all. I was always interested in the back of my mind but always had the fear of being infected. As much as I want to be liberated from this fear, be pozzed, and become an uninhibited cum pig (sounds really hot now that I think about it), I honestly don't think I can afford HIV treatment. PrEP is also something that may be very expensive as well to regularly take, but damned if I'm not impressed at the stories of guys taking 200+ poz loads without getting infected on it.

 

Getting acclimated to breeding culture is something that I've always wanted to do, but I feel like it will take a couple of years (finances to support a possible HIV infection, me wanting to become tough and more masculine) for me to really connect. Also, not sure if this important, but I am Asian and have never met a poz Asian guy. I'm the only Asian I know who's turned on by breeding and swallowing raw loads, it seems.

 

I'm actually curious about the ways anyone here has dealt with this "only want to be bred when horny" issue. There's always the minute after cumming during sex where I have an immediate regret of what occurred beforehand and I've always had the "WTF did I just cum to" when jacking off to bareback porn. My goal is to get rid of this post-cum guilt and be 100% uninhibited.

[cman54]

Hi Buddy, I can relate to your feelings very much. Obviously you are turned on by bareback sex and the risk that comes with it. I truly feel we need to not worry about everything all the time. I feel we need to let go and just enjoy the moment and let it happen. Don`t be so worried about getting poz. Many people get pozzed everyday. It is not the end of the world for sure .I think it can be something that would even be a relief if you are worried about it. And remember any guy that is poz undetectable is most likely safer then a neg. guy. The really are not many guys out there who are poz and viral. Even if a poz viral guy does cum in you, still there are no guarantee that you will convert. I say get out there and get laid and don`t worry about it!!! 

[einathens]

doubt means don't, I always say.

 

sounds to me like your mind isn't ready for what your body wants.

 

take your time, don't stress about it, and don't let anybody talk you into playing raw if you don't want to.

 

you might also need a 'Netflix and chill' buddy, someone you could talk to about it, and proceed slowly in a mutually affectionate, pressure-free way.

then eventually, you might work your way up to taking an OraQuick together, and seeing if that makes you more comfortable. maybe you top him bare, and that might make you ready to receive. or not.

[hungry_hole]

  On 5/15/2016 at 11:27 AM, deadalous said:

I'm actually curious about the ways anyone here has dealt with this "only want to be bred when horny" issue. There's always the minute after cumming during sex where I have an immediate regret of what occurred beforehand and I've always had the "WTF did I just cum to" when jacking off to bareback porn. My goal is to get rid of this post-cum guilt and be 100% uninhibited.

 

What you describe, "only want to be bred when horny" and "WTF did I just cum to" is pretty normal behavior. Most men go into a bit of a very low energy period for a few seconds after orgasm, but it doesn't have to be a downer. That you can work on it.

[Guest]

I'm in full agreement with hungry_hole and einathens, don't push it and don't let it stress you out so much thinking so much about it, it's a natural response to this subject and pretty much all of us have gone through it at one time or the other. For myself, have gone through the process several times dealing with each step in my life, beginning with the first time I was taken and BB'd by another guy in my 20's. Afterwards, it took me several months to come to terms with what had happened and why I had let him talk me into it, as I had always been a straight guy and had never considered doing anything like that before with another guy. But then one day, I came to realize I did really deep down enjoy it and then began going out and doing more of it and quickly became addicted to it, so then came to realize and consider myself as bi for a long time. Each time I would BB with someone I didn't know, I went through the whole thing again, with regret and apprehensions about what had just taken place and what the possibilities and outcome could be. The same thing happened and the same feelings of regret surfaced each time I would go out and have encounters with guys, It took me many years to realize that I preferred sex with men over females much more and that was the moment that I knew and admitted to myself that I really was gay and was much happier with myself being a homosexual.

The same happened for me coming to dealing with full time and open barebacking and breeding, a lot of apprehensions and a lot of regrets for sometime afterwards, until one day it just hit me and came to realize that it was what I liked and desired the most taking guys raw loads and it wasn't worth all the worry and regrets. At that point, I just decided to go with "no questions asked" and began taking any and all guys that wanted it BB and letting things go as they may.

As for you there, don't allow anyone to talk you into anything prematurely that you feel uncomfortable with, it takes time and at your own pace as to what you will become comfortable with, but eventually am betting as with pretty much everything, the more you think about it and the more you get into it, the more you will begin to sort it all out and will become comfortable with it.

[topstud127]

Get on Prep, get in to your doctor on a regular basis, and let yourself try new things to see what you really feel without the health scare.

 

Worrying about HIV and the next test was always over my head pre-Prep

[BBPaulZA]

Prep will help you. Prep is your friend.

[Guest]

you said you think PrEP wll be too expensive for you, but you need to look into it more - I have a buddy without insurance and doesn't make a lot of money.  He got it through his county.  Yes, you might need to answer some private questions about sex practices.  I think they want to make sure you are actually "high risk" so be honest.  You are already on this site and maybe others seeking out raw sex and have done it a few times, so just be honest.  I've seen other posts here about some facebook group for inexpensive sources for PrEP.  You want it raw, and you're going to end up doing it more, so check the sources and try to get it for free or not too expensive.

[nyfreak]

I get what you mean. I remember I actually met up with a guy and he blew his load in me. I freaked out so much and thought i had got pozzed. Turned out all was good,but for me I learned it was just a slight fantasy that would never want to be reality. I'm still more interested in barebacking but it'll have to be with someone I can trust.

Edited June 4, 2016 by nyfreak

[Tightass74]

At times I am hopeful to get married and have kids, but nobody wants me, so I often just want to be a pozzed up cum dump for the rest of my miserable life.

[seaguy]

  On 6/4/2016 at 6:19 PM, Tightass74 said:

At times I am hopeful to get married and have kids, but nobody wants me, so I often just want to be a pozzed up cum dump for the rest of my miserable life.

I will be honest maybe nobody wants you because you seem to have some issues with depression or something because you can get married and have kids being gay via adoption or surrogacy.  But referring to your life as miserable certainly might scare off some guys so maybe getting yourself in a better place mentally would help your situation?  Often people who are trying too hard to find a boyfriend unknowingly put out a vibe that is off putting to other guys who would otherwise be interested.

[Slut4anyload]

I think the answer is "don't cum". Get yourself in chastity if that would help.

[Guest BBBoyfromTN]

You sound like me three years ago, and you're right about the guys into certain kinks and fetishes all being bare-backers. I couldn't afford Prep and had no insurance, but couldn't fight my impulses. I wished I could have found a partner and controlled those impulses because by the time I had insurance I was already poz. My horniness ruled my world and that's when I wanted bare and worse still I was horny all the time. I'd even bring condoms, knowing I should, but lying and saying I had none and going bare. I have a fuck bud who has a fiancé, gets the same way with guys, let's them fuck him bare but insists they pull out to cum thinking that's safe or ok. I wish I had advice to fight the urge, but I couldn't find the willpower to resist.

[tallslenderguy]

  On 5/15/2016 at 11:27 AM, deadalous said:

I have always had apprehensions about being bred when I'm not at my horniest. When I am horned up however, I'm a fucking cum whore and I've even been bred by a couple of guys. It's always after the fact that I kind of regret having unsafe sex (despite how fucking hot it was). I've had a few HIV scares but nothing that came up positive, which is great...but I want to stop this fear of being bred because I believe there are actually more bareback guys who are into my other sexual interests (I'm very much into sounding, cock rings, ball stretching, pain play, BDSM, etc.) than those who only practice safe sex. I find vanilla sex to be boring even though I don't quite show it (I'm pretty introverted).

 

 

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" I'm a fucking cum whore and I've even been bred by a couple of guys." I smiled at this, I've prolly been bred by close to 2k guys, so I find myself asking: "what constitutes a "cum whore"?  And if I read you right, that is the issue, i.e.., you crave cum and being bred?  For me, being "frustrated" because you only want to bareback/get bred when you're really horny, would be like being frustrated that you only want food when you're really hungry.  A lot of the food we eat is killing us (trust me on this one, I'm in healthcare and 85% of my dying patients have disease that is totally preventable and caused by diet). So, there really is a parallel that can be drawn, albeit not a perfect one. E.g., you could only engage in bb sex with guys who are 'certified' HIV neg. You could do the monogamy thing. Neither is a panacea, but would greatly reduce your risk.

But I'm guessing that "cum whore" and monogamy do not align in your disposition? If you are anything like me, when I get horny I am like a bitch in heat and will take any and all cummers.  The in between arguing with and fighting your self is not a solution in my opinion. I would seriously look at how to embrace your inner slut (if it is indeed there). Prep is a very real solution if you fear being pozzed, I wouldn't stop till I found a way to get it. 

[ChaserBtm84]

Can't help ya here. The first time I bottomed and got the proverbial cherry popped the guy I was with didn't have a condom. Neither did I. So we said "fuck it" and went at it for hours. Got bred and fed and it was so Damn HOT that I never looked back! The only time I ever used condoms in my life (don't ask me why I'd take em from the bars and clubs and anywhere they were free when I knew I want going to use em. I guess I just love free stuff! Lol) were to occasionally masturbate with. I still do sometimes too. It sometimes makes things feel more realistic or its an easier clean up in a quick situation. But yeah...I love dick way too much to keep it held captive in a latex prison!