Conflicted But So Hungry For It

[Guest sodamncurious]

OK, ok, so you've probably heard this a million times before and I'm sure I'll get some nasty responses from some of you who have no time for it, but your responses will be appreciated regardless.

After a couple of years of watching BB porn and getting fucked BB by my man, I want to get gangbanged by a group of guys BB.  I just want to get seeded.  I'm on PrEP and have been for a couple of years.  I'm in a serodiscordant relationship and I've only taken a couple of loads from him thus far.

 

Those of you on PrEP - how do you cope with the unknown?  How many loads have you taken while on PrEP and remained negative?

 

I just wanna get loaded.  I don't want to convert, but I don't want the barrier there.

Los Angeles has lots of local sex parties and group sex nights, but I'm just not sure, yet I am sure. I  know I sound like total idiot, but the confliction is driving me nuts.  I want nuts in my ass....

 

Any advice would be very much appreciated from you guys.  

 

Thanks in anticipation of your responses.

[drscorpio]

I've taken lots and lots of loads. Still negative. Just do it. You know you want to.

[FuckPup86]

Infection on PrEP generally requires you to either have very little Truvada in your system due to missed doses, or the top to be shooting lots of detectable poz cum in your hole that is resistant to the two drugs in Truvada (where the tops infection is not under controlled by a different cocktail.)

I've been gangbanged anonymously at bath houses, bottomed in several orgies where a few or more of the tops were poz not on meds (sometimes the only bottom, sometimes the only negative guy there.) My old fuckbuddy converted, was toxic as can be, and bred my hole several times "to see if it works." A different poz fuckbuddy accidentally slightly ripped his cock ring while fucking me bare and wound up bleeding in me before he shot his load in me. since 2013 I've taken about 20 unmedicated / HVL poz loads.

Granted I'm not into blood/scat; nor do I intentionally plan on getting pozzed up personally; I just love piggy bb sex.

I tested negative for HIV again yesterday. I know the risks involved, don't suggest anyone try it- it's just my experience.

On the other hand, I've tested poz for ghonno, clap,or syph at least 2x a year for the last 3 years. I just got treated in February for all three and may have them all again.

[Guest]

very hot ass - I wish I was there to help with this "problem" and breed you in a group   I've been on Prep for 2 years now - I love group play, and I'm a vers/top, trying to be more totally vers.  I've been fucked a decent number of times in group settings but honestly not bred much at all.  Not on purpose, but kinda like longer play sessions -lots of sucking and fucking and switching things around, but not as much cumming.  I'd say pretty much anyone on PrEP is trying NOT to convert even though they crave raw sex and breeding.  Plenty of bug chasers on this site, but plenty more that just want uninhibited raw sex without converting. 

 

Start out by taking your man's load more often, and if he's on board with your need for getting bred, ask him to arrange a little group breeding by anyone he chooses. He just better be prepared for the cumdump he helps create lol.   I see you're brand new on here.  read the posts - you'll see lots of PrEP whores taking load after load of anon cum and staying neg.  This site will make you horny as fuck constantly and desperate for getting bred if you weren't already     hope we hear some hot encounters soon!!

[cman54]

I agree this site will make you very horny to get many loads in the sweet looking ass of yours! Your ass is awesome looking and needs to get fucked properly. I am not on anything and I will be taking bare anon loads. Don`t worry about it , you went on Prep to have fun, Get out there and have that fun.

[Guest deleted1107]

I look at it this way... "desire" to do something indicates that your body telling you your missing the thing that makes you ... well "you". Don't feel conflicted nor take how you feel limit your life. Life is for living however you chose to make it happen. Hope that helps.

[atlfukbud]

I would suggest starting slow -- pals, friends of friends, fuck buddies and their contacts -- you'll know when it's right branch out (think desire vs. compulsion)

[Guest sodamncurious]

Thanks for your responses - it's good to have a place to talk about stuff.  I definitely agree with "desire vs. compulsion" - compulsive behavior has been a shadow in my life and I don't want to bring it into this arena.

I think maybe having my man breed me more regularly - then finding some of his buddies to add to the mix would be a great start.

[cman54]

Glad you have made a decision. Sometimes that can be so very hard to do. You need to have fun and enjoy life. With that nice ass you have enjoy it and I sure there are a lot of guys out there that would very much enjoy it too!! Doing it raw is the only way to go.

[ObligingBottom]

OK, ok, so you've probably heard this a million times before...

You're not the only one with this sort of inner conflict. Me too. Totally understand where you are coming from.

[Guest dale3]

Same desire and conflict as you. Have been fucked bare on several occasions but no one has ever cum inside me. I do want to feel someone shoot in me and be seeded.

[chubbybear]

Struggled with the same desires and conflicts myself. Took my first raw cock and load in a moment of poor judgement fueled by alcohol and sexual lust. At first I went through the self inflicted guilt of "holy shit, what were you thinking? I can never do that again" but eventually the desire to have hot raw ass loading sex was too strong and I gave in to temptation more often than not. Fast forward several years and I became a raw only bottom cumdump. Fast forward a few more years to the present and I recently started seeking/chasing for raw ass loading sex with POZ tops and I'm NOT on PrEP.  Not advocating that others follow the same path as it's a personal choice that eventually all barebackers face at some point and have to do what they feel is the best option for them and they are comfortable with. 

 

According to the CDC, PrEP reduces the risk of transmission by 92% (http://www.cdc.gov/hiv/risk/prep/). If you're comfortable with that 8% risk than have fun and take all the loads up your ass that you want.  If not, then stay on the conservative side and limit your exposure by being selective about who can have the pleasure of cumming in your ass.

[Mjai4854]

I am like you I'm neg bottom been tested so good I haven't had sex with a man in about 5 years so I'm needing it bad being a bottom I love bb and have done it awesome but now I enjoy reading all the stories in this site and your right gets Hornier and Hornier every time but I do to want to just get on prep and have my fun while it last be the only bottom in a party taking loads by anyone and not knowing the status until they tell me they have shot a hot load in me and wel just keep going I'm in Austin Texas here so any one wants to help this bottom contact me

[backpackguy]

Neg vers/bottom on PrEP (2 1/2 yrs). Been taking BB cock/loads for several years. Absolutely LUV taking it raw - feeling my Tops cock pulse and fill my hungry hole with his spunk...especially when it leaks from my freshly fucked hole and runs down my leg. Get on PrEP - it has lessened my anxiety. Luv sex clubs/parties and bath houses.

;)

[Guest]

I'm on PrEP ... taken loads from 20+ guys since going on (mostly anon).  Still neg.  Go for it!