I had always play safe until my ex boyfriend, the beautiful Latino muscle man of my dream convinced me to let him fuck me bare. I loved him so much and wanted him to breed me but some how he would never cum inside me. Two years later he finally told me he could not committ and I realized why he would never cum inside me. After I recovered from the heart breaking break-up, I started to have hook ups, but always safe with strangers. Last fall a top cum inside my mouth and freaked me out. I took PEP as he refused to get tested. The side effect of PEP was horrible for half month. After I finished PEP I decided to be on PreP. At first I still was very careful. About 3 month later I started to go on BBRT and found out there are so many hot undetectable guys. So I started to BB with neg or undetectable tops but insisted they don't cum inside me. I also get lead into party so most of the tops can't cum anyway. Now I only enjoy BB fucking but I still prefer to remain neg. although they say PreP is 99% effective, I am still scared so even though the thought of getting bred by strong tops turns me on, I was too scared to get bred. Until this weekend, after a long draught, a muscle daddy invited me over. We started the dad son taboo play, he kept talking nasty things to me, got me so into the role, and I begged him to breed me. My first time getting daddy cum. I did not feel the cum like people say, but I did feel his cock pulsating, swelling inside me. That felt wonderful, the feeling of being wanted, being owned, being loved. He turned me on so much and I kept kissing his body, face, armpits while he was resting and chatting with me. Half hour later, he asked me if I want more. I told him it's daddy's decision. And he bred me again. I felt so excited that day. But now I have mixed feeling. On one hand I really love the feeling of being bred by some one I like, but on the other hand I don't know if PreP can really protect me 100%. Also I am worried about getting STDs as I BB with more and more guys. I am debating whether I should stop BB....