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hello pupcakes, it was the same for me. Two years ago I went on PrEP and my sexdrive got very low. I expected it to blast when I could finally take all loads. It took some time for me to adjust to the new situation. I thought of it as some sort of self protection. I had learned for years only to trust condoms. So I took some small steps like letting me fuck bare but pulling the top out before he came. And with every test that was negative I got more and more confidential about the PrEP. Today I take anonymous loads in bathhouses - full programm. Even with Gonorrhoe and Chlamydia. ? But it took some time to learn to trust. Don't force yourself. Your sex drive will come back. So it is not always the missing thrill of a potential infection that lowers the mojo. BTW: If that would be the reason, then your sex drive would also lower after reaching that "goal".

Don't do it. Go on PrEP. I know your state of mind all too well. But it is really not as glamorous as you might think. I was lucky to get on PrEP. When we wanted to get my BF on PrEP too the initial test brought a positive test result. Thats now 1,5 years. Believe me, it's not about fucking all the time! And consider you can play the game of gangbangs or anything you want on PrEP, but still it will remain a game - like sex should always be.

Thanks for the advice!

Hey, I read this post with big interest! I also have some troubles to get my ass open. I totally love being fucked but I seem to be tight. After the first pain it is of course a pleasure, but afterwards my hole is sore and it seems to have little wounds. Do you have any tips how to avoid this and how to treat this little injuries that my hole recovers faster? Would be thankful for any advice.

Hello guys, might sound like an odd question: But has anyone experiences in health troubles related with ass to mouth sucking? I was always wondering if this could cause any health trouble, e. g. like getting bacterias of the ass to your mouth? I know that it's bad for women to take a dick into their pussy after having it in their ass because these bacterias don't belong there and they get sick of it. I wondered if there could be a similar mechanism doing it ass to mouth. That's why I always avoided it, especially when fucking without condoms. Any thoughts on this topic?

Hey guys, I really love the thoughtful conversations here - and I thought, I'd just add a - let's say - european perspective here when it comes to the point of the costs of a PrEP. Therefore I have to say that in my country isn't covered by the mandatory health insurance system. But I think it should be, like it is in France. Because in my perspective the system of insurance isn't about being "a loss" or a "profitable" customer - it is about covering risks by sharing them in a community. And being gay unfortunately rises the risk of getting HIV-positive. Being gay isn't something you choose to be. So I think it is only fair if the communitiy helps to cover that disadvantage. And besides that - imagine when HIV would be a major problem of heterosexual sex - do you think we would have that discussion? They'd spread the pills for free! ;O) Just my two (Euro-)Cents. ;O) Best wishes

I think there are plenty of guys here who stepped through exactly the same phases like you do. Being horny you're a cumslut, after climaxing you want to be a saint. In this situation I think the PrEP is a classic compromise. And if you think you can't afford it - how about trying to get some generic medicine like Tenvir EM? It's way cheapter then truvada. But I highly recommand to see a doctor for this as this medicine has side effects and can harm you if you are positive when you start taking it.

When I started PrEP it was same for me. Before taking the pill I was going crazy by the thought of bb sex. And when I took it, the desire somehow disappeared. Even the desire for sex at all. But I kept on taking the pill because I knew the desire was there somewhere deep inside of me. And now I more and more take a dick raw. But I still hesitate on relying on the pill completely. The one reported case of the guy who converted on PrEP was a boost for my fears. But when the situation feels right I am ok with skipping the condom - even though I still feel bad after the sex. I know, human mind keen be stupid. So for me taking the PrEP wasn't a game changer in terms of black and white, it is more like a slow process. So maybe it takes just some time to adjust to this new field of sexuality. Some more personal thoughts if you think you might be a chaser: I would highly recommand you to take the pill. My bf got testet positive when he was applying for the PrEP. And it really isn't fun to deal with it. I also had fantasies about the great liberation of a POZ test result, but in real life it means waiting at the doctor, discussing viral levels and side effects of medications, it means thoughts about your family and coworkers and who should know it. It means rejection of others and sometimes self segregation. It is tough. If you can avoid getting POZ you should. But these are only my thoughts of this topic - with a loved one being positive.

Thank you so much for your thoughts. It's really helpful to talk to others. Really like the approach of the community here. And I think talking to a therapist is a good idea. We already had very good support from a local HIV support centre. They offer counseling for couples too. I think we will start with this... So thank you very much.

Hello buddies, four weeks ago my bf got a positive HIV test result. He was taking the initial test for starting the PrEP. I am on PrEP and we wanted him to get it too. The test was a huge shock for both of us because I am sure that he always had safe sex - he was even more precautious then me. As his VL was very low the doctor assumed that either he is a good controller or the infection had occured recently. As mentioned this test was a big shock and somehow I can't really believe it till now. I also took two test (even for RNA) because we had bb sex since I had started the PrEP. But I am negative. I won't tell you how hard the following days were, but I think we found our way through this rough phase. He is going to work again and now we are waiting for the second tests to see how the infection develops. Besides of asking you guys in which way I can support him without clucking him I realized that my sex drive has driven down to nearly zero. So has his. Even though I'm on PrEP he doesn't want to have Sex at the moment, not with me, not with others. (This is heartbreaking because I know how much he loves cocks.) I wanted to take to PrEP to have uninhibited BB sex. But now, everytime some guy asks me for an encounter, I feel blocked. In a crazy way his infection feels like a punishment for me for wanting too much. A huge point is that he wasn't chasing or such thing, I believe him that he always used protection. So he wasn't a tempted barebacking candidate. That's why I think this is so unfair he got it. So how shall I enjoy (BB) sex when he got infected by not even barebacking? I know it sounds crazy but talking a crazy idea out of the mind usually doesn't bring back the boner. Maybe I am moving too fast and when things settle down a little the drive will return, but it's been four weeks now and I wonder how long this will take? I would really appriciate if someone shares his thoughts on this... BTW: We are a couple for nine years now, living together and loving each other.

I live in Germany. So medical care is very good. That's why I might be also hesitating in joining facebook - you know the Germans like to be naked in the Sauna, but not on the internet. But thank you for your answers - I'll think about joining facebook.

Hello guys, I am living in a country where Truvada as PrEP is not available. But this january I managed to get the Truvada generic Tenvir EM which I bought in India. (It is not even possible to ship Tenvir EM from alldaychemist to my country, customs will block the delivery) I found a physician for HIV who agreed to accompany me, so we did the initial tests and when they came out fine I started to take the pills. After six days when I was nearby I asked him to make a check of the blood levels for tenofovir. Three weeks later the results came back and they were negative. It said there was no tenofovir in my blood. I have to say it was a little shock. My doctor suggested to take a second test and to check one of the pills. And now they both came back and were both totally fine. I had a high level of tenofovir in my blood (I continued the medication meanwhile) and the pill contained everything it should. So now I am very insecure about how to deal with this situation. It is likely that the first test results were false (maybe it was still to early to find something in the blood, maybe the blood sample took to long until it was checked, maybe the laboratory did a mistake). It may also be likely that I got a fake medication in India (even though both times I took the test were from the same package and I couldn't find a single report about a fake HIV medication in India). So now it is 2:1, I keep on taking the pills but I can't really trust in the efficacy of my PrEP. And now since the first infection under PrEP showed up my doubts got worse. But somehow I don't want to go back to be a full time condom follower - it feels like living my life behind a wall by denying my sexual wishes. That was something I strongly hoped to leave behind me by taking the PrEP. Wrapped sex has lost its magic for me, but I can't really let go of my fear. So now when I'm horny I don't want so step back, but I can't really take the step forward. Does anyone know this kind of feeling of being stucked? And how did you deal with it?

hey guys, I just wanted to let you know that for now I am waiting for the test results if the tenofir will be available in my blood. Taking the blue pill for nearly 12 days now. And until I get these results I keep it condom safe. Unfortunately I takes nearly two weeks to check the blood levels. But I just blew a stranger in a steam sauna of a gym. And I realized that I acted more fearless which was absolutely great. So I can't wait to get the test results. If you want I'll keep you informed.

Hey guys, I just wanted to let you know that I started a PrEP with the generika Tenvir EM this week. At this point I don't know where this will lead me because I just realized that now I have raw sex as a safe option, the urge to do it, disappears. (Another mood shift maybe. The human mind stays a big miracle. Or maybe it's just only my mind ) But thank you once more for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I am very glad I discovered this forum. This was truly the most helpful source in the www for me.

I would give it a second thought. Because it's a tough choice you're dealing with. Are there possibilites to reduce the risk? Is PrEP available in your country? And if not: Are you prepared to maybe become HIV positive? How is that in Brazil? Are there meds available? I know that the urge for being a cumdump can be a huge one. But for a possibly life changing decision like this you should think with your head and not with your dick.