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I wonder if the pandemic is driving people to flake more than usual? Since the virus has been a thing, I've only met three new guys for sex (and one of them became a regular). All of the sex I've been having is with guys I already know. Even though I'm theoretically open to the idea of meeting up with someone new for sex, I'm not really that committed to the idea. But that being said, I don't flake. I think some of these men really do want to fuck but are feeling afraid and/or guilty about hooking up in a pandemic. My ex told me that he's scared to meet new guys because according to him, "if you are willing to meet strangers for sex nowadays, you clearly don't give a damn about your health or the health of others." Interesting logic 🤔...

Being a man should mean taking a pounding from a guy, taking his load and leaving his spunk inside until it's fully absorbed into your body. A lot of so-called men can't or are afraid to do that.😂

I envy the heteros because they tend not to lead with their sexual demands first, nor is their identity so seemingly intertwined with what they do in the bedroom like us gays. We will reject (or pursue) each other based on whatever box was ticked on a profile. I sometimes wonder how many times I've missed out on having deeper, longer term connections with men because of this. Sadly, I have to play by these rules because everyone else is. What do we gain by using these labels? Maybe time, and certainly frustration, as soon as we figure out that the guy we are really attracted to has ticked the "wrong" goddamn box on his profile. Online, I just say I'm bottom, mainly because I know I won't be bothered as much. I think most would say the label I should use is versatile. But I don't like that either because it suggests that I'm willing to assume the role of top or bottom with anyone at the drop of a hat. For me, it's about chemistry. Sometimes I want to top; sometimes I want to bottom; other times I want to flip-flop😈. If made to choose, I would choose bottoming. I get daggers from other bottoms that I contact if my profile says I'm a bottom; if I say I'm versatile, bottoms may think I'm just a bottom in denial. Tops are suspicious too. So, to make everyone's life easier, I'll just say I'm a botton. No shame in that I guess. 😂

I specifically asked her why there is no plan to vaccinate 18-29 year olds. After all, they may be the group least likely to adhere to Covid safety guidelines and are most likely to be superspreaders. She (based here in Europe) doubled down on her statement about not vaccinating young people. So there you have it. Just because she doesn't believe in mass vaccination doesn't mean her credentials or point of view are invalid. I'm not ready to write off or punish those who are hesitant about the vaccine. I feel we should all have agency over our own bodies. If you believe in the vaccine, get it. Let's hope that the vaccination protects everyone to the extent they've been told it does. I'm trying to figure out how this is going to work on a global scale with people flying to all corners of the globe. Different vaccine makers, varying degrees of the effectiveness of vaccines, and no data on how long the vaccines are effective. We're also putting a lot of faith in actors who stand to make huge profits from our collective fear. Maybe I've missed it, but I haven't seen any of them say you can't contract the virus or transmit it once you're vaccinated. All I'm hearing is that if vaccinated, there is a good chance you won't get very sick, which if true, is already very positive. However, I'm afraid we're going to be masked up and largely terrified of each other for the foreseeable future, which is sad.

Because there's no data available on how long one is immune after taking the vaccine, I'm not sure how to calculate risks post-vaccination. Are we safe for 6 months? A year? It seems like those romps in the darkroom at Bull in Berlin where I'm taking raw dick all night long may be over. I'll risk an occasional STI but not sure I want that STI-Corona combo. But then again, it's likely that proof of a negative test or vaccination is going to be required to travel in a year's time. If the scientists determine that vaccinated people can still be carriers, darkrooms are not going to open again until we have something close to herd immunity.

One of my pandemic tops just stopped by to put a little something in my Christmas stocking. I have been a good boy this year so imagine my joy at being fed his long, thick, veiny cock that I slurped vigorously, all while preparing my hole with my prostrate massager. He then mounted me doggy. My cunt was hot and slick and hungry for cock. We were both quiet for the first few minutes of the fuck as if we were meditating - me, thankful for his dick; perhaps he was grateful to have his cock buried in a hole on Christmas day. Eventually, he pumped me full of cum, showered and left quietly. Afterwards, I texted him merry christmas. Another of my pandemic tops just texted me. I told him what I had done so let's see if he shows up to mark his territory. 🐕🍆

I was on an off-the-record teleconference with a well-respected epidemiologist here a week or so ago and when asked if she would take the vaccine, she mustered up a weak "maybe". Her rationale? Not enough data, incomplete data and too many unanswered questions. She is ok with people in high risk groups taking it (if they want to) but is staunchly against young, healthy people taking it because its' long-term effects are impossible to know at this stage. Even when the UK announced they were moving ahead with vaccinating the public, they threw in there that the vaccine's impact on fertility had not been tested. That struck me. I'm not looking to procreate of course, but some people are. I totally understand and can relate to those who say let's all get this vaccine so life can return to normal. That being said, the decision to vaccinate (or not) is a personal one. I believe in vaccines (even had the Prevnar 13 one in August at the urging of my HIV doctor as it's been proven to reduce the likelihood of getting pneumonia). However, I'm wary of what could be increasing social pressure to get the new vaccine or being labeled an anti-vaxxer. Having worked in comms in big multinational corporations, I'm aware of how much time is put into disseminating the "talking points". So far, the media outlets are simply regurgitating what the vaccine makers have put out there because there hasn't been time yet for third parties to independently test and verify certain claims. Now that there's a new strain that's out here, it raises the question of whether the vaccine will be effective in combatting it too. So I'm watching and waiting for Pfizer and Moderna and AstraZeneca to go on record to say that they have studied this new strain and that their vaccines are indeed effective against it. Because I'm poz, I'll be heavily influenced by what my HIV doctor who has treated me for 10 years thinks. I'm not a conspiracy theorist, but I want to hear what others think, even if I don't agree. I'm working really hard to not be one of those people who takes a position on this issue (prematurely) and only considers information that supports my viewpoint to be valid. As the days and weeks go by, I will also be on the lookout regarding what is not being said because that is information too.

I have about 25 GB of porn on my hard drive. Usually when I found a clip that really pushed my buttons, I invested time in trying to figure out how to download it for "safekeeping". It seems like I need to go back to doing this again. I got burned when Tumblr sanitized everything. Now it's Pornhub and Xtube. These sites existed for years, peacefully, but now all of a sudden they're a blight on civilization? Get the fuck outta here with that. Where are we headed as a society? A global pandemic with mutating viruses, questionable vaccines, the politicization of practically everything including porn, economies diminished, maybe universal basic income, and perhaps the eventual loss of being able to freely travel the world because the airlines are being crippled. I never thought I'd live to see this. I hoped I never would.

I just remembered a guy freaking out on me in Berlin (of all places🤨) at Ajpnia sex club. Judging from his accent, he was American. He really wanted to fuck me. I said I only get fucked raw. He lectured me and continued cruising, but came back to me, asking me again. I flat out refused to be penetrated by a sheathed cock. He started dry humping on me and suddenly his cock slipped into my well lubed hole. He fucked to climax. He jumped up after the breeding, berating himself for what he'd done, saying that might be poz now. I actually felt a little sorry for him but I didn't force him to do anything.

One of my good friends sucked off a guy at a porn theatre in Italy years ago. After the guy came in him, he insisted that my friend take the money he was offering. My friend said no it's not necessary, and the guy threatened him. So he took it because he was actually kind of frightened.

I think it depends on how your ass is set up. Asses come in as many varieties as dicks! Some asses can handle a longer and thicker dick easier than a shorter and thinner one. How much you enjoy a fuck also depends on how turned on you are and how relaxed you are. I am regularly fucked by a top with a 9 incher. If I'm relaxed and poppered up, I can take it as hard as he can give it, but if I'm stressed or nervous or somehow not in the right headspace, my hole tightens up. The position you are getting fucked in is also very important. I can look at a dick and the height of the top and know pretty much instantly if I need to take it doggy, missionary or lying on my stomach to maximize my pleasure. I do know a top with a 5.5-6 incher and he really gives my prostate a workout. That can feel a little uncomfortable (like you have to pee), but I still like those cocks because I leak precum for hours after those type of fucks.

The biggest difference this year vs last year is that I've taken pretty much all of my loads since March from 4 different tops. Three of them check in regularly and ask me for ass. That's nice and it means that I don't have to bother with people flaking on me online. Each top has something "special" about him. One is well endowed (9 inches) and fucks like a stallion, one is above average in size and can shoot up to 5 loads in 30 minutes, while the third has an average sized cock but it shoots incredibly big loads. I committed a major faux pas recently by describing the third guy's cock as "cute". He was like WTF? In the future, I'll be sure to refer to it as "your super hard, throbbing, mushroom head cock". 😂

I met up last week with a married bisexual guy that I've been hooking up with since summer 2019. He has a beautiful 9 inch cock that I love to suck. He fucks my thrussy (throat pussy😂) until he's rock hard. When he pulls back, I know that it's time to assume the position. He mounts me and fucks me doggy until completion. I've learned to how to loosen my cunt the way he likes. I always take some CBD and inject lots of lube before he arrives so that I can take his cock on the first thrust like his wife probably does. We barely speak. It's basically hello and goodbye. He can have conversations with his wife when he gets home. I am here to provide a service. My dick gets rock hard whenever he texts me - or when I think about him. A few days ago, another married dude whose been a regular since June texted me saying he needs my hole. He has a nice 6 incher that's always hard as steel. When he arrives, he wants the room dark and a porno playing. I suck him for a few minutes and then lay flat on my stomach since I'm taller than he is. He fucks me about 15 minutes before shooting a huge load. His wife just gave birth so it's really important that he get into my ass at least once a week. I blew him off a couple of weeks ago. That was a mistake. When he finally did get in my ass, he shot the most sperm I've ever seen anyone shoot. I mean, cum was EVERYWHERE. The sheets had a huge wet spot, cum was between my legs (!), cum was between my butt cheeks and cum was in my hole. He apologized profusely. I decided then and there that I've got to be a more accommodating cumdump. 😆 So with these two visits, I've met my load goals for 2020. Because of the pandemic, I changed my strategy. I reduced the number of partners I had, but I took more loads from the best tops in my rotation. I realize how lucky I've been that I've got 4 tops in particular who have kept my cunt sloppy and loaded this year. I don't even have to ask. They just text me asking if I want it.

Yes I do like taking loads in darkrooms - but if it's in a bar, I will only go into the darkroom if I'm wearing a neck wallet or things are tucked in my knee-high socks. I make sure I don't smell any shit odors. Somebody might not have cleaned out well and I don't want a shitty dick entering my clean hole. I smell every dick first. The best for me is when someone has led me into the darkroom to fuck me. Because I caught Hep C six years ago, I no longer put myself in situations where a top can fuck me without at least wiping off his dick if it's been in another bottom's hole. I'm after loads not diseases. The way covid is going, it will probably be 2022 before I'm comfortable cruising in bars or saunas. 😪

I get the whole thing about having an attractive gay co-worker and fantasizing about the sex. When we are in heat, however, we tend to only think about the positives of hooking up. Before you do, run a set of scenarios in your head where things go left. The sex is bad. You catch or transmit a STD. He (or you) gets clingy. One of you makes it awkward at work by spreading gossip. What if he (or you) end up sleeping with someone you both know and that starts a squabble? Don't overlook the fact that colleagues are observing you - more than you think. They are watching how you interact. Suddenly your respective managers are told about it. HR gets involved. Geez. A famous comedian once said a fuck is just 50 pumps. Are you prepared to deal with a lot of unnecessary aggravation for 50 pumps? If so, fuck him. If not, fuck somebody else.

CBD suppository + lube injector = taking 10 inches 😄

I am wondering if the pandemic has got you feeling this way? Travel is complicated at the moment (fewer flights, travel restrictions to certain countries). Also, we're being told that if we meet people we can get sick. I do think when our options are restricted, suddenly things that wouldn't ordinarily appeal to us become the targets of our desire. I'd recommend you talk to a (gay) therapist. If there isn't one you can see face-to-face, there are online options. I think you need to sort out your feelings before you do something that you'll regret. And don't forget that we aren't always in control of how much sex we get. We are limited mostly by our geographic location, by how attractive we are to the partners we are seeking to attract, and people's willingness to actually meet up. You are actually very lucky to have what you have - a supportive parent, a boyfriend and a job. Don't take this for granted. The grass is not always greener on the other side.

We may have our own views on what a bottom, top or a twink looks like...but... let's not pretend that porn is not driving how the majority of gay men define these terms.

If you're shy, what I'm proposing may be hard to do, but nothing gets the point across better than dropping to your knees and sucking in a public area or as mentioned above, getting in the sling when a guy you like is nearby. If the top wants privacy, he will lead you to a cabin. If you are not giving off the right vibe, people may decide it's too much trouble to pursue you. The reason those older bottoms are getting the dick is because the tops have seen them around, know that they are experienced, cleaned out, lubed up and ready to bend over and take dick. I wish more young guys would get down and dirty instead of acting scared or walking the halls passing up 6s and 8s trying to get a 10. And one more thing: don't be chatty. It kills boners.

Society pretty much assumes that any guy over 40, unmarried, and without kids is gay. And if you're not talking to your friend about dating women after all these years, he knows you're gay. I do think you should consider coming out to him because it will liberate you as you are living a lie. (If you do, first do some googling for tips on how to do this since you are deeply closeted). I don't think you should come on to him. Just put that out of your mind. I don't think it's wise to risk losing a 50+ year friendship over sex. Find another cock to suck. If you're feeling lonely, make more friends, but don't try to turn platonic friendships into romantic ones.

Maybe that threesome/group play you're fantasizing about should be something you live out on your own without him...chances are that if he is vanilla, he is probably not going to find it fun to watch strangers (that he may find unattractive) fuck and breed you. Now if he comes to you with it, that's a different story. It sounds like from what little you've revealed here that you are sexually incompatible and it's gonna take a lot for you to stay together. I get the whole thing about wanting your cake and eating it too, but maybe you guys would be better off as friends. Or if you're really in love (and not simply in love with the idea of being in love), consider that you might just have to eat dinner at home and enjoy dessert somewhere else.

You don't say: 1) how long you've been in this relationship, 2) how long it's been open, or 3) if it's (usually) don't ask, don't tell. These are all important factors in my view. In open relationships (I've been in one), it doesn't take much to trigger feelings of jealousy and insecurity. And in your situation, this could be amplified because you are going to be apart for two months. I vote for controlling your horniness and focusing on your partner until you are alone. Threesomes are overrated anyway. Usually someone gets neglected and catches feelings. Trust your gut. If you think it will upset your boyfriend, do yourself and him a favor by not even bringing it up. Besides, covid-19 should already be giving you pause about hooking up with strangers. And finally, here's a link to an article from the Advocate about the do's and don'ts of open relationships. It's worth a read. [think before following links] https://www.advocate.com/sexy-beast/2018/4/17/17-dos-and-donts-open-relationships#media-gallery-media-6

I am mostly bottom but I still top. There is not much a bottom can do to make me cum if I don't want to. For me it's all about how the hole feels around my dick. If your hole is too tight or too loose, it won't work. Or if you're not 100% clean back there or you move too much. Many times, I will be getting close and the bottom does something that kills the oncoming orgasm. When I bottom, yes I want the load but I'd never ask for it. That just seems desperate to me. If the top is really enjoying himself, I trust that he will let the cum fly. It's also been my experience that a top doesn't circle back just to cum in me when he's had the chance before. The best part to me is when I sense that the top didn't really want to cum so soon and he's really trying to hold back by slowing down his thrusting, but in the end he just gives in because my ass was just outstanding. ✨

Poor guy. He really thinks he is going to score a hot guy who is only going to cum in his hole? hahahahahahahaha 🤣 That negative test is basically good for one fuck. Seriously, the QuickConnect ad on BBRT is the wrong strategy. He really needs to get on a regular chat site and chat with guys and ask his target if he barebacks. On BBRT, with this ad, he is fishing in the wrong pond with the wrong bait.