My first time fucked was before so-called safe sex. (That story I recently contributed, by mistake, to Bareback Fiction, but it's true.) Condoms were for straight guys, and even then I looked down on guys who used them, although I wasn't sure why. When I started a relattionship as HIV was around us, I tried fucking with a condom and rebelled. I was naive and assumed we'd be monogamous, so why couldn't we fuck like normal? My partner, the self-proclaimed condom queen, gave in, although we soon discovered the other didn't like to top. We started fooling around, pretending to be monogamous. (Yeah, whatever. I don't even date these days, but when I did date, I got where on the first date I let guys know I don't believe in monogamy.) Anyway, when cheating I'd have a guy put on a rubber. My partner and I separated, and I hooked up lots more. One guy had a big cock and told me I was so tight he needed to go bare. "Just don't shoot in me," I replied. Who is going to turn down a big cock? Another guy with a big cock assured me he was negative, so I let him cum in me all the time. Then I moved to a big city--so much more cock--and was a little paranoid, knowing most of the gay guys were poz. I even remember reaching back to make sure a guy was using a rubber. Then one night a guy's rubber came off, and his fishing it out with his fingers felt so, so good, I got where I'd try to see if my ass could pull off guys' rubbers.
Somewhere between careless and safe, I kept testing negative, and decided maybe I had a natural immunity to HIV. I've always felt like the first guy who fucked me, in the days when HIV was being transmitted before anyone knew what it was, could have been HIV+. A blood test at my next physical showed I had antibodies for Hepatitis B. In my odd thinking, I decided the guy who first fucked me probably had both. This going through my mind years later coincided with some really bad experiences being fucked with a rubber. A rubber turned something pleasurable into pain and the pain didn't give way like it does bare. I started taking mainly bare cock, although not refusing covered, as long as they pulled out before shooting. Most guys were willing to make the trade off, and it was hot for them to shoot all over my ass.( I also had this weird experience when using Max Impact while being fucked crazy. My mind had this sort of circus chase where if if I got back to a certain box, I was safe to have the guy cum in me. If not, I'd sort of squirm off his cock before he came."
I'd say the progression to exclusively bareback went pretty quickly, less than a year, coinciding with my getting in shape after letting myself go. Healthy encourages healthy, so why was I even more turned off by condoms? Because to me, bare is healthy. I no longer let guys use condoms,, except for this one hot guy with an 11-inch cock who would fuck me in a group after three other guys had cum in my ass first. Unless a guy told me he was poz, I would let him cum up my ass. If he was pop, I'd ask him to pull out before he came if he was worried about it. In the midst of my second adolescence, I snagged a boyfriend because he hated rubbers and loved pumping cum deep into me with his big cock. He even fucked me bare after discovering I was taking all kinds of other loads. (He was neg but fucked pot guys bare, so the risk wasn't an issue for him.) Some of the loads I took were from poz guys, and I assumed I'd test +. But I didn't.
When I got out of that relationship, I decided I just didn't care and would manage if I converted. Sex is too primal to be restrained by something unnatural. When I slut at this one video arcade, during the day, I make some married guys mad by saying, "You can't fuck me with a condom." But so many more love dumping a load in my sloppy hole. And so far, I haven't picked up anything the doctor can't fix.