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AMATEUR BAREBACK PORN to me is the best! Especially when guys are bold-faced and well-conditioned to bareback action; smirking mischievously while taking RAW cock. Jaded urban type-guys who look comfortable with the recreational bb-scene, rutting and rooting like champs without idiotic dialog and cliche lines. Spare me with the "oh you like that big diick!' and all that fake-virgin grimacing and Armond Rizzo's nelly-whimpering. Makes my attention and boner fade. For all I care, I prefer some edgy club music or techno in the background while an amateur camera-guy pans the spontaneous promiscuous sex-party action... and jizz goes in the hole and only dribbles out as the next dude steps up to use it for lube...

CONVERSION on so many levels: (Going from 'straight' to accepting the 'gay preference', from top to bottom, from 'scared-safe' to 'openly-promiscuous-risk-taker', from negative serial-monogamist to cum-craving poz cum-dumpster) I wished I had appreciated being the 'catcher' rather than 'the pitcher' in the early days of coming out. Suddenly finding male bodies and their DICKS more exciting than banging girls. Just the 'taking-dick-up-the-ass' was problematic. That was apparently 'part-of-the-deal'. There sure were lots of tops available. I waived them to 'move along' for the most part! A 'pain-in-the-ass', not my thing! Like my high-school girl-friend said after I fucked her in the ass once: "No more, no more, feels like taking a shit backwards!" Ok there goes that experiment. Problem was, my dick is fat and she complained about me being rough on her pussy too... The best sex was with masculine 'COLT-like-fantasy-men' I picked up at THE MOTHER LODE. But most of the older, manly West Hollywood men in their simple-mindedness must have ASS-umed I wanted to bottom for them when they themselves were big bottoms! (you know: expecting LESBIAN sex) However, maybe because of my twinkish straightness I found myself the target of many very masculine assertive males who wanted to TOP. I had my fill of them but I could count them on two hands and know most of their names, first and last! But in general, the prospect of taking a rugged cock up the ass without a rubber (as they preferred) was TOO SCARY in the scary age of the plague with no known treatments. I guess I settled for breeding newbies and other twinks, 'CHICKEN' when what I really wanted was BEEF! For the most part though, prime-cut BEEF, and my 'equals' seemed to be intimidated. And I wanted never to 'surrender' and be controlled by a guy as a twink but I may have underestimated 'the power of the bottom'. A good cock-rider from what I learned over the years gets quite coveted and pursued by guys who love it raw and randy! Maybe me not 'wanting to be a bottom' was because I saw so many queens & bottoms dog each other, specifically the more 'popular' bottoms: calling them sluts and whores?! The popular tops would be referred to as a 'heart-breakers' and the 'popular bottoms' as trash, following the straight hypocrisy... Many years later, my new twink BF may have launched my new 'career' as a power-bottom. He was a con-man and a cheater and one day he took off with a big-dicked stripper and went on tour with him and his circus. Apparently he didn't realize he had traded me for a male prostitute who expected him to put out too to fuel their whore-circus appetite for party-drugs. Weeks later my cheater BF escaped on a cross-country tour swinging through back through memphis and rang my door-bell at 3 am! And promptly the phone rang. It was the big-dicked stripper the ring-leader who relished in telling me: "you should know, I bred him everyday, ass up against the wall to make sure my DNA would take! And just so you know: I'M POZ and you better believe he is too'. (he even made him wear a butt-plug, pumped full of jizz around the motel rooms) I was however totally ass-pussy-whipped by my cheating BF and although I suspected he had the bug now, I didn't want to 'do the test'... and I was unwilling to do what the cock-blocking poz top wanted me to do: throw him back out in the streets for the wolves to pull him back into their POZ-boy underworld! But I never allowed him to top me from that day on. To be honest, back then I had no intention of ever joining the poz-team! Himself still barely a year ago being a 'skinny twink', under my guidance he had however transformed into a beefy stud-muffin. His attitude had changed, a cocky muscle-boy who suddenly jealously noticed all the prospective power-bottom-boys at the clubs giving me attention. He wouldn't stop dogging them to me as 'skinny chicken-by-products'. "FUCKING CUM-DUMPSTERS!" OK calm down! Then a few months later, once again the suddenly so desirable bio-hazard-boy cheated with a crystal meth boy from Atlanta! Heart-broken I proceeded to GRUDGE-FUCK! I picked up EVERY TWINK (I tried really hard getting the masculine ones my age but was told 'You intimidate them', go figure) and let them call the shots! WHATEVER POSITION THEY CHOSE! No rubbers! No more 'Mister Relationship' I would hook up off the bat! They virtually ALL turned out to be tops! I let them fuck me without rubbers and made them enjoy 'getting one of the popular circuit boys' they had fawned over ever since getting in the club, barely out-of-high-school. And I made sure to let them know I'm not hush-hush and I'm hoping my ex would hear about it! Well, I got hooked, hooked on dicks, RAW on demand every time. The NEW man I eventually met, accidentally converted me over to the POZ-TEAM! It was a surprise, unexpected! He was only 20 at the time! We are still together! He and my best-bud, sex-party wingman, SLUT MENTOR make sure my bbrt pics look good enough to 'market my assets'! "Bring back some tops!" I have been told and lets take more pics of your smooth hole! My 'wingman' is older than me! To an outside either one of us could be my man's son! Trippy! But I don't 'do that fantasy'. So far GETTING TOPS doesn't seem to difficult: I can't deliver on 'hairy ass' as I'm smooth but with a smooth bod with pierced nipples in sneakers and a jock-strap I can serve up nice... it's all in 'the presentation'! Oh yeah, my much younger man has the hairy ass, so when he sends me out in the new sneakers he ordered for me SPECIFICALLY to keep them clean and 'wear them ONLY to the sex-parties'... (he is in 'advertising')... if a dude says: "Damn I wished you had a hairy ass!" I say... well how about you breed my man? It would be an honor see you deliver a load in him!" RIGHT UP YOUR ALLEY!!!! As to not enough TOPS, locally, I blame it the way the realtors do: "Remember what city you are in! LOCATION, LOCATION, LOCATION!"

I find that a few of my friends are big safe-sex proselytizers but then in private (once I talk to their 'play-mates') it becomes apparent that they 'drop the safety net' and ride it raw. And I guess ONLY THEIR discretion is excused! And the same ones tend to be all judgmental to your face and quickly dog the one or other as 'TOO promiscuous' and use language like 'he is DIRTY'... or whatever... So to figure out 'whom I'm dealing with' I rattle the cage by talking about bareback sex and how 'HOT IT WOULD BE' with strangers at a bar or whatever, as though it is hypothetical, or bb-play based on PREP use... then you find the conversation develops into polarized camps. Some get all preachy and harp on that 'promiscuous sex is disgusting' or 'there are still ALL KINDS OF OTHER DISEASES'. Others however, your new BB-BROS pull you to the side and spill the beans of how they really feel. On a parallel tangent (the just BEING GAY part) I used to have a beefy, very sexy, cocky buddy who was in the Marines. He was always smiling and had a very outgoing personality and hid his sexuality very well from his Mormon parents and church. To 'play it off' he 'put on a show' PRETENDING he was receptive to amorous play with men and oddly, he became the most popular dude. Guys would want to sit with him on the plane, or who would have him as their tent mate or have him wear their dog-tags or whatever. In short, by 'stirring the pot' and by being colorful he got all the right attention and flew RIGHT UNDER THE RADAR of those who would disapprove and didn't catch on... I recall my best friend, a cop, always dogging his ex (my greatest sexual fantasy, as he is a shaggy-haired blonde, one of my fetishes) telling me 'he is DIRTY' and 'he does bareback with EVERYBODY as though it was a bad thing... (my man actually finally tagged his ass and bred him) My best (cop) friend's new Bf (until a couple years ago), his TWINK, would wait until he was in the house with either me or my man and then spill the beans on his antics. Wild stuff! Once when I told him: "You are such a slut!" He corrected me and said: "I'm no slut! I'm a CUM-DUMPSTER!" After I told him how hot I find all that he opened up about all his kinky secrets that went WAY BEYOND I have ever done... Yet he looked so innocent!

I can't EVER add any pics in comments as hot and fun that would be. That bugs me, always says 'can't load' or something and asks me to 'contact us'

Our attitudes are an 'evolving' thing... we have long gone from our naive, teenage puppy-love expectations to habitual horn-dog copulating, when we meet in a forum like this... lol I like strangers slobbering on each other on any part of the body they! Preferably ass and cock, going at it like a randy goats with the tongue out! Some of the hottest pictures that give me the biggest rush (i.e. on tumblr) is when guys are interlocked, bareback, the bottom with a raging boner, both with tongues out, the tips touching! The grossest thing a guy (trick) could say to me NOW on grindr, is: 'I want to MAKE LOVE to you by candle-light and play Barry White'. HURL! Fuck that! Been there done that! When I came out as a self-declared promiscuous barebacker, no fears, no inhibitions, no reasonable offer refused, RAW every time it was like my second coming out. New terms, new protocol! After coming out 'as gay' for years I fell into the CONVENTIONAL 'relationship trap' and saw hypocrisy and cheating that goes with it, drama and divorce, EVEN and especially with straight people. I recall (when I was single) being HOSTILE to guys who were trying to cheat with me on GF, wives and BFs. Hated all that! Blocked them! Called them out! Promiscuity, getting 'something' you couldn't was off, unsafe sex, orgies, all that was... all that was frowned upon... So as a late convert to the BROTHERHOOD all those fears have been REPEALED and replaced (pardon the term). Now, anything suggestive of LUST, debauchery, carnal pleasure, risky behavior and fornication gets my attention! Such behavior was historically embodied and celebrated by the demi-gods of less repressive regimes. PAN, the seductively-scruffy satyr with his perpetual boner and cloven feet (later portrayed as 'THE DEVIL' by 'the church' to the frightened and intimidated) playing his magic flute and seducing sexually-impressionable shepherds to the dark pleasures and taking it up the arse.... TEMPTATIONS: I recall these guys here in Memphis, YEARS ago, always having 'parties' themed like that with 'satyr and Dio...something'. SEX-PARTIES when AIDS was scary! They always invited me but I never went. Mostly out of FEAR and I was trapped in a standard-gay relationship with an arrogant local stud-muffin who played the old-fashioned patriarch! Big dick but emotional misery and him lying and cheating like his dad did on his mom! Still does! I have drifted to the lusty scene with my new beau who is on the same page. My new role models or all SATYRS!!! Fornicating, shameless horn-dogs! Kissing? Well I suppose when it is in a manner that could shift from one guy to the next or the stranger he invited and back with no jealousies or commitments! One of the guys that used to live with those sex-party boys still talks to me. He doesn't speak fondly of the group, which apparently shunned him as he talks dismissively about 'the promiscuous scene': "I bet they all died, whatever, moved to Nashville!" . He doesn't know I have 'joined the bb brotherhood' and talks to me with the hypocritical, judgmental filter of the old school... but it arouses me, he doesn't know that IN SPIRIT I'm one of THOSE. He said: "Yeah they would invite like 20 30 guys over and there NEVER were any rubbers ANYWHERE (HOT to me now). Most of the guys were strangers I had never seen before. There was jizz flying everywhere and they would run trains and cum in each other and you never knew who would be in your bed in your room, it was DISGUSTING! I know they always talked about INITIATING YOU!!!" (I'm fanning myself. I think I'll call him later as I want to know more) I have to admit: the first few tricks (in 2015) from bbrt was a stretch for me! Both in terms of mind, manners, kissing and stretching ass, my own and my man's. Turns me on seeing others breed my man! I take pictures! One dude after consummating his jizz-load into my man and me being totally turned on proceeded to passionately make out with him on the couch! But it seemed like a painfully long time to me. I got 'nervous'. I told ON REFLEX: "Stop that shit! You guys act like fucking Lesbians!" My bad! I think I want to try that again, a 'TAKE TWO' and this time this porn-producer won't say 'CUT' at all... Later that year my man and I hooked up with two sexy inked and pierced 'circuit boys' from Chicago going to NOLA. All was well until the more insecure one of the two reprimanded his more assertive hubby as he was kissing my man with his cock buried deep in his ass: "NO KISSING!" he said in a stern voice and the fun left the room... I don't want to be that guy!

Yeah the 'pushing out' must be for the porn-market who want to see the bottom REALLY is getting bred... I myself, after all the sexual repression in the time before my conversion to bareback disciple and brozen poz promiscuous slut want ALL THE CUM and dick I have missed all those years. On the subject: I just had one of my repeat toy-boys over, a big-dicked college boy that I pick up at his dorm. He couldn't buy liqueur if his life depended on it and he made sure I had poppers and lube, he said before I drove over, he wanted... and he loves to talk about 'you want my poz cum inside you' and I encourage him with all the verbal slut-talk as he nuts. I'm face-down as as I feel the gush, I push my slut-hole up against his big balls slopping on me and I feel his shaft pulsing and pumping and tell him "HELL YEAH! BALLS-DEEP!" and he obliges. I tell him to leave his hard cock in as long as possible and pump the jizz in some more. I have his cum in my ass right now and I hold on to that huge load like a tight-assed motherfucker unwilling to share my prize. I swear every time that happens I strut, STRUT with slutty pride! Well, to be honest, it wouldn't have happened of one of my sluttier bros hadn't egged me on. He came over this morning and he is all over the internet and on porn when he lays it out on the bed and we slut around. He taught me how to give him a TINA booty-bump and, well, that was all new to me. Then I encourage him to give me one and we talked dirty, sucking on each other but as far as hard-ons go, it was mostly me who got really hard as he sucked on my pierced nipples. DAMN THAT EXCITES ME! We talked all kinds of trashy. I felt a tingling high and horny like I was on poppers and who knows what... he told me: "Hey let's do this: I want you to take some random dude's cock and take his load! No questions asked!" Hell yeah I'm all about being whored out! "And then I want you to PUSH IT OUT or let me eat the anon dude's cum out of your ass!" he said and ok, I hope he leaves me some of that sacred DNA but cool. It's a new thing for me but I'll try it myself... like oysters,,, for the bold and daring! Well ok, as he labored away on Grindr, Scruff, BBRT and whatever. But in the middle of the day dick is in short supply in Memphis... almost had one, but then my slut-buddy's sexy room-mate called and reminded him he promised him AN HOUR AGO (as we both had fingers in each others asses) that he was gonna take him to the DMV or whatever... then I was successful and I carry a thick-dicked college-boys load and my buddy from before is running late... If he doesn't get over quick I guess I'm like Modanna: "keeping my baby to full absorption!" The thought and fetish of that alone makes me tingle continuously and makes my hands sweat as I type this... anybody else like that!

That is actually a hot FETISH that I have embraced too! Being 'CERTIFIED' and witnessed by a bunch of strangers! Once I was a serial monogamist, into the ONE-on-ONE, not really big into the group thing. Boy that changed. Now knowing I'm being watched in a recklessly BARE breeding turns me on big time!

The subject you brought up got me so excited I texted my 'slut mentor' and asked him to come over. Dude is ALWAYS ON TIME! I take pride in 'giving up my hole' now to any player after having played it 'safe' way to long and given it up to very few dude... My wing-man 'slut-mentor' played with my hole from 4 to 5! Too bad he isn't very verbal. But he told me ( 'post-coitus' ) that the way I TALK (lewd and dirty whatever) while he plays with my ass and breeds me, turns him on! Too bad I had to guess! I could have gotten raunchier! But I don't see his expression when I talk 'dirty' as he makes me lay down flat and does me from behind... I told him about this conversation WE (you 'tallslenderguy' and I) had on here about 'modifying the hole'. Well he went right to it, after leaving off at the four-finger challenge last time. This time he said: "Damn, have you practiced?" Well I didn't but my mind may have 'wrapped its head around' being violated the way the hardcore bros sometimes want to... I asked him if my ass looks more like a 'slit' than a hole now... he said: "You are getting there!" He want to 'work on it some more' next time! I can feel a major 'impact' from his ass-play! After all I'm mesmerized every time I see a dude with an 'elongated' hole! Even the young barebacker HELIX boys in porn have that fashionable GAPE slit going... Keep this thread going with more stories and feedback!

What I like about his 'conditioning of my hole' is this: I am a 'late-convert', and a late-comer to the unapologetic bareback scene, which means in the negative days I only 'poached' on the 'unsafe sex scene' sporadically but then typically felt guilty. So in some ways I'm a NOVICE and my 'ass-master FB' wants to 'bring me up to speed' for the 'BIG BOY GAMES' he said. When I take it up the ass I NEVER flinch or make the whimpering theatrics many of the porn-bottoms entertain their audience with... but sometimes a big top struggles to get it in or tells me 'to relax'... I met my man when he was barely 21 and he had played raw in West Hollywood with the stripper crowd. But I never brought up 'testing'. Once I found out my (new bf) and I were suddenly both poz, instead of getting all gloomy, we 'joined the bb-rodeo'... no saddles, no protection EVER, no shame, no inhibitions, no jealousies, no loads refused! ALL SPORTS! And instead of pushing most aspiring tops away (like I USED TO) I now will let any buck pump his DNA in me... So my FB (slut-mentor) whom I mention above, doesn't want to OWN me, just be my 'slut-mentor'. He has his own (open) 'relationship' with licence to bruise-and-buck whomever he chooses so he doesn't need to OWN anyone else. He has fucked both my man and me and everybody in the bareback circle of friends I know. His accomplished promiscuity turns me on! He told me I'm still 'way-too-tight' as I guess all the bros (when given the choice) like to feel a dude is a true slut. Opposite of the mentality of conventional guys' (of my past) who want to OWN, be THE FIRST (that month, year or EVER lol - yeah right) and expect MONOGAMY from their hapless toy-friends. Yet THEY tend to cheat on their bottoms like straight hypocrite men do on their wives. And they dismiss every hottie who is 'TOO LOOSE' for their moderate-sized cocks with talk like 'feels-like-throwing-a-hot-dog-down-a-hallway' and 'I wouldn't touch him - he GETS AROUND!' So back to my 'slut-mentor': At one of the sex-parties he took me to, he did 'inventory' with me, walking around to see who is there. It was like my second time at a sex-party! No wait 3rd, but only the 2nd truely BB party!! There were several new ones there, he said he hadn't seen before. There was a tall, skinny young, very photogenic: with a Fauxhawk and leather fetish gear... totally hot EXCEPT - he wore high-heels (big turn-off for me) and besides (he told me later when we chatted) he was looking for 'really young bottoms' (word had it his prey on grindr or whatever is typically is not legal) Well nevermind... my slut-mentor and I spotted a super-hottie, muscle-dude, shaved smooth, I was told he does porn... very hot and intimidating. I would have NEVER approached him! All I could say to my slut-mentor is 'holy shit'... Next thing I know, my slut mentor has him ready to mount me. Makes me assume position in front of all these guys and the buck is being led up to my hole to breed me without introduction or hello! The fucker tore into it and took his sweet old time, going on, and ON, with no lube just spit and I suspect his ample precum... he put me in a trance... but kept going to where I felt cold sweat-beads on my forehead. But I was determined to hold out, not flinch, not protest not make him withdraw prematurely without making a deposit! Most of all, not let anyone know my relative inexperience and to practice my ass-skills... MILK THE FUCKER'S COCK with my assets, hopefully in sync for maximum customer pleasure. I was determined to get a great YELP review and take his rutting buck's cock to full climax... I did, and walked around all night with a sore ass but a thrilling sensation of keeping his DNA to full absorption! Well that's what my FB wants me to do... play with my ass, coach me, make me get even better so he can, as he said: "I want to WHORE YOU OUT! You get no choice - I'll line them up for you! And then takes pics of your used, stretched ass and post them on TUMBLR! "

I like what you describe as 'modified'! I myself noticed that some guys posing nude and shamelessly showing the fuck-hole seem to be 'conditioned cum-dumpsters'. Instead of the puckered 'virgin hole' theirs are more like you said 'a SLIT' or 'elongated'. Really very fascinating for me! Turns me on to think of all the random cocks that must have rutted that fuck-hole, cocks of all sizes and probably quite a few fat ones! Just seeing an ass like that and having a dude pose while showing his face and boner in the same shot makes me tingle inside! One of my more 'seasoned play-mates' when he comes around tells me he wants to play with a 'stretch my hole', get it ready for the 'big league players' whatever that means.

'Too slutty' lol! That takes an old-fashioned male chauvinist to diss another player! "May the virtuous vixen save her virginity (or facsimile thereof) JUST for ME, ME, ME!" NOT!!!! Meanwhile he the foolish dreamer runs around and puts his dick in anything that moves as long as it puts on a coy front!!!! Fuck those dudes! (or better, 'pass on them') I for one will rather broadcast my 'combat-ready-status' to any promiscuous buck and player and leave the boring chauvinists alone!

I'm really 'intrigued' by the prospect of developing a slutty 'underground reputation'. Just yesterday I got hit up by a sexy guy on Facebook in a very forward manner. He is one of those very 'out-and-proud', a 'junior' member of a local 'leather group'. I had gotten an 'invite' to an event on Saturday from one of the senior ring-leaders. He had bred me raw once without me knowing his name but oddly he knew mine. Anyway he just started breeding me in front of people at the black-out party. So that entertaining performance must have made the rounds. The junior punk must have clicked on my profile and realized how many common BB friends we have. I figured he was 'tipped off' as he came to the subject of bareback sex pretty quick. He is only 28 maybe but was quick to tell me he has taken at LEAST a 1,000 anon loads in his life! Shared videos!!! Turns out he was encouraged by at least two of those dudes I had tricked with. I only got to know them by name later, AFTER they deposited their semen in my ass. I don't know about you but that alone thrills me to no end... I mean, anon and disappear into the night is hot too but in a mid-sized city with a limited 'market' I like the 'referral system'... And the bros I played with hold their head up high at the gym, at the grocery store or at the bars (unlike the guilty fuckers from the safe sex days who weaseled away like thieves, remember those?) And the confident players introduce you to their bros! BAREBACK bros and they make it clear to them you are 'ON THE TEAM'!

HOT!!! The less inhibited a guy is, whether top or bottom, the more turned on he gets with the prospect of 'sharing with a bro'. Some goodie-two-shoes guys in my distant past used to freak out when they were faced with the prospect of a third and possibly more being involved. Not me! A THIRD PLAYER, whether pitcher or catcher is the SPICE OF LIFE!!!! One on one to me is almost 'vanilla' sex now. Don't get me wrong, I like vanilla, but the guy better have a WILD SIDE to him. The worst/boring would be a proposal of being one on one with an old-fashioned possessive, jealous-type guy, insisting on wearing rubbers! Doesn't excite me at all! I realized how common the 'more-the-merrier-rutting frenzy' fetish is once I left the 'safe sex' scene behind... all the fear and loathing of 'OTHER MEN' and their 'UNKNOWN SEED', with all the hypocrisy, jealousy, double-standards and scripted expectations. All the 'god-knows-who-HE-has-been-with' cock-blocking and snobbery... I even recall an 'all-bottom' guy on gaydotcom looking for TOPS and specifically guys who were 'all top'. Living in a surreal alternate reality where he was a 'proper lady' and only wanted REAL MEN! LOL And he looked down on versatile guys like they were the worst of bio-haz trash that he 'would never touch'! That scenario when a top and bottom looking for another top, assuming that the one top 'is not being SATISFYING ENOUGH' is another false conclusion of scripted 'conventional' role-play. Just like the dismissive talk of some fellow tops I recall when I was checking out a hot slut-boy and they sneered: 'Forget it! I had him! He is so loose it's like throwing a hot-dog down a hallway'... that gets me excited now. Opposite of what the ridiculing cock-blocker intended to accomplish! One of my regular BBRT tops started to 'swoon' when I casually told him I bottomed for two guys... said that 'sloppy seconds turn him on' and told me to call him next time so he could mix his load in there. I used to think it was only me loving to see my man get bred was my 'personal kink'. Now I learn there is a 'cuckold scene' and dominant tops who OWN their passive bottoms and WHORE THEM OUT with the bottom having no say in the matter! Turns out virtually all my bb-bros feel the same, at least about 'sloppy seconds' as a top. The more slutty and promiscuous (desirable) a dude is, the more turned on by him they are. It's a whole other exciting world I never expected to find nor to become part of... ...and I intend to watch MY MAN be bred by many other guys right in front of me too!

So I figure I give GRINDR another shot finding BAREBACK players which is harder than you think in the deep South. If it wasn't for the fact I found some TOTAL FUN among mostly disappointments I wouldn't try for a number of reasons. You may have noticed but it's a mine-field: poz-hostile cockblockers, NEG-only twinks, just tested braggers, ignorant shallowness of all sorts 'pics, pics, pics, into?', SAFE sex proselytizers, DDF-condom-nazis, nerdy genius, holier-than-thou hypocrites and crude, a few bold-faced sluts and plenty of limp-dicked tweeker bottoms, some who get paranoid thinking you are a cop or whatever BS. Many hide their ID's and you have to be careful not to spill the beans too quick. It's hard to find 'raw brothers'. Is there a CODE we should use? In small towns you are easily recognized the more info and clear pics you give on-line. To complicate things I have a man and quite a few guys are 'traditional' (judgmental hypocrites) in their mindset and they don't understand 'why if everything is ok in a relationship would you need to go trolling'. I say: "My man knows", they say: 'oh how weird is that?' , 'Oh I could NEVER!' Of course they can cheat but their BF can't or it's drama. But then you have to pretend you don't know their secrets or they shut down on you or throw you under the bus. Hush, hush! So I'm using the 'chat and net-working' fig-leaf to go Christian-mingle on GRINDR now! Keeping the 'whoring' on the low-down and really to hustle my genuine and very unique artistic talents. Not to get into but say a home-owner wanted to make an adult sex-room/basement with a Medieval dungeon flair, I'm the go-to-man. You can't approach a conventional Trump-voting builders with potentially red-flagging requests ('Damn perverts!') So I figure, I'll lay in wait and see what goes on the hook... When someone hits I quickly read the profile (if anything) I let THEM spill the beans. Passive-aggressive! If it looks 'too tame' I don't respond. I like them older and look for clues like TOP or versatile. A serious home-owner would be nice... hell I'd work in the nude if he spends enough! For him and his friends to watch! So YESTERDAY, hour one of being back 'grindring', an older, professional black guy hits up on me. His profile is suggestive of aggressive sex and says TOP, neg, on PrEP. OK then... so far so good. He is articulate, I explained my work hoping he could be a serious lead! Sex is trivial at this point! "I see!" is his short response, but I quickly add 'of course I like dick too'. Well he says he likes 'tight ass' . I quickly add 'bareback on PrEP sounds good to me'. Well he lays into a lecture on safe sex how prep is just a 'back-up' and how he is on prep AND uses a rubber. 'And all the other diseases' he says. Well there goes my mood! It's not that I don't know Memphis has a SERIOUS communicable disease problem especially in the local black community... The whole process is like 'fishing' in the wild though. You know there are some aggressive 'game-fish' in there and if you are patient they will bite. Until then it's scrawny shad and fat carp messing up your lines. Okay I clicked on grindr earlier... Well wait... have a dude on right now: older, rugged, face-pic, pierced ears, POZ we are talking... seen him on bbrt too... never talked to him... the thrill of anon strangers, boldly wearing their poz-badges! Still a big thrill for me... Let's see where this is going... there come the dick pics! And the ass pic, well, ok... says he is looking for a top! okay, no major points yet! Well he is telling me he is drooling precum from two holes as he isn't wearing his PA... BOING! OOPS there is another potential 'customer/suitor', black guy, 31 without a previous word sends me picture of his HUGE cock but profile says 'beneficial encounters come to the front'. What does that mean? Ok I'm not paying! Too much of that in poor cities... ( I'm ignoring that prospect!) PA guy now wants to see my ass pics and says "I cum a lot". BOING!!!! I think I need to 'test-drive' that dude with the PA (he isn't wearing). He asked me 'do you swallow?" BOING!!! Hell yeah I do! Love the flavor of man-seed. Electrifies me and makes me tingle! I told him I take it up the ass RAW to full absorption! That got his attention BIG TIME! Says he wants to eat my clean ass and then have me nut all over him! I can do that! Okay, test-ride is set. See how that goes! Then have him breed my man as a surprise one day! And all that in 24 hours! One positive lead! Not bad! Wait, there is a 'flame thing' whatever that means... dude is 29 has those huge plugs in his ears, says he is 'geek' 6' tall 150 lbs I know his BF, heavy-set younger guy, bartender nice guy, open relationship... says negative on profile though... hmmm What are your experiences on grindr? Is it worth it? I read that a lot of you say bbrt and grindr has a lot of 'teasers' who don't come through... Speaking of which: dude just sent me pic of his jizz-slobbered cock and says 'that is just precum'. I told him it 'will have to do for lube'!!! Boy this is work sorting all this out!

Whenever I run into a 'weird fetish' and can't relate I politely bow out... I dare not mention them as not insult anybody by my lack of 'excitement'. Example: I have a friend (on FB) who just by chance (just now this morning) started with this 'flip-flop' talk. I used to HATE them things, years ago, as everybody in Hawaii wore them and shuffled very undignified in them... well I changed, seeing more hot guys wearing them! Well, still, flip-flops NOR FEET are anything I could beat off over. All I could say to the dude is: "Well, I like guys with nice feet wearing flip-flops, but not with gross feet". I'm not 'INTO' feet is what I'm saying but guys with fallen arches, fucked up toes (like you sometimes see in retro pics caused by bad shoes) make me cringe! And some ethnic groups have heels that sticks out back like ocean-going ships do in front... like a bulb at the sole... confusing stuff like that just 'disturbs' me or make me lose my boner! End of that! But anyways, the dude talking to me on Facebook has other weird fetishes I don't care about. But he looks pretty 'masculine' in person and riding motorbikes so I let him go on. Then he says this: 'he likes to suck toes'... I say... well... ok then. Not me, not active, not passive. Flip-flops, cool! BUT... His REALLY WEIRD fetish to me is (and he posts pics of chicks and his 'buddies') are them in casts and on crutches. WTF? I told him: "Dude, you could talk to me about cow-tits or garden-snails and I'm failing to 'communicate'... he gets a boner, my pisser shrinks! Now talk to me about dudes in colorful high-top sneakers, color-coordinated jock-straps, with a cocky attitude and backwards, fitted ball-caps, maybe even wearing sun-glasses and otherwise BUCK-NAKED and never using condoms and we have a connection... HELL YEAH! If I was pressed for a 'weird fetish' let me explain mine: as a late-convert to the BB-scene from being a 'serial-monogamist' (looking for nice guys) I have made a 180 on promiscuity! Dudes with dangling ear-rings, pierced nipples, PAs, tats, guys who go commando in ripped jeans, guys who live and breathe 'HARDCORE PLAYER' turn me on! A bio-hazard tattoo is now a turn-on! And I like now (in recent years) get a thrill out of cocky jerks who want to breed my man... hell yeah, go for it! I'll watch the fucker as I'm licking his balls, watching his leathery cock-shaft slide into my man, rutting like a bull to get a nut... I can beat off to that and the pictures I take...

I have always stayed with the basic membership as I'm just trolling the 'domestic meat-market' in my city (Memphis) It's pretty dead, rarely more than 20 guys on and those who are look like they just have profile open for long stretches and by what I see, if those are the 'best shots' they have to sell their goods... well... I'm easy but please. Lots of heavy-set, hairy guys with ass-shots NEEDING!!! If I lived in a bigger city I'd DEFINITELY pay the membership though!

All that narrow focus is pretty stupid. In places like Memphis some guys who are 20 years younger than me besides not working out look like they lived in the fast-food-line of Taco Bell, talking age-judgmental shit out of a premature crystal meth mouth. And no true sex-appeal or fun personality! I've heard them make comments about 'older 'guys, good or bad and it is obvious they have no idea how to guess ages accurately in person! As the 'fast-track-to-senility' goes: they are unaware they are tragic figures, tore-up-from-the-floor-up 20, 25, 30 going on 85 and disability in the fast-lane and still they are always angry at the world on Facebook that 'nobody ever wants me'... My man is much younger than me and he tells me 'you always get the hot ones'. Well, I work out more than he does and works in an office all the time. But he gets plenty of response on grindr!! But we both avoid Jacob, a sexy, tall twink who insults everybody and rants about 'haters' on FB, where he brags about how he is in BB-porn now (true, with trannies) and that he can't be bothered to talk to 'ugly people'. But older ones who pay his bills are an exception. Crazy world! There was a guy on bbrt who posted he is 'only into topping younger, under 40' I think it says. After seeing me put on a good show at a sex party, recognizing my profile, and I guess my fairly NEW reputation getting around, he suddenly 'raised his age-limit' on bbrt to let me 'slide in RIGHT UNDER THE RADAR', lol. Yeah ok I get the hint! I'll do'em! We are talking, he wants to breed me now. When I was a twink, some of the hottest sex I had was with older guys. Never asked them their age as I don't have a daddy complex, just liked the dark, soothing voices. DECADES later I found out the true age of let's call him BERNIE by researching his profile on Wikipedia. He is (now famously-married to an actress) an older producer, silver-haired and very 'square' and in the film business. That latter part actually intimidated me (as I was just a fresh nobody next to him) and I always wished he had shown me pictures from his younger days so I'd feel more at ease... Some of the hottest memories were when I (as a notoriously underaged, twinkish-looking 20-year-old, in retro 'looking like a boy') picked up hot, older HONCHO or COLT-type dudes (via an older male MENTOR) in rugged boots, cowboy hats, ball-caps, guys in bulging denims showing crotch and manly flannel-shirts showing chest at MOTHER LODE in West Hollywood. But instead of them 6-foot-plus 190lbs studs topping me I (at 5'11" and a measly 144lbs then) mounted those musky bulls like a giddy pony, bareback and balls-deep. I felt quite accomplished and wished I had stayed on that path of prowling. I'd have been very popular once the 'young pitcher' reputation got around! Back then we all still 'hunted in the flesh' no internet, and I never understood the nervous twink-nellies who dizzed older guys (older as in their 30's even) guys in the bars... Later, I recall a twit, maybe 19, nelly and whatnot, leaning back on the hood of my Mustang in front of RAGE the day I turned 22, telling me "OH you are now SO OVER THE HILL!" I bet that thing didn't age well, became very lonely and bitter as the pickings got slimmer and him fatter... and never reached 40!

When I came out the whole 'shaving thing' was virtually unheard of; but 'crotch-monkeys' (crabs) were a common pest in the jungle-crotch-days too. As a kid I admired this one dude in school who at age 13 or 15 had a trail growing up from his swimming-suit... and I loved his long dark hair and his long side-burns and his teenage mustache! yummy! But I'm the smooth type, so I had to roll with it. Then I discovered smooth masculine dudes in COLT magazine! Apparently the body-builders started the radical body-shaving and the strippers too and the guys in porn! Totally got hooked on it, especially since I'm still to this day not hairy at all. Look to my chest in the picture at left! If I searched now REALLY HARD I might find 5 or 6 hairs. I used to hate being dismissed by hairy, older guys as 'just a twink' and being accused by club door-guys of using a 'fake ID' at age 30! Well, I'm told/read a few years back, that a 'sexuality museum' in Amsterdam wanted to add 'crabs' to their scientific, educational displays. I guess to be viewed under a microscope suspended in alcohol. Well they couldn't find specimen even after offering a bounty. Smooth must be 'all-the-rage'! Don't cry tears for the crotch-monkeys because they aren't extinct! I've heard stories! lol I associate the shaved, smooth look with guys who GET AROUND, guys who LIKE TO SHOW OFF, carefree 'players', guys from ATLANTA and LA, flight attendants, circuit guys who will instantly bareback without questions asked! That really turns me on! On the other hand I've impaled myself on quite a few rugged alpha cocks of guys here in town who are hairy as animals and I (and they) found that the extreme contrast between me (smooth) and 'whoever' (all hairy) made them all hot and me tingle and ride raw dick like a whore on coke... But as I'm running into a lot of dick-hungry, 'hairy bottoms' on bbrt locally though, I might have to 'stretch' my focus. They always NEED to be bred, but typically just show hiked up tail-pipes and sadly their weight is often 'off-the-chart'. I figure I need to 'increase business' (become less picky and more promiscuous) by trying to jerk off to pictures of hot hairy guys showing ass, hoping to light a kinky side in me that I haven't found yet. I'd never run out of spawning substrates here, hairy holes to breed galore... but overall smooth guys instantly have me pig out on them, eating ass, sucking cock, as though I'm in a trance!

Sometimes I'm so riled up from that and he is 'done with sex' I'm jerking off imagining all the raw cocks I saw penetrate his hole... and the smell of other bucks, the sweat, semen and manly musk I recall from specific bondings!

My hubby and I are like that. Like hunting-buddies looking for cock and ass. Some guys don't get it (the free spirit), wonder 'why if you have each other?' Well, I hate to tell the ones asking because unbeknownst to them, their BF is cheating on 'the low-down' so I guess that is THEIR normal. Sometimes my man hunts on grindr and scruff and dudes pop over for whatever blow-jobs or bareback breeding they discuss. I don't care. But some guys have freaked out and left, EXPECTING me to be asleep or not be home. They can only do 'one-on-one' and hate spectators or more than two are a crowd for them. I'm typically never jealous, well I have been UNEASY, when this one dude and my freshly-fucked man set around in the 'after-glow' and were kissing on each other. The other dude deep-breeding my man didn't bother me... hot, watching his raw, thick cock stretching my man's eager slut-ass and then rutting away like a dog in heat... but when they didn't stop sensuously kissing on the couch I told them: "Stop that shit! You guys acting like fucking Lesbians!" LOL The first fuck I watched him get bred by a dude I was totally transfixed by seeing the other dude's knob pop in and out of my man's hole, teasing him with the girth of the bulging cock-head and me mouth open with the sight of it... it was a first: watching a total stranger preparing to seed my man, and being that close doing what a cheating BF would do behind your back. And knowing the dude was poz and a prolific fucker on-line. He is very popular. He had sent videos of his 'work' to my man before... Then he said: "Is POZ-TALK ok?" to which I had no answer... I think he favors my man but my man is the one who always thinks I 'get the hot ones'. We treat the whole 'extra-curricula' play as 'sports-fucking'... Next time a dude breeds my man's hole I'll be underneath, sucking his balls and licking his cock as it slowly slides into my man and then when he pulls out dripping with seed I'll be on it... or my man will be licking my action when I top Eric who just now is sending me pics of his smooth ass...

Not complaining AT ALL! I appreciate your feedback. I totally share the gloomy view on the GOP and net neutrality! You may (after rereading what I wrote) see an attempt to make sense of what we are seeing (politically) in a somewhat 'balanced and light-hearted' commentary! Sadly, over the years I found 'political apathy' the norm in the 'gay party crowd'. That said: I'm wondering if 'gay Republicans' are a 'vanilla-extension' of what I have seen (on tumblr) in the gay 'sub-culture'. A sub-culture fascinated by slavery, swastikas, Nazis and worse. Self-loathing ? Extreme S&M? As I explained: it doesn't work for me - but there has to be an appeal to it! And I noticed that in the deep South there are gay guys who emulate the most extreme of the rightwing, who dog and cock-block promiscuous (popular) guys very judgmentally as 'whores and sluts', They tend to be especially HATEFUL towards poz-guys (even if they themselves never get tested) talking like mean church women, often without any prompting. One of my friends, an openly-gay, well-known poz-advocate got a vile-threatening message like that THIS MORNING on grindr! As he went from Nashville across state-line into his home-town in Arkansas he was called a 'filthy AIDS-whore' and told 'we will take care of you'. These are anon guys who are looking to 'hook up with CLEAN' but hate honesty and might be poz without knowing. Then I know some really twisted gay guys... one who is on craigslist with his ass up but in real-life a fire-and-brim-stone Arkansas preacher, another very sexy fucker a hardcore Pentecostal, one of my ex-tricks a Jehova witness posting religious stuff on Facebook but they all have a secret life much darker than anything I have tried so far. Like those anti-gay marriage preachers who get outed by their call-boys for hiring them for crystal meth orgies. My question is: should one just NOT TRY TO GET TO KNOW GUYS or talk AT ALL, lie and deceive, keep secrets because the stranger's extreme views and hypocrisy could quickly become a buzz-kill!? Guys in New York, Miami or Los Angeles might not understand this world! I hope this makes my feedback more clear!

Well sooner or later the big downer POLITICS had to show its ugly face! Here is my take: much or MOST of 'the porn' the 'fake moralists' might have discovered on-line and specifically THIS SITE and the kinds of posts here would drive them over the edge with zealotry... not sure if the censors won't pull a fast one out of the blue one day.... BUT When it comes to sex I prefer to AVOID POLITICS! As freaky Gollum from 'Lord of the Rings' would say: "IT RUINS IT!!! Smeagol likes it RRRAWW and WRRRIGGLING!" There is enough on here that 'doesn't rock my world' like the obsession with incest for example. No 'daddy' talk for me and no high heels on dudes and no scat either! And purposely getting sick and making others sick I don't understand. I'm sure I'm not alone but I hush my mouth and roll with it. I leave chat when the topics make me cringe! Bottom-line: some things give you a boner and others will make your BUZZ disappear! Some things don't seem to go together: I have gay friends and HARDCORE BB contacts whose extreme political views turn me off. I couldn't imagine having sex with them... unless I was high!? One who is a heavily-tattooed and pierced porn performer who stars in everything from FF, SM, BB, orgies, WS whatever. On his other side he is all about 'pet rescues' dogs etc but then he also CONSISTENTLY posts pro-rightwing stuff on his FB from pro-Palin, pro-Duck Dynasty-Taliban to anti-ACA and hating Obama stuff... (logic?) does he think a fist-fucking, bb-promiscuous, hustler would be allowed at the table with any of these folks? And HE was the one defriending me first!!! Not me! He couldn't tolerate my 'moderate' leanings! My best friend here in town is GAY and cheats on all his BFs and bareback them and his tricks. Yet he is a square-acting 'government-employee' who calls his very nelly BFs his 'room-mates'. To compensate he posts virulent BREITBART and FOX propaganda-posts all day long. I figure it's his BUTCH DECOY so he doesn't appear like one of 'them libtard liberals' whom he derides for 'having a mental condition'... I AVOID politics with him when we hang out AT THE GAY BAR or at home! We wrestle, we have kissed on each other but he doesn't know my 'dark side' as I only HINT but the poz issue is avoided (by me). He is pretty hot but I could not imagine having sex with him. Maybe because it would be 'INCESTUOUS' like a brother. He will quickly try to 'cock-block' sexy, promiscuous guys I flirt with by saying 'he is dirty' (poz)!!! I recall (just a few years back) being basically 'vanilla-safe' but I have changed. I've stretched my mind and try not to freak out any more. You know: TRYING TO GET MORE FREAKY!!! For example: arrogant, big-mouthed JERKS making moves on my BF would irritate the fuck out of me in the past. It didn't dawn on me that both HIM and ME could have our cock and eat it too! Now I CRAVE the same jerks I use to loathe and would lick their balls while they breed my man against the wall upside down and do 'the poz-talk'. Which reminds me... I have done a few of those 'set-ups' in the flesh. Good thing I never brought up politics. Not with rural southern minds! Especially since I like rugged rednecks! "Don't talk!" I'm sure it would have RUINED it for me with at least a quarter of them fornicators! Turn the club-music up in the sex-club and don't kill my buzz! "I like my fantasy RRRAW and WRRRIGGLING!"