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tallslenderguy

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  1. i've been a bottom my whole live and received prolly a few thousand Men, i've never had an accident where i was not clean and He got besmirched, though i still live in fear of that happening. i'm not so much mortified by my own feces as i would be of a Man feeling turned off, or even repelled. For me, a Man's attraction and lust are major components of sex, so i work hard to stay clean. Having said that, i also wish for and fantasize about being able to be spontaneous 24/7. i've often gone a whole day without eating in anticipation of a Man wanting to fuck and me wanting to be there for Him. i currently have a FB who contacts me on the spur of the moment and have had to scramble to douche. There's been several times where i have not been as confident as i want to be because He really doesn't get what a bottom goes through to prep, regardless of explanation, so i don't take as much time. i'm not going to forgo His desire, so i work to accommodate, but it does interject an element of nervousness. i wouldn't mind being bred au natural if the Top is really into it, but that's because it's His need/desire that evokes and connects to my own.
  2. For those who believe we as gays live in a more friendly and accepting world, here's some balance tipping legislation from those who still believe being gay is perverse and unnatural. [think before following links] https://www.nbcnews.com/nbc-out/out-politics-and-policy/national-dont-say-gay-law-republicans-introduce-bill-restrict-lgbtq-re-rcna53064?cid=sm_npd_nn_tw_np&utm_source=ground.news&utm_medium=referral
  3. For me, it's not particular words, but the energy and attitude behind them. i don't open, get turned on or excited if i feel force or bullying, that's a total buzz kill for me. Force, to me, feels like He doesn't realize the power and position He has. He doesn't have to force something He knows i want and need. For me it's most powerful and He gets possession when He truly knows He has me and at the same time, He wants me as much as i want Him. It can be a very subtle thing, a look in His eyes, just a feel, where He knows He has power over me and, in that time and space, owns me. That, mixed with a few words like "take cock" and i am soooo His.
  4. "Although PSA testing can help catch prostate cancer at an early stage, having an elevated PSA (generally considered more than 4 ng/ml) doesn’t necessarily mean that a man has cancer. Noncancerous conditions, including benign prostatic hyperplasia (BPH), or an enlarged prostate, and prostatitis, can raise PSA levels. In fact, studies have shown that about 70% to 80% of men with an elevated PSA who have a biopsy do not have cancer. However, many men undergo an ultrasound and prostate biopsy, to be certain. Conversely, the PSA test doesn’t detect all cancers. About 20% of men who have cancer also have a normal PSA (less than 4 ng/ml), so the test may give some men a false sense of security. For this reason, some experts take a man’s age into account when considering a PSA level. And most doctors observe how a man’s PSA level changes over time, a measure called PSA velocity, rather than using it as a one-time indicator. PSA scores tend to rise more rapidly in men with cancer than in those with BPH, for example. Some doctors also measure the level of free PSA. The PSA protein circulates in the blood in two forms: bound to other proteins or unbound (free). Several studies suggest that men with elevated PSA levels and a very low percentage of free PSA are more likely to have prostate cancer than a benign condition. Knowing your free PSA level won’t give you a definitive answer about cancer, but it may be useful when considering whether a biopsy is an appropriate next step." [think before following links] https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/is-psa-reliable-20110327214 This too for those interested: [think before following links] https://nutritionfacts.org/video/treating-advanced-prostate-cancer-with-diet-part-1/
  5. Yes, hundreds of times... but not by a professional. Joking aside. A couple of times by a doctor, males each time. Emotionally, i cannot disconnect from the fact that it's a guy penetrating me. Each time i've ended up grunting and trying to tighten vs being receptive so it won't be obvious that i like it and end up making him feel awkward. i've written before about an experience i had when i was younger and presumed straight (i was married to a woman). i was getting checked for STD and the doctor explained He had to massage my prostate to get an accurate UA. He had me pull my jeans down around my ankles and bend over the exam table and He stayed in there a long time and had me dripping. i've never shaken the feeling that He finger fucked me and was enjoying what He was doing, definitely 'examined' my prostate.
  6. i'm feel sorry for Your loss. Personally, i do not think sex is ever 'just sex.' i think any and every time a Man leaves His seed in me, has pleasure penetrating me, a part of Him remains inside of me and a puts His permanent signature on me. His signature may be tiny, and in the corner of my soul, but it is there. It may eventually become obscured by all the other signatures, but His mark is still there. i think it's some kind of wonderful that you eulogize this important and valuable Man in this community.
  7. i too state my preference, but won't turn a Top down who wants to use my hole. i will ask Him to remove the condom after and insert His seed into my hole. i've only ever had to do that a few times, but the Guys i've asked to do that get turned on by the idea and it's sort of like a second fuck. i have yet to find a Top who was not turned on by the idea of seeding a bottom, more a fear of catching an STD to overcome. i of course want Him to shoot His seed directly into me from His cock, but i'll take Him pushing His seed in with His fingers vs nothing at all.
  8. Re online profiles, i think it Depends what you are looking for? Guys claiming to be looking for love or ltr on a hook up site pretty much automatically scream "SCAMMER" to me. BBRT is a hook up site by my estimation. i totally get the reasons behind stating what one doesn't like or want, but given how many people don't read profiles, short and positive makes more sense to me. For instance, the OP profile says not into scat...to me it seems very few guys are into scat, so that's probably not necessary to say up front? i'd keep it positive, leave out the negatives since it's a hook up site and you are trying to spark interest. Other than that, i think it's a good profile. i'm one of those who has given up on using an app for hookup sex. i'd rate them at about 10% effective for that purpose. i spend more time on relationship oriented sites when it comes to online. i have met Guys online who become FB's, but i find apps to be a wasteland when it comes to having anonymous sex 'right now.' i think removing the ether significantly increases the odds of actual physical connection. i have a FB who is consistently horny, just gotta be able to be spontaneous with Him. He's a quality fuck though and fills a lot of my need, lessening the need for quantity. When i do need quantity, i go to a place where i can hook in person.
  9. i've never been raped, thankfully. i'm not convinced anyone wants to be raped because, if one has that desire, and they have that desire when it's happening, is it still rape? idk When i was a kid (14), a guy stopped me when i was walking (he was driving) and asked for directions to the hospital to see his wife. i started to give him directions and he asked if i could show him. Naive kid that i was, i got in the car. Just before we got to the hospital, he pulled into an empty parking lot and said he wanted to smoke a joint before going to the hospital. i'd been around drugs, so it didn't bother me, though i wasn't into them myself. That's when things got weird. He said his stash was under the passenger seat and he asked me to "keep look out" while He got it. He ended up with his head between my feet, ostensibly looking for his grass. He then said it was lodged up under the seat, and began pushing down on the seat... between my legs. He obviously had a pretty elaborate imagination, and i was naive as fuck, but what he was actually doing was rubbing up against my cock with his arm. He kept telling me to "keep look out" when i'd look down at what he was doing, so i only felt it, and i felt as i was getting hard. At that point, it dawned on me what was happening. my survival instinct kicked in and i pretended nothing was going on, told him i need to leave now, saying "the hospital is right around the corner," so he would not feel threatened. He backed off and said he'd drive me back to where he picked me up. When we got there, i had to get outside on the drivers side because i then noticed the door handle on the inside of the passenger side was missing. i think i dodged a bullet, and yet oddly, later on in life i'd masturbate to the memory, but i was scared at the time.
  10. Thought there might be some on BZ who would appreciate, maybe even benefit from this Ted Talk. It's kinda sweet. i think the speaker makes some assumptions when it comes to belief vs knowledge, but appreciate his attitude of promoting love and acceptance.
  11. a little more... Personally, i get it. i can have a hairy or smooth ass and have always preferred it smooth. Smooth 'feels' more bottom to me. But a simple search of BZ will show discussions about this very topic that reveal such feelings are individual. my experience is Tops are about 50/50 on whether they prefer hairy or not, with many variations on those themes. A smaller percentage of guys don't care either way. Wanting to present as bottom and attract Men, and have the effect on You like that guy did has always been a goal, but not one i have been able to meet since there is no one universal, defining standard when it comes to hair.
  12. i think there's no way to tell if he's gay, let alone bottom, by looking. What is apparent is that You are gay lol. I.e., i see what You are feeling is Your own natural attraction to a man and his ass and Your evoked desire fills You with wishful thinking that he would reciprocate. Prolly why straight people decided at some point to make separate dressing rooms for male and female? Idk, but it's a dilemma we gays have that it's still awkward for a guy to flirt with or sexually approach a guy who's a stranger.
  13. i think it's a sign of a good connection when you can laugh with a guy while having sex. Actually, i think it's a healthy sign when we can laugh at our self, and when we reach a place where we can do that with another.
  14. For me it comes down to principle vs person. i think monogamy, or many other relational agreements, run into trouble when the principle becomes more important than the person. Life is fluid, as are people who are alive. We change. Making a static rule that one must always adhere to seems to me to presume a future we cannot know. So people end up cheating to maintain appearance, or they suppress what is to supposedly preserve what should be.
  15. On this site, kissing arse is a good thing practiced by many.
  16. i think this is a good point in a forum community, and i have taken a similar approach myself on occasion, but it always leaves me feeling lousy, probably some ptsd there. Which, to my way of thinking, should not be the reason i do not participate. i think it's probably impossible to go through life without wounds, i do work to live with mine vs be defeated by them. Case by case basis me thinks, it can go either way as to whether or not to try, but i think you make a good clarification that in a forum setting there are more than two people involved, even if the audience is not actively participating.
  17. Thanks for the feedback blackrobe, i always appreciate your posts. Point taken, few issues have a black or white answer, eh? There are posts that i end up not responding to at all for the reason you cite (i.e., the potential of fueling a fire). To me, the ultimate goal of a forum is to discuss and engage, sometimes debate. As many in this community know from plethora posts, i came out a fundamentalist background that was rife with people who 'know the truth,' so i'm likely more sensitive to those who present as absolutist or pedantic. Even in a lively debate, if both parties are aware they could be wrong, there can be dialogue vs one or both just trying to convince the other igorant person of their clear understanding of ___________. If i encounter that, i generally ignore that person because i'm convinced they are not interested in me or what i might have to say anyway. To me the danger of giving just a downvote to such a person is the reason for the downvote is left to their imagination and interpretation, which seems to have the effect of fueling vs dampening a fire.
  18. Sort of an aside, but i think germane to the discussion: i don't like downvotes. i've only received or used them a few times (which i regret). To me, they are not just the opposite of an up vote. The few times i have received one, i've always felt sort of slapped in the face... which is why i have stopped using them as well. i don't want anyone to feel that way (even though i know my feelings are not universal). A heart or upvote is positive affirmation, and though i might wish for more feedback as to why the responder felt or thought that way, it's always a positive for me to receive one. A downvote leaves question marks and opens the door for speculation because it only conveys dislike or disapproval, without any feedback as to why the downvoter thought or felt that way. i think it also makes it easier to be petty and even abusive. If a person gives a written response disagreeing with another, there is a place and chance for dialogue, discussion. To me, a downvote feels like a drive by flipping me off. i think it is a poor or incomplete form of communication and i wish it was not a part of this site.
  19. lol, yeah, it's called "receiving cock" and it has to be performed over and over.
  20. It's your hole, so of course you should do as you please with it. That said... i'm with those who think you should leave it as is. For me, the way my hole looks now is a result of all the Men who have penetrated and bred me. i see the changes in my hole as the Signatures of the Men who have taken pleasure in having Their cock and orgasm in me. Sort of like the graffiti on a cruising bathroom stall wall: "______ was here." Part of my psychology as a bottom is i see/feel that when a Man shapes/molds my hole, it's a form of impregnation, how He puts a part of Himself in me, and He is always a part of me afterwards. i don't wanna alter or get rid of any of that.
  21. Last night. my ongoing beautiful FB. i do love Him. Our connection is steady on and increasing in frequency for about 2 years now. He hit me up on Thursday and Friday, despite knowing i was working (i work 13 hour shifts, so i don't do much beyond eating and sleeping when not working). Yesterday was my first day off my rotation, so i woke up early and prepped, hoping He'd hit me up. i fasted the whole day, wanting to stay clean and ready, and finally ate dinner at 730. Twenty minutes later i get a text from Him "free rn?," which i didn't see and got a call 5 minutes later asking the same. i did a quick check and clean and 5 minutes later He was fucking me. He's full of cum and always leaves me creamy. He says He cums a couple of times, but i cannot tell when He cums because He's a Top that keeps going when and after He cums, but there is always copious evidence after He pulls out and i finger myself to check. He told me last night that He wished He could fuck me every day. Hot sentiment, but i don't think either of our work schedules would tolerate that. Really grateful for Him though. He's sweet, spanks my ass in the heat of fucking and lightly kisses my back and shoulders... all of which drives me wild. So i got to sleep cum loaded last night.
  22. Cock is sorta like potato chips: you can't eat just one. Homosexuality is sexual attraction to the same sex, bisexuality is sexual attraction to both sexes. I'd say you are the latter at this point. Neither has "romance" as a necessary component. i do question whether you are experiencing some denial? "Cocks" don't "tease, encourage, force or coerce." There is a man connected to and expressing those energies, which you are expressing attraction to. To me, you seem more conflicted than "confused." You want more than anal stimulation, and you want a man vs a woman performing it.
  23. i'm glad Hawks didn't go under (so to speak), it seemed they might during the pandemic. Also glad that they are doing som building. A real dark room would be worth a visit, the former "dark room" was little more than a walk in closet and wasn't dark, just dimly lit from the door. Perhaps a real dark room will set more guys free to breed? idk, hope springs eternal. i haven't been in several years. Prior to the pandemic i found the local ABS in Corvallis and Albany to have a LOT more sex going on, so why waste a drive up to Pdx? i like the idea of a bathhouse better, if it's populated by horny guys. Toys? No thanks. i have a drawer full of toys at home that never get used. i cannot get into fucking myself, i don't have enough top in me to top even myself.
  24. Yay you! Where did you go? i've been to Hawks several times, never been to Steam. Hawks has been hit or miss for me. i always get something, but not always what i waat. Their 'darkroom' is more like a dimly lighted closet. i've had my best success on the saw horse.
  25. Couple of hours ago. my FB who i've written about several times now. i was going to the gym, but paused to clean out before going. It's Saturday evening and often empty. There's a Guy who's been flirting with me (i think lol) and you never know, so wanted to be prepared in case.... i have no idea if He's even gay or flirting, but He keeps showing off HIs body in front of me. i put my yellow jock on under my sweats after prepping. and my phone vibrated and my FB messaged me: "free RN?" FUck yeah. He was here in 10 minutes. Came in, casual talk, me naked and ass up as always. He straddles my legs and says: "i think i have 3 loads," and slides in. my hole offers no resistance as i moan and He opens me. He fucks, deep, hard, kisses my shoulders, which drives me wild. Such sweet, gentle kisses along with slamming deep into me. He doesn't let me know when He cums, He's been giving my ass some hards spanks, but i barely feel it i'm so caught up in His energy, pleasure.... mine too. When He pulls out and smiles, heading for the shower, i slide my finger in my opened hole, very creamy. i don't usually do this, but i smell and suck His cum off my finger. Damn, i am filled. THere's a wet spot on the bedspread. He asks for water, saying He's thirsty after that fuck. i dress back in my yellow jock and sweats. i don't think He knows what yellow means. He drives off and i go to the gym holding HIs cum inside. There's only 2 other people, the flirty guy isn't there. i start with glut extension. i always start with that, and am proud to have His load in me while i firm and shape my ass for Him, for Tops. i want it to be round and fuckable, inviting. i kept His load in me though my whole skinny white boy routine, still have it in me 5 hours after. i'm sleeping with His seed inside of me tonight, hope to absorb all of Him.
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