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He just drove off. First time with Him, we've been writing back and forth for awhile, and as a rarity, He only lives about 20 minutes away, which is close by small town internet standards. He's Bi and loves women, but loves to get His cock sucked... time will tell if His lust will evolve to include fucking my ass or not. i'm wired to get fucked first, wired to take cock anyway i can get it secondarily, so i was more than happy to be His cock sucker. His cock was perfect, not so big that i felt inadequate to pleasure Him, but big enough to go down my throat. It really was a fucking perfect cock. When i heard His breathing change and His cock swell that final bit before shooting, i took Him to the hilt and that made Him shoot as i rubbed the tip of His cock against the roof of my throat and caressed His balls wanting to give Him a full and complete climax. i typically wait till a Man gets that deer in the headlights look that tells me He's done climaxing, then i just hold His cock very still in my mouth so i can feel Him relax. When His cock is getting flaccid, there is always some seed left in His cock that naturally leaks into my mouth for me to swallow. Fuck, i'm happy.

Life is risky. We risk dying or getting brutally mangled every time we get in a car to go to the store. Perspective, eh? We rarely think about it, but lots of activities are risky. We risk getting an STD every time we have sex, but then, we risk getting a disease going to Walmart (especially Walmart). But there's social stigma attached to getting an STD, but not one for getting the flu from going to the store (except Walmart). We can't remove all risk, there are things we can do to reduce risk. i'm in the >1000 cocks club, most anonymous hook up. For years, my primary way of hooking was hosting at my house. i think that can reduce risk, being on familiar turf. if i feel off about someone, i don't do it... but that is really rare. i've only ever had one guy who tried to get a little rough with me (not in a way i perceived as 'good'), it was all body language. i resisted by more of an offensive vs defensive stance, and he chilled out instantly. i am a trained martial artist, so i can defend myself if i have to, but i have never felt that threatened in all my years of doing this (decades). i often do anonymous walk in and some guys are (reasonably) concerned about walking into a strangers house. That is easily solved on either side (host or visitor). i tell them i will put a note on the door that says: "this is the place." The morons who send you to a fake address aren't going to do that. When hosting, i'm always face down on my bed and naked, but i have my cell phone hidden and easily accessible.

i love how He kisses his back first. He'd own me after that

wow, i need that.

i think Your advice and input is sage... and the way You offer it, sigh, You are the quintessential Man/Top. While i love the mind fuck of a younger Top with an older bottom, there are practical issues to the dynamic. Even if a young Top/Dom has all the needs and desires of a Top/Dom, they do not necessarily have the experience and understanding that goes along with that (same with bottoms/subs). We're all in this together and anyone can learn anything from anyone if they are open. Being total bottom with some sub thrown in, i naturally want to give control to a Man, so there is always that push/pull between intellect and emotion. It helps when there is genuine care and affection, and that helps me override my own feelings and let Him be who and how He is. You are so right. i think any intimate interaction should be ensconced in "safety and warmth." You're talking about WS, right?

Sometimes when i've been wonderfully fucked and used by a Man, my hole stays conquered for awhile. i kept searching for a word to describe how i feel, both my hole and my psychological hole. When a Man is fucking me, it's as if my hole 'tries' to say taut vs stretched, even though in my mind, i want to open up for Him. The idea of Him helping open my hole is a huge turn one and alliance i have with Him. i love Him for opening me and leaving His signature or 'mark' on my hole. i feel a sort of pride in His ownership. i noticed after getting fucked today (the above quoted fuck), that my hole was staying opened more and had a sort of itchy, used feel that kept me turned on reminding me of His cock and how He used it to mold my hole. Just finished showering and noticed that unless i consciously clench and work to hold my lips in, they push out in a sort of 'defeat'... and it is keeping me really turned on loving How this Man opened and molded and sort of defeated my ownership of my hole and made it His own. Thought some would like to see it, so i just took a picture of my sweet Latino Tops mark on my hole.

Just left, my Latino FB. Was nearby and wanted to unload. i love a Tops spontaneous desire to cum. i never want a Man to have to masturbate when i have a hole that craves Him. i've gotten pretty good at prepping fast, took me 5 minutes and He was waiting in my driveway. Fuck yeah. No sucking this time, He just wanted to fuck. Think it only took Him 10 minutes and this time i felt His shoot... which i fucking love. i love feeling the contractions at the base of His cock as He spasms His seed deep inside of me. i'm having the best weekend, love being full of a Mans seed. fuck, i feel awesome, can barely walk straight... which is probably appropriate for a bottom with a full, gaped hole.

Well, i don't ever want to presume on You <3. His being Latino and having to possibly wrestle with machismo conditioning occurred to me too. As an aside, romance brings my submissive side out and bravado, force, etc., shuts it down. He often kisses my back, neck and shoulders in between slamming me hard with HIs cock, and the kisses probably conquer me as much as His driving His cock into me hard... idk, both open and conquer me, the combination has double the effect of tethering a desire in me to give Him ownership. i don't know how well He understands how much He brings the sub out in me, but i sure don't hide it. i have this vid He took while fucking me and i was surprised by all the sounds coming out of me lol. my sense when He said He's not a "cum swallower" wasn't that He had an aversion to the idea, but maybe to the taste? idk, He washes His mouth out after sucking me. With me, i don't relish the taste of cum, i crave the idea of His seed in me, and all that goes along with it getting there. It's the idea and lust behind a Man putting His seed in me that evokes my need for It/Him, so i see us as very different. But He's also comparatively new at this, and i've had enough experience to know who and how i am. if He does end up wanting me to cum from my penis, i'll suggest He find someone else for that desire, i don't want to give Him something fake. If He ends up needing/wanting that, i want Him to have it from someone who also needs/wants it so He can have the full experience. Time will tell probably.

Thank You for responding to that post, i was hoping You would ❤️ i had similar questions as two why He wanted to suck me. i tried to get it out of Him, i don't want Him to feel awkward or cornered by my queries. He either doesn't understand where i'm coming from, or He is too shy to be vulnerable and open about how He feels? idk. my sense is that He really enjoys sucking on a penis... and maybe He wishes it was a cock? i don't know if it extends to Him wanting to give me pleasure or make me cum. He asked to suck it to help Him get hard and said He enjoys doing it. The fact that He said He's "not a cum swallower" at least gives me a little more feed back and helps me still be real since i don't have thoughts that He wants to make me cum. There'd be an extra mind fuck connection for me if He was purposely wanting to make me horny without cumming, but i don't get that vibe from Him. i've thought of inviting a third, though i don't really have a list or even a single guy to choose from. Partly, i'm reluctant to share Him, fears of losing Him if He likes the other guy better. The way i am wired is i do like to take multiple cocks, but one at a time. Even my fantasies of being whored out usually revolve around one Man orchestrating it for His pleasure. In that sense, for me all the men He is using to breed me for His pleasure are under His control, and its His lust/need that i connect to.

i don't perceive myself as having a particularly fine ass... kind of a boys ass, not one of those incredible bubble butts that many Men seem to sport (and drive me crazy). Had a neighbor i Louisville who had one of those "David" replica statues in their front yard, i was always tempted to turn it so the ass was facing the street. The ass on Him is mesmerizing. i started going to the gym about 9 months ago and have been going every other day and doing what i call my "skinny white boy routine." The first machine i do is the glut extension, and i can tell the difference after 9 months, which makes me feel pretty good. i sometimes handle it in bed at night to see if i can feel a difference, and it's definitely rounder and firmer now. ideally? i want an ass that screams "breed me" to Men who are wired to do so. Even though i do not have the emotional disposition to "show off," i don't honestly feel i have the kind of ass one can show off, but that does not keep me from presenting. i'll do that when ever i perceive a Man may have an inkling of interest or desire, and sometimes even when i don't perceive it from them, but am feeling heat for Them.

Bout 10 minutes ago, my sweet Latino FB... We talked some today, more than we ever have, i think He's shy, which when i think about it, so was i at 26. We realized we've been fucking for a couple of years now, but it's been a lot more frequent the last half year, often couple times a week. We're just really right and comfortable and natural with each other, "Fuck Buddies " is an apt term for us. There's a definite affection there, but not lovers or anything along that line. Lately He's been wanting to suck me first, and i was worried because i'm at the extreme end of total bottom and do not perceive myself as having a "cock" and it feels fake to be treated like i do. i'm not delusional, i know i have a penis, but sexually it's not a cock... probably closer to being like a clitoris than a cock, though i shy away at that word too because i have no desire to be a woman... i feel like i'm a cross between the two, idk, no real point of reference for it. But i like Him, and He's inexperienced and so i let Him suck my penis lately because He wanted to. Today i broached two topics that i've wanted understanding between us, and it went well. i explained to Him that i don't usually get my penis sucked or touched and that i do not like a Man to make me cum that way, that the only way i that feels natural for me to get my penis touched is if the Man is using it just to make me horny, not to make me cum. He told me He didn't think He is a cum swallower, and i told Him that's perfect for me since i don't want to cum that way. He just likes to suck, which i don't relate to at all because i love to suck because of the pleasure it gives a Man who loves to get sucked, but the way it is, it seems He's pretty close to the ideal of just sucking to get me horny, though He doesn't seem to have a mind fuck personality. The other thing i was able to talk about was Him continuing to fuck after He cums. i have had the feeling that He keeps fucking because He thinks that's what i want. He's BI. i was married to a woman for a long time and i trained myself early on with a woman never to cum until she had. i explained to Him that i'm not like a woman that i don't care about having my own orgasm, that having Him have His orgasm in me (among other things) is what i want/need, and whether it takes Him a minute or a half hour, what i crave is Him having pleasure the whole time, and when He is done, i'm done. in my experience with a woman, i wasn't done until she was pleasured, so it's totally opposite. He's pretty quiet, so i'm not sure how much He grasped or believed what i told Him, but i felt really good being able to put it in the open, i hope it will free Him to be completely Himself with me, because it's the real connection that matters so much to me, there's nothing like that sweet connection when both completely love the fuck and are not having to be something or someone they are not, just a match where each others need/desire naturally feeds the others. What we have is pretty basic and simple, but it is profoundly intense and satisfying for both of us. lol, sorry for the long story... this thread is sort of a fuck journal for me sometimes. ❤️

i get pleasure from small cocks from the pleasure the Top has using it with me. For me there are a lot of layers to sex, the physical is one of those layers of course, and i would not diminish that. On the other hand, just as important, and maybe more so to me is the connection of mutual desire. For me, a defining attribute of a Top is not His penis, but His 'cock.' i see that as way more than a physical organ. i have a penis, about 7.5 inches and a little above average girth, but i don't have what i perceive as a "cock" because i do not have the drive, need, desire to penetrate, fuck, orgasm and breed with it. And i connect to all of those things with a Man/Top. i've received smaller than 3 inch cocks with a Man, one was a FB for awhile, and He ended up possessing me as Top because i connected and bonded with all those other parts of His cock, and that was/is "pleasure."

i didn't have sex with Men, or otherwise, at that age... religion for me too. But i knew about it and was super frustrated because i wanted it soooooo badly. i read "City of Night" by John Rechy when i was 13. i was living in L.A. and the book is about a hustler coming to grips with being gay in Los Angeles. All the areas He wrote about were familiar to me. i used to sit in restroom stalls for hours reading the notes on the walls and listening to guys in the other stalls to see if they were like me, wanting sex. i knew about it, masturbated thinking of Men all the time, but didn't actually have sex with a Man till i was 27. i did make up for it though 😉

It depends. if i'm wanting multiple cocks one after the other, neither. Like others have noted, the flake factor is huge with either scenario. i go to an ABS if i am wanting multiple cocks. i find lunch or quitting time are best for Men wanting a quick nutt on the way home from work or at lunch time. If i am wanting quality over quantity, home with a fuck buddy. Once you know Someone, and they you, there's trust and kinks can be explored, or not, but at least you don't have to deal with flakes.

i'm more bottom than sub, so i do not have the disposition that i have to assume any position a Man wants... though i certainly want to please Him as part of who and how i am. i'm tall, 6'5", with long legs. Most guys cannot reach my hole in 'doggie' position, cannot remember the last time a Man even wanted me that way? Easily 98% of the time i am prone, on my stomach, and most Men take me with my legs closed. i love being on my stomach and encounter no issues with it, i love the vulnerability i feel and how in control He is. i'm pretty pliable, so if He shifts me on my side or back, i don't encounter issues. The only position i have real physical trouble with is me on top, straddling or riding his cock. i can count on less than one hand the number of times i have done that when a Top managed to manipulate my sub side over my bottom side. i blew out my left knee doing a jumping axe kick and landing wrong, so that position is really painful for that knee. i also don't like it psychologically because it violates something in me to be on top like that.

Just left.. my regular sweet Latino Fuck Buddy that i'm always writing about on this thread, usually a couple times a week. Really love Him, just a sweet, simple ongoing fuck relationship. He just got off work and can be spontaneous, so this time i prepped in anticipation and was ready for Him. He was tired after a long day working, pouring concrete, which i know is tiring work, been pouring sidewalks at my house a section at a time. But He's young and horny all the time, and i love being there for Him. i'm always waiting naked and ass up on my bed, He comes i says "Hi" and undresses, climbs up on my bed, straddles my thighs and lubes and wastes no time sliding in. He always alternates between hard and soft fucking, likes to press His hand oni the small of my back when He is fucking hard. Then He stretches out on me, gently kisses my back and shoulders, which for some reason turns me into a totally opened craving sub. He came pretty fast this time, i think He really just wanted to nutt... which suits me fine, i hate the feeling of a Man ever feeling like He has to perform, i get my deepest satisfaction when He is obviously happy and stated after. He was and i am. What could be more perfect?

idk, i''m sure i've received more than a thousand cocks, but it's not just getting fucked, i have had hook ups and Fuck Buddies Who purposely and purposefully opened me as part of Their breeding. To me that really fucking HOT part of that is it's usually subtle, like each time He builds on what He did before, especially found this with FB's and i get a sense that They are often molding me each time... which to me is a form of impregnation. BTW, i'm pretty proactive i putting myself out there, i advertise for Men like that in my profiles. Doesn't often work, a lot of guys have no idea what i'm talking about, but the Men who are like that do and we attract and feed each other. i should add that i'm not putting myself out there as an example of how it should be done, just sharing my personal experience. A lot of guys use dildos and plugs to open and stretch, and have a lot of success, i'm just not wired that way though.

For me it's been a result of getting penetrated and fucked by Men. Sounds simple on the surface lol. But while i'll receive pretty much any Man who wants to breed me, i do look for more than just any cock in a storm. The longer i have been at this, the more my sexuality is tied to my psychology, and the more i desire Men similarly integrated. i am deeply attracted to Men who are connected to what They are doing when They penetrate, fuck and breed another ( i go for Buddhist Men). i don't put things in my own hole to open it, i get the rationale, but it's not me. i want my hole molded and opened by the Men who use it. The result of that long term approach and desire for me has been a pretty damned accommodating hole. The only time i feel pain is when a Man with a really big cock just shoves in, but anymore, even that i adjust to pretty fast. i have not had to use lots of big dildos or plugs, it's fashioned by and for Men... which makes me pretty damned happy lol. That does have it's drawbacks in some ways, i still have never taken a fist, and i cannot receive ginormous dildos if a Man is inclined to penetrate me with them, but cocks? i cannot remember the last time a cock caused me pain. But my hole is changed. i know a lot of guys speak of their holes going back to 'normal,' mine closes some, but it is also permanently more open.

Nah, i don't want literally "torn." i had an anal fissure when i was younger, and that was before Men had permanently molded my hole and made it for receiving vs expelling and retaining. Anal tears are very painful, and as downtownswallow notes, leave you wide open to infection, you don't want what comes out of your ass going into your blood. With a tear, good luck being able to receive a Mans cock while you have it? i don't see that as a realistic scenario for most guys, more fantasy material? That said, for me the power dynamic between Top and bottom is not ever expressed by force, meanness or bullying. Those kinds of attitudes come across to me as weakness, not power. They seem compensatory, like the Man doesn't really know who he is and what he has with a 'bottom' guy like me. He doesn't have to do any of those things to make me who i am, i'm already that person. To me, the art and beauty of opposites attracting and bonding is natural. Personally, i love when a Man purposely and purposefully opens and molds my hole, not in a destructive way, but a creative way. i have a slash where i used to have a pucker and that is the 'mark' that Men have left on me. my hole is open and receptive, that is the power and mark of Men using it for Their need and pleasure, not because They are vicariously trying to destroy some inner demon by trashing who they want and need, but rather They are exercising Their very real natural power and position to mark and possess those who need/want to be marked and possessed by Them.

"Side" seems an appropriate term, and side dishes can enhance a good meal, though my hunger would never be filled without the main entree.

my "last load" was actually about an hour after this one. While i was still basking in the afterglow, and my brain high on endorphins, my other FB who i write about often these days, contacted me and wanted sex. i let Him know i had just been bred, not really knowing how He'd respond, i think He's considered me to be pretty exclusive. Not that He expects that, it's just the way its' been (for me, He has a girl friend, but i think i'm His only male fuck). He was not very vocal about it when i told Him, but He came right over. It did take Him less time to orgasm than it usually does, so maybe that's some sort of indication? idk, He's pretty shy about talking sex, or maybe He's just casual about it. After, we talked a little. He says He feels comfortable with me and says we could hang out and watch a movie some time? It has been awhile since i've had two Men one right after the other. Guess covid is officially over for me (kidding).

Yes, i'm ridiculously analytical, but ever since i left fundamentalism as an approach to life, it's different. i know longer need to understand or know why, even though i remain eternally curious. i used to have to be able to rationalize my behavior, and thereby rationalizing who and how i am. Now, i want to live real and honestly, but i don't have to know or understand why in order to accept how i am. Piss is always a good example for me. i know i am excited and engaged as fuck with a Man who wants, and even more if He needs me to be His toilet. Just writing that still feels kind of weird. i have come to understand that it's not the piss i am connecting with or wanting , but so many of things associated with it: e.g., willingness to give myself as a receptacle even for a Mans waste because i want Him so much and want His pleasure using me so much, and so many other connecting places. What i don't understand or know is why piss in particular? Sure, i can speculate, but i know it's just conjecture... but that doesn't matter to me, nor does it stop me from acting AND connecting with a Man who has the same desire/need. Honestly, that's the same with me across the board with some of the more general things like being gay, or being total bottom. my looking for understanding and knowledge brought me to one of the most liberating pieces of understanding (for me), and that is that i do not have to understand reality to fully accept and live in it. The important thing to me is seeing what is and living honesty with reality.

just left... second time with "Bigbear" He likes to get sucked first to get hard, but He got hard pretty fast this time. He also wanted me to straddle Him 69 while i sucked Him so He could "play with my pussy," He rimmed and fingered me, obviously wanting to open my hole. i do love that, as usual, more than the physical feel of it, the energy and control coming from the Man, the goal and raw lust to mold and open my hole sends me over the edge. Sometimes i'm a little embarrassed and unsure because some Men have this effect of evoking this moaning, almost squealing pussy sometimes. I wonder WTF, where did that come from? But it's like i get overcome and out it comes. He just used spit and His fingers were kinda rough when i was over Him, but i think He may have been doing that on purpose to sorta make my lips swell? idk. He flipped me on my stomach and fucked me hard with His beer can cock, and then would pull out and then used lots of lube and tried to get more fingers in. When He shot His load deep, i had the rare experience of actually feeling His cum shoot inside of me... that never happens, i have heard of others feeling the actual load, but i don't feel semen... i feel piss, but not semen, so that drove me wild too. i was babbling like a bitch saying "thank You " probably way too much. Another thing that almost never happens is after He pulled out, i felt His cum leaking down my leg. i work hard to keep a Mans seed because i really want to absorb Him, but He gapped me and i had not control to clench and hold it in. i was able to milk His cock when He came, but i guess i was to opened to be able to close it all the way after. It's starting to close now, but it's still loose. Fuck, i am both horny and satisfied.

Some thoughts. i think asking why we ask is also a valid, and important, part of discovery. Often, hidden in our questions, are spoken and unspoken standards we've been culturally conditioned by/with. For instance, on the surface we're gay, and we know a big portion of American culture still thinks gay people are sick and perverted. Age gap is another layer to that, though often the religious culture that calls us 'sinful and perverted' has a different standard when it comes to age. But no matter, religious or not, age gap figures in to a lot of peoples emotional, knee jerk standard of 'right and wrong.' Even if one questions and can be free of social notions that they do not deem as correct, we still have to live in a society where many/most hold those standards and will react to you and yours accordingly. I.e., expect to be judged and ridiculed openly and subtly. Also i think we can usually expect some of those notions to surface in our selves along the way. Even though we may not consciously accept all the cultural ideas we've grown up with, that does not mean they have not been ingrained in us. For instance, i have a kink where i am attracted to a Man who need/wants me to receive His piss. Obviously cannot be open about that to just anyone, at least, not without repercussions. Part of me deeply needs/wants a kind of affectionate degradation/humiliation that goes along with that. For the longest time, i couldn't figure out why. i'm not into being abused, i do not think i am less than and another is superior (not judging that, just saying it's not me). So i wanted to understand why i wanted/needed this? i've come to believe that my feelings of degradation/humiliation are real, but conditioned. my need desire is for a Mans desire/need/lust with me, and when He has this kink and i do to, it's a place of deep connection and bonding. So, even though i may be feeling degraded and humiliated, at the same time i am being affirmed and desired. What is being affirmed is real, it's a part of me. my real need outweighs my conditioning, gets overwhelmed by it making the experience paradoxical, but really a positive thing. Good luck trying to explain this to someone at church lol. i'd say follow your needs and desires, but do it eyes wide open. It's an opportunity for self discovery and affirmation of a part of yourself that has want/need.

This is me 100% i've taken lots of piss up the ass and love being impregnated that way. To me a Mans piss is another form of His seed. Hey, male dogs use it to mark Their territory. i was concerned about both taste and amount the first time i tried. Flow didn't challenge me but the taste did. i'd like to have a Man Who's well hydrated, i too think it would be som much better. i love the mind fuck of it, especially when the Top is into a sort of affectionate degradation, where He gets off on Me wanting it and me loving being His toilet. i love when a Man is obviously turned on by just His desire being enough to get me to want His cock pissing down my throat.