Thanks for your responses guys. I was stupid enough to take drugs at a party which made me more than a little hazy. I knew there were barebacker guys there. I'd told them their attitude was fun, but was clear that I don't actually do it myself. I was happy to watch, maybe even play a little, but that was it. Nothing bare. No fucking.
I felt really funny after a while and later learned that while I was slumped and hazy, I'd been injected with crystal meth.
Things are still a little hazy, but I know that two guys fucked me, one more than once, and were using words like "breeding" "poz" etc etc.
I was barely conscious, but I know that much happened for sure.
I am now back where I'm living in a non-English speaking area, not in my native country and with no Dr./health insurance etc. and don't know where else to turn for advice here.
I can take Atripla for PEP that somebody has given to me, but I'm having a massively difficult time with the side effects.
Long story short, I don't see how I can last 4 weeks. I'm in shock over what has happened, and on the pills (I'm 7 days in already) I am very rarely even lucid, never mind able to take care of myself. I think the more immediate danger is of me - in the hazier moments - jumping off the roof or something.
I keep thinking if I can just try and tough it out for even another week, perhaps I'll have reduced my risk of infection enough that I can just stop and get a little sanity/perspective back. I just cannot find any studies or information that talks about anything other than 4 weeks of treatment.
I wonder, if I can't last 4 weeks, am I just wasting time and pissing against the wind already, or is 2 weeks better than none?