barecubtop

I appreciate what has been said on this thread. I started dating my boyfriend a few months ago after a hookup-turned-date. We agreed to be open right from the start, and I believe it is the right thing for us (mostly because I know there are certain things he and I enjoy that we can’t provide for each other, so we might as well find those somewhere else). I knew I wanted to try the open relationship, where the “open” part would just be sex - no romantic or emotional connections with others. I’ve had some moments of jealousy when I found that he had hooked up with someone that I eventually talked myself down from. My current worry...or more accurately insecurity...is that he’ll hookup with someone and click with them like when we first hooked up. I don’t have any reason to believe he’s looking for that, and thus I feel my insecurity isn’t totally valid, but does anyone have any suggestions on how to deal with this kind of insecurity? (Private messages ok if you don’t want to respond here, thanks)

Hit me up on BBRTS...will be easier for me to get on there from my phone while I'm traveling than to log in here.

I'll be in town for a few days, May 18-21. Are there any Memphis men on here? I'll probably be pretty busy with a conference the entire time, but wouldn't mind some play in my hotel room.

This may seem a little odd to ask, but when you finger yourself (for your own pleasure, or to prep for penetration, etc...), what do you feel? I ask because earlier this year, when I would finger myself in the shower to check for cleanliness or as I was lubing myself up for penetration, I swear it used to feel as though once my finger was in far enough, there would be an opening (i.e. the rectum) that I could just wiggle my finger around in somewhat of an open space. Lately, since February when I had a chlamydia infection, when I put a finger up inside my hole I feel like my finger runs into what I'll call "tissue" and that "open" feeling is no longer there. A week or two after the antibiotics for the infection, I went back to my doctor and asked her to check things out again and she said everything felt fine. I'm not having any bleeding, or pain, or weird bowel movements or anything...but I'm still wondering why it feels different now. I've bottomed for my boyfriend since the infection has cleared up, and it feels good enough, but there are times when it hurts more than it has in the past also. So what do you guys feel when you finger yourself...do you feel tissue or do you feel somewhat of an open space after you get past your sphincter muscles? Do you think this is something I need to have checked out?

After over a month of not bottoming due to an STD and waiting to ensure everything was back to normal, my boyfriend fucked and bred me twice on Sunday morning. Relatively short fucks, but that was ok since I had tightened up after holding off so long and wasn't ready for a long session (that probably helped him too lol). It's been even longer since I bred a guy, though. Boyfriend is all top and has gotten some side action down in Indy where he works...so I told him I may need to go down there sometime soon and have some playtime of my own. ?

Hey, I think you've hit me up on BBRTS as well. Let me know when you go and I'll see about getting down there also. I agree with the other guys that say to go to Club Indy instead of The Works, although The Works hosts the CumUnion parties if you think you want to go to that. Regardless of the crowd, I prefer Club Indy because it has a hot tub to sit in and watch who's coming and going out of the wet area. Club Indy can definitely be hit or miss on the crowd, though. There are days when I've gone and had a great time with multiple guys and there are days when I've gone and didn't really play with anyone. Indy Leather Pride was this past weekend and I knew a couple guys that went to Club Indy on Saturday night...both of them said that the crowd wasn't really that great...which was surprising to hear. That being said, the apps are a good backup (or the bars, if you're that type I guess).

I've heard of the King's Island gay day, but haven't gone. From what I understand, it's not a hookup kind of thing..but where horny gay men gather...

I recently had chlamydia in my ass. A couple comments... 1) I had a 7-day course of doxycycline and my doctor said no sex for 10 days. She didn't specify "no anal sex"...she said no sex at all. So, I tend to follow those instructions, no matter how horny I may get. 2) The people I contacted about the infection were surprisingly positive about it - "sorry to hear it, but thanks for telling me." One has gotten back to me and said his test was negative, so that helps me to narrow down who I might've gotten it from, but I'm more concerned about making sure guys get tested and treated rather than to spread blame. 3) My antibiotics are done and my ass still doesn't feel "normal" yet...so I went to my doc for a follow-up. She suggested we give it more time to "heal" and said I should abstain from bottoming for a couple weeks, at which point it will be time for my regularly scheduled PrEP testing. So, now that the treatment is over, she's just advising not to do bottom but I have the green light for oral and topping.

Yeah, we can chat about it. I think it's a decent facility, but haven't had much luck there...the locals don't seem to go.

Doctor called on Saturday morning....Chlamydia. Started doxycycline that evening. I AM slightly concerned that it could be something more like LGV (thanks to a BZ regular who pointed this out to me in a private message). So, I'll be seeing how I'm feeling after a couple days and may ask for an extension of the antibiotic...

I want to put out some feelers for some pain I've had lately. Two weekends ago, I wrote on here that my new bf had bred me a couple times. The Monday after, I had multiple bowel movements in the morning followed by some anal pain that afternoon. The pain felt as though I had passed a large, dense stool - but the "stretched" feeling never went away like it normally would for that situation. It continued on Tuesday, along with making me feel I needed to go sit on the toilet when I didn't really (just gas, for instance). Fatigue also started Tuesday night. The pattern continued throughout the week - mild to severe anal pain all day long, and fatigue/fever in the evening. I started treating it with Preparation H (hemorrhoid cream) on Wednesday night, and it seemed to help...although at other times over the weekend it didn't seem to do a darn thing. Over the weekend I was in Chicago for my birthday weekend, and I think my adrenaline and internal body chemistry kept me going other than some downtime in the hotel before dinner each night where I just had to lay down and rest. This week, the fatigue and fever have been even worse, while the anal pain is still there but not nearly as severe. I went to my doctor yesterday and she said she didn't see/feel any external or internal hemorrhoids, but she did notice evidence of anal bleeding. She did an anal swab for STI's and had me do a urine sample for STI's as well. I doubt that it is an STI, but we might as well rule them out I guess. Question to BZ - what could this be? Have any of you experienced this? Could it be that I had bad hemorrhoids but they're resolving and the fatigue/fever just happens to be from a concurrent flu? Could there be something else happening down there that I should ask my doctor to look into? Could it have been from rough sex and it's just taking a long time to heal? What STIs would cause bleeding and the fatigue/fever? Thanks guys.

This happened to me twice. 1) Late night hookup in the Indianapolis area. Went to this guy's trailer (first sign that I should've just gone home) and tried to initiate sex, but he hyperfixated first on finding a third to join us and second on why he couldn't get the porn from his computer to show on his TV. After an hour of that, I just left. 2) Chicago hotel..the guy says he wants to come in, go straight to the bathroom to take a shower, then find me naked in bed. We do just that, but when he comes into the bedroom after the shower, he's on his phone....gives me lackluster head for about 30 seconds, then starts talking about this guy he was chatting with on his way downtown and gets on his phone. Five minutes later I get another 30 seconds of awful head, then he interrupts it again and wants to find some porn on this little mini iPad thing he brought with. Again, after about an hour, I asked him to leave. I even told him "dude, you came over here to get fucked and you didn't even get me hard at all..." and he was like, "yeah, I know...have a good day".

Maybe he wanted to hear you say it...that can be a turn on for a top, even if he knows you want it in your ass, hearing you say "fuck me and breed me" might make it hotter for him.

A continuation after the morning/lunchtime daddy bear left... Late afternoon - a guy starts responding to me on Grindr, says he's vers and over at the mall and wants to know if i want to play around before he goes back home (out of town). I am a little skeptical about this guy, not sure I'll really be into him. He says his cock is about 7-8 with a big mushroom head. I give in and invite him over. Do a quick clean out to make sure everything's ok down there if it goes that direction. He gets here, comes into the bedroom and strips down...I was right, not the most attractive guy, but his body was alright. Started sucking him and sure enough he has a nice long dick with a big head. I decide to go for it, lube myself up, lube him up, and sit on it...after the head slips in, it feels pretty dang good. Rode him for a little bit, then I got on my stomach and he got on top of me to finish off...grunted a nice load into me. Chatted for a bit and then he left. While I was getting that first load, another guy from a swinger's website had texted me. His profile on the website says he's straight, but as we're texting it comes out that he's very bi curious and wants to try it all. I ask if he wants me to come over and he says yes. I head over there, and in typical straight guy fashion, he mostly just lays there while I suck him and doesn't do much of anything else. His dick had a bit of a curve to it, so after I lubed my hole and his cock, I ended up having to start riding him facing away from him in order for things to fit right. Rode him for a bit and then got on my back...had to give him instructions on how to get going again (get on your knees, put my legs on your shoulders) but once he got going in me that way, it was only another minute or two until he was filling me up. Of course, after he pulled out he was done. It was almost as if I couldn't get my clothes on fast enough lol. Then I grabbed some dinner on the way home and figured I was done for the night. Was folding some laundry later when Grindr chimed and it was a message from a guy that had traveled through the area a couple times but never stopped. He said he was in town, which I assumed meant he wanted to hookup. Gave him my address and he responded with "10 minutes". So I got the lube and poppers out in my living room by the chair where I usually suck guys off, and was on my knees in front of it when he walked in. He dropped his pants and sat down, and I started sucking him. His uncut cock got pretty hard and big pretty quick. My whore side just said, "go for it" of course. So I lubed his cock up, and he tried to get behind me doggy style and started to jab his cock around my hole...I was like, "no...sit down again" and I spun around and sat on it. After a couple minutes of riding him in the chair, I got up, put some more lube on his cock, and moved over to where my desk was and leaned over it...he took the hint and started fucking me doggy style while I was bent over. Got pretty rough too...to the point where he was pulling out completely and ramming it back in, etc... eventually grunted a big load into me that I kept feeling trickling out for awhile afterwards. Tried to talk to him a little as he was getting dressed, but I don't think English was his first language - hardly said a word to me, other than "thanks" when I pointed out the wet wipes in the bathroom. So...all in all, I took 4 loads from 4 separate guys today. Feeling surprisingly good about it too!

Been awhile since I posted...since the holidays I've been exploring this new bottom side of me, and being vers is pretty cool LOL Other than a daddy type in his early 40's that I flip fucked with early in January (first weekend I think), I really hadn't topped anyone much. I've sucked a few married guys off and let another daddy type (close to 60, but pretty hot) fuck me for awhile one night. Then, on a weekend where we got a lot of snow on a Saturday, a top guy from Grindr hit me up on Sunday and asked me if I wanted him to come up (to my town) to hookup like we had been talking about. Well, it turned into hookup/dinner/cuddling/me sucking him off that Sunday. And then he came back the next day (Monday MLK day) for more of the same (cuddling, playing around, getting to know each other, food). Then the following weekend we spent Friday night through Sunday morning together. Then this past weekend we spent Friday night down in Indy with a nice dinner and hotel room. Through all of this, he's only bred me once (some hardon issues that we'll be working on) and I've sucked him off 3-4 times. So...we're dating. However, we agreed early on that we weren't going to be monogamous and had a discussion this past weekend that ultimately sounds like we'll do our own stuff on the side and only really share things with each other if there is some reason to. Since I won't be topping with him, I've been looking around a little. Last week, before the polar vortex moved in, I hosted a couple guys - a latino vers and a white twink. I fucked both of them off and on, latino guy was having trouble getting hard to help me fuck the twink but he was a great kisser. At one point when I pulled out of the latino, the white kid moved in and started fucking him. I had prepped just in case that night, so I let the white twink fuck me for a few also...but ultimately I got him on his stomach and bred a load nice and deep in him before they had to leave. Today I finally met up with a married guy on Grindr that lives about 20-30 minutes away. He was one that I was starting to think, "he'll never meet up, he's all talk" but damn I'm glad I didn't give up. Totally the type of daddy bear that I'm into. 40, hairy chest, beefy and muscular. Started off with mutual oral and some 69 (which I'm usually not into, but it worked today), then he said he wanted my ass. Yes daddy! Started off riding him to get myself opened up, and moved eventually to my back. Before he got off, he said he wanted to feel my dick in his hole. So we flipped and I fucked him doggy and on his stomach and back for while. Took a little break and then got him back inside me again, and was telling him how much I wanted his load in me...must've turned him on, because within a couple minutes he was shooting inside me nice and deep. Cuddle and chat break and then I got his legs on my shoulders again and fucked him...he wanted me to pull out and cum on him, so I did. A little more cuddle and making out, and I managed to get him hard again. We tried for awhile more with me on bottom, but he wasn't staying hard enough for a successful round 2. Ended up showering with each other before he left. Pretty sure he'll turn into a regular ?

I’ve always been a romantic and want to find love, but being a bb slut is making me rethink my definition of love. I enjoy hearing about guys on here that have a loving partner that shares them with others or is just as big of a slut as they are...and I think I would enjoy that kind of relationship. Or at least I’d give it a try. The question is how to find it... On the flip side, I’ve had a couple “dates” with a guy recently where we would probably be close to perfect for each other “on paper”, but in the little talk we’ve had about sex, he’s mentioned monogamy and I don’t get the impression he would be into bb or bathhouses, etc... I’ll pursue a friendship with him, but not sure if anything else will develop. I guess I want someone to cuddle with and spoon and wake up next to in the morning...but continue my independent whoring around in the process. ?

Sucked a couple guys off this week...one with a huge load he had saved up for a couple days. He said he wants to stop by weekly on his way through on the interstate. After my bottoming in Chicago, I've been hungry for more, but three tops ghosted me on Saturday. Today I messaged a daddy type on Gindr/Growlr and didn't get a reply. So I left my apartment to go get some dinner and do some grocery shopping. He responded while I was eating, and he was at the mall just across the street from where I was. Decided to skip grocery shopping and go meet up with him at the mall. We took a lap around the entire mall, just chatting - he was a bit of a dork/nerdy type, but attractive. Got to the door of the mall and I asked if he wanted to get on the road (he had a 2-hour drive home) or come over. He said he wanted to come over. Followed me to my apt, very quickly got the sex blanket on the bed, lube and poppers on the bedside table, and we just went straight into some intense making out and slamming our bodies into each other. Very hot chemistry right from the start. Lots of kissing, very little oral, then he lubed up and got inside me. Fucked me on my back for the longest time...and for me being newish to bottoming, he's the first that actually felt pretty good after a couple minutes...tried changing to doggy and me on my stomach, but wasn't as good, so he got me on my back again and eventually nutted in me. Kept fucking me for a few minutes after he shot too. Then we made out some more until he rolled over and let me mount him. Fucked him steadily for a few and unloaded my boy load into his daddy hole like he asked me to. Some more cuddling and making out while he stroked himself back to life...told him I wanted his second load in my hole again, but by the time he got close, he wasn't able to maneuver to get inside me again before he shot. We're keeping in touch for when he comes back through again.

I haven't been and not going this year, but it sounds like a hot time. Hope you guys share some of your experiences on here afterwards!

In my last post in this thread, I mentioned that I took a couple daddy bear cocks up my top ass at Steamworks in Chicago the weekend before Christmas. The following weekend, my train travel took me back through Chicago for a couple more days. Friday night - hosted a sex party in my hotel that I had listed on BBRT. I had approved 30 guys (out of about 50 that requested an invite), but only 4 showed up. The five of us had a good time, though...all 4 of them were vers, I fucked all of them and sucked all of them. They fucked and sucked each other also. Out of the 1.5 hours we played, I think only one of us unloaded (not me) but it was still a hot time. Disappointing that no one else showed, but oh well. I kept looking for more fun on the apps after they all left, but no luck. Saturday - a bi married buddy came up to meet me in the city and I took him to his first bathhouse. Got him checked in, showed him around, and gave him some pointers on how things worked. The crowd looked a little elderly and sparse when we first arrived, but I caught the eye of a cub that was walking around. Saw him on Growlr also, so I told him my room number and said to come get a load. He was in my doorway in a few minutes and left the door open for awhile while we played...then eventually shut the door and let me really fuck him. Gave him a nice big load. The rest of the afternoon at the bathhouse was frustrating...I wanted to fuck at least two buddies that I knew from previous visits (including @latinocumwhore1) but my dick just wasn't cooperating - wouldn't get hard or stay hard. I'm blaming it on all the holiday crap eating I've done lately - too much sugar lol). By the time we had to leave to take my bud back to the train, the crowd was really getting hot. My buddy said he had a great time (I'm sure he played safe, but he said that he both topped and bottomed), and we might head back up for our birthdays in February. Saturday night I was worn out in my hotel room. I browsed the apps most of the night, but nothing worked out. Sunday - after the bottoming I did the previous weekend, I was sorta horned up to take some more daddy dick. Browsed the apps and there was an older daddy type in the hotel next door with something like "birthday time" on his profile. I asked if he wanted to blow his birthday load and he said yes. We didn't discuss anal, but I figured if he wasn't too huge I'd go for it. He came over, I sucked him for a bit, then laid back and put up my legs and told him to go a little slow. He mumbled something about "usually play safe" but went for it. Doggy style ended up working better for him, and he varied his tempo a few times (think he was getting close a couple times) before I asked him to give me that daddy load. Sped up a bit and grunted his load in me. While he was cleaning up, another guy I had been chatting with all weekend messaged that he was on his way over. This guy was a hot daddy bear in his mid 40's, and more dom. His cock was bigger also, but I wanted it so bad I put up with the little extra pain at first. Had some hot daddy/son talk while he fucked me on my back, eventually blowing his load deep in me. After he left, I felt cum running down my legs and decided not to shower before I checked out of my hotel. I wanted to keep that cum in there and my hole sloppy for any potential other tops I might find later. Checked out of hotel and headed north on the el to go fuck a husky daddy bear up in Andersonville. Left a load in him and walked along Clark street to get a late lunch. Was hoping another daddy bear or two would get back in touch with me (had been chatting with a couple the night before) but no such luck. Eventually headed back downtown to get my bag at the hotel and uber-ed back to union station to catch my train. Looking forward to getting back up there to slut around again soon!

You still in touch with him? I'm near Indy and would breed that boy hole....

I’ve measured length but not girth. I keep a healthy skepticism about measurements, though.

The first weekend was fun at Steamworks, but looking forward to more this weekend. If you're seeing this, look up my BBRTS party on Friday night or message me to arrange some 1on1 or threeway fun if you have buddies.