So I just discovered I have crabs. It sucks! Started with an itch, which I brushed off because a random itch from time to time down there isn't abnormal. But then it wouldn't go away, and when I realized I kept having the urge to scratch I started to wonder if perhaps crabs was a possibility. Woke up in the middle of the night because the urge to itch got to be too much (I'm doing my best not to scratch), and when I checked my pubes I found a few of those pesky little suckers scurrying through my pubic hair.
I've never had an STI before, so I'm kinda freaking out. I've gone down the Google rabbit hole, and while I know that crabs isn't the end of the world, I still feel like a pariah right now. I'm so scared of passing it to someone else, even though I'm gonna hold off on sex until I know this is dealt with. There's also so much to do (treat my pubic area along with pretty much anywhere I have body hair, wash my bed sheets, wash clothes that may have been infected, treat again in a week and pray I don't get reinfected) that I'm overwhelmed.
For those of you who've had crabs before, how long did it take you to be completely rid of them? Is there anything I'm missing? For treatment I'm probably gonna get Nix from my local pharmacy and go into work late to apply it. Also already have a STI check lined up for Friday. That was originally meant to confirm whether or not I actually had crabs, but now I'm gonna use it to just check for STIs in general (I read a crab infection increases the likelihood that you were infected with something else too).
I feel so conflicted. A part of me feels like this is a rite of passage. I want to worship cock. I want to take loads from strangers. Basically, I want to be a cumdump. The risk scares me, but no matter how hard I can't shake this feeling. While I don't really hook up that much, the past few months I've gotten more action than ever before and have started to go down a road I had been too scared to travel. Actually not long ago I had a hook up that was strictly cock sucking (okay, some unexpected rimming too) and it was like everything was suddenly clear. Cock sucking and taking dick was my purpose, and there's no place I'd rather be than under a man with cock in my holes. I know that if I give in and let myself become the slut I long to be, STIs are part of the territory. But now that I've had one, I'm not so certain it is indeed worth the risk.
Sorry for the long ramble, but I just had to get all this out. I'm kinda at a crossroads, and I'm not sure what I'm gonna do once I'm crab free. Continue to look for stranger dick and look for a man to turn me into a no loads refused whore like I want to be, or stop slutting around and instead look for a freak into monogamy (no matter what, I do know I'm a pig lol)?
I'd appreciate any comments, advice, or feedback any of you have to give. I don't really have anyone I can be this candid with, and as far as I'm concerned only the men here on Breeding Zone can understand what I'm going through.