I thinks it s because my first fuck was raw and very erotic... I was younger and naive and accept to meet a guy older than me in a cruising park near my home by night... I was scarred but excited... the man waited for me smoking a cigarette, he smiled to me and said to fallow him... he was very muscular and sexy... we walked to the forest and he kissed me with passion , touching my ass... after I was on my knees to suck his nice dick and after he eat my ass very passionate and gived me a lot of poppers ( it was my first time too)... I was in heaven and I feel his dickhead on my hole... I was so hot that I beg it to fuck me... it was raw... passionate and no pain... his dick wet a lot... he cummed in me deeply and I cummmed in same time without touching me...
I was so happy ! After I tried with condom but it was really different and painfull so I decided to forget it when I can!