leatherpunk16

It could just also be plain dry skin. I get that itchy calf thing mostly in the winter of the year, and when I start scratching it, I can't stop. Could be eczema, even. Calming lotion usually helps. Try that. If it persists or worsens, then you can see a doctor. I'd try a dermatologist or your general practitioner.

I had this experience only once. Cumunion party at IML 2019. Fucked a bunch of randoms without ever finishing. They would often tap out or go find another top to get as many dicks as possible. I got fucked twice at the same party. This wasn't my normal behaviour, but I think I did it because I was taking the PreP for a couple months, and I was eager to get some use out of it. I must have nailed 15+ guys over that weekend.

Yes, definitely. I keep hearing "I just want to wait til after I get vaccinated". And it's hard when I see my peers fucking each other and making videos while I just sit here with my sensitive butthole and shrinking penis, and I can't do anything to keep them from atrophy. Also, people suck and have no follow-through these days.

Do you intend to continue the Roshoman-style storytelling? All the perspectives add some depth to the story, but it's a drastic change from the standard style of the series. Not a complaint, just an observation.

An update: I've asked around on the subject, and got an answer that addressed the cause. I can't mix oil-based lube with silicone toys! So I got some Swiss Navy lube, and after two experiments, there has been no blood. We found the culprit. Some of you will continue to push me to see the doctor. This is something that I will do, but before I go, I still have a question. Do I go to a general doctor - one who treats multiple things - or can I do this with a sexual health doctor? Sex is kinda how I ended up in this position, and I have a better chance of seeing such a physician if it's a better choice anyway. No more arguing over whether I need to see a doctor. I'll go. Let's focus on the other matter as well.

I also want to point out as a counter-argument that it's harder to do what is prescribed (smiling seductively) these days. These darn masks hide that feature, so we must find ways around doing that. Anyone got any good ideas beyond winking?

I will have to give this a try. I have no game when it comes to picking up guys. I usually have to be approached, and this results in me getting men who are often less than my standard.

One of my fuckbuddies in town pissed in me during our last play time. I wasn't aware he had done anything, didn't feel warmer at all, or some kind of swelling. He had to tell me, "I just pissed inside you!" I didn't believe him since I couldn't feel it. And then I went in the bathroom to relieve my own piss. Sat down because I didn't want my PA ring spraying all over his seat and floor. And then the torrent of his piss came out my backside. WOW. Couldn't believe that. Super disappointed that I wasn't aware it was happening.

That's a nice open hole!

For those who missed the status update a few days ago, I won a porn award!!! I got "Underrated Performer" from Ravens Eden. Last year I won "Best Newcummer", but we all know what happened a week after the win, and I really didn't have opportunity to make much of the distinction. Now that the world grinds back into turning in recent days, I have a new title, and hopefully directors get off their asses and put me in things already. Goodness knows I've applied over and over to a variety of studios, but I seldom get a response. The title means nothing if I just sit on the couch for the next year and wait for the phone to ring. That's kinda how I feel about it. It's like I set up a huge party, advertised it like mad on Grindr and other sites, and then I put my ass in the air, and not one of the tops showed up all night. (Surely some of you can relate to this.) I'm rambling here, but before I hit the "send" button, I want to thank each and every one of you who voted for me when the ballots were out. Thanks for taking the time to do it. Even if you voted only once and forgot about it after, IT STILL COUNTED. Couldn't have won any other way. Thank you for getting me here. Now - WHO WANTS TO BREED THIS AWARD-WINNING PORN STAR?!

I'm curious who is telling this story now. There's a short entry from Tom's ghost a ways back, but I'm sure it's not him, and that wouldn't make sense.

Ohhhhh, that is TWISTED

Well, THAT was rude! Shame on them. Way to turn off people who support your niche outing, Hoist! You've got me thinking. I've got a bud who does lots of biking up in the forests around Seattle. He will probably know a place or two on the trails that could do for a mud pit.

[think before following links] https://youtu.be/kLyC850K8M4 This is pretty fucking awesome. I love the perfect hawk, and the mud is really good, too!

A recent communication with a rubber dragon has found my issue. As I suspected earlier, it's the lube. I'm using Elbow Grease lube, which is oil-based. And the Square Peg toys are silicone. This can cause all sorts of issues, and I think we found our culprit. I'll be going to the local leather store this week for some Swiss Navy, which always worked before and never did this crap. But it would probably still be a good idea to go to the doctor to at least make sure there's no permanent damage. Also, I'm getting to an age where the colon may start to go. Don't men in their 40s and 50s start getting colonoscopies and stuff? And I just may be due for one in the near future.

This brings back memories.

Because I tend to overdramatize. It might not be serious enough to warrant a visit. I could just refrain from put things in my butt. Problem solved.

My STI results are totally normal, so we can rule that out. I think it may be the lube, and also just getting too aggressive with the play. I want to feel something, I want to feel like my hole was thrashed. And I'm running out of time to get opened up, so it's probable that I try to rush the gape. Making up for lost time. And every time I use the Egg Plug, this happens. When I get a dick in there, this doesn't happen at all. Why should a toy have a different result? Before going to the doctor, I'll try one more experiment. I'm getting some different lube, and I'm going to try not using the plug. If it comes out clean or just poopy, then I think we found the culprit. Also, it doesn't really "bleed for three days." An exaggeration. It's a small amount, and comes only with a poo the next morning. After that, it's stopped. Rosebuds don't happen overnight, and I mustn't try to rush the process. And for the piggies out there reading this, if I'm going to bleed like this, it'll be one less thing you have to do to infect me. 😈 A built-in feature, lol.

I actually got an incredible amount of sex last year. It sounds weird to say, but between the start of March and mid-July, I got nothing. I was a good boy, but I was also pumped full of synthetics. One can imagine how horny I was at the end of it, and I lived in an area where we weren't hit too hard by the disease. Local hookups, however, just weren't easy - in fact, I think I had to go elsewhere for them. My partners were similarly prepared, and none of us got sick. When I reached Seattle, I was just off my steroid cycle, and climbing the damn walls. I actively pursued a detectable poz guy for a couple weeks until it was apparent that nothing would happen between us. If my housemate had a guest over, I fucked him. Then I started focusing on higher quality guys, and had some really amazing sex with them in the autumn. So far in 2021, I haven't had a drop of cum anywhere near my hole, nor have I shared mine with anyone. People around me are at a point where they are waiting until they get vaccinated before they'll commit to anything, even just meeting. It's kind of annoying, but I get it. Makes sense and is much safer that way. By summer, I expect I'll get more porn stuff to do, and all this nonsense will be over.

I can't say I know him, but I don't like his sleeve. It looks like multiple flavours of Hubba Bubba gum got chewed up and spread out over his arm. Bleh.

It's bright. I'm not finding blood stains in my underwear, so it's not continuous.

You *would* expect blood? I'm hoping that's a typo. Since posting, another thought: I've been using Elbow Grease. Maybe that's the wrong lube to use on a toy? Could that be the problem?

Something has changed in my butthole. Since I started bottoming, I've been playing with it more often. I used to do just fine with toys, but lately, something is very wrong with my hole. It seems that every time I get the toys out, I get a good hour's session out of it, but I bleed for three days after. There was no initial pain or problem, nor did I struggle to do insertions. I warm up with some lubed fingers - I've been using Elbow Grease because I have so much of it - and I get the little grey plug inside when I'm ready. If I'm feeling piggy, or like it's not enough sensation, I go up to the dildo (Square Peg "Leo", size S), and get a little more with that. When I'm sorta ready to be done with the in & out motion, I put in my Square Peg Egg, size M. I can wear this for a little while, maybe 30 minutes. I don't go for marathon sessions. I know full well that I have to take my time stretching and deepening, so I impose a limit on my play time. When the time is up, I take it out and clean my toys, and put them away. And when I poo the next day, I get a mixture of brown and blood. This isn't normal, and I didn't used to get this. Now I do all the time. Last time, it was so bad I stopped practicing for a full month. Am I doing something wrong? Is this going to happen on a porn set when I get railed hard by a PERSON? Help me out here.

When I was first exploring my sexuality a decade ago, I was hooking up left right and sideways. This eventually caught up with me when I got gono for the first time. But I didn't really enjoy those hookups. Most of the guys were the ones who couldn't get it any other way, so I was doing a community service by helping them out. Did I ever have a second go with someone? Rarely. Some of my bathhouse hookups make me shudder nowadays - "I let him put his dick in me? Fuck, what for???" As I've aged, I have been more selective about my partners. I'm trying to get more guys who are my type rather than just spreading my legs for anyone, or squirting my seed at anyone. I like to have fulfilling sex, and I'd like to not be visually offended by his appearance. When he is unpleasant to look at, my dick doesn't stay hard. This can be either bad teeth, horrible tattoos, or something shallow like that. Nowadays, I'm trying to find someone to connect with and not just on a physical level. My late husband was not a looker - even worse when he shaved his beard. But I loved him. I put his appearance aside for the wonderful soul who loved me so strongly for two years. And this opened me up again to less-attractive men: plain, but not unsightly. I'm currently dating someone who will never be a model or win a beauty contest, but I don't care about that. What matters to me is his heart. And his dick, of course. That's one of my deciding factors. If he has a huge dong and wants to breed, I willingly waive the question of his appearance. I won't see him much with my face buried in a pillow, or blindfolded. When he's attractive but his dick is average or under, I don't tick that box and we proceed accordingly. There are lots of factors and it's different for everyone with me. I guess I am *super* fussy, but I also have respect for myself. I met a hung poz dude in January last year. We had a date, but he was a total jerk, and not that attractive, plus his standards were shit. There was no way we were fucking because he turned me off so. See? It varies.