leatherpunk16

I can't say I know him, but I don't like his sleeve. It looks like multiple flavours of Hubba Bubba gum got chewed up and spread out over his arm. Bleh.

It's bright. I'm not finding blood stains in my underwear, so it's not continuous.

You *would* expect blood? I'm hoping that's a typo. Since posting, another thought: I've been using Elbow Grease. Maybe that's the wrong lube to use on a toy? Could that be the problem?

Something has changed in my butthole. Since I started bottoming, I've been playing with it more often. I used to do just fine with toys, but lately, something is very wrong with my hole. It seems that every time I get the toys out, I get a good hour's session out of it, but I bleed for three days after. There was no initial pain or problem, nor did I struggle to do insertions. I warm up with some lubed fingers - I've been using Elbow Grease because I have so much of it - and I get the little grey plug inside when I'm ready. If I'm feeling piggy, or like it's not enough sensation, I go up to the dildo (Square Peg "Leo", size S), and get a little more with that. When I'm sorta ready to be done with the in & out motion, I put in my Square Peg Egg, size M. I can wear this for a little while, maybe 30 minutes. I don't go for marathon sessions. I know full well that I have to take my time stretching and deepening, so I impose a limit on my play time. When the time is up, I take it out and clean my toys, and put them away. And when I poo the next day, I get a mixture of brown and blood. This isn't normal, and I didn't used to get this. Now I do all the time. Last time, it was so bad I stopped practicing for a full month. Am I doing something wrong? Is this going to happen on a porn set when I get railed hard by a PERSON? Help me out here.

When I was first exploring my sexuality a decade ago, I was hooking up left right and sideways. This eventually caught up with me when I got gono for the first time. But I didn't really enjoy those hookups. Most of the guys were the ones who couldn't get it any other way, so I was doing a community service by helping them out. Did I ever have a second go with someone? Rarely. Some of my bathhouse hookups make me shudder nowadays - "I let him put his dick in me? Fuck, what for???" As I've aged, I have been more selective about my partners. I'm trying to get more guys who are my type rather than just spreading my legs for anyone, or squirting my seed at anyone. I like to have fulfilling sex, and I'd like to not be visually offended by his appearance. When he is unpleasant to look at, my dick doesn't stay hard. This can be either bad teeth, horrible tattoos, or something shallow like that. Nowadays, I'm trying to find someone to connect with and not just on a physical level. My late husband was not a looker - even worse when he shaved his beard. But I loved him. I put his appearance aside for the wonderful soul who loved me so strongly for two years. And this opened me up again to less-attractive men: plain, but not unsightly. I'm currently dating someone who will never be a model or win a beauty contest, but I don't care about that. What matters to me is his heart. And his dick, of course. That's one of my deciding factors. If he has a huge dong and wants to breed, I willingly waive the question of his appearance. I won't see him much with my face buried in a pillow, or blindfolded. When he's attractive but his dick is average or under, I don't tick that box and we proceed accordingly. There are lots of factors and it's different for everyone with me. I guess I am *super* fussy, but I also have respect for myself. I met a hung poz dude in January last year. We had a date, but he was a total jerk, and not that attractive, plus his standards were shit. There was no way we were fucking because he turned me off so. See? It varies.

Boy, this is an old one! But I wonder what became of this user? He tested poz when he really didn't want to. Seven years later, I wonder how he's coped with it so far. That gives me an idea: "Breeding Zone Members - Where are they now?" But people come and go all the time from a chat board, so it would be difficult to track down some people. And it's kinda invasive. Maybe not a good idea.

I think I figured it out. A spin-off? Okay.

I once attended a Kink U class hosted by Chris Wideman in Chicago. I think that was in 18 or 19. Do you use Twitter? There's a thing called Fistly (or something) that talks up teaching fisting techniques, but it's a paid subscription to it. I think it's more lecture than it is lab, and one really needs the second half to make sense of such a course.

Last August I played with a guy who used to live in Chelsea, a hotbed for the gays during the outbreaks in the 80s, and he never got tested. He and his friends were constantly recharging each other. When he finally got treatment, his CD4 was down to NINE. Knockin' on death's door! He's better now, but god damn that was close.

Bravo.

I would probably take myself off the market for a while until I had accepted it. Only close friends (probably those who have it also) would know at first. My family doesn't need that ammo. As for taking meds, it depends on how I really react to diagnosis. We can show all kinds of bravado and say "No meds when it happens for me!", but is that the truth? Not all of us are really ready for that news, and when it becomes reality, are we under any obligation to stick to what we said before? I think not! If I actively chased - fucked whoever, begged for their toxic load, etc - then probably no meds for a while. It was what I wanted, so let's put it to use. Let me do some damage first. Meds can come when the party is over and I've had my fun. But gifting only the willing. I don't think I could live with myself to stealth and cause harm to others when they weren't expecting/deserving it. If I was surprised by the news - a random encounter, or a stealthing, or an accident on set - I would take it harder. It wasn't planned. Maybe my mind was elsewhere at the time. Maybe it was just lousy sex and deemed "not worth it" immediately after it was over. Let's equate that with getting a parking ticket and someone broke into your car in the same night. It will be one or the other. At least I have a plan.

One must also consider the top's diet. Is it high in sodium? Did he eat asparagus or garlic recently? Does he take any medication? Is he high on shrooms? These things all affect the taste of piss. And if he's ingested something you don't like (or maybe have an allergy to), it could make you sick. Contact high can happen in WS, and if you're sober or in recovery, you might want to be a little selective about the fountains you drink from.

Do you know if you can take a fist? How are you with toys? Can you finger yourself? Those are important to know before beginning this activity. Also, get cleaned out first. It helps a lot.

He is really a decent guy. Sexy, too. He asked me to do a film with him, but he's in Palm Springs. I have to wait a bit before I can go and do it.

Welcome, Steve. It's Shannon O'Feral here. (But go introduce yourself over in the General Topics forum for those who don't know who you are.)

You *might* find something through Fist Alley or Dark Alley Media. They specialize in that kind of thing, so I doubt they would shy away from it.

It felt very run-of-the-mill as it started. Then it gained momentum and it was so much that (for me) it became a poz-a-thon that I felt was like too much of a rich dessert. Now that you're 50 chapters into it, this has settled down and you're keeping an even pace. The pacing is better and it has become interesting again. Never mind the spelling and grammatical errors - English may not be your first language, I don't know you at all, so I can't be fair about it. We have another writer here who has clearly been using a translator program and posting the outcome as his story, and it's hard to read because it's word-for-word literal translation instead of expressing the meaning of it. You are clearly not doing that. This is not the issue I had with it at the start. As I said, it has got better and I don't want to turn this into a critique thread. You're doing well and keeping your readers engaged by providing regular updates and story progression.

I'm going to interrupt to say that this has become quite the story. From an ordinary horny guy who just wanted to fuck and got pozzed to a really unbelievable overwrought story that was almost unreadable, and now to a genuine tale that shows real human characters and emotion - this has got it ALL. It's come a long way in such a short time. Thanks for sharing your gifts with us.

It's a big and permanent decision. I would say take the PreP and go be a slut. You seem to enjoy it, and until you're sure what you want, you shouldn't deny yourself. Or you can go chasing bugs and see what happens. Just be sure it's what YOU want.

I'm still new to the whole concept, but I'm in Seattle. That may be the closest you find in WA. If you're still here, let's chat even though this post is over two years old.

I find myself mystified by the bottoms I have fucked and bred when they say they don't need to get off. If we're not swapping seed, did we really have sex? Or are you just an object for me to use? I don't like the latter, and the former makes it feel incomplete.

Wow. This dude is straight from hell. Pig Prod, of course. Not a surprise.

I had to move my page to the alt account, so I'm now at @feral_o. Need new people to follow and reclaiming some of the old ones from what WAS the primary account until I got over 3.3k followers.