How Old Were You When You Took Your First Load?

[rogerray65]

I wasn’t molested as a kid, but I knew at that time that I wanted to be. Even as a kid/pre-teen, I knew that I was attracted to older men sexually. My first wet dream was about giving a blow job to a heavyset older friend of my parents. To this day I regret that I didn’t have that older man to teach and train me to be his young lover. Kisses!

[AlwaysOpen]

On 5/19/2021 at 9:18 AM, evilalex said:

Do you think it had an impact on you?

The local small town postmaster was the one who regularly tried to get a hold of teenage boys, me included. I don't know how much he impacted my sexuality, or life, but I do absolutely believe he jaded me as to who I prefer to have sex with.. as in NOT with older men, cigar smokers, or guys unable to get hard. When I was 25, that wasn't too big of a barrier, but now at 65, I think it has a big impact on who I get to play with.

I know of 2 other guys from my town , and my age range, who he "seduced". 1 lives in a subsidized housing situation in Seattle and is a level 2  registered sex offender. The other guy lives in a low income housing development. Not saying the old man disrupted their paths in life, certainly both might well have ended up in the same situation. But I do wonder how much they got off track because of his attentions.

[Edinjo62]

I’ve been fucked many times as a kid, but I’ve always seduced older men and other boys. I made them fuck me, to use my body, to fill me with cum. I loved it and offered myself to everyone, mostly successfully. There were other times and no one was afraid to use me to satisfy their sexual need, if I would make it clear that I wanted to. In the summer, I would always walk around in a very short shorts, with no underwear. They were so short that my dick and balls were visible as I sat and spread my legs. Sometimes I would go out without shorts, just in a long T-shirt.   I often used hitchhiking to go to the beach because I always bathed naked on remote beaches. If the driver noticed that my dick and ass were naked under the shirt, everyone would get horny, and with a little encouragement from me he would fuck me in the first convenient place along the road.

[Opensesame]

On 1/8/2022 at 5:04 PM, hntnhole said:

These are tragic recitations of early-to-mid childhood violations.  I am so very sorry these events took place.  

It does bring to mind a question though:  For clarity, there is never ever any excuse for an adult to sexually molest a kid. 

The question though, is - (and I believe our sexuality is an in-born part of who we are to become when we grow out of childhood), I'm wondering if there are unwitting, tell-tale signs we emit as little kids, that we're born to become gay.  Not overtly sexual hints - but something else, that inhuman older men, frustrated for whatever reason, perhaps culturally pressured into living a lie - can recognize in a little kid.  Is it possible that we unknowingly - in complete childhood innocence - tip our hand somehow as to who we will grow up to be?  Or, does the violation in and of itself create the sexual identity?  Just because I don't believe that, doesn't mean it's impossible.  I'm no trained sexuality therapist ... 

Anyone have thoughts on this ???

Many, many straight young men have been victims of pederasts- they’re simply not reading this forum to comment. I believe the key elements pedophiles and abusers look for are loneliness/detachment/shyness and general naïveté, whether or not one is a budding gay. They take advantage of a need for attention and affection, and a child’s curiosity and willingness to please an adult. My cousins were molested by their priest after their father died and their mother had to work. Both straight- one got through it and to my knowledge has led a good life following a brief period of homophobia. His brother was fucked up and died on the streets after fathering a child.  

[hntnhole]

Thanks, Opensesame.  I can understand how a kid - lonely, detached, shy, naive might be taken advantage of.  It's tragic and detestable, but I know it happens.  

I'm sorry to know that your cousins suffered that terrible violation (at the hands of a priest - no surprise there).  Thus your answer would be akin to "none", in that the circumstances that drew the attention of the cleric were not innate, but part of their life experience?  

Again, thanks for the reply.

[evilalex]

5 hours ago, Edinjo62 said:

I’ve been fucked many times as a kid, but I’ve always seduced older men and other boys. I made them fuck me, to use my body, to fill me with cum. I loved it and offered myself to everyone, mostly successfully. There were other times and no one was afraid to use me to satisfy their sexual need, if I would make it clear that I wanted to. In the summer, I would always walk around in a very short shorts, with no underwear. They were so short that my dick and balls were visible as I sat and spread my legs. Sometimes I would go out without shorts, just in a long T-shirt.   I often used hitchhiking to go to the beach because I always bathed naked on remote beaches. If the driver noticed that my dick and ass were naked under the shirt, everyone would get horny, and with a little encouragement from me he would fuck me in the first convenient place along the road.

How old were you when this started?

[BannedWord]

On 1/29/2017 at 2:48 PM, Imopentoanything63 said:

Hey just wondering if any of you guys were ever molested as a child and that's why you're a big now I was molested for years and I absolutely think that's why I'm a nasty Pig right now just curious about all this and would like to talk about it send me messages if you want to chat

No, I think I was the predator in more than a few occasions. First one was with a priest who taught at my school that had a bit of a reputation for liking boys. Saw him in a parking spot by where adults come to hook up in a woods, so I surprised him, let him know I'd be into it, and then he blew me in the back of his van. Unfortunately I was just above the upper end of his scale so I'd already aged out by the time we did anything.

There's another incident involving a younger girl, but I'm not going to break the rules to describe it. First it was a straight kind of thing, and we were both really young. 'Nuff said.

[Wetgapingbimbo]

My church priest taught me to love cock when I was 6. Once I was stretched enough for it not to hurt sliding down his 11 inch dick he introduced me to the local bishop and his Great Dane. I found I loved wearing latex and servicing other priests. Still do. I fantasise about being in a church full of priests and nuns, me wearing a latex nuns habit. Getting slammed,  brought to orgasm over and over then having a tranny nun fuck me and choke me till I blacked out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Willing]

My step dad caught me wanking once, I was disappointed that he didn't molest me,  I would have been a willing participant.  He was a old gray headed man with a big nose, his hands were huge to, so you know what else was big 💧🍆

[Lustofalltrades]

I sometimes close my eyes and try to think back as far and as young as i can in an attempt to maybe discover a brushed under the rug memory of possibly being touched or more as a child, but nothing ever surfaces. 

The reason I do this is because i am privately a hardcore sexual deviant. I've had a few past GFs tell me i am a strong sexual deviant. They tell  me that they think i might produce more testosterone than other men because of how overwhelming my orgasms are, and how much cum my balls produce and unload. And that I get very primal when fucking and i get a particular look in my eyes, and I let out guttural noises and growls when reaching climax and cumming. 

My ex would have to put her hands over my mouth and press down hard to keep my screams/moans/growls to a minimal level so people don't hear us and think im killing her LOL.

My orgasms are so intense EVERY TIME that i sometimes feel like there is a good chance i will die of a heart attack one day while shooting my load.

 

Anyway, back to the topic on hand....

Im pretty sure I was never molested, however like I said, Im pretty sure im a sexual deviant...

When I was around 10 years old i saw my older brother (4 years older) put some magazines under the dryer. We didn't ever get along so later when i got the chance i snuck to the dryer and pulled out  a few magazines - they were Playboys.

At that age all I desired or had any kind of sexual thoughts of were tits.  I wanted to kiss and suck tits so bad. When i would look at their vaginas, being Playboy and all, they were either hairy or trimmed down to very short hair, and I remember thinking to myself, why are the womens pussys always red around the hole, as if the skin was irritated from shaving.  LOL I can't remember if I got hard or not.  I can honestly say that at that age I had ZERO clue about sex. I  didnt even know what having an orgasm was. I didnt know i was capable of shooting sperm from my dick!! 

 

Moving on a few years, i guess i was around 11 to 12 years old, my family lived in an apartment building with this one family who lived above us and had a boy almost my age. I think i was about 2 years older at most. 

And this is where I dont know how I learned such behavior, but we would play every day together and my family had a nanny that looked after us, basically she was like a 2nd grandmother or mother to me, and sometimes the kids mom upstairs asked our nanny if she could also watch her boy,  we will name him tim. 

I remember this one day very well, we were in the living room building a fort out of couch cushions and up against a table holding pictures on it. While inside the fort i remember i would tell tim about my dick and it was hard. And sometimes i would rub it against my dog but she didn't like that. 

Side story here real quick: incidentally, when i was about 13 to 14 I would be home alone for a few hours daily, and I would take full advantage of that time to be naughty and watch my dads very dirty anal VHS and jerk off and eat my own cum. I would also csll my dog over, pull my pants down, get on all 4s and spread my asshole and I didn't have to put anything on it to entice my dog. She would immediately start licking my asshole and i would spread it as wide as i could and the dog would really get in there. She enjoyed it so much that i would have to end it or she would just continue to lick my ass. These feelings were new to me so I would stroke my hard hanging cock while getting my asshole licked and within a minute or two I'd be blowing yet ANOTHER huge load into my carpet. My god, if anyone ever put those backlights on that show biological matter, hahshsha well lets just say they would probably think the color of the rug is supposed to be cream colored hahah

 

Back to the fort and tim my upstairs neighbor. My dick was hard and i pulled my pants down and then i felt his dick through his sweat pants snd then put my hand down the front of his pants and felt his soft dick. It started to get hard snd he pulled his pants down to around his ankles as well.  We laid there on our backs and i had my hand holding and stroking his now hard dick.  

It never went any where, but frequently my dick was hard and i was always touching his dick. 

Around 15 my hormones were raging. My cousin was 2 years younger than  me and we were inseparable. Earlier that year i had discovered ejaculation by rubbing my insanely hard dick on a pillow laid out on the edge of my bed.  I remember pumping faster and faster and my eyes going crossed snd everything getting blurry and the feeling in my dick like it was going to pop out of its skin!! And i shot a load all over my pillow and sheets!

I was worried something bad at happened for a moment or two, hshah, i thought i broke  my dick...

Well, discovering i could cum changed everything. Now my hormones were really raging and I had the full time job of having to jerk off and unload my eager balls several times a day.  My yearning for tits changed to a desperate need to park my cock balls deep in a slopping wet pussy. 

Since that wasn't happening I turned to my cousin who would jerk off with me to the VHS tape. we would lay next to eachother and cum into tissues.

One day i was so horny and so was he that  i suggested we suck eachothers dicks. He was very anxious about it so instead he got naked and laid down on his back in my bed with one very thin sheet over him and i got naked and couldn't wait to cum. My dick was as hard as a rock. I lay on top of him and we rubbed our dicks together, but it was clear thst I was much more into it as well as horny snd such than he was. But within a minute I swear i busted my load all over the sheets and he felt my cum my heavy droplets of warm semen landing on his dick.

Other times I would rub my dick inti his ass through his jeans while i had my jeans on too and id cum in my pants all the time.  

One day we were both so horny that HE suggested we lube our holes with soap and take turns fucking eachother.  I wanted it so bad. To feel a warm real life piece of flesh hole squeeze around my cock and oh to unload in Him. But my parents came home AS we were soaping up our assholes. 

 

Other times i would snoop through my parents room and one day i found Polaroids of when my mom was suoer young, like 19 years old, and she was naked and tied to a chair and gagged. She had hair covering her holes but there were a few good pics of her spreading her holes good enough for me to see my own moms fuck hole!! It turned  me on so much that i jerked off to the pics of her and fantasized about  her being able to sense how bad as a teenager i needed to be drained and she would suck and fuck me every morning and night...

I snooped further and found her vibrators an dildos and thats when i really began to have fun with my asshole.

I couldn't wait to get home every day from school, i would put the VHS tape in and start sticking her toys up my ass as i jerked off. And i fucking loved that she had a few small ones and then progressively larger to HUGE and I loved forcing them into my hole. Loved stretching my hole and loved pushing them out when cumming. And my orgasms would be monstrous. HUGE droplets of cum splattered their rug. And the dog would lick at them in the evening while I talked to my parents and I would laugh in my head. 

So all of that turned me into a man that got curious about ass, and it went from obsessed with womans asshole to indulgent incessantly into searching the internet for SLOPPY GAY ASSHOLES FILLED WITH SPERM!!

I WANT cock BAD.  I want to swallow cum  BAD. I want to blow my load inside a guys well fucked mancunt.

And I WANT to be fucked and filled with jizz BADLY.

[Guest]

I was 5 when my dad and one of his work buddies that he used to hang out and party with started playing with me. They were aggressive, but got me partied up before they started, so I enjoyed it most of the time.

[blackrobe]

On 3/7/2022 at 11:00 PM, pervpnp said:

I was 5 when my dad and one of his work buddies that he used to hang out and party with started playing with me. They were aggressive, but got me partied up before they started, so I enjoyed it most of the time.

I'm not sure what you mean by "partied up"?

[Hungryred87]

I was 5 my cousin wanted me to sit on his lap, he paid me 3 dollars to to tell anyone.

He is 10 years older than me. He came in me so quick. I remember pain of being dry fucked. 

I don't know if this trauma me I didn't know till later.

[BarebackBrat]

While I don’t know how much of what I read here is real or pure BS I will say I’ve lied on sites and said I started riding my dads cock at 4. Well honestly he never touched me but supposedly molested my older sister. I do have a half brother, same dad, who went to prison for sex crimes against a minor.  Two years ago I texted my half brother and told him about my desires for cock hoping he’d want to fuck me. That didn’t happen.  
I have an uncle who had incest porn revolving around daddy daughter and my sister claims he touched her. Then my stepdads brother did rape me when I was like 8/9 but he was barely a teenager.  
I did fool around with a girl my age when I was 4/5.  She obviously didn’t have good upbringing either. 
but while I certainly wish dirty bad things woulda happened to me not much did.  But my fondness of fem clothes and sticking objects in my ass has seemingly always been tgere

[Hairypiglet]

My parents were very sexual. Mom cheated on dad with the neighbor and they all divorced when I was 4. Can't say I remember seeing anything, but I must have because in preschool, I had a girlfriend. It wasn't just me. It was me and another boy. We each had a girlfriend. We were all friends. Used to sneak away and kiss under the playset. But I still remember kissing her and thinking about him next to me. The four of us would romp around, but it was the 80's. We had been conditioned to be heteronormative even though I knew I wanted him.

A year later I had a "girlfriend" in kindergarten, but I never kissed her. She was just like my best friend and adults joked we were boyfriend and girlfriend.

In 2nd grade, my best friend was John Higgins. Gorgeous firey red hair and an amazing bubble ass. I would sprint to get behind him in line after recess and bump my crotch into his ass then apologize that I was pushed.

When AOL came into play I was literally a child preying on men, hunting, and begging to be kidnapped and raped. The news made it all sound so normal and easy. Trying to teach us to fear predators, but I wanted them. I wanted to find one who would do to me all the things the news was trying to condition me to fear.

It never happened. It's apparently not as common as everyone tries to say it is. I would gladly have volunteered to be kidnapped and kept by a 40yo pedophile and I had a bubble butt and long feminine platinum blonde hair and blue eyes, so would think men would have fought over pounding my ass like I was Marilyn Monroe or James Dean, but I wasn't ever that lucky.