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DELIVERING HIS FANTASY FUCK I had a Grindr message from a 27 yr lad asking if I needed fucking. When I told him I did he offered to head over and fuck his poppered up anon load in. He also asked if he could bring his own lube to use. That wasn’t a problem, saved using mine. I was hooded and ass up in my jock and CUM DUMP socks when he arrived. He just whipped his shorts off and stood there in his white T-shirt, white Nike socks and AF-1 trainers. He was already semi and slapping his 8inches aginst my hole. He continued to popper up. He pressed his precum oozing head against my hungry hole and I moaned with pleasure. I thought It odd when he said he couldn’t wait to use this lube on me. I felt the cold liquid as he poured it over my hole and down my crack. He teased my hole open with it. He poppered up some more. He was clearly lubing his dick some more with his lube. Then he pushed his raw dick inside me. He started pounding away, giving me a good hard fucking. I loved how he occasionally gave me a verbal reminder he was in charge. I got called a cum whore, faggot and a worthless cunt. I loved it. He pulled back to just leave the head of his throbbing dick in me as he took another popper hit. He asked if I wanted the rest of this load and I wasn’t sure what he meant. When I asked He told me that he’d been out cruising at some toilets and watched a hot guy get fucked by a fucking ugly but well endowed top. The guy used a rubber and shot a huge load while fucking the guy. When they were done the used and filled rubber was thrown to the floor. My guy apparently stepped in to rescue the discarded strangers load with the intention to use as lube on a willing cumdump, as it had been a longtime fantasy of his. My hole was twitching with excitement knowing this guys cum was already lubing my cunt! He was pouring the last drops of this anon strangers cruising load into his dick. He took another popper hit and slid back in. We were both well lubed and completely turned on by it. I loved that I’d agreed to not knowingly taken this sleazy cum load. He was rock solid inside when he asked, ‘I’ve one more fantasy request, can I fuck this used rubber into your hole? Fuck that’s slutty I thought. It’s not the first time it’s been done either. So I agreed and begged him to cream my hole and fuck that sleazy rubber into my slutty cunt. He wasted no time, he pulled out and placed the rubber over my hole then slowly pushed his dick back inside me taking the rubber with it. Once it was inside me he had his fantasy and he fucked away hard and fast. It wasn’t long before he was ready to dump his load and by then I was begging him to breed my slutty cunt. He did just that and shot his hot load deep inside me with the rubber too! When twisted horny fukka!

When I'm fucking a guy, if i don't get bred at some point, i feel like i miss out. I love to get bred, and love to hold in the cum as long as possible so that the top's DNA gets absorbed into my guts. I don't know how common this is for other bottoms so I'd like your opinion. Where do you like tops to shoot?

Chapter 1 - So it begins My friend Dave decided he wanted to do something special for me for my birthday. We’ve played together a lot in the past and had only recently started partying together. The last time we met, we smoked a good amount, and he fucked me, bred me and played in my ass. For the birthday event, he told me to plan for a few days of time off since he wanted to get me really spun. I was able to get a few days off from work, so I told him we’d be all set. I did a deep clean in the morning and a touchup later. Dave told me to show up at his house around 8. He has a playroom in the basement, with a sling and fuck bench, lots of toys, and some fetish clothing. The basement has a door to the outside at the back of his house. I got there, and Dave and I went down to the playroom. I stripped down to my Nasty Pig jock. Dave wanted me to wear one of his harnesses, so I slipped that on too. He had a pipe packed already so we lit the torch and started taking some deep hits. Dave can get hard even when he’s spun, so I hopped in the sling and put my feet in the stirrups. Dave rimmed my ass for a while, getting me ready for his cock. He has a great cock for my ass. It’s not really long, about 7”, but it’s really thick. He knows how to get my ass ready for his thickness before he shoves it in and then he can fuck for a long time. He has a nice hairy chest and a trimmed beard so I like that I can watch him as he fucks me deep. After a good rimming session, Dave decided that we should get a few more hits in so that I was really horny for his dick. He propped up my head so that I was able to stay in the sling while we smoked. After a few hits, we were both flying high. Dave put down the pipe, slid a freshly opened bottle of poppers within my reach, and stepped between my legs. While we gazed into each other’s eyes, he slowly slid his well lubed cock in my ass. Since he had rimmed me before, I was pretty opened for him. Dave really knows how to fuck. His cock has a nice mushroom head, so he’ll pull almost all the way out, then hold it there to stretch my hole before driving it back in to me. He changes the rhythm, and I can switch up my position in the sling so that his cock hits the walls of my ass differently. One of the other great things about getting fucked in a sling is that it lets me ride cock easily too. I was swinging back and forth on Dave’s dick and getting it in as deep as possible. I had reached down to let him in as deep as possible while sliding back and forth on his cock. I didn’t hear the door open, but I heard the distinctive click of the torch behind me. Then, a mouth was on mine, shotgunning a hit to me. I took in the hit, shared some back and started making out with the new guy. Still didn’t know who it was but I was feeling good and welcomed another guy to the party. When he pulled back, it turned out it was our buddy, Chris. We had all played before but never partied together. I smiled at him, and he gave me a knowing look that was also full of lust. Chris was wearing a chest harness that connected to his metal cock ring. He looked hot as fuck in the gear, with the harness nicely framing his pecs. He has a hairy chest and ass and loves to get his hole eaten. His hard cock was sticking straight out, with a drop of precum on the tip. I motioned him over and licked the head of his dick to taste the sweetness. Lucky for me, Dave had taken over control of the fuck and was still filling my hole with his thick cock. I got Chris’s cock all the way into my mouth so now I was being spit roasted by two hot studs. Dave and Chris started to make out when I realized that they were also sharing some smoke. On one of the hits, Chris pulled his cock out of my mouth and shared the smoke with me, followed by another passionate kiss. Dave pulled out of my ass and lowered my jock to suck my T dick. Even though it doesn’t get too hard, it’s still great to get it sucked. Chris then moved down and knelt before my ass and started rimming my well fucked hole. Now, I was getting sucked and rimmed at the same time, so I just laid back and enjoyed myself for a while. Chris had started to finger my ass, getting 3 fingers in. He was really working around my ass, in and out, and working around the hole. He pulled out and his relubed fingers worked back into my ass. This time, I felt a burn since he deposited a shard in my ass. Getting booty bumped is a favorite of mine but I’d never played like this with Chris. Then, Chris stood up and started teasing my hole with his cock. He has a longer and only slightly thinner cock than Dave. He usually cums pretty fast after getting in my ass so he likes to play around the hole, sticking the head in, then swirling around the outside. He worked around and just inside my hole, spreading lube and precum, then slowly slid all the way in. He got in easily since I was well fucked and relaxed. And spun. Chris had been fucking me for a surprisingly long time. Dave had moved up to feed me his cock which I happily cleaned off and sucked. He moved behind me so that I could also work his balls into my mouth. He likes having his balls sucked and I think the view while I’m doing that is awesome. Eventually, Chris pulled out. He still hadn’t cum, which was kind of odd for him. He helped me out of the sling for a brief rest and some hydration. Dave poured out some sports drink for us all and we sat on the sofa to take a break. I was in the middle and both of them took turns fingering around my hole. We smoked a little more and then I got back in the sling. Dave had lowered the head a little bit. This meant that while he was fucking me again, Chris was able to come around to my head, turn around and feed me his ass. He has a really hot ass. It’s got just the right amount of fur, and he has a hole that reacts to my tongue. I’ve managed to work my tongue really deep into his ass in the past, but this position didn’t allow for deep penetration. One of the other fantastic things about eating Chris’s ass is that he has an amazing natural smell. It’s a little musty and sweet and I love burying my face in his hole, knowing that his smell will stick to my face and beard for a while. My neck started to hurt from the weird position, and I was getting some crazy head rushes too, so Chris moved away and helped to raise my head back to a normal position. Dave decided to pull out and play with my ass again. Once more, I felt the burn of a shard that he deposited in my ass. Chris got back between my legs and started to finger my hole. Dave came up to let me suck his dick, but I needed to take some breaks from his cock since Chris was making my ass feel great. He was working in and out, and spreading his fingers when he was inside me. I was enjoying the sensations and reached down to spread my ass wider for him. I worked my hands over to my hole and was surprised to find that Chris had all his fingers in me and was working my hole with his thumb. We locked eyes and he checked if I was OK with what was going on. I nodded an enthusiastic yes so he kept working his thumb around my hole.

I fuck bare. I shoot deep inside. No pull outs ever. I turn down covered fucks and guys wanting bb but pull outs. I want you to take my seed and keep it inside as long as possible. The bottoms I fuck desire seed. They work for it and will get it from me. Sometimes more than one load! It’s so natural!

I’m just curious how you guys see yourselves and your penis. For me my dick controls my life haha not in a bad way but more in an extension of my primal being. I have never and will never wear a condom because I believe that shooting my seed in someone is such a primal and natural act. When I go on a hike I’ll stop in a clearing and jerk off, same for if I’m staying in a hotel. I need to leave a piece of me everywhere I go. In everyone I fuck. I would genuinely fuck anyone and anything, and I fucking love doing it. If the aliens came to earth tomorrow I’d probably want to shoot my load in their alien cunts haha. My seed is a little part of me that I feel needs to be shared with the world. Any other dudes feel the same?

Part 1. First, some background information. Me and my husband Max have been together for 8 years, 6 of which have been married. We are both around 30 years old. I am 30 and Max is a year younger. Our life is really good and we have fun together. We have a lot of friends and we travel a lot during the holidays. We spend a lot of time together and do a lot of different things together. But... There is one thing that is not perfect. My sperm hunger. For the first 4 years I was able to keep it quiet, but the need for strangers' sperm only got stronger. It grew inside me. I realized that I always looked first at the man's crotch. Ohh, what a big bulge that man has. I realized that I was jealous of every bottom boy in a porn movie who got a raw cock and loads of cum in his ass. I had tried to subtly talk to Max about it, but he didn't want to hear me. He was definitely of the opinion that marriage is only an agreement between two people and does not include other people. My cheating started unintentionally 4 years ago. I was at an optometrist and a 50-year-old male optician gave me vision tests. Every now and then my eyes strayed to the man's crotch, which seemed to be bulging out nicely. After the tests, the optician rested his own hand on his bulge and rubbed it lightly, looking me straight in the eye. Finally he asked if I liked what I saw. I nodded shyly, and admitted that I liked it. The optician said that if I want, I can also examine in more detail. Timidly, I reached out and felt the optician's hot bulge. "Open the buttons," the optician commanded. I obeyed. I opened the buttons and the big pouch of the optician's underwear was sticking out of the pants. "Lick it," was the command. I obeyed again. I greedily licked the pouch of the optician's underwear and bit through the fabric with my teeth on his hardening cock. "Take it out," ordered the optician. I did so and immediately took the man's hot cock straight into my mouth. I started sucking cock like there was no tomorrow. "Oooh, you greedy slut," said the optician. The man fucked my mouth hard. The cock wasn't terribly long or thick, but the man's testicles were big and juicy. I held the bags and caressed the testicles as the cock moved in and out of my mouth. "Get up and turn around," the optician commanded me again. I obeyed like a sheep. When I turned around, the man would pull my sweatpants and underwear down to my knees with one jerk. Immediately he placed his raw cock on my hole. Without asking anything, he pushed inside me. The man's raw cock was inside me. He hadn't asked if I wanted a condom. He just thrust into me with his bare cock. I screamed in pain, but the man growled at me "shut up bitch". "We don't want the whole house to find out what a whore you are". After a while, the man picked up the pace and squirted his sperm into my hole. I felt several injections in my gut. After emptying himself, the optician pulled away from my hole and buttoned his pants. "Well, now lift those sweatpants up and you can leave so I can continue my work," the optician said coldly. I pulled up my pants and left the optician's booth with my ass full of sperm. It was the first time I cheated on my husband.

Stopped by the bookstore after the gym and got seven loads. As soon as I walked in and got in a booth, even though it was dead and not many in the store, I heard the door close. I put my ass against the hole and had a ten inch dick buried in my hole immediately. He worked me for about five mins and I think came twice in me, definitely once though as he pulled out and I was dripping. After a bottom tries to put his ass against the hole to get me to top him, I was about to leave before I felt his rock hard dick against my hole and slid in. I guess he gave up me breeding him. He started pumping my hole and shot another huge load in me. After a few other guys heard the wall movement from fucking, I ended up with another couple hung dicks and some smaller ones that shot huge loads. Left me dripping when I left. Definitely worth the 45 minutes.

My last load was Wednesday. It was a rematch with a super sexy (well, I think he is...) big hairy bear top, about my age (we've each got just a bit of gray), married on the DL. Our chemistry is fucking amazing... I let him in and we kiss and I can feel it instantly. I hope he can, too. I'm hard as a rock in seconds. I get him upstairs and he offers poppers, which are just the dregs, so I make a quick run to the fridge to get mine. And we're getting naked and on the bed ASAP. Kissing and heavy body contact - he's really a big guy, but all over, not just in the belly - maybe 6'1" and 250# or a bit more, and lots of fur. My cup of tea. And I've lost some weight this year so I actually feel enveloped in his hug, and we're playing with each other's nipples (his are wired), and, yeah, more of that! I suck him for a while - he gets hard nicely even without a cock ring (lucky him), and then we flip around and he sucks me... and puts his hand around back, which makes me melt. So he rolls me over and plows me... And fuck is that good! Just a little lube to get him in - I'm tight but very hot for it - and then he's inside and fucks me on my belly for a good while, and then on my side. Then he comes out and we're kissing some more. At some point he says, "how does your boyfriend ever let you out of his sight?" - so I guess the chemistry is good for him, too. He's on his back, so I climb up on top and ride him. Ride him hard, leaning back, and he's super into it, and I love this because I can look at his face (looking into a guy's eyes when we're fucking is one of my hot buttons). And I lean into it and I'm so wanting his load but I'm not getting him over the edge, quite, and then suddenly I'm the one who's going over the edge and I'm cumming. Hard and long, all over his belly and chest, in fountains. He tells me to lick it off him, and I do... bitter tasting. And we're kissing some more and he's stroking and suddenly he's getting close and I try to hop back on and take his load, but I'm too slow and he shoots it all over where mine was. So I lick that off, too, and it tastes very different, rather sweet. Fuck, I needed that! It was a little disappointing not to get bred, but hell, I'll take it - fireworks sex is always good! We agreed that we must do it again soon. Hope he remembers (he won't give me his number).

It's got to be deep inside me. I want to be bred and seeded. And his seed stays there too.

To be clear: I agree, but I consider the rise of apps part of the shift away from bathhouse culture. In other words, the two broad factors I see are (a) the headwinds that bathhouses have faced externally - increasing rent, gentrification, HIV/COVID/Mpox restrictions, etc., and (b) the decline in demand because the product is no longer as broadly wanted as it once was. I think pretty much every reason for the decline can be grouped into one of those two baskets, even those not yet mentioned, if any.

Ok, so 99% of the time I’m just a horny insatiable bottom that wants and needs an anonymous fuck. But funny enough I find myself just wanting to eat ass for hours on end. (Not while being topped or giving or receiving head). But just going to a guys house finding him ass up and wanting to dig my face and tongue into hiss ass for long periods of time then leave. And if his ass is pre-loaded even better. Is this common or just me being piggy.

The Private Party So I was on that barebacking site, you know which one. I just happened to look at the Private Parties section. Usually these are organized by a bottom guy who is looking for tops and doesn't really want any other bottoms there. This time I was pleasantly surprised to find a party where not only was the organizer a versatile top, most of the other people signed up to attend were or were tops or versatile. And it wasn't just a couple of attendees, there were already 8 people signed up. I started to look at the profiles of the organizer and the other attendees. Very hot. I could already feel my little cock start to tingle in anticipation. I've always had a fantasy about showing up at a party like this and when I get there being locked into a chastity device and then into the kind of bondage spreader bar which leaves a guy ass up and helpless to prevent anyone from using him as they see fit. I messaged the host for an invitation and asked him if it was OK if I was locked in a chastity cage and a spreader bar, He messaged me back saying I was invited and that would be great. I went to the toy/lingere store near where I live that carries a fairly large assortment of bondage toys. I picked out a spreader bar that looked sturdy. The lady at the counter gave me a wink and a smirk as I paid. So now I'm getting ready for the party. Taking a shower, shaving myself in all the right places. Applying good smelling lotion. Thoroughly cleaning myself out with many enema bottles. Lubing up my hole and sliding a large plug in. Putting on my cage and locking it securely in place. Putting on a jock so my ass will be exposed and ready. When I get there the host greets me at the door and recognizes me since I am carrying a spreader bar. When I am inside I strip down and remove the plus. He takes my clothes and the plug, putting them in a bag for safe keeping. tells me I can go set up in a corner and he'll have someone help me get locked up. He motions over a guy dressed in leather gear and asks him if he'd give me a hand. He says he would love to. We go over in the corner and I get down on all fours and he fastens my arms and legs to the spreader bar. I am now ass up and totally helpless to stop anyone from having free access to my hole. Other guys are milling around, a few are making out and I hear the moans and groans of others as they are sucking each other off or fucking. The guy admires his handiwork and gives my ass a smack. Other people seem to notice and soon a group forms. The leather guy starts to slide his hard, thick dick up and down my crack until the tip catches my hole, then he slides it in making me groan out in pleasure. He starts a slow in-out motion and his dick is long enough it is hitting my prostate and soon it is making my little cock confined in its cage drool pre cum. Someone notices and says "Look at that sissy clit drip!" while he reaches down and wipes some up with his finger and then puts it to my mouth making me taste my own seed. After a while the leather guy fucking me starts to pick up his pace, his low hanging balls which had been slapping my taint pulling up tight to his body and I know I'm about to take his load. As I feel his cock throb and his cum blasting deep inside me he bends down to my ear and says "did the host tell you that this isn't just a bareback party, it is a conversion party?" I cry out "No!", but I should have known because so many of the attendees had status "Ask me". He rests for a second and says "Well, now you know, and there was your first poz load". He barely has a chance to pull out before another guy starts sliding his big dick into my now well used hole. One by one guys pound my ass and fill it with their hot loads, many of them telling me things like that they had stopped their meds weeks ago in anticipation of this party. I can feel lube and cum dribbling out of my ass and down my leg every time one of them pulls out. I lose track of how many loads I take, but it has to be close to a dozen. Eventually I hear the host tell me the party will be ending soon and it is his turn. I feel his dick slide into my now stretched out hole, but he has to be one of the biggest I've ever taken because it still stretches me out more. He pounds me long and hard and then groans out as he cums, telling me he had been waiting to seed me all night and that his VL was very high so it was the guarantee that I'd be knocked up for sure. He and the leather guy then release me from the spreader bar and I am handed the bag with my clothes in it. I dress, my little cock still trapped in its cage and then drive home. When I get there I unlock my cage and as I'm pulling my little cock I get an email from the host inviting me to next month's party. I can't wait.

I know, I know, it’s all about getting our dick off. And I love the feeling of an intense orgasm, especially with my dick buried balls deep up ass. But my absolute favorite is eating ass. I can block out the rest of the world and give that man pleasure using only my tongue up his ass. I can spend hours with my face buried up an ass crack. Yet I always feel guilty because I know most guys consider rimming to be foreplay and they are hungry to get mounted and pounded. And don’t get me wrong, I enjoy fucking. But munching on an asshole is my ultimate. And when I’m jerking off to porn, that’s the scene that usually puts me over the edge and gets me to blast a huge load.

When I started fucking, everyone fucked raw; hiv had not yet arrived. There were a handful of guys that had fetishized using rubbers, but they were few and far between. Everyone fucked everyone else - it was totally commonplace, it was just the next step after shaking hands, saying 'hi, let's fuck' ...... and it was all raw.

Its gotta be in the ass... sperm should always be deposited in the ass !

My last loads happened just over a week ago at a local leather party. I had been excited for a bit as it was my first leather event in honestly almost a year, I spent the day getting ready, caught up with one of my friends who I'd never seen without a shirt off, let alone in a leather jockstrap like he planning was tonight, we arrived an hour into the event, and spent some time catching up with some other mates. after enough time for things to get busy I broke away and headed down to the play space that was set up, at first I sat on one of the couches and let a gorgeous daddy fuck my mouth and work over my gag reflex for a bit. Once he moved on I met eyes with a cute scruffy cub and worked on making sure he was hard before turning around and presenting, he slowly worked his way in before taking his time, his cock was about 6 inches long and just a bit above average, just perfect to open me up, he held onto my harness and about 5 minutes into it he pulled me tight against him and shot as deep as he could. I felt a few guys play with my cummy hole before someone an otter with a swimmers build pushed into me and turned my body so his who looked like a wrestler could fuck my face for a bit, the one who had pushed into me had a nice cock that I swear felt like all the veins were bulging so much I could feel with them with my ass, and his mates cock was thick and I could barely wrap my lips around it. The otter bred me within a few minutes before leaning in, "My friend is going to take a turn and plans on breeding you, but I wanted to make sure that you had enough lube to handle him, once you finish cleaning off my cock I want you to suck my nipples til I'm hard again. I'm going to start feeding you poppers as you need, just tap my thigh, just a warning if you stop him he won't start back up." I made sure to gag a bit more on the cock in my throat to try and get a bit more spit on it before nodding, before long they swapped ends, I started cleaning the otters cock and felt the wrestler get behind me and start probing my hole. I felt pain for the first time that night, he slowly and inexorably pushed his way in over the next minute and it felt like I was tapping morse code on the otter's leg and huffing the amyl as much as I could. Once they were in the waited for a moment before starting to work their way in and out, before too long they where pushing into me with a good speed, the otter moved me to his nipples, telling me what a good boy I was and how well I was doing, this continued on making me push back wanting to prove him right. The wrestler eventually started to speed up, I knew what was coming and wanted to be nothing but a good boy at that point. Before too much longer he started slamming into me with such force I almost tapped out before he held me painfully tight against him and grunted pulling me off his mate and kissing, biting and licking my neck. He thrust in me lazily after he finished loading me up for another half a minute churning his load, before abruptly pulling out and diving his face in for a taste, he then spun me round and made out with me, I could taste the loads I had taken and nearly came from that, both of them left shortly after. Once my eyes could focus again, I saw the cub from the beginning balls deep in my friend I had come with, my friend waved me over and congratulated me on my accomplishment, the cub stepped out and asked if I wanted a turn, my friend nodded so I let my aching cock lead the way and barely took 2 minutes to bust, especially after the cub pushed back into me and bred me again. My friend then got up and said it was only fair if he fucked me, I told him only if he bred me, which he enjoyed my ass for a bit before loading me as well. I ended the night with 5 loads, two from the cub, and one each from my friend, the otter and the wrestler. Honestly my most successful night ever and honestly not sure if I'm ever gonna be able to top it.

The sauna on Wednesday. I was at the back of the darkroom, leaning forward to play with a guy's cock in the hope I'd get it in me. In the meantime, someone else came up behind me and started playing with my arse. He had a bit of a fuck then moved away. Meanwhile, there was a guy to my left, watching all of this. I could just make him out, with the little bit of light that was in there. The guy was short and a little stocky. As soon as the guy who had been using my arse moved away, this guy came right up behind me and went to position his cock to fuck me. I grabbed it from behind, to help him find my hole. His cock wasn't particularly long, but it was really thick, uncut and had a curve to it. Once he was in, he fucked hard for a good few minutes. I could tell from his breathing he was getting close, so I begged him to load me up. In no time he was pumping his load into me. I held him in place for a bit, so I could milk his cock with my arse and drain every drop of cum from his cock. As soon as he pulled out, I clenched as quickly as possible, but a stack of cum still flooded out. It was obviously a massive load. I fucking love it when I reach underneath to check my hole and it's dripping. I was thinking of having a break from the sauna tomorrow, but now I figure the thought of getting lots more raw cock and cum in me is too hard to resist.

I’ve been barebacking ever since I lost my virginity back when I was in high school. I only learned how good bareback sex was from a 29 year old that I hooked up with on the regular. After that I pretty much fucked only raw with a few exceptions. I honestly got hooked to it pretty early on, and I don’t think I could use condoms on the regular.

There is nothing new under the sun, as the saying goes. How common this is, of course, varies, but I don't think it's especially rare.

I like in my cumdump

How about y’all fuck me and then we vote on which feature is best?

From a top's perspective.... I want you to concentrate on the guy in your ass. I do love the look of a spit roast--but that guy in your mouth is really just getting his dick wet for his turn in your hole. I also really get off on the rotation of holes--so you can taste your ass on my cock, while the one you just got wet, is now pummeling you. And a note to tops who add their cock to your mouth as I'm fucking: Don't pull the bottom towards you and off my dick. It's not about you...yet. Move closer to us. Get your dick wet and then give him a load for me to fuck in on round two or three.

After hitting 30, the covid lock down hit hard and I gained a bit of weight. At the end of 2021, and coincidentally the end of Covid restrictions, I decided to eat healthier. Especially since my colleagues, who are in their 20's, are all buff and work out regularly. This comparison was even more glaring once we all went back to the office. I didn't rush though, I lost about 40 lbs in those two years by portion control for meals and occasional stationary biking. I'm back to my old weight of 120lbs. I'm a short thing and I've always been attracted to men who are taller, and usually older. My college days were spent hooking up with older tall men into tiny Asian boys. It was always safe though. I have been in a relationship with the man I love for several years now, but very soon into the start of it I realized I can't get everything sexually I wanted from him. For example, he is a total bottom. And while I love fucking him, sometimes I crave the days of being manhandled by someone and going balls deep in me. My boyfriend and I fuck bareback, so over the years, if I hook up with someone else it was always with a condom. And these hook ups were very few and far between and usually someone who I've hooked up with before. I don't have much trust in dating apps. About a several months ago, I hooked up with someone who kept insisting to fuck me raw. While I find the idea super hot, I declined. He tried to fuck me with a condom but he kept going limp. I can't blame him. I can't remember topping with a condom and I'm almost certain I'd go soft too. I started looking into PrEP as a just in case. I talked to my doctor about it and he agreed that while condoms are still the best choice, it won't hurt to add PrEP into my daily prescription/vitamin regimen. I've been taking it ever since but honestly haven't thought much about it. I haven't really had the urge to get fucked recently. Now at the present, I'm finally confident enough to go to a gym and get my body toned. I signed up for a membership close by, with my only intention being getting healthier. I checked in on a weekend at around 3pm and the place was relatively dead, which I like because I'm a total introvert and still a bit self-conscious. I did my thing for about two hours, very proud of myself and headed for the locker room. There was only one other person in there who I didn't pay much mind to. As I was getting undressed, I noticed from my peripheral vision that this person kept glancing at me. I wrapped my towel around my waist so I can pull off my shorts and boxer-briefs without going full monty. I gave him a quick glance and we made eye contact for a couple of seconds. He was this tall black guy about 6'4" with short hair, a set of wireless headphones around his head. He was probably early to mid 40's, I can't be sure. He was wearing a shirt with the sleeves and sides ripped to his torso. I can see his enormous pecs and I felt a slight tingle in my pants. As I was pulling off my underwear I lowered my gaze to his grey sweats and saw that something massive was bulging. I felt my hole twitch. I quickly turned around nervous cause I didn't want to get in trouble in case I was misunderstanding the situation. I tried to clear my head of all these thoughts and grabbed my toiletry bag and shoved my duffel in the locker and locked it. I kept my eyes down with one hand on the towel around my waist as I walked towards the shower. When I was about to get into the small hall with the showers and dressing room, I heard movement behind me and a deep voice says "Hey..." I turned and put on an indifferent expression and replied "Hey." He looked me in the eye and said "Do you go black?" My mind was racing now. Did I hear him correctly? Does he mean what I think he means? I asked "I'm sorry?" Pretending I didn't hear so he'd repeat it. My heart felt like it was gonna jump up my throat. "Do you go black?" he said again. I heard myself say "I'm not sure what you mean." I think I wanted him to tell me exactly what he meant so there was no room for misinterpretation. He gave a small smile and shook his head and said "It's ok. Nevermind." He turned and started to walk back to the lockers. I guess my acting dumb made him think he misread me and that I wasn't gay or something, cause if I was, how would I not know what he meant? I kinda started to panic cause his sexy body and that bulge in his pants made me crave getting pounded. I blurted "I do... I do, though" He smiled and walked closer towards me and glanced at the entrance, then his eyes swept the bottom of the stall doors to make sure there was no one else there. When he was satisfied that we were in fact alone he turned to me and whispered "Show me." I tentatively grabbed the ends of my towel with both hands then slowly peeled it off. I was embarrassed cause my dick was already precumming. But it seems he wasn't at all interested in my dick anyway cause he whispered "Turn around..." So I turned and show him my ass and I heard him take a breath. He glanced at the entrance again and said "Go into that one at the end" then walked back towards the locker rooms. I turned and knew he meant the big dressing room with the handle bars for the disabled. The shower stall doors are translucent frosted glass while the dressing rooms have solid black ones. And even though they have gaps between the door and the floor, the big dressing room has its wall with the bench obscured so even if people glance at the bottom of the door, they wont see legs as unless they actually stick their heads in and look to the side. I slowly walked towards it, my hands shaking. I put my toiletry bag on the bench, wondering if he wanted me to wait long, but as I turned around he was already entering the room with his duffel bag and locking the door behind him. I was so nervous I couldn't think. He bent down and placed his duffel on the floor then turned to face me. Being this close to him just drove home how much bigger he was than me and I thought that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. This man can split me in half. Especially after seeing his bulge this close. He put his hands on my shoulders and had me sit on the bench. His crotch is almost to my eye level as he pulled down his sweatpants. It fell out and I heard myself audibly gasp. It was huge. Lengthwise it was probably around 8-8.5 but it was the girth that scared me. I swear it was thicker than my wrist. He pulled my head towards it and I began to lick. I was afraid it wouldn't fit in my mouth. After some licking of the head, I certainly tried. It was a challenge to just get even half in my mouth cause of the thickness... but I knew I was loving it. I couldn't throat it but I did my best to give him please anyway I could. I looked up at him as I was vigorously sucking the head. He smiled down at me and whispered "Too big?" I nodded but kept on sucking. He motioned for me to stand up and turn around. Now I obviously wanted this but I started having second thoughts... not only because of his size but also because I didn't prep my ass for this as I was not expecting anything like this to happen on the first day I went to the gym. I honestly didn't really think this type of thing happen except in porn or movies. I stood up and whispered "I'm not really prepared for this down there... should I go prep first?" He had bent down to get a magnum from his duffel and whispered "It's ok, I just wanna feel it." He put his hand on my shoulder and turned me around, then put it on my back to lower it so I'm bent over the bench. I didn't see him get lube from his bag so I got even more worried I'd be taking that dick dry. I spat on my hand and rubbed it around my hole. I looked back and he had his condomed dick in his hand and spat a large amount of spit on it and spread it on his dick. He rubbed the head on my hole for a few seconds then slowly pushed it in. The pressure was intense. It felt like I was getting stretched to the limit and the spit didn't help at all. He felt me trying to run away so he held my hips tight with both hands. I wanted to scream. I can hear him whispering "Relax, you can take it, Relax." There was something about his girth and the plastic feel of the condom that was just creating friction, making the pain unbearable. He got about half way in and I jerked my ass away cause I couldn't take the pain anymore. I gasped and was breathing heavily. I quickly turned and plopped my ass down on the bench, afraid he'd try to stick it again. He looked down at me stroking his cock. "Too big?" he whispered. "Might be..." I said a little guiltily. He gave a sad smile and removed the condom and threw it on the ground. I was afraid he was too disappointed that he'd leave so before he could pull his pants up, if that was his intention, I grabbed his dick and started sucking on it again. We did this for a few minutes until he broke the silence. "Do you want this dick?" he whispered. I took his dick out of my mouth and said "Yes, sir" then went back to sucking it. "Stand up. You can take it. This is what you wanted." It really is. So I gave his prick one final suck, took a deep breath then stood up and bent over the bench again. He reached down for another condom and put it on. Then I realized I have conditioner in my toiletry bag. I pulled it out and squirt some in my hand and rubbed it around and in my hole. I felt the tip of his dick press against my hole. He put his right hand on my hip and put his left arm around my chest, probably to keep me from pulling away. I felt him slowly enter and gradually got most of it in. The conditioner definitely helped but there was still that plastic feeling friction but I endured through it. He nibbled my left earlobe as he works the last inches inside and then whispered "Does it hurt?" I nodded with a pained moan. He was all the way in now but barely moving. He pulled a couple of inches out then shoved it back in. I let out a hiss of pain and my body instinctively tried to pull away. But with how he was holding me there was no escaping. He licked the back of my neck then whispered "Are you clean?" as he gave another thrust. Breathing heavily I replied "Yes... I'm on prep. My doctor tested me for everything a couple of months ago before I can be on it..." "I see..." He said as he pulled out half way then gave me a hard thrust. I can feel my eyes start to water, and then I suddenly felt empty. He had pulled out. And I heard a snapping sound then saw him throw the condom next to me on the bench. I felt him spat on my hole and then heard him spat again, assuming to lube up his dick. I felt the warm head as he placed it against my hole and started rubbing it. It felt so fucking good. He then stuck the head in. No friction this time.., I just felt my hole widening to accept him. He shoved it all the way in and as it hit my prostate I let out a moan. He covered my mouth with his left hand as he slowly starts a rhythm. "Is this what you wanted?" he whispered in my ear. "Mmhmm" I mumbled through his hand on my mouth. He started to pick up the pace. "Are you sure you're clean?" he asked again as he moved his left hand to my hips and now using both hands to pull me into him with every thrust. "Yes" I replied. I was in a fog of pleasure. Every time he hit my prostate my legs wanted to buckle. "You wanna do a threesome? Get fucked by two guys?" he whispered. My eyes widened and pulled me out of my stupor for a moment. "Now?!" I whispered in shock. He gave a deep scoff and said "No... maybe next time we meet here again and I'm with my buddy." Before I can even answer he started to go even faster and I was lost to pleasure again. I could hear him starting to breathe faster and heavier. "You just wanted this dick raw didn't you?" he whispered. I couldn't really answer. I know in my head I wanted it raw. But everything that happened after I entered the locker room was totally unexpected. "You wanted to feel me raw didn't you?" he asked again when I didn't reply. "...yes, sir" I replied quietly, almost ashamed. He kept pounding me and asked for the third time "You're sure you're clean right?" "Yes." He nibbled on my neck and whispered "I'm gonna nut in you." My head went into overdrive of pleasure and panic. I wanted to push him off, or rather I knew I probably should've pushed him off., but I was in total ecstasy and just let him pound me even harder. He moved his hands from my hips and wrapped his arms around my chest. "Tell me you want it" he whispered short of breath. I was quiet for several seconds as he fucked me fast and hard and finally said "Please, come inside me" I heard him say "Yeah, beg for my nut." Then I felt him tense and felt his dick inside me uncontrollably throbbing. His dick felt so hot in my ass. It was the best feeling I have ever felt. I could hear his stifled grunts and I loved it. He gave me a few more deliberate thrusts, emptying everything in his balls inside me. He slowly pulled out flinching here and there cause of how sensitive his cock currently is. When he was all the way out I felt a drop of cum rolling from my hole down to my taint and balls. He was breathing heavily as he bent down and pulled a shirt out of his bag and carefully wiped his dick, grunting. I slowly turned and sat on the edge of the bench on my tailbone. I didn't want to plop my cum smeared hole on the bench. He threw the make shift rag back into his bag and pulled up his sweatpants. He looked down at me and smiled as he picked up his bag and said "I'm usually here weekends." Then opened the door, peeked down the hall for a second, and walked out closing the door behind him. I was stunned. I didn't cum but I felt fully satisfied. It's never happened before... I put the conditioner back in my toiletry bag and re-wrapped my towel around my waist. I walked out of the dressing room and into one of the shower stalls. I turned on the water and stood in the corner away from the stream. I then gave my hole a small push and his cum started to leak out and roll down my legs in earnest. It was a lot. And as I watched, I got hard again and jerked myself to completion. It seems my first gym trip was a total success. I'm definitely gonna be going every weekend now, and I'll be sure to clean my ass before leaving the house.

If I’m on the bottom, I generally let the Top decide. But I’m equal whether he dumps a load up my ass or blasts his load in my mouth. I preferred to the first one to be balls deep up my ass. And at some point, I want to feel his dick, spasming and pulsing in my mouth as he shoots. And I love the taste of cum. If this sounds confusing, maybe it’s because I’m conflicted. I guess I love loads at both ends! 😈

When I find some, I'll post them!

This 1000%

My last load was this morning in a public restroom cubicle, I was in cubicle opposite urinal looking through hole a guy there kept flashing his cock to the toilet doors I soon opened mine ajar was waiting bent over loo spit n shove dumped his load then left me bent over loo and was soon gone

Breed me deep, paint my guts!

My 1st visit was in February 2000 (I think), so you didn't get it from me.

I don't know him but I think his dick weighs more than the rest of his entire body. If I had crossed paths with him his name would still be in my contacts list on my iPhone. Unfortunately it's not but if I do come across him I'll take a pic and forward it to you....😜

I'm going to reject the options presented, for the following reasons: 1. I agree that escorts and porn stars are sex workers, just as are cam girls, cam boys, guys with sexually explicit OF or JFF or whatever accounts, street hookers, and more. They're all involved in businesses (as workers) where sex (be it physical contact with the purchaser, or stimulation via imagery and/or sound) is part of the product or service provided. But I don't put sex work into the category of "degrading or dehumanizing" - it CAN be, but that's not inherent in the work. It's inherent in the society in which the workers live. 2. I don't think the second option describes all sex workers. Some do it because they're broke. Some do it because they like the supplemental income it can provide. Some do it because they're substance addicts and need cash to feed their habit. I do agree that people who judge sex workers are wrong, but I don't think it's always sour grapes; sometimes it's just plain old disapproval, sometimes it's resentment that they can't control other people's sexuality. 3. I'm not sure that there is an inherent difference between gay and straight people. Perhaps between the *typical* or *average* gay and straight person - the former probably has more lifetime sex and more partners than the latter, for instance - but I don't see gay sex workers as any sort of ambassador for the gay sex experience (except, of course, in the literal sense that a straight person can satisfy any curiosity he might have about gay sex acts by watching porn). I think gay people bringing home partners to their families, and integrating gay partners into families, goes much farther to show the world what's important about being gay - we're pretty much just like you - than anything else.

After being bred, I love thinking that I’ve been knocked up and I’m carrying the top’s babies. Wish I could do it for real but the mpreg fantasy is a good substitute. Super hot if the top is in on it, too. Nothing like two determined people engaged in baby-making sex.

Part 1 I knew as soon as I felt his load, the first load I had ever take, being unloaded deep inside my gut that I needed more and that my days as a total top were over. I had come to the baths, an arrogant twenty for year old, with a well built body for which I had worked hard, short cropped dark brown hair, a rather pail completion that contrasted sharply with my dark body hair and the attitude of a no-nonsense seasoned breeder. By no means was this was not my first trip to the baths. I frequently donned a skimpy towel and went in quest of a bottom to pound when the urge to empty by balls in a slut’s hole overwhelmed me. Ever sense I had come out when I was fourteen told me I was a top, and that it was my duty to dump my load into every boy with whom I played, from my first boyfriend till that night. It probably helped that I loved to see my thick seven and a half inch member disappear inside a boy’s hole, his ass lips clinging to my shaft. That night began like any of my other trips to the baths. I purchased a locker, stripped off, slung a towel around my trim waist making sure it was low enough to show off my ample pubes and then, with my key around my wrist, headed off in search of a bottom to breed. I made my way to the sling room, the easiest place to find an open hole searching for some cock, my cock stiffening as I walked listening to the groans of men all around me and breathing in the smell of sex that lingered in the air. The sling room was dimly lit, just well enough to make out where guys were but not well enough to really make out distinct faces. I dropped my towel off in a corner by the door and proceeded, my erect cock standing out in front of me, naked through the room. Multiple slings hung from the ceiling, and were arranged in a circle so that the bottom’s asses all faced out towards the walls and the bottoms could watch themselves being bred in the mirrored ceiling. After cruising past several of the bottoms I alighted upon a blonde boy about my age with his legs in the air and the slightly vacuous expression of someone who had just been fucked more then he thought possible. I walked up between his legs and started rubbing my cock head against his well fucked, dripping hole. “How many loads you have in your hole, guy?” I asked. “I lost count,” the blonde replied vaguely, suggesting "but add yours to the mix. Give me you cock man. I need you inside of me.” I didn’t need any more encouragement then that. I pressed my cock against his hole and easily slid inside. This boy was so loose and full of cum that I didn’t bother starting out slow letting him get used to my cock, but rather started pounding him as hard as I could grabbing hold of the chains that suspended the sling from the ceiling to pull him back and pound him harder. With each deep penetrating thrust the blonde let out a little whimper and would occasionally continue begging me for my load and my cock. Sweat began to run down my back as I hammered away. Just then I felt a presence behind me and then promptly two hands appeared on my hips guiding me how to plow the boy. Then a man pressed his body against my back, and leaning around me, looked at the bottom and asked “How ya doing kid? Feelin' good?” “Hell yeah,” was the bottom’s response.

Long shot big any tips around this morn (thursS21) Im not starting work till later...plus indulged last night so I'm feeling very cum hungry. Hmu if you can host around the Hess village area.

As someone who wishes they could just go full slut, I feel ya. Best thing that I can say is, as long as you have appropriate hygiene for the situation, I can promise there are dudes that could care less what you look like or what pigment your skin is Bathhouses are great for this because you stick your ass out a glory hole, any you'll realize that how you look isn't a huge thing in the slut world, which helped me a lot

I like to top, but I love the feeling of a throbbing cock in my hole.

That's an amazing feeling. I used to bike home late at night after a few hours at the cruising park and the seat was wet with cum as I arrived home. What's in it for the bottom? I enjoy the feeling the cock, feeling it go in and out, but as most would agree, the big event is the delivery of the load.

Brock returned to school the next day. His first week back was pretty uneventful. Everyone believed Brock had been out with the flu, but he found himself wishing he could tell some people the truth: that he had been out because he was seroconverting under the care and attention of his uncle, who had infected him with HIV. That he had begged his uncle to do it without a second thought. He realized he was rock hard. His massive member stretched across his left thigh. The precum was beginning to flow. His new clothes did nothing to hide his anatomy. He knew uncle Dale had picked underwear that would specifically accentuate his bulge and leave nothing to the imagination. But it seemed his new jeans wanted to do their part, too. "Earth to Brock!" Mr. Bryant called. Brock had never been happier to be sitting at a desk. He'd had a hardon for Mr. Bryant since he started last year. At the present moment that was quite literal. "Does next week work for tryouts, cap-ee-tan?" "Oh. Um. Yeah I think so..." Brock responded pulling his attention away from his dick and out of his daydreams. Mr. Evan Bryant had taken the advanced math position at Park Village High School as his first teaching gig. He was a bit older than most first year teachers at 28. Rumors circulated about what he had done before becoming a teacher. He'd been Spec Ops in the military. He'd been training to be an astronaut but dropped out. He was a CIA analyst. He was in witness protection. He was touring in a band but they broke up. The sheer variety was comical. The truth was much less exciting than any of the rumors. He'd grown up in the next town over. He did spend 4 years in the navy and he had spent a couple years after touring the country, camping and backpacking. After a couple years of that. He decided teaching was his calling. And he was likely right. He was a damn good teacher. His AP Calc class last year had 95% pass the exam for credit. He stood 5'4" and was about 180 lbs of muscle. He had sandy blond hair that he grew out just a bit past his old navy crew cut, perpetual stubble that often was bordering on a scruffy beard, and dark blue eyes. His shoulders were broad, tapering to a narrow waist. You could tell he was muscular, even under his Oxford shirt and chinos. "Where's your head at today, Brock?" Mr. Bryant looked so kind and a little concerned. "I know you were out all last week but if we are going to make nationals, we need to start now." Brock chuckled. He couldn't exactly tell his teacher that his head was already swimming with the possibilities of what his uncle had in store for him tomorrow. He also definitely couldn't tell him that for the last 20 minutes he'd been picturing every position he could fuck Mr. Bryant in using the desk he was currently sitting at. His dick throbbed, oozing a large glop of toxic precum which quickly soaked into his new boxerbriefs. ----------- Dale sat in his office. On the big screen TV played the recording of his session with Brock - the video of him pozzing his nephew. His 8" cut cock was standing straight up out of the fly of his jeans. He was leaking a constant flow of precum while he watched himself fucking his nephew on screen. It dripped slowly over his hand as he stroked his member. "So that's him, huh?" the man beside Dale asked. He had the waistband of his athletic shorts pulled down. His 8" dick stood painfully hard, precum flowing freely and pooling in his bushy pubes. He seemed to be too distracted by the video to stroke his dick. Part of an orange scorpion tattoo was visible on the exposed part of his thigh. "And your certain you got him?" "We see Dr. Shah tomorrow afternoon." Dale responded coolly. "But if he comes back negative, we will just have to try again." Dale fished a coin out of his pocket and casually flipped it. "Call it in the air." "Heads." Dale revealed the coin heads up. "Fuck you. You always get to go first, Rod." Dale sputtered. The two of them exited the office and headed toward the stairs down to the basement

[think before following links] https://thisvid.com/videos/your-wife-doesn-t-know-you-re-getting-bred/ Great video but for me but it was the opposite, I was the bottom and the top was married to a woman. For almost two years I met him after hours in his office once a week so he could fuck and breed me. It started with him wearing a condom (his decision) to then going raw and finally cumming in me. Once he went raw he couldn't get enough of breeding my hole. He had a great cock and was incredible at fucking. Fucking his wife all those years gave him a technique I found many gay tops don't have.

The OP is asking about the moral implications of approaching the homeless for random sex, so I’ll approach the question from that angle. Most homeless people don’t want to be homeless, don’t enjoy being homeless, are living rough, and suffering some combination of deprivation, hunger, exposure, want, illness, loneliness, addiction, and mental illness. They are highly vulnerable people, often desperate, in great human need - one one which needs may be sexual. They are a population highly susceptible to being taken advantage of by the unscrupulous. (Ahem.) So you have a homeless guy with mental illness, addicted to drugs, and in order to tempt him to fuck, a guy offers him free meth, and raves about how eager the homeless guy is to fuck and how well he does it - but then complains that the homeless guy ‘gets weird’ because he’s mentally ill. Well, no shit, asshole - you just gave him more of the exact thing that that dragged his life into a living hell that he can’t escape, just so you could have a freaky shag. You want to get them to trade their dick or ass for goods? That’s exactly the same thing as asking them ti prostitute themselves for barter - and fucking cheap-ass barter at that. What are you offering for their sex? A cigarette? A handful of change? But hey, he’s just a homeless guy - he’s barely even human, right? What’s in it for you, really? Why seek out the homeless? Because it gives you a thrill to have sex with someone you perceive as dirty, sordid, low? Because it’s easy to prey on their desperation? Because it’s fun to watch someone do something they otherwise wouldn’t just to get enough to buy food? There but for the grace of God go you, buddy. The only saving grace in the scenario is that sex is a basic human need, and some homeless men may gain something they need from an encounter, but if it has to be coerced, that’s probably not the case. Next time you contemplate propositioning a homeless guy, take a minute a try to put yourself in his shoes - if he even has any.

This Top is a hot fuck machine [think before following links] https://thisvid.com/videos/persian-loads-a-latin-faggot-in-the-stairs-of-a-mall/

Part 24 After taking four big hits from the pipe one after the other at Kevin's urging, Jeremy had handed the pipe and lighter to Kevin as he licked and kissed his way down Kevin's hard muscular body. He worked on both nips with his lips and teeth, making them stand up hard from Kevin's chest, then made his way down until his full lips were pressed firmly against the packed front of Kevin's jockstrap. Both of them were moaning as they felt the power of the tina take over and heighten their senses and hungers. My moans were matching theirs as Drew and Ryan and I watched it all on the screen, Drew playing with my nips and Ryan fondling my full balls. “Such a hot mouth!” we heard Kevin say, pressing a hand against the back of Jeremy's head. “You like that hard daddy dick don't you boy?” Jeremy, eagerly slurping up and down on Kevin's long shaft, mumbled around the tool and nodded his head. “You like it in both of your boy holes, don't you son?” Kevin asked seductively. This time Jeremy came up off of Kevin's meat and wrapping his fist around it he looked into Kevin's face and said, “Hell yeah I do Daddy! In my mouth and in my ass! Will you fuck me Daddy? Please?!!” he begged. Kevin chuckled and, looking at me through the camera lens, he asked Jeremy, “Is that what you want son? Do you want your daddy to fuck your ass and cum in you?” I groaned and grabbed my cock tighter hearing this and waited for Jeremy's response. It came almost immediately. “Yes, sir! I want my daddy to fuck me and breed me with his cum!” Wordlessly, Ryan removed my hand from my dick to prevent me from cumming too soon. Kevin instructed Jeremy to get on his knees on the couch with his head resting on the armrest and his ass up in the air. With my son in position Kevin walked in front of him and gave him the pipe and lighter. “Take a couple more hits, son. Daddy wants you good and tweaked when he slides his big cock inside you.” Jeremy wasted no time heating up the rocks in the bowl and beginning to inhale, while at the same time Kevin moved and got on the couch behind him, raising his ass up a little higher. “What a damn sweet pucker son! I can't wait to fuck it again but first I have to taste it,” and saying that he lowered his face to Jeremy's hole and began running his tongue around and inside it. Jeremy cried out in ecstasy feeling that tongue enter him, and I knew very well the pleasure he was feeling. “Oh gawd yes, Daddy! Eat my hole! Feels so fucking good!” Kevin grabbed Jeremy's asscheeks and spread them wider and intensified his oral attack on Jeremy's hole. Not even wanting to blink so I didn't miss anything, my eyes filled with the live sex show involving my own son, I heard Ryan say from beside me, “Time for me to join in,” and a moment later I saw him on the computer screen as he entered the living room and stood in front of Jeremy. “Hey there, little brother,” he said and Jeremy raised his head and opened his eyes, grinning at Ryan. “Hi!” he answered. “Having fun?” Ryan asked, taking the pipe from Jeremy's hand and heating it's contents. “Oh yeah! So much fun!” Ryan fed Jeremy the pipe and Drew and I watched him take a deep draw into his lungs. Kevin looked up from the ass he'd been tonguing, his face smeared with sweat and spit, and grinned at Ryan. “Glad you're here man,” he said to Ryan. “You can help me spit-roast this horny boy.” “I'm ready,” Ryan replied then looked down at Jeremy. “You want that? You want us to give you dick in both of your holes at the same time dude?” Jeremy blew out another cloud and gave them the answer we all expected. “Hell yeah! Give me both your cocks! Yours down my throat and Daddy Kevin's in my ass! I need it so much!” Ryan took the pipe from Jeremy and laid it on the table. Turning back to Kevin he asked, “Are you ready?” “Fuck yeah!” Kevin said as he scooted into position and slowly ran his thick manhood up and down Jeremy's wet crack. Ryan reached over and grabbed the bottle of poppers and handed them to Jeremy. “You know what to do dude,” he said. “Take a couple of deep hits in each nostril then open wide.” I watched as Jeremy hit the brown bottle twice on both sides then obediently opened his mouth. Ryan stepped closer and I watched as his wide cock slid easily into my son's throat. At the same time Kevin said, “Daddy's going to fuck you now, son,” and proceeded to press his hips forward moving his bare meat into Jeremy's 19-year-old ass. Jeremy moaned in lust and heat as he felt himself filled at both ends with cock. “Aw fuck yeah!” I whispered as I watched. “Fuck him! Fuck my son and fill him with cum!” (to be continued)

So anyway, time for an update. I've still been going to the parties, but now that I've been pozzed a lot of the thrill of the risk of bottoming is gone. But all is not lost because although I never really got into topping before, now it is super exciting to pump a charged load into a possibly neg and unsuspecting hole. I still go and get locked in my bondage spreader bar like before and take a couple loads but now the host releases me after a couple and we search for a bottom who might want to try it out. We never fail to find one. And they never ask about status or anything like that. I love watching a fat guy like me ass up and helpless to stop any top from mounting him and stretching and pounding his hole. Well, I like any guy who tries it. It's so hot knowing they will take anon cum. I like to wait until a bottom has several loads in and then take my turn and blast my toxic load in with the other usually unknown ones. Not all unknown though because I've seen several tops with biohazard or scorpion tats using the bound bottoms. At least two of the other bottom guys who have tried it have already tested poz too. I don't know if it was me for sure or not, but my VL is super high. My doctor is really getting on me about getting on meds, but I'm thinking about quitting seeing him and switching to another clinic that doesn't know of my status. I'm really glad that I've found another way to keep things hot!

Married guy here , after 20 years of not that exciting sex , nearly no blow jobs .. I love to be a smooth cumdump and get fucked by horny guys .. I don’t want the emotional stuff .. just cock and cum .. I used to be safe only and now it’s bareback only , nothing better then a good hard fuck and creampie .. love to go to abs and want to go to a Sauna locked in chastity.. and have fun

I did remember that it was in the same building as a gay bar, but hadn't made the connection that it was the one where mass shooting occurred. It has been 6 or 7 years since I've been, or for that matter to either Denver bath. I had a major health crisis sideline me in 2018 and was just starting to travel again when COVID hit in 2020. Unfortunately travel for my line of work hasn't returned post COVID and I'm starting to think it never will, which is why I need to move out of the sexless PNW. When I was able to travel outside of the PNW regularly, I could meet my needs on the road and not put myself through the frustration of trying to hookup here. We still have bathhouses, but they have never had the kind of activity on their best nights that you would find at DSC even on a slow night. I lived in the Tech Center when I lived in Denver and used to go down to Buddies about once a month from the time they opened until I moved to Portland in 2007.

Yes after my wife found out I was having sex with this guy at work he started to flirt with me one day and took me out for drinks and he did me after and started me bare backing and I started to date him and he became my boyfriend and he converted me after he seroconverted and my wife divorced me soon after that and I came out as gay and

What I found was that if CumUnion is being held on a Wednesday or any weekday night, it’ll never achieve a high number of men nor the same vibe. Additionally I’ll add that if it’s held during week you can count on it being an early night since a large number will be working the following day. I’ll be in Ft. Lauderdale on June 3-6 so I’m going to hit SLAMMERS that Saturday night, June 3 and see how it goes. Thought I’d have something good to drink right before I get there and climb into a sling. Woof !

This brings back memories

Part 24 - Daybreak He felt the unmistakable hardness of the cock rubbing between his ass cheeks as he began to wake up, the arms wrapped around his body tightened signalling he was also awake. It was 8.30am and Ethan turned his head to kiss Angelo as he started to roll on his stomach with Angelo following his action until his was poised on top of him. He knew only to well that when Angelo was horny in the morning it was going to be a big bang to start to the day. He felt the rush of air around his ass as Angelo lifted his hips up slightly, Ethan moaned and gripped the pillows as the head of Angelo's cock homed in like a heat seeking missile. He moaned louder raising his head 'Oh my lover' Ethan whispered as the head of the cock prised his hole open gaining entry, Angelo leaned forward and kissed Ethan's neck 'Morning, I love you and your mine' he whispered biting and sucking gently at Ethan's neck, underneath him he could feel the warmth of Ethan's ass and his feet were doing a strange dance of their own which Angelo knew by now that was Ethan's excitement escaping. Ethan pushed his head up as Angelo bit, kissed and sucked harder at his neck as more of his cock began working it's way deeper in to him. He felt the slightly painful and very intoxicating feeling of the friction, he let out one last long moan as Angelo came to rest balls deep inside Ethan, Angelo's mouth sought his own as they kissed deeply spearing each other with their tongues trying to get the upper hand. Angelo began rocking his hips up and down in deep powerful penetrating thrusts, Ethan buried his head in the pillow trying to stifle his cries of ecstasy his hands gripped hard around Angelo's biceps tightening up with every downward stroke of Angelo's cock. He continued to kiss the back of Ethan's neck as he began to ramp up the speed, he knew he would not last out as he was feeling overly horned up this morning. Ethan moaned and his head rose off the pillow as he felt the intensity of their love making move up, his ass now pushing up to meet Angelo's thrusting, suddenly he felt like the hardness increasing and the thrusting became more erratic and powerful. Angelo felt his balls tapping at Ethan's ass telling them to wake up and do their business, one thing for sure he was not trying to hold on this morning. He grunted loudly, Ethan moaned and cried 'Oh Angelo, fuck yes, oh god yes', he felt the rush of seed firing into his body as Angelo continued thrusting deep in to Ethan, Ethan arched his back and raised his head, Angelo caught the side of his neck and his lips suctioned around the tender youthfulness of the skin. With every jolt of his orgasm he sucked harder, Angelo could feel the lower legs on Ethan rapidly bouncing up and down in another tell tell sign that Ethan gave off when he was orgasming. Angelo collapsed on top of Ethan breathing heavily as he his body started resetting itself and draining the testosterone, Ethan was panting and stroking Angelo's arms in the after glow of their sex. Angelo leaned around and kissed Ethan deeply on the mouth "I don't think we woke anyone" he laughed. "Fuck that was awesome, love you so much" Ethan replied with a look of pure delight on his face. "Sorry, I have left a mark on your neck" Angelo told him as he kissed around the love bite. Ethan giggled "You marking your territory now as well?". Angelo laughed "I don't need to you already belong to me" he replied slipping out of Ethan's ass. Ethan got up and headed to the shower whilst Angelo changed the bed sheets cleaning up mostly Ethan's mess. He then joined Ethan in the shower for a while kissing before Ethan got out to let Angelo shower properly. "I'llput some coffee on" Ethan said placing the towel on the rack. Angelo smiled and nodded "Check if Mark is up as he likes strong coffee". "Will do" Ethan made his way down the hall towards Mark's room and he tapped on the door. He waited for a moment then tapped again but there was no response, carefully he opened the door and popped his head through but there was only an empty bed and no sign of Mark. Ethan checked down stairs but it was quiet, he put the coffee on and headed back up to the master suite, Angelo was drying himself off in the bathroom when Ethan walked in. "Mark is not in his room or downstairs" Ethan said with a grin on his face. Angelo looked at him "Do you think, no surely not" Angelo grabbed a t-shirt and pair of shorts. They walked hand in hand towards Ben's room, Angelo slowly turning the knob and opening the door slightly, he poked his head in to the room and saw Mark and Ben fast asleep cuddled up, he also noticed at the foot of the bed a pair of underwear on the floor. Smiling he turned and nodded to Ethan who pushed his way in and peeked around the door. Angelo closed the door and they walked down stairs with Ethan trying to stifle his giggling. "Wow I never expected that to happen last night" Ethan said grabbing two coffee cups. Angelo sat down "I have to admit I am surprised Mark managed to pull that off". Ethan poured the coffee "Do you think they did it, I mean I know Mark is poz but I am worried about Ben". Angelo smiled "Mark would not deliberately put him at risk". Ethan handed Angelo his coffee "Well I guess it's for them to decide what they do". Angelo nodded "Should we take them up a coffee?". Ethan looked at him "Hmm.. probably best not to, Ben might get embarrassed about the whole thing". "Good call" Angelo responded as Adam came in to the kitchen. Adam looked at both of them "Morning, what are you conniving?" he sat down next to Angelo. Ethan held a cup up and Adam nodded "Just discussing what we found this morning". Adam looked at Angelo "Come on tell me... oh... did Ben and Mark sleep together?" he sat up straight waiting to hear. Angelo laughed "They did but what went on I am afraid we do not know, but they are in bed together as we speak asleep though". "Good for Ben, I was worried he might end up a closeted gay all his life" Adam took the cup from Ethan. Ethan sat down "Where's Tony?" he asked Adam. "Sleeping still, he was a bit tipsy last night then hammered my ass when we got to bed" Adam replied smiling. Angelo slapped him on the arm "I hope you didn't make a mess" he commented causing Ethan to laugh. "Relax Angelo it was a deep breeding so no mess" Adam responded trying to get Angelo in a head lock. With ease Angelo lifted Adam off the ground in bear hug "Ethan help" Adam pleaded. "No your mess you deal with it" Ethan sat sipping his coffee chuckling at them both. Adam relented and clung hard on to Angelo his head turned to Ethan "What the fuck is that on your neck?". Ethan rubbed his neck and laughed "Angelo got hungry during sex" he replied and Adam made a face at him. Angelo squeezed Adam harder and could feel the erection hard up against his waist "Dirty horny fucker". Adam pushed back to look Angelo in the eye "You know it babe, keep doing that and I will shoot". Angelo released Adam heaving in laughter letting him slip to the floor "Pull yourself together Adam". Eventually they both sat down drinking coffee. Ben was beginning to wake up feeling hot before he realised arms were holding his body, slightly shocked and bewildered he didn't panic remembering Mark had got in to bed with him last night. Ben instantly knew his small movement in bed was causing Mark to stir in more than one place, he could feel the cock nestled between his now sweaty ass cheeks swelling and beginning to stiffen. He laid there quietly enjoying the wonder and feeling of the cock growing increasingly harder, he became aware that Mark's hand was caressing his chest gently. "Morning sexy" Mark kissed the back of Ben's neck. Ben giggled and ran his hand along Mark's thigh "Morning, your still here then". "Of course" he replied releasing his hold on Ben and rolling on to his back. Ben turned on to his back next to Mark his neck coming to rest in Mark's arm "Thank you for staying". Mark turned his head and kissed Ben's cheek "I felt good sleeping with you Ben". Tony came out of the shower and was drying himself walking back to the bedroom when he heard the quiet voices coming from Ben's room, he shook his head and smiled. He grabbed his boxers and went downstairs still drying himself and walked in to the kitchen. "Morning all, you do know Mark is in bed with Ben" He said cheerfully as Ethan offered him a coffee. Angelo had Adam in a headlock as Tony came in "Yes we know and your bitch is misbehaving". Ethan handed Tony his coffee "Are they awake then?" he asked. Tony nodded "Yes I could hear them talking quietly". Ethan grabbed two cups and filled them coffee and headed upstairs leaving Tony talking to Angelo whilst Adam was still secured by Angelo's muscled arms. "I've experienced so much over the last 12 hours Mark" Ben said cuddling closer to Mark. Mark kissed Ben on the mouth "I'm glad I could be part of that". Ethan knocked on the door and Ben froze knowing they were busted "Hope your both decent" he said. Mark patted Ben "Don't worry I think we are already busted" he said to Ben "yes we are Ethan". Ethan walked in to the room "Coffee" he closed the door and walked over "You okay Ben?". Ben nodded with a tinge of embarrassment "Yes" he meekly responded. Ethan smiled "Good, we are all downstairs so come down when your ready". "Thanks Ethan" Mark held on to Ethan's hand. Ethan looked strangely at him "What for?" he asked and Mark nodded towards Ben "Oh right" he waved his hand and left. Ben showered and came back in to the bedroom "I still don't have any underwear to put on". "I have some clothes that I keep here I am sure mine will fit" Mark hopped off the bed naked and disappeared. He returned still naked holding a pair of briefs that Ben tried on and surprisingly they fitted perfectly, Ben looked at his perfect body and ample sized cock, he was for the most part smooth chested and flat stomached. There was no six pack about his body it was muscular and just perfectly fit and looked so beautiful. Mark watched Ben looking at his body "Do you approve?" he asked. Ben looked up sharply "Sorry it just looks so good" he replied sheepishly. Mark smiled and moved towards Ben and ran his hand down Ben's chest and arms "Do you work out?". Ben shook his head "Not really, it is from sports at college" he said with self doubt. "I like it just the way it is Ben, you are perfect" Mark leaned down and kissed him. They both dressed and went down towards the kitchen, Ben was as prepared as he could be thinking they would be mocked when they entered. But in some way he felt comfortable being with Mark and knew it would not be malicious just banter between friends. Mark took Ben's hand and they looked at each other "Brace yourself" he said to Ben. Ben leaned in and kissed Mark holding his hand tighter "I'm not worried". Angelo looked up as they walked in "Morning, Ben you found your underwear?". Ben didn't expect that comment and gave Angelo a ha ha look "Morning to you". Ethan laughed "Morning" whilst Adam and Tony sat and just grinned at them both. "We are thinking of going out for lunch, Ben can you stay around and come to lunch with us?" Angelo asked. Ben nodded "If your sure I would love to thank you". Tony stopped grinning and looked at Ben "And is this a thing now?" nodding to them both as everyone stopped and waited. Ben innocently shrugged his shoulders and looked at Mark who squeezed his hand "I don't know". Mark looked seriously at Ben "I would love to date you". Ben smiled "Yeah, me to, I mean you, date you, you know". Mark nodded and smiled "Excellent" he leaned in and kissed Ben. Angelo was over the moon that finally Mark had found someone he liked enough to warrant dating them. The six of them sat around drinking coffee and talking, Mark had to be near Ben all the time as he had hopelessly fallen in love with him last night in bed, but he was holding his cards close to his chest for now in case things didn't work out. Angelo had not seen this before in Mark and it was evident to all of them except Ben that Mark was becoming increasingly besotted by him. Ethan saw the empty milk carton on the kitchen counter and persuaded Mark to let go of Ben long enough so they could nip to the store. As they left the house and turned down the street Dr Chalmers was pulling in to his drive and asked Ethan if the wound had healed up, Ethan responded saying it was all good and no mark was visible now and thanked him. "What was that all about?" Ben asked Ethan. Ethan glanced at him "Oh, something I will tell you later, but I do need to talk to you about Mark". Ben stopped walking "Did we do something wrong?" he asked urgently. "No, I mean did you and talk last night, like did he tell you something about him?" Ethan carefully said. Ben smiled "Well yes, he told me he has hiv. I get the impression he is not the only one" he said fishing around. Ethan looked at Ben "You may as well know, I do and so does Angelo" he waited for a response. "Did you fuck without condoms?" Ben asked in a casual manner. Ethan nodded "It wasn't on purpose though, I was swept up in my first experience and well that was that". Ben looked at him "Oh Ethan, I'm sorry. Do you know who it was?" he asked him. Again Ethan nodded "It was Angelo, he has been the only person I have had sex with period". "Wow I never knew that. But what happened after?" Ben was intrigued as Ethan was opening up for the first time. Ethan smiled "When I fell ill from contracting hiv he looked after me and the rest is history". Ben put his arm around Ethan "He is hunky I can see why you fell for him". Ethan stopped "Don't make the same mistake I did, play safe". "Yes, but I read how freeing it can be not having to worry about catching it" Ben replied looking at Ethan. Ethan continued walking "Would I change anything now if I could, do you know I wouldn't". "It's not like I want it, but I want to be able to enjoy being with Mark" Ben said catching up with him. Ethan looked at him seriously "I can't dictate what you do Ben but understand you have it for life". Ben nodded "Ethan promise me you won't say anything to Mark about this". Ethan smiled "You are still my oldest and closest friend Ben, you can always confide in me". "There is one other thing I want to tell you" Ben went quiet for a moment "I like Mark a hell of a lot". Ethan smiled "To be honest what is there not to like about him and he will be good for you Ben". "Yeah. If it did work between us how will I know?" Ben asked as they reached the store. Ethan looked at him "Your heart will tell you Ben and you will see it in his eyes". "Right I sort of understand" Ben replied scratching his head. Ethan opened the store door "But I think that boat has already sailed". Ben grabbed the carton of milk "What did you mean?" handing the carton to Ethan. "We saw it in Mark's eyes last night and more so this morning" Ethan replied heading to the cashier. The cashier smiled and greeted them and Ethan noticed his glances to Ben which to anyone else would have meant nothing, Ethan read his name tag pinned to his shirt 'Joshua' as he walked up to the counter. "Quiet morning Joshua" Ethan asked. Joshua smiled and looked again at Ben "Very quiet this morning, but then it is a beautiful morning". Ben was astounded how brazen he was being but he smiled and made eye contact "You must be bored being quiet?". Joshua completely blanked Ethan "Can be but it does have very good moments" he replied and winked at Ben. Ethan put the money on the counter "Do we need anything else Ben?" he said seeing Ben smiling at Joshua. Ben replied in somewhat of a dreamy state "What... err no I don't think we do, do we need anything Joshua?" Joshua smiled and shook his head "Just your change, for now anyway". Ethan took the change from Joshua "Come on Ben we need to get the milk home". Ben took one more glance at Joshua "Have a nice day Joshua". Joshua laughed as they opened the door to exit "Bye Ben" he said shaking his head. Ethan bumped deliberately in to Ben "Joshua has the hots for you". Ben laughed "I guess that is what flirting is all about" he said bumping Ethan back. Ethan put his arm around Ben's shoulder "I missed you Ben, never do that again". "I promise Ethan, just so dam annoyed at myself" Ben sounded annoyed as he said it. Ethan looked at him "Why?" he questioned him. Ben shrugged his shoulders "All these years being together as friends and we kept those secrets". Ethan found it a little awkward and underneath he knew what Ben was really referring to. They returned from the store and walked back in to the kitchen as Mark was brewing more coffee and the guys were finishing cleaning up the remnants of the party. Mark saw his reflection in the window and was heading towards him with the milk, he wondered if Ben had been talking and thinking whilst he was away with Ethan. Had he come to some crazy conclusion that last night was a mistake, his worries were unfounded as Ben put the milk down next to Mark and kissed him on the cheek. "Nice walk to the store?" Mark asked opening the milk. Ben turned and leaned back against the counter "Yes, needed some fresh air, shouldn't have drunk last night". Mark nodded "Oh, did you talk with Ethan?" he stopped to look at Ben. Ben laughed "Yeah, non stop" he fell quiet for a moment "There is one thing...". Mark stopped him "Are you regretting last night?" he asked holding the milk carton. Ben smiled "Oh god no I loved... I mean enjoyed you being in bed with me" he went all flustered. Mark put the milk carton down "So what is on your mind?" he asked with relief. "How to tell my parents, I don't want to end up hiding behind the truth" he replied looking down. Mark nodded "It is your right to tell them, don't delay in case someone does it for you" he turned to face Ben. Ben cocked his head to one side "Yeah I know, it sort of happened with Ethan, my mother told his mother". Mark put his arm around Ben "I sort of heard bits of it and the falling out with Ethan". Ben turned to face Mark with a sorry expression on his face hanging over from the whole Ethan debacle. Mark's instinct told him it was what he was thinking so he kissed him on the lips and just stared in to his eyes, it was as if his eyes spoke to him with meaning. Mark slowly touched Ben's lips with his own, they parted with tender kissing. They had no idea how long they had been kissing but it was Adam who interrupted them. "One thing you had to do Mark and you couldn't even manage that" Adam laughed loudly seeing them kissing. Ben smiled and blushed "Sorry my fault. I will help him" he said beginning to rinse the cups. Ben stood grinning as he helped Mark in the kitchen, eventually they headed out for lunch in Larchmont where Ben had the best fun ever with his new found friends. A friendship that was more akin to a second family where he was not judged. As they parted ways Mark drove Ben back to Harrison and dropped him off down the street from his family home. "So when can we go on a date?" Mark asked as Ben unbuckled his seat belt. Ben looked ahead at the road "I don't know, is next weekend to long to wait?" he asked. Mark shrugged his shoulders "Yes, but I suppose I will have to wait". Ben looked at him "You really do like me?". "To be honest I am quite scared about how much I do" Mark confessed to him. Ben smiled "Meet me Wednesday at 6pm here, we can go for bit to eat, not a date though". Mark smiled "I like that idea, Wednesday it is". Ben quickly kissed Mark and slipped out of the car and began to walk down the street, he turned and looked smiling at Mark before he carried on walking. Mark sat watching him until he disappeared from sight. Ben stopped by the kitchen where Margarite his mother was with and quite surprisingly Ellie, it would appear they were on talking terms again. His mother asked if he had a good time and Ben was being careful about what to say said how much he had enjoyed his weekend spending it with Ethan after so long. He made his excuses and went to his bedroom closing the door firmly and getting undressed. Opening the closet door he reached in to the back behind his sneakers and pulled out his journal. Ben was quite an avid reader and writer and liked to keep a journal about his daily life, he grabbed a pen from the desk and jumped on to his bed turning the journal to the next blank page he simply wrote the weekend and Saturdays date and underlined it. Turning on to his stomach he began to write... "Life can throw many challenges and obstacles at you in the space of a few hours and Saturday was no exception by any standard, writing something like this is a first for me and maybe I cannot express or explain it properly at least I thought I might have been older and wiser before penning this to you my journal. Ethan and I seem to have brought our friendship back on track, the last few months were heart breaking as when you have been in love with someone for so long but never act on it you end up broken, it is all part of me experience and growing up. I met his boyfriend, well fiancé as it now transpires who is one of the most sexiest men straight from a model shoot looking person, he has a confidence about him that is not arrogant just very sure of himself and his tattoos and muscles are simply worth being near him. The hardest part of the weekend was Ethan kissing me but not as a normal friend would kiss, I had his tongue in my mouth and he tasted as I always imagined Ethan was taste, that is to say perfect. It brought back to many uncomfortable truths and had I known then what I know now we may even have been together in college as a couple, if only the brave part of me would have surfaced how things could be different. But I respect him enough and I got my kiss from him but undeniably he really does only have eyes for one person that much I could see and feel in the room whenever they were close. But I digress in my own fantasy of Ethan which has now been over shadowed by someone else. I was surprised if not shocked to see Franco at the party but as it turns out he is Ethan's fiancé's cousin a person who in himself is totally rough around the edges but an amazingly kind person, he swooped me off the doorstep and began introducing me to the various guests. If anyone believed in fate they might laugh or applaud but within minutes I met the man of my dreams, apart from Ethan that is, he was introduced to me but disappointingly told he was straight. I still get embarrassed when people are introduced as gay or straight as if it was something you had to know and I still find it hard coming to terms with being labelled as gay in a group of people. What struck me was how very grounded he is, his short dark hair accentuating his really boyish looks he is no muscled bound ripped god of a man but he is beautifully crafted and smooth to touch. Oh yes I got to touch him and loved it. My shyness put a barrier up immediately and my mouth would not work as I struggled to vocalise and phrase my words. I saw during the evening how he would look over at me, how do I know that?, well I was looking at him a lot as well and don't think I have blushed so much in such a a short space of time. How can a person be so intimate just by looking at me?. The party was good, well I think so having never been to a party like this and everyone had their little groups so I just assumed this was the norm at these types of parties. The evening took a completely unexpected twist when I found myself in the kitchen getting some water, I thought Ethan had come in but when I turned he was standing there close to my personal space. Well journal you know about how I hate my personal space being invaded, something was different about him and the way he stood there eyes boring in to me, I didn't mind him being close to me at all I can tell you that. My essence craved him but what do you do just go down and blow them?. Not me I was rooted to the spot just looking at his face and eyes, oh yes those eyes are a deep pool of emotional bewilderment but you find yourself unable to stop staring at them. Did he kiss me you ask journal, of course he did, I didn't expect it and tried to push him away but he was back for seconds and this time it was meaningful and deep and there was no resistance on my behalf this time. I couldn't contain my arousal and erupted in my underwear (which reminds me he has still got them, but then I have a pair of his that I am still wearing.). It all got very awkward for me that is and I ran off leaving him there, I almost cried in the washroom for being so stupid and frightened am I really that afraid of being me. I want to be gay but I am finding it hard to cross that final hill mostly from fear of the unknown. He came to washroom and we spoke whilst I embarrassingly tried to clean myself up, I don't know but I think he loved the innocence of me even more seeing me so vulnerable, I would like to think that anyway. One thing I never saw coming as I laid in a strange bed that night was him appearing in my room and sliding in to bed next to me. I was elated inside from the warmth of his body just touching mine but I froze staring at the ceiling, what is a boy suppose to do in this situation intimacy is strange to me and maybe this is what the barrier is. Well nothing as it happened, we kissed and touched each others bodies not really venturing down below but then am I ready for that?. I woke up in the morning feeling his cock parked between my ass cheeks, a little shocked at first and somehow so right. Needless to say everyone knew by the time we came down for coffee and they were all very chilled about it. But what is more exciting was finding out he was I guess straight on Saturday but full on gay by Sunday so go figure that one, Ethan did tell me something but that is not for you. I'm knackered and need to sleep and think about him, we are having dinner on Wednesday and he has asked me out on a proper date this Saturday. Excited beyond the planets and stars as I write my thoughts down in you journal, cannot fathom out what has happened to me this weekend but I liked it and it felt like a very happy place to be. Pen down and time to get some well needed sleep, good night." He closed the journal and put is in his draw by his bed for now, thinking he would move it in the morning to it's hiding place.