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Right? So many points here. To me, it all points to the sexual spectrum vs the black and white binary notions of sexuality that have dominated for some time (that seems to be changing?). i think the sexual spectrum makes a lot more sense, certainly has been my experience. That, and the fluidity of sexuality as well, though some 'fluids" move less and are slower or faster than others (e.g. glass is a fluid, but moves much slower than water). Growing up culturally programed (primarily religious) against myself (programed to be straight, but attracted to guys from a very early age), i got married to a woman at barely 21. We fucked a lot the whole time i was married. i came to see it as like being in prison. We hear stories of straight guys having sex with other guys in prison because that's all that's available. In my case, my "prison" was my beliefs, my conditioning. i suspect that is true about a lot, if not most of us. We grow up in culture that affects who and how we are, so separating our conditioning from our natural predisposition can be challenging. While i could function sexually with a woman, my 'prison' experience helped me finally process and realize that i'm wired for Men, not women. Also helped me realize just how bottom i am on that spectrum as well. In both those areas, being gay and bottom, my fluidity is more like glass than water lol.

Just left... a surprise, i thought He was at the beach for the weekend, but He came back today horny, so i got a call before He went to His friends house. There's so many great things about 2 males fucking, but one is the ease and simplicity of it. He calls: "you down to get fucked?" me: "yeah, let me hop in the shower i'll text You when i'm ready." Half hour later i text "ok" noticing His car in my driveway, i unlock my back door and lie on my be ass up. He comes in 30 seconds later: "i've be so horny for your ass," hops on the bed, straddles my thighs, quick lube and slides in. By now, He's very familiar with my hole and knows exactly what He wants and how to use it... He unloads, pauses a few, slides out and hops in the shower. Drying off He texts His friend while saying: "maybe i can hit you up later?" or "tomorrow after work?" i nod and smile "yeah", drugged and loaded by His lust, orgasm and seed. i get all three and they fill me up. i'm learning just how contented i can be receiving these things from a Man... it's as if we share all three between us and are both fulfilled in our own way. fuck, happy and high here. ❤️

i can't remember if i have posted on this thread before? idk, it's been around for awhile. i did see my dad naked a few times as a kid, and it just sorta scared me lol. i have never felt attraction to him as a kid or an adult, but i was attracted to boys my own age as far back as 7 from what i can recall. Never my dad, and really, never to older guys as a thing. i was fucked by some, but was never necessarily attracted to the Daddy/son dynamic. For me, it's always been Top/bottom, Dom/sub (of a particular type)... and if it's right, it can be any age. i also have 2 brothers, one 13 years older and one 10 years older. The oldest was gay and pretty blatant about it, from an early age. He died of AID's in the 80's, before i had accepted myself as gay (even though i was getting fucked a lot, i was still religious and fighting it unsuccessfully). i remember looking at a pic of Him after He died, when He was 20 or so, and He realizing just how hot He was. He was porn star hot, but i never saw that until after He died. Before or after though, i still was never attracted to Him or my other brother who was extra straight lol. Because of my religious past, i also ended up getting married to a woman and have 2 sons. Same there, never any sexual interest at all. Both turned out straight and just the idea of sex between us offends something in me. Not sure if that's a conditioned response or if it's just because i know it would offend them, but i don't have any desire independent of that either. i did, however, have a crush on my cousin as soon as we met (11 years old). He was one year older than me and was one Dom little fucker lol. He'd only play games with me that He knew He would win. He loved to wrestle and play tackle football. He was bigger and aggressive, and always wiped me out lol. i still have occasional dreams about Him and we are teens in my dreams and they are always romantic. Haven't seen Him in 35 years, but i don't think my feelings for Him ever went away on some level. That doesn't feel like incest to me though? idk, that doesn't factor in consciously for me.

Boys my own age. i can even remember Their names. i've written about it elsewhere on BZ, but at 7 (we were both the same age) a boy down the street (Danny Newberry) took me into His bathroom one day and showed me an enema nozzle. He was very excited as He explained to me what it was and where it went, nothing happened between us, but when i got home, i found our enema nozzle and it became the first thing to go into my ass. i had a crush on another boy (Craig) at the same age, second grade, and can still see Him in my minds eye... i used to just stare and pine over Him watching Him play dodge ball. i became fixated on the kind of shirt He wore and had to have one. There were others, i was boy crazy even at that age, and it never went away, we all just got older. Now i do pretty much the same thing at work and at the gym, i like Guys. i think i may be gay? As for actors/celebrities? i crushed big time on Jim Morrison of The Doors, and David Cassidy on The Partridge Family. He sang this song: "I Think I Love You" and i'd swoon every time i heard it lol.

Last night, my Latino FB. He's the proverbial "Brick House." He's a serious weight lifter and a solid mass of muscle. Which if i were at the gym, wouldn't be the Guy who got my attention. Visually? i'm attracted to lean, even slight Guys who have some shape, particularly a shapely ass. Which i always think is strange as a total bottom, just how turned on i get looking at Mens asses? The only thing i can figure is it's because i see it as Their fuck muscle? i'm a member of the >1000 Cocks club when it comes to bottoming, could be 2k, but it's been a lot. i can count on two hands the number of guys i've fucked... most of my topping days were when i was married to a woman and was 'role playing' a straight man. i think that burned my bottom identity deep into my soul. i can go through the motions of being top, but i'm simply not wired that way psychosexually. So, last night. Got off my rotation at the hospital at 730 pm, was a pretty brutal rotation, but made it through and dragged my tail to the gym afterwards to do my 'skinny white boy routine' (trying to make and maintain a fuckable ass and body). Drove home, showered and collapsed in bed a little after 9, been up since 4 am. And, i get a text from my FB: "are you free rn." Damn. i cannot say "no" to this Man, He really is a sweet Guy, and i want Him any chance i get. So i text back: "if You don't mind waiting while i prep." He's cool with that. After about 30 minutes, i'm good, and text Him, He shows up around 10. i'm always waiting naked, ass up on my bed, door open. He says "hi" and asks if i want to try something new... We've been FB's a couple of years now, He's always bred me. More recently, He's wanted to suck me, which i've been okay with because He really likes it and doesn't make me cum, sort of foreplay before He breeds me. Last night He wants to do 69. i know He doesn't have a lot of male with male experience, i'm pretty much it. He's Bi with a gf. I assented and He straddled me on Top. He has a descent sized Cock, and either didn't realize how to position Himself, or did lol, but He didn't move His hips, and i pretty much took Him to the hilt the whole time while He sucked me. i was so busy trying to breath and move this mountain of a muscle Man that i wasn't really aware of Him sucking me... though He is good at it. At one point He said: "if you are into it, You can do my ass too." I'm not, i don't rim, feels top to me. i don't get into penetrating a guy at all. But, i like this guy, so i started fingering Him while sucking Him, and He obviously liked it... and asked me to fuck Him. Apparently i was His first...pretty sure He was being honest about that. i was surprised i could even perform, but He's prolly the first guy i've bred in over 15 years? He got a substantial load, and then wanted to fuck me. i like this guy, so the sub part of my was in full force last night, i just went along with whatever He wanted, didn't assert myself at all. He's totally sweet, and doesn't have a forceful bone in His body. Force shuts me down, but desire opens me and accesses the sub part of me. i don't really like getting fucked once i have cum, just wanna have a snack then sleep lol, but i rolled over and He fucked me very hard... He was obviously very turned on. After He showered, He wanted to go again... but i was spent. Finally some of my assertion returned and i explained that my fucking Him was rare, not likely to happen again. And, while He enjoyed it, i get the impression He's still mostly Top, just wanted to try it. idk, but it was a really unusual night.

i got an oxballs pinhole about a month ago, still haven't used it. i got it because a recent hook up is into gaping and being able to look deep into my hole, we used a speculum, and this seems suited to being able to see deeper. As to getting fucked with a hollow plug in? Not for me... to me that's sort of like wearing an internal condom. Half my objection to condoms is the lack of skin on skin (the other half is obviously the prevention of seeding). i want to feel a Mans Cock, skin and all, i want to connect to the friction of His fucking me, and vice versa. As far as piss breeding is concerned? To me, a Mans piss is a second form of His Seed, so i don't really like when it doesn't all go inside and stay there lol. i'm the same with semen, i don't like it on the outside, or facials, etc., i want it deep and then i hold it in. Same with piss. i know not all Guys are able to piss while inside a hole, so i'm learning how to drink from a Mans Cock to accommodate His need/desire in that respect.

Yesterday evening, around the 630 pm. my Latino FB. It had been few weeks because i had been in Florida on vacation, and the He got a second job. He's Bi, has a GF and is on the DL. We have a spontaneous relationship where He texts and generally wants it "right now" when He does, so i've gotten better at quick clean out... and frankly take more chances. Last night i had some water left in me, but it was clean. i felt warm wetness running down my testicles as He slammed deep into me and released trapped water from beyond the S curve (aka "second hole"). i was totally clean, and that was just from a quick double check. i had cleaned out a few hours earlier hoping He would call and wanna breed. At first, i wondered if He was pissing in me... i've mentioned that a few times, but it's been awhile, not sure He is really turned on by the idea, so i don't push it, just want Him to know it's okay if He does. It wasn't a lot of water, just residual. He released it and left a puddle under me, and replaced it with His seed. i felt incredibly high as i thanked Him after. He's kinda shy when i thank Him, doesn't know quite how to respond to my genuine gratitude... He often thanks me back. ❤️

Everything. I've told the story a couple of times on BZ, but my first was at age 7 when a neighbor Boy i had a crush on showed me an enema nozzle and excitedly explained what it was and where it went. i found ours at home, and it was my first penetration. After that? Anything i could find that seemed it would fit. Veggies, those tooth paste plastic tubes that just looked like dildos. One of the more unusual items was a the pump on my 10 speed bike, which had a sort of 'cum' mechanism... okay, it was air, not cum. lol

Ideally for me? Au naturale: i.e., spit, cum or natural juices. But how often is life "ideal?" Douching, in my experience, dries my hole out. Yeah, i know, sounds counter intuitive, but douching not only removes unwanted stuff, it also washes out the bodies natural lube which mostly originates in the colon and is way more viscous than water... or spit. For me, lube mostly matters with the first penetration and fuck. Lube just works better and faster so there is no pulling and tearing in there. After i've been fucked once, i'm good for any cocks after that, usually no supplemental lube needed. Not necessarily just because of cum, some Men are long enough to seed me beyond the curve (aka "second hole"), so Their cum may not be lubricating where the next Man is fucking. But there's other factors, like precum, and just the friction of being fucked will stimulate natural lubricant production from the rectal tissue from the pressure of a Cock filling the hole. For those interested, from a purely scientific standpoint, an appropriate type anal lube is the healthiest option. “Whenever and wherever someone uses saliva, using spit alone elevates the potential risk of injury, as well as the possibilities of STDs,” Goldstein says. “Saliva in and of itself does not provide the appropriate lubricity to decrease friction during anal sex. These increased pressures lead to the possibility of tearing localized tissue (i.e. anal fissures) and the formation of dilated veins (i.e. hemorrhoids), and a possible result of either or both of these is a higher incidence of contracting STD’s. Anal sex, unfortunately, is traumatic and the way to minimize any complication is to use appropriate lubricants.” [think before following links] https://www.logotv.com/news/a4ktnd/gay-bottom-sex-self-lubricate

i think the refractory period is a factor that no one has mentioned. Not suggesting it is 'the' reason for His behavior, but i believe it factors in to all of our response post orgasm. "What Is the Refractory Period? The refractory period refers to a span of time in the sexual response cycle that occurs after orgasm or ejaculation, during which a person won’t respond (physiologically or psychologically) to sexual stimulation and is incapable of orgasming. During this time, blood pressure and heart rate decrease, the brain releases hormones, like prolactin or oxytocin, and dopamine levels lower to promote rest and recovery. All people, regardless of gender, experience a refractory period, lasting from a few seconds up to 24 hours." [think before following links] https://www.masterclass.com/articles/refractory-period-explained Personally, i want a dynamic where the Top is in charge of my orgasm. Ideally, i like the idea of a shared orgasm, i.e. His orgasm becomes mine when He fucks and releases into my body (lol, it's complicated). A big part of this for me is i do not like the "refractory period" where i do not have that intense drive, desire, need for a Mans drive, desire, need. For me, sex is mostly about the connection i feel and have with a Man through sex. Though i don't think a lot of bottoms, especially total bottoms, may articulate it as i do, i think there's similar elements bottoms experience. A bottom who is having sex without an orgasm is not going to have the refractory period that a Top has after orgasm. Whether stated as such, cuddling for many is a sort of foreplay, which a Top might not be inclined towards right after orgasm (depending on the length of His refractory period?), whereas a bottom who has not had and orgasm may want/need more (enter the "cum dump" lol).

Usual disclaimer here, i don't presume to speak for all bottom guys here. ❤️ While we all have similarities that can put us in a group, we're all individuals too. i don't always feel exactly the same all the time with these particular criteria. If i have a choice, i will always choose anal. But if a Man needs or wants His cock sucked, and there's not another Man right then who wants to breed, yeah, i'll definitely suck His cock. If i have the choice to do both, i'll do both. For me receiving a Mans Cock is built into my 'bottom nature.' i do not think of my being "total bottom" as anal only, but as Cock receptive. i often put in a profile that i am "total bottom and a cocksucker" just to help clarify for Tops who may think "total bottom" means anal only. While i love a Man's Cock in my hole, receiving a Mans Cock is a lot more complex for me than just physically getting fucked and bred. For me, it's a bigger part of the connection to connect to a Mans need/desire to have His Cock received by another male, more than whether it's anal or oral. Reversing the question, If a Man really wanted oral, but was willing to compromise and fuck me instead, i'd still choose to do oral with Him instead, knowing that is what He really wants. At the root of sex, for me, a Mans want or need that is driving Him to penetrate me with His Self, is something i crave more than how He does it. For me, part of being a total bottom is i am responsive to a Man. I.e., there is a part of me that does not function independently. When i perceive a Mans lust/need for me, it opens my lust/need for Him in response. Once i experienced that kind of connection with a Man, it changed the way i approach sex. For me, it's more about receiving Him and His need/desire into me than whether how it happens is anal or oral.

Lol, cool. my Guy texts “free rn” which is a double entendres since im a registered nurse, and I would never think of charging

Just left about 5 minutes ago. my sweet Latino FB, He woke up horny this morning and texted. He was horny! He usually fucks for some time, but came almost instantly this time, then stayed in and fucked another load in. So grateful for Him, He's just all around sweet... He needs to fuck and i need to be fucked. i am so happy to have His Seed inside of me. Gonna have a special smile on my face at the gym this morning.

Here's an excerpt from the bill: "(6) "Harmful to juveniles" means that quality of any description or representation, in whatever form, of nudity, sexual conduct, sexual excitement, or sadomasochistic abuse, when it (a) predominantly appeals to the prurient, shameful or morbid interest of juveniles, (b) is patently offensive to prevailing standards in the adult community as a whole with respect to what is suitable material for juveniles, and (c) is, when taken as a whole, lacking in serious literary, artistic, political or scientific value for juveniles." [think before following links] https://lis.virginia.gov/cgi-bin/legp604.exe?231+ful+SB1515ER Apparently the day before one turns 18, watching 'porn' as defined by this bill is "prurient, shameful or morbid interest." Those who use such descriptors don't believe that once one turns 18 watching porn is no longer "prurient, shameful or morbid interest." A problem with phrasing in laws like this is it defines and labels those who watch porn as "prurient, shameful or [having] morbid interest...."

About an hour ago... my Sweet Latino FB. i go through withdrawal when He hasn't planted His seed in me in awhile, but then it helps me stay hungry and keeps me grateful for Men and Breeding... and that's not a bad thing. i feel very good right now, not going through withdrawal any more. i love Men.

Nope, definitely not "just " you. my guess is that any conscious, considerate experienced bottom worries, or at least thinks of this. The human body has ~27 feet of intestine, about 23 feet is small intestine, about 4 feet the large intestine (aka colon). It is always moving. "This movement, called peristalsis, pushes food through the length of your digestive tract. Any food you eat stimulates nerves, which trigger peristaltic action in the muscles. But the type of food you eat, the amount you consume and the frequency of your meals all have an impact on peristalsis." "Two to six hours — It usually takes anywhere from two to six hours for the food to become broken up in the stomach. The acids and juices in your stomach will break down any food you consume so that it can be more easily passed through your small and large intestines. One to three days — Once the food moves from the stomach to the small intestine, it can take anywhere from one to three days on average to move fully through the rest of the digestive system and to be passed through a bowel movement." [think before following links] https://michigangastro.com/2022/10/30/how-long-does-it-take-to-poop-out-food/

Etsy. Do a search of kinky or more specific. There are individual artisans on Etsy, you can find some really cool or unique stuff there. [think before following links] https://www.etsy.com/search?q=kinky leather&ref=search_bar

Some of the most profound sexual experiences i have had with a Man are instances that 'normal' culture, and even gay culture, might consider humiliating/degrading. To me, saying "you're a dirty, disgusting little faggot, etc.," in a mean way is a buy in to the culture that rejects us. When a Man spends His Lust/Need/Desire in me, then acknowledges and affirms that i successfully met and received His Lust/Desire/Need into me, and provided It/Him and honored place in me, His pride and pleasure collar and leash mine. Absolutely blew me away when i experienced a Mans Pride in me for lovingly receiving His Need/Desire, even when it was degrading/humiliating. It surfaced another feeling that is rare, "adoration." Not something i ever would have expected, or could 'role play.' Some of the most 'real' connections i have ever had are with 'edgy' desires like this.

Another post that makes me think of the spectrum of sexuality, because this too sounds 'top' to me. And again, not asserting that you are "top," just acknowledging the spectrum, how one can be, for instance, maybe 99% bottom, but in 1% situations, he is top. i've written about this elsewhere on BZ, but to me, a Mans Cock is way more than the physical organ between His legs, it's maybe more His needs and desires that drive it. i'm, apparently, at the far end of bottom when it comes to the spectrum. What You write and describe in detail: "Love to, smaller cock here. Get a very full bladder, once I start I would want to pull your face against my groin then hold you there while I flood you. Maybe keep it there after for a bit..." To me, that practically screams TOP and strongly draws me into Your orbit as a bottom and opens me instantly to You. i've received more than a few physically small Cocks and loved the Men Who's inner Cock drove them. It speaks to me of nature, yin/Yang, and how there is always someone who wants/needs who and how You are.

Interesting. Thinking about the spectrum theory of sexuality, to me this edges you in the top direction...not that i think it makes you top, but it strikes me as a top feeling/desire for you to find it "Very hot." Especially the way You describe it: "looking down at the guy as he drinks from it." That strikes me as not only top, but a wee bit dom ;-). And, re you're wondering if "...guys that drink from the tap feel the same way?" Absolutely... at least, this one does. For me, the physical Piss insemination is secondary to the psychological insemination. i think there is potential for some very deep impregnation, depending on the Top, and His understanding of HIs bottom. A Man can use exactly the same words of degradation with me, and depending on His attitude and tone, can either close me up or open me wide and impregnate me with Himself. If He's mean or bullying about it, i shut down. Those kinds of attitudes affect me as opposite of power and control. To me, force/bullying display doubt, insecurity... not knowing or being confident in his position of control and my need/desire to please Him. On the other hand, if He smiles knowingly and congratulates me on being "a good toilet," He is affirming and solidifying both His and my position and making it a pleasure for me to accept and admit it. To me, that is a hell of a lot more powerful than force, when a bottom happily admits and agrees about who and how he is.

i get this, and appreciate the OP's point. To me, his point speaks to attitude and connection vs an action without intent. To me, the point of WS is the intent behind it. i've received piss up the ass for years, and it's a hugely powerful form of insemination and impregnation for me. my experience of drinking Piss from a Mans Cock is comparatively recent. my fifth experience was just last week, and so far, i cannot say i love, or even like, the taste of Piss. i don't. i was pretty proud of my fifth experience because i drank it all from His Cock without 'wasting' any. In this case, it would have been "wasting" because the Mans desire and intent was for me to drink His piss from His cock. i succeeded and got His genuine appreciation and affirmation when He smiled and said: "you took that like a champ." i would have been happy and affirmed had He wanted/needed to piss on me instead, or impregnate me through my hole. The point is, connecting our mutual desire and need, and thus bonding. i'm not sure i'll ever develop a taste for Piss. But taste has never been the reason for me to drink Piss from a Mans Cock. While it would make it easier to do, it wouldn't change my craving the experience. So far, for me, there also has to be a direct connection with the Man producing the PIss. Soaking in a piss filled wading pool, drinking from a toilet, or even from a glass, all are missing the connection with the Man producing the Piss as a direct pleasure/release/relief ejaculation from Him into or on me.

i've had a similar experience, and i've tried several times. The one Man who sorta got in was a Man i met on asspig and had a great reputation and about 25 years experience. He was the most patient Man Who's tried, i spent half a day in His sling and then came back later that evening when He had a friend who He also fisted, and got in no problem. In all my experiences, to me it feels like They get so far, then hit bone, and pain stops the progress. There just doesn't seem to be any give at all, and it's not just pain. Like EW i'm not masochist, don't relate to physical S/m at all. i have encountered more impatient neophytes than experienced. It tightens, if not closes me, if i perceive impatience or disappointment from a Top. i'm pretty sure i'm more delicate than EW, both emotionally and anally. i think part of my 'failure' to receive a Mans hand inside of me is the approach. i have an open hole, but it is Cock opened. A hand is different on more than a physical level for me. i've been on Asspig for years, but if one looks at my pic there, doesn't look like i've gotten very far or opened. A lot of the bottoms i've read who can receive a hand... or two, train. Use toys and plugs and routinely work and open their hole. i don't. Penetrating myself is counter intuitive for me, despite my understanding that i probably won't be able to receive a Mans hand without opening my own hole. The 'counter intuitive' part for me is that opening is a big part of the process for me. I.e., the desire/need is not just to have a Mans hand inside of me, but to experience the process of Him opening and molding me to receive His Hand. i've had this forever fantasy where i wake up in the morning with a Mans hand and part of His Arm inside of me, and i don't recall how He got there. i know that is probably totally ridiculous (lol, do you hear the hopeful optimist in me when i use the word "probably?"), but i realize it reveals a big part of the 'why(s)' i would want a Mans hand and arm in me in the first place. It's not a goal for me, but a processs of taking possession. His Hand inside of me would be so much more than a physical event, it would be a profound changing and molding process to fit me onto Him, or He into me. Like a renovation of a place He will occupy. lol, i know. To me, the bigger part of fisting is relational. And i'm not talking just one Man. my Cock opened hole is the result of a lot more than one Mans Cock, though there is a decided difference between the effects of a one and done fuck vs repeated fucking by the same Man, so i see a lot of similarities with receiving a Hand/Arm, but that does not happen as consistently as Cock does. sorry, turning into a ramble

sorry, forgot the link [think before following links] https://www.verywellhealth.com/what-is-the-fecal-oral-route-1760046

Not asserting a universal standard here, we're all individuals, this is just how i feel. i perceive my hole as a pussy. To me, a "pussy" is not a gender distinction, but a bottom distinction. i.e., a person can be anywhere on the gender spectrum and have a "pussy" made for penetration. For me, rimming is a form of penetration and i don't do it, it feels like he is wanting me to top when a man wants his hole rimmed. And it's even stranger than that, because i love to look at and touch a Mans ass, it's one of my favorite parts of a Mans anatomy, but on a Top, i see it as His fuck muscle. Go figure? i have mixed feelings on the clean vs dirty when it comes to my own hole. i always present clean. i don't have a scat fetish. i don't mind my own but i don't want someone else's scat on my body or in my mouth (i do have one exception of a Mans scat with a kinky impregnation fantasy though). The bottom line for me with rimming is all the diseases one can catch if feces is ingested orally (see link below). i do want the Top to choose, whatever turns Him on the most is what i wanna connect with, but if it's me presenting for a Man, i'm always clean. As an aside, when it comes to fucking, i wish that clean out was not a factor, that it can interfere with spontaneous fucking. I.e., i want to be available 24/7 whenever a Man wants to fuck, so if He has no objection, He can fuck me whenever He wants. Butt i never assume that unless a Man tells me that, i'm gonna be cleaned out.

i used to live in the Mid-Atlantic, and have douched in many a rest stop there. They usually have a douche dispenser where the snacks are (aka "water bottle"?) There is a bit of a dance when you have to go in and out of the stall to refill the water bottle, but we bottoms are resourceful, eh? i'm not surprised to learn from this thread that i'm not the only one to travel with a wrench and a shower shot. i've ofter wondered what TSA thinks? my checked luggage always gets searched lol.