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idk but it sounds to me like it maybe wasn't a question of hard, but length? That maybe He was banging your sigmoid curve? Did it hurt the hole time, or just when He went deep? When you write that "it was painful when He rammed it deep," that makes me think He was long enough that the tip of His cock was hitting your sigmoid curve (aka: the second hole), and that can be painful if a top doesn't know how to get past it and open it. Or he may know and just not care. T o me if it was just a matter of hardness, it would hurt your whole hole, not just when He went balls deep. ❤️

Not sure how You could possibly construe this guy as anything less than Bi, and seems more on the gay side of the spectrum to me, though the sub part of him could throw tis off a bit, i don't think a straight sub would be responding to You the way he is... but then, i'm not there, and You are ;-). i'm not the least bit surprised at his being "scared" of Your cock (or would i be put off if i were You... i.e., Top/Dom). i've had >1000 cocks and i still experience occasional 'fear' when i see a particularly Large Cock (in every meaning of that word, Cock is more than a physical organ to me). But i've learned not to be afraid of my fear, it's rarely rational and i have never regretted giving in to a Man and His Cock. Of course, he is not me, and i had a lot stronger fears at his stage of life. What he is is enamored of You and has demonstrated a desire submit to You. i preface that this is just my point of view: i think how You approach Him plays a big part in His opening to Your cock. Again, i think a Mans Cock is a lot more than the physical organ between His legs. Among a lot of other things, it is Your desire/need to penetrate, fuck, orgasm, seed, impregnate/create, possess,___________. his sub nature may be responsive. Though it may exist independently, he may need a Top/Dom to access, surface and exercise that part of him. Your Cock, both physically and otherwise, may be too 'big' for him at this point, but that doesn't necessarily mean he doesn't both want and need It/You. He's new to this. He's a 'virgin' in more ways than one. i go back to something i wrote earlier, maybe try starting small. Communicate. i gave the example of the thermometer, but that only would work if it had a kink in him to appeal to. You have to find the keys and doors to open the rooms You want to reside in (i.e., it's mutual, but You are in charge). Maybe have him lie face down and naked and give him a sensual massage where You also massage His ass and inner thighs and just lightly graze his outer hole, almost like You touch it by accident. If he feels safe and trusts You, and wants/needs to be penetrated, he will start to open. Chastiy can work to heighten his need for touch and release. That is a vast topic.

i got bred by a FB yesterday. He's been a FB for a couple of years now, and He's definite got a place of residence in me. i hesitated to add "sex appeal" to the title, because this is about more than sex... though i think sex is always a part of who we are, even if it's peripheral. i ended up putting it in the title cause i figured the subliminal would get more readers and responses? (kidding) He's made a few vids of Him fucking me, and made another yesterday. i was struck by the difference between the first vid made several months ago and the second vid made yesterday. The major difference? my ass was much harrier in the second vid. i can be hairy or smooth. i'm not gorilla hairy, but my ass can sure get furry. Personally? i like my ass smooth. i like the way it feels when i soap up in the shower, or when a Man has made me all sloppy and wet. More than the physical feel though, smooth 'feels' more bottom, submissive, fuckable to me. Who knows why? i think feelings like that are conditioned as are our notions of "beauty" and sex appeal? But that creates a dilemma for me because hairy or smooth is not a strong identity factor for me, or not as strong as other factors like my perceived sex appeal being a reflection of a Mans desire to fuck and breed me. There is lots of discussion on BZ about "hairy or smooth" and it always seems about 50/50. As i've matured, my feelings and notions of sex appeal have evolved. my feelings are not nearly as visually evoked or dependent as they were when i was younger. For me, pretty much any Man Who wants/needs to penetrate and breed me in some manner, is Hot and can put me in heat. If i had one exclusive relationship, i could just remain hairy or smooth as a reflection of His lust, and i could be good with that because His lust feeds and nurtures mine more than my own desire feeds and nurtures me. And, i know 'my' (i.e., a bottoms) need/desire nurtures a Top... though i think He has the control position, the resulting dynamic is symbiotic. Meanwhile... to shave or not to shave, that is the question lol.

If i moved to Florida, it would primarily be because i'd wanna be regularly seeded by You, and all that that means.

i support teaching "critical" thinking on any topic as part of the educational process vs programing whitewashed 'history' in order to perpetuate an exclusive system. i see it as an important part of social evolution, of working towards true, inclusive, equality. i think it's important that we never refuse to look, investigate the foundations on which society and culture are built. i cannot see how else we can identify, with an attitude towards correcting, flaws and issues that do not "promote the general welfare." i'm a gay guy who grew up in a culture that excluded and vilified me because of who and how i am. But i could hide being gay, and i did for a long time... i built and lived in the proverbial closet. i see that people cannot hide the color of their skin, so there is no place to hide from racism. Not that hiding is a solution, just a survival mechanism. But what survives? Conformity? Acquiesce? i'm also convinced that much of racism operates under the radar, that it's subtle and unconscious. To me, that would be one of the more important reasons for ongoing scrutiny... if we stop looking, we will stop seeing. If we stop seeing, we will not be able to grow and change humanity, well end up continuing to harm and eventually become extinct.

For those who think/argue that DeSantis' recent "don't say gay" move was just to protect lil kids from the realities of human sexuality, he's now looking to assert control in FL state higher education as well by banning "exploration" courses (because education should never involve exploring stuff like theories?). This guy has presidential aspirations, and his hair is oranger than Trumps. Here's an excerpt from Florida hb0999-00 "471 (c) General education core courses may not suppress or 472 distort significant historical events or include a curriculum 473 that teaches identity politics, such as Critical Race Theory, or 474 defines American history as contrary to the creation of a new 475 nation based on universal principles stated in the Declaration of Independence." [think before following links] https://www.flsenate.gov/Session/Bill/2023/999/BillText/Filed/PDF The implication that teaching students about topics like racism in America, past and present, is a "distort[ion] [of] significant historical events," and is education "contrary to the creation of a new nation based on universal principles stated in the Declaration of Independence," seems contrary to the principles stated in the Declaration of Independence. "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness" That "declaration" was made July 4, 1776, and yet contrary to the Declaration of Independence, America had slavery for almost 100 years after the above declaration was written/made, women were not included, and gays were not part of the "instituted among Men." "Men" at that time, certainly did not mean "people," it was a pretty exclusive group. America's culture and laws were built on that exclusivity and there are those like DeSantis who would like to devolve America, to "make America grate again." "Fox News has mentioned “critical race theory” 1,300 times in less than four months. Why? Because critical race theory (CRT) has become a new bogeyman for people unwilling to acknowledge our country’s racist history and how it impacts the present. To understand why CRT has become such a flash point in the culture, it is important to understand what it is and what it is not. Opponents fear that CRT admonishes all white people for being oppressors while classifying all Black people as hopelessly oppressed victims. These fears have spurred school boards and state legislatures from Tennessee to Idaho to ban teachings about racism in classrooms. However, there is a fundamental problem: these narratives about CRT are gross exaggerations of the theoretical framework. The broad brush that is being applied to CRT is puzzling to academics, including some of the scholars who coined and advanced the framework" [think before following links] https://www.brookings.edu/blog/fixgov/2021/07/02/why-are-states-banning-critical-race-theory/

Not silly at all, a very astute question thinking man ❤️ [think before following links] https://www.outtraveler.com/safety/2022/6/10/it-safe-douche-while-traveling-internationally

Had my fifth experience drinking Piss from a Man's Cock last Monday. Man i'd been chatting with online, made a date and drove 60 miles to breed me, which is pretty amazing by my account. And He did, fucked me for about an hour and a half, using His cock and as speculum to open and shape my "pussy" (He liked to call it that). He was a very passionate Fucker, and i was a rag doll by the time He was finished with me. After, i offered Him my shower and as He stood in my doorway He casually asked; "do you want to drink My Piss?" i got up and knelt in my walk in shower and He followed me in. He placed about an inch of His semi erect Cock in my mouth and as soon as He was in, His Piss hit the back of my throat in a strong stream. i was caught off guard, my prior experiences have been with me holding the Mans Cock in my mouth and waiting a bit, this Man was instant. Some went down the wrong way, and i coughed , but was able to recover fast enough to keep going. Was my first time swallowing every drop without spilling. He's a great Man, very verbal, and He told me after that i "took it like a champ" and that it almost felt as good as and orgasm. He fed me more than His piss... He nurtured my sub nature and definitely helped me grow as Mans piss drinker.

i wrote the above in a hurry before having to get ready for work, just noticed a typo that left out a salient point: the Man in question wanted to "slip me hormones" so the titties He wanted me to have would get more shape, softness and produce milk, not "hormones." Now that i have more time, wanted to put a little more into this thread. i think the fact that most of us are pretty different from 'the norm,' means that most of us grew up conditioned, to some degree, to feel "dirty, sick, evil, perverted,_________." That's where i was going with my original response. I.e., what many have been conditioned to think of as "evil," or have emotional conditioning that makes them feel "evil," is just that: a conditioned response. i have more than a few fantasies that people from the culture i grew up in would take as proof that i am "evil, sick, perverted, etc.." Though i no longer believe or accept the garbage i was conditioned with, feelings/emotions don't always follow our reasoning mind, so stuff that one may 'know' is not "evil, etc.," may still evoke feelings to the contrary. For instance, i have a long time fantasy of having a relationship with a Man where He slides His cock in me anytime He needs/wants, like when i am asleep. The notion there borders on objectification and not having consent. Neither of which are accurate, because it's something i want. And that's even part of the fantasy, as i wake to Him pressing His cock into me, He whispers in my ear: "take my cock, you know you need it." To me, that 'sounds' like something a rapist says to their victim, but this is not rape because He is right and it's not force or against my will, but it is edgy since He is just 'taking' my ass without asking, and initiating when i am asleep. Even though we both know this is not a bad or forced entry, it still has that "feeling" to it for both of us from different perspectives. He gets a feeling of freedom, power, ownership, and so do i, from an opposite perspective. What evokes conditioned feelings of 'evil' can be deeply affectionate and affirming of who and how we are.

i'd put the "evil" in single quotes, to designate perception vs reality. Coming from a strict, conservative religious background, a lot of us were conditioned to feel 'evil' from just fucking or being attracted to another male. That said, all my "evil" fantasies are from a receiving perspective. i have a decided part of me that is deeply aroused and captivated by edgy stuff like being groomed. i had an online thing with a Top who sent me a breast pump and asked me to pump my breasts for 10 minutes a day so i would have "titties." He admitted that had He been closer by (it was a long distance internet connection), that He would have found a way to slip me hormones so those tits would produce hormones. i hedge at the reality of that, dangerous if one doesn't know what they are doing, but the idea really turned me on. Mind fuck that is subtle, affectionate, but under the radar exercise of power is a turn on to me, from a receiving standpoint.

i think it's true that one can assert a sort of control or power from any position, and have found lots of opportunities to do so over the years, but i'm not wired that way. i love yin/Yang, the dynamic of opposites. i don't even like to use dildos, etc., on myself, i do not have the desire to penetrate, i'm all receptive. It also feels wrong to me to be on top riding a Man. i don't try to turn that into a universal "all bottoms should be like this" judgement, we're all individuals, but i know myself and have learned it's better to go without than compromise who i am. And honestly, it's not "going without." For me to do something that goes against who/how i am is really the "going without." So in a very real sense, there is a power in self acceptance, a freedom to be.

Hilarious thread. And yeah, me too. i can only recall it ever happening once. Guy chatted me up online and "sounded" very Top to me, wanting to fuck me on His stairs because He could wait to get all the way up the bedroom lol. When i got there, He had a sorta whiney voice and his attempts at being 'verbal' felt like the porn imitations others note. It's probably that more than even his voice that turned me off, i hate 'role play' and always wanna connect to a Mans real, visceral need/lust to fuck. Which was there, just hidden behind his voice. Funny though, while it was a turn off for me, i did go back and receive his cock one more time after... but after that, i couldn't bring myself to do it.

Domination and submission can be a very complex dynamic, it is not necessarily a black or white, simple interaction that we see in porn or many seem to make it. For me, the most powerful D/s dynamic is full of love and affection, two people expressing and exercising their nature, need and desire. To me, being made to do something against ones will is not submission, it's force or bullying. In my mind, that is opposite of submission. Domination is a little different i think because it can be forceful or subtle, and there are sub guys who want force, and sub guys who don't. The problem with making absolute definitions and applying them is it leaves out communication and connection between two people, just devolves into role play and acting vs exercising and bonding needs and desires. You could ask: "do you want me to make you take My cock?" If he is the kind of sub who does not want force, he may say "no," but that does not necessarily mean he doesn't want to be fucked by You. He may need/want to be seduced, opened, which is a different kind of Domination... it involves mind fuck that precedes physical fucking. The fact that "he likes being controlled" points to him having submissive parts to his nature, but what parts those are is individual, different for everyone. i think You are right. It is possible He does not "know himself." But no one knows if they like or dislike chocolate until they have tried it. There's also developing 'taste' for a thing. First time getting fucked for a bottom can be uncomfortable, even hurt, but there is so much more to getting fucked than the physical process... especially with someone who "likes being controlled." Just as an example, penetrative sex doesn't have to start with a cock. It can start with something much smaller. There's a whole community of medfet people who get off on having their temperature taken with a rectal thermometer, which is tiny and painless. my point is, it's still a form of penetration where there is a Top and a bottom, and can be Domination and submission. As part of the seduction You could try something like this. You could say: "I would like to take your temperature with a rectal thermometer" and that might appeal to him. It would be a way of introducing You penetrating him into your relationship. If he says yes, then obviously likes that, it can progress to bigger things, slowly and subtlety opening him to the point he may be begging for Your cock... or not lol. Chastity can also a very complex and individual dynamic. For me, for instance, it's about the Man/Top owning and controlling my sexual pleasure and orgasm. i have a bent where i love the idea of us sharing His orgasm vs each of us having one of our own. Chastity can restrict orgasm from stimulating the penis and be a way of keeping the bottom in heat, a form of edging. That "heat" or horniness can be 'controlled' by the Man/Top to get the bottom conditioned to getting his pleasure from the Top/Man vs on his own. A lot of bottoms are already wired for this and need a Man/Top to experience it with, but again, it can be a very detailed, individual and complex dynamic.

Unfortunately, you cannot answer this, only he can, eh? As far as a dick not being easy to handle: "practice, practice, practice" is my motto (and most here can attest that practice works lol). As far as fear is concerned? Eesh, that can have all sorts of causes, but i don't think a rational mind overcomes fear as a rule. It may help us overcome fear, but i don't think cognitive reason eradicates fear. Nor does age, there are people who go to their grave imprisoned by fear. i think fear is often both genetic and conditioned in. i appreciate that You are not pushing him... i think that it's ultimately wrong to violate a persons volition, even when some think they want that. They are still not free if someone else makes the decision for them. i think he's confident because he has control. He's not a virgin when it comes to girls and fucking... but he may be a bottom ('likes to obey') who needs Your cock... and my guess is he is a virgin when it comes to having a Man slide His cock into him and breed him.

Lol, well, i think BlackDude nailed it from the start: "he's gay." If he gets hard with pre cum, it's hard for me to imagine a clearer or more telling barometer for sexual attraction than an erection leaking pre-cum. Wonder if he masturbates, and if he does, what he fantasizes about when he does? i think he's clearly on the bi or gay side of the spectrum, is also sexually attracted to You, is on the sub side (which calls out to and naturally attracts Your Top/Dom nature). i do not think is conflicted feelings towards his evident sexual desire for You are all that unusual. Read through the multitude of posts here, or any gay online hook up site, and You will run into many posts of guys who have fantasies about being forced to have sex with a Man, and they are not all 'rape' fantasies. Indeed, most are not. Personally, i think what is at the root of those kinds of fantasies is the guy wants, even needs, sex with a Man, but has some sort of conditioned fear or other conflict against it, often rooted in cultural notions that gays are less than, perverted, sick, immoral, etc., ad nauseam. Since we cannot see inside his head, we don't know, but he could very well be trying to seduce You into making the decision for him. Probably not, but it seems to me that he is obviously sexually attracted to You... to me, there's really no question there. The question to me is why he is afraid to have sex with You? i think his cock, and so much else, is telling You he wants You and sex with You, but he has some sort of reason or block against getting what he wants/needs. And again, that is not at all unusual... lot's of guys have that issue coming to terms with their sexual and/or romantic attraction to other men.

"The Spectrum Model of Sex, Gender and Sexuality" "The spectrum model more accurately represents the ways in which an individual’s sex, gender identity, gender expression and sexual and romantic orientations do not always exist as opposite endpoints. They can exist in any combination, and a person's placement on one spectrum does not necessarily determine their placement on any of the others." [think before following links] https://web.archive.org/web/20201103114503/[think before following links] https://www.usd.edu/diversity-and-inclusiveness/office-for-diversity/safe-zone-training/spectrum-model my own take on relationship agrees with the copied and pasted info above. i do not think there is such a thing as 100% compatibility between anyone. i think the tendency to think in binary terms is something we do to try to nail fluidity down to give us a sense of security. I.e., something in us equates static with security. But i wonder that the only truly static state of being in life is... death, the cessation of movement/fluidity. In the context of the "Spectrum Model...," it seems to me that the two of you are experiencing compatibility in some areas, but not in one that is clearly important to You. You wanna fuck, and he does not. Or he may want to fuck, but is conflicted for other reasons. As an aside, i'd be curious if he is sexually active with women? Has he ever had sex? With a nod towards BlackDude, i too think one can be gay and asexual, though such a state of being would probably be almost impossible to fathom for most of us in the BZ community lol.

Just left... let's see if i can type straight.... no, can only type gay. Man Who's been chatting with me from Squirt for a couple of weeks, made a date about a week ago, so had all the typical concerns since He's in Portland and i'm in Albany, about 60 miles away. He made the drive. He's got a little kink going on and a Total Top Who loves opened, sloppy "pussy," (His word). To hopefully make Him a wee bit happier and turned on, i was waiting with a 22 inch slink plug in my hole to open me deep for Him. i was naked and ass up when He walked in my back door... my house has a great set up for walk in. He was pretty surprised and turned on with the plug kept coming out, without an end in sight. i hadn't used the slink/plug in a couple of years, so i was pretty uncomfortable with it in and it took me a long time to get it in, but i'm glad i did it. He was instantly hard. He's 6.5 inches long, but 8 inches around (He sent me a pick with it wrapped in a tape measure), and yep, His Cock is that big around. He fucked me for about an hour and a half, with about a ten minute break two thirds of the way and i sucked His Cock and balls and we cuddled a bit. He is a magnificent Fucker, very intuitive and connecting with Him was the most natural thing in the world. He shouted pretty loud when He plowed deep and seeded me, and if He thrust two more times, i think i would have cum as well, He pounded the fuck out of my prostate. After, i asked if He wanted to shower before making the trip back home, and He asked if i wanted to drink His piss. Absolutely. i've taken lots of piss up the ass, but i'm still a piss drinker in training, this was only my fourth time. So far, the best i've done is 75%. His cock was still pretty big, but as soon as He put the tip in my mouth, His piss hit the back of my throat and went down the wrong way, but i was able to recover. It was a lot, and pretty strong, but i'm proud to say i drank it all without wasting any. He is a very vocal Top, and He was saying how good it felt, and that always brings out the bottom in me. Nothing opens me like the honest desire and pleasure of my Top, it really helped me drink it all. After i told Him it was only my fourth time and He said: "that felt almost as good as an orgasm, you took it like a champ," He definitely possessed and used the boy in me and i keep exhaling through my mouth so i can smell His piss on my breath, Two different kind s of breeding, both beautiful gifts. He's in me now.

About a half hour ago. my Latino FB. It had been 2 weeks, and i was really missing Him He's BI and pretty young (27), has a girl friend. He's pretty quiet, but i get the impression sometimes He's conflicted about fucking me.. a guy? idk, could be my imagination, He doesn't open up much and i don't ever want to be pushy with, just pussy with Him ( He likes that). We text when He wants to fuck, and is paranoid about any overt references to sex, so He always initiates and just asks: "free rn" which means "free right now." i often scramble to prep for Him, but don't mind with Him. He's been breeding me a couple of years now, so He's definitely got some ownership going on, though i doubt He realizes that. Despite it being 2 weeks, i could tell He missed me, for whatever reason He didn't come over, i have come to realize He eventually will, and when He's goes longer sometimes, it's like He's been storing all His lust and cum up. i know that's not true, but i think a part of it is. He's more intense, and it feels like i have a gallon of cum and precum in me right now, and my soul as well as my body are very well bred right now.

About 10 minutes ago. i'm going to call Him "Fat Cock." because when ever He contacts me He tells me He wants to "feed me His Fat Cock." He loves to be sucked first as a prelude, and i am happy to suck Him. i am a cock sucker after all, and i enjoy how much pleasure He gets, just brings out more of the cock sucker in me, so i don't ever get bored or anxious to get fucked, i like following His lead of pleasure. After awhile of Cock sucking, He says: "let me have you." He is really wanting to ope and stretch my hole, He works its with HIs fingers every time, but He is really intuitive and doesn't push, which opens me further. He fucked me with the intent of opening and gaping me at first, He likes pulling out and seeing His work. Then He pounded deep and hard for awhile, and i made a lot of involuntary noise, which He seemed to like even more. He is really apparent when He cums, plunges deep and holds His Cock in deep, planting His Seed deep, which just opens me more to receive. Fuck, i needed that. He was awesome, and i'm grateful.

i have had a similar analogy as hntnhole for several years, i.e., i find random hook up sex to be like fast-food. I.e., it's quick, easy, fills the void, and full of fat, sugar and other additives lol. it's never been my ideal, but i think "ideal" may be an illusion? i'm the annoying guy on hook-up sites with the too long profile. i'm the one who tries to engage in what has been often termed "endless messages." i understand many who do that are not looking to ever get together, just jack off... but some of us (waves hand) have a purpose."Endless messages" are my attempts at communication and "connection." i will have fast food sex if that's all i can get, or if just don't want to do the work of preparing a seven course meal... But, i want connection a lot more than i want quick and easy. And that requires some unpacking, because i don't think most of us "connect" in the standard heteronormative ways. i have to get ready for work, so more later... but thanks for starting this thread LetsPozBreed. I think it's a great topic, and i appreciate all the thoughtful responses.

It's not a hole that you are encountering, it's a curve. i've found very slow continuous pressure helps, also shifting your body can help (lying on your left side). i've had good success with depth with a slink, i think it's 20" long? but is graduate in diameter.

i finally gave up trying to get all the lube stains out of my bedding. i even bought a 'water proof' mattress pad so i can keep my soft cotton sheet on when with a Man i'm sleeping with. If it's a hook up, i have a special cover that is has design all over it and hides stains well, i can just toss that in the wash after a few fucks..., i'm slow to wanna wash that away. These days i don't think of it as "stains" but part of the "mark" a Man leaves on me... and my bed as well. i know, i'm such a romantic. i know they are clean and washed, and those are now permanent memories of wonderful times had with Men. Not a traditional view, but i don't mind breaking with tradition.

i was married (to a woman) for half my life... my story is all over BZ, so the short of it is i was religious and trying to straighten myself out. Didn't work of course, but to me forever to accept myself as i am. i knew i was gay from puberty and can trace my attraction to males back to age 7. All my childhood crushes were on boys, but was programed to think myself "sick and sinful." i even stood up in church at age 19 and "confessed" my attraction to males... in a sense, that was my first coming out. But none of us (including my future wife to be, as well as myself) realized what that meant. Meanwhile, while married, about 5 years into marriage, i gave in and had my first sex with a Man. Of course, the proverbial cat was out of the bag and there was no getting 'it ' back in. i realized after divorcing many years later that sex with men became my only true source of recognition and affirmation of my gay bottom nature. i seriously could not help myself or stop, which the religious culture was all over telling me i was a "sexual addict." fuck that, those sanctimonious people are all about justifying their controlling beliefs, they could not care less about things like "love" that they talk about incessantly, but twist into yet another demented form of control (sorry, i'm going off lol). i 'cheated' and lied to cover, hid like a scared rat, and felt horrible for it, my whole married life. i was petrified i'd infect my former wife with something, but felt powerless to stop (these were the days before PReP). i even watched my gay brother die of AID's during the 80's, but nothing stopped my need for a Man. i infected my wife with Chlamydia twice, that was early on when i was still getting sucked, and somehow lied my way out of that. Then my wife got sick and i was convinced i'd given her AID's (by that time i was getting fucked bare and often... usually daily). i went to our church pastor and "confessed" and he told me i had to tell her. i did, and that was a hell i cannot describe. Doubled my guilt and shame, but i thought now that i'd 'come clean' i'd be able to get over being gay. Lol, i was a very slow learner, but really, i was a sincere believer in all the religious stuff i'd been conditioned by, and also had fed and nurtured myself on as an adult. It took me so long to process and try changing till i finally realized and accepted: i'm gay and i NEED a Man. Basic stuff, but i had a deep pit to dig out of. But i did. i did not rebel against religion or my conditioning, i saw through it. As torturous as that process was, it was the making of me. i regret the lying and cheating i did, not justification for that, but i also understand and can forgive myself for it, i was in an untenable mind fuck (not the good kind) prison. Getting divorced cost me everything i had (literally), but i gained honesty, integrity and my self in return. It was well worth the price. i am a happy, peaceful guy now, and free to love a Man without fear, guilt, shame or remorse.

Lol, Right? i have a feeling that if guys are open or think about it, well get some cool info here. To me, we cannot be too hyper aware of who and how we are sexually. i think a lot of our hiding many of our sexual parts is just cultural programming against being different. i was bred by a newer FB a week ago who uses copious amount of my silicon lube, not just on my hole, but on His hands and all over my ass. i'm face down and He's faking me, Him sitting and straddling me, and He reached behind and started rubbing my inner thighs with His slippery hands. i ramped up about 100% when He did that and almost instantly had an orgasm... from texture.

This morning i was putting lotion on my hands, and as is my habit, i put on extra because i often apply the extra to my ass. i also exfoliate regularly. i know this thread may come off as silly to a lot of guys, and i'm not overly serious about it either, so have at it, i can laugh at myself pretty easily. my physical sexuality is thoroughly entangled with my psychological sexuality, so as readers of my posts may have noticed, i tend to be very cerebral about all things sexual and analyze the fuck out of fucking. me? i want to be "soft and hairless." More correctly, i want to be wanted as "soft and hairless," and yeah, that goes way beyond just the physical for me. There's a decided mind fuck to it for me when a Man sees and/or wants me that way. Which is not to say i'm overtly feminine, i'm not. i've often been frustrated at how i continually have to explain to people i'm gay, like when women hit on me. So i know i'm not stereotypical. i'm not a gorilla but i am naturally hairy, so i if i want to achieve smooth, i have to wax (painful and tedious) or shave (not as good of results). The truth though is, when it comes to these things, it's not something i make a deal about choosing. my desire to be "soft and hairless" is a reflective, responsive part of me that responds to a Man who likes/wants that. So, it is something i can choose without violating my general nature as a total bottom. Still, "soft and hairless" makes me feel vulnerable and fuckable, and i love when a Man wants me that way. For those who think of such things, thought it would be fun to find out Top, versatile, bottom,__________, views about this.