PozBearWI

I've been somewhat out of the play scene for about a year since I seroconverted.  But we were at a group sex party and my mate encouraged me to join the fun while he waited for our late comer (frustrating, there is often the one guy who doesn't give a crap that someone is waiting to check him in before they themselves can join the party).  I did exactly that and really enjoyed a few hours of playtime. 

His comment at the end was "it was nice to see you play again".  

I built my sling frame to be compact, portable, sturdy, beautiful.  Built to hold a six point sling, which for me is a game changer as the mid back support is excellent and long term comfort makes it a clear winner.  

As far as sling sex?  I agree it is hard to beat.  It's purpose is obviously for fucking.  Specifically butt fucking.  

My online profiles are all up to date.  And indeed since testing poz a hell of a lot has changed.  Regular play buds have evaporated.  No regrets though.  If they run at reading I doubt a face to face conversation will help.  

On 12/11/2024 at 5:07 AM, 1hornyjohn said:

Hi Danny

I'm poz and have been since 2020. I'm on meds and undetectable.  Every 6 months I visit Dean Street clinic in London for sexual health check and to get another 6 months supply of meds.

Otherwise my life, sexual and non sexual, is much the same. In one way, I no longer worry about HIV because I've got it! But with the advent of PrEP you can live a more exciting sex life (that said,  get checked for STIs and treated if necessary). Not sure I'd deliberately try to get pozzed nowadays.  

If you are poz and on meds, life is a bit more complicated and inconvenient.  

I would add being poz and not on meds has its inconvenience as well.  

An excellent start, hope for more.

@topblkmale I suspect many are responding about their first fuck more than understanding what "rape" actually is.  

To the OP's question here; Should we be worried or do anything about this...

I'll throw in my experience from having lived the gay revolution from 1969 to now.  It makes no sense to fret about words.  They are words and as we can easily observe, the definitions and intent of them morph.  It isn't so much what anyone says to or about us.  For openers, I submit it is better they be saying something than be silent.  Wouldn't it be better to actually talk about it with the individual speaking and perhaps, discover what they actually mean than for us to assume we understand their intent by one word?  I think in most domains this might be our modern social media problem; we have opinions before we have understanding.  

@lancguy14 man an EXCELLENT job brother.  I sense there is more to come but we're already three loads in...  🙂

The other thing that started a couple weeks back are phone calls from a friendly sounding lady telling me about my back taxes....  Had I owed back taxes I would of course have already known from a letter from the IRS.  

Each call gets noted as a spam call blocking further calls from that number.  But sure as shit a few hours or a day later the exact same voice is calling me about my purportedly back taxes from a different number.  So far in the last month there have been at least 50 of these....  

I've experienced that as well @ellentonboy.  But I hadn't previously blocked the idiot.  My suite of security software was ahead of it for me.  I wouldn't even have known except I periodically go in and empty spam, and scroll through the list to make sure there are no unintentional items in spam.  Note though, just because it appears to be "from" a known person, there is a reason my software put it in spam.  So I use care to see whether that really came from my buddy Ron; or someone pretending to be him.  

I don't understand the motivation to keep secrets from someone we supposedly love, respect and care for.   Yeah lots of people do; but that doesn't make it a good thing.  

You're on @fluffybutt.  Are you also in Wisconsin?  

Into...  Bareback sex, ideally flip fucking.  But when all else fails I can be counted on to give a deep an satisfying blow job.  

Thanksgiving is a uniquely North American holiday.  Gratitude was to our early North American invaders a practice some of them followed; setting in motion what might be known as the American Dichotomy.  It is popular in recent years to consider that "bad".  We come from "bad" people.  Certain comedians are "bad" and unviewable because that did XYZ.  So we shut them out.  It's as if words are bullets.  They are NOT.  

Whether we are "bad" ourselves is up to us and how we behave amongst our fellows. Some of course will toss us in the "bad bucket" simply because we might be curious about barebacking.  But seriously look at your day today?  How much of it was chasing and how much of it was doing other things necessary for our survival?  

We seem to have this weird thing going on in opinions of each other that one descriptor for someone is the ENTIRE description of them.  We sort of "allify" someone.  If we're a white guy (for example) that is viewed as defining and suddenly we know everything about you.  All young guys voted a certain way, that fully defines that demographic?  Not at all!  Isn't life more about discovering ourselves?  We depend on each other for our differing abilities.  I can for example wire your house for electric safely and efficiently; but I am not good on a roof anymore.  But others are good on a roof but need an electrician.  Fire fighters of the 1800's didn't have Water Hydrants and pumper trucks.  They depended on the final guy in the bucket brigade to have the best aim.  It is our differences that benefit each other.    

Each of us, even us and our Significant Other, is not a Xerox copy other the other.  Rich and I are quite different and yet almost everyone who meets us in person asks us if we're brothers.  

We have forefathers that ultimately are common to ALL of us.  Things that retarded society came from that, and things which benefitted society also came from that.  Holding in our minds for a time these conflicting ideas from a common source.  And isn't that true within us?  Just because I regret that I did one thing doesn't mean I don't love the beneficial things I've done.  We will never perhaps be perfect.  There is a dichotomy within us, and around us.  And hopefully rather than shame, we can be grateful for that. 

When the holiday started though it was a shared Native American and Immigrant who chose, at that moment, to be commonly grateful for how they find themselves on that day.  As a holiday it is intended to be a day we reflect on whatever we can be grateful for.  (When I start to list it included many many dozens of countable things). We can make another holiday we can acknowledge regrettable stuff if we need to; and perhaps we have when we recognize the start of WW2, or perhaps Halloween.  

The ability to think and express an idea is wonderful.  For me it becomes more wonderful when it engages another here and we expand our understanding of ourselves, and the world around us.  

Again, I am so grateful you guys are here.  Peace my brothers.

PozBearWI

Experience has taught me to distrust any statements that begin with ALL.  So "All the Asian boys are horny as hell" is right up there with any of the other ALL statements.  And paired with an implicit "all black guys have big cocks".  I've known too many then who didn't get that memo....  

🙂

@hntnhole seems to have gone off the rails buddy (not you, RFO).  Sometimes it's best to just not respond.

And as this likely hasn't been studied, how that might impact you would be TBD.  What are you hoping it would do for you @stillbreedin?

Actually most likely this was concurrent, unless the French started emulating the Brits.   

To me that suggest "it depends on who the individuals are".  Some approach places they move to as "the new neighbors", others want/need to TAKE what they want as invaders.

Given our history, it logically follows this will continue.

Very true @BootmanLA.  And there are a few of us who are poz but never develop a particularly significant viral load.  At my highest, shortly after infection I hit 7,200.  It plummeted fast.  

Perhaps we ought to start defining what HVL is numerically?  

For me; undetectable is <200 (the measurable VL which existed during the many early partner studies which ratified u=u.

HVL?  I think probably > 100,000.

And I find it interesting that French settlers integrated with native population and developed cooperative societies.  It was really more the Brits (primarily but not exclusively) who took a view that some humans are superior to others based upon what they look like.  

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4 hours ago, Pozguyinchi said:

With Thanksgiving coming soon I thought it was a good time to reflect and give gratitude.  I know it’s not popular outside of this blog to say it but I am grateful I am HIV positive. I was diagnosed at an early age when treatment was not readily available. It helped me to first really prioritize what was important and second free myself of the stigma associated with it. I sometimes think what my life would be like if I wasn’t poz at 19.  I don’t think I would be as happy. I was able to live my life sexually with freedom. I also live with an openness with my family, friends, and coworkers. Everyone knows my status and I am proud of it. Being a whore and poz has been a gift with relationships too. I know that sex is a feeling nothing more. Men (and women I guess) have a need that gets satisfied with an act. I know that relationships have an added benefit of sexual release but it’s not a requirement. Lastly I will say that my status has not defined me but rather empowered me to be an advocate, mentor and example to others that are either searching for their gift or living with it. 

Poz at 74 and honest I am glad I am.  This bug has a massive influence on me at my coming out was in the 1970's.  When GRID hit it felt a hell of a lot like Covid felt when it hit (and MPOX after that).  HIV poz isn't a moral defect.  It's a virus; and one that at end has brought a ton of benefit to humankind.  Consider the host of new treatments that come out every year now.  

If you ever have occasion to get to Wisconsin @Pozguyinchi you have a standing invitation to my home dungeon.  

9 minutes ago, bikerarmpits said:

Fuck man yeah! I'm a bit nervous because I've never had anon men breed me before, so yep... I'm willing to enjoy the cum

@bikerarmpits those nerves will leave you once you've had that beer.  My advice echoes @BlindRawFucker1, enjoy giving and getting those loads.  Nothing terribly new and it is clear you're mentally ready to bottom too this time.  Have fun.

WRT after, wait a month then get a decent STI panel done.  

Ah good insight @FFun2BB.

I most love reading OLD COMPLETED stories here on BZ.  In fact I wish they could be condensed into single long multipart stories we can read, as I did this one, start to finish in one sitting, without the comments from while it was in development (although I see how those can build excitement in some stories).  

So I read this one for the first time this morning.  Definitely a hot read and one that reminded me of my life; although details vary quite a bit.  But the pleasure of a first ever fuck came through loud and clear.  And the excitement of meeting ones "new" lover a second time came through quite well too.  A touch of "more mature for an 18 y.o.; but perhaps that is the difference of my boomer generation from those which came after.  

Bookstore came through as authentic, even though those I enjoyed closed almost 30 years ago.  But contextual descriptions and feel of the place came through quite well.  

In Part 8 it seemed too much for a virgin to be fretting how spit might feel as lube.  At least speaking for myself, I didn't know what to think of it until I experienced it.  So I wouldn't have been concerned yet before he fucked me.

In Part 11 before he became "Ted" he was briefly "Rich".  I stumbled over that until "Ted" stuck as the guy's name.  

Finally, I left the story wondering what happened to teacher Tim.  He kinda got dumped it would seem.  I was hoping the last bookstore guy would have proved to be teacher Tim; and the story would have unfolded from that perspective.  Of course, then it would have been live streamed by the last guy; had that been going on.  From the standpoint of being a viral poz guy myself, I can see how livestreaming my fuck ensures that consent is there.  

Hmmm, he never did it for me.  Now Jim Jordan, as much as he often pisses me off is for me, pretty hot.  Adam Kinzinger is welcome anytime as well.  

Hmmm, save that I don't have 9 inches, perhaps I need to take a trip down to Chicago soon...