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i'd go with Pals as well. Surprised no one has mentioned all the flakes you have to deal with with anonymous hook up. Just not as reliable or easy to arrange. With a FB, i can get a text and have His cock in me soon after. With anonymous, you never know if the person will even show up. Even at a sex venue, no guarantee you're gonna get bred. Pals are a sure and constant source of lust for me. i get anonymous in between, but if i had to choose? Pals. i'll add that i also like the connection and bond that forms with a Pal. To me, sex that goes beyond the physical is sexier. you get to know what works and what doesn't and just do what works with a Pal. Anonymous can go either way, sort of roulette. If you have a FB/Pal, there's reasons that you keep fucking together over and over again.

Mine hasn't and i don't really want it to, to me it's the mark, signature of the Men Who have bred me, and i love having Them always with me. It's more a sphincter for receiving than retaining now, much easier access. The body is somewhat adaptable, and my hole is different now. i can flex it and squeeze a cock, but it's more opened even when a cock is not in it.

just left. Fuck i needed that. FB, we kept missing each other, He'd call, i'd be at work or He would be working. Tried Him last night, but He was working late again. Prepped this morning thinking might work out, then gave up, did the gym, ate dinner and He called. Fuck, i just ate, but had prepped this morning and did another prep and was ready. So fucking sweet. i sucked Him first, He really likes that. i kiss and lick His thighs and balls, His taint... drives Him wild when i do that, so that just makes me hungrier till He says: "I wanna fuck you." He plows me so hard, it's like He is fucking His soul into me. i try squeezing His cock with my hole, but He fucks so long and hard, incessant, that finally i just give in and open wide. i'm full of His seed right now. i have to work the next couple of days, so glad we got together before. Sweet.

Yep, totally an individual need/desire question and the answer cannot be generic me thinks. i'm on the far end extreme of this one. i only like to masturbate to edge, to make and keep myself hornier for a Top Who needs/wants to penetrate me with His cock and release His seed into me. i do masturbate, and i do cum that way, but it's always a disappointment for me even though i do it to release the tension and for prostate health. my ideal orgasm would be hands free from being penetrated/fucked... just my particular psychosexual wiring, so i'd be one of the ones who would definitely not cum prior to going to a sex venue. When i am getting enough connection with a Top/Man, and getting bred regularly, i do not need or want to cum, even solo or behind closed doors. i find i derive a lot of satisfaction from having His orgasm inside of me, plus i love that ongoing lust i have for Him. But really, that ongoing lust only works if it's mutual, then it becomes a connection, a bond. But that's me. i know we all share similarities, but we're all unique as well, so would not presume to think what works for me would work for any other bottom.

haha, this is great!!. Watch the cherries closely, one is filling the other up.

There was a time when i'd do that... fuck a bottom in need before leaving for the night, but i seem to have lost the ability to do that. It's not physical. If i a Top talks to me about wanting my hole and wanting to breed me, i get hard as a rock. Same with edging, i stay hard for hours (days lol) edging to fantasy about getting fucked and bred and doing other things i perceive as 'bottom.' Last year a sweet young university student from a repressive family hit me up on Squirt. He had a gorgeous, smooth ass and is such a sweet guy. He had not been fucked before and i didn't want him to get a jerk who didn't care his first time, so with trepidation i told him i'd try. i've never taken viagra in my life, but had some i got sent free, so i used it and was able to get it up enough to get it in... and it wasn't easy lol. He was soooo virgin his hole was very tight, so only a really hard cock was gonna get in. Plus, he had his eyes closed and was missionary, but kept pushing his legs against me instead of receiving my whole body lol. i did get in, but went slow and only got in and did a couple of thrusts before i lost my erection. it's all psychological for me, even then i was doing it for him, really not turned on by it, just wanting to give him a good time... but my penis didn't agree.

i'd suggest that what you eat is an ongoing factor in the digestive/clean out process. Most of us do not eat a healthy amount of fiber. Fiber comes from whole fruit, veggies and grains. There's soluble and in soluble fiber: "Soluble and insoluble fibers have unique benefits. As soluble fiber dissolves, it creates a gel that may improve digestion in a number of ways. Soluble fiber may reduce blood cholesterol and sugar. It helps your body improve blood glucose control, which can aid in reducing your risk for diabetes. Insoluble fiber attracts water into your stool, making it softer and easier to pass with less strain on your bowel. Insoluble fiber can help promote bowel health and regularity. It also supports insulin sensitivity, and, like soluble fiber, may help reduce your risk for diabetes." [think before following links] https://www.healthline.com/health/soluble-vs-insoluble-fiber#benefits Everybody's body has traits/aspects that are the same, and things that make us different. Our guts are effected by what we eat, particularly our microbiome, and that becomes more individual because we all eat differently. As ErosWired points out, what we eat does not come back out very quickly, so what we eat the day of the event is not as big a factor as what we eat on a regular basis (pun intended). The body has ~four feet of colon (large intestine). Most of us are not cleaning out the whole thing as part of prep. When we eat, there is a physiological effect called the "gastrocolic reflex." Simply put, when we eat and food stretches the stomach, it also sends signals to the colon and increases peristalsis. [think before following links] https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK549888/ i'd suggest eating an apple or banana. But on a routine basis, i'd suggest you eat a lot of fiber. You will find that what comes out changes and becomes a lot 'cleaner.' A good test is the wipe test after a BM. If it's clean (and you are not constipated), it's a good sign you are eating a decent amount of fiber and clean out will be a different and easier process.

This is a great discussion, i'm glad it got reawakened. A few thoughts before i have to go to work. i do not relate to the notion that a Top gets pleasure and a bottom gives pleasure. i've read myriad profiles of guys who self describe as loving to "please," and invariably that's another way of saying they are bottom. i derive pleasure in so many ways when a Man fucks me or i suck Him,, both physical and psychological. my best sex as a bottom has been with Men Who are conscious of Their position, power and ability to please/give pleasure as well as receive it. To me, the best sex involves connection of mutual desire and need from opposite sides. It's symbiotic. i do understand the objection about "ownership." i use the term often enough, but i think it can have different meaning to different guys. Partly i think the challenge with the term is it's repurposed. We all grow up in and live in culture that has been heteronormative, so we end up using that vocabulary and heteronormative terms to try and describe who and how we are. i think "ownership" is one of those terms. It is for me. in a sense, it's mutual too, when two people give their self to each other. The difference for me is as a bottom i am a receptacle of sorts and perceive myself as having a 'place' inside of me that is made for a Top to occupy, fill, "own." It's complex. gotta go to work.

For those interested in health info about oral/anal. 🙂 "Rimming carries a risk of passing on or contracting sexually transmitted infections (STIs). According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC)Trusted Source, there is a risk of the following STIs from oral sex: chlamydia gonorrhea syphilis herpes HPV HIV trichomoniasis There is also a risk of contracting bacterial infections or parasites, such as E.coli or giardia, from contact with the anus. People can transmit a type of bacteria called Shigella through oral-anal sexual contact, causing a gastrointestinal infection called shigellosis. Hepatitis B and C are infections that people can pass on through bodily fluids. A person may be at risk of one of these infections if they have any cuts or sores that come into contact with the bodily fluids of a person who has one. There is also a risk of contracting hepatitis A from oral contact with the anus. To reduce the risk of passing on a bacterial infection, people will need to avoid rimming if they have any symptoms of a stomach bug, such as diarrhea, constipation, or vomiting. They should also wait until any cuts or sores around the anus or mouth heal before giving or receiving rimming." [think before following links] https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/rimming#who-does-it

Censorship is control. i think anyone who wants and loves freedom will agree that control also needs control. i am grateful to rawTOP and the moderators for the BZ. i'm also grateful for the contributing members. As others have implied, i think a hallmark of any substantial discussion is the exercise of self censorship and maturity of its members. To me, a mature person acknowledges that they can be wrong, and admits when they are. Sort of a self censorship? None of us would be here if someone had not pushed against boundaries. Hell, we might all be in prison. i think questioning authority is a good and proper exercise. That said, there are benevolent organizations with well meaning leaders, and then there's North Korea. my attitude and demeanor towards the first it going to be different from my attitude and demeanor towards the latter. i think this community does a good job with checks and balances and has provided us with a forum that pushes social boundaries. i think participation in discussions like this are good and necessary to help keep evolution alive and thriving. i think it's noteworthy that we can have them, uncensored.

Even with this thought, the testicles manufacture and store our sperm. i don't think storage space is what decreases, but probably the speed at which we produce sperm is what decreases. I.e., if one is making a gallon an hour, no one will notice a change if He only shoots a gallon a day. On the other hand, if a Top is shooting a couple of times a day and His delivery outpaces His production rate, there's gonna be a decrease in the amount delivered. i frequently will edge for several days to a week, ten days before cumming, or just reserve it. When i cum i shoot a lot and far. On the occasions where i climax more often, a couple of times a day say, or several days in a row, i don't shoot as far or as much. my guess is if You went several days or a week without cumming, You'd likely shoot hard and a lot. But i suspect bottoms would argue for getting Your cock and seed more frequently than waiting a week... ❤️

lol, fun question. i have an average size penis, and i edge... a lot, because i like a Top to control my orgasm, and redirect that energy to His orgasm... butt that's another topic. The bottom line (so to speak) is, the less frequently i shoot, the more semen i shoot and the farther it goes. Not unusual for me to end up with cum on my face. i notice one time that i had something on the headboard of my bed... yeah, it was cum. What causes variation in volume and force of ejaculate? People may notice sometimes they ejaculate more, or their ejaculate comes out more forcefully. Several factors influence this, including: Age: Males tend to ejaculate the largest volume of semen in their thirties. As they age, this volume decreases. Sexual activity: Recent sexual activity, including masturbation, may decrease semen volume, which potentially reduces the distance semen can travel. Prolonged periods of abstinence may cause a person to produce more semen than their usual amount. Genetic factors: Genetics play a role in most aspects of health, including the volume of semen. Some people naturally ejaculate more or less compared to others, regardless of health or lifestyle. Lifestyle factors: Diet, smoking, and many other lifestyle factorsTrusted Source can affect semen quality and overall health. For example, most research shows regular exercise may improve fertility and sperm quality, and studies suggest it may increase semen volume. Overall health: General health may affect semen volume. For example, a person with a chronic illness, such as diabetes, might notice a change in their semen. Hormonal issues may also influence semen quality. [think before following links] https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/how-far-can-a-man-shoot#causes-of-variation

Seriously? Vice cops still go to gay venues and pretend to be gay to entrap men to ask for sex?

i was at All Worlds in May. i went to PS 2-3 times a year prior to Covid. i've stayed at All Worlds (usually) and CCBC. Been awhile since i stayed at CCBC (prior to the pandemic), but had my best on site sex there. Would leave my door ajar at night and lie ass up and had a lot of walk in breed and go. During the day, especially on weekends, the playroom would be wall to wall sex. All Worlds? Hit and miss for me, but i may be figuring it out? When they also owned the facility across the street, i found that play room to be very active. Was a lot smaller than the maze, 4 large booths with large GH's, on big room with couple of sections with sofas and a sling, divided by the "booths," but it was always busy and i got fucked a lot there... as much as CCBC, more really in the play room, less in my own room. AW opens The Maze on weekends, it's closed week days. When it's open, you have to pay a cover charge and enter through the lobby. On week days, the lobby isn't even open and you enter through a coded gate. i checked in on a Wednesday and didn't see any staff till Friday, check in was done online and i got a 'key' code to the facility gate and to my room. If i go back to AW, i know better how to work it than i did this last time. If it's a week day, half the PS population is gay and i find anonymous walk in is pretty easy to arrange using apps. We're back to the "numbers" reality. The large gay poplulation increases ones chances, eh? i'd just give the gate code to whoever wanted to fuck, they'd come to the hotel, let them selves in and come to my room with my door ajar, find me naked and ass up and breed me. i like that venue better than just any hotel because it's in a gated, safer? environment? At least, it's at a place where fucking is the expectation, not the random gay guy using the local Motel 6. Though, honestly, i wonder if that would work better in a city like PS? Come the weekend, no more walk in sex. i had one Guy arranged and they had blocked the after hours gate. He went to the lobby and they would not let Him in without paying a cover charge so He left. He was (rightfully) pissed at me... i didn't know, that's how i found out about the after hours gate being blocked on weekends. i got mixed sex in The Maze. Friday was busy, and i didn't get much. Saturday was a little better. Sunday i got the most (oddly to me?)... especially at the end of the day when everything was winding down. i went to the back room with the large king sized bed and lay ass up and got some incredible fucking. damn, it was good. Friday and Saturday was a mix of sucking and getting fucked, but i was a little fish in a big pond those days/nights. Lots of sex going on, just not with me.

i wonder if it's that society "is just getting more punitive," or if 'offense" and the reasons for punishment have changed? In 1998, i was arrested for asking an undercover vice cop who was purposely pretending to be gay in order to entice and entrap a gay guy looking for sex. We exchanged enough to where i asked if he wanted to fuck me? He confirmed i was asking him to fuck me, then arrested me and charged me with a felony using a 100 year old sodomy law (the court reduced it to a misdemeanor or "indecent exposure" even though there was no exposure involved... at the time, i was just relieved to have it reduced). Gay guys don't get arrested that way anymore? In some ways, i think society has become more aware (and accommodating?) of the differences between people. Whereas women may have just taken sexism on the chin in the past, because it was 'the norm,' the term: "boys will be boys" doesn't fly as readily as a reason for sexual aggression in 2023. Haha, i wonder about the incident you relate. A couple of questions arise now that probably wound not occur to a male during the 1960's say. In the 1960's, probably all those guys would have felt free, even invited, to make sexually suggestive retorts. Today? i'd wonder if she was bating? Or, was she possibly a horny woman fishing for a come on in a now polluted waterway? "Progress" always seems a double edged sword.

i've seen (and remember) the Star Trek episodes You mention, so i guess i qualify as "nerdy" too. i think there is a lot of truth in Your observations and ideas. i think the majority of effects of evolution fly under the radar of our awareness and am grateful for discussion forums like this where another pair of eyes and connected brain are adding to the mix of awareness. Even for those of us who would still go to the local cruising spot, tech has (likely forever?) changed that venue and process. i lived in VA prior to the gay tech age. i knew all the cruising spots where i could almost guarantee instant sex or multiple sex partners just by showing up and sitting in my car or sitting on a toilet in a stall in a RR. There was one park in particular, sandwiched between two Naval bases, that always had at least a congregation of 20 guys with the potential for sex. i went through that park on a trip back east, and it didn't have one guy there... just a bunch of straight families. Sex venues seem to be going the way of the horse and buggy and what we have is the Model T... well, tech has progressed beyond that lol, but we are still in the early stages of evolution me thinks. i do remember my first gay internet porn, trying to watch it using a dial up modem. But fuck, it beat going to an ABS and getting a magazine. Also, now we have a whole generation of guys who have never even experienced cruising like some of us older guys have... all they know is online. Another online phenomenon that just did not exist with IRL cruising is stuff like 'bots' and 'scammers.' The last couple of years, apps have become overrun with them. But even those can evolve or become extinct, eh? Squirt recently added a filter to the log on process that requires one of those "prove you are human" features and i have noticed the bots/scammers i was getting every time i signed on have 'virtually' disappeared (for now).

i see this too. One of the hardest things for me is to feel like i am always the initiator, especially online. Easily for every 100 contacts, i initiate 99... and the number of guys that don't even respond? Eek, doesn't do wonders for the self esteem. i wanna get bred by a Man Who wants to fuck me... but if i'm at a sex venue and presenting and no-one is taking, i find the guy watching porn on TV (and often pulling on His Cock) and i ask if i can suck Him. i cannot remember being turned down. i've also been in sex clubs where i did that, was sucking on a Guy and another Guy would come in and fuck me and i wonder if it's because i am so obviously hungry lol? i usually am fucking cock crazed at those places and any Cock i get, sucking or otherwise, i'm in the zone.

lol... i think you did a fairly exhaustive job of directing this on your own ErosWired. You hit a lot of notes and thoughts i have about the term. i haven't used it as an identifier in some time, because, as you set forth, there are so many implications. To me, defining the term is sort of like being asked to define an apple. There's things in common, but no two alike. Depending on who we ask, i'm definitely a "cumdump," and others would say i am definitely not a "cumdump." What has me steering away from the term as a self identifier is my personal perception of devaluing the connection between a Top and bottom. For me, narrowing that down to only "cum" and me as a "dump," doesn't fit. When i have sex with a Man, i'm not just wanting His seed, but Him, His desire, need, drive, penetration, pleasure, orgasm, energy, seed... and more. "Dump" doesn't work for me either, even beyond what you have noted about "dumps." To me, a condom cums closer to being a "cumdump." i do not perceive a "dump" as a person who values the Man/Top or His substance. i (and other bottoms) have been known to scavenge that 'dump' (condoms) and 'eat' the contents. Bottom dumpster diving? i was thinking about this the other day. i was leaving Costco. Costcos all seem to have two entries and only one exit? Not unusual for several to pull into the exit lane at once when busy, and like a traffic circle, most seem to survive the mayhem. Three of us pulled into the lane simultaneously and the guy behind me took offense, pulled up beside me and hung his head out his SUV window and said: "you must be a special kind of retarded." i was dumbfounded. i did the male version of being hurt (i got angry). It easily ate at me for an hour after. In my mind i came up with all sorts of retorts, but none assuaged my hurt. So i looked deeper and decided the best response for me, had i had the opportunity (it was a drive by insulting) would have been to apologize (even though i don't think i did anything wrong). i didn't find him particularly attractive, but i realized that had He instead looked at me and wanted me to bend over and receive His Cock instead of the insult, i would have done it in an instant. And that is true about me, so a lot of people would think of me as a "cumdump" doing that... but to me, there is so much more than "cum" or "dumping" whenever i Man penetrates, fucks and seeds me. To me "cumdump" just doesn't fit, doesn't work.

Fascinating discussion. As i re-read all of the thoughts and insights, trying to wrap my brain around this, i have a few more thoughts to add to the mix. i don't think a simple, black or white answer exists for this phenomenon. i plunk it into the sexual spectrum theory, and on the spectrum there are general groupings with no two people alike? Two things that occur to me in this vein, and others have gone here in their comments, is for some being a 'side' is a form of repression or suppression, that could be for a variety of reasons. Like fear of STD's, or some may have conditioning where their moral paradigm overcomes their sexual needs, just as a couple of examples. It got me wondering if the oft encountered online "flake" is a sort of closeted side? Another thought is 'siding' could be a form of edging and assuming that as a more permanent identity is relegating ones sexuality to unending edging? Was struck by NWUSHORNY's observation that being with a side (especially if you are not of that disposition) "...will do nothing more than increase both of our sexual frustration levels." This is what i avoid about getting with another bottom, or getting with a versatile guy who is not in a top mood. To me it's like trying to put to north poles of a magnet together. i do edge and love when a Top wants to edge me and frustrate any 'top' or penetrative energy in me because that has the effect of making me crave His Cock and penetrative energy more... but i then find fulfillment in the resulting intense connection i get from His Cock, penetration, orgasm and seed. With just cuddling, it seems like perpetual edging without release.

For me, sex is the ultimate connection. The more open, honest, vulnerable each is with the other, the better. Cheating thwarts that. i was someone who cheated because i was caught up in a religious web and fighting being gay, and failing. Cheating (anonymous sex with Men while i was married) became my only form of affirmation, but i hated the cheating, lying part of it., i cannot imagine or fathom getting pleasure from purposely lying to another in an intimate relationship. To me, it is no longer intimate when the openness and honestly are discarded. There is a disconnect, and i want to connect with the Man i am having sex with as much and as deeply as possible.

i wear this yellow with red trim jock to the gym every other day, so far no one has pissed in or on me because of it. i have a FB Who saw it and called it a "Ronald McDonald" jock, guess it is the same color scheme as RM? Who knew Ronald was into piss? Kinky clown. i have no idea what the red means, i bought it because of the yellow, but no one else has red (actionable) meaning into yet either.

Yes. Yes. Yes. You nail the concerns, thoughts and feelings i have about this beautifully here. i genuinely love men, and of course have a special place in my heart for guys attracted to guys. Part of that "love" stems from a long history of conditioned self loathing that i processed out of. It was a torturous existence and i hate the notion of another guy being in that state. i perceive "A" & "B" ask examples of conditioned responses. Even though i guess some might be born with a psychopathic nature, that's a hard one for me to accept, it's hard for me not to have hope for all, especially a brother who may have been damaged by cultural ignorance/hate. It seems to me that those described above are still partly or wholly captive to that cultural conditioning and at the same time, needing and wanting to exercise and experience who and how they are. To me, terms like "hole wrecking," "destroying holes," are more often part of a (long?) the list of dysphemism the gay community seems rife with? i think both terms are, more often than not, a sort of raised middle finger to the destructive cultural notions against us. Not totally unlike how words like "queer" or "faggot" are/were pejorative in the mouth and intent of many, yet embraced and repurposed by the gay community. There's more than a few from the same destructive culture that would consider any form of a Man penetrating, opening, molding another man's hole to be "hole wrecking." Those of us who need/want to penetrate or be penetrated by a Man/man have grown up in, and been influenced to varying degrees by, culture that spins all or part of who/how we are in a negative way, both subtly and overtly. We do not necessarily have established terms of our own to describe our needs, desires, actions with each other, so we may use terms polluted? with destructive attitude (or mislabeled as such) to express self love and acceptance and to actually positively affirm. i've been on BZ a long time and have several posts where i list what to me are general attributes of a "Top" nature and a "bottom" nature. Among them are a Top has creative energy, drive and a bottom has the receptive creation energy, drive. i've often described the Top as a painter, the bottom the canvas, a Top the sculpter, the bottom the clay or slab He chisels. i don't think those views are new or unique.

i too find this topic "tricky." It's one of the reasons i try to be careful to put qualifiers like "to me" in most of what i write. i realize my views and impressions are not substantiated evidence. i do not want to be pedantic. i think the general attitude of qualifying what i write is how i perceive a thing, not asserting it as a universal fact, was burned into me as a result of processing out of a conditioned fundamentalist mindset. i think that mindset i was convinced emotionally that i knew certain things vs believed certain things, that my supposed rationale was really there to support that emotional disposition. Not unlike you?, i generally/universally "don't acknowledge another man's superiority over my intellect, or as a human being." i do acknowledge superior intellectual reasoning in individual instances, but i don't turn that into a general conclusion. For me this is key to the D/s dynamic as i experience it. i may dance often enough to qualify as a dancer, but still no two dances are alike, even between the same people. i can easily "imagine" an Alpha Male Who has a strong self-image and self-value. Beyond imagination, i have experienced Men i perceive as such. For me where the divide comes, is between "whether it's merited or not." i want (crave?) as holistic experience as i can get where it's not just a physical act of sex that is the focus, but the whole person, intellect and emotions included. For example, one man can piss on/in me and has an attitude of "force, meanness, bullying," that will shut me down. In that 'dance' the sub part of me not only runs and hides, i may respond violently if i feel attacked. Another Man may engage in exactly the same act of pissing on/in me, but do so because He not only wants/needs to do so, even feels entitled to do so, but none of those feelings (or accompanying reasonings) are detached from me or my corresponding want/need that accomodates His/Him. I.e., what is happening is His needs/desires are connecting to, aligning with mine and we are both cognizant of that at some level. Can i imagine that happening with a "bully" and the guys who want/need bullies? Yes, i can imagine it, but i cannot relate to it. To me, that crosses the boarder into "sociopathic." If it is repeated and oft practiced as general behavior, takes up residence there, it becomes generally sociopathic. The key to me is the disconnect, when the 'bully' makes no distinction between the person who wants him, and the person who does not, and "forces" himself (or assumes) on whomever he pleases or perceives as deserving out of his (sole) unmerited sense of entitlement. For me, my act of submission, born out of a complimentary need/desire, is what makes the connection symbiotic, meritorious. i do not experience that with a bully or a person who needs/wants to be mean as part of the dynamic. That violates me intellectually and emotionally. So even if i enjoy/want/need to be pissed on/in (for example), i do not fragment the act from those other parts of me. In order for me to connect, i need to perceive a Mans intellectual/emotional need/desire at some level. or at least, i cannot perceive simultaneous or conflicting hate as part of the act.

Just left, quickie from my regular FB. He had a lunch break and wanted some... so did i. Sucked Him some first, i really zone with Him when sucking Him, He so obviously loves it, makes me really wild and hungry. He has a perfect Cock and i rarely gag when throating Him, that's always a sign that i'm in the zone with a Man, totally into Him. At one point He says: "I want to stick it in you." jesus, yes. i can almost never tell when He comes, sometimes He'll give a little signal or sigh, but usually He fucks through His orgasm and keeps fucking. He's one of those Who stays hard enough to fuck no matter if He has come or not, He's also a multiple loader, so i can never quite tell when it happens, but after i am fully loaded. i told Him after that it doesn't ever matter to me how quickly or fast the fuck is, i'm always grateful to have Him and love having Him and His Cock inside of me. He seems to like that, it's a real, good connection and i'm always a little surprised that it's been this awesome for 3 years now, a couple of times a week this last year or so. i live in a small town, not a lot available, so i feel particularly thankful to have such a great FB.

Thank You for sharing. The reality is, you are "different." How you have been treated through your life as someone who stands out as different affects how you develop as a person. i'd guess you could find some who could relate better among black people, who are also seen for their color? i think gay guys should have a better capacity to understand, also being different from the 'norm,' except being gay can generally be hidden (the proverbial closet). i was particularly faggoty as a little kid. i didn't understand it at all, but attracted bullies like a magnet. Over time, i learned to hide, conform to what and how i should act and my faggoty side all went undercover. Obviously, that cannot be done with skin color. i 'm sorry you have to deal with this... life is already hard enough, eh? On the other hand, i appreciate and admire your openness and consideration. i do think there are people who will care and understand you, who will see and love you for who you are... this man seems one of them to me. Does he know you are gay? Have you been able to share the thoughts and feelings you share with us with him?