tallslenderguy

Took a load about 5 minutes ago from a regular. This FB usually breeds my hole (he calls it a "pussy"). Our relationship is pretty simple, when He needs to unload He sends me an email, this morning the subject title was: "hey slut" and the message was: "free today?" He usually comes in my open back door and finds me naked and ass up. He mounts, breeds and leaves. Last fall He asked for a BJ and i said sure. So instead of waiting naked and ass up, i left my front door open with porn playing on the living room tv. He came in, took His clothes off and sat on my sofa watching porn. i waited facing away from Him in my kitchen ass exposed, till He got situated. Apparently, He likes my BJ's, He sure gave a lot of verbal feed back. Since then, He gets a BJ about 25% of the time. It's actually a decent substitute if i am not prepped and He doesn't have a lot of time, or needs to cum ' right now' That was the case this morning, He wanted pussy, but didn't want to wait for me to prep, so He came over and shot a sweet load down my throat. i really like this FB because He is always verbal and i can tell He likes what He is getting... which just makes me try harder.

reading this pushed some big buttons in me, one of them is adoration. It's hard not to adore such and attentive and considerate Dom. damn, i love every detail of this.

would you link the plugs you are referring too? MEO has so many, and my search for "grommets" didn't turn anything up....

It took me a long time to consciously understand that i'm what i term a "social exerciser." When i was a kid i tried running, fail, was bored to tears and had no stamina for it. But i'd play tennis for 8 hours and never get tired of it. When i got older, i became a martial artist and did it every other day for 25 years. When i injured my knee doing a jumping axe kick, i went into Bikram yoga (which turned out to be harder than martial arts). i moved to a place that didn't have Bikram, got a bicycle, maybe rode it 10x, a rowing machine, it's gathering dust in my home office. i realized that if there were other people involved in my regimen, i did it regularly, was like going out to eat with friends, if it was solo, major fail.

Doggie sometimes doesn't work well with me because of my long legs, seems lots of guys can't reach my hole that way and they end up in awkward positions or standing, and i like my Top to be comfortable and in charge. Honestly, it's the size of a guys comfort and confidence in who He is that matters most to me.

Any one is welcome to comment, but this is prolly mostly for those who bottom and clean out. We are a generally the same anatomically, but there can be differences too. i know there are others who have experienced this: water retention from clean out. Sometimes that can be a good thing, like when a Top pisses in me. i love to retain whatever a Top leaves in me from Himself, so i've slept overnight with piss in me without mishap. I've been stealth pissed at an ABS and didn't realize it till much later at home. i suspect a guy pissed in me at an ABS once and i was bred by two guys after without leaking, i suspect i'd been pissed in thinking back (deep pauses while fucking). So that's a plus. But there are times when doing a deep clean out when it is tricky to get all the water out. my tricks are fingers, long dildos, or while in the shower, taking my long douche nozzle off the hose and pushing it deep... that can work pretty well cause it makes a sort of drain hole. i also have a habit of 'resting' for a bit in case my body moves some water out. With all of that though, i;ve had times where i've come home from being slutty and have an undeniable urgency and gush water. That's kinda scary because i figure just one long cock at the wrong time could have resulted in a flood. What do you guys do to ensure all the water is out first? Is there a fool proof method you've found?

i'd change "...I am normally to scared to be so open and public..." to "I was normally to scared to be so open and public...." ?

i have a couple of Dom friends (who are also a couple) who are certified hypnotists. i talked to them about hypnotism just this weekend and they were both insistent that hypotism cannot make you do anything you don't want to do. Conversely, it can help you get past barriers you have about doing things you really want to do. This is pure speculation, but what i am reading is you did something you "have often fantasised about... doing," so it may have been that the hypnotism helped open a door/barrier between what you do want and wouldn't do for whatever reason. I.e., the hypnotism didn't make you do anything, just helped you get past objections you have to doing what you really wanted to?

i read on this site that a lot of bottoms feel this way, but i don't relate to it. For me it's not a question of "duty' or obligation. Which is not to suggest i think that dynamic doesn't exist, it clearly does. The more i consider myself and see how i am, it's more a matter of opposites attracting to me. i often look at it from a physics perspective of negative and positively charged ions attracting and bonding naturally. i do relish the mental and emotional aspects of the sexual relationship, it's what distinguishes people from ions lol. To me though, there is the underlying drive of Top being attracted to bottom, each needing the other. There cannot be one without the other. To me, the wonder of it is, that each finds their needs /desires met (to one degree or another) in the others needs/desires.

my brain is connected to my penis. i've wondered before if i have ED, but no, it works just fine and can get as hard as ever. What gets it that way can be complicated thougjh. It doesn't turn me on or get my penis hard if a guy is talking to me about it as a cock or if he wants it as such. i love the look of a mans ass, it makes me wild, but not because i wanna fuck it, i just love the way it looks. Even sometimes if i am touching, rimming or chewing on a mans ass and i think i might wanna fuck it, my penis says "no" and stays soft and small. Reading this got it engorged. Control the buttons in my mind, and you control whether or not my penis gets hard. i was naked with a Top recently who started right off by telling me: "since you're a total bottom, you don't really have a cock, it's really more of a clit. Since your primary sex organ is your hole, you really have a pussy and a clit." He was completely matter of fact about it. He wasn't being forceful or trying to be mean, He was talking almost casually. It was His manner as well as what He was saying that totally pushed my buttons, and my penis got hard. He smiled at me and said: "isn't that sweet? your body knows what I am saying is true, and your sweet little clit responded and got engorged with blood. It can be natural for a clit to get arroused by a Man who understands it." He turned me over and proceeded to rim me and as soon as He started, my penis went soft and small and didn't get engorged the whole time He fucked me.

As a bottom, i will often go a week without cumming, so when i do, i have a really big load. Am thinking it would be a good idea to save and preload with my own cum when in heat so Tops will have a cum filled hole to breed?

Right [rolls eyes] Just like watching straight porn where no condom is used leads to sex without condoms. The premise that having sex with or without a condom is a gay question strikes me as... flawed.

As i see it, the religion issue is not Islam, Christianity, Judaism, or any number of religions, but the approach people take to those religions. i grew up in a Christian religious culture that was fundamentalist in approach, and i've come to see fundamentalism as problematic in any religion. Frankly, i see it as a problem in any system of belief. i've met atheists who have fundamentalist attitudes. To me it all boils down to having an absolutist attitude about any 'ism,' and thus having the inability to say or act from a position of questioning. Talk to anyone with this attitude and ask them: "yes, i see what you believe, is there any possibility that you could be wrong?" If the response you get is "no," then you've likely got a fundamentalist on your hands. When people start equating their beliefs and conclusions with "God," they themselves run into a problem with questioning those beliefs because they equate that with questioning "God." There is a disconnect and they do not distinguish that their conclusion is their own vs some higher truth. If they did, they'd prolly hit the pause button before blowing their self up in a building full of infidels. The guys that flew airplanes into buildings were not just Islamic, they were fundamentalist Islam. Islam has been around since the 7th century. That makes it about 1300 years old. Check out the violence factor of Christianity in its earlier years. Heck, i can remember American Christian lawmakers that wanted to make being gay a crime... i would not put that past our current vice president. Judaism also has a violent history. Then there's fun stuff like this: Roeder told the jury he was born again in 1992 after watching an evangelical TV show, the 700 Club. "That day I knelt down and I did accept Christ as my saviour," he said. Under cross-examination, Roeder said he had begun thinking about killing Tiller [an abortion doctor] from as early as 1993. I know lots of people from all three religions that would never do the rotten, violent stuff like the Nazis did. I also know of people from all three who i wouldn't be surprised if they did, given the power. i think it's scary to have anyone like Trump in the White House or a position of power.

Yes, your doctor is giving you good input when he/she tells you your trend is "very worrying." You're way to young to have numbers like that. Not because age is a huge factor in cause of kidney disease, it's not. i have patients in their 90's who have normal kidney function. What's worrisome is the trend. If you dropped 13 points in a year or two, if that trend continues, you will be in kidney failure in 10-15 years. And that's assuming nothing changes to make matters worse. You are smart to consider co-factors like poppers, apparently, they can effect kidney function too. Dialysis happens after kidney failure and kidney failure is generally considered having a GFR <15. Standard dialysis treatment is three times a week and you spend four hours connected to a machine. It's not a perfect fix either, toxins build up in between, you have a very restricted diet. WS is out because you are not producing urine usually. There is acute and chronic kidney disease, so one shouldn't assume that their kidneys will automatically recover if the cause is stopped... it's a wait and see thing a lot of the time. Right now, you still have adequate kidney function, but you're smart to be paying attention and doing something about it. Kenneth is right about Descovy, your body may tolerate that better if and when it's approved as PreP. Good luck.

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"at least 8 loads" eh? Gee, i'd lease a room at a bathhouse if i could get a guaranteed 8 loads every time i visited. i've never been to an Indy BH, but in Portland Oregon (there are two, Hawks and Steam), it can be hit or miss. i've been at times when i got loaded continuously, and other times i couldn't have gotten it if i paid, just depends on the crowd. The bigger the city, the better the odds i think. Also, don't worry about your looks. Yes, people care about that, but honestly i never even try for the really hot guys, they're just too intimidating for me, and there are a lot more average guys than hot at the bath houses i've been to. Honestly, i have a lot more success/fun at ABS than bath houses because there are closeted (read: "straight" or "married") at ABS who would never go to a bath house. Best time is have found for those places is during lunch hour or right when guys are getting of work... also Monday or after the holidays, guys seem pent up because they didn't get any that weekend or during family get togethers.

i've never times any of my hook ups, but cruising hook ups can be really quick and i've had lots of those. Being in a department store restroom at the urinal, i've had guys step over, slide in and unload right in front of the urinal... gotta be quick because anyone can walk in at any moment. love it!!

It's a curious thing. i think the advice to drink water and eat fiber are good since those are basics for good intestinal health. i'm kinda into this sort of thing, i.e., diet, fiber, etc.. i'm a critical care nurse and have taken additional course work from Cornell University on reversing and preventing disease through diet. i see you are in Hungary, so i don't know what type of diet you eat, but if it is anything like the Western Diet, it's not a healthy one. The Western Diet (lots of meat and processed stuff), is pretty poisonous. Our bodies are mostly adapted to eating a whole food plant based diet, which is full of fiber. We live in symbiosis with bacteria. Our gut (the large colon) has about 10x more bacteria living in it than cells that make up our whole body. Fiber feeds the gut "biome," and what we eat determines the kind of biome we have. This is a quick video that explains the colon biome using study evidence to support it. Science ?

About $15. Seriously, if one reads the ingredients, Pure is pretty much marketing. They added aloe a few years ago so they could distinguish their product as a 'proprietary blend,' but the primary ingredients that are actually fiber are psyllium, chia and flax, Metamucil just uses psyllium. Benefiber uses wheat (sans gluten). Zero for Him is pretty much like Pure, and is obviously trying to compete with Pure, it has psyllium, chia and flax and is about 20% less. Here's a quick primer on fiber from Medline: There are 2 different types of fiber -- soluble and insoluble. Both are important for health, digestion, and preventing diseases. Soluble fiber attracts water and turns to gel during digestion. This slows digestion. Soluble fiber is found in oat bran, barley, nuts, seeds, beans, lentils, peas, and some fruits and vegetables. It is also found in psyllium, a common fiber supplement. Some types of soluble fiber may help lower risk of heart disease. Insoluble fiber is found in foods such as wheat bran, vegetables, and whole grains. It adds bulk to the stool and appears to help food pass more quickly through the stomach and intestines.

Yes, you might get chlamydia or gonnorhea... but you won't get HIV

There are five stages to kidney disease before a person reaches failure and has to go on dialysis, and that is based on GFR. For instance, a GFR of 60-90 is considered stage one kidney disease and "mild." Apologies, this is Stage II, not stage one.

Here's an explanation of creatinine levels and what it means from an authoritative source (the Mayo Clinic)... which is not to suggest some of the commenters are wrong, just wanted to offer an independent source that everyone can confirm as reliable. Results of the creatinine blood test are measured in milligrams per deciliter or micromoles per liter. The normal range for creatinine in the blood may be 0.84 to 1.21 milligrams per deciliter (74.3 to 107 micromoles per liter), although this can vary from lab to lab, between men and women, and by age. Since the amount of creatinine in the blood increases with muscle mass, men usually have higher creatinine levels than do women. Generally, a high serum creatinine level means that your kidneys aren't working well. Your creatinine level may temporarily increase if you're dehydrated, have a low blood volume, eat a large amount of meat or take certain medications. The dietary supplement creatine can have the same effect. i'm a critical care nurse and look at this number daily on all my patients to check kidney function. i'm used to looking at the milligrams per deciliter number which is used by the hospital blood tests where i work. Along with that number, i look at GFR (glomerular filtration rate). There are five stages to kidney disease before a person reaches failure and has to go on dialysis, and that is based on GFR. For instance, a GFR of 60-90 is considered stage one kidney disease and "mild." Once GFR hits 15 and below, one is considered in kidney failure. Kidney failure can be acute or chronic. i had a patient this week who started out with a creatinine level of 2.20 and GFR of 29 on Tuesday and by Thursday his creat was 1.90 and his GFR 35. i've had many patients come in with ARF (acute renal failure) with a GFR <15, usually older people who fell and broke a hip and couldn't get to water for a few days and got dehydrated, who we were able to get back to normal ranges with hydration. Dehydration means you aren't urinating as often, thus not getting rid of creatinine, e.g., a metabolite of muscles, so it builds up in the blood and presents in a blood test. As another has noted, physical exercise can increase creatinine levels, it's a normal waste product of muscle metabolism that can be used as a marker for kidney function because our kidneys are how the body gets rid of that waste. Bottom line is, lots of things can cause a bump in Creatinine. The kidneys are redundant. Each one has ~1m filters (nephrons), very tiny, complex structures that regulate urine production, get rid of waste. A person can go their whole life with just one and never notice. However, creatinine and GFR are tests that reflect the health of both kidneys, so we pay attention when there's a bump and retest to see if it's a trend or a bump in time. Type 2 diabetes and hypertension can also harm kidneys, and they're common, so it's also important to not ignore or self diagnose. Go to a doc and get tested and diagnosed for the real cause if there is a chronic condition you need to be aware of. The good news is your kidneys are still in a good place, please don't wait to see if they get worse before you get yourself checked.

Only happened to me once when i was married. Was a regular Top who fucked me in restrooms frequently. He saw me with my wife once in a department store and gave me a big grin as He walked by. The next day He bred me at one of our usual hook up restrooms, was always under the stall wall. He'd spit on His cock and slide under and expect me to sit on it, which i always did, and then He'd breed me. This time, however, He followed me to my office in His car and i didn't realize it. So, now He knew where i worked. i found a note on my car with Him saying something about my wife, kind of a thinly veiled threat of exposure. Then He showed up in my office and my secretary said He was there to see me. i had no idea who it was, thought it was a sales person, but then walked out to our waiting room and there He was smiling. i brought Him into my office and closed the door, nervous as hell, and He just smiled and looked around my office. He could see that i had floor to ceiling windows and a corner office where i could see the parking lot. He told me to meed Him in the downstairs restroom so He could breed me and then said that whenever He saw me parked in the parking lot, to meet Him downstairs in the restroom. Honestly, it felt pretty vulnerable and scary, He'd fuck me that way several times a week... but i miss Him now.

like others, "it depends" for me too. If it's just an anonymous fuck with no established romantic chemistry, i like to be prone (face down) because that is the most sub feeling for me. The weigh of the Tops body on me is almost a form of bondage or control. Also, i'm really tall and a lot of guys have a hard time reaching me doggie style. so i don't think i've really felt the Topness of that position as much as i would if i were not as tall. If i have the kind of connection with the Top that involves kissing, then on my back so i can wrap my long legs around Him and grope His awesome ass while He thrusts inside of me while kissing. That will take my breath away and make my eyes roll back in my head.

The generation and culture i grew up in automatically considered rape or molestation a likely factor if one is gay. I.e., their assumption is/was that gay people are made by various factors, molestation when young being one of them. That idea, among others that gay people are made out of trauma vs born/natural, really fucked with my ability to come to a place of self acceptance. i got there, but it was a long process. i used to fantasize about being kidnapped and forced to be a sex slave. That fantasy was more about my getting past my own lack of self acceptance than anything else. i had such cognitive dissonance the that i wanted the decision to be taken from me and to just have what i wanted (a man who wanted to fuck me) without having to choose. That's the closest i've ever come to rape fantasy. To me, the "violent" aspect in a lot of fantasy speaks to the extremity of the fantasizer's need/desire for acceptance, but i tend to associate that need with ones lack of self acceptance and the only way they can experience affirmation is in extremis. No scientific evidence to back that up, just my own observations and thoughts. When i think of being raped now, it doesn't appeal. i suspect if someone attempted to take me violently and by surprise now, they'd end up dead (i have a second degree black belt lol). On the other hand, i have long time fantasies of being taken spontaneously... which i think is an element a lot of bottoms desire/need? i've had a long time fantasy of being asleep with a guy and waking up to Him sliding in or pushing the tip of His cock against my lips. But to me, that speaks more to deep connection than to a violation of consent. I.e., there is such a connection between me and that person that He knows i'm His for the taking. To me, that's very different from rape. The other half to this equation that seems to be rarely considered or discussed is the guy doing the "raping." What is it he really wants or needs? Psycologically, a rapist is not a powerful person at all, but a weak person preying on someone weaker in order to get a sense of power and control. If he had someone in his life who wanted his dominance and control, would he still have the need/desire to rape? i see a lot of guys in the D/s community who identify as "dom" who really strike me as needing a sub in order to establish their own sense of self. Which is not a condemnation on my part, i personally think we all need relationship to be healthy (not "a" relationship, but interaction with others where we can mirror each other and help each other in the process of self discovery). i feel rape is a fuzzy or incomplete expression of what is really needed or desired, which is acceptance, on either side of the equation.