tallslenderguy

i tried Pure for a month, took the highest recommended dose (3, 2x each day) and was disappointed. It made a difference, but not the kind of results many seem to get? i was bummed (so to speak). I still take psyllium fiber pills, at about a third the cost, and get similar results.

This was apparently reported in the NY Times, i think it's legit. But reading the article, the similarity is that each case resulted after a bone marrow transplant in cancer patients. That's an extreme process that involves "conditioning" where the immune system is virtually neutralized (ironic, eh?) to help prevent rejection of the transplant. Chemo or radiation therapy is used to do this. i'd be interested to read the journal reports on this as i suspect that it's that destructive process that ends up killing off the the virus too. With meds, the virus is suppressed to the point of "undetectable," but manages to hide... apparently the process of getting a bone marrow transplant gets the 'hidden' or "undetectable" virus as well. Not a wonderfully viable option and not likely to replace suppression as an option unless you are crazy rich, want and can afford the procedure.

For me too (i.e. "fucking hot"), the idea awakens something very primal in me. As to "depth," damn, yes, go deep enough to reach, hold and caress my soul with His.

That's as far as i have taken too. So far, i haven't been able to take a hand beyond the first speed bump. i suspect that would change if i had a regular FB who was into opening a hole. i've had this long time fantasy where i am asleep in bed with a Top fb and wake up with His arm deep inside me. i know it's totally unrealistic that anyone could get in my hole that way while i'm asleep lol... just wishful fantasizing. i love the whole idea of that kind of dynamic, such a complete Top/bottom relationship that such things could take place, that He'd know He was free, even desired to use my hole (His hole) as He needed and wanted, that both our needs and wants are alined.

i feel like i have answered this...a lot lol. Doesn't matter to me. i'm focused on the size of the inner cock (rolls eyes at self). Seriously. i had a fb once who had about 2 inches. He also had a very large body, and between the two, i would never have guessed He could even fuck. i would be lying naked and face down on my stomach in an anonymous walk in scenario. He'd put my legs together and straddle them and slide in my hole while He was in a sitting position. He always got in and He always left an enormous load. He bred me on a regular basis and i developed a real affection for Him. It was HIs need and desire to breed that mattered, that's what matters to me. i've had guys with large cocks at bath houses, guys who were just making the rounds with their cock and weren't really into the fuck or breed so much as they were into seeing how many holes they could get into, there was no focus, it was mechanical and disappointing. Their physical cock was deployed, but their inner cock was some place else.

this totally made me squirm. i don't think of myself as a "woman," yet it totally made me squirm

Glad you're not self diagnosing. The symptoms you note are not typically associated with anal chlamydia. If the symptoms don't go away, might be a good idea to get a work up, blood work. One of the STD's rarely talked about in gay circles (but that is changing) is HPV. HPV can cause cancer. Again, don't drive yourself crazy with google and trying to self diagnose, that will make both you and your health care provider nuts. We have a saying in healthcare: "a google search is not equal to my medical degree." It's reasonable to ask your doctor to give you a work up because any active gay guy is at risk. good luck

ditto the "harness" or a chastity belt designed to hold a butt plug in place... that'd be sexy

sounds like you may have already achieved the goal

i know a lot of guys here say that there holes are still as tight as ever, mine isn't . Internally i can squeeze cock with the best of them, but my opening is no longer 'made' to hold in, but is opened to receive. i fucking love that that is Your goal with Your bottoms. i admit it feels a little vulnerable to have what amounts to a cunt, always kind of opened and waiting and i love that its because Tops made it that way. i have to run to the bathroom because my hole is really changed to receive now and it's like it has a mind of its own and insists on being empty and available for penetration

i came from a religious background, so i didn't have sex with a guy till i was 27. Kinda funny story how it happened. i was in Long Beach CA helping to refurbish a missionary hospital ship that was in port. i was only there over night, worked Saturday, spent the night, then went home. i was married (to a woman). i had always liked guys, but resisted who i am because of my beliefs. They roomed me with this guy who was my age, Skip, a permanent member of the crew. We didn't work together that day, but he toured me through the ship at one point and had these really short shorts on that i could see up the pant leg when he was on a ladder in front of me. He was hot, and i'm pretty sure he was working me. He didn't get back to our room until a few hours after i had already bunked down. The berth was tiny, his bed was only about 5 fee from mine and it was dark, only a little light from the port hole, so all we could see was shadows. When he got in bed, we started this elaborate cat and mouse game of making subtle sounds. i was already undressed with only tight, thin bikini briefs on, and under a cover, pretending to be asleep. As he lay on his bunk, he slowly peeled off all his clothes, making sounds like he was hot and restless. i was staring hard into the dark shadows, trying to see his body and what he was doing, this went on for what seemed like hours. At one point, it looked like he was completely naked and stroking his cock, but it was hard to tell it was so dark, i was going by sound and what it looked like in the dark shadows. Finally, i couldn't stand it anymore and i got up and went to his bunk and he wordlessly guided me to his cock. i sucked him. i doubt i was very good at it, but i wasn't timid about it either, i was really turned on and had a lifetime of pent up desire that he got. He came pretty quickly, rolled over in his bunk, pretending to be asleep. i went back to my bunk and fell asleep. When i woke in the morning, he was gone and i had to drive home. i was in love lol (he was my first), and he pretended like nothing had happened. He was my first, but he didn't really "teach" me how to suck cock. For years after, i was pretty much self taught, but always enjoyed getting fucked more than sucking. It wasn't till more recently that i experienced a Dom who "taught" me how to suck His cock. He had about 8" and it was very thick. i spent hours sucking Him and being instructed the whole time. He was very vocal and naturally Dom (even though we hadn't discussed that, He was definitely Dom). He was sitting on my bed, leaning against the bedboard, legs spread. He had me lie face down between His legs to suck Him. He instructed me on what He wanted the whole time and mixed it with praise and encouragement. He wanted me to throat Him, and i'd never really had a cock that big in my throat. It was so big around that i couldn't breath, and of course i was gagging. He treated me like i was a little kid, His voice and attitude were like He was instructing a 10 year old. He would say: "okay, take it deeper, around that curve, that's it." and when i would do it, He would gush: "good boy!!" It would make me feel both embarrassed and proud at the same time. He never let up, talking all the time. He'd tell me to look up at Him when He had His cock in my throat, which was really an awkward position the way i was lying. He'd ask me questions while His cock was in my mouth and throat, fully expecting me to answer and all i could do was mumble. I was tearing and my nose was all wet and my face became covered in my own spit and snot. He continually asserted what a "Good boy" i was and would ask/tell me how proud He was of me and He'd tell me how much i liked what i was doing. By the time He was finished with me, i was a different person. i adored Him (and still do, even though i have never seen Him again). i am a different kind of cock sucker now, totally eager and 100% focused when i suck. Tops seem to notice, i get compliments and responses that i never got in the past. He is the one who taught me how to suck cock, that's how i learned.

Hi Sebp, i see this is your first post, so am guessing you are new to the site? If you hang for a while and read through the posts, you'll notice this is a pretty common fantasy here. You are definitely among friends and like minded guys, both Tops and bottoms here. "Breeding zone" lol. You might want to do a site search on stealth breeding. Have fun and welcome.

i had a FB who i got together with weekly for about a year and a half. He nnever talked about it directly (all the time indirectly), but i realized over time that He had a goal of modifying my hole... and He did. That was 9 years ago, and my hole has never been the same. It's more of a slit than a pucker and while i have the inner control of being able to squeeze a cock, my outer sphincter is permanently more open, accessible. When ever i have to go, i have to go. Again, i can control and hold it in because my inner ass muscles are developed from holding plugs in, but my opening gets a sense of urgency that is permanent. For me it's a daily reminder that i have more of a fuck hole than a hole for getting rid of waste, i like the feeling.

i think you can "...guide him...," and apparently are guiding Him 'successfully' (He "successfully" topped you). i'm not of a mind that 'bottoms should be seen and not heard' (not suggesting youre implying this), even though i'm sexually receptive. i'm with those who think/feel that He may have some sort of fear or concern about having sex with guys to overcome or get past? But i don't know, i'd ask Him. i suspect He's thought a great deal about it, thus the problem of ED. i was in the role of a top for most of my life (married to a woman 31 years). i practiced and got very good at giving my wife pleasure. Towards the last several years of our marriage, that would actually frustrate her. i'd give her all these multiple orgasms but she finally told me that she wished that i would "just take her without any regard to her pleasure." i doubt she would have been happy about that if that were our sex life exclusively, but it was something she missed and it was something i could not give her because... i'm gay lol. Which is kind of the crux of what i am getting at. i think the kind of Top or bottom many (most?) of us are talking about on this site is the kind that seems naturally inclined, who has a cock and is driven to put it inside someone. i agree with find91, that there's a "big difference being a top and a competent or good top," i.e., that just like with me, there is a learned or developed skill side to it. But i also think that the lust/desire/need to penetrate, inseminate is a big part of being a top and that it is not trained or acquired.

i think this is a good point. It seems there is no one 'right' technique, so the best cock suckers are not focused on their methods, but how the man they are sucking is responding. Not always easy, because not every guy gives feedback, so you have to rely on things like breathing and cock response. One of my favorite things to do is to start out concentraiting on the head getting the Top really turned on and sexually tense, then when He is almost feeling a sense of frustration by the tension without release, the overload, i'll suddenly go deep and take Him to the hilt so His head gets the friction sensation of my throat. Then ill alternate tension with pleasure depending on how He is reacting.

Cool question. First off, i haven't run into a lot of guys with foreskins, let alone "long" or overhanging. Am guessing there's more guys with foreskins in other countries, given the US practice of circumcision at birth. i've easily had in excess of a 1000 cocks, but prolly fewer than 5% have been uncut. i find it neither "disgusting" or "hot," maybe because for me i'm sucking off the guy via his cock, i.e., i am guy-centric, not cock-centric. i love men. Which is not to say i don't notice the awesome beauty of a part of His anatomy, i do, but it's not where my focus is when i am sucking. When i am sucking or being penetrated, i go for a soul connection as well as body. Having said that, the first thing i think (it's a brief and fleeting thought, but it's there) is cleanliness. i know some guys are into smells or funk, i'm not one of them. i've never turned down a cock, but i have to get past it if a cock is unclean. Guys with a foreskin have an extra place, and that's actually part of the argument used for circumcision (i.e., that it's easier to keep clean). i don't think that's a good reason for circumcision personally, soap and water are pretty accessible. i am scrupulously clean and i also appreciate guys who are. As to what i do? i run my tongue under it and around the tip of a guys cock. If it's long, i'll nibble and pull and tease. i also grab hold of His shaft at points while sucking and pull down on it to retract the foreskin for access to the tip of His cock. The guys i have been with who have them have usually gotten hard pretty quickly, so i haven't had much experience with over hang, but i could see myself trying to inflate it a bit, with either my breath or spit. i'd appreciate some education from guys with foreskins. What feels good to You and what do You like?

i know this isn't exactly what you were asking, but i love it when a Top just puts poppers under my nose with the expectation that i will inhale. i have never been stoned or drunk in my life, so poppers is one of the few things i have done. i'm not into rough sex, but love a connection that is affectionately presumptuous, where the Top just sort of assumes that i'll like it and is brave enough to give it a try without being bullying. If a Top tries something with me and i perceive desire on His part, i open right up and love Him, if i feel forced, i close up... which i know a lot of guys don't see as very sub. i've had Tops just slide a bottle under my nose and say things like: "here baby, take a hit" and i immediately fold into Him and inhale. it really enhances a feeling of oneness with Him for me.

i can relate to most of the responses here when it comes to how i feel when in heat and after. Cognitively, it seems a combination of physical and psychological/emotional for me. To me it's sort of like hunger, if i haven't eaten in awhile, my body starts signaling me trying to get me to eat, the hungrier i get the less discriminating. The difference is i like the feeling of being in heat (as long as there's hope of connecting), but don't love the feeling of being hungry (or maybe i do, as long as there's hope of a good meal?). When i was religious in a way that considered my sexuality as 'bad,' i hated myself in heat and fought it like a mad man, without any success. For me i felt like an addict going through withdrawal, connecting with a man sexually was my "fix," without Him i was crazed till i had Him.

my brother was 13 years older than me, he was a faggot before it was a popular sub culture. i was with him as he died of AID's in '84. he was 6'2" and weighed 89 pounds. He had beginning dementia, Kaposis sarcoma, pneumonia, and intestinal parasitic infections that gave him continuous diarrhea. At first, he refused to go to the hospital, to get treatment, then the last few months of his life he wanted to live. AZT was a new and experimental drug, it was all probably too late for him. his dying and death were not fun or exciting for him or anyone else, and he was a very kinky guy. i'm a critical care nurse, i take care of critically ill patients all the time. i have yet to meet a person who enjoys the realities of being sick and debilitated. Feeling rotten is just that, feeling rotten... and that comes with all the opportunistic illnesses that accompany untreated HIV. One can fantasize and romanticize about being POZ all they want, how many of you who are advocating in that way are in full blown AID's? i'm not talking HIV poz, but the eventual result of AIDs, two very different conditions. Are medications perfect and free of side effects? No. If one is worried about the effects that meds can have on their body, why aren't they worried about the effects that come with HIV (they're worse). PreP and HIV suppression are about containment and prevention. Think about it. If every gay guy who was HIV poz was on meds and suppressed, we wouldn't need PreP. Eventually, the infection rate would reverse and it would be harder to get. i suspect that there are very, very few who actually want to die a tortuous death from AID's or who want to inflict that on another. i'm sure they exist, just like Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer, but i doubt there are many like that. Otherwise, i think the desire to be poz is ultimately an expression of self loathing, that it's homophobic. We're talking sickness and death here. There is no more final expression of self loathing than to kill your self. please don't do it.

Long term effects of HIV have been proven.

i've read similar stuff about the Brittish Navy during the 1800's. Either way, the peg chair was pretty innovative. i guess someone back then took a pole (so to speak) and determined that Tops liked they holes open vs tight.

surprised no one mentioned squirt, they have a bunch of cam chat rooms

i read it. It supports the contention that several are making about the blindness that often comes with privilege. If you look at the "compass," one of the points is "attack others," and more specifically: "turning the tables" and "blaming the victim." The OP is from a black person who identified and explained a racist term and further explained how it makes him feel and why it is offensive. Some responded by "turning the tables" and "blaming the victim," out of "shame."

i know, right? Sarah Palin and S a t a n are synonymous to some

Wow, thank you for sharing, i never would have guessed this. From the things you have written about yourself, i had thought of you as having a history of being a gay sex slave, i never would have imagined you being married with kids. As you say: "it's complicated." Life can have so many variations.