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... and there is the benefit of leaving a note, they have the option of enduring where spoken words can be forgotten. It's also possible he is dealing with his own pain as well, and being there in person was more than he was prepared for today. Peace brother. It definitely gets better...

I can relate to your experience from my earlier life experiences. It really makes the case for self determination doesn't it? Gaining tools and skills, and even experiences that improve our future? Perhaps ten years or so ago we traveled by car to Virginia for my nieces wedding. On our way home we decided to head to a different city to see if I could reconnect with an old Air Force chum. We didn't take out old GPS relying at that time on the GPS on my phone. Paper maps, my standby from decades ago weren't with me. When cell signals dropped along the way back I realized I didn't have even an old national atlas with me. We pulled into a gas station to buy a paper map and alas, they had stopped selling those (or back in the day when they would simply give you a map). We had to wing it by the suns location and the general direction. We just continued to drive kinda sorta in that direction. Ultimately cell service returned and we were able to find out way. But that bit of panic that set in initially made it clear to me that I was always going to take a national road atlas with me; even if it were a couple years old. I also started making sure my old portable GPS was charged, updated and along with me in case phone service left us. In 2023 we took a road trip out west and those tools both came in handy on the drive. My point is, learning from our experiences is important. When we feel that bit of panic set it, making an active choice to learn from that; asking ourselves what would have helped us in that situation? Aloneness. I am 25 years into what will end with one of us dying means most likely one of us is going to live without the other. Preparing for that without fear is the only way forward. It doesn't mean we need to emotionally disengage. It simply means giving thought on our first steps on life without a living partner alongside us. True, this take a lot of the surprise element out of it; so if you truly love surprises and that "now what?" reaction - indeed learning from our mistakes is going to fuck that up.

Albolene is pretty good as well

Ouch. But my gut reaction is that this is not necessarily the end...

Indeed the symptoms of fuck flu are not unique to seroconversion symptoms. Lack of a fuck flu doesn't mean you're 'neg'.

I never experienced fuck flu; and as many as 50% of us never have either. It is hardly the definitive indicator; not getting fuck flu does NOT mean you're neg. I was infected several times in June 2023 by a friend of many years whose own "more certain pozzing" I witnessed in 2013. I didn't test poz until October 2023. The September test came back "indeterminate". That was confirmed by a second test, result non-reactive. And a few weeks later at my semiannual STI clinic screening Reactive was the result - with all the usual intake labs following. But I was looking for even subtle things that might be indicative of sero conversion and really, nothing of note. Had I not been looking for some metrics or the lesser syptom's in temperature, gut activity, aches and pains. Absolutely nothing that were I not looking for it, I would have otherwise noticed in the normal course of life.

With pleasure my friend...

Which makes me ever so glad to be an unmedicated poz old troll... 🙂

Meet and hook up wonderful goals. I find myself wanting that. Ever since I seroconverted my pool of sex mates has dried up. And I am hours away from any bathhouse or ABS.

Indeed there is a global trajectory towards authoritarianism. Glad to be in life's fourth quarter.

@BlindRawFucker1 xoxo my friend. I thought sure you were going to close with "who knows, maybe we can see each other". I presume you're using some sort of text to speech screen reader. Jim

My friend my offer is dinner... conversation... and take it from there. 🙂

@partying.hard thanks! Saved a separate YouTube visit.

Not picky, been too long...

Lovely! And obviously not closed to a Part 8...

I notice Chrome just put in an update as well. And I've observed over time that so site loading from this and other sites seems to appear in the days leading up to those updates.

Thanks Philip. Aging. You know we don't have a choice. We will age up until the day we stop, and at that point it won't matter.

Why would anyone come onto a site like BZ and not be in the 'raw is law' camp?

@socalbttm223 I have tried one of those flimsier fuck benches. And while it worked, it's flimsiness showed. Better to build a classic structure with padding you control to get a custom fit for your needs. But, if that isn't an option, those seemingly flimsy ones do work...

In my heart I think "who doesn't love being rimmed". But I do know of some for whom that is a step too far. For me, it depends. If my face gets there and there is obvious particulate matter he can go wash up first.

@Philip I appreciate your post. How old of a relationship are you in? My first thought in reading your interesting post was "to your (thine) own self be true". Rich and I established early on, and have over 25 years had to remind ourselves that "expectations" cause problems. Which is not to say we don't help each other. But we each have talents which differ from each other, and taking advantage of those seems more productive. If one of us takes on a job, we own it. That doesn't mean we don't ask for help, but help isn't a guarantee, nor should it. That has lead us in recent years to "hire things out" which neither of us can or will do. Not a surprise. As the years unfold our abilities have changed. Your post is a fine post Philip. A great start to putting your own thoughts together. Obviously what any of us say here doesn't matter a whit. The discussion to follow is between you and your mate. Hugs brother. Jim

But a lot of misplaced capitalized T

Same as @hntnhole. VPN as part of my security.

Nice post @Philip. I look forward to more. Similar to you, when my mind is churning sitting down and writing is a faster way for me to work through that. WRT What's next? You'll figure it out. But let me make a plug to get involved in running your community. At a minimum there are committee's always needing volunteers to help keep it going; or you can run for Alderperson/Trustee to be a local representative. Jim

Perhaps it will seem strange, but the rift forming between Bannon and Musk gives me optimism that there might be an emerging push/pull that derails the worst impulses of the coming administration.