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Further, HIV develops differently in each of us. I have friends who progressed to AIDS within their first year poz. And others who didn't have a CD4 drop off for more than 20 years. My consistent answer to anyone asking "should I get infected with HIV?". NO. You have to figure this out on your own. We have a choice to prevent HIV infection (and some others if you're young enough when you read this). There will be fewer challenges if you don't get infected. There is still some AIDS hysteria around and that is growing in surprising areas. When I write that, the misinformation and folk lore about HIV that tends to separate Neg and Poz people. So u=u be damned they are still not willing to engage. At least here in rural US Midwest. Until you can have a face to face conversation with yourself, and can explain for yourself why you need to live with an HIV factory inside you, you have your own doubt. And only you can resolve your own doubt. If you choose to let Joe down the street decide everything, well then you're living Joe's life, not your own.

You can google VPN services which apply to your "home" network, whether that is on a modem/router you own, your mobile phone. Each provider will have info on where and how to install. Or, if necessary, ask one of your geekier friends. 🙂 VPN is a Virtual Private Network. Because the network you buy isn't your actual location; it is the VPN provider's location that is used.

@fluffybutt I am looking forward to whatever @Jaygusher writes. While in my take on this story so far I think Chester has likely already infected Will, there is enough reason to be 'unsure'. But it is clear Chester's cock finds Will's ass a familiar place, perhaps because Will's dad's ass was such a familiar place. So that's my take, but whatever Jay chooses to do with this story I know I am going to like. So I'll simply try to be patient... 🙂

Philip I am happy for you. You're not stuck in mourning the loss of K but are embracing living. My thinking is that this would be a good time to meet people, but not go so far as to enter a new relationship. Instead take time to rediscover yourself. But in five years? I think you'll find yourself in a happy place.

Indeed, and we're all on this unknown roller coaster ride. It's going to be whatever it turns out to be. My hope is that my worst fears won't manifest.

Indeed it is lowest pricing tier in my plan.

Indeed and mancount? Honestly I don't know. At least a few hundred.

Easily exceed 1,000 here with 50+ years of fucking/getting fucked.

Sure Erik, Same handle as here on there.

You're not alone @Erik62, I was banned from Twitter as well. And it was never clear why. I kind of viewed it as a badge of honor though, Twitter becoming the cesspool known as X. I'm finding Bluesky pretty good although I am only a month or two into use of it.

Indeed @hntnhole. It isn't the number but how much we mix it up with each other; all taking turns as fucker/fuckee so we all enjoy each other directly at some point.

I'm not visually challenged as my friend @BlindRawFucker1. My at a time of life where my vision is deteriorating. If I have the opportunity to see the guy who is fucking me, I want to enjoy seeing him while I can. That doesn't mean I don't also listen to the sounds we create, or tune into the energy we exchange, be aware of our touch. Besides if I want to focus on not seeing I can just close my eyes. Blindfold seems like unnecessary baggage.

Or BoyButter

Chester is going to be the one I think...

Somehow I think this guy is going to join the rest of us poz guys.,...

@rublthlad Certainly my experience being unmedicated poz.

Reading Part 7 it seems very clear that Will was seeded by the guy in the steam room. He fell that cock pulsing deep in his ass. But honestly I think it wasn't Will's first actual poz load. He didn't get off Chester in time either, despite his valiant attempt. As I read it, Will has already been bred with poz cum. But that doesn't mean he will definitely seroconvert. That's one interesting thing about HIV, it rarely infects quickly. Glad to see Will recognizing some of his own kinks. It would be nice to see him begin to relax into it rather than fight it all the time.

@jagmanaz for me is that while I think I should find it disturbing, I don't. And of course that is disturbing in and of itself. 🙂

What a great memory. Over the years it became clear to me that people enter and leave our lives all the time. It has characterized our years. A few endure many years. And it is memories like this which gives me comfort and pleasure. January 13, 2025 today. Each day is a start for us to make it what we will. Sometimes what is best is to lay low and keep it gentle and soft. Other days we're best served by going after whatever tasks lie ahead with energy and mindfulness. There isn't a right way; or one that is better than the other. One thing that I learned at my life's midpoint (yes, perhaps later than necessary) is that each day is better when I actively focus and each small thing I am grateful for. Be it a tiny blue flower in an otherwise dry ditch; or that exciting new job, or sex mate, or book.... That we have today is a reason unto itself.

... and there is the benefit of leaving a note, they have the option of enduring where spoken words can be forgotten. It's also possible he is dealing with his own pain as well, and being there in person was more than he was prepared for today. Peace brother. It definitely gets better...

I can relate to your experience from my earlier life experiences. It really makes the case for self determination doesn't it? Gaining tools and skills, and even experiences that improve our future? Perhaps ten years or so ago we traveled by car to Virginia for my nieces wedding. On our way home we decided to head to a different city to see if I could reconnect with an old Air Force chum. We didn't take out old GPS relying at that time on the GPS on my phone. Paper maps, my standby from decades ago weren't with me. When cell signals dropped along the way back I realized I didn't have even an old national atlas with me. We pulled into a gas station to buy a paper map and alas, they had stopped selling those (or back in the day when they would simply give you a map). We had to wing it by the suns location and the general direction. We just continued to drive kinda sorta in that direction. Ultimately cell service returned and we were able to find out way. But that bit of panic that set in initially made it clear to me that I was always going to take a national road atlas with me; even if it were a couple years old. I also started making sure my old portable GPS was charged, updated and along with me in case phone service left us. In 2023 we took a road trip out west and those tools both came in handy on the drive. My point is, learning from our experiences is important. When we feel that bit of panic set it, making an active choice to learn from that; asking ourselves what would have helped us in that situation? Aloneness. I am 25 years into what will end with one of us dying means most likely one of us is going to live without the other. Preparing for that without fear is the only way forward. It doesn't mean we need to emotionally disengage. It simply means giving thought on our first steps on life without a living partner alongside us. True, this take a lot of the surprise element out of it; so if you truly love surprises and that "now what?" reaction - indeed learning from our mistakes is going to fuck that up.

Albolene is pretty good as well

Ouch. But my gut reaction is that this is not necessarily the end...

Indeed the symptoms of fuck flu are not unique to seroconversion symptoms. Lack of a fuck flu doesn't mean you're 'neg'.

I never experienced fuck flu; and as many as 50% of us never have either. It is hardly the definitive indicator; not getting fuck flu does NOT mean you're neg. I was infected several times in June 2023 by a friend of many years whose own "more certain pozzing" I witnessed in 2013. I didn't test poz until October 2023. The September test came back "indeterminate". That was confirmed by a second test, result non-reactive. And a few weeks later at my semiannual STI clinic screening Reactive was the result - with all the usual intake labs following. But I was looking for even subtle things that might be indicative of sero conversion and really, nothing of note. Had I not been looking for some metrics or the lesser syptom's in temperature, gut activity, aches and pains. Absolutely nothing that were I not looking for it, I would have otherwise noticed in the normal course of life.