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My older brother dealt drugs when we were teenagers and he made me smoke pot with him a couple times but I didn’t like it. After I came out when I was 16 in 1979, I dated guys monogamously and never did drugs. One time when I went with a friend to Austin for a lake party, someone slipped a molly into my sandwich. It freaked me out, not knowing what had happened and I didn’t like it. Anything that was speedy, even caffeine trigger my anxiety, and that sure did it. After that I specifically avoided doing anything and rarely drank. Many years later when my husband of 20 years and I visited Palm Springs for the second time, we rented a house and made plans to hang out with guys we found on apps. We had been open for about ten years and it worked for us. We didn’t hook up much with other people where we lived for discretion. We were both executives in visible positions and needed to be discreet. But when we were out of town it was easier. My husband is an ex-model, very hung and had no problem finding willing younger guys (his type) to fuck. I liked all kinds of guys and had become pretty adventurous with sex, exploring a lot of kinks over the years. I found a really sexy, tall all-American looking guy in his 40s on an app. He had a humongous dick, which was my kryptonite, seemed kinky, and kind of nasty. He was interested in hanging out and was free that night. He said he had a friend who was on his way from San Francisco and would be in town within the hours. He sent me pics of the guy. His friend was in his 30’s, shorter than his friend and also really handsome, in that swarthy Italian way. Oh, and he also had a huge cock, almost as big as his tall friend. I got the impression they liked tag teaming bottoms and I’d trained my hole to be flexible and strong, so I could take big cocks and even a fist a couple times, and still be able to get tight pretty quickly afterwards. But, it had been awhile since I’d been fucked because work was crazy busy during COVID, so I would have to really get warmed up to take either of these guys. We met at CCBC where I had rented a room. The tall guy was there in the lobby when I arrived and introduced himself as “Rob” (not his real name). We got settled into the room when the shorter Italian guy arrived, and introduced himself as “Gino” (also not his real name). Gino and I sort of hit it off right away. He made a couple trips to the four to bring in four suitcases. Rob explained that Gino was a dealer and was moving to Palm Springs and was setting up shop as soon as he moved into his rental house. Gino opened up the suitcases. While I couldn’t see everything from my chair across the room, I could see they were full of pill bottles, plastic baggies, many different colors of pills and powders, along with pipes, bongs and other stuff I couldn’t see very clearly. Gino asked me if I partied and I said I didn’t but told them I had brought a joint and didn’t mind if they did. I’d heard how addictive, dangerous and intense meth was and that never appealed to me, especially because it was speedy. In fact it scared the hell out of me. I had a really great life and I didn’t want to do anything to mess that up. However, something surprised me in that moment he asked me. I got scared about the idea and weirdly it also turned me on. I kind of laughed to myself because it seemed I’d found another kink I didn’t want to actually engage in, but fantasize about, like pozzing. They started smoking from a bong and blowing big clouds. The clouds seemed really seductive to me. Gino asked me if I wanted to try a hit. I paused for just a couple seconds, feeling my cock get raging hard. I told him no. He raised an eyebrow like he didn’t believe me. I think he’d noticed my hesitation and curiosity. So he said, “How about this?” He took a big hit and then came over to about a foot from me and started blowing it towards my face. I wasn’t expecting it but for some reason my reflexive reaction was to breathe some in. I quickly exhaled, worried what might happen. Gino smiled a little and the two guys took some more hits. I was feeling my favorite sex pot and laid down on the bed. Gino came over next to me on the bed, took a huge hit and leaned over me, holding it and raising his eyebrows. My cock instantly got even harder, I think because of the risk and danger. I’d learned that risk and a little danger was a turn-on for me when being blindfolded at my first dungeon party a couple months ago. I just looked into his eyes and he must have taken that as a green light because he leaned down and blew the big hit into my mouth. I only breathed in a little but just the idea of someone getting me high on something dangerous without my explicit consent made almost cum. We talked for quite a while and I found that I really liked both of them, especially Gino. He was surprisingly down to earth and friendly, easy to talk to. He seemed surprisingly trustworthy for a dealer. Rob definitely did not seem trustworthy, but something about his shadiness was sexy. I’d taken another hit off the indica joint and was feeling good. We all made out for awhile, and it was hot. They paused, got up and shot up their dicks with what they called trimix. The guy with the monster dick said he had to have an extra strong formula to get his big beautiful cock hard after partying. Watching them inject their dicks was unexpectedly crazy hot. I laughed at myself, at how much I’d changed since my sort of puritan 20’s and 30’s. As they shot their dicks up, I began to feel the meth I’d inhaled. It was speedy, but nice, very euphoric and it made me even hornier. I began to want to be fucked pretty bad. After the trimix, they said they were going to slam. I didn’t know what that meant but when they started filling two syringes I figured it out. I noticed I started precumming watching them, and I think they noticed it too. As I watched and wondered what it would be like, I realized how dark my kinks had gotten. It was kind of scary, and alluring too. I could see it hit them and how much they enjoyed it, but it still scared the hell out of me. After they slammed we really started making out hardcore. Rob started playing with my hole and said, “Gino, you’ve got to check out his hole. It is magnificent.” Gino moved around to between my legs and said, “fuuuuuuck” and started eating me out. Rob gave me his dick to suck. While I was doing that, Rob leaned over to Gino and whispered something. Gino shook his head while his tongue was deep in me. I asked what they were talking about because this was a pretty risky situation. Gino took his mouth off of my hole and said, “Rob thought we should stealth booty bump you, you know, but some Tina up your hole and get you higher. I told him no, that wasn’t cool.” My reaction to hearing this was gratitude for Gino protecting me, and getting really turned on my Rob's sleazy underhandedness and desire to corrupt me. I just said, “fuuuuuck” and closed my eyes. Gino began to fuck me as I was sucking Rob’s enormous head. I couldn't’ get it in any further. My hole was amazingly loose and took Gino’s big rod pretty easily. He kept saying how much he loved my hole, and then came in me hard. I could feel it - it was a lot. He kept fucking me, like fucking the cum into my hole with a little half smile. Then Rob moved around and turned me over on my knees and fucked the living hell out of me. I couldn’t believe I could take his whole cock. Gino was kissing me and sliding fingers in beside Rob’s cock, stretching me beyond even when I had been fisted. Rob also came hard and shoved in me deeper than I’d had any cock, hand or toy, and he just held it there while he came. He started at me, watching my eyes. After a couple minutes, I could feel it. There was meth in their cum. I could feel the euphoric speed hitting me. “Oh jeezus!” I said. “You guys did stealth me after all, with your cum!” Gino said that it wasn’t much and assured me I’d be fine. With hardly a poz, Gino slid underneath me and then began to slide in, with Rob still inside. “Oh shit. Oh shit. I don’t think I can take it.” I said. Gino told me to just breathe and I’d be fine. Suprisingly, it hurt and stretched hard for a few minutes but after that I just felt amazingly full and tight and fantastic. Then both they started fucking me, moving in and out with different cadences and depth. I started to scream in complete ecstacy, and then came. They kept fucking me until they both came again. After that I was spent, and just turned over on my back. I was really spinning now, part pot, part meth, part dopamine from the sensation of being double fucked, but I felt great. We chatted for a bit and then they slammed again and took another couple hits. Gino blew another hit in my face. I definitely didn’t need it. The cum was doing the trick. But I wasn’t too high. Several concerns registered in my mind: the first was, I liked it and I was thinking about when I would do it again. The second was, how high I was still going to get, and lastly, how long would I be high? Would I need to stay overnight? Would my husband be able to tell when I got home? I texted my husband that I was having a great time, we were hanging out with some guys at CCBC and not to wait up. After I put my phone down, Gino pulled my knees up and pulled my ass to his cock, which was still hard. He slid in me and said, “What do you want?” “Are you poz?” I asked, registering this was my other dangerous fantasy. “No, but Rob is and he’s not on meds. Are you on PreP?” He asked. I realized I had forgotten my prep at home and had not taken it in two days, which wasn’t a big deal. Gino said I’d be fine. Gino shoved his beautiful, big uncut cock inside me and began fucking me slowly, all the way in and all the way out. Then he shoved it deep inside, leaned over me and said, “Clench your hole on my cock.” I couldn’’t figure out why but I did it. He held still, his big hard cock all the way inside me. I suddenly began to feel fuller, like his cock was expanding. He smiled and said, “You’ve never been piss fucked before, have you.?” “Oh fucking hell!” I replied It was the hottest thing I’d never heard about. After he finished filling me far beyond any capacity I’d previously reached, he started fucking me. He told me to stay clenched as he fucked me slowly, and I did. My daily Kegel exercises were paying off. He fucked me for a few minutes then pulled out slowly and told me to hold it in. He raised my knees and then ass up so that my hole was like a piss chalice and it would stay in. “How does that feel?” He asked with a grin. “It is blowing my mind.” I replied, ”Hold it in for five minutes.” He said, giving me a knowing look. And then it hit me, their piss had probably more meth in it than their cum. A lot more. They had slammed twice and smoked a lot. Then I started feeling the big wave of high hit me hard. It was amazing, not at all like I expected. Both of the guys were getting off on doing this to me and we all kissed together as I held it inside me. The high kept getting bigger and bigger. Gino told me to go to the bathroom and let it out. When I got back to the bed, Rob said, “My turn.” Rob’s piss fucking me was even wilder; his bigger cock, and much more piss did a lot more damage to my hole and really ratchet up my high. After I let it out, I was really spinning but feeling great. We messed around some more, made out and the double fucked me again for a bit. Then Rob jumped up and said with a big surprised grin. “Come with me. Grab a towel and follow me.”

We all know that feeling. It’s the end of the weekend and hornyness is kicking in big time. I’m usually a big fan of grindr and these apps but sometimes you got to do what you got to do. I was horny and needed a load. So I reactivated my old account “discreet btm now” and looked. Literally two minutes after I went online, I had a message from profile that was 200m away. Blank profile. “top now”. Asking me what I was up to, and if I had any pictures. After sending some pictures of me, getting fucked and sucking dick he asked me to come over. It should be simple: suck, get bred, leave. I didn’t need to see any pictures. Once I’m that horny, I will let anyone breed me. So I was walking over there, he left the door open and was waiting on the couch, stroking his dick. I immediately undressed and got to sucked his dick. I love sucking dick and I’m not exaggerating when I’m saying that I do that with a true passion and once I taste precum i’m in a trance. After some time, I felt some hands on my ass. Some fingers making their way to my hole. And before I knew it, I heard someone spit on his hand, followed by a big mushroom head being pushed in my hole. He didn’t ease into it and started pounding me hard. I was loving this, and since I’m especially turned on by taking cock anonymously i was in heaven. Took him about five minutes to say “i’m gonna cum”, which were the only words I heard anyone say the whole time. He pulled out, smeared whatever cum he had left on his cock on my ass and left. Once loaded the other guy got up and rammed his throbbing cock in in one go. as the guy before, he didn’t go easy and started to really pound my ass. Another two minutes later, I felt he was getting close. I was in doggy leaning on the couch and I reached between my legs to grab his balls. That sent over the edge and he unloaded in a furiously, intense orgasm. As soon as he pulled out, I turned around and cleaned that cock as thorough as I could before quickly getting dressed and leaving the apartment. And now I’m sitting on my couch with two fingers of my hole licking the cum from my fingers and writing the story.

Given the choice between a bathhouse and a cruise bar/club, I’ll almost always choose the latter. I’m not sure why, I just prefer the vibe. I often find bathhouses somewhat depressing, and guys generally seem pickier, and less up for play- and certainly less up for group play. All that disappearing into private cubicles… it seems somehow exclusionary. Perhaps in the past that was one of the strengths of bathhouses: they offered a private place to meet and play. Whereas now, guys who want a private encounter just use the apps to meet and then do the deed itself at home- no need for the bathhouse. On the other hand cruise bars and clubs offer little in the way of privacy and are much more aligned with those who enjoy group play or multiple partners in quick succession. Perhaps that’s why they are surviving and even thriving while bathhouses are not. The apps are generally not going to enable you to fuck or get fucked by 30 guys in the space of a couple of hours, whereas cruise bars and clubs give you that opportunity. Presumably they are also cheaper and easier to run, and therefore a lot more profitable. It says a lot that somewhere like Maspalomas has dozens of bars and clubs, but not one single bathhouse. Even in Berlin, it’s all about the bars these days.

Chapter 1 - So it begins My friend Dave decided he wanted to do something special for me for my birthday. We’ve played together a lot in the past and had only recently started partying together. The last time we met, we smoked a good amount, and he fucked me, bred me and played in my ass. For the birthday event, he told me to plan for a few days of time off since he wanted to get me really spun. I was able to get a few days off from work, so I told him we’d be all set. I did a deep clean in the morning and a touchup later. Dave told me to show up at his house around 8. He has a playroom in the basement, with a sling and fuck bench, lots of toys, and some fetish clothing. The basement has a door to the outside at the back of his house. I got there, and Dave and I went down to the playroom. I stripped down to my Nasty Pig jock. Dave wanted me to wear one of his harnesses, so I slipped that on too. He had a pipe packed already so we lit the torch and started taking some deep hits. Dave can get hard even when he’s spun, so I hopped in the sling and put my feet in the stirrups. Dave rimmed my ass for a while, getting me ready for his cock. He has a great cock for my ass. It’s not really long, about 7”, but it’s really thick. He knows how to get my ass ready for his thickness before he shoves it in and then he can fuck for a long time. He has a nice hairy chest and a trimmed beard so I like that I can watch him as he fucks me deep. After a good rimming session, Dave decided that we should get a few more hits in so that I was really horny for his dick. He propped up my head so that I was able to stay in the sling while we smoked. After a few hits, we were both flying high. Dave put down the pipe, slid a freshly opened bottle of poppers within my reach, and stepped between my legs. While we gazed into each other’s eyes, he slowly slid his well lubed cock in my ass. Since he had rimmed me before, I was pretty opened for him. Dave really knows how to fuck. His cock has a nice mushroom head, so he’ll pull almost all the way out, then hold it there to stretch my hole before driving it back in to me. He changes the rhythm, and I can switch up my position in the sling so that his cock hits the walls of my ass differently. One of the other great things about getting fucked in a sling is that it lets me ride cock easily too. I was swinging back and forth on Dave’s dick and getting it in as deep as possible. I had reached down to let him in as deep as possible while sliding back and forth on his cock. I didn’t hear the door open, but I heard the distinctive click of the torch behind me. Then, a mouth was on mine, shotgunning a hit to me. I took in the hit, shared some back and started making out with the new guy. Still didn’t know who it was but I was feeling good and welcomed another guy to the party. When he pulled back, it turned out it was our buddy, Chris. We had all played before but never partied together. I smiled at him, and he gave me a knowing look that was also full of lust. Chris was wearing a chest harness that connected to his metal cock ring. He looked hot as fuck in the gear, with the harness nicely framing his pecs. He has a hairy chest and ass and loves to get his hole eaten. His hard cock was sticking straight out, with a drop of precum on the tip. I motioned him over and licked the head of his dick to taste the sweetness. Lucky for me, Dave had taken over control of the fuck and was still filling my hole with his thick cock. I got Chris’s cock all the way into my mouth so now I was being spit roasted by two hot studs. Dave and Chris started to make out when I realized that they were also sharing some smoke. On one of the hits, Chris pulled his cock out of my mouth and shared the smoke with me, followed by another passionate kiss. Dave pulled out of my ass and lowered my jock to suck my T dick. Even though it doesn’t get too hard, it’s still great to get it sucked. Chris then moved down and knelt before my ass and started rimming my well fucked hole. Now, I was getting sucked and rimmed at the same time, so I just laid back and enjoyed myself for a while. Chris had started to finger my ass, getting 3 fingers in. He was really working around my ass, in and out, and working around the hole. He pulled out and his relubed fingers worked back into my ass. This time, I felt a burn since he deposited a shard in my ass. Getting booty bumped is a favorite of mine but I’d never played like this with Chris. Then, Chris stood up and started teasing my hole with his cock. He has a longer and only slightly thinner cock than Dave. He usually cums pretty fast after getting in my ass so he likes to play around the hole, sticking the head in, then swirling around the outside. He worked around and just inside my hole, spreading lube and precum, then slowly slid all the way in. He got in easily since I was well fucked and relaxed. And spun. Chris had been fucking me for a surprisingly long time. Dave had moved up to feed me his cock which I happily cleaned off and sucked. He moved behind me so that I could also work his balls into my mouth. He likes having his balls sucked and I think the view while I’m doing that is awesome. Eventually, Chris pulled out. He still hadn’t cum, which was kind of odd for him. He helped me out of the sling for a brief rest and some hydration. Dave poured out some sports drink for us all and we sat on the sofa to take a break. I was in the middle and both of them took turns fingering around my hole. We smoked a little more and then I got back in the sling. Dave had lowered the head a little bit. This meant that while he was fucking me again, Chris was able to come around to my head, turn around and feed me his ass. He has a really hot ass. It’s got just the right amount of fur, and he has a hole that reacts to my tongue. I’ve managed to work my tongue really deep into his ass in the past, but this position didn’t allow for deep penetration. One of the other fantastic things about eating Chris’s ass is that he has an amazing natural smell. It’s a little musty and sweet and I love burying my face in his hole, knowing that his smell will stick to my face and beard for a while. My neck started to hurt from the weird position, and I was getting some crazy head rushes too, so Chris moved away and helped to raise my head back to a normal position. Dave decided to pull out and play with my ass again. Once more, I felt the burn of a shard that he deposited in my ass. Chris got back between my legs and started to finger my hole. Dave came up to let me suck his dick, but I needed to take some breaks from his cock since Chris was making my ass feel great. He was working in and out, and spreading his fingers when he was inside me. I was enjoying the sensations and reached down to spread my ass wider for him. I worked my hands over to my hole and was surprised to find that Chris had all his fingers in me and was working my hole with his thumb. We locked eyes and he checked if I was OK with what was going on. I nodded an enthusiastic yes so he kept working his thumb around my hole.

Context: POV of my experience breeding a cumdump in London. I had been eyeing his profile for a few weeks now, but had been too nervous to message him. After getting off to cumdump porn on twitter for a while, I worked up my courage to get the real experience. The beating of my heart drowned out the noise of the busy road outside his apartment building, as I waited to be let in. It was my first time doing something like this and I didn’t even know the guy’s name; all I had to go on was a single image taken of him on all fours: showing off a muscular back, leading down to his small waist, and finally a bubble jockstrapped ass. In his profile description, there was just one word - ‘Cumdump’. The buzzer sounded and I was let in. Irrationally, it felt as if the man in reception knew what I was there for and my face was heated. I walked quickly through the corridor to the elevator, whilst masking my anxiety with nonchalance. After reaching his floor, I again read over his instructions to find his flat - my cock was rock hard at this point. My breath paused briefly when I saw his door ajar… this was really about to happen. It was dark inside, with faint music playing. It smelled of sex. I found him on all fours in red lighting, in nothing but a jockstrap exactly like in his pictures. The sight of a muscular man, face down ass up, waiting to be fucked will forever be engraved in my mind. I got on my knees and gave his round globes a feel, taking my time to appreciate every inch and occasionally spreading his hole. With the tip of my right thumb I circled his wet hole teasingly before doing the same with my tongue. I then laid it flat on his hole - it tasted a mix of berry-flavored lube and cum - lapping at that soft, silky goodness. The next few minutes were spent alternating between tonguing his hole deep in and out and drawing letters, shapes, and symbols, I honestly couldn’t get enough. But I came for something else. The thing that had kept my cock straining against my jeans for the entirety of London to see on the journey to his place. My balls were churning like crazy - I needed to breed him. Pushing my cock into his pre-loaded hole was so easy since there was little resistance. The feeling of warmth and wetness was unmatched to any other guy I had fucked before and I knew I would become addicted to it. I slid my cock in and out with long-strokes, slow and deep, really just stretching him out as much as I could. That was my standard tempo, speeding up to a faster fucking every now and then; he would get especially verbal at the peak of fucking, begging for my load. I kept at this for about 45 minutes, with some small breaks in between. Fucking him in missionary was amazing - he wound his thick muscular legs around me as if to get my cock as deep as possible into his slutty hole. All the while his baseball cap stayed on, obscuring his anonymity. He was just a cumdump, a hole to be used and bred by the men of the city. I heard his door open as someone else came in. Initially I panicked, but he reassured me it was another cruiser coming to dump his load - my time was up. He laid flat on the ground, with me on top of him. The feel of his sweaty muscular back against my chest as I fucked him deep was glorious. In this position, his hole felt tighter than before, he was stimulating my cock so well. I sped up faster and faster until he was begging for my load in front of the new guest, who had already dropped his pants and began stroking his cock. Finally I came, shoving my cock as deep as possible inside him. With full control over his slutty hole, he did this thing where he clenched his cheeks to squeeze my dick, milking the cum from my dick. After a minute of my cock being jerked off by his ass, I slid out and saw his hole gape with my cum. It was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. I gave him a soft slap on his ass and said thank you, putting my jeans back on. He mumbled something unintelligible in response, probably because the other breeder had already started fucking him. I left with a smile on my face.

So anyway, time for an update. I've still been going to the parties, but now that I've been pozzed a lot of the thrill of the risk of bottoming is gone. But all is not lost because although I never really got into topping before, now it is super exciting to pump a charged load into a possibly neg and unsuspecting hole. I still go and get locked in my bondage spreader bar like before and take a couple loads but now the host releases me after a couple and we search for a bottom who might want to try it out. We never fail to find one. And they never ask about status or anything like that. I love watching a fat guy like me ass up and helpless to stop any top from mounting him and stretching and pounding his hole. Well, I like any guy who tries it. It's so hot knowing they will take anon cum. I like to wait until a bottom has several loads in and then take my turn and blast my toxic load in with the other usually unknown ones. Not all unknown though because I've seen several tops with biohazard or scorpion tats using the bound bottoms. At least two of the other bottom guys who have tried it have already tested poz too. I don't know if it was me for sure or not, but my VL is super high. My doctor is really getting on me about getting on meds, but I'm thinking about quitting seeing him and switching to another clinic that doesn't know of my status. I'm really glad that I've found another way to keep things hot!

What happens to your libido when you're not feeling well? Mine goes out the window. I don't want to be fucked or even cared for or coddled. I tend to get cranky and I like to be alone. Just leave the chicken soup there. Thanks and bye. A former FB an Arab daddy, a while back called and wanted to.come.over. if busy I say so and he's fine with that. If I say I'm not.feeling well it goes like this. Just not up.to.it. Feeling lousy. It's okay. Running a fever and I'm exhausted. It's okay. I come.fuck you good all.night and you like new. You just need Daddy's milk. It's not okay. Over the last 5-6 years, we've had this conversation a few times. It's usually soon after this point that I just hang up on him. What happens to your libido when you're ill? How do you handle a FB who insists on hooking up even though you're sick? Does it piss you off like it does me? I'd be pissed off as well if someone with a cold or flu invited me over. Would you?

realising you were something some men craved gave us a power most boys never knew.was also just 11 and totally clueless.Sitting at the little table inside his camper sipping soda and looking at the porn mags he showed me.a seduction,and awakening of senses as he pushed for what he wanted and got as I was pressed under his weight and bred for the first time.Often wonder how others responded to this moment.scared shitless heart pounding in fear as he came,not understanding what was happening at all.But fear gave way to curiousity days later,and the next time experience and a newly awakened body responded well and a craving soon set in, men responded to it like they could feel it as an attractive force.loved watching mens crotches and packages everywhere and maybe thats how they knew.

If I’m really feeling sick, I go to bed and sleep. Don’t wake me if I’m sleeping; I’ll let you know if I need something. but if it’s just a little bit under the weather, I’m as horny as ever. Libido doesn’t change. There have been times where I have jerked off six or eight times a day. It may not be what my body needs to recover, but it certainly makes me feel better.

The Private Party 2 So I've been going to a private sex party for a few months. I wrote about it back in October. It's been a lot of fun. Every time I go I clean myself inside and out with lotion and fully lubed up. Then I lock myself in a chastity cock cage and when I get there I am stripped and locked into a spreader bar that holds my hands and ankles together, forcing me face down and ass up, my hole exposed and helpless for anyone to use until I'm set free. I wear nothing but a jock that allows full access to my hole. All the regulars know me and take turns using my hole and shooting load after load of risky cum deep inside me while they grunt away their pleasure and cause me to moan out mine. I know some, maybe even most of the loads I've been taking are charged and it is pretty much inevitable that sooner or later my ass will be knocked up. Some of the guys have even told me they are high VL and a few even that their loads were med resistant so even if I am on PrEP (which I'm not, so my ass is very fertile) I will still get charged up by their strain. Well, I'm going to the January party tomorrow, but this time I know I don't have to worry about getting pozzed. Last week I wasn't feeling well so I went to the free sex clinic and got tested... Sure enough. Poz. The doctors want to put me on meds, but I think I will hold off until something happens. Well, I'm still looking forward to continuing to attend the parties... Maybe one of these times I will go to the party and be looking for bottoms instead of taking more loads...

Part 1 It was the end my senior year in high school, I turned 18 just two weeks ago, and I was preparing to graduate. The most exciting chapter of my life was about to begin - freedom, new horizons, adventures, a life of my own. There was however, one slight issue. I am gay, I am catholic, and I have to hide my identity from everyone until I can move away. Living in a community of under 100,000 people, everyone kind of knew each other. It was still a big enough place that strangers were found every day, but today, a stranger found me. I was at the local coffee shop enjoying a frozen coffee. I was quietly sitting in the corner browsing the web on how to meet gay people. Good ol’ fashion G popped up on the App Store. I paused, thinking about what would happen if I started down this path. My parents would abandon me if they ever found out. I would be cast out, and left to my own demise. I shrugged, this is my life, and I want to meet other gays. I downloaded the app, signed up, attached a profile photo, and waited for it to be approved. I started browsing and behold, a man just 87 feet away. He had no profile photo, but he described himself as an ex-military Air Force man, bb, well hung, cut, NSA, and positive. I had no idea what any of these terms really meant. But I started to peer around the coffee shop and a man with dark hair, short cut, blue eyes and muscular build locked eyes with me. I looked away, returning to my coffee. A very loud sound came from my phone, and several men in the shop turned their heads to look at me. My face turned red hot, I could feel it. This time, the gentlemen winked at me. Holy shit. That’s him? This man was so hot, and I couldn’t help the boner forming. He also noticed this, as I saw him staring under the table at my bulge that was erupting from my jeans. I wasn’t sure what to do, everyone in the shop resumed what they were doing, except for him. He just sat there, watching me, as if I were some sort of prey or prize getting admired. I decided I needed to leave. I wasn’t ready for any of this. I moved to leave, and the man stood up abruptly, as I moved to the door he began to step closer to my path, and he introduced himself to me before I could reach the door. “Hey, I’m Darren. I was wondering if you’d be interested in hanging out.” I moved on, ignoring him and continued through the door. I rushed to my car at a quick pace, and he followed. I looked back, his hungry eyes staring me down as he strolled towards me. His huge muscular body continued pursuing me. I got to my Camry, and he arrived behind me as I fumbled for the keys to unlock my vehicle. “Hey, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you off. Let me make it up to you.” I hesitated. This was my chance. This man was hot. His v-neck revealed a chest of thick dark hair, and his shirt was so tight it looked as if his arms would rip the seems. I looked at him, unsure of what to say. I stuttered, trying to ask him how he would make it up. “Can I hop in the car with you?” I nodded. What was I thinking. This is stupid. He got in the vehicle and I sat in the driver seat. Darren Instructed me to pull around behind the building, and I did. I parked the vehicle and he leaned over and got up in my face. He smelled like a Versace cologne, and it was intoxicating. He stroked my hair and leaned in closer, pressing his lips to mine. He began moving his tongue through his lips and through mine. Damn. He tasted like a hazelnut cappuccino. Delicious. Darren leaned back into his seat, unzipping his pants. He pulled down his pants to his knees and pulled his under down far enough for his thick 8.5 inch cock to flop out. Astonished, I sat there with my mouth open. My 6 inch dick was nothing compared to him. He had a gorgeous bush, and I could smell the sweat of his balls in the car. It was irresistible. He gestured for me to suck it, and I tried to explain I’d never done that, but he took my head and forced it down into his lap. Reluctantly, I opened my mouth and he aimed his cock, and slammed it to the back of my throat. The salty flavor, funky aroma, and taste of precum got me so hard, it felt like my dick was breaking under my jeans. Darren pulled my head off his cock after a few minutes of me sucking and polishing it. “Get in the back seat, bitch.” I did as I was ordered. “Pants and underwear off. Lay on your back. Spread your legs.” I tried to tell him again that I’ve never done this before, and he reassured me that he wouldn’t make me do anything I wasn’t comfortable with. I felt better, so I stripped down my bottom half. He peeled off his pants and underwear and took his shirt off too, then removed my shirt. He ran his tongue over my nipples, up and down my neck. He nibbled at my ears, smelled my pits, and leaned back. “Look at this virgin hole. It’s so pretty… but it won’t be when I’m done with you.” I began to worry, and he must have sensed this. He grabbed me by the hips, lifted my ass up, and licked my hole vigorously, he cleaned my entire crack out, and probed my glistening hole with his tongue. “I love the way you taste, bitch. You’re my bitch now, right?” This felt so good I couldn’t stop him. “Yes! Yes! I’m your bitch!” He burrowed in further with his tongue, and my whole world lit up like a Christmas tree. I was in heaven. But then he stopped. He moved in closer, and dropped my hips. That’s when he started rubbing his huge dick across my hole. He would put pressure on it, and watch my face as he tortured me with pleasure. “Do you have a condom?” Darren asked nicely, “I am poz, so if you don’t want to fuck it’s cool.” I wasn’t sure what that meant. He explained to me that it’s a virus, and that it can be spread through sex. He told me this as he pushed his cock against my hole, harder, enough to start opening me up slightly. I could not control myself. I lost my shit as he did one more push, this time I felt my hole open up more, and it hurt a bit, but FUCK I was leaking precum everywhere. Darren reassured me that the virus is just a virus. There are plenty of people who have it and it’s no big deal. He must have completely understood that I wasn’t aware of what it mean to be poz. But he did what he had to. “Ok.” I whispered. And he took a glob of spit and ran it up and down his cock. “You want this cock inside you? You little fag? You want me to fuck this hole?” He kept rubbing my hole and I let out a whimper, and gave in. “Give it to me.” Darren pushed In, opening up my hole even more, he pulled back, but this time, he slammed it all the way in. Hard. I felt the walls of my ass rip open, and the hole be stretched to the max. Darren pumped my ass with his huge cock - I was having troubles handling his huge member, it hurt so bad, but it felt so good too. I never knew sex could feel so… amazingly awful. After a while, It felt way smoother, and way nicer. I relaxed and let him pound my ass, taking his pleasure. Darren’s sweat dripped all over my body and face as he fucked me to the point I had blood running from my hole, onto the cloth of the seat. He grabbed my rock hard cock and began jerking me off. Almost immediately I blew my load, right over my head. It hit the window; I had never done anything like that before. Darren’s thrusting picked up pace. He was fucking me so hard and so fast I felt like I was gonna puke. For another 15 minutes he fucked me in the back of that car like an animal. It smelled like sex, sweat, and blood. An aroma, I will never forget. Darren let out a loud and powerful orgasm, as he burrowed and bottomed out my ass. It hurt so fucking bad, like he couldn’t possibly be deeper. “You’re mine now, bitch. I own you forever. We are family forever. My bug lives in you, and you service my bug for the rest of your life. You’ll be in hell servicing me forever now. You. Are. Mine.” A little bit about Part 2. Now that Darren owns me, will I ever have a normal life again? Men all over G are messaging me, and this older man seems really into me. He invited me over for dinner, so I could meet him and his son.

I'm looking for tops with fisting experience. I'm a total bottom, love getting my cunt stretched.

Ok, so 99% of the time I’m just a horny insatiable bottom that wants and needs an anonymous fuck. But funny enough I find myself just wanting to eat ass for hours on end. (Not while being topped or giving or receiving head). But just going to a guys house finding him ass up and wanting to dig my face and tongue into hiss ass for long periods of time then leave. And if his ass is pre-loaded even better. Is this common or just me being piggy.

Hello everyone. I'm 19yo and just moved to a large city for the first time in my life for studies. I come from a small village (which is on an island). Although we do have tons of tourists well it was hard to do anything sexual. It seems as there is a kind of an invisible barrier between us and the tourists. Being gay is tough here but I've managed to be a fake str8 or whatever you may call it. I know that I'm gay and I have no regrets or bad feelings about it. I love liking men. However I'm a bit scared too. Sometimes it feels that my sexual drive takes control. It's not easy finding someone. I recently made a profile on a gay site, I receive lots of messages but very few were interesting for my taste. I'm mostly into someone who would be 35+, the daddy type you know. I don't really know if I am a top or a bottom, for the time being I can be everything. I feel like I'm ready to catch fire, metaphorically speaking. I also thinking of getting a nipple piercing. Sounds irrelevant but somehow when I get horny I think of that too. Or when I see it in others. I wanna test another man's lips and not only that. I know about prep and I know about STDs. I want my first time to be raw. The only guy that we're talking these days is a guy who is 40 and he likes smoking and poppers. he smokes cigarettes and weed. We jerk off together at cam and he likes smoking a lot while I stroke for him. he wants me to suck him. I think I want too. I'm just a bit confused. I'd like to discuss all these with someonen who is patient and does not want to fuck me right now. I've got no gay friends or friends who know that I'm gay. So I wanted to share all these..

The Private Party So I was on that barebacking site, you know which one. I just happened to look at the Private Parties section. Usually these are organized by a bottom guy who is looking for tops and doesn't really want any other bottoms there. This time I was pleasantly surprised to find a party where not only was the organizer a versatile top, most of the other people signed up to attend were or were tops or versatile. And it wasn't just a couple of attendees, there were already 8 people signed up. I started to look at the profiles of the organizer and the other attendees. Very hot. I could already feel my little cock start to tingle in anticipation. I've always had a fantasy about showing up at a party like this and when I get there being locked into a chastity device and then into the kind of bondage spreader bar which leaves a guy ass up and helpless to prevent anyone from using him as they see fit. I messaged the host for an invitation and asked him if it was OK if I was locked in a chastity cage and a spreader bar, He messaged me back saying I was invited and that would be great. I went to the toy/lingere store near where I live that carries a fairly large assortment of bondage toys. I picked out a spreader bar that looked sturdy. The lady at the counter gave me a wink and a smirk as I paid. So now I'm getting ready for the party. Taking a shower, shaving myself in all the right places. Applying good smelling lotion. Thoroughly cleaning myself out with many enema bottles. Lubing up my hole and sliding a large plug in. Putting on my cage and locking it securely in place. Putting on a jock so my ass will be exposed and ready. When I get there the host greets me at the door and recognizes me since I am carrying a spreader bar. When I am inside I strip down and remove the plus. He takes my clothes and the plug, putting them in a bag for safe keeping. tells me I can go set up in a corner and he'll have someone help me get locked up. He motions over a guy dressed in leather gear and asks him if he'd give me a hand. He says he would love to. We go over in the corner and I get down on all fours and he fastens my arms and legs to the spreader bar. I am now ass up and totally helpless to stop anyone from having free access to my hole. Other guys are milling around, a few are making out and I hear the moans and groans of others as they are sucking each other off or fucking. The guy admires his handiwork and gives my ass a smack. Other people seem to notice and soon a group forms. The leather guy starts to slide his hard, thick dick up and down my crack until the tip catches my hole, then he slides it in making me groan out in pleasure. He starts a slow in-out motion and his dick is long enough it is hitting my prostate and soon it is making my little cock confined in its cage drool pre cum. Someone notices and says "Look at that sissy clit drip!" while he reaches down and wipes some up with his finger and then puts it to my mouth making me taste my own seed. After a while the leather guy fucking me starts to pick up his pace, his low hanging balls which had been slapping my taint pulling up tight to his body and I know I'm about to take his load. As I feel his cock throb and his cum blasting deep inside me he bends down to my ear and says "did the host tell you that this isn't just a bareback party, it is a conversion party?" I cry out "No!", but I should have known because so many of the attendees had status "Ask me". He rests for a second and says "Well, now you know, and there was your first poz load". He barely has a chance to pull out before another guy starts sliding his big dick into my now well used hole. One by one guys pound my ass and fill it with their hot loads, many of them telling me things like that they had stopped their meds weeks ago in anticipation of this party. I can feel lube and cum dribbling out of my ass and down my leg every time one of them pulls out. I lose track of how many loads I take, but it has to be close to a dozen. Eventually I hear the host tell me the party will be ending soon and it is his turn. I feel his dick slide into my now stretched out hole, but he has to be one of the biggest I've ever taken because it still stretches me out more. He pounds me long and hard and then groans out as he cums, telling me he had been waiting to seed me all night and that his VL was very high so it was the guarantee that I'd be knocked up for sure. He and the leather guy then release me from the spreader bar and I am handed the bag with my clothes in it. I dress, my little cock still trapped in its cage and then drive home. When I get there I unlock my cage and as I'm pulling my little cock I get an email from the host inviting me to next month's party. I can't wait.

Congrats, Flared. You've come quite a distance from when you first posted above. There are any number of reasons you didn't enjoy the fuck. You're what we call a "novice" as far as sexual acts go, and I'm not at all surprised you didn't find the first fuck thrilling. We're conditioned to associate the ass with unpleasant functions, and that could be part of it. Others (I mean bottoms) on BZ can offer you advice on the prep-work, if that's what was bothering you. Or, maybe it was nothing more than learning how to relax your Hole properly. I'd call it a small issue, soon to be overcome with some practical advise and taking more Cocks up your gut. Generally, I think it's the Top's responsibility to "open" the bottom, and make sure it's ready (after the usual preparations are accomplished). You'll learn fairly quickly, I think, to accommodate the Cock, and thrill to the sexual freedom that's in your future. It could be nothing more than a sense of not knowing what to do, and that wouldn't be a surprise at all. Again, congratulations on your first "natural" fuck. Now, go forth, young man - and experience everything you need/want to experience. Make the years count, in all the richness they offer. Good luck !!!

I often go to the toilet to pee...but not the standard way...I just sit on it and pee all over my body.

It's me again So I had my first experience at last. I found a guy 41yo on a dating app. My dream for finding someone "outside" did not come true, too romantic for today's standards. But I found a handsome man who was into me as I was into him. I think I had some risky behavrious but it was fun. I agreed to meet him outside the subway (he said he worked in a hospital nearby) and I got into his cars. I kept on thinking what my father would say about getting inside a stranger's car. I also had a thought of guilt that not even god would help a sinner like me but I pushed it away. I also had some horror movie-based thoughts. But I was not punished or murder and so far he's not a psycopath which is a positive thing. We went around with his car for a while. I was shy as fuck. I was not horny but the guy was my type I wanted him. Still believing that there's a slight chance I could get murdered I thought that I was lucky to be with him. We went into a nice bar and had a beer. We talked. He asked me if I wanted to get to his place. That was a tough call. Half of me wanted to go and half of me didn't feel ready to have sex. But anyway I thought that it was a now or never thing. I think that 99% of the time I had an innder dialogue with the angel and the devil (and me) inside me. I have to admit the guy had patience. We kissed a lot. Guys I'm a terrible kisser I need to practice, my teeth were hitting his, I didn't know this could happen. We got undressed and he hugged me. I liked that. He asked me to suck him. I felt like he was my training doll. I was asking him can I do this or can I do that and he would agree. He came in my mouth which I didn't know what to do. In my horny thoughts I would swallow but I was not sure I wanted but I did. It felt weird to go to the bathroom and spit. He fucked me after that quite soon. He smoked just before which without knowing, he triggered a kink of mine. He really tried when he fucked me but everything was painful. I mostly waited for him to cum. I was getting horny from him being horny. He helped me cum afterwards. He asked me to sleep with him and so we did. But I don't know why I didn't enjoy the fucking. It was painful, but I like the idea of being fucked

Love sharing a devils dick. Sucking it while it is halfway up an ass. Kissing with the melted cum. Working my tongue around when it's inside a guy. Using it as a double dildo between our asses. Or being the third moving ut between two guys, licking it...

Love it 👅

Naughty and Piggy 🐷 [think before following links] https://thisvid.com/videos/c2bb-stealth-breeding/

It’s important to repeat that you can always do more, but you can’t do less.

Sorry to have to break it to your FB, but ‘daddy’s milk’ doesn’t fucking cure illness. Yes, to answer your question, it would piss me off royally. There’s a time and a place. His attitude says he doesn’t care about your well-being and the only thing about you that matters to him is whether you can provide warm fuckmeat on demand. And yes, if a man called me in for a fuck while he was running a fever or otherwise contagious with something, it would be the last time he would get any service from me. It’s not acceptable to give someone your influenza just so you can get a piece of ass.

I always try to collect loads wherever I can. When I talk about it to bottoms and see that they are receptive to it, I know I'll have a great time! Piggy sex is the best. What's nastier than using old loads from strangers to coat your dick and load that cunt oink

I mentioned this recently in another thread. I had met up with a top who had hyperspermia, though he just referred to it as shooting big loads. Neither of us had not heard the term hyperspermia at that time. Anyway, first couple of times we met it was always under the pretense that I was just going to suck him off, but instead I always seduced him to fucking me and shooting his massive load deep in me. Then I would run to the bathroom and jerk off with his load just pouring out of me, using it as more lube for my cock before I would shoot into the toilet (where my bottom ass cum belongs). After about the third meetup cue both our massive surprise looks as my wife and I brought our dog in for grooming and he was the head groomer of the location. We silently acknowledged one another. Afterward at our next meetup he asked if my wife was aware I fuck guys bareback. I said no I am dirty cheater. He came so much in me that it was leaking out of me as he was shooting. He said he was worked up thinking about how he and my wife saw each other and she had no idea that I carry his baby makers deep in my guts. Unfortunately he moved away and stopped managing that location. But he was the one top that made me shift from versatile to full time cheating bareback bottom.

Feeling free and uninhibited. That's what I wanted the first time I let a guy in me bare, and it's what I feel every time since. Just being two guys doing what comes naturally together with no barriers in our heads or physically between us. Plus I'm an intimate fucker, I like being up close and intimate, sometimes cuddly, sometimes roughly, but always loads of physical contact and every bit counts for me. The only problem is I'm the generation who grew up with sex between guys seeming like it was all about HIV and we couldn't safely do these things with each other. Sure you can get a boyfriend, but I'm more the liberal free love type, I want unplanned experiences with different guys, I like spontaneous, I like lust, these are big parts of my sexuality. I daydream about the time a hot hairy guy I'd been checking out at the pool one night cruised me and we ended up in the shower with my speedos round my ankles as he shagged me with a squirt of hair conditioner for lube. Before PrEP I could only imagine doing stuff like that. I was one of the first guys on PrEP and I did exactly what I wanted to do soon as I could. I got talking with a guy on Grindr called Ed who was really horny to fuck that night. I went over to his place and within minutes of going in the door and first kissing we were naked in bed. We hadn't said a thing about condoms. I was hoping he'd go for it bare. And he did, he was rubbing his dick all over my hole as he leaked precum. Where I'd have once had to pull away I was now letting him do it and it felt liberating. I wanted to have [banned word] unsafe sex with a guy as a way of claiming back my sexuality from all the negative messages about sex with other guys. I asked for some lube and he left the room to find some and came back with a condom on. I said no need for that and pulled it off. He didn't ask twice, he was right back between my legs and went inside me as we kissed. While I've had some great sex and prostate orgasms with guys wearing condoms, I've got a sensitive hole and I can feel a difference. It's smoother for sure, more pleasure and less friction. The precum probably helps too. It was an easy prostate orgasm with Ed, no trouble, he was a good top and fucked for long enough for that nice warm buzzing sensation to start inside my hole, and it grew until the orgasm hit me. I let him cum inside me too. It didn't actually feel different to a guy with a condom on, it was the same pulsing and hot liquid sensation, but this time I still felt it after he pulled out. I went to bed that night and was lying there with his cum still inside me thinking about how juicy it felt. It's different to just lube, it was proper wet and juicy. I pulled my legs up so his cum wouldn't leak out and started squeezing my arse and flexing my legs, just enjoying the sensation of being full of his cum. It felt like the sides of my hole were rubbing against each other and the warm buzzing feeling started. That was new and cool, before then I'd only ever prostate orgasmed with a guy inside me. I kept going and eventually went over the edge thinking about the fuck earlier. I also dreamed about sex that night, I remember feeling like my butt was really warm and nice. This is something I've repeated a few times with other guy's loads. So, I can prostate orgasm with a guy inside me, but if I want to do it by myself or have a chance of dreaming about sex like that I need to be full of cum. Nothing else works, got to be the real stuff. So yeah, had some great experiences with condom sex, but there's all kinds of reasons why I like it without too.

Last September I visited a CumUnionparty in Amsterdam. I didn't really had a plan and just walked around and waited in the cellararea, which is provided with a big fuckbed you can walk around and with a sling, all dimly lit. I took position next to the sling in which a guy was being fucked. I overheard the fucker say "can I come in your ass", which was granted by the bottom and I heard a loud growl just a short period after that when he shot his load deep in his ass. The top left, leaving the bottom with a fresh load, lying in the sling. I didn't wait a second before I took my already growing dick from my pants and started taking position to give him a second fuck. I touched his ass, it was so sticky so I kneeled down and felched the cum straight from his ass. The bottom reacted and gave my a sign he wanted to have his share of it and I gave it back to him snowballing. At the same take I started fucking his cummy ass. He got so aroused by the whole scene he started jerking off his cock while I was fucking him. I noticed that he was about to come so I pulled out and moved my head downwards just in time to have him ejaculate in my mouth. So that was my second load. Some time after that I spotted a guy which i recognised from a bare-profile somewhere on the net, stating being poz and looking for loads, poz loads no problem. It just turned me on he was so specific about that in his profile and for me that with this slut I had the opportunity to fuck a guaranteed poz-ass. I took position near him and the slut was immediately grabbing for my dick and directing it towards his ass. I felt great entering that hole, it was so slippery I could not tell for sure it was lube or some previous loads. I wispered I was about to give him my pozload, he said "please do, I want pozcum" and so I seeded his ass pumping it deep inside. I felt so fucking happy I experienced all this cumsex that afternoon. Will go back next time for sure, again for both giving and taking it.

I'm on a cruise in the Greek Islands right now. Checked Grindr the first day of the cruise and there was a headless torso pic in a speedo. "Gap Year collecting loads". A 20 year old on the cruise with his parents and his profile says he has his own room. "Anonymous cumdump or however you want it" he says. I messaged him and he gave me his room number within 3 exchanges, says the door is open and to come pump and dump. We are on day 4 of the cruise and I've fucked him 6 times. He's a cute kid, fun to see him out and about at night with his parents knowing that he is full of cum from men on the ship. Today he claimed he has collected more than 50 loads so far in his ass and mouth. I don't doubt it since this ship has a group of 40 gays and I have already pumped 6 loads into his hole myself.

That's what I call a real dilemma, Flared. Do you have any plans for higher education? If so, make sure you choose a college in a larger city, far from your current location. That will help tremendously with your journey to sexual freedom. It's a lot easier to be from someplace, and free to be the man you were born to be, than spending too much time wishing you were. Good luck !!

Knowing who you are and what you want is good, but it's only half the battle. I knew in my mind that I wanted to touch naked boys before I had any idea what jerking off was, but was in my 20s before I was open enough to have proper sex with a guy. But that was a different era. Now it's ok to be open about such things, especially if you're in a big city. Find a gay friend your age, or an older mentor type, and have long talks about gay stuff and sex. Don't worry about what makes you horny. You're still in the process of figuring that out. That list will change and grow over time. Things that seem weird now may make your dick drip in 10 or 20 years. Are you a top or a bottom (or versatile)? You won't know until you try. Don't be scared of trying each of them over and over until you're absolutely sure. :) Just learn how to clean yourself out before bottoming. Both you and your partner will appreciate that. Whether you start raw or use condoms is up to you. Of course you know our opinion LOL. The idea of going without PReP may get you horny (or maybe not), but whatever you do, make it an educated decision. As was mentioned earlier, you can always start safe, and then take the training wheels off later. Being scared or nervous is normal when you're starting out. I'll also echo @viking8x6's comments about "pickyness". I can't say much. I was picky. I also didn't touch many dicks other than my own. Looking back, I want to slap my younger self and tell him that there will be time later to find Mr Right, but that at their age, they should be focusing on Mr Right Now, and Mr Big Dick But With a Hairy Body or With Facial Hair, and Mr Interested In Me But Over 25, and Mr Doesn't Look Like The Guys I Jerk To Online But is Horny and Lives Nearby. Those are the guys that will get your hole filled (or let you fill theirs) on a regular basis, and when you're young and horny, that's what should matter. Good luck, and let us know how it goes.

Chapter 6 EV I’m starting to come back to myself. I know I’m high as fuck, and this isn’t just some molly like I’ve done in the past. I don’t know what that guy…these men…has given me but I’m barely aware of what’s going on. My ass hurts; it’s feeling needy…like a cat in heat. I’m plugged with something huge. It’s not comfortable, but when I rock my hips and my hole clinches around it, pain and pleasure shoot up my spine, and I’m not sure which one is stronger. It’s both the worst thing ever and the hottest thing ever. I let a out little groan with my next clinch around the plug, and I hear chuckles from somewhere. I try to move and look over and it only jostles the plug more and I whimper and moan more. “Well, gentlemen, looks like someone’s starting to come back to themselves.” I hear more laughs. I want to say something but my throat hurts, badly. I vaguely remember having someone’s cock (or is it cocks) in my mouth, and not gently. I’m trying to piece together the events of the last few hours…or is it a nights. I don’t know. “Hey darlin, I got you.” The bed or mattress I’m on sinks a bit on my left and I move toward the voice. A hand comes to rest on my face and I lean into it. “Shhhh. You’re safe. Can you open your pretty eyes and look at me?” I moan as I’m drawn up against a hard chest. I struggle to open my eyes, and when I get them open and somewhat focused, I see the handsome man I met in the bar….what’s his name…Brian? Bran?....no, Ben! So Ben did this to me….but I feel so good and so worn out. “There you are beautiful, starting to float down from the sky we had you in.” I feel the bed shake again and move and I close my eyes. Too much struggle to keep them open. “Now ain’t that a pretty sight, gents.” It’s another voice from somewhere else. “So subby and clinging to Ben. They’ll come to do that with all of us, eventually.” I must have a look of confusion on my face because Ben, I’m sure it’s him, cradles me against him and humms. A deeper, gruffer voice from somewhere just off my side pipes up “So, is this it now? This cunt goes clingy and we all just sap the fuck up?” “Fuck you, Horse! Claims don’t happen immediately and sure as shit not from as little as what we’ve done.” I don’t know this voice but it’s close…right almost….I jerk in Ben’s arms as more calloused hands start to rub me. I can’t make out all the noises around me, but my head is guided away from Ben’s shoulder and I feel rough lips against mine, demanding a kiss. I give in, and feel smoke enter my lungs. In my ear, Ben says “just inhale it, baby….let Axel make you feel good.” Axel’s kiss go on and on, it seems. He pulls back and let loose the breath he filled my lungs with. The bed moves again, and more lips come to mine, but different. “Such a good Hole for us, baby…..take Bull’s breathe, too. All of it will make you feel so good again.” That kiss ends, and there’s another….then another. I’m honestly not sure how many kisses like that I get from ever how many of these men there are. I’m floating again. I catch myself groaning and whimpering in Ben’s arms. He cradles me like I’m something special, and I hear “just let go and soar, baby. Your our Hole now.” BULL This kid is so fucking high, and so fucking beautiful, too. They’re limp against Ben’s body and just swiveling their hips from time to time, feeling that plug in their cunt. I reach over and tap it a few times and get a hearty groan for it. I fucking love it. “Ben, position him against your chest and throw his legs over yours.” Ben does as I ask and our Hole’s head just falls back against his shoulder. I’m in awe of this beautiful thing spread out before us and knowing it’s ours to do with as we please. My mind races with ideas and depraved ideas. I’m sure the grin that crosses my face isn’t a nice one. “Needles….I want a spreader and 4 cuffs, a massager, your sounding set…and the poppers, yeah.” We position our Hole flat on the mattress. I ask Horse and Needles to stay with me and tell Axel and Ben to enjoy the show. Needles comes back with what I’ve asked for and I start to work: cuff the ankles and attach them to the spreader, spread WIIIIIDE; cuff his wrists together and up over his head. I give the massage gun to Needles and notice as he catches onto my plan with that. I know I have tastes that maybe not all my other guys have, but I think Horse is enough of a mean and dirty fucker to be into this. I pull him off to the side some. “So…I want you to strip out your jeans and straddle our toy’s face and make him eat your ass. And hold the spreader up so his ass is open for Needles.” “Um, Bull, probably not a good idea….you know I haven’t been home to shower in a coupla days.” “Yeah I know that” I grin at him. “That’s exactly why it’s gonna happen. Look, this is new to you, I get it, but when this Hole moves to the clubhouse….let’s just say it’s gonna be easier to start the training now than later, if’n ya follow.” Horse’s brows pops up and he shakes his head side to side, “This just gets more twisted by the minute.” “Oh, and you’ll have the poppers with you….give him a good 4 or 5 deep inhales of that before you straddle his face. Pull his arms up and pin them between between your legs and then you’ll just be able to sit back and enjoy.” We step back over and Needles has the sounding set all ready to go. Everyone gets into positions and Horse starts feeding our Hole the poppers. Needles turns on the massage gun and puts it up against the plug and I watch our toy buck under the sensations, even as the poppers relax them even further. I pick up this soft tina-dicked little cock and squirt some lube into the tip and let it start to slide inside. Horse throws his leg over Ev’s face and sits back, completely smothering him with, what I’m absolutely sure, is probably a very ripe and rank hole. Our Hole starts bucking against everything. They aren’t at all happy with what’s his on face or with what’s going on in his cunt. They’re protesting more than I expected. Maybe Horse was even dirtier than I thought. “Fuckin lick it, you cunt!” Horse is growling and holding the spreader bar up with one hand and pinching the hell out of their nipple. “Clean my fucking nasty hole, bitch. You know you like it and deserve it”. He dismounted their face, held the poppers over it a few more times and slapped them hard and spit in their face. Leaning down he whispered in their ear where only I could hear, “you’ll lick my nasty hole clean and eventually you’ll be trained to love it. If you don’t I’ll beat the training into you and you’ll have to do it anyways.” With that, Horse straddled our Hole’s face and grinded back down on him. I’m guessing Ev was scared into it or was too out of it to protest because they just let it happen and Horse grinned as I’m sure that sweet tongue was licking him up. Needles turned the massage gun even higher, and I grabbed a twisted metal rod and started to let it slip down this little cock I held.

Part 3 Darren was serious, the look in his eyes was intense and fierce. I could tell that he wanted me to poz this fresh neg hole right here, right now. I took my cock and pressed it against his puckering hole, the hairs of his ass tickling my dick as I slid in, balls deep. Immediately, my hormones took over, and I pounded his hungry hole. Each thrust I could feel his clean hole quiver and pulse, grabbing at my cock, embracing it. Fuck he felt good. I was already on the verge of blasting his ass with my toxic load. I pulled out to give myself a break. “Absolutely not, get your cock back in there, bitch!” Darren snarled, “Finish the fucking job you faggot.” I pushed back in, and moved my body, rubbing my cock against his inner walls, and I tensed up as I exploded in pure ecstasy. The thoughts of breeding him and taking away his negative status were overwhelming, and my orgasm seemed to last forever. It was done. This man would never be the same anymore. 6 Months Later I’ve grown a lot in nearly a years time since my pozzing. Today I was throwing my first ever, all bareback party. In order to do this, Darren and his father were hosting the party at his father’s house. Tonight’s menu consisted of a single negative hole to use, interestingly, my former gym teacher named Charles. Charles wasn’t skinny or fat, he wasn’t muscular or undertoned. He was just plain average. Average in all ways that is, except his excessively small cock. It was embarrassing. Maybe half an inch when he was hard. He was a true faggot, a breed of unprecedented disaster regarding genetics. Charles was blindfolded, ass up, face down, tied up on Richard’s bed. Darren stood in the corner, stroking his cock while 15 men stood in the bedroom, preying on the ass beholden in front of them. “Men. Today we are here to bear witness to the pozzing of Charles. Daddy Darren will be here to seal the deal, as my own creator and father. Although you men serve me, you also serve Darren as our forefather. Let’s get to work.” I was proud. I made my own poz cult. I was beginning to lose any of my former innocence. I wasn’t the catholic saint I once was, if anything, I was nearly the devil now. A true sinner. It felt so good to ruin a man’s hole with my toxic seed. It was absolutely thrilling to know I was ruining him, and making him mine. Each man took his turn on Charles. Within just a few loads he started squirming from the excessive use of his nearly virgin ass. The cum dripping onto the bed, the sweat running down his back and ass crack. His ass hair was curled, and stuck to his body wet. A funky aroma of ball sweat, ass, cum, lube, and poppers filled the room. Heavy, thick, and intoxicating. I was drunk on the pheromones. Richard was next, then me, and finally Darren. Richard whipped his massive horse cock against Charles’ hole. Used, abused, disgusting, Charles was destroyed. Richard popped his cock in at full speed, and floored him out, going as deep as Charles’ body would let him and then further. Charles screamed in agony as Richard stole his pleasure from him. Charles begged for Richard to stop, but everyone in the room was addicted to watching the show - Richard refused. Richard fucked Charles like a god damn ape, relentless, rough and hard. We all stroked our cocks in amazement, Richard really knew how to destroy a boy pussy. Richard’s ass cheeks clenched up, and from behind you could see his balls squelch up closer to his body. He was about to cum. Right then, Richard blew his evil seed into poor Charles, while the rest of us came a second time. We collected our jizz and stuck it in Charles’ gaping hole, filling it even more. It was my turn, I slid into Charles and got up by his ear. “You’re mine now, bitch. I own you forever. We are family forever. My bug lives in you, and you service my bug for the rest of your life. You’ll be in hell servicing me forever now. You. Are. Mine.” Darren looked at me approvingly. Happy master, happy life. Part 4 Preview The dark side of me is taking over, I cannot control myself anymore. My cult has taken over, Darren now holds no power over me anymore, as I’ve officially surpassed him. I am now the Poz King, my seed, my babies, have taken the holes and souls of more men than I could ever know.

Breederb8 thanks for the hot story We hope there are more of it 😈

first it was soda fountain in drug stores, now bath houses.

Yeah a BZ meetup and meatup would be awesome!

I know, I know, it’s all about getting our dick off. And I love the feeling of an intense orgasm, especially with my dick buried balls deep up ass. But my absolute favorite is eating ass. I can block out the rest of the world and give that man pleasure using only my tongue up his ass. I can spend hours with my face buried up an ass crack. Yet I always feel guilty because I know most guys consider rimming to be foreplay and they are hungry to get mounted and pounded. And don’t get me wrong, I enjoy fucking. But munching on an asshole is my ultimate. And when I’m jerking off to porn, that’s the scene that usually puts me over the edge and gets me to blast a huge load.

For me, good sex almost requires ass eating. I can be in there for hours. If there is a load to tongue out even better!

Wow, I guess it really isn't that different from the HIV "gift givers". I can't even comprehend fantasizing about it let alone actually knowing spreading diseases.

There may be one more: the advent of the hook-up apps? Around here, there are guys getting run down almost weekly because they're staring at their (presumably Grinder) apps, paying not whit's worth of attention to what's around them. It must be similar to the much-decried "addiction" that teens across the bored (!) have to their telephones. Recently I had to buy a new telephone, and I still get every kind of ad, offer, "come-on", every day. I've deleted as many as I can find, but they still keep coming. And, who ever anointed some people as "influencers" anyway? I wish there were still those old, black Bakelite telephones on a stand in the corner - when it rang, you picked it up and hollered "hello". If you weren't home, too damn bad - whoever it was would just have to try again.

I went to to Scheune on the sunday during folsom... over 70 there that night.. average age 50+, average size (body) generally large.. friendly night.. a couple of very cute boys... but most older and randy.

I like the tens idea. just thinking about it excites me. do you just use the pads or what about the anal/rectal probe? does it give more sensation to the anus or will there be more sensation from the probe internally?

I really like this story. "Don't get mad, get even." I wonder how long before this guy is texting his breeder to come back and give him another load?

Chapter 11: Three Strokes When Marc got home from his session with the nerd, I told him I had set up a three way stroke session with him and the nerd. Marc said he knew, and had some ideas for it, and perhaps a future session. I asked him what they were. He suggested that I bring a hood for the nerd to wear and he would never show his face, and even though we saw the thick creamy load on his stomach, he said there was even more on his face. What a great idea I thought. I asked him what other ideas, and he said i should suggest that I suck the nerds cock, and then perhaps the nerd suck our cocks. I was concerned the nerd would say no, but he said he was driven by all of the tokens he earned for the private show. He said the nerd stated that his regular viewers were declining, and just watching him stroke without wanting private shows. Marc said it was a lot easier to get a finger up the nerds ass than he expected, and he Ioved it! He said perhaps then we could convince him to use toys on himself, and in time maybe even get our toxic cocks and seed in him! I agreed saying it would take time, but worth the wait! Our three way jerk session was set for tomorrow. Marc would already be there when I arrived and act just as surprised as the nerd when I arrived! There was no way we wanted to blow our cover as a couple. The nerd was thrilled when he saw me, and Marc acted just as suprised and excited as the nerd. Marc started telling me that both he and the nerd were just starting to explore their sexuality and he recalled I said I was gay in the first day introductions. The nerd chimed in and admitted that he was hoping that we could connect, and that he was afraid to make the first move by asking. Marc said he felt the same way, and how cool it was that we all met this way. I of course said I'd be more than happy to teach them a few things about being gay. The nerd asked what. I said he seemed to like things up his ass, and that I had a variety of toys I could bring and use on him. The nerd seemed to love that idea! I then said I had one more idea I'd love to try today, and then grabbed the leather hood from my bag. The nerd looked suprised but he was wondering how he could show his face, without really showing it. I said judging by that load on your stomach, I bet your face was covered in cum. The nerd said yes, and even the headboard was! The nerd asked what else. I said I had an idea, but I'd save it for our session. I suggested we could let the audience vote with tokens, perhaps grabbing a few from those who didn't want to donate for a semi private show. The nerd was gleeful in saying they made over $300 in tokens on the private show alone and he'd love to make $600 so we could split it three ways, earning $200 each rather than the $150 they each earned the other day. Of course I didn't say so, but yea the money was a nice bonus, but my ultimate goal was for Marc to create his very first son with the nerd! With that, we started our "pre production " meeting. We positioned ourselves on the bed, with me in the middle. The nerd asked if he could see my cock, and I told him he'd have to wait like the viewers did. I did grab his hand and put it on my cock though letting him get a good feel for it. The nerd asked if he could jerk it off after I finished us off, and I suggested that wr should first see how the tokens were coming in, and if not as good as expected, perhaps add an additional show, or request additional tokens from those already in semi private show. The nerd suggested a combination of both, and I agreed!

I love how a raw cock feels in me, The pleasures we both get from being connected RAW are amazing! What's in it for the bttm? We get every last drop of the guy's DNA in our bum! I love how slimy seed feels in me. I keep it all in to let my body absorb it for a true connection. Makes for the best lube if there are many cocks to feed my bum with their DNA.

I’m usually naked at home. I’ll piss toilet or sink if by myself … always hoping to share in the shower with a buddy. I have a very private backyard with Pool. If I’m outside, I will piss anywhere. Including on myself if I’m laying back on one of the whatever direction my dick is pointing is the directions to piss will stream.

Ryan decided to stay with Aaron for a few weeks, as he was nervous over converting if he did. Well, “if” was not really the right mind set, it was when. It was inevitable, as he and Aaron had hot brother sex every day since, taking turns fucking each other. Finally about 2-3 weeks after their kidnapping, Ryan did feel a little bad, not horrible, but not right either. Aaron took Ryan off to the clinic he went to for testing, and sure enough, Ryan showed Poz. The only reaction the brothers had was to get instant hard ons. The first thing the brothers did was head off to the tattoo place that Bart told them about to get their own biohazard tattoos. When they got there, they saw Bart there and found he owned the parlor. He recognized them immediately. “So, the brothers appear. Am I to guess that Big Bro’s gift took and your both here to get your badges of honor?” Bart took them back to a private room and had them strip down. Bart shaved both of their chests and carefully washed them. They both got about four inch biohazards tattoos done on their left pectorals. By the time the tattoos were done, the brothers had rock hard dripping erections. Bart just had to quench his thirst on that toxic love juice, and promptly got on his knees and took each cock one by one in his mouth and drank their juices. Once Bart had his fill of the brothers copious sweet precum, he turned them around and bent them over his table so he could get at their firm dimpled asses. Aaron’s nicely fuzzy ass, and Ryan’s some what less fuzzy one (which Bart was sure would fill in in a few years to match Aaron’s). Bart took his turn between the two asses, spreading the cheeks and running his tongue all in the hairy valleys, all against the fuzzy holes and finally driving his tongue as deeply into their beings as possible. Aaron and Ryan moaned through out the rimming, their cocks never going down, and juices flowing out of their foreskins to the floor. While Bart was down at their asses giving them all his attention, he noticed for the first time that the brothers had tattoos on their left butt cheeks. Looking at them, they were identical and something he’d never seen before, and expertly done, but it also looked vaguely familiar like may be he has seen it. He looked closely at both as he lightly ran his tongue over them. They appeared to be three stylized arms made into a Celtic knot each “arm” also had a stylized letter, one being A, another R and last a M. The center of it all with all the lines a swirls almost seemed to have the biohazard sign in it. Bart could see a way of using a few colors to call a subtle attention to that. Bart lightly rubbed the tatts, “So boys, what is this beautiful tatt on your asses. It can’t be obvious spelling arm and be arms making a knot.” Aaron spoke up, “That’s a design I did for my brothers and I. Us three are exceptionally close. After our parents died I did that for us three, and we all decided to have them put on our asses. All three of us are gay, and came out to each other when our parents died. It was my first act as our baby brother’s guardian to allow him to get the tattoo at 15. Matty was just 15, Ryan was 18 and I was 21. Matty is 18 now and about to graduate.” “Well, now that is a special tatt then. Matty, so there is a third one of you hot boys? Matty, um, Matty?! Hold on, let me get something, I remember something now. You two keep yourselves busy a moment, let get my pad and delay my next appointment a short bit.” “Fuck, that tatt looks great on your chest Aaron. Turn around and let me see that ass tatt too.” As Aaron turned around Ryan pushed him over the table, and attacked his ass with his tongue. This made Aaron start to moan loudly. Ryan got his tongue deep into Aaron. Ryan was working over Aaron’s hole making it all wet and ready. Ryan stood up, and rubbed the tip of his hard and dripping cock against Aaron’s hole. At that point Bart walked back in, and saw the brothers in such a compromising hot position. He got right up against Ryan from behind, reached around and grabbed Ryan’s cock. “Such a hot sight to walk in to. Here let me help you put your dick into your big brother.” Fitting words to action, Bart nestled Ryan’s foreskin covered head against Aaron’s hole and using his body pushed Ryan slowly and steadily into Aaron. Both brothers moaned out an “oh fuck”. “Then while you boys have a nice little fuck, let me show you something. Ryan look over your brother’s shoulder while humping him.” Bart pulled up bbrts on his notepad, and an account that had caught his attention a few weeks ago. He showed the following posting to the boys fucking. NEWLY 18 AND SEEKING GIFT I just turned 18, and graduating in a month. Heading back home, and looking for a cumming home gift. Do you have the right package to give me the gift I want? Especially love skin wrapped delivery systems. Matty needs his gift soon. With the posting were some great pictures of a very fit twink. Beautifully fit chest with a little patch of hair between his pectorals, patch of hair around each nickel sized nipples. Shaggy treasure trail from his bellybutton to his bushy pubes, and a beautiful uncut cock. Just a hint of juice coming out the lips of his foreskin. The next picture showed a beautiful muscular back down a triangle to a perfect dimpled ass, with just a few hairs coming out the valley, hinting at a very nice fuzzy hole. On the nicely dimpled left cheek, that now very familiar tattoo. “Holy fuck!!” both boys said in unison, which at the same time they both blasted their very toxic loads, one all over the parlor table and one deeply inside an ass.

Anywhere outdoors. The world is my urinal.

my uncle found out that I was a slutty little cumdumpster after he found out that at least 3 of his buddies had picked me up online and met up with me to use my sexy little high school body in their cars and in the handicap washroom at the mall. so when he decided to try me out himself he found me online and I met up with him and his buddy on a couple occasions to suck their cocks and let them fuck me in a mall restroom understall. the second time they even pulled my entire naked lower body into their stall to fuck me with me on my stomach and even on my back with my legs spread wide. after breeding me, one of them came to my stall door and told me to “open the door and suck my cock clean faggot” and when I did my uncle was standing there grinning, with his beefy still semi-hard cock soaked in cum, standing beside his buddy. I sucked them both clean. that night he started training me to be the best, most submissive, devoted pussyboy, and begin my transformation from a faggot to a femboy/t-girl whore. I was already a total cockhungry slut, but I truly became a cumdumpster and a fucktoy for men the day my uncle started fucking me.

The taste and odor are an aphrodisiac. Once you get your tongue and nose in and around his hole, you hormones go wild. The feel, both giving and receiving is one of the most passionate kisses you will ever give or receive.

Part 37 - A Time To Commit They returned home to Liongate later that evening and considering the journey was very short from Stone Canyon to Nimes Rd Josh fell asleep against Bobby, he was anxious seeing Josh like this. As the limo came to a stop in the courtyard Angelo ran round to the other side of the limo and picked Josh up carrying him inside. Bobby walked with Angelo "Do you think it is what I suspect?" he asked Angelo. Angelo nodded "Looks like it, when do you think it may have happened?" he asked. "Barbados, we had quite hard sex in the shower and there was a little blood after" Bobby said looking ashamed. Angelo looked at him "You will have to marry him now" he chuckled "I will ask Mark to get his doctor out". "It is the first time I have knowingly converted someone" Bobby said shaking his head. Angelo put Josh on the bed "Bobby it was his choice as well he willingly accepted your gift". Bobby nodded "I know but I feel ashamed and responsible at doing it". Angelo kissed Bobby "He is your man" Angelo said looking at Josh "well boy I guess" he chuckled. Bobby looked at him "I've never loved anyone this much" he said hugging Angelo. "Go get some sleep I will sit with him" Angelo said as Ethan came in to the room. Ethan put his arm around Bobby "Come on you can sleep with me tonight". "Thanks Ethan" Bobby replied "Call me if anything happens Angelo" he said and Angelo nodded. Ethan kissed Angelo and took Bobby to their room cuddling up in bed with each other, Bobby only managed a few hours sleep so it seemed as the morning light came through the window. Ben knocked softly and opened the door seeing Bobby was awake he walked in and climbed in to bed next him cuddling and comforting him, Ethan turned over and mumbled morning to Ben and putting Bobby in an Ethan and Ben sandwich. Bobby drifted off to sleep comforted either side made sleep so much easier. Mark wandered in to find Josh cradled in Angelo's arms "How is he?" he asked climbing on to the bed. "He is fine, drunk plenty of fluids looks like a mild case" Angelo replied. Mark leaned over and kissed Angelo "I remember you looking after me like this". Angelo smiled "So do I, Ethan was the hardest one I had to deal with" he remembered back to that weekend. "Bet you didn't know then that you would fall in love with him" Mark said stroking Angelo's arm. Angelo leaned his head back "I lost it with him when he pushed me away realising what I had done to him". "I know, he told me but my god he tamed the beast" Mark said "and he is incredibly in love with you". Angelo chuckled "He keeps reminding me that I own him" he looked at Mark "and yes I love him so much. Mark laughed "I know you do Angelo I see it all the time when you are together". Josh nuzzled up "Shame I won't get to be fucked by either of you" he said sleepily. Mark chuckled and kissed Josh "There's nothing wrong with him" he said running his hand down Josh's body. Josh grabbed Mark's hand "Stop it, I haven't got the energy to fight back" he said feebly. Mark climbed off the bed "I will get you a smoothie start building you back up". Mark picked up his phone so he could call the doctor a little later, he returned half an hour later with a couple of smoothies and handed one to Angelo before leaving them to find out how Bobby was doing. He knocked softly and opened the door snickering seeing the sight before his eyes and how beautiful it looked, quickly he put the phone on silent and took several pictures. Bobby was laying on his back with his arms around Ethan and Ben's neck and shoulders either side of him cuddling up, Ethan and Ben sort of holding hands across Bobby's chest each had one leg across Bobby's legs, their faces buried against Bobby's neck all sound asleep. He crept out and softly closed the door and went back to Angelo and Josh who was now sat up drinking his smoothie. "You have to see this" Mark said showing the photo to Angelo and Josh. Angelo smiled and looked up at Mark "That is so sweet and sexy". Josh handed his smoothie to Mark and laid back down looking at Angelo and Mark "Well" he said. Mark laughed and knew what Josh meant, he stripped off and climbed in to bed with Josh in the middle. They cuddled up and stroked Josh's body tenderly. Without even thinking the three of them fell asleep quickly. Ethan woke up and looked at his watch, it was just gone 7am already and he looked surprised that they had managed to sleep, he slipped out of bed and put a t-shirt and underwear on. Bobby and Ben woke up and put on a robe each, Bobby thanked them for the being here kissing and hugging each of them. They wandered through in to Bobby and Josh's rooms and into the bedroom smiling, Josh was laying half across Angelo in his arms and Mark was spooning Josh. Mark sensed and woke up startled at the three watching them. "God what time is it?" he asked trying to extract himself from Josh. Ben snickered "7am, how is Josh?". Mark looked at Josh and smiled at Ben "Thinking of sex as usual". Ethan shook his head "Same old Josh then" he said walking around to Angelo's side and kissing him on the head. Angelo stirred and ran his hand over Ethan's ass "Morning sexy". Ben giggled "How does he do that?" he asked amazed that he knew it was Ethan. Angelo slightly dazed "What day is it?" he asked then remembering "Oh it's Saturday, no work today". Josh woke and bit on Angelo's nipple "I'm hungry" Angelo wriggled and kissed Josh getting out of bed. "He is all yours Bobby" Angelo said kissing him good morning. The rest of the day Josh sat outside by the pool feeling much better, the doctor had come earlier and tested Josh confirming he was hiv positive. Josh had looked at Bobby after the doctor had left and asked if it was the night they had sex in the shower as he knew his ass had bled a little, he chuckled seemingly unperturbed by his diagnosis. Mark swung by the pool terrace as he was taking the limo to the airport to meet up with Nicky and bring the guys back to Liongate. Pedro knew what was happening with Josh after Mark had a quiet word with him and was spoiling him rotten by the pool. Angelo and Ethan were down at their new home looking at the pool taking shape, it was large and also contained rock formations at one end providing a little grotto. "It's looking amazing, how much is this all costing Angelo?" Ethan asked looking at him. Angelo looked at him "I have no idea, I gave Dimitri the budget and he said leave it with him". Ethan looked at the modern take on a ranch style house "I'm looking forward to moving in". Angelo put his arm around Ethan "So am I. We have a housekeeper cook to interview Monday" he said. Ethan turned to him "Do we really need one?" he asked. Angelo chuckled "You've seen how big this place is, I am not cleaning it". Ethan laughed and agreed seeing Angelo's point that it was to big to manage themselves, they strode along tree lined Nimes Rd back towards Liongate. Crossing the open expanse of the courtyard at the front of the mansion they heard the gates opening down the drive, just as the reached the steps the two limos pulled up. Ben came running through the front doors seeing Jordan exiting from his limo he threw himself in to his arms giving him a kiss like a long lost lover and Jordan spun him around in circles. When he did eventually put Ben down he ran around and gave Daniel and hug and kiss almost knocking him to the ground before he steadied himself and gave Daniel a big kiss back commenting how fantastic it was to see them again. Daniel stood and looked up at Liongate after Ethan finished hugging him "Seriously this is huge" he said. Ethan put his arm around Daniel "You will love it here Danny, come on Josh and Bobby are by the pool". Angelo and Jordan hugged "Josh has been a little unwell" he winked at Jordan. Jordan nodded "Ah, is he okay you know mentally?" he asked. "Yes he seems to be pretty okay" Angelo said walking with Jordan in to the house. Bobby stood up seeing Jordan and Daniel approaching "Hello guys" they kissed and hugged. Jordan sat next Josh "How's my sexy little man feeling?" he said hugging him. "I'm okay, achy but fine otherwise, I didn't know you knew" Josh lowered his head embarrassed. Jordan put a finger under his chin raising his head "Nothing to be ashamed about Josh". Before they knew what was happening the entire group were in the pool enjoying the last of the sunshine except Nicky who was sat with Josh. He opened up to her about why he was unwell and she kept fussing over him and fetching him fruit, until she burst out laughing after he said we would be on the toilet all night if he kept eating fruit. "What is it with Josh?" Mark asked seeing how Nicky attended to him. Jordan and Angelo turned to look "I don't know" Angelo said then turning to Jordan "Maddy is the same with him". "Are you sure you don't need anything else Josh" Nicky asked mopping his forehead making him laugh. Josh could see the others looking at him so he poked his tongue out at them "No I am fine Nicky, thank you". She stood up "I have to get home, are we lunching tomorrow, my treat?" Nicky asked. Mark looked at her "Bring everyone over for lunch here Nicky, Danny's and my parents will be here" he suggested. Ben swam towards her "Come over in the morning around 10 we can make a day of it" he said looking at Mark who nodded. "Okay sounds perfect a nice day relaxing" She said as Mark put on a robe walking with her to the limo. Daniel caught up with them at the front door "Mum and dad have arrived and in the limo on their way". Nicky stopped "Dam, tell Lucy to give me a call later and I will see them tomorrow" she said saying good bye. Daniel nodded and put his arm around Mark "Thank you so much for letting us stay here Mark". "Hey think nothing of it, my parents insisted you all stay here when I asked" Mark replied as he closed the doors. "You know you just have to message us if you want to come out to the hotel anytime" Daniel said looking at him. Mark laughed "You may regret that. Oh Would your parents mind doing a publicity shoot with mine?" he asked. It was Daniel's turn to laugh "Are you kidding my mother would love that". They hadn't got more than 5 meters inside when Maddy and David arrived back from Colorado excited to see Mark and Daniel standing there but more interested in when Daniel's parents would arrive. Horrified Maddie quickly shot up the stairs to change leaving David standing there. "Well, why is my son in law not here to greet us" he laughed. Mark kissed his father "At the pool with the others, we have everyone coming over tomorrow for the day". David shook his head "You haven't told your mother have you, you know how she likes to organise things". "You tell her I know she will want to put on a fancy lunch" Mark said grabbing Daniel to go back to the pool. David chuckled and walked up the stairs calling out to the butler to tell him just in case Mark hadn't informed anyone, but luckily he had done, kind or relieved as the butler would know what Maddy would be expecting for a poolside lunch. Down at the pool most of the guys were sunbathing, Callum was sat in the hot tub and Ben joined him to keep him company. "You look away with fairies Callum" Ben said stepping climbing over the pool edge in to the hot tub. Callum opened his eyes and smiled "I can't believe this is a home not a hotel" he chuckled. Ben looked back "It is big and very homely, oh we should take you down and show you our home" he suggested. "You brought a house, your not going to live here then?" Callum asked sounding surprised. Ben laughed "Yeah it's 10 minute walk from here" he said waving his hand in a general direction. Callum rested back enjoying the bubbles "We always stay with Nicky and Kit when we visit, it's so nice there". "It is a lovely house they have, and you would be welcome at ours as well" Ben said genuinely. Callum looked over at him "I know Steve has been wondering but are the other two coming?". Ben looked at him "Yes if you mean Tony and Adam" he replied smirking "why?" he asked him. Callum chuckled "Steve has the hots for Tony, so are they committed or open?". Ben chuckled "Very open Callum, but you should know they are both hiv" he said watching Callum carefully. Callum just nodded and smirked "Steve has dodged it so many times, he has top tier status of the mile high club". Ben nearly choked laughing "Get out of here" he sat forward "come on tell me more". Callum smiled "We both use to work for an airline, Steve was cabin crew, well you can imagine the rest". Ben rolled over on top of Callum laughing "Come on how many times?" he asked holding Callum down. Callum couldn't stop laughing at Ben's attempt to hold him down, wriggling his arms free he grabbed hold of Ben and pulled him close until their bodies touched 'kiss me' Callum demanded tightening his hold of Ben who was giggling out of control 'then will you tell me?' he asked in between his giggling 'tongue or no tongue' he also asked trying to establish a boundary. Callum just looked at him 'full on kiss' he replied, Ben stopped giggling and leaned forward there was no petting involved as they both parted their lips and engaged in an erotic tongue wrestling match in the hot tub. Steve worried by what he saw stood up feeling a hand on his shoulder he saw Mark standing there. "Mark sorry I didn't..." Steve started speaking but Mark cut him off. "Guess you have to kiss me then" Mark said interrupting him running his hand down Steve's naked torso. "Fuck" Steve said noticing Mark moving closer "I'm gonna kiss Mark Davenport" he said warming up to the idea. Mark silenced Steve by thrusting his tongue in to his mouth and kissing him long and hard. Mark released him from the kiss and Steve had to steady himself from being so overwhelmed. When the turned to look at the hot tub Ben and Callum were leaning on the side arms around each other smirking at them. Mark told them no more frolicking as his parents were now home so prim and proper behaviour he said trying to sound British as everyone laughed at his feeble attempt. Josh had climbed off the sunbed and was sat in the cool water of the steps leading in to the pool, Bobby kept looking over in between his conversation with Daniel making sure he was alright. Jordan seeing his concern stood up and went and sat in the pool with Josh putting his arm around his shoulder. "How are you feeling Josh?" Jordan asked as Josh cuddled up next to him. Josh smiled "Tired, but I want to go in". Jordan stepped deeper in to the water and held his arms open "Come on". Josh slipped off the step in to his waiting arms and gave him a kiss "Thank you". Jordan walked around the pool carrying Josh in his arms who was in heaven and loving every minute. Bobby and Daniel moved to the side of the pool watching them arms around in each other as they continued chatting away. Daniel's initial view of this type of friendship had evaporated after realising that there was no threat or underhanded attempts to have sex with each other, yes there was a tenderness and sometime very erotic antics but boundaries were very clear and never crossed. Of course he knew that Steve and Callum had a very open relationship as did Adam and Tony, but the friendships he had here came without conditions just love for each other. The afternoon was simply perfect, Maddy and David were watching from their balcony smiling, happy for their son who finally had found his feet and no longer fought against the wealth as his friends accepted him for him and his husband just adored him no matter who he was. George the butler knocked on the door and called out that Lucy and David Salinger have just entered the East Gate compound, Lucy asked George go tell Daniel that his parents were arriving. Maddy and David knew everything about their son and kept a very close eye on his well being, they were astute enough to figure out that Josh showed the same symptoms Mark did from Angelo's updates when he fell ill but seeing how healthy Mark and Angelo were it was just a condition that no one needed to know about and that was how they would treat Josh. It had crossed their minds that Josh's involvement with Bobby was the reason but as long as they stayed true to each other they knew it was a matter between them and no cause for concern. "So you will be keeping an eye on Josh now as well" David said following his wife down the hallway. Maddy chuckled "Oh yes, he needs a mother figure here in LA and he is a pleasure to be around". David kissed his wife "Just don't wear him out after all he came here because of Bobby and to work". "I know you keep reminding me and I promise to let him live his life, well sort of" Maddy chuckled. David smiled "Makes Liongate not such a lonely place having people here again". Daniel entered the entrance hall just as Maddy and David reached the bottom of the stairs and hearing the limo pulling up in to the courtyard. Lucy apologising for the delay as she had to check on the hotel to make sure everything was coming together for Monday and the grand opening. Maddy and Lucy found it hilarious having two David's in the house and they knew it was going to get confusing for everyone when talking, Maddy escorted Lucy to the sun room for tea before going out to the pool to meet everyone, after all she needed to gauge her feelings on the boys openly gay flaunting and antics. Lucy laughed as she took tea with Maddy secret telling her she hoped that Daniel was being more open about it since his last boyfriend had really brought him down and the unfortunate business at Thanksgiving. Maddy explained that at first he found it unconventional but with three 19 year olds running riot around the house it was hard for him not to get drawn in and free himself, they stood and walked out on to the terrace hearing the noise coming from the pool area. "Do they really run wild around here in such lovely surroundings" Lucy asked amusingly. Maddy chuckled "Yes after all this place is big enough and private for them". "I hear your having a pool party tomorrow with Nicky and Kit" Lucy asked in a questioning manner. Maddy smiled and linked her arm with Lucy "Well it is suppose to be a lunch which has gone out of control". Lucy laughed patting Maddy's hand, she had already taken a liking to her but then she never really doubted as she wanted to win the Davenports over knowing how good for business they would be. She was not one for deceit and was very open to Maddy about it in their chat whilst having tea and in return Maddy suggested using Bobby for their PR which Lucy agreed stating it made good business sense but only if Bobby could photograph the Davenports whenever they stayed at a Salinger hotel. David was already in the throng of guys chatting loudly with his trousers rolled and dangling his feet in the pool. Jordan came over and gave Lucy a kiss and hug swiftly followed by a wet Callum and Steve, she was quite surprised seeing so many gay guys in one place but her heart lifted seeing Daniel being chased by Ben and Ethan in the pool taunting each other. She met everyone suggesting they all wore name tags until Josh pointed out that they all had different coloured jock straps they could wear to make it easier. Maddy laughed telling Josh off until David chipped in and told Lucy even he had one and suggested to Lucy's husband David they pop out tomorrow and buy him one which Lucy found so funny she nearly fell in the pool. "Maddy I have no idea how you can cope with this" Lucy said sitting besides her. Maddy smirked looking at her "I was the one who brought them all jock straps". "No way, you did?" Lucy asked in amazement. Maddy chuckled "Yes, you should have seen the looks I got in the store. Champagne Lucy?" she asked. "Absolutely" Lucy said thanking her. Maddy called Pedro over "I like your style Lucy. Pedro can you bring champagne and glasses please". Pedro nodded "Of course my lady" he chuckled and scooted off and Maddy saw the strange look on Lucy's face. "Long story Lucy I will tell tonight but he is our under butler but has free range in the house" Maddy explained. Josh sulked when Maddy refused to let him have champagne until she had to relent eventually when he turned on the poor little boy act, she allowed him to have a very weak mimosa cocktail. Mark and Angelo came over letting them know they were off to meet Adam and Tony at the airport. Maddy nodded and reminded them dinner at 7pm and casual dress as they would eat on the terrace, she then called over to Mark again telling him she had put them in the room next to Jordan and Daniel. Lucy chuckled commenting that it is just like running a hotel with so many guests. Finally the pool terrace quietened down as the boys stretched out on the terrace enjoying the sun. Ethan stood over Ben "I'm taking Jordan to the gym why don't you come and work out with us" he asked him. Ben sat up "Isn't it boring?" he replied. Jordan laughed and heaved Ben off the floor on to his shoulder "Going to work out for an hour" he called to Daniel. Ben slapped Jordan's ass repeatedly "Put me down I don't want to work out" he pleaded with no effect. Mark and Angelo returned with Tony and Adam and headed straight down to the pool "Where's Ben?" Mark asked looking around. Daniel looked up "Oh Jordan dragged him to the gym with Ethan" he snickered and nodded to confirm what he said. "No way, seriously they got Ben in the gym?" Mark replied looking shocked. Angelo turned abruptly "What, they got Ben in the gym... I gotta see this" he laughed about to head off. They didn't have to wait as the three of them were walking back down to the pool with one difference, Jordan and Ethan were kind of holding Ben up as he had jelly legs from to much working out. They picked him up and placed him in the hot tub to let the jets massage his legs, Adam and Tony came over and started mocking Ben before they got around to seeing everyone else when Adam and Steve finally came face to face to say hello. Adam was pretty good at picking up signals from guys and after saying hello to each other he saw the same look he got in Barbados and read it clearly. Steve was busy talking to Tony and Mark who noticed the look being exchanged and the silence between Tony and Steve. Callum nudged Adam "I think that is going happen soon" he said nodding in the direction of Tony and Steve. Adam placed his hand on Callum's ass "Looks like it" he replied as Callum jumped slightly feeling the hand caressing his ass. Callum pushed it back resting it against his hand glancing to see a very mischievous grin on his face "Are you having a good feel?" Callum joked. "Wouldn't mind tapping this" Adam said copping even more of a feel. Callum looked at him "Tapping?" he asked then very out of character for Callum his hand slipped around and cupped Adam's cock. "You know fucking your cute British ass" Adam replied seeing Callum's eyes opening wide feeling the dense firm thickness of his own cock. Callum smirked and looked at Adam who carried on as if nothing had happened when his hand fell away. Callum sensed he would be feeling Adam's cock again but in a different way sometime soon making him smile as he turned his head to look and Adam winked at him. The pool terrace began emptying with Ben and Mark last to head inside having finally recovered from his jelly legs but strangely he enjoyed working out and was full of himself stating he would go every day and build up his body strength to finally take Ethan down or at least match him. Mark laughing but with as much intent said he would join him, they walked hand in hand up the stairs kissing as they went. Josh took off his shorts and turned the shower then stood under the rainfall shower letting the large drops of water cascade over his head as a dark foreboding ran through him. His body shuddering as he fell to his knees sobbing as the realisation finally hit him, underneath he knew what he was getting in to engaging in bareback sex but the reality of his actions began to hit home as heaps of self doubt and worry came tumbling down. He was unsure of his future now and did Bobby really love him or was he playing a game to knock him up. Conflicted in himself he sobbed harder his whole body shaking as the water poured over the crouched figure in the shower his head in his hands unable to control his sobs. Bobby finished checking over the accounts somewhat amazed by how much commission he was making just from the few pictures and articles he had sold already to the highest bidders. He stood up and undressed wondering where Josh had got to as he had been in the shower for quite some time so he must be done by now, as he reached the bathroom door he heard the sobs emitting from the shower. Panic initially set in as Bobby rushed in dreading the worst but stopped dead in his tracks, his heart sinking seeing Josh on his knees bent over crying. He turned the shower off and sat down beside Josh hugging him as close as he could trying to comfort him bringing much sorrow to himself seeing him this way. "What have I done" Josh sobbed into Bobby's neck "I don't know what I have done". Bobby stroked his head "Oh baby, please don't do this" he kissed Josh's head "I am here for you Josh". Josh sobbed "No one will want me now" he sobbed again feeling he would be left alone in the world. "I am here" Bobby said reiterating as his eyes began welling up and holding Josh firmly in his arms to reinforce his words. Josh began to quieten down "You won't leave me will you?" he asked in between sobs. Bobby kissed his head again "You are mine Josh why can't you see how much I love you, people here love you Josh no one is going to leave you". Josh's sobbing began to lessen hearing those words, his head full of turmoil and unable to see things clearly for what they really were had brought him to this point. He just needed to be told that he wouldn't be neglected like his parents had done once they knew he was gay, they didn't throw him out but told him his decision and he has to live with it, since then they had become somewhat distant and just let him get on with it. Bobby continued stroking his head as silence fell in the bathroom as the sobbing stopped. "Your my Josh, my lover and the person I hunted down from the first day I saw your cheeky confident grin behind Ethan" Bobby said. Josh sniffed "You did didn't you" he said "sort of persistent aren't you". Bobby chuckled "I knew I wanted to fuck you when I saw you, but dam you just won me over like no one else ever has". Josh looked up his eyes red from crying "I'm glad you hunted me down" he said, a smile appearing on his face. Bobby hugged him "I don't want us to go on like this any more Josh". "What do you mean?" Josh asked sounding alarmed. "Like this, I want you to want me, I have to know you are committed to me" Bobby said looking him in the eye. Josh felt something inside that seemed to tell him what he needed "Committed to you?" he replied wiping his eyes. Bobby wiped Josh's tear streaked face "Yes, no more uncertainties Josh I know what I want but do you?" he asked him looking serious. "Serious about you?" Josh asked looking in to Bobby's eyes "I moved out here for you Bobby, what else is there?" he asked. Bobby leaned forward and kissed him on the mouth "Marry me Josh" he said kissing him again "show me you want to be mine". It was a fleeting moment that seemed to hang in the air for ages as Josh heard him speaking the words, did he know if that was what he wanted. But he had agreed to move out to LA to be with Bobby, no way would he have done that if he didn't feel anything for him, but what he did feel was such a sense of happiness that was so hard to explain. A feeling that far greater than just getting fucked. Without any further hesitation Josh nodded "Oh god yes" he hardly spoke before Bobby kissed him. They kissed more intimately than they had ever done so before lasting a few minutes before Josh pulled his head away and bobby stroked his face smiling. Josh kissed him gently on the mouth then lowered his head until he reached Bobby's semi hard cock, his lips kissing along the shaft until he reached the head slipping his lips around it he gently caressed in smooth delectable movements, feeling it grow instantly in his mouth nearly causing him to gag. Slowly he increased the pressure around Bobby's cock introducing a light suction as he continued, he heard Bobby moaning the words 'oh fuck', he felt the pulsing and his mouth filling with Bobby's seed as he was unable to contain himself. Josh pulled off and kissed Bobby deeply passing the cum between them and letting it dribble down their chins before licking it back up to each others mouth and finally kissing deeply. Bobby pulled Josh up "You are a dirty boy" he chuckled "and so full of surprises" he smiled. Josh looked at him "Me" he smirked "I'm not the one with cum in my beard" snickering as he turned. "Very funny and that's why I love you so much" Bobby replied slapping him gently on the ass. Josh turned on the shower standing underneath he pulled Bobby forward "I love you Bobby". Bobby kissed him still tasting the saltiness of his cum in Josh's mouth giggled 'good' he said as they showered each other, his heart soaring hearing Josh finally say the words he wanted to hear from him and quietly overcome with emotion he wrapped his arms around Josh holding him close as the water rushed over them rinsing the soap off. Bobby reached over and turned the faucet off and looked Josh in the eye 'okay' he asked quietly, Josh nodded and cuddled up to Bobby resting his head against his wet neck 'happy' was all he said. They both looked at each other hearing a voice coming from their bedroom muttering 'I have to walk round this massive house to hurry you two up, your not answering your phone, now where on earth are you' they both looked at each other recognising it was Ben and broke out in fits of giggles. "Oh there you are" Ben said entering the bathroom "you better hurry up or you will be late". Bobby turned his head "Were coming Ben" he said seeing Ben peer closer at him. "Looks like someone did, you still got some in your beard" he laughed loudly as he left the bathroom. Josh wiped the spot on his beard chuckling "All clean" he said feeling Bobby's hands cupping his ass cheeks. Privately they agreed to hold off telling anyone until after the hotel opening night. Josh somehow felt like a different person as if a new page was being turned that would dramatically change his life.