How Old Were You When You Took Your First Load?

[CumBustion]

I was molested, and eventually raped, by a childhood friend’s father starting at the age of six (my friend’s name is Sam, for the sake of this post).  I don’t think he turned me, but I think he brought out my sexuality much earlier than others. He showed me porn (gay and straight), touched me, put his fingers in me, and, over a period of time, eventually had me perform oral and anal sex. He even shared me in his pedo group of friends. One very painful memory is how he’d jerk me off and perform oral on me until I “came” (nothing came out, of course). My body started changing and the. One day, something did come out while he was performing oral on me. He got really angry, spat it on the on the floor, and told me to lick it up. As I was on my hand and knees licking it up, he kicked me in my testicles really hard and told me that from now on, he cums in me, not the other way around. He also told me that if knew what was good for me, would’ve stayed a boy, because now the games are really gonna start. He sodomized me brutally shortly after. Till today, I can’t look at a baseball bat without my mind going back to those times.
 

There was no sex offender registry at the time,  which he would have been on, since he was convicted of misdemeanors related to child endangerment for molesting other boys earlier. The kinda fucked up part is that after my friend Sam and his sisters and mom moved away after the divorce, I still told my mom I was going to Sam’s house to play or have a sleepover (she didn’t know Sam moved away and their parents divorced). I was groomed for years, trafficked (transported over state lines), and pimped by him. 
 

Last I heard, he was in prison. He went too far with a boy he groomed years after me and killed him. I often think about how that could have been me. It hasn’t come with its problems coupled with addictions to varying degrees, with sex addiction probably high on the list.

[cwhatley]

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[Guest]

Not as a child but when I was a teenager. I was 17 and an apprentice mechanic. A fat guy called Dave was one of the qualified mentors at the large company where I worked. A few times when I was leaning over an engine bay of a car he would come and see what I was doing and either stand very close so our bodies and legs would be touching. Sometimes he would stand right behind me looking over my  shoulder, put one hand on my other shoulder and rest his body lightly on my back. I wasn't sure, but sometimes I thought he had a hard on that was pressing into my back. This went on for a couple of months then one day when I was in the wash room washing my hands for a tea break and he came in. We were on our own and everyone else had been and gone. I dried my hands and went over to the urinal. He followed me over and stood very close to my left hand side and suddenly reached over with his right hand and took hold of my cock. I was shocked but didn't say anything, just stood and looked at him. He said "I know what you need son" and lead my by the cock into one of the toilet cubicles and closed the door. He stood behind me a wanked me until I came then he opened the door and left.  I felt really dirty. I didn't fancy him. He was fat a gross and had done nothing to lead him on and as far as I knew no-one had any idea I way gay. Infact at that time in my life I wasn't sure I was. A few days later I was working overtime on a Saturday morning. There were only a few people at the garage, less than half a dozen in the whole place. Dave followed me into the washroom again and this time pushed me forcibly into one of the toilet cubicles sat me down on the toilet seat and unzipped himself. He pulled out his uncut cock which was, like him, big fat and ugly. He just said "Suck it" I told him to fuck off and that he was a fucking pervert. He said he'd relieved me and now it was my turn to get him off. I was scared and revolted by him but I said I would wank him. He agreed and I began to give him a hand job. While I was rubbing his cock he kept asking if I would just put his cock in mouth but, I couldn't bring myself to do it. Suddenly he came all over my face and head. There was alot of cum and it stank. He zipped up and said next time I was going to swallow his cum. Afterwards I felt sick, dirty and scared. Nothing happened for a week or so and I tried to avoid being in the washroom at the same time. However, one day when I was there on my own he came in while I was washing my hands he came in, walked up to me and licked his lips. I was scared shirtless and was sure he would force me to suck him off or worse, want to fuck me so, I kicked him as hard as I could in the balls. He coupled over and I ran out of the wash room. I was sure he was going to come out and beat the fuck out of me or report me for assault and get me the sack. To be honest I didn't care. If he reported me I was going to tell whoever the whole story. So what happened, nothing. He avoided me like the plague, never spoke to me or came near me again. A few months later he transferred to another workshop with the same company and about six months later I heard that the fat bastard had a heart attack and died. I'm not really sure how these incidents affected me other than not being in any way attracted to fat smelly men, which I hadn't been in the first place, and if anyone pisses off they'd better watch out.

[Guest]

I took my first load, when I was 28 Y/0,  My Friends and family used to go to this local sports Bar. We where there when the 49er's where on their way to another Super Bowl Victory.  Ironically, the women (my Future Wife) told me that the Bartender was hitting on me, or making a pass at me. He was a nice man, and checked off on a lot of my, quote un-quote boxes for a good sex partner.  I continued to go back to the Bar, to get to know this man, and eventually ended up having sex with him condom free. 

 

Ps. more might be discussed about this later. 

[Kimberley]

I was 23 and he in his 40s. had a hard time to accept my desire for cocks as a ''straight'' boy. after a long while chatting on gaychats i met a older nice married guy who convinced me to meet. first time at night in his car sucking his cock what was such a good experience that i decided wanted a second date with him to fuck me. we had talk about bareback but i always refused that but i was to horny and trusted him because the first date was feeling fine, that i agreed with bareback sex. well since then i was hooked on baresex

[VivienCumSlut]

I was introduced to sex very early, I think at 6 years old, it started with a friend of the same age teaching me to suck him, I wanted to find out more, but he didn't know, so he told me who taught these things he was his uncle for him, so I asked him to take me to his uncle, he was already a mature man and he lived in the vicinity of my friend's house, so it was very easy for him to abuse it without the family noticing, there I learned to serve and be fucked, whenever i remember it i get horny. I'm sure this event made who I have become today

 

[Jbnew]

I sucked my first cock when I was 5. It was my brothers, he was 6 and our friend who was 4. They didn’t understand really what was going on, but I knew I wanted their little dicks in my mouth. Our friend would then turn me around and stick his little Dick in between my ass cheeks and pump it. 
I never was molested, but I sure tried. We would go swimming  Sunday evenings at the university swimming pool in Missoula, MT. My Dad brother and friend would all be swimming away and I was going f back and forth from the pool to the locker room, cruising the college guys. I think it made them nervous, but not I tried to get them to let me play with their cocks.

later on when I was about 10. A neighbor boy who was about 6 and I started suckteach others cocks and he was the first guy to ever lick my ass, it was totally his idea and he was into it, in return I lick his butt too. It was hot. 
I last played with him and another boy, who was 17, when I was 15. Craig came into the camper where the other boy and I use to play, I suggested we show Craig what we do and started sucking his cock and we went through all of it, mutually. I looked over and saw Craig with his Cock out and rock hard ! It was a huge cock !! I went over and started stroking it he told me to suck it, I kissed his cock head and then wade said, I will suck it ! He got the head in his mouth and Thst was it. Was the last time I played with boys, it was totally hot

[Wokky1234]

I got into the chub/gainer scene about 12, got chatting to a guy who was into chubby lads and arranged to meet in a hotel. He picked me up, drove to a takeaway and ordered a couple of large pizzas for us to take with us. 

Got into the hotel room, got naked and he laid on the bed with me sat on his lap, his cock pushing against my hole. He proceeded to feed me as I rode him, completely full to bursting as I was fucked.

It was hot.

[cuminboyz]

It is TOTALLY why I am who I am today. Its super clear.

To be fair I was already a kinky little boy, but they steered me into the perversions I have now.

I cover it briefly in my profile description. Here's the longer version.

In the mid to late 90s I was 10 years old. Like I said, I was KINKY. Hornier and younger than any kid I've met. By 10 I'd already been:

- fucking my own ass with carrots from the fridge...

- sucking off moms boyfriends dog and trying to get it to fuck me...

- borrowing an early digital camera from the school lab "for a project" and using it to snap naked pix of me sucking the dog...

- and finally being humiliated in school when I tried to play "show and tell" with another kid from a higher grade, and he got his friends to come too... when I pulled out my cock first and asked to see theirs, I instantly became the school "fag" "gay" and "queer".

It was the school incident that did it. I now had names for what I was into. I was a latchkey kid (mom worked nights, no dad) and I had the Internet. So I went online and quickly found gay places... and others like me.

I didnt say my age there, as I didnt want to get kicked out I just said that I was younger and the city I lived in. A guy replied and said he was from my area, and we emailed. I told him how young I really was. He didn't have a problem. We chatted about what I liked and I even sent him the pics of me and the dog (this is a key fact for later).

He soom suggested I meet him to chat about gay life in person. I was eager to meet another fag like me. So he arranged to pick me up and stay a night and we'd go to a party.

OK in hindsight obviously a sex invitation. But I was a dumb naive kid. I figured it was a normal thing to have gay parties. So I told my mom I was doing a sleepover at a friends (she never checked) and he picked me up from the street corner at 3pm.

He seemed high energy (I later learnt it was "tweaked") and super excited about the party. He lived outside town, like on a bit of land... it was dark when I got there so I really had no idea exactly where it was that day. Yup, big red flag in hindsight but this is why kids get in cars with strangers.

Literally the moment we got inside he closed and locked and deadbolted the door. He had a boyfriend (also tweaked) and the second the door was locked he POUNCED. Like grabbed me. And then so did the other guy.

I thought they were going to murder me. I screamed and yelled. But nobody was in earshot. They wrestled me into the bedroom and ripped off my clothes. Handcuffed me to the bed. Then they got naked and started to stroke and pet me (and them). They smoked something (later I learned crystal) and shotgunned some into me. I had a rush and felt weird. I was still thinking they were gonna kill me.

And then one lubed up his cocks and RAMMED my ass. Like, balls deep in 3 massive thrusts. No time wasted. If I hadn't been using those carrots in my ass already, they would have split me open. As it was it HURT. I screamed  bloody murder and bawled.

Many years later I figured out they had partially torn my sphincter... the unintentional side effect is that from then on I had no problem taking big cocks without much warmup. So, not all bad 🙂

So all evening, night, and the next day they fucked, sucked and molested me over and over. They kept going with the help of the drugs... and kept me up with occasional shotguns if i got drowsy.

They covered all the sex bases. Anal. Oral. Forcing me to suck them. Whips. Pissing in both my holes (I peed on myself). Having me fist them. So much more. And they took photos of me doing it all.

I later figured they knew they were poz, high viral...and HIV being a semi death sentence back then, decided to indulge some pedo rape fantasies while they could. I dont know if they pozzed me then, or later (I'll get to that).

Their insurance was to scare me. They knew where I lived. They had their photos and my dog photos. They said they were sending copies to their friends (which they did) and if I told anyone they raped me, they or their friends would come after me, my mom... and publish the pics of me so everyone would know what a slut whore faggot I was. To their credit they had it all figured out.

They dumped me back at home at the end of the weekend, and I was so sore I pretended I was sick and stayed home from school for a few days.

They figured they'd seen the last of me. But I was a kinky horny kid... who had never had an adult male pay any attention to me. And here were 2 guys who'd spent the weekend paying attention to me. Loving my body and saying how hot and beautiful and tight I was (also that I was a dirty slut, which I kinda knew, and that validated me and my dog [banned word] stuff). Here were guys who wanted me and found me sexy like nobody else did... found every inch of my body worth exploring... and I got their penises stiff. Gays, like I was. With big penises, and I liked penises. And, they hadn't killed me, right? And after it hurt, it didnt so much, and I even felt so sexy excited about a lot of what we did. And there was an excited thrill about the danger and adventure (and maybe some of that was also the crystal, but I LIKED the crystal, too. And I didnt know any other gays in real life. And so on and on went my thoughts. And as I thought my cock got hard every time.

So a few weeks later, one little 10 year old slut whore... emailed the guy and asked if he could have more please, sir...

Over the next years a lot of fucking went on. They did know other pedos and they fucked me too. And later on, I wasn't the only kid who came to their sex parties.

So all that... made me who I am. Easy link. I like anonymous bareback sex with anyone. I like pozzing, stealthing, cum, piss, chemsex, boys... everything they did to me, they made me too. They taught me how to be a [banned word]. Thanks guys.

 

[cuminboyz]

Oh, I forgot to add, I was diagnosed as poz at 16. My viral load was high and from that, they said I'd likely been infected about 6 years earlier. So if they didn't poz me that first time, it was soon after. There was a bit of blood on their cocks the first dozen or so times they fucked me so my chances are high it was on the first go.

It wouldn't have made any difference to me. I didn't know what HIV was. It was about a year later I first remember them talking about pozzing and if they'd gotten me yet. I went on to have sex with everyone without condoms anyway because condoms suck and none of the pedos I remember ever even had any.

[Hungryred87]

Was molested as a child by my oldest cousin who was in Junior high when I was in kindergarten. I'm definitely a bi bottom from that I think. He really made me feel like a whore when he gave me money for him cumming in me.

[guy4funwaco]

On 5/13/2021 at 11:53 PM, evilalex said:

were any of you scared when older men started molesting you?

of course, thats why i didnt say anything

 

[evilalex]

20 hours ago, guy4funwaco said:

of course, thats why i didnt say anything

 

How old were you, man?

[Guest]

Frequently by multiple men. I quickly learned to love it 

[evilalex]

2 hours ago, Stealth said:

Frequently by multiple men. I quickly learned to love it 

did it take u very long to love it