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When I'm fucking a guy, if i don't get bred at some point, i feel like i miss out. I love to get bred, and love to hold in the cum as long as possible so that the top's DNA gets absorbed into my guts. I don't know how common this is for other bottoms so I'd like your opinion. Where do you like tops to shoot?

DELIVERING HIS FANTASY FUCK I had a Grindr message from a 27 yr lad asking if I needed fucking. When I told him I did he offered to head over and fuck his poppered up anon load in. He also asked if he could bring his own lube to use. That wasn’t a problem, saved using mine. I was hooded and ass up in my jock and CUM DUMP socks when he arrived. He just whipped his shorts off and stood there in his white T-shirt, white Nike socks and AF-1 trainers. He was already semi and slapping his 8inches aginst my hole. He continued to popper up. He pressed his precum oozing head against my hungry hole and I moaned with pleasure. I thought It odd when he said he couldn’t wait to use this lube on me. I felt the cold liquid as he poured it over my hole and down my crack. He teased my hole open with it. He poppered up some more. He was clearly lubing his dick some more with his lube. Then he pushed his raw dick inside me. He started pounding away, giving me a good hard fucking. I loved how he occasionally gave me a verbal reminder he was in charge. I got called a cum whore, faggot and a worthless cunt. I loved it. He pulled back to just leave the head of his throbbing dick in me as he took another popper hit. He asked if I wanted the rest of this load and I wasn’t sure what he meant. When I asked He told me that he’d been out cruising at some toilets and watched a hot guy get fucked by a fucking ugly but well endowed top. The guy used a rubber and shot a huge load while fucking the guy. When they were done the used and filled rubber was thrown to the floor. My guy apparently stepped in to rescue the discarded strangers load with the intention to use as lube on a willing cumdump, as it had been a longtime fantasy of his. My hole was twitching with excitement knowing this guys cum was already lubing my cunt! He was pouring the last drops of this anon strangers cruising load into his dick. He took another popper hit and slid back in. We were both well lubed and completely turned on by it. I loved that I’d agreed to not knowingly taken this sleazy cum load. He was rock solid inside when he asked, ‘I’ve one more fantasy request, can I fuck this used rubber into your hole? Fuck that’s slutty I thought. It’s not the first time it’s been done either. So I agreed and begged him to cream my hole and fuck that sleazy rubber into my slutty cunt. He wasted no time, he pulled out and placed the rubber over my hole then slowly pushed his dick back inside me taking the rubber with it. Once it was inside me he had his fantasy and he fucked away hard and fast. It wasn’t long before he was ready to dump his load and by then I was begging him to breed my slutty cunt. He did just that and shot his hot load deep inside me with the rubber too! When twisted horny fukka!

Chapter 1 - So it begins My friend Dave decided he wanted to do something special for me for my birthday. We’ve played together a lot in the past and had only recently started partying together. The last time we met, we smoked a good amount, and he fucked me, bred me and played in my ass. For the birthday event, he told me to plan for a few days of time off since he wanted to get me really spun. I was able to get a few days off from work, so I told him we’d be all set. I did a deep clean in the morning and a touchup later. Dave told me to show up at his house around 8. He has a playroom in the basement, with a sling and fuck bench, lots of toys, and some fetish clothing. The basement has a door to the outside at the back of his house. I got there, and Dave and I went down to the playroom. I stripped down to my Nasty Pig jock. Dave wanted me to wear one of his harnesses, so I slipped that on too. He had a pipe packed already so we lit the torch and started taking some deep hits. Dave can get hard even when he’s spun, so I hopped in the sling and put my feet in the stirrups. Dave rimmed my ass for a while, getting me ready for his cock. He has a great cock for my ass. It’s not really long, about 7”, but it’s really thick. He knows how to get my ass ready for his thickness before he shoves it in and then he can fuck for a long time. He has a nice hairy chest and a trimmed beard so I like that I can watch him as he fucks me deep. After a good rimming session, Dave decided that we should get a few more hits in so that I was really horny for his dick. He propped up my head so that I was able to stay in the sling while we smoked. After a few hits, we were both flying high. Dave put down the pipe, slid a freshly opened bottle of poppers within my reach, and stepped between my legs. While we gazed into each other’s eyes, he slowly slid his well lubed cock in my ass. Since he had rimmed me before, I was pretty opened for him. Dave really knows how to fuck. His cock has a nice mushroom head, so he’ll pull almost all the way out, then hold it there to stretch my hole before driving it back in to me. He changes the rhythm, and I can switch up my position in the sling so that his cock hits the walls of my ass differently. One of the other great things about getting fucked in a sling is that it lets me ride cock easily too. I was swinging back and forth on Dave’s dick and getting it in as deep as possible. I had reached down to let him in as deep as possible while sliding back and forth on his cock. I didn’t hear the door open, but I heard the distinctive click of the torch behind me. Then, a mouth was on mine, shotgunning a hit to me. I took in the hit, shared some back and started making out with the new guy. Still didn’t know who it was but I was feeling good and welcomed another guy to the party. When he pulled back, it turned out it was our buddy, Chris. We had all played before but never partied together. I smiled at him, and he gave me a knowing look that was also full of lust. Chris was wearing a chest harness that connected to his metal cock ring. He looked hot as fuck in the gear, with the harness nicely framing his pecs. He has a hairy chest and ass and loves to get his hole eaten. His hard cock was sticking straight out, with a drop of precum on the tip. I motioned him over and licked the head of his dick to taste the sweetness. Lucky for me, Dave had taken over control of the fuck and was still filling my hole with his thick cock. I got Chris’s cock all the way into my mouth so now I was being spit roasted by two hot studs. Dave and Chris started to make out when I realized that they were also sharing some smoke. On one of the hits, Chris pulled his cock out of my mouth and shared the smoke with me, followed by another passionate kiss. Dave pulled out of my ass and lowered my jock to suck my T dick. Even though it doesn’t get too hard, it’s still great to get it sucked. Chris then moved down and knelt before my ass and started rimming my well fucked hole. Now, I was getting sucked and rimmed at the same time, so I just laid back and enjoyed myself for a while. Chris had started to finger my ass, getting 3 fingers in. He was really working around my ass, in and out, and working around the hole. He pulled out and his relubed fingers worked back into my ass. This time, I felt a burn since he deposited a shard in my ass. Getting booty bumped is a favorite of mine but I’d never played like this with Chris. Then, Chris stood up and started teasing my hole with his cock. He has a longer and only slightly thinner cock than Dave. He usually cums pretty fast after getting in my ass so he likes to play around the hole, sticking the head in, then swirling around the outside. He worked around and just inside my hole, spreading lube and precum, then slowly slid all the way in. He got in easily since I was well fucked and relaxed. And spun. Chris had been fucking me for a surprisingly long time. Dave had moved up to feed me his cock which I happily cleaned off and sucked. He moved behind me so that I could also work his balls into my mouth. He likes having his balls sucked and I think the view while I’m doing that is awesome. Eventually, Chris pulled out. He still hadn’t cum, which was kind of odd for him. He helped me out of the sling for a brief rest and some hydration. Dave poured out some sports drink for us all and we sat on the sofa to take a break. I was in the middle and both of them took turns fingering around my hole. We smoked a little more and then I got back in the sling. Dave had lowered the head a little bit. This meant that while he was fucking me again, Chris was able to come around to my head, turn around and feed me his ass. He has a really hot ass. It’s got just the right amount of fur, and he has a hole that reacts to my tongue. I’ve managed to work my tongue really deep into his ass in the past, but this position didn’t allow for deep penetration. One of the other fantastic things about eating Chris’s ass is that he has an amazing natural smell. It’s a little musty and sweet and I love burying my face in his hole, knowing that his smell will stick to my face and beard for a while. My neck started to hurt from the weird position, and I was getting some crazy head rushes too, so Chris moved away and helped to raise my head back to a normal position. Dave decided to pull out and play with my ass again. Once more, I felt the burn of a shard that he deposited in my ass. Chris got back between my legs and started to finger my hole. Dave came up to let me suck his dick, but I needed to take some breaks from his cock since Chris was making my ass feel great. He was working in and out, and spreading his fingers when he was inside me. I was enjoying the sensations and reached down to spread my ass wider for him. I worked my hands over to my hole and was surprised to find that Chris had all his fingers in me and was working my hole with his thumb. We locked eyes and he checked if I was OK with what was going on. I nodded an enthusiastic yes so he kept working his thumb around my hole.

ALWAYS ALWAYS Deep inside my ass and i love keeping cum inside me all night so its stronger smelling in morning..........love that smell after my ass has incubated it.

It's got to be deep inside me. I want to be bred and seeded. And his seed stays there too.

I fuck bare. I shoot deep inside. No pull outs ever. I turn down covered fucks and guys wanting bb but pull outs. I want you to take my seed and keep it inside as long as possible. The bottoms I fuck desire seed. They work for it and will get it from me. Sometimes more than one load! It’s so natural!

I’m just curious how you guys see yourselves and your penis. For me my dick controls my life haha not in a bad way but more in an extension of my primal being. I have never and will never wear a condom because I believe that shooting my seed in someone is such a primal and natural act. When I go on a hike I’ll stop in a clearing and jerk off, same for if I’m staying in a hotel. I need to leave a piece of me everywhere I go. In everyone I fuck. I would genuinely fuck anyone and anything, and I fucking love doing it. If the aliens came to earth tomorrow I’d probably want to shoot my load in their alien cunts haha. My seed is a little part of me that I feel needs to be shared with the world. Any other dudes feel the same?

Part 1. First, some background information. Me and my husband Max have been together for 8 years, 6 of which have been married. We are both around 30 years old. I am 30 and Max is a year younger. Our life is really good and we have fun together. We have a lot of friends and we travel a lot during the holidays. We spend a lot of time together and do a lot of different things together. But... There is one thing that is not perfect. My sperm hunger. For the first 4 years I was able to keep it quiet, but the need for strangers' sperm only got stronger. It grew inside me. I realized that I always looked first at the man's crotch. Ohh, what a big bulge that man has. I realized that I was jealous of every bottom boy in a porn movie who got a raw cock and loads of cum in his ass. I had tried to subtly talk to Max about it, but he didn't want to hear me. He was definitely of the opinion that marriage is only an agreement between two people and does not include other people. My cheating started unintentionally 4 years ago. I was at an optometrist and a 50-year-old male optician gave me vision tests. Every now and then my eyes strayed to the man's crotch, which seemed to be bulging out nicely. After the tests, the optician rested his own hand on his bulge and rubbed it lightly, looking me straight in the eye. Finally he asked if I liked what I saw. I nodded shyly, and admitted that I liked it. The optician said that if I want, I can also examine in more detail. Timidly, I reached out and felt the optician's hot bulge. "Open the buttons," the optician commanded. I obeyed. I opened the buttons and the big pouch of the optician's underwear was sticking out of the pants. "Lick it," was the command. I obeyed again. I greedily licked the pouch of the optician's underwear and bit through the fabric with my teeth on his hardening cock. "Take it out," ordered the optician. I did so and immediately took the man's hot cock straight into my mouth. I started sucking cock like there was no tomorrow. "Oooh, you greedy slut," said the optician. The man fucked my mouth hard. The cock wasn't terribly long or thick, but the man's testicles were big and juicy. I held the bags and caressed the testicles as the cock moved in and out of my mouth. "Get up and turn around," the optician commanded me again. I obeyed like a sheep. When I turned around, the man would pull my sweatpants and underwear down to my knees with one jerk. Immediately he placed his raw cock on my hole. Without asking anything, he pushed inside me. The man's raw cock was inside me. He hadn't asked if I wanted a condom. He just thrust into me with his bare cock. I screamed in pain, but the man growled at me "shut up bitch". "We don't want the whole house to find out what a whore you are". After a while, the man picked up the pace and squirted his sperm into my hole. I felt several injections in my gut. After emptying himself, the optician pulled away from my hole and buttoned his pants. "Well, now lift those sweatpants up and you can leave so I can continue my work," the optician said coldly. I pulled up my pants and left the optician's booth with my ass full of sperm. It was the first time I cheated on my husband.

Stopped by the bookstore after the gym and got seven loads. As soon as I walked in and got in a booth, even though it was dead and not many in the store, I heard the door close. I put my ass against the hole and had a ten inch dick buried in my hole immediately. He worked me for about five mins and I think came twice in me, definitely once though as he pulled out and I was dripping. After a bottom tries to put his ass against the hole to get me to top him, I was about to leave before I felt his rock hard dick against my hole and slid in. I guess he gave up me breeding him. He started pumping my hole and shot another huge load in me. After a few other guys heard the wall movement from fucking, I ended up with another couple hung dicks and some smaller ones that shot huge loads. Left me dripping when I left. Definitely worth the 45 minutes.

My last load was Wednesday. It was a rematch with a super sexy (well, I think he is...) big hairy bear top, about my age (we've each got just a bit of gray), married on the DL. Our chemistry is fucking amazing... I let him in and we kiss and I can feel it instantly. I hope he can, too. I'm hard as a rock in seconds. I get him upstairs and he offers poppers, which are just the dregs, so I make a quick run to the fridge to get mine. And we're getting naked and on the bed ASAP. Kissing and heavy body contact - he's really a big guy, but all over, not just in the belly - maybe 6'1" and 250# or a bit more, and lots of fur. My cup of tea. And I've lost some weight this year so I actually feel enveloped in his hug, and we're playing with each other's nipples (his are wired), and, yeah, more of that! I suck him for a while - he gets hard nicely even without a cock ring (lucky him), and then we flip around and he sucks me... and puts his hand around back, which makes me melt. So he rolls me over and plows me... And fuck is that good! Just a little lube to get him in - I'm tight but very hot for it - and then he's inside and fucks me on my belly for a good while, and then on my side. Then he comes out and we're kissing some more. At some point he says, "how does your boyfriend ever let you out of his sight?" - so I guess the chemistry is good for him, too. He's on his back, so I climb up on top and ride him. Ride him hard, leaning back, and he's super into it, and I love this because I can look at his face (looking into a guy's eyes when we're fucking is one of my hot buttons). And I lean into it and I'm so wanting his load but I'm not getting him over the edge, quite, and then suddenly I'm the one who's going over the edge and I'm cumming. Hard and long, all over his belly and chest, in fountains. He tells me to lick it off him, and I do... bitter tasting. And we're kissing some more and he's stroking and suddenly he's getting close and I try to hop back on and take his load, but I'm too slow and he shoots it all over where mine was. So I lick that off, too, and it tastes very different, rather sweet. Fuck, I needed that! It was a little disappointing not to get bred, but hell, I'll take it - fireworks sex is always good! We agreed that we must do it again soon. Hope he remembers (he won't give me his number).

I’ve been barebacking ever since I lost my virginity back when I was in high school. I only learned how good bareback sex was from a 29 year old that I hooked up with on the regular. After that I pretty much fucked only raw with a few exceptions. I honestly got hooked to it pretty early on, and I don’t think I could use condoms on the regular.

To be clear: I agree, but I consider the rise of apps part of the shift away from bathhouse culture. In other words, the two broad factors I see are (a) the headwinds that bathhouses have faced externally - increasing rent, gentrification, HIV/COVID/Mpox restrictions, etc., and (b) the decline in demand because the product is no longer as broadly wanted as it once was. I think pretty much every reason for the decline can be grouped into one of those two baskets, even those not yet mentioned, if any.

Ok, so 99% of the time I’m just a horny insatiable bottom that wants and needs an anonymous fuck. But funny enough I find myself just wanting to eat ass for hours on end. (Not while being topped or giving or receiving head). But just going to a guys house finding him ass up and wanting to dig my face and tongue into hiss ass for long periods of time then leave. And if his ass is pre-loaded even better. Is this common or just me being piggy.

The Private Party So I was on that barebacking site, you know which one. I just happened to look at the Private Parties section. Usually these are organized by a bottom guy who is looking for tops and doesn't really want any other bottoms there. This time I was pleasantly surprised to find a party where not only was the organizer a versatile top, most of the other people signed up to attend were or were tops or versatile. And it wasn't just a couple of attendees, there were already 8 people signed up. I started to look at the profiles of the organizer and the other attendees. Very hot. I could already feel my little cock start to tingle in anticipation. I've always had a fantasy about showing up at a party like this and when I get there being locked into a chastity device and then into the kind of bondage spreader bar which leaves a guy ass up and helpless to prevent anyone from using him as they see fit. I messaged the host for an invitation and asked him if it was OK if I was locked in a chastity cage and a spreader bar, He messaged me back saying I was invited and that would be great. I went to the toy/lingere store near where I live that carries a fairly large assortment of bondage toys. I picked out a spreader bar that looked sturdy. The lady at the counter gave me a wink and a smirk as I paid. So now I'm getting ready for the party. Taking a shower, shaving myself in all the right places. Applying good smelling lotion. Thoroughly cleaning myself out with many enema bottles. Lubing up my hole and sliding a large plug in. Putting on my cage and locking it securely in place. Putting on a jock so my ass will be exposed and ready. When I get there the host greets me at the door and recognizes me since I am carrying a spreader bar. When I am inside I strip down and remove the plus. He takes my clothes and the plug, putting them in a bag for safe keeping. tells me I can go set up in a corner and he'll have someone help me get locked up. He motions over a guy dressed in leather gear and asks him if he'd give me a hand. He says he would love to. We go over in the corner and I get down on all fours and he fastens my arms and legs to the spreader bar. I am now ass up and totally helpless to stop anyone from having free access to my hole. Other guys are milling around, a few are making out and I hear the moans and groans of others as they are sucking each other off or fucking. The guy admires his handiwork and gives my ass a smack. Other people seem to notice and soon a group forms. The leather guy starts to slide his hard, thick dick up and down my crack until the tip catches my hole, then he slides it in making me groan out in pleasure. He starts a slow in-out motion and his dick is long enough it is hitting my prostate and soon it is making my little cock confined in its cage drool pre cum. Someone notices and says "Look at that sissy clit drip!" while he reaches down and wipes some up with his finger and then puts it to my mouth making me taste my own seed. After a while the leather guy fucking me starts to pick up his pace, his low hanging balls which had been slapping my taint pulling up tight to his body and I know I'm about to take his load. As I feel his cock throb and his cum blasting deep inside me he bends down to my ear and says "did the host tell you that this isn't just a bareback party, it is a conversion party?" I cry out "No!", but I should have known because so many of the attendees had status "Ask me". He rests for a second and says "Well, now you know, and there was your first poz load". He barely has a chance to pull out before another guy starts sliding his big dick into my now well used hole. One by one guys pound my ass and fill it with their hot loads, many of them telling me things like that they had stopped their meds weeks ago in anticipation of this party. I can feel lube and cum dribbling out of my ass and down my leg every time one of them pulls out. I lose track of how many loads I take, but it has to be close to a dozen. Eventually I hear the host tell me the party will be ending soon and it is his turn. I feel his dick slide into my now stretched out hole, but he has to be one of the biggest I've ever taken because it still stretches me out more. He pounds me long and hard and then groans out as he cums, telling me he had been waiting to seed me all night and that his VL was very high so it was the guarantee that I'd be knocked up for sure. He and the leather guy then release me from the spreader bar and I am handed the bag with my clothes in it. I dress, my little cock still trapped in its cage and then drive home. When I get there I unlock my cage and as I'm pulling my little cock I get an email from the host inviting me to next month's party. I can't wait.

I know, I know, it’s all about getting our dick off. And I love the feeling of an intense orgasm, especially with my dick buried balls deep up ass. But my absolute favorite is eating ass. I can block out the rest of the world and give that man pleasure using only my tongue up his ass. I can spend hours with my face buried up an ass crack. Yet I always feel guilty because I know most guys consider rimming to be foreplay and they are hungry to get mounted and pounded. And don’t get me wrong, I enjoy fucking. But munching on an asshole is my ultimate. And when I’m jerking off to porn, that’s the scene that usually puts me over the edge and gets me to blast a huge load.

When I started fucking, everyone fucked raw; hiv had not yet arrived. There were a handful of guys that had fetishized using rubbers, but they were few and far between. Everyone fucked everyone else - it was totally commonplace, it was just the next step after shaking hands, saying 'hi, let's fuck' ...... and it was all raw.

Its gotta be in the ass... sperm should always be deposited in the ass !

My last loads happened just over a week ago at a local leather party. I had been excited for a bit as it was my first leather event in honestly almost a year, I spent the day getting ready, caught up with one of my friends who I'd never seen without a shirt off, let alone in a leather jockstrap like he planning was tonight, we arrived an hour into the event, and spent some time catching up with some other mates. after enough time for things to get busy I broke away and headed down to the play space that was set up, at first I sat on one of the couches and let a gorgeous daddy fuck my mouth and work over my gag reflex for a bit. Once he moved on I met eyes with a cute scruffy cub and worked on making sure he was hard before turning around and presenting, he slowly worked his way in before taking his time, his cock was about 6 inches long and just a bit above average, just perfect to open me up, he held onto my harness and about 5 minutes into it he pulled me tight against him and shot as deep as he could. I felt a few guys play with my cummy hole before someone an otter with a swimmers build pushed into me and turned my body so his who looked like a wrestler could fuck my face for a bit, the one who had pushed into me had a nice cock that I swear felt like all the veins were bulging so much I could feel with them with my ass, and his mates cock was thick and I could barely wrap my lips around it. The otter bred me within a few minutes before leaning in, "My friend is going to take a turn and plans on breeding you, but I wanted to make sure that you had enough lube to handle him, once you finish cleaning off my cock I want you to suck my nipples til I'm hard again. I'm going to start feeding you poppers as you need, just tap my thigh, just a warning if you stop him he won't start back up." I made sure to gag a bit more on the cock in my throat to try and get a bit more spit on it before nodding, before long they swapped ends, I started cleaning the otters cock and felt the wrestler get behind me and start probing my hole. I felt pain for the first time that night, he slowly and inexorably pushed his way in over the next minute and it felt like I was tapping morse code on the otter's leg and huffing the amyl as much as I could. Once they were in the waited for a moment before starting to work their way in and out, before too long they where pushing into me with a good speed, the otter moved me to his nipples, telling me what a good boy I was and how well I was doing, this continued on making me push back wanting to prove him right. The wrestler eventually started to speed up, I knew what was coming and wanted to be nothing but a good boy at that point. Before too much longer he started slamming into me with such force I almost tapped out before he held me painfully tight against him and grunted pulling me off his mate and kissing, biting and licking my neck. He thrust in me lazily after he finished loading me up for another half a minute churning his load, before abruptly pulling out and diving his face in for a taste, he then spun me round and made out with me, I could taste the loads I had taken and nearly came from that, both of them left shortly after. Once my eyes could focus again, I saw the cub from the beginning balls deep in my friend I had come with, my friend waved me over and congratulated me on my accomplishment, the cub stepped out and asked if I wanted a turn, my friend nodded so I let my aching cock lead the way and barely took 2 minutes to bust, especially after the cub pushed back into me and bred me again. My friend then got up and said it was only fair if he fucked me, I told him only if he bred me, which he enjoyed my ass for a bit before loading me as well. I ended the night with 5 loads, two from the cub, and one each from my friend, the otter and the wrestler. Honestly my most successful night ever and honestly not sure if I'm ever gonna be able to top it.

The sauna on Wednesday. I was at the back of the darkroom, leaning forward to play with a guy's cock in the hope I'd get it in me. In the meantime, someone else came up behind me and started playing with my arse. He had a bit of a fuck then moved away. Meanwhile, there was a guy to my left, watching all of this. I could just make him out, with the little bit of light that was in there. The guy was short and a little stocky. As soon as the guy who had been using my arse moved away, this guy came right up behind me and went to position his cock to fuck me. I grabbed it from behind, to help him find my hole. His cock wasn't particularly long, but it was really thick, uncut and had a curve to it. Once he was in, he fucked hard for a good few minutes. I could tell from his breathing he was getting close, so I begged him to load me up. In no time he was pumping his load into me. I held him in place for a bit, so I could milk his cock with my arse and drain every drop of cum from his cock. As soon as he pulled out, I clenched as quickly as possible, but a stack of cum still flooded out. It was obviously a massive load. I fucking love it when I reach underneath to check my hole and it's dripping. I was thinking of having a break from the sauna tomorrow, but now I figure the thought of getting lots more raw cock and cum in me is too hard to resist.

as a Bottom I want my Top to shoot his Big load Balls Deep then stay in as long as he can and not let the Cum leak out! That way my Body has a longer chance to absorb most of his DNA!

There is nothing new under the sun, as the saying goes. How common this is, of course, varies, but I don't think it's especially rare.

I like in my cumdump

How about y’all fuck me and then we vote on which feature is best?

From a top's perspective.... I want you to concentrate on the guy in your ass. I do love the look of a spit roast--but that guy in your mouth is really just getting his dick wet for his turn in your hole. I also really get off on the rotation of holes--so you can taste your ass on my cock, while the one you just got wet, is now pummeling you. And a note to tops who add their cock to your mouth as I'm fucking: Don't pull the bottom towards you and off my dick. It's not about you...yet. Move closer to us. Get your dick wet and then give him a load for me to fuck in on round two or three.

After hitting 30, the covid lock down hit hard and I gained a bit of weight. At the end of 2021, and coincidentally the end of Covid restrictions, I decided to eat healthier. Especially since my colleagues, who are in their 20's, are all buff and work out regularly. This comparison was even more glaring once we all went back to the office. I didn't rush though, I lost about 40 lbs in those two years by portion control for meals and occasional stationary biking. I'm back to my old weight of 120lbs. I'm a short thing and I've always been attracted to men who are taller, and usually older. My college days were spent hooking up with older tall men into tiny Asian boys. It was always safe though. I have been in a relationship with the man I love for several years now, but very soon into the start of it I realized I can't get everything sexually I wanted from him. For example, he is a total bottom. And while I love fucking him, sometimes I crave the days of being manhandled by someone and going balls deep in me. My boyfriend and I fuck bareback, so over the years, if I hook up with someone else it was always with a condom. And these hook ups were very few and far between and usually someone who I've hooked up with before. I don't have much trust in dating apps. About a several months ago, I hooked up with someone who kept insisting to fuck me raw. While I find the idea super hot, I declined. He tried to fuck me with a condom but he kept going limp. I can't blame him. I can't remember topping with a condom and I'm almost certain I'd go soft too. I started looking into PrEP as a just in case. I talked to my doctor about it and he agreed that while condoms are still the best choice, it won't hurt to add PrEP into my daily prescription/vitamin regimen. I've been taking it ever since but honestly haven't thought much about it. I haven't really had the urge to get fucked recently. Now at the present, I'm finally confident enough to go to a gym and get my body toned. I signed up for a membership close by, with my only intention being getting healthier. I checked in on a weekend at around 3pm and the place was relatively dead, which I like because I'm a total introvert and still a bit self-conscious. I did my thing for about two hours, very proud of myself and headed for the locker room. There was only one other person in there who I didn't pay much mind to. As I was getting undressed, I noticed from my peripheral vision that this person kept glancing at me. I wrapped my towel around my waist so I can pull off my shorts and boxer-briefs without going full monty. I gave him a quick glance and we made eye contact for a couple of seconds. He was this tall black guy about 6'4" with short hair, a set of wireless headphones around his head. He was probably early to mid 40's, I can't be sure. He was wearing a shirt with the sleeves and sides ripped to his torso. I can see his enormous pecs and I felt a slight tingle in my pants. As I was pulling off my underwear I lowered my gaze to his grey sweats and saw that something massive was bulging. I felt my hole twitch. I quickly turned around nervous cause I didn't want to get in trouble in case I was misunderstanding the situation. I tried to clear my head of all these thoughts and grabbed my toiletry bag and shoved my duffel in the locker and locked it. I kept my eyes down with one hand on the towel around my waist as I walked towards the shower. When I was about to get into the small hall with the showers and dressing room, I heard movement behind me and a deep voice says "Hey..." I turned and put on an indifferent expression and replied "Hey." He looked me in the eye and said "Do you go black?" My mind was racing now. Did I hear him correctly? Does he mean what I think he means? I asked "I'm sorry?" Pretending I didn't hear so he'd repeat it. My heart felt like it was gonna jump up my throat. "Do you go black?" he said again. I heard myself say "I'm not sure what you mean." I think I wanted him to tell me exactly what he meant so there was no room for misinterpretation. He gave a small smile and shook his head and said "It's ok. Nevermind." He turned and started to walk back to the lockers. I guess my acting dumb made him think he misread me and that I wasn't gay or something, cause if I was, how would I not know what he meant? I kinda started to panic cause his sexy body and that bulge in his pants made me crave getting pounded. I blurted "I do... I do, though" He smiled and walked closer towards me and glanced at the entrance, then his eyes swept the bottom of the stall doors to make sure there was no one else there. When he was satisfied that we were in fact alone he turned to me and whispered "Show me." I tentatively grabbed the ends of my towel with both hands then slowly peeled it off. I was embarrassed cause my dick was already precumming. But it seems he wasn't at all interested in my dick anyway cause he whispered "Turn around..." So I turned and show him my ass and I heard him take a breath. He glanced at the entrance again and said "Go into that one at the end" then walked back towards the locker rooms. I turned and knew he meant the big dressing room with the handle bars for the disabled. The shower stall doors are translucent frosted glass while the dressing rooms have solid black ones. And even though they have gaps between the door and the floor, the big dressing room has its wall with the bench obscured so even if people glance at the bottom of the door, they wont see legs as unless they actually stick their heads in and look to the side. I slowly walked towards it, my hands shaking. I put my toiletry bag on the bench, wondering if he wanted me to wait long, but as I turned around he was already entering the room with his duffel bag and locking the door behind him. I was so nervous I couldn't think. He bent down and placed his duffel on the floor then turned to face me. Being this close to him just drove home how much bigger he was than me and I thought that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. This man can split me in half. Especially after seeing his bulge this close. He put his hands on my shoulders and had me sit on the bench. His crotch is almost to my eye level as he pulled down his sweatpants. It fell out and I heard myself audibly gasp. It was huge. Lengthwise it was probably around 8-8.5 but it was the girth that scared me. I swear it was thicker than my wrist. He pulled my head towards it and I began to lick. I was afraid it wouldn't fit in my mouth. After some licking of the head, I certainly tried. It was a challenge to just get even half in my mouth cause of the thickness... but I knew I was loving it. I couldn't throat it but I did my best to give him please anyway I could. I looked up at him as I was vigorously sucking the head. He smiled down at me and whispered "Too big?" I nodded but kept on sucking. He motioned for me to stand up and turn around. Now I obviously wanted this but I started having second thoughts... not only because of his size but also because I didn't prep my ass for this as I was not expecting anything like this to happen on the first day I went to the gym. I honestly didn't really think this type of thing happen except in porn or movies. I stood up and whispered "I'm not really prepared for this down there... should I go prep first?" He had bent down to get a magnum from his duffel and whispered "It's ok, I just wanna feel it." He put his hand on my shoulder and turned me around, then put it on my back to lower it so I'm bent over the bench. I didn't see him get lube from his bag so I got even more worried I'd be taking that dick dry. I spat on my hand and rubbed it around my hole. I looked back and he had his condomed dick in his hand and spat a large amount of spit on it and spread it on his dick. He rubbed the head on my hole for a few seconds then slowly pushed it in. The pressure was intense. It felt like I was getting stretched to the limit and the spit didn't help at all. He felt me trying to run away so he held my hips tight with both hands. I wanted to scream. I can hear him whispering "Relax, you can take it, Relax." There was something about his girth and the plastic feel of the condom that was just creating friction, making the pain unbearable. He got about half way in and I jerked my ass away cause I couldn't take the pain anymore. I gasped and was breathing heavily. I quickly turned and plopped my ass down on the bench, afraid he'd try to stick it again. He looked down at me stroking his cock. "Too big?" he whispered. "Might be..." I said a little guiltily. He gave a sad smile and removed the condom and threw it on the ground. I was afraid he was too disappointed that he'd leave so before he could pull his pants up, if that was his intention, I grabbed his dick and started sucking on it again. We did this for a few minutes until he broke the silence. "Do you want this dick?" he whispered. I took his dick out of my mouth and said "Yes, sir" then went back to sucking it. "Stand up. You can take it. This is what you wanted." It really is. So I gave his prick one final suck, took a deep breath then stood up and bent over the bench again. He reached down for another condom and put it on. Then I realized I have conditioner in my toiletry bag. I pulled it out and squirt some in my hand and rubbed it around and in my hole. I felt the tip of his dick press against my hole. He put his right hand on my hip and put his left arm around my chest, probably to keep me from pulling away. I felt him slowly enter and gradually got most of it in. The conditioner definitely helped but there was still that plastic feeling friction but I endured through it. He nibbled my left earlobe as he works the last inches inside and then whispered "Does it hurt?" I nodded with a pained moan. He was all the way in now but barely moving. He pulled a couple of inches out then shoved it back in. I let out a hiss of pain and my body instinctively tried to pull away. But with how he was holding me there was no escaping. He licked the back of my neck then whispered "Are you clean?" as he gave another thrust. Breathing heavily I replied "Yes... I'm on prep. My doctor tested me for everything a couple of months ago before I can be on it..." "I see..." He said as he pulled out half way then gave me a hard thrust. I can feel my eyes start to water, and then I suddenly felt empty. He had pulled out. And I heard a snapping sound then saw him throw the condom next to me on the bench. I felt him spat on my hole and then heard him spat again, assuming to lube up his dick. I felt the warm head as he placed it against my hole and started rubbing it. It felt so fucking good. He then stuck the head in. No friction this time.., I just felt my hole widening to accept him. He shoved it all the way in and as it hit my prostate I let out a moan. He covered my mouth with his left hand as he slowly starts a rhythm. "Is this what you wanted?" he whispered in my ear. "Mmhmm" I mumbled through his hand on my mouth. He started to pick up the pace. "Are you sure you're clean?" he asked again as he moved his left hand to my hips and now using both hands to pull me into him with every thrust. "Yes" I replied. I was in a fog of pleasure. Every time he hit my prostate my legs wanted to buckle. "You wanna do a threesome? Get fucked by two guys?" he whispered. My eyes widened and pulled me out of my stupor for a moment. "Now?!" I whispered in shock. He gave a deep scoff and said "No... maybe next time we meet here again and I'm with my buddy." Before I can even answer he started to go even faster and I was lost to pleasure again. I could hear him starting to breathe faster and heavier. "You just wanted this dick raw didn't you?" he whispered. I couldn't really answer. I know in my head I wanted it raw. But everything that happened after I entered the locker room was totally unexpected. "You wanted to feel me raw didn't you?" he asked again when I didn't reply. "...yes, sir" I replied quietly, almost ashamed. He kept pounding me and asked for the third time "You're sure you're clean right?" "Yes." He nibbled on my neck and whispered "I'm gonna nut in you." My head went into overdrive of pleasure and panic. I wanted to push him off, or rather I knew I probably should've pushed him off., but I was in total ecstasy and just let him pound me even harder. He moved his hands from my hips and wrapped his arms around my chest. "Tell me you want it" he whispered short of breath. I was quiet for several seconds as he fucked me fast and hard and finally said "Please, come inside me" I heard him say "Yeah, beg for my nut." Then I felt him tense and felt his dick inside me uncontrollably throbbing. His dick felt so hot in my ass. It was the best feeling I have ever felt. I could hear his stifled grunts and I loved it. He gave me a few more deliberate thrusts, emptying everything in his balls inside me. He slowly pulled out flinching here and there cause of how sensitive his cock currently is. When he was all the way out I felt a drop of cum rolling from my hole down to my taint and balls. He was breathing heavily as he bent down and pulled a shirt out of his bag and carefully wiped his dick, grunting. I slowly turned and sat on the edge of the bench on my tailbone. I didn't want to plop my cum smeared hole on the bench. He threw the make shift rag back into his bag and pulled up his sweatpants. He looked down at me and smiled as he picked up his bag and said "I'm usually here weekends." Then opened the door, peeked down the hall for a second, and walked out closing the door behind him. I was stunned. I didn't cum but I felt fully satisfied. It's never happened before... I put the conditioner back in my toiletry bag and re-wrapped my towel around my waist. I walked out of the dressing room and into one of the shower stalls. I turned on the water and stood in the corner away from the stream. I then gave my hole a small push and his cum started to leak out and roll down my legs in earnest. It was a lot. And as I watched, I got hard again and jerked myself to completion. It seems my first gym trip was a total success. I'm definitely gonna be going every weekend now, and I'll be sure to clean my ass before leaving the house.

as i've told you - if you eat my ass, you own me. honestly - sometimes (if the top is good at it), it can be better than getting fucked. you just have to promise at the last minute, you ram your cock in so i get the load. best of both worlds.

I love eating ass, especially eating a tops ass, before he eats mine to fuck me!

I don't know how common it is among other bottoms, but I love eating ass and crave it when I'm horny. I've even hooked up with other bottoms just to be able to eat some ass.

Nice 💦

My hardwired piggy boy nips, work them gently and I’m putty in a man’s hand (especially an older daddy working them)

Breed me deep, paint my guts!

Fuck. I saw that. 🤪 I dictated my reply. “But there also are many bottoms …” by the time I noticed it, I was outside the window that allowed me to edit. 🤷🏼‍♂️

I'm with @gingerdaddyG. Without question, it has to be in me.

While I'm not ashamed of my sexual equipment at all, I think my filthy mind is probably the best sexual attribute. Without that, the rest wouldn't get nearly as much action.

After being bred, I love thinking that I’ve been knocked up and I’m carrying the top’s babies. Wish I could do it for real but the mpreg fantasy is a good substitute. Super hot if the top is in on it, too. Nothing like two determined people engaged in baby-making sex.

Fuck yea man. Although, I don’t see straight dudes as breeders, they hardly ever get any ass and they almost always wear a condom unless they have a wife/gf. My straight guy friends actually get very jealous of me when we go out because I always go home with a piece of ass and most of the times they don’t. I know for a fact I’ve gotten more girls and guys pregnant than they have combined

Very into mpreg here. With everyone I fuck, I pound their hole hard and deep enough for my load to shoot as deep as it can go and get bottoms pregnant

Long shot big any tips around this morn (thursS21) Im not starting work till later...plus indulged last night so I'm feeling very cum hungry. Hmu if you can host around the Hess village area.

Spike his mayo jar💧

As you live in London, I was going to suggest somewhere like the Vault or SBN, but I think that would be a little bit too much like jumping in the deep end. Why don’t you try a sauna such as Sweatbox or Pleasuredrome? It’s easier to take things at your own pace in a sauna than in a sex club/cruise bar, and build up to what you feel comfortable with. Of course, you could just use Grindr or one of the other apps and arrange a one-to-one: that’s probably where most guys looking for extra-curricular sex these days…

Flights booked!

I have topped but being a bottom I feel more complete when the top fills me and feeling a throbbing cock deep feels amazing. Love that my hole will twitch after a good fucking. Most of the time I cum as im getting fucked

Hello, I hear all these Bottoms saying that it's there responsibility to receive his seed and they worship him. That's not the case for me. When I am horny and wanting dick I don't care what's driving the dick. All I want is his First load deposited balls deep inside me. After that I get a warm (almost hot) feeling deep inside me and then an overwhelming sense of satisfaction. When that passes all I want is more, more, more. Then if the top can get it up again he can put the remaining loads anywhere he wants to for as long as he can. After that I am done with him. I don't give him a second thought. This is an absolutely true statement.

very hot profile

Part 30 - Race To Christmas The limousine pulled up to the clifftop house just outside Laguna Beach, it's position offering sweeping views across the small community of Laguna and the soft sands and surf of the beach front. Ben stood there and looked across the dreamy views and thinking how wonderful it must be waking up to this view every morning. Mark came round the limousine and put his arm around Ben, he could sense some trepidation in his manner. Mark looked Ben in the eye who just nodded to signify he was ready, Ben never imagined seeing his father like this was going to be so strange. Heike walked out on to the terrace to where Rob was sat waiting, he had been anxious for several days after all talking with someone on the phone then seeing them in the flesh for what must seem like an age was playing heavily on him. Would Ben still like him and did he even really know his son any more? Six years had been long and painful but it was the only way he could split from Margarite without being taken to the cleaners by her and demanding the 50 50 split. But on the flip side if he hadn't agreed he would never have moved to LA and met Heike or started his own business with her support, the fruits of which allowed them to live a really comfortable life. After all Margarite fell pregnant with Steven's child whilst he was still married but their love had dwindled for each other, Heike put her hand on Rob's shoulder. "I'm sure everything will be alright, what is playing on your mind Rob?" She asked rubbing his shoulder. Rob stared out to sea "I never thought he would turn out to be gay Heike" he replied. She stopped rubbing his shoulder "That's not what is bothering you" she said. "It's just he is 19 and now getting married to a guy it is so unexpected" Rob replied turning his head towards her. Heike picked up the magazine off the table and handed it to Rob "That is him". Rob looked at the picture of Mark Davenport with his family "Wait he is marrying a Davenport?". "Yes, there are pictures on line of Ban and Mark from last night" Heike said fetching her laptop. Rob took the laptop and looked running his finger over Ben's picture "He does look somewhat scared". Heike laughed "Apparently Mark keeps a very low profile out east". Rob looked at her inquisitively "So you mean Ben probably didn't know who he was?". "That's my guess. But you can see the love in the picture Rob, just keep an open mind" she said kissing him. Rob heard a car pulling up to the front of the house and nervously looked at Heike as they both stood up and wandered through the house. The soft chimes rang out as Ben pressed the button, he ad a sense of role reversal from some six years ago as he watched his father on the door step walk away, he couldn't tell if he was now feeling some resentment towards him or just nerves. The door opened and Ben watched as the face of his father and Heike appeared as the door opening grew wider, 'Ben' Rob said looking at young man now standing in front of him. Ben looked back at his father 'Dad' he said quietly as the first tear drop escaped from his eyes, his legs carried him forward into the arms of his father breaking down and sobbing as six years of lost love surfaced and released themselves from his body. Rob hugged Ben tightly with tears running down his face, he couldn't believe how much Ben could have grown and changed. Heike patted Rob on the shoulder and walked past them towards Mark. "Hello Mark, I'm Heike" she said giving him a hug. "Heike, so good to meet you" he replied "Shall we go for a walk and leave them for a moment" he suggested. Heike nodded "Yes, Rob has been on edge for several days now". Ben's emotions flowed over and over and he couldn't stop welling up and crying sitting with his father talking whilst Mark and Heike strolled along the beach leaving them to catch up. Rob spent a good deal of time going through in more detail about the divorce so how Steven would often put the block on him visiting sin he had to relinquish custody, a burden he had to shoulder in order to get the divorce over with quickly. Ben listened and told him he did not hold a grudge and that he was happy to be back in his father's life. When Heike and Mark returned Ben offered to help Heike prepare dinner so that Rob and Mark could get to know each other. As they sat on the terrace overlooking Laguna and eating dinner they talked about how Mark and Ben had met and discussed the upcoming wedding, Ben knew that if his mother came to the wedding it would be the first time his parents would be together but he needed to have his mother and father at the wedding. Ben listened to how his father had built up his successful retail business and that Heike was an interior designer much in demand around Orange County. Mark admired the modern and stylish interior of their home where everything seemed to fit to perfection, he joked that if they ever moved to the west coast she would be the person to style their home. Ben laughed but also a strange deja-vous feeling came across him that the joke would not end up being a joke, inside he actually quite liked the idea of living in California. To quickly the evening was over and they stood outside the front of the house saying their goodbyes as Ben and Mark climbed in to the limo and Jackson drove them back to Liongate. Mark turned to Ben "I like your father and step mom, Heike is quite a lady when we were out walking". Ben nodded "Did she say anything about my mother and step dad?" he asked. Mark held his hand "Not a lot, just mostly how it tore your father apart when he couldn't see you". Ben rested his head back in the seat "I never really understood how emotionally attached I am to my father". "It shows great strength of bond ship, that's what makes you so perfect in my eyes" Mark said squeezing his hand. Ben looked at him "So happy though, and he is happy for us and he likes you" he said smiling. Mark leaned over and kissed Ben "Heike is nice, maybe we will get her over to Larchmont to do our house". Ben smiled "As long as my father comes as well". Their few days remaining in LA seemed to go by in a flash, the days they spent sunbathing and going to the beach. It was becoming a fairly common practice to be recognised around Bel Air as anyone who is anyone kept up to date with the gossip, even when Ben was coming out of the sea alone a stranger walking past recognised him and congratulated him on his engagement. He still found it strange a little but was slowly getting use to it and often people would want to stop and casually talk as if they were life long friends, something that rarely happened out east since everyone was in a hurry. Their last evening they sat in the lounge with David whilst Maddy was checking emails before coming back to join them. "David we really need to get this assistant and PR sorted out we have over 50 emails" Maddy said joining them in the lounge. David nodded "We will" he replied noticing Ben looking strangely "Our last one left for a film star". "It's what they do here sniff around for the next good job, mind you she was useless" Maddy informed Ben. David nodded "A few of us in the East Gate compound have talked about forming a company to do our PR things but nothing has happened yet". Mark stood up "Well we have an early flight in the morning guys, come on Ben". Mark and Ben left for bed and some baseball cap time, Ben's head was still buzzing with everything going on as Maddy and David spent much of the time with Ben and Mark as they wanted Ben to fit in like family and not be afraid of the trappings life would now afford him. As they left for the airport in the airlines limousine nearly all the planning was complete partly due to Mark and Ben just agreeing and loving what the planners suggested, but they trusted Maddy to make the right choices as well whilst they went back home. Mark sat looking at Ben on the flight who seemed a little down "Are you going to tell me what's wrong?". Ben looked at Mark "Nothing wrong, it just feels sad to leave I had such a great time" he replied. "We can come here as much as you want Ben" Mark said looking at him. Ben tried to assess what Mark was thinking "You want to move back LA?" he asked. Mark took his hand "I miss the climate but I would only move here if I knew you really wanted to". Ben smiled "I don't know Mark, I want to enjoy life with you and our friends". Mark kissed him on the head "Ben if you ever want to move to LA you only have to ask" he said. The rest of the flight they both slept and behind his appearance Mark was the happiest he had ever been, knowing that his parents completely loved Ben was the biggest present he ever could have wanted. It took a while but Ben did seem to adjust and be comfortable at Liongate, after his initial shyness around the servants he soon joked and laughed with them and Pedro just loved having them both in the house bringing back that naughty element that Mark and Pedro use to get up years ago. Tired and exhausted from their trip they finally walked in to their home just as it was getting dark. A cold wind was blowing and the threat of a snow storm was looming, whenever a snow storm was mentioned they would both look at each other and laugh fondly remembering the night in the Chatwell Hotel. Ben still had a few days off before he was going to start work with Angelo and Mark whilst continuing with his education. The following morning Mark was showered and ready for work walking back in to the bedroom he looked at Ben who was dozing on and off. "What are you doing today?" He asked Ben. Ben turned over on to his back "Meeting Ethan he wants to hear about LA". Mark leaned over and kissed him "Don't forget we have dinner at theirs tonight". Ben smiled and looked at him "Why do you work, you know having what you have?". Mark stroked the side of Ben's face "Keeps me occupied and I can keep an eye on Angelo". Ben laughed "Will you keep me occupied as well when I start?". Mark moved Ben's hand away from his groin "Stop it otherwise I will be late". Ben leaned up and kissed him "I'm horny". Mark laughed "I will but the baseball cap on tonight after dinner" he said winking at Ben. Ben giggled he really did love Mark's jock look and he knew that meant he would get a good pasting in bed tonight for several hours. They kissed several more times before Mark left for work and Ben slept for another few hours before eventually getting up, he showered and wondered over to meet Ethan. They cobbled a breakfast together and sat chatting for several hours mostly about LA. Ethan was excited listening to Ben "So tell me about this house what was it Liongate?" he asked. Ben nodded "It's massive Ethan, I've never seen anything like it, so big, so many rooms". Ethan smiled "You seem to be quite taken by it from what you have said". he replied. "It was nice and relaxing and his parents were so kind to me" Ben said eating toast. Ethan looked at him "Are you going to move there?" he asked. Ben shrugged his shoulders "I don't know Ethan, Mark seemed so happy to be there plus it is close to my father". "You miss him?" Ethan asked. Ben nodded "I never thought about it that much but seeing him made me realise how much I still love him". Ethan sat pensive for a moment "You have to do what is right Ben, LA would mean an amazing life". "I know but it's not about what we can have, it's what I want and that's Mark wherever it will be" Ben said. Ethan came around and kissed Ben on the mouth several times "I would miss you if you did, I feel like we have a much closer friendship now". "I've always loved you Elfy and you still hold a special place in my heart" Ben replied looking in to Ethan's eyes. Ethan started clearing things away "I think our lives would have been very different Ben, anyway it's only a plane hop away". Ben laughed "Six hours away is a long way, anyway I don't know what I would do out there". Ethan chuckled "Just be loved and spoilt rotten that's what I would do". "Sounds awful when you put it like that. What if I get bored?" Ben said amusingly. "You bored!" Ethan laughed "Just travel that will keep you busy" he continued laughing. Ben laughed with him "Nah, I don't want to live like that, I told Mark he has to the house here". Ethan looked seriously at him "You have?". "Yes, I like Larchmont, it has you all here and it is how I want to live, simple but loving" Ben said reflectively. Ethan shook his head "You are so messed up Ben" he responded laughing. Ben stood up "Come on let's go for a stroll in to town and get a coffee". They grabbed their coats and walked out on the street as a few snowflakes gently fell around them, turning the street they walked through the public gardens leading up to town and spotting a lone figure sat on a bench hunched over as if trying to keep warm. As they got closer the person looked up and they were both surprised to see it was Josh. "Josh" Ben called "what are you doing sat here in the cold?" he asked. Josh nodded "Hi" he responded in a sombre voice. Ben sat down next to him "Still hurting?" he asked. Ethan sat down the other side of Josh as he nodded "Josh you really have to forget about him". Josh looked at Ethan "I know, but it goes way deeper than I thought, I know I can't have him" he responded. Ben patted his knee "Come and have a coffee with us and get out of the cold for a while". They stood up and walked in to town and the Grounded Bean coffee shop which was their favourite little coffee shop run by a gay couple Eric and Morley, as they stepped inside they saw it was busier than usual probably down to the cold blast battering the east coast. Morley was running around serving and Eric was playing barista, they all knew each other by name but that was pretty much it, he waved to signify he had seen them coming in but strangely he stood and smiled for a moment then carried on serving. Morley went behind the counter and spoke to Eric who looked over and the 3 lads briefly and nodded before turning his back but obviously talking to Morley. Josh plonked himself down on a seat and took his coat off followed by Ethan and Ben. "Thanks guys" Josh said with a feeble attempt at a smile. Ethan leaned on the table "You are our friend Josh, we look out for each other" he said. Ben nodded "Absolutely and we are hear to listen if you want to talk". Ethan saw Josh smile "I wonder what those two were gossiping about" Ethan said nodding in Eric's direction. "Probably got the hots for us" Josh remarked causing them all to laugh. Morley came up to the table "Hello boys, What will it be?" he asked focusing his attention on Ben. "Three lattes please Morley" Ethan responded noticing the look he was giving Ben. "Oh, right sorry three lattes" Morley repeated "And how are things Ben?" he asked. Ben didn't know what to make of the question "Err okay" he replied furrowing his eyebrows. Morley nodded "Your boyfriend not with you today?" he asked. Ben shook his head "No he is at work" he said. Morley smiled "He works?" he asked looking shocked "I wouldn't have thought he needed to". "Oh" Ben said suddenly understanding that they must know about Mark "Keeps him busy" he said. "Hmmm" Morley replied "There was two people here looking for you about an hour ago". Ben looked at Morley "For me, who where they?" he asked. "Reporter and photographer, they were asking all sorts of questions about if we knew you" Morley said. Ben looked at Ethan and Josh "Mark said this might happen" he said to them as Morley went to get the coffees. Morley put the drinks down "Don't worry we told them we didn't know or saw you around here". Ben breathed a sigh of relief "Thanks Morley". "It will only buy you a little time, they will be back I expect" Morley said and left them to serve other customers. Josh scratched his head "Did I miss something?" he asked looking at them both. Ben went and got the pile of magazines on the table by the door and found the article and photos and showed Josh, this cheered him up immensely making fun of Ben in his dinner suit. Coffees finished they put their coats on and headed outside in to the cold air, the clouds where looming darker and snow was falling steadily. They decided to go back to Ben's for the afternoon and that way he would be off the streets and hopefully not recognised. He found it all a bit weird but funny at the same time, Josh swapped hats with Ben which covered most of his face making him more discreet. Thankfully the snow was coming down heavier and most cars and people had cleared the streets by the time they reached Ben's place. Josh took his coat off and joined Ben and Ethan in the kitchen making hot chocolate. "So have you moved in now?" Josh asked Ben as he sat down. Ben nodded "Pretty much so I have a few things still to collect from home". "Your both so lucky" Josh said "and tell me what was his house like in LA?" he asked. Ben laughed "Well this place has 4 bedrooms in LA they had 11 guest bedrooms". "Get out" Josh laughed "that many, it must be a palace" he remarked. "Almost, anyway you will be staying there, that is if you come to our wedding" Ben said looking at him. Josh looked down "I doubt I can afford it unless my parents cough up, wages at the shop don't pay well". Ben looked at Ethan than back at Josh "Nonsense your coming and you will spend Christmas with us there". Josh looked embarrassed "I can't let you do that, I will find a way". Ben stood his ground "No let me sort it out for you, write your full name down" he pushed a piece of paper in front of Josh. Josh wrote his name down then looked up "Will Franco be coming?" he asked looking sheepish. "I don't know, he said he would try but can't confirm yet" Ben replied. Ethan sat next to Josh "Anyway you have to come" he said then looking to Ben "make sure he is on our flight". Ben had a quick conversation with Mark whilst they sat in the kitchen where he told Ben the dinner plans have changed to be at theirs to avoid him going out and getting spotted. Ten minutes later Mark called back and told them Josh was booked on the same flight as Ethan and Angelo and the car will pick him up 5am on the 24th December before picking the other two up. Josh was more like his old self at hearing the news since he had never been to LA or California. Mark also booked the flights for Ben's mother and step father as Ben had to relent over inviting his step father at Mark's persistence. Ethan refilled the cups with more hot chocolate "I guess we have to buy presents". "Why is that?" Josh asked looking at Ethan. "We are spending Christmas all together" Ethan said "Nothing serious just fun presents". Ben chuckled "Yeah we should, all of us as a group have our own little Christmas". Josh smiled "Sounds great, hope I can find me some muscled beach bum to shag whilst there". Ben and Ethan cracked up laughing "You might like Pedro" Ben said without thinking if he was gay. "Pedro?" Josh asked sitting up in his chair just as the door bell rang. Ben looked at them both "Who is out in this weather" he stopped "Ethan will you answer it" he asked. Ethan nodded "Yes of course, stay in the kitchen" he said as he walked through to the entrance hall. Josh called out "If they are sexy bring them in I need to sex them" he laughed. Ethan opened the door on the security chain "Hello" he said staring at the attractive guy covered in snow. "Hi, sorry to bother you but is Benjamin Midler-Warren at home?" Bobby asked. Ethan somewhat mesmerized by him paused for a moment "Sorry Benjamin who?". "Midler-Warren" Bobby repeated. "I'm sorry I think you have the wrong house this is my families home" Ethan replied. Bobby looked at Ethan "Are you his brother?" he asked. Ethan couldn't stop looking at his eyes "No, my half brother is here but not called Ben". "Are you sure, you just called him Ben not Benjamin?" Bobby asked trying to look around Ethan inside. Ethan could have kicked the door at his slip up "If you don't leave I will call the police" he said. "Sorry I am just trying to do a piece on him, I knew this was a stupid story to take on" Bobby said. Ethan was beginning to loose patience "Anyway who the hell are you dude?". Bobby shuffled in his pocket and handed Ethan a card "I'm Bobby from Out magazine". Ethan tried not to sound as if he heard about it "What is that?". Bobby smiled "A magazine and you know what type it is" he winked at Ethan. Josh came in to entrance hall "Close the door Elf it's getting cold in the house". Ethan nearly burst out laughing "That is my half brother Harry" it was the first name he could think of. "Whose at the door anyway" Josh called out and making himself visible to Bobby. Ethan shrugged his shoulders "Dunno some guy whose looking for a Midler-Warren dude". "Tell them to go away and close the door Elf" Josh said as he caught a glimpse of Bobby. It was only a glimpse but it was long enough for Bobby to smile at him, Ethan watched Bobby who just stood there and looked past him to Josh. Ethan had already guessed that Bobby was probably gay but the look between them confirmed what he thought. Bobby returned his gaze to Ethan "Well if you do happen to see Harry, sorry Benjamin give him my card". Ethan watched as Bobby walked down the path "He has gone" he called out closing the door. Josh stood there "Did you see him, oh such a dream boat" he said drifting away with the fairies. Ben stood there "Your like a sex maniac Josh". Ethan handed Josh the card "I think he wants you to call him Josh". "This is so awkward" Ben said giggling. Ben looked at the card "Out magazine, blimey that's the gay magazine and they found where I live". Josh handed Ben the card "Either luck or he knew what he is doing". Ethan was looking out the window "I don't think he does he is looking at the other houses". Ben sent a text to Mark telling him about the guy and he got a response back saying hold fire before he got a second text a few minutes later telling him that Maddy had only agreed a wedding exclusive with the magazine. Ben called Mark to ask if he should speak to this guy and get him to arrange a proper paid interview, Mark laughed down the phone at the suggestion and telling Ben he was a chip off his mothers block but said yes they could do one but he must promise never to talk about Liongate as it was a private home, before he hung up he said they were leaving early due to the snow fall and would be home in half an hour. Ben looked them both "Do I call him?". Josh looked at Ben "What did Mark say?". "He said I could invite him over as they are on their way home" Ben said looking between them. Ethan turned facing away from the window "It's trusting him though, he is a journalist". Ben handed the card to Josh "You call him I will in to the office off the kitchen when he arrives". Josh took the card "Are you absolutely sure Ben?". Ben nodded "Yes" he replied as Ethan turned watching Bobby across the street and reaching in to his pocket. "Hi Bobby it is Jo.. Harry here" Josh said stamping his feet at the mistake. Bobby laughed down the phone "Hello Harry or whoever you are" he said, Ethan watched Bobby looking at the house. "Why you still on the street?" Josh asked. Bobby paused for a moment "You tell me Harry, why do you think I am here?" he asked. Josh walked around the lounge "Are you gay as you work for that magazine?". Ben sat on the stairs laughing "Josh you are so discreet". Bobby laughed "Why do you want to know Harry?" he asked as silence fell "Do you want to fuck?". Josh chuckled "Erm no I don't think so, well not just yet anyway" he replied trying to play it cool. "Sorry had to get it out there" Bobby said light-heartedly. Josh sat on the sofa "Do you want to come up to the house and dry off?". Bobby sighed "Looks like a bad lead anyway on this guy so yes if you don't mind". Ethan smiled at Josh "He is quite stunning Josh from what I saw of his face". Ben hid in the office off the kitchen, Josh waited until he closed the office door and opened the front door and invited Bobby in. He stood just under six feet tall his face adorned by a closely cropped beard giving him an otter like appearance, Josh took his coat and hung it up in the closet and waited as he took his hat off. His black hair was ruffled but fairly short and Josh could now see he was definitely around Mark's age, but it was his blue eyes that really sparkled and contrasted against his black hair and beard. Josh invited him through to the kitchen watching what looked like a lean torso with unmistakable muscle definition under his jumper. Bobby looked Josh and gave him a very bewitching smile that almost made Josh fall over from sheer lust. Bobby followed Josh "So is it really Harry or something else". he asked as Josh pointed to a seat. Josh was captivated by him "Yeah my name is Joshua but most people call me Josh" he said. "I like that better than Harry, what about Elf here" he nodded to Ethan. Ethan laughed "People call me Elfy or Ethy" he said watching him closely. "Would you like a hot chocolate Bobby?" Josh asked grabbing a mug. Bobby looked at Josh "Yes thank you it is very kind of you to invite me in" he said watching Josh go red. "So Bobby what is it you are doing, I mean looking for this guy?" Ethan asking to get back on track. Bobby turned to him "Oh so my boss gave me the job to find him get some pictures and write an article". Ethan nodded "So who is he, someone famous?" he asked. "Well sort of, he is going to marry Mark Davenport, quite a well known socialite family from LA" Bobby replied. "So why are you looking around here?" Josh asked pouring hot water in to the mug. Bobby sighed quietly watching Josh "Well someone in town said he had just moved on to this street". "People on this street are quite private" Ethan said in response "So are you going from house to house?". Bobby nodded "I tried a couple and one said there was some young gay guys moved in here". "Here you go" Josh put the hot chocolate on the table making eye contact with each other. Bobby smiled "Thanks Josh" he said "But I can see it is you two that moved in here". "Sorry were not the one your looking for" Josh said sitting down fixated on Bobby. "That's okay, my boss says I have no umph or push for this journalist job" Bobby said disheartened. He continued "I always wanted to write for Out magazine and was freelance before but it didn't pay, then I landed this job and got a couple of good articles early on this year but nothing of interest since. I know the editor doesn't like me so he sent me on this job as a final chance knowing full well it will be my downfall". Ethan looked at Josh "That's not a very nice thing to do" he said. Bobby smiled "Unfortunately that is journalism, well my short foray in to it by the looks of it". Ben was texting to Mark telling him everything that was going on and how sexy looking this guy was and that Josh seemed quite interested in him. Mark suddenly remembered that his parents had lost their PA who did all their press bits and pieces and diaries. He sent a suggestion back to Ben to pass on to Ethan. Annoyingly Ethan's phone kept pinging and he apologised and read through the text messages and what he was being asked to do was very clear. Ben listened again through the door but what he couldn't see was through the silent gaps in the conversation Bobby was clearly eyeing Josh up. "Are you seeing anyone Josh?" Bobby suddenly asked out of the blue. Josh looked at him intently "No I am not in that space". "Oh right" Bobby replied looking intently at him. "He got his heart torn out by a straight Latino" Ethan said joining in the conversation. "Ah, I am sorry to hear that, did he lead you on?" Bobby asked purely out of interest. Josh shook his head "No stupidly I fell for him, we are friends but he has gone to Florida with his family". Ethan spoke up "Anyway finding Josh someone sensible is the current mission". Bobby smiled at Josh "I would probably be to sensible to the point of boring". Josh looked back at Bobby "Somehow I doubt that" he chuckled. Ethan rolled his eyes in grand gesture "So what are you going to do about the job, get fired?". Bobby shook his head "No, I already decided when wandering around that I would quit". Ethan nodded "You should do it, there are plenty of opportunities out there". "Sod it, today can't get any worse" Bobby nervously laughed. He picked his phone and dialled the magazine on speaker and got through to the editor's PA, he asked to speak to editor in chief and after giving his name he came on the phone. The conversation was brief as Bobby told him he quit and the editor who was noticeably annoyed from his voice replied thank god I don't have to fire you and he hung up. Bobby turned the phone in his hand. "Well that was too easy, he really did want me out of the magazine" Bobby said looking down at his phone. "Never mind I have a job interview lined up for you if your interested" Ethan said cryptically. Josh looked at Ethan "What is going on?" he asked. Bobby nodded to Ethan "Whatever it is I will take it" he laughed. Josh sat there "Well?" he asked to Ethan. "Bobby there is just one other thing that we need to come clean about and clear up" Ethan said looking at Bobby. Bobby looked curiously at Ethan "Please don't tell me you two are a couple?". Ethan chuckled "No but there is someone you have been looking for and wanting to meet" the door opened "this is Benjamin Midler-Warren". Bobby looked at Ben then Ethan "What is going on, I just quit my job" he stood up looking around the room annoyed. Ben came round to Bobby "Wait, I have an offer for you please sit down and I will explain". Bobby sat back down looking shocked "I've never been played like this before". Ben sat next to him "You can interview us and sell the story, even to Out magazine if you want". Bobby contemplated for a moment "Interview us you said?" he asked looking more confused. The front door opened as Angelo and Mark arrived and walked in hearing the slight commotion of raised voices coming from the kitchen. Mark smiled at Angelo telling him the boys obviously were having a difficult time with the journalist, so they walked in to the kitchen. Ben nodded "Bobby this is my fiancé Mark Davenport" he said nodding behind Bobby who turned his head. Bobby stumbled to his feet "No way" he said recognising him straight away "wow this is a pleasure, you are indeed him". Mark kept a straight face and held out his hand "Pleased to meet you Bobby and this is Angelo". Angelo shook hands with him eyeing him cautiously "Hello". Ben went to Mark's side "Angelo is Ethan's or Elfy's fiancé". Bobby scratched his head dumbfounded "So who lives here?". Mark laughed "Ben and I live here" he replied putting his arm around Ben's shoulder. "The boys and I will get dinner ready" Angelo said "You staying for dinner?" he asked Bobby. Josh looked at Bobby "That is Angelo's way of inviting you to stay" he said grappling with Angelo. "Bobby and I have to talk in the office" Mark said inviting Bobby to follow him "and you are staying". Mark closed the office door "We need to have a very frank and honest talk Bobby". Bobby nodded "Sorry Mark, I am not quite on your page about what?" he asked a little confused. "A job, quite a high profile one which I will tell you about later but I need you to be honest" Mark replied. Bobby nodded "Okay I have nothing to hide so fire away". Mark smiled "Tell me about any skeletons in your closet?". "One ex boyfriend who is now married and living in Australia, a few one night stands" Bobby said looking at Mark. Mark nodded "Drug use, partying, sorry I need to know everything" he expressed. Bobby nodded "Nothing, I go to some bars in the Village with friends but otherwise clean". Mark nodded "Anything tying you down preventing you from relocating?" he asked. Bobby shook his head "No my family are in Portland Oregon". Mark and Bobby continued their conversation inside the office and Josh was laying the table after Angelo and he finally stopped wrestling around, his eyes every so often would go to the office door wondering what they were talking about for so long as it was nearly an hour since they went inside and was now dark outside. Angelo placed a salad bowl on the table and saw Josh looking at the office door. "Okay Josh?" Angelo asked. Josh continued putting cutlery on the table "Yes I think so, what's going on?". Angelo smiled "I expect Mark is warning him about you". Josh stopped and looked at Angelo "I'm not that bad" he retorted chuckling. Angelo laughed "No about how we would protect you". Josh hugged Angelo "Thanks for making me welcome and looking out for me". Angelo kissed his head "Family Josh. Ethan stood there tapping his foot "When you have finished with by man" he laughed. Josh swaggered over to Ethan "Want to fight for him bitch". Ethan put the glasses on the table and smiled at Josh "Bring it on" he said lunging forward to Josh. Angelo stepped over the two of them rolling around on the floor play fighting making loud noises which caused Mark and Bobby to open the office door and look at them. Bobby smiled laughing "Now that is hot seeing these two fight". Mark put his hand on Bobby's shoulder "Wait till they get to the hicky biting attempts" Bobby watched Josh overpower Ethan with ease "It's quite arousing". Mark laughed "Surprised Ben hasn't jumped in, he is worse than Ethan". Josh had Ethan pinned to the floor "Come on Barbie doll fight back, oh wait you can't" he said laughing. Mark and Bobby went back in to the office and closed the door as he pointed to the two seats at the computer desk. Bobby was nervous as hell as he was about to speak to David and Madeline Davenport, he was still a little in the dark about what he was being interviewed for so he just went with the flow. Josh got Ethan in a bearhug on the floor and was about to attempt the hicky bite, he felt the powerful arms of Angelo lifting him off Ethan 'No you don't' he said laughing and putting Josh on his feet. But Ethan swooped at his chance and began to give Josh a hicky on his calf, Josh struggled but couldn't get his leg free from Ethan's grip and began complaining to Angelo who just stood and laughed until Ethan let go and left Josh with a red mark on his leg. Angelo picked Ethan up and smacked him lightly on the ass telling them both to get on helping. All the dinner preparation was done so they now sat in the kitchen waiting for Mark and Bobby for a further 15 minutes until they finally appeared. Ben sat next to Josh "I forgot to ask how is your college course going did you pass the exam?" he asked Josh nodded "Yes, I'm thinking about maybe getting a job like you have done". Angelo sat down "What computer science did you do Josh?". Josh sipped his coke "Web design and management, I actually found it really easy got 97% on my exam". "Well done there is always lots of jobs for web designers" Angelo replied "I will see if anyone I know needs one". Josh smiled "Really, oh fab thanks Angelo" he said as the office door opened. Mark looked at them both "What's going on?" he asked. "Josh has just passed his college degree in web design" Angelo answered. "Well done Josh" Mark said and came round to give him a kiss "Web design eh". Angelo saw Mark was mulling on something "I know that look" he said. Bobby went round and patted Josh on the shoulder "Well done". Josh tingled at his touch and smiled before saying thank you to him, they all wandered through to the dining room and sat down for dinner which started off as a very noisy affair until everyone started eating, each of the boys talking with animation to Bobby whilst Mark and Angelo watched and chatted amongst themselves. Mark gave Angelo a knowing nod towards Bobby indicating that his idea had gone well with his parents, but more so they were carefully gauging how Josh was interacting with Bobby. To their happiness they could see that Josh had completely changed in a matter of hours as he was more engaged and looked to be finally putting Franco out of his head. When they finally finished eating Angelo and Mark allowed the boys to have a glass of wine. There was something that Josh found intriguing about Bobby as he could hardly take his eyes off him and as it turned out it there was only a 4 year difference between them. Mark tapped his fork on the table "Guys" they all stopped talking and looked at Mark. Ben and Ethan did the same "Guys" they sat giggling to each other. "Very funny" Mark said "Ben I have two words for you... Baseball Cap". Ethan looked at Mark then Ben "What does that mean?" Ben laughed "Means he is going to wear a baseball cap and jock strap tonight". "Get a picture I want to see it" Josh said "I bet he is as hot as fuck dressed like that". "Josh!" Mark said looking shocked but chuckling "Well Ben likes it and what it means" Bobby sat laughing then Josh looked at him "No way" Bobby said. Ethan sat with his arms folded looking sternly at Angelo "What's that look for?" Angelo said. Ethan "You got one as well?" he said trying to stifle his laugh. Angelo tutted and shook his head "Mi madre" he said "Yes I do" he laughed. Ethan laughed "Looks like we are all getting baseball capped tonight". "I'm not" Josh said with a funny sad look on his face. Bobby looked at him "Is that an invitation then?" he asked feeling comfortable enough to join in. Mark chuckled "I got a spare one upstairs but only if I get to see you wear it" he said to Bobby. "Oi" Ben stood up "We all get to see him wear it" followed with laughter from everyone. Bobby smiled shaking his head "Where is it then?" he suddenly blurted out. Mark shouted "Come on this is getting out of hand, it's like having kids" he said looking at Bobby and Angelo. "Spoil sport" Ben remarked winking at Mark who smiled back. "Anyway, Bobby has accepted a job with my parents in LA" Mark announced to the group. Josh nodded but the smile had left his face "Oh that's what all the talking was about". Mark stood "Just one thing left" he looked at Bobby "Lets get you in a jock strap for the boys". Bobby shrugged his shoulders "Come on then". The boys sat excitedly on the bed waiting for Angelo and Mark and Bobby who went in to the bathroom to change, Mark gave Bobby and Angelo each a jock strap and baseball cap. Outside the boys undressed down to their underwear so not to make the others feel uncomfortable. Ben kissed Josh then Ethan and Ethan kissed Josh and they laid down on the bed waiting for the show to begin. Angelo held it up "Hell Mark, only for you would I do this" he said. Mark chuckled "I think it's more for Ethan. We don't normally do this sort of thing Bobby". Bobby laughed then had a serious look on his face "Tell me about Josh and Franco, is it serious?" he asked. Angelo looked at him "Franco is straight so probably will never happen, why do you ask?" Bobby took his pants off "I quite like him" he replied. Mark chuckled "I think you more than like him" he said looking at Bobby. "Well we have only just met, but yes I guess it is more than just quite like him" he replied Angelo looked at Bobby smiling "I'm getting to like you Bobby". Mark laughed "That's the best compliment you will get from him" he said slipping on his baseball cap. Bobby looked "Fuck you do look mighty fine Mark" he said and Angelo looked and nodded. "Yeah Ben loves it as he knows he will get a good fucking when I dress like a jock" Mark replied laughing. Angelo chuckled "So when did all this start?" he asked. "In LA he strangely got turned on whilst shopping as I had a worn a baseball cap then" Mark replied smiling. Bobby laughed "And that was it?" he asked. Mark laughed "Well when he saw me in the jock strap as well he just went berserk sexually that is". Angelo looked out the window "Don't think we are going very far tonight". Bobby looked out "Hell that's deep now I will never get back to NY". Mark was looking at his ass in the mirror "You can stay the night" he said casually. "No it's fine I will get a room at the B&B in town" Bobby replied. "Nonsense you are staying here with us" Angelo replied bringing the conversation to a close. Bobby saw Angelo's back "Sorry dude the tattoo on your back I mean is..." "Yes it does mean what your thinking" Angelo replied before he could finish his sentence. Bobby ran his hand along it "Amazing" he said quietly. Mark watched "Doesn't shock you?" he asked. Bobby looked at him and winked "Not at all" he pulled his briefs down revealing a small scorpion over his groin. Angelo smiled and hugged Bobby "I knew I liked you" quick as a flash they kissed until Bobby pushed him off. "Sorry that was a bit weird" Bobby looked embarrassed. Mark laughed "One thing Bobby we have a very affectionate bond in our little family group". Bobby looked confused "Family group?". Angelo nodded "Yup we are very open and close in our own little family". "Oh right well I don't think I am quite in this family" Bobby said looking at Angelo. Angelo laughed "Let's just say the three in the bedroom like you, that's good enough for us". "Right, this is quite a lot to take in" Bobby replied. Mark ran his hand down Bobby's hairy chest following the treasure trail "Just never hurt anyone". Bobby smiled at the touch of Mark's hand "You mean Josh?". Angelo put his arm around Bobby's shoulder laughing "Yes, he may not be open to relationship now but take it slowly". Bobby couldn't resist touching Angelo "Oh god your body is to die for" Angelo smiled and kissed him gently. Angelo looked at Bobby "We kind of hope you and Josh will hit it off he needs some happiness". Bobby hugged Angelo "No promises, I like what I see so far I just need to get to know him". "But" Mark hinted as Bobby's sentence trailed off. Bobby looked out of the window "Well If I move to LA it will but a dampener on things". Mark smiled "Distance shouldn't be an obstacle if it is right" he replied. Mark opened the door and they walked out of the bathroom to wolf whistles and nods of approval, all eyes immediately went to Bobby and Ethan winked at Josh and mouthed 'Fuck yes", just like Mark had said in the bathroom Ben just turned in to a crazy sex monster flinging himself around Mark and totally ignoring the others he began kissing Mark and making squealing noises of delight as his hormones sped around his body, Mark collapsed on to top of Ben grinding his hips up to Ben's ass. "Oh god I think they are going to do it in front of us" Ethan remarked "I've never seen Ben like that". "Fuck that is one sex possessed lad" Angelo remarked. Ethan turned to look at Angelo "Nice but I prefer you naked" Angelo took he baseball cap off "Naked I said". Angelo laughed and kissed Ethan "Really" he felt Ethan's hand slip around the jock strap but he stopped him. Ethan smiled "Later, make love to me" he whispered. Angelo nodded "You know I will always do that". Josh sat opened mouth looking at Bobby "Oh wow" he said admiring his body. Bobby looked at Josh smiling "Oh yes you sexy little fucker" he said walking towards Josh. Josh was kneeling on the bed and Bobby pushed him flat on his back and leaned over "Now kiss me" Josh grabbed Bobby pulling him down on top of him as they looked each other in the eye with burning desire. Josh's body quivered as he looked deep into Bobby's eyes, the sensations he was feeling were unlike anything he had experienced before with a man. He couldn't put his finger on it but the eyes of Bobby just seemed to be drawing him in as if they were saying to him that this is me and I am the one you have wanted and needed your entire life. His hands caressed Bobby's arms and body it was as if he had to touch him to feel it was real. Bobby was very aware of how Josh was staring at him as he laid underneath, his body not quite touching Josh's but the electricity he was feeling from Josh's touch began to weaken his restraint. Far from the typical man he would pick up the charm and charisma that Josh exuded made him even more attractive than just his youthful boyish looks that lead to a mischievous minx underneath. He leaned forward and gently kissed Josh on the lips who released a soft moan, gradually he increased the pressure and length of each kiss. Slowly Josh's lips parted with each ensuing kiss from Bobby, each kiss was tender but firm in a deliberate act of enticement until Josh slightly arched his back and gave a partial sigh and moan as he felt Bobby's tongue passing over his lips and teeth seeking his own tongue, Bobby grabbed Josh's arms and pinned them above his head. Lost in their own world Bobby heard in the distance a voice 'That's so sweet', he suddenly remembered they were not alone and released Josh from their kiss. He looked around to see the other 4 watching them with smiles on their faces. "Come on let me show you to your room" Mark said standing up with his erect cock poking out of his jockstrap. Angelo stood up and pulled Ethan up "Time for some Angelo love baby" he said carrying Ethan out of the room. "Hurry back Mark" Ben said seductively wriggling his body on the bed. Bobby took Josh's hand and followed Mark "Thank you for letting me stay" he said to Mark. Mark smiled and closed the door behind him leaving Bobby and Josh alone for the first time.

Part 25 - Ben's Week Monday morning came around like any other Monday, Adam picked Ethan up and they headed off to college. Angelo went off to his office to conclude some important meetings which could potentially lead to a massive upscale the software usage by 2 companies that Raffa had put in a good word and got them in touch with Angelo. On top of that Ethan's parents were coming to dinner on Wednesday as Angelo wanted to use his father to finalise the contract negotiations. Ethan and Adam sat in the cafeteria having coffee when they saw Ben walk in, Ethan watched as he seemed pretty much like the Ben he knew for years heading in his direction. He joined them at the table just as Franco walked in and wandered over. "Franco how are you, you were pretty drunk on Saturday?" Adam asked as Franco sat down. Franco shook his head "Bad day yesterday but okay today" he turned to Ben "What happened with you and Mark?" Ben grinned back Franco "Nothing really, we have agreed to go on a date" he replied and Franco smiled. "Actually they slept together Saturday night" Ethan offered knowing that was what Franco was aiming for. Franco laughed "Good job Ben" he said holding his fist for out for a fist bump from Ben who obliged. "We didn't get up to anything though" Ben said sitting back in his chai as they others began chuckling. The bell sounded signalling the start of lessons in 5 minutes, they all clambered out and headed off in their respective directions. Monday lunchtime saw Franco and Ben meeting in the grounds as they both came from the same lecture building, Franco had to run to catch Ben up as they walked together towards the cafeteria. They were halfway across from the building when Ben swore he heard his name being shouted so he looked around but couldn't see anyone familiar who would be calling him. Franco looked at him "I heard it as well, but maybe it was another Ben". "Probably" Ben replied as they carried on, then unmistakably he heard his name called again. Franco looked to the right "Ben someone is waving coming towards you" he nodded. Ben turned and saw his face "Oh fuck I don't believe it". Franco snickered "What?". "He was working in the store yesterday, when Ethan and I went to get Milk" Ben said looking worried. Franco patted his shoulder "Don't worry I will look after you" he said nodding. "I thought you were ignoring me Ben" Joshua said catching up. Ben grimaced "Sorry Joshua I didn't know you were at this college". Joshua laughed "Yeah but I knew you came here, seen you around. I had no idea you were gay". "Oh" Ben looked flustered. "So I kind of was wondering if you wanted to go out with me?" Joshua asked looking at Ben. Ben look at him cautiously "As in friends?". Joshua smiled "Yes if you like, to start with". Ben shook his head "Sorry, but I am errm kind of seeing someone" feeling strange as he said the words. It was evident Joshua was not happy "Oh, well think before you flirt with someone in the future". Joshua turned and walked off muttering under breath and Ben caught the words 'fucking wind up', he knew Joshua was not impressed but he also feared that he may talk about it and word would spread and get back to his family. They finally got to the cafeteria and met up with Ethan and Adam, he told Ethan about Joshua who was somewhat surprised to the point of being gobsmacked. Ethan could sense Ben's worry and tried reassure him. Franco left for another lecture whilst the boys remained since they had a free period before they resumed, it was during the extended break that Ethan spotted Joshua coming in and sitting down on his own head firmly in his phone. Ethan watched him for a good few minutes and he seemed to be quite alone sat there in his own world. Ethan told Ben and Adam to wait there as he was going to see if Joshua would join them, he stood up and walked to the other side of the cafeteria where Joshua sat, he looked up seeing Ethan standing there. "Come to gloat and wind me up even more?" Joshua said then returned to his phone. Ethan sat down "Joshua sorry about yesterday it wasn't meant to lead you on". Joshua looked at Ethan "Okay" he returned to his phone. "We didn't even know that you were. Joshua do you want to come and sit with us?" Ethan said in a genuine manner. "Josh" Joshua replied "my name is Josh" he looked up at Ethan. Ethan smiled "Well Josh, why don't you come and sit with us" Ethan pointed over to where Ben was sat. Joshua looked "You know Adam" nodding over to where he sat. "Do you know him Josh?" Ethan asked nodding his head. Joshua shook his head "No, know of him but never had the nerve to speak to him or anyone else here". Ethan stood up "Come on Josh us boys need to stick together". Josh smiled and thanked Ethan and joined them at the table. The four of them spent the period talking and getting to know Josh and he them, as they parted Adam told him that they always meet here in the morning and at lunchtimes and he is always welcome as a friend if he wanted to sit with them. He thanked them for being friendly and disappeared off to his lecture. Ben looked at Ethan and Adam "You think he is lonely, maybe a bit scared like I was?". "Definitely" Adam replied "hopefully he won't say anything about yesterday" feeling a stirring in his briefs thinking about Josh. Wednesday came around pretty quick for Ben and he spent most the day as a nervous wreck thinking that Mark may not turn up, has he had second thoughts, did he like him... anything and everything was flashing in his head as he finally got changed to meet him. He left his house at a quarter to six so he could walk casually and slowly to steady his own nerves. He turned the corner on to the main street and his eyes instantly drawn to the parked car, leaning against the car head buried in his phone was Mark. Ben felt a sense of elation seeing him there early waiting his steps never faltering as he got closer. It was the short walk when Ben realised how much he was looking forward to seeing Mark, the memory of them laying in bed together naked, the closeness of their bodies. A warmth unlike which he had never felt before spread through his body, the short sleeved shirt Mark wore accentuated the muscle in his arms, when Mark turned to look down the street Ben was completely captivated by his handsomeness. Seeing Ben he put the phone in his pocket and smiled still casually leaning back against the car watching him draw closer, the innocence on his face and cuteness was overwhelming for Mark. Never did he think he would find the right type of guy and one that was clearly so in to him as well, such was his excitement for Ben he had to stop himself from rushing down to kiss him. "Hello Ben" Mark smiled at Ben as he came to a stop. Ben smiled leaning against the car next to Mark "Hello Mark, you haven't lost interest then". Mark slid his hand into Ben's "No, I know what I want, any regrets from the weekend then?". Ben squeezed Mark's hand "Absolutely not" he replied starring down at the road. Mark glanced sideways at Ben "God I want to kiss you badly". Ben chuckled and looked at him "Yeah me to, I do have a confession though I am wearing your underwear". Mark laughed and lifted the band of his underwear up "And I am wearing yours". Ben chuckled again "I hope you washed them" he said looking at Mark who just winked. Mark nodded for Ben to get in to the car "Where would you like to go?". Ben sat in the passenger seat waiting for Mark to settle "Don't know where would you suggest? "Are you hungry?" Mark asked starting the car. Ben nodded "Yes, been saving myself" he said without realising the connotation. Mark laughed "I bet you have". Ben smiled leaning his head back "I guess we could go to Mel's Diner in town". Mark nodded and asked Ben to guide him where it was. They walked in to the diner side by side but not holding hands as they didn't want to attract any attention, after all they were two guys out for dinner. For a Wednesday evening the diner was pretty quiet, taking a seat in a private booth sitting opposite to each other Ben looked at Mark as he settled in. He was nervous but at the same time excited being with Mark, unlike Angelo who struck a very different chord Mark was more just an ordinary guy who could fit in anywhere but he happened to be very good looking, he exuded calmness and likeability by the dozen and a few heads turned to look at him as they made their way to the booth. "What's good here Ben" Mark asked browsing through the menu. Ben didn't even think before he spoke "You" then went bright red thinking how much of a slut he must sound. Mark chuckled "Careful I am hungry" he replied without looking at Ben. Ben smiled "How hungry are you Mark?" he said feeling somewhat braver. Mark looked up "Silly question Ben, I thought my hunger for you transparent" winking as he said so. Ben looked down at his menu smiling "Good" he replied "Burgers are very good here". "Burger it is then" Mark closed his menu to focus on Ben. There they sat enjoying each other's company, dining and laughing for several hours until Ben broke the evening up as he had to go home before curfew on a college night. Mark resided himself to this although it did feel strange dating someone who was still in college and on the other hand he also knew that obeying parents was part of the package with Ben. Those few hours of privacy brought many things out that they both had in common which made the conversation flow seamlessly and bringing them closer together. "Thank you for dinner I really enjoyed myself" he said standing up. "Me to Ben" Mark stood and walked out with Ben to the car. Ben looked at Mark as they pulled away from the diner "So are we going on a date Saturday?" he asked. Mark glanced at Ben "Yes of course we are, why?" he replied with a concerned look on his face. "No reason, what are we going... I mean what sort of date?" Ben asked a little tongue tied. Mark smiled and patted his leg "Though we would go in to the city if that's okay with you?". Ben nodded "Yeah, I would like that, don't get to go in to NY very much". "Great, we will go around lunchtime and spend the day there and catch a movie" he said seeing a happy looking Ben. Ben looked down the dark street "Well I ought to get going" he turned and kissed Mark on the lips. "Enough of that, or you will end up being late in" Mark said stroking the side of Ben's face. Ban walked down the round watching the headlights of Mark's car as it turned in the road then plundering him in to the darkness as Mark went in the opposite direction. He made it through the door just in time for curfew and headed upstairs to his room. Margarite watched as Ben skipped up the stairs humming to himself, curiosity was getting the better of her as she had to know why her son was so happy the last few days. She contemplated and wondered if Ethan's influence on him was part to blame, shaking her head as she knew Ethan well enough and had never suspected a thing about him in the first place and plus she heard he only had eyes for this Angelo man. Ban came out of the shower and dried himself off, he got the Mark's briefs and slipped them on. He pulled his journal out of the closet and laid on his stomach on the bed turning to a the next blank page. He wrote Wednesday 31st October and underlined it "Well journal my quiet but listening friend I had a Wednesday unlike any other, mostly as the day dragged on and on listening to the lecturers droning on about computer sciences. Oh I hate Wednesday at college but then I'm not as smart enough as Ethan to go down the legal route but sharp enough to indulge in to technology and software. But that was the worst part over with, I jiggled and fiddled from late afternoon until 6pm trying to keep my mind busy and focused on other things. You would be right in assuming what I wrote in you about Sunday, I am going out to dinner with him and before you get cocky it is no date, just dinner. I felt somewhat turned on when I put his briefs on earlier and yes I am still wearing them, it is as if I am as close to him as if we were in bed. He told me he had mine on and I am almost certain he hadn't washed them from when I unintentionally shot cum in them, is he a dirty gay bloke or just like me? I often question that when he stole them from me. Anyway dinner was great we chatted for well over 2 hours and more and more I got to know and like him. Ethan told me I will know in my heart if I love him and that I would see it in his eyes, I can't explain my feelings or emotions about him but I feel like electricity runs through my body when he is near. Maybe that is what loving someone does to my body, loving someone, I can't believe I just wrote it or even if I meant it but I am no longer ashamed to admit it anymore. Anyway it is bed time and college tomorrow." he closed the journal and rolled on to his back hugging the pillow. Ben woke up and realised he had dozed off laying on the bed, it was 2am, he put the journal back in the closet and went back to bed. His thoughts on one thing only a feeling of emptiness in his bed. Earlier that evening Ethan's family had joined them for dinner it was in face a very ordinary family dinner, Jack had fell in love with Angelo in his own way, Ellie and Sophie just adored him. Angelo and Jack had been discussing some work for the past half an hour in the dining room and Ellie was serving coffee with Ethan's help who was keen to show he was becoming helpful around the house. Ellie sat down next to Ethan "Is Angelo teaching you to be more self reliant?". Ethan nodded "Yeah, he is teaching me how to cook and eat healthily". "You know Margarite and I are speaking again, think she is jealous about Sandra and me" Ellie said chuckling. "Well she didn't do herself any favours I still don't like her" Sophie interjected in to the conversation. Ethan put his around his sister "I know but don't hold it against her Soph" he said to her. "Ben and you are getting along again? Ellie asked Ethan. He nodded "Yes better than ever, a lot of things have become clearer" choosing his words carefully. "He is gay you know" Sophie said playing with her phone and looking up. Ellie looked at Ethan then Sophie "What on earth makes you think that?". Sophie looked up "He has never had a girlfriend and... well have you never seen the way he looks at Ethan?". "Hell Sophie is there anything you don't know?" Ethan asked her laughing. Ellie looked at Ethan "Well?" she asked and Ethan gently nodded his head. "Please do not say anything, let Ben do this in his time" Ethan appealed to his mother and sister. "Only because you asked Ethan" Ellie said nodding her head "I won't say anything and nor will Sophie". Sophie raised her head from her phone "So you two never did anything then?". "Sophie" Ellie exclaimed sounding cross. Ethan laughed and shook his "No Sophie, but I did kiss him Sunday morning". Ethan watched as for once his mother actually laughed and joined in the conversation, obviously having Adam's mother Sandra as a friend was rewarding as she was showing much more compassion and openness now. Angelo and Jack came back in to the room both very happy and telling them the news that Jack was going to help Angelo as Legal counsel for the next few contract negotiations. Angelo sat down next to Ethan who cuddled up next to him in front of his parents who didn't even flinch and carried on in conversation. The last few days of the week went by quickly and Josh was fast becoming part of their group, Adam had already told Tony about him describing him as your standard college football jock with mousy blonde hair solidly built and the current college wrestling team champion that he had held for 2 years now. The one thing Adam liked was how he was always attracting the girls and seeing their disappointed faces but it didn't stop them trying it with him. Josh on the other hand fancied Ben, he also had a thing for Ethan and he knew about Adam's notorious sexual antics from campus gossip and dreaming of sexing him in a very big way. Franco on the other hand was well out bounds he didn't quite know where he stood with him sometimes but he had to admit his biggest crush was now Franco, he was just happy though being included in the group. Ben slipped on Mark's briefs again and stood in front of his mirror, well Ben he thought to himself, I guess this is it and no going back now, you are gay so deal with it. Turning in the mirror looking at his reflection before continuing to dress for his day out with Mark on their first official date. He walked outside to the sunny but chilly day, rumours were abound about a snow storm but it's exact trajectory was still unknown but they had put a warning out of heavy snow fall if it hit. He was dressed warmly enough walking up the road just before 11am, turning the corner he saw the car and Mark leaning against it watching him as he appeared. There no mistake about the smile that appeared on Mark's face seeing him approaching. The car was parked at the station as they took the train into the city. Up the Empire State building round to Rockefeller plaza and finally Greenwich Village by 4pm where they grabbed a bit to eat. Ben was in awe at the whole gayness of the area it was as if he had walked in to a perfect utopia, his eyes working like radars picking everything up from his surroundings. Leaving the bistro Mark took hold of Ben's hand as they walked around the village. "Where to now?" Ben asked squeezing Mark's hand. Mark nodded "Here I want to see this film how about it?" he asked. "Sure, is it on Netflix?" Ben asked. Mark looked at him "No here in the cinema". Ben looked slightly confused "Oh you have to watch it with other people?". Mark laughed "Yes, have you never been to the cinema before?". Ben laughed "No" he read the poster for the film currently showing Call Me By Your Name "Strange title". Mark smiled as he escorted Ben in side, they sat in the middle row still holding hands throughout the film. Both quiet and watching the film unfolding, Ben wiped a tear from his eye at the closing credits and the lights came on. "What did you think?" Mark asked leaning over to kiss Ben and cuddle him. Ben cleared his throat "Beautiful film but sad at the end". Mark smiled "Wasn't it!, I will buy you the book to read it goes on much further than the film". "Really, thanks I would love to read the full story" Ben sounded excited. Mark looked at his phone "Nearly 7pm what time do you have to be home?" Ben looked at him "No curfew tonight" Ben shivered as a cool draught rushed in from where people where now leaving, many hurrying. They walked out to the foyer which was still crowded trying to make their way to the exit. Mark spoke to one person asking what was going on and found out that the snow storm had hit full on from NY along to Boston. They finally exited to the cold wind howling and the snow falling heavily, some 6 inches had already fallen. "Now what?" Ben asked as they made their way to midtown. Mark looking at his phone said to Ben "Trains cancelled no way of getting home tonight". "I better call my mother to let her know" Ben said and they stopped in a office front recess for shelter. Mark called in a favour from a friend who worked as duty manager for a hotel in Times Square "Come on he have a room". Ben put his phone away "Roads are all blocked in Harrison". They walked the 15 minutes through the blizzard condition cold and wet until they reached The Chatwal hotel, Mark's friend was in the foyer with the key to the room, they had a quick conversation then he escorted up to the room apologising that he had to give them a suite. Mark shook hands with his friend who looked at Ben who was clearly feeling the cold and said he would send some hot chocolate up and then left them alone. Ben sat there stunned how amazing the room was, he had never been in a 5 star hotel or in the top suites he was inspecting everything as Mark sat on the bed laughing at his detective work. "Come on Ben you need to get out of those clothes, there are robes in the bathroom" Mark said taking his coat off. Ben came back from the bathroom wearing the robe giggling "Feels amazing" causing Mark to smile. "Won't be a minute" Mark said disappearing in to the bathroom. There was a knock at the door and a muffled voice "Room Service" Mark called Ben to get the door. Ben opened the door and let the guy in who was carrying a tray as he passed by Ben he took a glance and went over to the table in the suite to set up the drinks. Ben watched the room service steward whom he guessed must be around 25, packing a tight body within his shirt and his ass just looked amazing in his work trousers. Ben wandered over and sat on the sofa looking at his name badge which read Darius, he suddenly remembered the Joshua incident so decided to keep his mouth shut. "Your hot chocolate and cookies sir, definitely needed on a night like this" Darius said warmly. Ben almost giggled but kept his composure "Thank you, and yes didn't see this coming". Darius continued in his professional way "We never see snow like this where I am from, but it should pass in a few hours". Ben just couldn't help himself "Where are you from?" he asked. Darius smiled "Venezuela, to hot for snow" his eyes flitting between Ben and the tray. "Is that the hot chocolate?" Mark asked coming out of the bathroom drying his hair wrapped in his own robe. Darius turned to see Mark "Yes sir all ready for you" he turned back to Ben smiling and winked. "Great I need this to get the cold out of my bones" Mark replied sitting next to Ben on the sofa. Darius smiled again at Ben "If you need anything else please call, have a great evening gentlemen". Mark watched Darius leave turning and nodding as he did so with a smile "So obvious" Mark said. Ben laughed and sat back "You think he is?". Mark put his arm around Ben "Clearly, he was looking at you with some perverse thought of getting you in to bed". Ben laughed and play wrestled with Mark until he got him on his back and savagely kissed him hard on the mouth. Ben laid there giggling as horny as hell and just loving being with him. Mark put the TV on and the cuddled up to Ben on the sofa with the hot chocolate and curtains open watching between the TV weather report and the snowfall. Ben sipped his hot chocolate with one eye on Mark "This is bliss" he said. "What is?" Mark asked. Ben smiled "You, me, hot chocolate and no one else". Mark nodded "I like having you to myself". Ben stroked Mark's chest "So I get to sleep with you again" he said kissing Mark's neck. Mark smiled and glanced at him "I think some force is pushing us together this time". Ben looked at him "Is it what you want?". Mark kissed his head "Yes it is". "I know it is what I want Mark" Ben said resting his head against Mark's chest. Mark stroked Ben's head "I knew it when I first clapped eyes on you Ben". "Good, I am happy being with you" Ben voice slightly muffled by Mark's robe but he knew what he said. "You can see me a lot more when I move to Larchmont next week" Mark looked at Ben. Ben smiled "You are?" he tightened his arms around Mark and buried his head deeper against him. They finished the hot chocolate and used the complimentary toothbrushes cleaning their teeth together, walking back in to the bedroom they slipped into bed turning the lights out with just the glow from the street lighting and snowfall coming through the window. Ben turned and kissed Mark on the chest crossing over to his nipple which he tenderly licked and sucked ever so sweetly, Mark's hands roamed across Ben's head and he arched his neck back and moaned softly at Ben's gentle movements. There was no doubt that Ben was turning him on he could sense the anticipation in the air and knew that tonight would see them venturing alone together. Mark felt the hardness in Ben's cock rubbing against his leg as he moved higher towards Mark's neck and mouth where finally their lips came together and their tongues met, sensually caressing their saliva melding. Ben manoeuvred his body on top of Mark whilst his legs slipped between Mark's, a look of genuine surprise flashed across Mark's face as his legs caressed around Ben's legs gradually working their up until they settled around his hips. Ben kissed Mark's lips and looked at him 'Can I?' he said crooning his words tenderly from his lips. Mark stared back at Ben and nodded what mattered was that they were going to have sex and he wanted to on so many levels. Mark felt Ben's cock pressing at his hole gradually feeling his legs being pushed higher, Ben kissed and licked at Mark's calves and thighs then in between his legs until his tongue finally met with Mark's ass. He gasped and pushed back against the headboard feeling Ben's tongue swirling around his hole and then diving in prising his hole open. Ben was completely lost having no idea where this was all coming from, yes he had seen on line videos of gay sex, but there was more it was an instinct telling him what and how to do it. He spat at Mark's hole and worked his saliva in and around it moistening it and all the time flickering in an and out of his Mark's hole who was moaning and gasping at this young guy so tenderly seducing him, and to what end he had no idea instead he levelled in his head and just floated away in his own excitement of being with Ben. His legs came to rest around Ben's hips as his mouth touched his and they began to devour each other in a heated passionate kiss both of them moaning and grabbing at each other not wanting to let go, a need burning to touch each other as they kissed. Ben looked down at Mark and positioned his cock pressing gently as Mark grabbed Ben's shoulder and moaned and winced as he felt the head of the cock pushing inside him slowly but purposefully, his legs shaking slightly 'fuck, slowly Ben' he said as he felt more and more of Ben's cock penetrating him. He felt pain, no wait was it ecstasy, he cried a little and gasped, no it was pain, oh god he cried out pulling Ben forward forcing the full length of the cock to penetrate him deeply. Ben groaned and moaned feeling a little discomfort but realised he was fully inside Mark who was panting quick breaths trying to adjust in between agonising spasms in his ass at what he had forced on himself by accidentally grabbing Ben. He stayed still looking in to Mark's eyes unsure for a moment if he had gone to fast but he saw a happiness staring back at him 'Do you want me to stop' Mark heard Ben asking. Mark just stared in to Ben's eyes for a moment 'No' he whispered back as he hands moved to Ben's hips assisting and guiding Ben for a few minutes until he found the rhythm. Ben's senses were overloaded, his cock was hard and at best was just over eight inches with the right girth to provide an immersive experience, it felt so good being inside Mark who was moaning and calling his name as Ben began to speed up, his balls hitting against Mark's ass caused him to shudder several times thinking he was going to orgasm, so many feelings and sensations ran through his body, all the time he watched Mark's face and stared in to his eyes. Ben felt his balls aching and but it felt to good he didn't want to pull his cock out. Mark reached up and kissed Ben harder causing him to slam his hips deeper in to Mark's ass as he began to orgasm and shoot his seed inside Mark's ass, Mark's arms wrapped around Ben's neck and shoulder firmly as his back arched and he groaned and cried in pleasure and pain that morphed in to a multitude of sensations. Ben collapsed on top of Mark panting and moaning under his breath as his balls settled back down from their own excitement. His arms went around Mark as they cuddled whilst Ben calmed down and his breathing settled returned to a normal state. "You okay?" Mark asked stroking his back. Ben laughed "God yeah, that was the first time I have even done that" he nuzzled in to Mark's neck. Mark kissed his head "Pretty darn good for a virgin then". Ben slowly pulled his still rock hard cock out of Mark and rolled on to his back "Thank you" he laughed. Mark kneeled up and kissed Ben's chest "My ever so sexy Ben". Ben ran his hand through Mark's hair "Can you umm... fuck me?". Mark looked at him "I can and want to but I don't have any condoms with me". Ben sat up "I don't care Mark, I love you to much to worry about that". Mark shook his head "Do you realise what you just said?" he stroked Ben's chest. Ben nodded "I am not worried about you being poz" he said. Mark smiled "Not that, you said you love me." he looked Ben in the eye "Did you mean it?". Ben looked back at Mark a little shocked "I think so, it's crazy in my head still". "But you did Ben" Mark's smile disappeared "I think you know how I feel about you". Ben reached over to touch Mark's face "Are you the one for me?". Mark kissed Ben's hand "You tell me Ben". Ben laid back down on the bed "Yes" he replied in manner of fact way. Mark was in no doubt about Ben's feelings towards him as he kissed his body "Are you absolutely sure Ben?". "Yes" Somehow Ben knew what Mark was talking about. Mark kissed him on the mouth "You won't regret or hate me if I gift you?". Ben looked at him "Gift me?" he asked in question. Mark nodded "If I fuck you without a condom you may end up poz, it is called gifting when you do it knowingly". Ben realised this was not a game and very real "Do you mind if we wait?" he sounded nervous and unsure. Mark laid down on top of Ben and kissed him gently "No, you need to be very clear about that decision". Ben stroked Mark's back "I.. you won't love me any less if it never happens?". Mark smiled and looked at him "No, I will love you in just the same way Ben". Mark sat up and kneeled at the side of ben and nodded to his cock "Blow me". Ben saw it was not a question but a command smiling up at Mark, he moved his head closer and his tongue ran over the head of Mark's cock who took a sharp intake of breath and shuddered in delight, his hand pulled Ben's head forward and his mouth went around and down on his cock. Mark made quiet moaning sounds as Ben learnt the art of sucking cock with Mark's guidance. He was enjoying the feeling of Mark's cock in his mouth sometimes going to deep and gagging slightly, he tasted a slightly salty slime in his mouth and Mark's toxic precum leaked and Ben used his tongue and mouth to coat the shaft of Mark's beautiful cock which stood proud and thick just under eight inches in length. He was engrossed in his work when he felt Mark's cock jump and sharply withdraw from his mouth as he began shooting his load over Ben's chest, Ben was rubbing his own cock and began shooting his second load of the evening over his stomach, watching Mark orgasm had caused Ben to do the same. Ben's chest was coated in huge wads of Mark's cum and he looked somewhat surprised whilst Mark chuckled and told him 'That's a normal size load'. Ben breathed heavily laying back on the bed his finger rubbed over the cum surrounding his left nipple that Mark had coated him with, he coated his finger and moved it slowly to his mouth and sucked tasting Mark's cum. Mark smiled and leaned down licking the cum then moved his head to Ben's waiting mouth where he kissed him with more roughness than usual, Ben's cock still raging hard began bouncing in the air as he got more and more turned on by Mark's more dominant and aggressive manner, by the fourth kiss Ben wriggled and arched his back as he shot his third load. The scene continued for several more hours until Mark collapsed on top of Ben and kissed him lovingly and smiled, Ben was laughing 'oh my god' he commented feeling as though he didn't have a care in the world. Tired from so much making out Mark let him roll on to his side and Mark took up position but instead of his cock parked between Ben's ass cheeks it was nestled up against his hole. Ben pulled the sheet over them and felt Mark's arms working their way around his body, within minutes they were both asleep. Ben woke startled at the knock on the door hearing the word 'Room Service' coming from the other side of the door, Mark pulled Ben back down in to his arms as Darius came in with a tray of coffee and pastries. "Good Morning sirs, I will set this up on the table" he said walking across the suite giving Ben a smile. Ben replied "Morning" and pulled the sheet up to try and cover his face. "Thank you" replied Mark as he rubbed his hand across Ben's chest and kissed his neck. "Storm hasn't quite cleared but trains will start running in about 3 hours" Darius said as he looked out the window. Mark leaned up "Still snowing lightly" his hand moving round to Ben's ass. "Luka has extended check out time until 3pm if you need it, do you need your clothes drying?" Darius asked Mark stopped fondling Ben "Oh yes that would be great just in case they are damp still". Darius put the clothes in a laundry bag "I will leave you breakfast menus if you want to order something hot". "Thank you Darius, and thank Luka for me" Mark replied. "Good day sirs" Darius said and Ben glanced out from under the sheet to see Darius wink at him again as he closed the door. Mark cuddle up to Ben "Me thinks Darius got a thing for my baby". Ben chuckled and rubbed his ass against Mark's cock "Me thinks me got a thing for you" he said trying to mimic Mark. Ben was rewarded with a slap on the ass for his cheek as Mark jumped out of bed naked to pour coffee, Ben sat up in bed watching him and smiling the only thought running through his head was how much he was falling in love with him. Mark handed him coffee and sat on the bed besides him. "What?" Mark asked looking bemused. Ben smiled "Can't believe I did you last night". Mark laughed "Don't worry I am going to get you back" he replied sipping his coffee. "I look forward to it, well I think so." Ben replied smiling. Mark patted his leg "Are you that much in love with me?" he said thinking it might just be a throw away comment. Ben nodded "I am" he turned and kissed Mark. "So you want to do this then, be my boyfriend?" Mark asked putting his cup down. "Yeah, I would love that" Ben grinned looking at Mark "Kiss me". Mark smiled shaking his head "You horny bitch!" he said pushing Ben on the bed and attacking him lovingly. Finally they arrived back at Harrison station at 4pm, the snow was still thick but the roads were clear now and traffic was moving as they got in the car to drop Ben off. They arranged to have dinner on Wednesday again and Mark would see him Saturday in Larchmont as he was moving in to his new house on Thursday. Ben walked through the snow carrying his bag of hotel toiletries as a souvenir he knew the rest of the family were out visiting relations on the other side of town. He went up to his room and pulled his journal out and picked up the pen and sat down at his desk putting pen to paper. He wrote the date and underlined it then began "Incredible weekend so many things to say and thoughts running around in my head, but most importantly I have a boyfriend, yes closeted computer nerd me went a bagged myself a seriously sexy boyfriend. Let me tell you though if the force of nature had not blown the storm in it would have been very different words I am now putting down. Firstly we went around the gay part of NY and then watched a movie, the first time I ever went in to a cinema and enjoyed it. The film I figured was about a coming of age and unspoken love, in so many ways just like mine has turned out to be. I cried a little at the end as it was quite sad but it had a truthful meaning and allowed the young guy to be himself, does it sound familiar?. The snow storm had blown in and we found ourselves trapped in the city but fortunately through one of his contacts we got a superb room in a 5 star hotel and that was where the magic happened and realised am I truly in love with him?, it's not something I can explain or understand. Some of the things I did I cannot write down, but you know I am no longer a virgin in one particular area so much so that I did it twice, he turns me on no end with just him touching me and kissing me. Seeing him naked walking across the room was just filled me with delight, he says he feels the same way about me and I hope this will be longer than just a horny person at a spring break rampage. There is one decision that has played on my mind since last night for a while but I know now and need it to be closer. I am happy, in fact I have never been happier." He put the pen down and looked out at the snowy scene sighing as he thoughts went to Mark, he closed the journal and went downstairs just as his family arrived home. Margarite could sense something changing about her son but couldn't put her finger on it, she was probing with questions but the answers Ben gave didn't give much away or shed any light. It had not passed her by about the lack of girls in Ben's conversations, he seemed only ever to talk about Ethan, she mused this over tidying the kitchen and wondered if Ben was hiding a bigger secret.

Part 24 - Daybreak He felt the unmistakable hardness of the cock rubbing between his ass cheeks as he began to wake up, the arms wrapped around his body tightened signalling he was also awake. It was 8.30am and Ethan turned his head to kiss Angelo as he started to roll on his stomach with Angelo following his action until his was poised on top of him. He knew only to well that when Angelo was horny in the morning it was going to be a big bang to start to the day. He felt the rush of air around his ass as Angelo lifted his hips up slightly, Ethan moaned and gripped the pillows as the head of Angelo's cock homed in like a heat seeking missile. He moaned louder raising his head 'Oh my lover' Ethan whispered as the head of the cock prised his hole open gaining entry, Angelo leaned forward and kissed Ethan's neck 'Morning, I love you and your mine' he whispered biting and sucking gently at Ethan's neck, underneath him he could feel the warmth of Ethan's ass and his feet were doing a strange dance of their own which Angelo knew by now that was Ethan's excitement escaping. Ethan pushed his head up as Angelo bit, kissed and sucked harder at his neck as more of his cock began working it's way deeper in to him. He felt the slightly painful and very intoxicating feeling of the friction, he let out one last long moan as Angelo came to rest balls deep inside Ethan, Angelo's mouth sought his own as they kissed deeply spearing each other with their tongues trying to get the upper hand. Angelo began rocking his hips up and down in deep powerful penetrating thrusts, Ethan buried his head in the pillow trying to stifle his cries of ecstasy his hands gripped hard around Angelo's biceps tightening up with every downward stroke of Angelo's cock. He continued to kiss the back of Ethan's neck as he began to ramp up the speed, he knew he would not last out as he was feeling overly horned up this morning. Ethan moaned and his head rose off the pillow as he felt the intensity of their love making move up, his ass now pushing up to meet Angelo's thrusting, suddenly he felt like the hardness increasing and the thrusting became more erratic and powerful. Angelo felt his balls tapping at Ethan's ass telling them to wake up and do their business, one thing for sure he was not trying to hold on this morning. He grunted loudly, Ethan moaned and cried 'Oh Angelo, fuck yes, oh god yes', he felt the rush of seed firing into his body as Angelo continued thrusting deep in to Ethan, Ethan arched his back and raised his head, Angelo caught the side of his neck and his lips suctioned around the tender youthfulness of the skin. With every jolt of his orgasm he sucked harder, Angelo could feel the lower legs on Ethan rapidly bouncing up and down in another tell tell sign that Ethan gave off when he was orgasming. Angelo collapsed on top of Ethan breathing heavily as he his body started resetting itself and draining the testosterone, Ethan was panting and stroking Angelo's arms in the after glow of their sex. Angelo leaned around and kissed Ethan deeply on the mouth "I don't think we woke anyone" he laughed. "Fuck that was awesome, love you so much" Ethan replied with a look of pure delight on his face. "Sorry, I have left a mark on your neck" Angelo told him as he kissed around the love bite. Ethan giggled "You marking your territory now as well?". Angelo laughed "I don't need to you already belong to me" he replied slipping out of Ethan's ass. Ethan got up and headed to the shower whilst Angelo changed the bed sheets cleaning up mostly Ethan's mess. He then joined Ethan in the shower for a while kissing before Ethan got out to let Angelo shower properly. "I'llput some coffee on" Ethan said placing the towel on the rack. Angelo smiled and nodded "Check if Mark is up as he likes strong coffee". "Will do" Ethan made his way down the hall towards Mark's room and he tapped on the door. He waited for a moment then tapped again but there was no response, carefully he opened the door and popped his head through but there was only an empty bed and no sign of Mark. Ethan checked down stairs but it was quiet, he put the coffee on and headed back up to the master suite, Angelo was drying himself off in the bathroom when Ethan walked in. "Mark is not in his room or downstairs" Ethan said with a grin on his face. Angelo looked at him "Do you think, no surely not" Angelo grabbed a t-shirt and pair of shorts. They walked hand in hand towards Ben's room, Angelo slowly turning the knob and opening the door slightly, he poked his head in to the room and saw Mark and Ben fast asleep cuddled up, he also noticed at the foot of the bed a pair of underwear on the floor. Smiling he turned and nodded to Ethan who pushed his way in and peeked around the door. Angelo closed the door and they walked down stairs with Ethan trying to stifle his giggling. "Wow I never expected that to happen last night" Ethan said grabbing two coffee cups. Angelo sat down "I have to admit I am surprised Mark managed to pull that off". Ethan poured the coffee "Do you think they did it, I mean I know Mark is poz but I am worried about Ben". Angelo smiled "Mark would not deliberately put him at risk". Ethan handed Angelo his coffee "Well I guess it's for them to decide what they do". Angelo nodded "Should we take them up a coffee?". Ethan looked at him "Hmm.. probably best not to, Ben might get embarrassed about the whole thing". "Good call" Angelo responded as Adam came in to the kitchen. Adam looked at both of them "Morning, what are you conniving?" he sat down next to Angelo. Ethan held a cup up and Adam nodded "Just discussing what we found this morning". Adam looked at Angelo "Come on tell me... oh... did Ben and Mark sleep together?" he sat up straight waiting to hear. Angelo laughed "They did but what went on I am afraid we do not know, but they are in bed together as we speak asleep though". "Good for Ben, I was worried he might end up a closeted gay all his life" Adam took the cup from Ethan. Ethan sat down "Where's Tony?" he asked Adam. "Sleeping still, he was a bit tipsy last night then hammered my ass when we got to bed" Adam replied smiling. Angelo slapped him on the arm "I hope you didn't make a mess" he commented causing Ethan to laugh. "Relax Angelo it was a deep breeding so no mess" Adam responded trying to get Angelo in a head lock. With ease Angelo lifted Adam off the ground in bear hug "Ethan help" Adam pleaded. "No your mess you deal with it" Ethan sat sipping his coffee chuckling at them both. Adam relented and clung hard on to Angelo his head turned to Ethan "What the fuck is that on your neck?". Ethan rubbed his neck and laughed "Angelo got hungry during sex" he replied and Adam made a face at him. Angelo squeezed Adam harder and could feel the erection hard up against his waist "Dirty horny fucker". Adam pushed back to look Angelo in the eye "You know it babe, keep doing that and I will shoot". Angelo released Adam heaving in laughter letting him slip to the floor "Pull yourself together Adam". Eventually they both sat down drinking coffee. Ben was beginning to wake up feeling hot before he realised arms were holding his body, slightly shocked and bewildered he didn't panic remembering Mark had got in to bed with him last night. Ben instantly knew his small movement in bed was causing Mark to stir in more than one place, he could feel the cock nestled between his now sweaty ass cheeks swelling and beginning to stiffen. He laid there quietly enjoying the wonder and feeling of the cock growing increasingly harder, he became aware that Mark's hand was caressing his chest gently. "Morning sexy" Mark kissed the back of Ben's neck. Ben giggled and ran his hand along Mark's thigh "Morning, your still here then". "Of course" he replied releasing his hold on Ben and rolling on to his back. Ben turned on to his back next to Mark his neck coming to rest in Mark's arm "Thank you for staying". Mark turned his head and kissed Ben's cheek "I felt good sleeping with you Ben". Tony came out of the shower and was drying himself walking back to the bedroom when he heard the quiet voices coming from Ben's room, he shook his head and smiled. He grabbed his boxers and went downstairs still drying himself and walked in to the kitchen. "Morning all, you do know Mark is in bed with Ben" He said cheerfully as Ethan offered him a coffee. Angelo had Adam in a headlock as Tony came in "Yes we know and your bitch is misbehaving". Ethan handed Tony his coffee "Are they awake then?" he asked. Tony nodded "Yes I could hear them talking quietly". Ethan grabbed two cups and filled them coffee and headed upstairs leaving Tony talking to Angelo whilst Adam was still secured by Angelo's muscled arms. "I've experienced so much over the last 12 hours Mark" Ben said cuddling closer to Mark. Mark kissed Ben on the mouth "I'm glad I could be part of that". Ethan knocked on the door and Ben froze knowing they were busted "Hope your both decent" he said. Mark patted Ben "Don't worry I think we are already busted" he said to Ben "yes we are Ethan". Ethan walked in to the room "Coffee" he closed the door and walked over "You okay Ben?". Ben nodded with a tinge of embarrassment "Yes" he meekly responded. Ethan smiled "Good, we are all downstairs so come down when your ready". "Thanks Ethan" Mark held on to Ethan's hand. Ethan looked strangely at him "What for?" he asked and Mark nodded towards Ben "Oh right" he waved his hand and left. Ben showered and came back in to the bedroom "I still don't have any underwear to put on". "I have some clothes that I keep here I am sure mine will fit" Mark hopped off the bed naked and disappeared. He returned still naked holding a pair of briefs that Ben tried on and surprisingly they fitted perfectly, Ben looked at his perfect body and ample sized cock, he was for the most part smooth chested and flat stomached. There was no six pack about his body it was muscular and just perfectly fit and looked so beautiful. Mark watched Ben looking at his body "Do you approve?" he asked. Ben looked up sharply "Sorry it just looks so good" he replied sheepishly. Mark smiled and moved towards Ben and ran his hand down Ben's chest and arms "Do you work out?". Ben shook his head "Not really, it is from sports at college" he said with self doubt. "I like it just the way it is Ben, you are perfect" Mark leaned down and kissed him. They both dressed and went down towards the kitchen, Ben was as prepared as he could be thinking they would be mocked when they entered. But in some way he felt comfortable being with Mark and knew it would not be malicious just banter between friends. Mark took Ben's hand and they looked at each other "Brace yourself" he said to Ben. Ben leaned in and kissed Mark holding his hand tighter "I'm not worried". Angelo looked up as they walked in "Morning, Ben you found your underwear?". Ben didn't expect that comment and gave Angelo a ha ha look "Morning to you". Ethan laughed "Morning" whilst Adam and Tony sat and just grinned at them both. "We are thinking of going out for lunch, Ben can you stay around and come to lunch with us?" Angelo asked. Ben nodded "If your sure I would love to thank you". Tony stopped grinning and looked at Ben "And is this a thing now?" nodding to them both as everyone stopped and waited. Ben innocently shrugged his shoulders and looked at Mark who squeezed his hand "I don't know". Mark looked seriously at Ben "I would love to date you". Ben smiled "Yeah, me to, I mean you, date you, you know". Mark nodded and smiled "Excellent" he leaned in and kissed Ben. Angelo was over the moon that finally Mark had found someone he liked enough to warrant dating them. The six of them sat around drinking coffee and talking, Mark had to be near Ben all the time as he had hopelessly fallen in love with him last night in bed, but he was holding his cards close to his chest for now in case things didn't work out. Angelo had not seen this before in Mark and it was evident to all of them except Ben that Mark was becoming increasingly besotted by him. Ethan saw the empty milk carton on the kitchen counter and persuaded Mark to let go of Ben long enough so they could nip to the store. As they left the house and turned down the street Dr Chalmers was pulling in to his drive and asked Ethan if the wound had healed up, Ethan responded saying it was all good and no mark was visible now and thanked him. "What was that all about?" Ben asked Ethan. Ethan glanced at him "Oh, something I will tell you later, but I do need to talk to you about Mark". Ben stopped walking "Did we do something wrong?" he asked urgently. "No, I mean did you and talk last night, like did he tell you something about him?" Ethan carefully said. Ben smiled "Well yes, he told me he has hiv. I get the impression he is not the only one" he said fishing around. Ethan looked at Ben "You may as well know, I do and so does Angelo" he waited for a response. "Did you fuck without condoms?" Ben asked in a casual manner. Ethan nodded "It wasn't on purpose though, I was swept up in my first experience and well that was that". Ben looked at him "Oh Ethan, I'm sorry. Do you know who it was?" he asked him. Again Ethan nodded "It was Angelo, he has been the only person I have had sex with period". "Wow I never knew that. But what happened after?" Ben was intrigued as Ethan was opening up for the first time. Ethan smiled "When I fell ill from contracting hiv he looked after me and the rest is history". Ben put his arm around Ethan "He is hunky I can see why you fell for him". Ethan stopped "Don't make the same mistake I did, play safe". "Yes, but I read how freeing it can be not having to worry about catching it" Ben replied looking at Ethan. Ethan continued walking "Would I change anything now if I could, do you know I wouldn't". "It's not like I want it, but I want to be able to enjoy being with Mark" Ben said catching up with him. Ethan looked at him seriously "I can't dictate what you do Ben but understand you have it for life". Ben nodded "Ethan promise me you won't say anything to Mark about this". Ethan smiled "You are still my oldest and closest friend Ben, you can always confide in me". "There is one other thing I want to tell you" Ben went quiet for a moment "I like Mark a hell of a lot". Ethan smiled "To be honest what is there not to like about him and he will be good for you Ben". "Yeah. If it did work between us how will I know?" Ben asked as they reached the store. Ethan looked at him "Your heart will tell you Ben and you will see it in his eyes". "Right I sort of understand" Ben replied scratching his head. Ethan opened the store door "But I think that boat has already sailed". Ben grabbed the carton of milk "What did you mean?" handing the carton to Ethan. "We saw it in Mark's eyes last night and more so this morning" Ethan replied heading to the cashier. The cashier smiled and greeted them and Ethan noticed his glances to Ben which to anyone else would have meant nothing, Ethan read his name tag pinned to his shirt 'Joshua' as he walked up to the counter. "Quiet morning Joshua" Ethan asked. Joshua smiled and looked again at Ben "Very quiet this morning, but then it is a beautiful morning". Ben was astounded how brazen he was being but he smiled and made eye contact "You must be bored being quiet?". Joshua completely blanked Ethan "Can be but it does have very good moments" he replied and winked at Ben. Ethan put the money on the counter "Do we need anything else Ben?" he said seeing Ben smiling at Joshua. Ben replied in somewhat of a dreamy state "What... err no I don't think we do, do we need anything Joshua?" Joshua smiled and shook his head "Just your change, for now anyway". Ethan took the change from Joshua "Come on Ben we need to get the milk home". Ben took one more glance at Joshua "Have a nice day Joshua". Joshua laughed as they opened the door to exit "Bye Ben" he said shaking his head. Ethan bumped deliberately in to Ben "Joshua has the hots for you". Ben laughed "I guess that is what flirting is all about" he said bumping Ethan back. Ethan put his arm around Ben's shoulder "I missed you Ben, never do that again". "I promise Ethan, just so dam annoyed at myself" Ben sounded annoyed as he said it. Ethan looked at him "Why?" he questioned him. Ben shrugged his shoulders "All these years being together as friends and we kept those secrets". Ethan found it a little awkward and underneath he knew what Ben was really referring to. They returned from the store and walked back in to the kitchen as Mark was brewing more coffee and the guys were finishing cleaning up the remnants of the party. Mark saw his reflection in the window and was heading towards him with the milk, he wondered if Ben had been talking and thinking whilst he was away with Ethan. Had he come to some crazy conclusion that last night was a mistake, his worries were unfounded as Ben put the milk down next to Mark and kissed him on the cheek. "Nice walk to the store?" Mark asked opening the milk. Ben turned and leaned back against the counter "Yes, needed some fresh air, shouldn't have drunk last night". Mark nodded "Oh, did you talk with Ethan?" he stopped to look at Ben. Ben laughed "Yeah, non stop" he fell quiet for a moment "There is one thing...". Mark stopped him "Are you regretting last night?" he asked holding the milk carton. Ben smiled "Oh god no I loved... I mean enjoyed you being in bed with me" he went all flustered. Mark put the milk carton down "So what is on your mind?" he asked with relief. "How to tell my parents, I don't want to end up hiding behind the truth" he replied looking down. Mark nodded "It is your right to tell them, don't delay in case someone does it for you" he turned to face Ben. Ben cocked his head to one side "Yeah I know, it sort of happened with Ethan, my mother told his mother". Mark put his arm around Ben "I sort of heard bits of it and the falling out with Ethan". Ben turned to face Mark with a sorry expression on his face hanging over from the whole Ethan debacle. Mark's instinct told him it was what he was thinking so he kissed him on the lips and just stared in to his eyes, it was as if his eyes spoke to him with meaning. Mark slowly touched Ben's lips with his own, they parted with tender kissing. They had no idea how long they had been kissing but it was Adam who interrupted them. "One thing you had to do Mark and you couldn't even manage that" Adam laughed loudly seeing them kissing. Ben smiled and blushed "Sorry my fault. I will help him" he said beginning to rinse the cups. Ben stood grinning as he helped Mark in the kitchen, eventually they headed out for lunch in Larchmont where Ben had the best fun ever with his new found friends. A friendship that was more akin to a second family where he was not judged. As they parted ways Mark drove Ben back to Harrison and dropped him off down the street from his family home. "So when can we go on a date?" Mark asked as Ben unbuckled his seat belt. Ben looked ahead at the road "I don't know, is next weekend to long to wait?" he asked. Mark shrugged his shoulders "Yes, but I suppose I will have to wait". Ben looked at him "You really do like me?". "To be honest I am quite scared about how much I do" Mark confessed to him. Ben smiled "Meet me Wednesday at 6pm here, we can go for bit to eat, not a date though". Mark smiled "I like that idea, Wednesday it is". Ben quickly kissed Mark and slipped out of the car and began to walk down the street, he turned and looked smiling at Mark before he carried on walking. Mark sat watching him until he disappeared from sight. Ben stopped by the kitchen where Margarite his mother was with and quite surprisingly Ellie, it would appear they were on talking terms again. His mother asked if he had a good time and Ben was being careful about what to say said how much he had enjoyed his weekend spending it with Ethan after so long. He made his excuses and went to his bedroom closing the door firmly and getting undressed. Opening the closet door he reached in to the back behind his sneakers and pulled out his journal. Ben was quite an avid reader and writer and liked to keep a journal about his daily life, he grabbed a pen from the desk and jumped on to his bed turning the journal to the next blank page he simply wrote the weekend and Saturdays date and underlined it. Turning on to his stomach he began to write... "Life can throw many challenges and obstacles at you in the space of a few hours and Saturday was no exception by any standard, writing something like this is a first for me and maybe I cannot express or explain it properly at least I thought I might have been older and wiser before penning this to you my journal. Ethan and I seem to have brought our friendship back on track, the last few months were heart breaking as when you have been in love with someone for so long but never act on it you end up broken, it is all part of me experience and growing up. I met his boyfriend, well fiancé as it now transpires who is one of the most sexiest men straight from a model shoot looking person, he has a confidence about him that is not arrogant just very sure of himself and his tattoos and muscles are simply worth being near him. The hardest part of the weekend was Ethan kissing me but not as a normal friend would kiss, I had his tongue in my mouth and he tasted as I always imagined Ethan was taste, that is to say perfect. It brought back to many uncomfortable truths and had I known then what I know now we may even have been together in college as a couple, if only the brave part of me would have surfaced how things could be different. But I respect him enough and I got my kiss from him but undeniably he really does only have eyes for one person that much I could see and feel in the room whenever they were close. But I digress in my own fantasy of Ethan which has now been over shadowed by someone else. I was surprised if not shocked to see Franco at the party but as it turns out he is Ethan's fiancé's cousin a person who in himself is totally rough around the edges but an amazingly kind person, he swooped me off the doorstep and began introducing me to the various guests. If anyone believed in fate they might laugh or applaud but within minutes I met the man of my dreams, apart from Ethan that is, he was introduced to me but disappointingly told he was straight. I still get embarrassed when people are introduced as gay or straight as if it was something you had to know and I still find it hard coming to terms with being labelled as gay in a group of people. What struck me was how very grounded he is, his short dark hair accentuating his really boyish looks he is no muscled bound ripped god of a man but he is beautifully crafted and smooth to touch. Oh yes I got to touch him and loved it. My shyness put a barrier up immediately and my mouth would not work as I struggled to vocalise and phrase my words. I saw during the evening how he would look over at me, how do I know that?, well I was looking at him a lot as well and don't think I have blushed so much in such a a short space of time. How can a person be so intimate just by looking at me?. The party was good, well I think so having never been to a party like this and everyone had their little groups so I just assumed this was the norm at these types of parties. The evening took a completely unexpected twist when I found myself in the kitchen getting some water, I thought Ethan had come in but when I turned he was standing there close to my personal space. Well journal you know about how I hate my personal space being invaded, something was different about him and the way he stood there eyes boring in to me, I didn't mind him being close to me at all I can tell you that. My essence craved him but what do you do just go down and blow them?. Not me I was rooted to the spot just looking at his face and eyes, oh yes those eyes are a deep pool of emotional bewilderment but you find yourself unable to stop staring at them. Did he kiss me you ask journal, of course he did, I didn't expect it and tried to push him away but he was back for seconds and this time it was meaningful and deep and there was no resistance on my behalf this time. I couldn't contain my arousal and erupted in my underwear (which reminds me he has still got them, but then I have a pair of his that I am still wearing.). It all got very awkward for me that is and I ran off leaving him there, I almost cried in the washroom for being so stupid and frightened am I really that afraid of being me. I want to be gay but I am finding it hard to cross that final hill mostly from fear of the unknown. He came to washroom and we spoke whilst I embarrassingly tried to clean myself up, I don't know but I think he loved the innocence of me even more seeing me so vulnerable, I would like to think that anyway. One thing I never saw coming as I laid in a strange bed that night was him appearing in my room and sliding in to bed next to me. I was elated inside from the warmth of his body just touching mine but I froze staring at the ceiling, what is a boy suppose to do in this situation intimacy is strange to me and maybe this is what the barrier is. Well nothing as it happened, we kissed and touched each others bodies not really venturing down below but then am I ready for that?. I woke up in the morning feeling his cock parked between my ass cheeks, a little shocked at first and somehow so right. Needless to say everyone knew by the time we came down for coffee and they were all very chilled about it. But what is more exciting was finding out he was I guess straight on Saturday but full on gay by Sunday so go figure that one, Ethan did tell me something but that is not for you. I'm knackered and need to sleep and think about him, we are having dinner on Wednesday and he has asked me out on a proper date this Saturday. Excited beyond the planets and stars as I write my thoughts down in you journal, cannot fathom out what has happened to me this weekend but I liked it and it felt like a very happy place to be. Pen down and time to get some well needed sleep, good night." He closed the journal and put is in his draw by his bed for now, thinking he would move it in the morning to it's hiding place.

Ironic, isn't it. The virus must take hold and replicate itself, and when it controls you to spread it around, it is doing its job. You become not only its host, but also its manufacturer. And the gift goes on. And on and on and on. Venom was right. This must be part of the allure of conversion. The control. The lack of control. The monsters dwelling inside us. The toxic spew that is continually producing itself.

Part 5 Chris was a tall gray haired thickly built guy who I had seen a few times before at the baths. The thought of his beer can thick cock made my hole twitch and as it twitched I felt the wet warm load slowly dripping out. I clenched my ass tight not wanting to lose a drop, wanting desperately to keep it as lube for Chris’s massive cock. “Hell yes,” I head Chris respond, and turned my head to see where the voice was coming from. I watched Chris pull his cock from one of the other bottoms in the slings and walk over. I had never thought about how hot Chris was until this moment, before when we were both tops he didn’t much matter, but now that my hole was primed with a load and ready for his cock to stretch me further and further he looked like the god of all Daddies. His cock swung from side to side in front of him slightly as he walked over to me, ass juice glistening on the broad mushroom head from the hole he had just been fucking. He smiled at me, hunger burning in his eyes. “Fuck,” Chris said turning to Tony, “Thought this boy was a top only how did you finally get inside his hairy little fuck hole?” “Flipped him on his back and eat his cunt out till he begged for my cock.” Something about having these two stunning men talk about me as if I wasn’t even there turned me on even more and my hole gave another powerful twitch. Tony stepped closer and ran his hand across my sweaty cum covered crack. As his fingers touched my hole he pressed gently on my hole and I willingly opened my hole to take four of his fingers inside me. “And now,” Tony added, twisting his fingers around inside my hole, “This total top’s been turned into a nice loose open fuck hole cum dump ready for breeding.” “I’m going to enjoy stretching out his hole even further.” Tony pulled his fingers from my hole with a soft plop, and Chris stepped up between my legs a wicked smile on his face. His thick mushroom head pressed against my hole and after a few long moments steadily began to stretch my hole wider and wider as it sunk inside me. My heart quickened with lust and my stomach jumped into my throat as I felt him slide with only a little discomfort balls deep inside of me. Chris groaned as he sank deeper and deeper inside of me his smile widening clearly enjoying my warm cummy hole. “How old are you kid,” he asked as his balls came to rest on my ass. “Twenty-four,” I moaned in reply. “And tonight’s the first time you’ve been fucked?” “Yes.” “Jesus you’ve been waiting this sweet cunt. You should have been on your back with your legs spread for cock sense you turned eighteen. That’s alright though, we’ll just have to get you bred extra to make up for lost time.” Chris started to pump his cock in and out of me slowly. “You would like that wouldn’t you boy, you want a load from every top in the bathhouse willing to give you one?” “God yes. Please fuck me! I need more cock.” The words surprised me even as they came out of my mouth but at the same time I knew they were true. At that point I wasn’t sure I would ever want to top again, my whole world was centered around the overwhelming extract of having my ass stretched and penetrated by tick meaty cocks.