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Chapter 23 By now there were about fifteen guys in the room. Josh excused himself from our little group and went up on the small raised stage in the front of the room. "Hey guys, if I can have your attention for a few minutes. There's been a slight change in plans tonight." Several of the guys let out a moan and you could hear someone say 'not again.' "Yep sorry our scheduled neg bottom bailed yet again but I have a special treat for you all," he managed to get out before the group really started to get vocal. "Brandon come on up here." He walked from the back of the room through all the guys, many of who reached out to touch him, several grabbing his ass as he passed. By the time he was standing next to Josh there was no mistaking his hard cock through his tight shorts. "Alright you twisted fuckers, this here is Brandon." He gave a little wave and of course started blushing. "Tell the hungry men how old you are." "I'm nineteen." Several of the men started cat calling and whistling. "And I understand you just took your first poz load earlier today." "Actually it was my first time getting fucked period." Now all the guys were whistling and cheering. "You mean to tell me you were a virgin before today?" Josh asked barely containing his delight. "I mean I've sucked a lot of dick but never been fucked until today." "And the loads you took were poz?" "Yep, both guys are toxic." He had a huge proud smile on his face. "Are you on PrEP?” "Nope." "What do you want from us?" "You men to fill my neg pussy with your toxic cum." With that he turned around, dropped his shorts, bent over and used his hands to spread his ass cheeks giving everyone in the room a perfect view of his beautiful, hungry cunt. That did it for Josh. He had his hard dick out and slammed into Brandon's hole in one go. It didn't take long for Josh to start blasting his load deep inside. He bent over Brandon's back and whispered in his ear, "welcome to the family, whore." He pulled out and turned Brandon back around to face the crowd of very horny men. "Can I get two volunteers to get this slut in the sling?" Two big muscular older daddies who were closest to the stage jumped up and grabbed Brandon. They both had managed to lose their clothes why Josh was breeding him. On guy took his legs while the other took his arms. They secured him in tight then the one by his feet shoved his dick inside and started to pound his pussy. "Dumb fucking faggot chaser, I'm gonna knock you up with my high viral load." The other guy was busy chewing on Brandon's nipples, while a third was fucking his face. Everyone was naked, stroking their hard dicks, patiently waiting their turn. Josh came over to join us. I noticed his cock was still coated in cum and ass juices so I did what any good faggot would do, dropped to my knees and cleaned him off. "Damn, he has an amazing cunt. Thanks for bringing him, I really hope he's okay with getting knocked up." I stood up and just chuckled, "doesn't matter what he wants, he needs to be pozzed. He's right where he's supposed to be." One by one the guys took turns loading him up with poz cum. After every few loads Jimmy would jump in and eat him out trying to make room for more cum. Watching Brandon embrace his sluty side was making my hole itch for a hard cock. I had started fingering myself when I noticed this extremely hot guy enter the room. He was 6' short blonde hair, goatee, with hairy arms. He was wearing a vest with no shirt underneath so you could see his extremely fit body with a beautiful biohaz tat on his right shoulder. God he was hot! He gave Josh a hug and a kiss and said, "looks like the animals are having fun, that kid's not gonna be able to walk for days." Josh turned to us, "hey guys this is Mitchell, he owns the club. Mitch, this is my uncle Scotty and Dr. Manning." He shook our hands and doc said, "you can just call me Pete." "Well Scotty, the way you're fingering your cunt makes me think you wish you were the one up there on that stage," Mitch said. "Can't deny that, watching him get abused up there is making me horny as hell." "Why don't you turn around so I can check out your hole. Damn," he whistled as he ran his fingers around my cunt. "I can tell by the state of your ass you definitely love having a hard cock stuck up there." "Guilty," I moaned. He dropped his pants and shoved his dick all the way in. "I know all the loads are supposed to go in the neg boy tonight but I can't help myself, your ass is begging me to add my strain to yours." He started moving in and out. He grabbed my hips and pounded my cunt good and hard. "Fuck yeah," I moaned, "recharge my pussy." He let loose and flooded my guts with his cum. As he pulled out he turned me around and attacked my mouth with his tongue. Damn I liked this guy! Josh dropped to his knees to clean off his friends dick and doc just kept stroking. After that it was kind of a free for all. I ended up taking a couple more loads and even gave one to Jimmy, with the permission of his daddy of course. Brandon ended up the winner that night with 28 toxic loads. It took a couple of days for his cunt to return to normal but after that it didn't take him long to be begging for more cum. Which he did, of course taking any load offered no questions asked. We even reinstated our Friday fuckfests so Matty and Chris could help impregnate our newest member. A few weeks later Brandon came down with the fuck flu. As I was taking my turn taking care of him he mentioned he was so happy and couldn't wait to get his badge of honor tattoo. "You okay not knowing for sure who your poz daddy is?" "Honestly, it's kinda hot not knowing. I like the fact that I was a total fucking cum slut, no load refused whore, so anyone of a hundred plus guys could be the one." Yep he definitely belonged to our twisted family.

Chapter 18 Brody spent the rest of the day with me and I managed to give him several more loads. I even used my fingernails on his cunt to make sure he was very receptive to my gift, not that he needed it. I was pretty sure our first session together had all ready done the trick. Later that evening he received a text from his ex checking up on him. "Do you believe this fucker, after everything he pulled he says he's worried about me. What an ass," he said. "I have an idea. Give me your phone, get on all fours and spread your ass checks." He did as instructed and I shoved my cock back in his cunt. I moved in and out a few times to churn the cum and get some of it to ooze out around my dick. I took a couple pictures then handed his phone back to him but continued fucking. Hey I was already in, might as well add another load. When I finished, I collapsed next to him and gave him a kiss. "Send him those pics and tell him 'I'm fantastic, just took my fourth toxic poz load of the day. Glad you're not here asshole.'" "Oh my god I love it, that's perfect." He sent the texts and received a reply right away. 'Brody that's not funny! I really care about you. This is just sick and twisted behavior.' 'Yep and I've never felt more alive. I'm going to block you now, wanker.' He rolled over and gave me a deep kiss. "God that felt good. I'm so glad you were still in town." "Me too, you're such a sexy twisted slut. You should transfer out to the east coast, you'd fit right in with my friends." "I'm assuming they're all like you?" "You mean pozzed up sluts who enjoy nothing more than knocking up neg guys? Yep every fucking one of them." "Damn maybe I should. There's nothing keeping me here anymore." We fell asleep with him cuddled up against my chest, my arm wrapped around him keeping him safe. The next day he had a flight in the early afternoon so I made sure to give him one more load before sending him on his way. I couldn't wait for him to join the family and start his own recruitment drive. A few days later I received a text from Brody. 'Success, woke up feeling like shit. I think I'm pregnant.' 'Congratulations! You doing okay?' 'I'm absofucking perfect. Thank you so much for sharing your gift.' 'My pleasure. Now get busy and spread your seed.' My last weekend on the west coast Trevor threw me a going away party. I was excited to get home but I was really going to miss the guys out here. When I arrived my son let me in and I must say he'd come along way in such a short time. His little dick was still locked up but he had a new heavier collar. He also now sported pierced nipples and several tattoos, my favorite was on his right ass cheek and said 'property of Master Trevor'. He gave me a big hug and thanked me profusely for giving him to Trevor. I'd never seen him happier. He had truly come into his own and now knew exactly what he was. We walked out back to the pool where there were already several naked guys busy sharing loads. Trevor noticed us and detached the twink attached to his dick and walked over. We hugged and I spent a little more time than necessary rubbing my fingers over his asshole. "You know I never get fucked Kevin, not even for my favorite co-worker." I removed my fingers and started chuckling, "can't blame a guy for trying." "Believe me, you slut, there's plenty of cunts here for you to bred even a few neg ones. Turns out your son, my new boy, has several friends just itching to become knocked up cunts. Just look for the sluts with their pathic little dicks locked away. They're not allowed to refuse any load, if they do there banned from my parties for life." "Damn I'm going to miss you!" I said as he patted my ass and sent me in search of those neg boys. I stripped down and examined my soundings. There were small groups fucking all over the yard. I noticed this cute young guy over in a corner by himself. He was so busy fingering his pussy he was oblivious to everything else around him. He was moaning so loud he didn't hear me come up next to him. I grabbed his hand and slapped it away, before he could even respond I rammed my dick deep inside his pussy. He let out a loud moan. "Now doesn't that feel better than your fingers up there?" I asked while pounding away. "Oh my god yes! Thank you sir, please breed my cunt hard." I noticed his locked up dick and started fucking even rougher. "You want me to knock up your neg pussy?" "YES! Make me a poz slut. Give me your toxic load." That pushed me over the edge and I started filling his cunt with my special cum. I pulled out and brought my cock to his mouth to clean me off. By his head I noticed what at first glance looked like condom but as I picked it up I realized it was actually a cruel condom. "Damn boy what do we have here?" "Master Trevor gave each of us neg boys one with instructions to have our tops use them on us. I'm sorry I didn't give it to you in time sir but you were in me before I realized it and I was so horny I just needed you to use me." "It's okay boy, I did take you by surprise so I'll cut you a break. Why don't you get back on my cock and see if you can't make me hard again because I'm not leaving until I've had a chance to bred you wearing this condom." He didn't say a word just dove back on my dick. He was a good cock sucker and had me hard in no time. I put the cruel condom on and teased his hole with the spike on top. "You like the feel of that metal on you cunt boy?” "Yes! Stick it in please, work your cum deep into my DNA." I plunged my dick into his ass causing him to scream in pain. "You want me to stop boy?" "Oh dear god no! Wreck my fucking cunt, knock me up." "You got it slut." There was no way this kid was leaving this party still neg. I looked up and realized we'd attracted a crowd of men surrounding us, egging me on to poz the faggot. My load exploded from my cock going deep inside. I pulled out and saw the cruel condom was covered in pink cum with streaks of dark red in spots. Fuck that was hot. A big daddy bear standing next to me reached down and took the metal condom off my dick. He placed it on his own cock and took my place in-between the kids legs. The slut looked up at me with a huge grin on his face. His cunt was never going to be the same.

The only good thing about being a Mall Santa - beyond the extra pay check and the opportunity to take some time off being a bouncer at the bar - was the eye candy. Sure, brats leapt onto my lap (and more than a few managed to kick me in the balls doing so) and sure sometimes there's barf and there's a hell of a lot of crying, but some of the young dads are hot, but this year's prize definitely went to one of the elves. I'd never see him at my other job as there was no way he'd step into something as untrendy as the bear bar, but I got to see him just fine in his tight green elf pants (which were more like shiny spandex or yoga wear than actual 'pants'). And, before he put on his overly long elf jacket, I could see he was slender, sported some sharp little nipples which looked to be perfectly edible. Naturally he was a dirty blond, had soft brown doe eyes and even had dimples. He was the best damn thing I'd ever worked with - except for the attitude. I hated his attitude. See, he was a snob, an effete twink who knew he was cute and liked to drop comments into conversation to make sure we all knew who was looking at him (and that he'd noticed.) Once he found out I was gay, something I let drop casually to see if it would shut him up, it changed in tone, but his remarks were no less obnoxious, if anything, his remarks were even more unpleasant. For example I remember he said "I bet it's nice not having to worry about your gut, y'know, being a bear and all" and “I work really hard to stay this healthy and it’s a lot of work" and "It's gotta be hard to be around all the younger guys, eh? They probably blow right by you" and "I'm sure the bear community is interesting, I guess, but I'd get bored with all that flannel and denim." Stuff like that. Still, as flaws went, it wasn't insurmountable. I liked young fellows with attitude; I liked to put them in their place and drill it out of them, and as for his mouth? Well, I had gags aplenty at home. As for his crack about how hard it was to stay healthy, I had something hard I’d love to introduce him to, and damn the consequences. To him, anyway. Being Santa, I got to give the elves names, and he had no choice but to answer to Twinkie when we worked together, although his name was Parker, and I made sure to make him do any of the lifting - if only because I liked to watch him bend over, as only then would his coat slide up enough to show of his firm round ass. "Shouldn't you do this?" he'd ask, grunting lifting up the boxes of candy canes and little toys we handed out to the kids, trying to goad me on by adding "Aren't you supposed to be a big strong muscle bear under that costume?" It was said with mild contempt, and I could definitely hear it. "Oh I can lift," I replied in a low voice into his ear as he passed by, "...but I prefer to shove." He stumbled, and nearly dropped the box. His eyes widened, as I put my Santa beard on over my actual short beard, and of course I smiled at him. "What?" he asked. I smiled wider. "You heard me. We bears don't mind getting rough. Especially when there's good reason." I let my eyes trail up and down his slender form and then put on my hat and left the little changing area in Santa's village to go to my throne. When Twinkie showed up a few minutes later, he was a little more polite than usual at first, though he was back to his usual self by the end of the shift. The next afternoon, he dropped another obnoxious comment, "It's hard to find guys who care enough about personal grooming. All that hair, ick!" I waited patiently until there were no kids around and nodded at the red and over-sized white striped pole that was near the candy canes were stuffed in an open sack. "Hey Twinkie, give my pole a good rub-down." He blinked at me, obviously not accustomed to being on the defensive, and in a shaken voice asked "What?" I gestured to the North Pole. "It's dusty. Rub it down. I'm sure you know how. It's not complicated." He blushed, but I was the boss, so he grabbed some paper towel and a bottle of cleaner and started to clean it up. "That's right," I said, pitching my voice to him as I walked past on my way to the throne. "Get it just wet enough. You don't want it too slick, or you'll never get it off." I squeezed his shoulder, and felt him shiver beneath me. I watched him work, and he didn't meet my gaze at all, and just before he was done, I saw him put his hand in his pocket and adjust himself. I smiled behind my Santa beard. This was going to be fun. I went in to full gear with him. Anytime Twinkie was alone with Santa, even if it was just a few seconds between kids, I'd find a way to drop a suggestive comment into the mix. "So what would you like Santa to shove through your chimney, Twinkie?" or "You want to suck on something? I got something right here." (And with that I would hand him a candy cane) or "Is your costume okay? You keep tugging at it" and "Santa could definitely use some warm buns - the pole sure is chilly." I'd grab his shoulder and squeeze when I could, and before long he was flustered and clumsy. Here was a boy who'd never had an older daddy bear chasing after him, and he had no idea what to do. His first few attempts at banter fell a little flat, and when I turned his comments into further innuendo, he fell quieter each time, just blushing and going about his day. "I'm pretty sure Santa would bring you any toy you'd like, Twinkie. You want to reach in and see what he's for you?" He blushed redder. "I bet elf-ears make great grips." This made him nearly trip. When we were changing after our shift on the last weekend before Christmas, he kept his back to me, and I admired his firm buns. When he tugged his jeans on over his elf tights I let out a little chuckle, and he flinched. When he put on his jacket and turned to leave, he saw I'd shucked down to my wifebeater and jeans, and I caught him looking at my wide chest and thick arms. "You see something you want for Christmas?" I asked him. He shook his head, blushed again, and said he'd see me Christmas Eve. "Sure thing, Twinkie," I said. "And I've got a present for you, too." He looked up, and I smiled at him in a way that made his whole body shiver. He moved to leave and I stepped in front of him just enough to make him hesitate. "Excuse me," he said. I smiled again. "I thought twinks just blow right by bears like me." He bit his lip, and had to slide by me. I let my hand brush his thigh and the back of his ass, and he let out a little breath as he escaped. I laughed loud enough for him to hear, and then got changed. Christmas Eve there were four of us working, and I brought each of the other elves a present to take home – Twinkie eyed his nervously – and when the long day finally ended, I turned to the other two and said, “You two can go ahead. I’ll give Twinkie a ride.” If they noticed his discomfort, they didn’t care – he’d made no friends of any of the six of us he worked with with his initial attitude – and they left as soon as they could. I watched Parker open up a box to put the last of the toys and candy canes in while the mall announced it was closing. “You make sure that whatever goes in goes in tight, Twinkie,” I said, and he bit his lip, working silently. We pulled down most of the more portable bits, and after a half-hour or so, I nodded. We were still in costume. “Okay,” I said. “The mall maintenance crew will do the rest before opening on Boxing day. Come on,” I said. My little elf followed quietly into the small room behind the throne, and I pulled off my beard and hat, waiting for it. I started to undo the buttons on my Santa jacket before he finally said something. He’d taken off the elf jacket – I could see his slim body trembling a bit in his plain white t-shirt and those tight elf pants and stupid curly-toed shoes. “Where’s my bag?” I feigned looking around. “Maybe one of the other elves took it?” He looked at me. “Please.” I smiled. “Let me look in Santa’s sack.” I made a show of looking in it, then said. “Nope, no clothes in there. Hey – check your present out. I know I said it was for later, but open it now.” He glanced around, then went to the box I’d wrapped and marked for Twinkie. He pulled it open quickly – he was a tearer, I noted – and then opened the lid. “You like it?” I asked, smiling. “You could wear that.” It was a green jock strap – the same colour as his elf costume – and across the waist I’d had “Twinkie” embroidered. He looked up at me. “Look,” he said, but his voice cracked a bit. “I’m sorry about all the stuff I said... You’re a nice guy.” I smirked. “No I’m not. I’m not nice at all, Twinkie. But I think you like that. Or at least, your dick does, if that semi you’re sporting is any indication.” He bit his lip, and I took a step toward him. “Tell you what, Twinkie. Maybe you should get changed, and sit on Santa’s lap, and tell him what you want for Christmas.” “I want my bag,” he said, but his voice had even more of a tremble to it now than before. “Then ask Santa,” I said, and smiled at him, pulling off the jacket and dropping it to the floor. The wifebeater I wore underneath was a bit damp from the work we’d been doing. I turned the only chair in the small room around, and sat on it, spreading my legs a little and crossing my arms. He looked at me for a long time – I imagine he was trying to stare me down – but I just held his gaze and smiled. Finally, shaking even more, he started to walk toward me. “No no no,” I said, raising one hand. I let my arm flex, and I saw his eyes shift to look. Oh, this was too easy. “You need to get dressed up for Santa.” He froze. “I...” “You want to ask Santa for a present, don’t you?” I smiled, and stretched my arms over and behind my head until my back cracked. He winced at the noise. Then he nodded. I watched him shuffle back to the box he’d unwrapped, and then he turned his back to pull his t-shirt over his head. I laughed low in my throat, and he flinched again. The smooth skin at small of his back emphasized his narrow waist. I laughed again when he kicked off his elf shoes and then hurriedly peeled off his elf tights in one quick motion and stumbled a bit trying to put on the jockstrap as quickly as he could. I got a great view of his lean legs and his round ass cheeks, as pert and tight as I imagined, especially when he bent over to step into the strap. I caught a glimpse of his balls, too – he had low-hangers – and was unsurprised to see no hair on him anywhere. He stood there, facing the wall, just breathing. “Come on over, Twinkie,” I said. He took a deep breath, and turned around. The bulge in his jock-strap made it obvious that despite his mild protest, he was definitely reacting to the situation. His stomach was as smooth as I imagined, and his chest was lean and fit. His nipples were as small and as sharp as I’d imagined, and I couldn’t help but leer at him. He approached slowly, and I made a grand show of patting my thighs. He shifted awkwardly in front of me, and then started to sit down across my thighs. I wrapped one thick arm under his and with a quick tug I pulled him into my lap, where – no doubt – he could feel my already obvious hard-on pressed between his wonderful ass cheeks. He shifted, and I wrapped both of my arms around him and squeezed. “Well hello, Twinkie,” I said, and he ducked his head a little, his hands gripping tightly in his lap, obviously trying to cover his arousal. I put my lips to his ear. “Have you been naughty or nice?” He looked up at me, his brown eyes wide. “What?” I raised one eyebrow. “You know how this works, Twinkie. First Santa asks if you’ve been naughty or nice.” I let go of him just long enough to wrap my arms back around him and squeeze, pinning his own arms against his chest. He was sitting across my lap, his legs over the side of my chair, and squeezing him pulled his face more toward my chest. I squeezed again. “Now, Twinkie, have you been naughty or nice?” “I...” He swallowed. “I’ve been nice.” I laughed, and it wasn’t a ho-ho-ho. “Oh, Twinkie. Santa has a list, and he knows you’ve been naughty.” I slid my left hand across his chest, and pinched one of his pert little nipples. He yelped, and squirmed in my lap. It made me growl low in my chest, and my dick grew harder. I looked at his jock, and saw he was definitely squirming in a good way, too. “Naughty or nice?” I repeated, rubbing his nipple again. “Naughty,” he said. I laughed again. “Good boy, Twinkie,” I said. “Now, you know what happens when you’re nice?” He swallowed. “I get a present?” I nodded, and squeezed again. “Very good, Twinkie. Now what do you think happens when you’re naughty?” He closed his eyes for a second, and I shifted just enough to grind my hard-on against his butt. He squirmed again, and it felt just as good. “N-n-no,” he wavered. “Santa gets the present,” I said, and with that I slid my left hand down his back and let one finger slide between those delightfully round ass cheeks just a bit. He let out a yelp, and tried to slide off my lap. I held him long enough to let him know I could have made him stay on my lap, then let go. He slid off, but I moved my hands to his shoulders and pushed hard enough to make him sit down at my feet. He looked up at me. “Time to give my pole a rub-down, Twinkie,” I said, and undid the broad flap on the Santa pants. His eyes locked on my crotch as I unfolded the pants open, and revealed the black jock strap I was wearing underneath. “Then I can have my bag?” he asked. I liked this – he was agreeing already, in his own way. “Then you can ask for your bag,” I agreed. He leaned forward, and lifted a hesitant hand. I reached out and took his wrist and pressed it against my hard dick. He rubbed it, applying a little pressure, and kept his eyes away from mine. I chuckled, and he looked at me. “I’ve seen you do better. You know better. Rub it down, boy.” He bit his lip, but shifted forward between my legs – which I spread a bit wider for him – and then he used both hands to pull my dick free of the jockstrap pouch, tucking it to the side. I’m sure the thick hair bugged him, but he wrapped his hand around my shaft and gave my dick another tug. He watched the foreskin tighten, and then gave it another tug. I got harder, and my cockhead started to peek out on his down strokes. “Now get it just wet enough, Twinkie.” His brown eyes met mine for the briefest of moments before he looked down again. His hand shook on my hard dick, and I exhaled long and loud. “Come on, Twinkie. You want to ask Santa, don’t you?” He leaned forward, moved one hand to my thigh, and then opened his mouth to suck my dick. When his lips wrapped around my cock, I let out a contented rumble, and leaned back in the chair. He was breathing quickly, and I had the urge to grab the back of his head and shove him down until I was in his throat. I resisted. Barely. He bobbed his head down a bit, and I groaned. The elf was a decent cocksucker, it turned out. I shouldn’t be surprised. The loud ones are always the ones gagging for a dick. After he sucked for a few strokes, I couldn’t resist putting a hand on his head, and though he tensed, he didn’t pull away. After a few more strokes, his tongue licking my dick and him getting used to my thick cock, I tightened my hold on his hair and lifted off the chair a bit to meet his sucking with a short thrust. He gagged a bit, but I held him firm as his hands gripped my red cloth pants. “Yeah, Twinkle, that’s not bad. You’re doing good, boy.” He slurped and sucked and sometimes gagged a bit, until finally, when I was good and hard, I pulled him away from my dick with a quick jerk. His brown eyes were watery with tears from when he’d gagged a bit. I looked down at him, and he bit his lip when I tugged his hair tighter. “Please..?” he said. “What’s that, Twinkle?” I asked, amused. “Can I have my bag?” I smiled down at him. “You don’t ask from down there, boy,” I said, shaking my head. “You know better than that, boy. Back onto my lap. And ask properly.” He shivered, and his eyes widened for a moment. “What?” I spread my legs a little wider, and slapped my red-cloth-covered thighs. My cock stood tall and proud – I’d put on a cock-ring before work for just this moment. Parker swallowed, but he rose shakily, and once again tried to sit sideways across my lap. “No no no,” I said, and grabbed his waist, turning him to face me. I slid my legs between his, one at a time, and then pulled at his waist until he slid forward and crouched over my dick. He sat down with a whimper, and I felt my cock pressed between those luscious round cheeks. His face was right in front of mine, flushed and awkward. He stared at my chest. I wrapped my arms around him again, and rocked him back and forth a bit, my cock sliding along his crack. “Now then,” I said, leaning ahead and putting my beard right against his ear. “Do you have a question for Santa, Twinkle?” “Can I have my bag?” he asked. “Hrm,” I said, and shifted my weight under him, rubbing my dick between his ass cheeks again. “Santa will let you reach into his bag, since you’ve admitted to being naughty. Let’s start with that.” Parker tensed, and I leaned over – more wonderful friction between my dick and his sweet cheeks – and I glanced down to see a telltale wet-spot on the front of his green jockstrap. His dick was very hard. I pulled up the bag and held it just a little out of his reach. He leaned over to get it, and I shifted just-so underneath him, rubbing my dickhead across his pucker for a moment. He let out a little whimper, and I smiled and let him reach into the bag. He pulled out a smaller bag, one of a few I’d put in there, and he held it in one hand. I slid my hands back to his waist and pulled him back onto my lap again, grinding my dick up between his cheeks and pulling him even closer to my stomach and chest. He undid the knot on the bag with trembling fingers, holding the small red bag over my stomach and then reaching inside and pulling out the first of the two items – a small bottle of lube. He swallowed. “There’s more, Twinkie,” I said, and took the little bottle from him. He reached in again, and pulled out the ball gag. I could tell at once he had no idea what it was, and I smiled at him. “It’s to stop naughty boys from saying naughty things,” I said, and he bit his lip frowning at the rubber ball and straps. “Please, I... I’ll be nice...” I smiled, and took the ball gag from his fingers with my free hand. I pressed it against his lips, and he whimpered before opening his mouth. I pushed it in, and then put the small bottle of lube in my mouth while I took the straps of the ball gag and tied them around the back of Parker’s head. I took the lube from my mouth and smiled at the young man. His eyes were wide. “That’s much better,” I said. “Can’t say naughty things, can you?” He made a noise, and I smiled even wider. “You know, I think Santa’s pole isn’t as wet as it needs to be. Don’t you agree, Twinkie?” Parker whimpered as I uncapped the lube and squirted some onto my open hand. When I reached behind him with the hand that held the bottle and tugged him up and off my dick, he pressed against my stomach and chest, shaking as he spread his thighs and balanced on his knees in a half-crouch over me – it wasn’t a position he could keep for long. I rubbed my lubed hand against my dick, then started to stroke my fingers up between the young man’s ass cheeks, pouring more of the cool liquid onto my fingers and giving his pucker a little prod with my finger tips. Parker’s hands gripped my shoulders and he was breathing in little puffy breaths, his knees shaking against my thighs, propped up against me. I moved my head a little and found his little pointed left nipple with my mouth and gave him a little bite. Ah, his nipples were sensitive, as was his little twink rosebud. Perfect. I sucked on his nipple. The noise he made into the gag was music to my ears. I pushed a little harder with my fingertip, and he pushed back against me, unable to help himself and still perched half up on his knees. “Oh, Twinkle,” I said, freeing his left nipple and sliding my mouth across his chest to the other side. “I think you want to be nice for Santa, don’t you? Very nice indeed...” He shivered again, but when I gave his right nipple a stronger bite, his whole body shook and the groaned into the ball-gag and my fingertip slipped into his pucker. I rubbed at him for a few moments while I chewed on him, and he groaned and writhed against me, his legs now quaking with the effort to stay upright against me. His hands gripped at my shoulders, now a bit damp with sweat, and I growled as I bit and sucked and licked at his nipple. I slid my finger further into him, prodding a little further, and he groaned again. Enough. I pulled my finger free – he let out a small moan into the rubber ball. I dropped the lube, gripped my dick, and reached up to the back of his neck and pulled him back down, aiming my cock upright between those pert round ass cheeks, right at his pucker. He cried out into the ball-gag, but gravity was against him, not to mention a big bear with a strong arm. He sank onto my dick and I felt that tight bubble butt open for my cock a few inches. He tried to brace himself against my shoulders again, and his head hung, his eyes clenched shut, while he grunted and groaned into the ball-gag. He was crouched, half-buried on my cock, his lean thighs shaking with the effort. “Oh, fuck yes,” I growled, and gave him a little buck. He cried out into the gag again, and squirmed on my dick, which only made my cock go in deeper. He whimpered and I pulled on him again. “Come on, boy,” I said. “You know you want Santa’s dick... that’s a bear dick sliding into you, boy...” I bucked again, and he cried out again, his legs shaking, and another inch of my cock slid inside him. He was so fucking tight. His voice was perfect now that it was silenced by the rubber ball-gag. “Oh, that’s a nice boy,” I growled. “Santa wants you to side down on his lap, and then you can ask him again, like a good boy...” Parker whimpered into the ball-gag, but his legs were shaking from his awkward crouch, and his ass was sending his brain the feedback that all good bottom boys get when there’s a dick half-way up their hole. He sat down on my dick, his cheeks speared on my dick, and his own dick hard and poking out now from the pouch of his green jock. His eyes were closed, and he was breathing in sharp puffs from his nose, still crouched above me, his calves now bearing his weight but his legs still half-bent in a squat. “Look at Santa, boy,” I said. He opened his eyes, and met my gaze. I nodded, and slid my hands down to his waist and gave him a sharp tug towards me. My cock ground around inside him, and his surprised yelp into the ball-gag made it obvious that my cock was rubbing him just right. Typical twink bottom boy – get some meat into him, and he just can’t help himself. “Okay, Twinkie. You want Santa to give you presents, don’t you, boy?” I tugged him toward me again, my cock hard and buried balls-deep up his ass. He groaned wildly, and nodded. I smiled, and ground my cock into him again, then reached over to my bag – not the Santa bag this time, but my own – and pulled out the cuffs I’d put in there. Parker didn’t notice at first, he was enjoying my dick rubbing him as I tilted, but when he saw the cuffs, his eyes widened. “First present, boy. Hands,” I demanded. He was shaking, but he held his hands out in front of him, obeying. I cuffed his wrists together, and then pulled his arms over my head, his cuffed hands now trapped behind my neck. Then, with no further pause, I started to jerk him towards me with rough tugs to his waist. He groaned and grunted, crying out, and I felt his hands twist and writhe behind my head. “Yeah, that’s a good present for you, boy, isn’t it?” I growled, and when he didn’t answer, I slapped his ass with my hand, hard. He yelped into the gag. “Isn’t it?” I asked again. He nodded, making inarticulate noises into the gag as I ground my dick in a slow circle inside him, rocking him to the left and the right. “Hold on, boy... This hairy bear has another present for you...” I gripped under his legs, and rose from the chair. My cock, buried in his tight pucker, must have speared him as I slowly rose to my feet, and he moaned, his arms tight around my neck, his back arching, and his legs wrapped around my waist. He was helpless, hung around my neck, impaled on my cock, and totally at the mercy of his ass, which was definitely clenching around my meat. He groaned and grunted as I managed to grip his ass in one hand to hold him in place while my other shucked the oversized red pants down. I stepped out of them in nothing but the black boots now, and then walked with the young man riding my dick all the way to the one solid wall of the little hut – the one built against the back of the escalators in the mall. I shoved him into the wall, and buried my dick into him hard. He cried out again. “Okay, you little shit,” I growled into his ear. “You’ve been a pain in my ass for weeks, and now I’m going to take it out on your ass in trade.” I slammed him again, burying myself deep. “With interest.” I pressed him against the wall, and used one hand to tug his head to the left, so I could rub my rough beard all over his smooth neck before giving him a rough bite and other three hard thrusts against the wall. Parker whimpered and moaned and cried out into the ball-gag. “Such a fucking whore, aren’t you?” I snarled. “High and mighty, but put a dick up your ass and you’re nothing but a chew-toy for the bear, aren’t you?” I squeezed his ass cheeks so tight it would bruise, and rammed him again. He cried out into the gag again and again. “Aren’t you?” He nodded over and over, agreeing as his skin grew wet with sweat. My wife-beater was getting wet with my own sweat, and I could smell us as I fucked him like the cheap little shit he was. “You ready for your last present, boy?” I snarled at him, reaching up and gripping his chin with one hand, and making him face me. His eyes were wide and they fluttered when I rammed him again and again, the friction magic with the lube and his tight hole. “Boy?” I growled. He nodded. I reached under him, and unsnapped the cockring. My balls ached with the urge to spunk inside him. Then I reached back up gripped the back of his head. I picked up my pace, ramming him ruthlessly. “Here’s your choice, boy,” I said, voice even. “You can let me breed you boy – fill you right up with my dirty bear cum and give you the gift that keeps on giving – or you can have your clothes back. Your choice.” His eyes widened as what I was saying made it to his foggy getting-fucked brain. I laughed when I realized it took him so long because he was so close to coming himself. “I’d say you’ve got about six or seven thrusts from this bear dick before you need to choose...” I undid the snaps on his ball gag and tugged on the ball-snapping it free. I rammed home again. And again. “Please!” he gasped. I rammed him again, grinding him against the wall. “Please what, boy?” “Oh!” he gasped, “Oh, oh fuck! Please! I need... I can’t...” I fucked him again, and his moan seemed to come from deep in his stomach. “What do you need? You need me to fuck you and fill you up, don’t you boy?” I rammed in hard. “Yes! I mean, oh, I mean...” His head slammed against the wall with every thrust, and reached up and gripped his head in both hands, spearing him against the wall with one last rough lunge as my balls unloaded deep into his boy-ass. His eyes never left mine, and he cried out as his own dick spurted between us, slick against his smooth stomach and rubbing into my damp wife-beater. I stayed buried inside him while my cock surged twice more, and then ground myself into him a little bit before I pulled away from the wall. His arms tightened around my neck, and he let out a little choked sob. “You want your clothes now, boy?” I asked him. My cock slid free from his ass, and I felt some of my sperm drip onto my thigh as he shifted to stand on his own feet, his arms still around my neck. I fingered his slick hole, and he whimpered a little. “What’s that?” I asked. “Yes please,” He said. I smiled. “Good boy. And then Santa will give you a ride back to his place. He’s gonna fill your chimney with presents all night long, boy. You like that idea, Twinkie? This bear is gonna tie you down and you’re going to learn how much you like a hairy man who can plow you so hard you’ll be begging to pass out. You want that for Christmas?” Parker looked at me, and swallowed hard. “Yes, sir.” I smiled. “I like your attitude.”

If they let you in bare, there should be an expectation of taking the cum. I hate a bottom that wants it bare, but during the fuck asks you "pull out before you cum". Usually in that case I'll shoot one or two spurts before yelling that I'm cumming and pulling out to shoot the rest on them. I did pull out then. Just not right away. Now, there is another case. If you have a bottom who wants to fuck with a condom, but you talk him into letting you in bare. Even "just for a few strokes", then it's more of a fun game to try and convince them to let you shoot in them. Get them turned on enough, tell them how good their bare ass feels, mention how slick they are because of all the precum i'm putting in them. Usually they end up just begging for the final load in them.

New Year started with a bang. Or two actually. Yesterday early afternoon I texted my regular fuckbuddies to wish them a Happy New Year and saying I was hoping to see them soon. One texted back "How about in an hour?" And another one, a semi-regular who I hadn't seen for months, asked if I was doing anything that afternoon. First guy arrived an hour later. Said it was going to be a quickie as he was on his way to friends for drinks. Still took him about 15 minutes of hard pounding to dump his load. Said he would be back soon. Second guy I hadn't seen for months. He is the one with probably the biggest cock I ever had. Slow sensual fuck. I actually already came when he bottomed out and just started fucking. He took his time. Had a massive orgasm (one of the best ever) just before he shot his load. We chatted a while to catch up and then he left. I have the feeling this is going to be a great year!

I'd arrange to meet up with a horny Nigerian bloke on NYE before going out for the night...start as you mean to go on as they say.😜 We usually meet when out cruising in the local woods & he likes my hole pre loaded so he wanted his mate who was with him to breed me first. His mate was a nice stocky hairy bloke from Manchester, nice thick 8" uncut hairy dick & big low hanging balls. When I got there the mate was naked & rock hard so I got work sucking his dick. After a few minutes he got me bent over the back of the arm chair, fingered some spit in my cunthole then shoved his fat dick in hard. He had me groaning really loudly & my dick dripping almost instantly as he plowed his dick deep in my cunthole! His big balls swinging & slapping against mine. 5 minutes of him raiding my cunthole & he had me howling as I climaxed! My cunthole clenched his shaft as my dick squirted my thick seed everywhere! He roared " I'm gunna cum" & grabbed me firmly as he thrust in deep to plant his big load in me. My fuck bud was ready & waiting for my creamy cunthole stroking his big veiny 10" uncut Nigerian cock! As soon as his mate pulled out he rammed his monster in me!! I was back in heaven again! He was hitting the spot making me growl with ecstasy! It was a good 15 minutes of hard intense fucking when he dumped his big load in me, feeling him pumping inside me sent me over the edge & my dick started squirting another hands free load. When he pulled out I grabbed my plug from my jacket & shoved it in my hole, thanked them both as I got dressed then headed back home to get ready for sleazy NYE. Did the usual bar crawls before heading to a sleazy sex bar, time seemed to fly by cos before I knew it I was at the bar chatting to a very beefy lad when the midnight countdown started! Everyone was cheering as we wished each other a happy ny, he then moved in & kissed me. We then stop & looked in each others eyes & started kissing again, full on sloppy man snogging with tongues. I groped his dick & he was rock hard un his jeans, he slid his big hand down the back of my jeans heading for my hole. When he fella felt the plug he stop kissing & asked if I had a load in me, when I said in his ear I had 2 in me he got very excited & told me he wanted to ad his load. I grabbed his hand & took him off to find a cubicle to use, as soon as we found one he locked the door & got me up against the wall, pushing me jeans down, pulling out my plug & rammed his big hairy 9" uncut dick in me & smashed my cunthole mercilessly till he blew his load in me. I sucked him clean & he left, as I was sorting myself out putting my plug back in my I hadn't realised the door was a jar & a couple of lads had stopped for a look. As I turned round they pushed the door open and asked if i was up for more dick. I told them to lock the door & give me their dicks! I had one in each home, both about 8" uncut. They were both fucking hard, it wasn't long before the lad in my cunthole blew his load. He mate pulled out of my mouth & shoved it in my cunthole to dump his big load on my too! 🤤🍆💦💦 I could not feel the cum moving inside me so I reluctantly went to the toilet to release some by 3am I'd sucked off 4 guys, I went to the toilets for a piss before heading home. As I was waking to find a station that didn't have huge crowds waiting to get in I noticed my Nigerian breeder had sent a msg at midnight! I replied and asked if they were having fun. He replied that they were at home horny & asked if I wanted to join them. I got a cab over to them and joined them for what turned out to be an 8 hour breeding session! 🤤😜💦💦

I love how you've taken the previous story to the next level...OINK!

I was 35 when i started doing anon. One night was out and got bit drunk, ditched friends at bar and went to local sauna. Got a cubicule and decided to wait there with my ass up. Soon someone was touching my ass and door locked. Hand was replaced with a hard cock and with a push he was balls deep. Told me not to look back or raise my head. 5 minutes of hard fucking and he delivered a big load very deep. Stranger said thanks and left quickly. Soon i was raising ass up again for next guy.

Chapter 17 Things started to settle down a bit during the next week. My son was a complete and total whore, spending most of his time with Trevor becoming his sub boy. I was back to full health and hornier than ever. Saturday morning, starting my third week at the hotel, I received a text from Brody, my hot little red headed flight attendant. 'Not working today, horny as fuck, can I come over?' Works for me! He arrived about an hour later. "Where's that boyfriend of yours?" "Ahh, he, umm seems to be having second thoughts." "Wait what? But I thought you guys had been chasing for awhile and the way he brushed your cunt with that toothbrush. It seemed like he really wanted you guys to convert." "That's what I thought too, but apparently he's actually been on PrEP this whole time. He thought it was just a fantasy for me and I'd been talking about doing the brushing for so long that he just got really carried away with it and says he wasn't thinking things through." "Fuck me!" "I know right. So that night with you, really freaked him out, especially when your test came back positive, but he couldn't say anything to me without showing his hand. All those the times I thought we were taking toxic loads the guys were actually undetectable. After we left I was so fucking happy but he just couldn't take it anymore and told me what he'd done. He felt so guilty for brushing my cunt he was sure I was going to catch the bug because you were so toxic." "Damn, what an ass. I'm so sorry. He seemed so into it." "Thanks, I really thought we wanted the same things but turns out I was wrong. He doesn't understand this compulsion, this need I have to be pozzed. After he apologized for helping me catch the bug I just looked at him and said 'there's absolutely nothing to apologize for this is exactly what I wanted.' He of course didn't think I was ever really serious about getting knocked up. He's such a fucking asshole. Not sure what I ever saw in him." "I have to say I thought it was so hot to find a couple who were chasing. I'm really sorry it wasn't true. So what are you guys going to do now?" "He convinced me to try to work through it with him but then last night he told me he'd been thinking about it all week and just couldn't be with someone who'd actively chase to be poz. Fantasy was one thing but doing it for real was something totally different. I told him that's perfect I didn't want to be someone who's negative and can't understand the beauty of poz men." "I'm so sorry Brody." I pulled him into a big hug and squeezed his firm ass. "I have a feeling I know what might make you feel better." "Oh yeah, just what might that be," he said rubbing up against my quickly hardening cock. I started kissing him and taking off my shorts. My dick popped out and he dropped to his knees. "Good boy, you know the drill get it nice and wet that's all the lube you're getting." He continued sucking for another ten minutes until I taped his head and told him to strip and get on the bed. He had the most delicious looking asshole. I started tongue fucking him until he couldn't take it anymore. "Stick you fucking poz dick in my pussy and knock me up now!" He screamed. I rammed in and his eyes rolled to the back on his head. "Perfect, now breed my fucking neg cunt and turn me poz." "You slut, there's a good chance you're already poz and just don't know it yet. Your ex is too late to keep your faggot ass bug free." "Thank god! I don't want to be neg anymore, make sure I'm poz please!" "Here you go slut, more toxic cum, you little bug chasing whore."

Hi guys, I have some pretty serious fantasies about me getting raped by a group of guys - and reading some stories on here has given my slut brain even more to think about. It would be great to write a story on here that develops as you guys give me more plot ideas of my eventual rape. What would be even more horny is if some of you guys were planning to find me and make the last chapter a reality and be written by you - posting pictures of the actual event. Now obviously this would not be actual rape - i do not condone that one little bit - but i know im not alone in this fantasy either! So if any of you like this idea - i will start writing the intro section. This will set the scene of who i am and why i need this. It will give the first clues as to who i am or where i am in real life. As the story develops i hope a few guys will figure out where and who i am - and i will obviously be starting to get an idea of what my eventual rape is gonna be like. By that time - hopefully i will only be a matter of days/weeks away from having this fantasy become much more of a reality and my story will be finished by some of you from here. If you like the sound of this - let me know and i will start writing. Hoping this doesn't break any rules here. And i think i am posting in the right place - please do let me know if this is not allowed lovely Mods!

str8 guys a turn on for you? Easy, gay guys, esp bottom gay guys, by very definition, looks for/wants "MEN" and wether it's PC or not to say it. Deep down gay men feel the defining role of a man is to procreate and so being str8 is the pinnacle of what gay men look for.

I usually edge myself while getting fucked and taking loads at a sex party. That and the fact that my prostate has been battered all night usually has me locked & loaded and ready to blow by the end of the night. So getting my cock sucked and shooting my load in a hot mouth is my favorite way to get off. At a NYE sex party last night, all the stars aligned for the most amazing blow job that I got. I’d tried a few cocksuckers yet nobody was doing it for me...until I met this one guy that kissed like a dream and worked my nips amazingly. He never let go of my nips as he moved me up against a wall, slid down and engulfed my cock with the sweetest, wettest, warmest mouth possible. Still working my nips, he kept edging me closer and closer until I was completely desperate to cum. I finally huffed some poppers, gently held onto his head and fed him my rock hard cock and told him he was going to eat my cum which only spurred on this amazing cocksucker. Just as I started rushing on the second hit of poppers, my entire being was focused on my painfully hard cock. I sank myself into his throat and he started to swallow my cock. That did it. I blew his head off with an long and explosive orgasm while he swallowed every drop of my huge load. And he didn’t stop there. For the next few minutes, he gently sucked my spent cock even after it lost all hardness. Truly an amazing blowjob...

Let me respond to you this way: You’re concerned that 35 is too old? I didn’t take a cock until I was 37. I turned 53 last month, and your 24-load annual goal is what I took in in one really good day last year. And I guarantee you that no matter how small you feel like Jacksonville is, it’s a metropolis compared to the one-goat town I’m in - yet I’m still able to travel around and fulfill my sexual purpose. Plus, unlike you, I have a face made for radio. So for you, getting the cock or ass (or the actual relationship) you want sounds as if it will be more a matter of adjusting your own expectations and standards, once you accept that you’re prime material. 1. Don’t be one of those guys who holds out waiting for Mr. Perfect. You’ll have a lot more fun playing with regular, normal guys, who can be surprising in the sack if given half a chance. 2. Travel around a bit if you can, especially to a bigger city, and just tell yourself that since nobody knows you, it doesn’t matter if you get a bit debauched. Permit yourself. 3. Cast a wider net. If Grindr isn’t working for you, why are you still using it? You can run profiles or ads on BBRTS, Growlr, Adam4Adam, Scruff, Manhunt, Doublelist, and others - the more exposure you have, the greater your chances. 4. Searching for an intimate connection with another man in the current environment is like panning for gold. Everybody’s out there trying to strike the mother lode, but the reality is hours and days of swirling gravel (and flakes) and water around in a pan just for the occasional glint of something in the bottom. Sometimes it’s fool’s gold, and sometimes it doesn’t pan out at all, but - there’s gold in them thar hills. I find my share of it, and you can too.

My first load of 2020. I was on the beach in New Zealand cruising the dunes when I saw a guy walking naked. He was in his late 50s with a trim body and average size cock. We did at speak a word and started to play with each other’s nipples. Then we both blew each other for a bit. He reached for his lube and poppers and we both had a snort and he started to lube my cock and work his fingers towards my hole. He had me do the same to him. After a bit he turned around and I slid into him and fucked him for a bit. I also wanted to feel him inside so we switched places, he started to pound me and was getting close so I grabbed his ass and got him to unload in me. A great way to start the new year.

Today the wife and kids drove a few hrs to see some family so I cleaned out and got on Grindr. I hit up a young Latino who's somewhat of a regular and told him to stop by. I was laying on the floor with my ass propped up and face covered when he walked in. He got to business and slid right in my hole, he's not that big but he's able to last more than just a few minutes and his load is decently big. Every so often hed pull all the way out and finger my hole before lining back up and ramming it in. This went on for about 15 mins before he finally slowed down and bred my hole. He took a few pics for me after so I could see the cum running down my ass. https://assets.s3xstatic.com/bz/uploads/monthly_2020_01/923737574_IMG_20200101_1250201525.thumb.jpg.46efa35ea2925a58e0bb6c198c2ab373.jpg

This is my last three loads from work. I am an Uber driver. 1) guy gets in my car and asks me to take him to the seedy part of town to score some crack. I waited around the corner and made him go get it himself. After we went to the private booths at an adult bookstore and he smoked it while I blew a load into each of his holes. 2) guy gets into my car super drunk and in almost no time at all he's grabbing my tit from the back seat. I let him kiss me and I get invited into his house. I blew a load in his mouth and he blew 2 and a little piss into my mouth rude. 3) 22 year old kid in my car invites me into the back seat. We kissed and I blew him while he talked about wanting to flip fuck with me bare. After he came he thanked me for "confirming that I'm straight". Yeah right I'm an Uber driver old enough to be your father and I made you curious? As if. Delicious cock though

In response to your question; Should I feel bad? Absofuckinglutely NOT! And as for guys saying to you the following; ... Extremely poor manners -- Unnecessarily cruel -- Uneducated. If someone does not want to have sex with someone for whatever reason then that's fair enough, but in the name of common decency it is completely unacceptable in my humble opinion to display such vitriolic behaviour. U = Undetectable. Undetectable = Untransmittable. Fascinating that you went from receiving such animosity to getting fucked by two men as a result of updating your profile, neither of whom asked your status. The sheer irony. One would guess that maybe now a certain percentage of viewers of your profile are assuming you are on PrEP. You gave the date of your last bloodwork, and now state that you are medicated, thus more than enough information for you not to feel bad at all my friend. And yes, you are safer than those who don't know they are poz. You sound responsible enough to me. And a very Happy New Year to you 😊

Chapter 22 Brandon I can't believe I was still horny with three loads of poz cum insided me, but dear god I was. I needed more and Scotty had a perfect plan for me to get some. I left his apartment and headed home to uncle Pete's. When I opened the door he was sitting on the couch reviewing some papers. "Hey Brandon how was your run?" "Didn't end up going." He looked at me confused. "What happened?" I walked over to the couch, kneeled down in front of him, opened his zipper and pulled out his hardening cock. I looked up at him with his dick in my hand, smiled and said, "uncle Pete, I wanted to tell you how much I appreciate you letting me stay with you and especially for introducing me to Scotty. I have three loads of his toxic cum deep in my pussy and desperately need more. He thought you might be willing to help me out. With that I dove down on his cock. He rapidly grew to full size. I got up, took my shirt off, turned around so my back was to him and lowered my shorts. As I leaned over I heard him gasp as he saw the butt plug. "You horny slut, prancing around the apartment in your tight running shorts. Making Scotty wait over a month to take your cherry. I'm going to fuck you so hard, add my toxic babies to Scotty's. You want that don't you slut?" "YES! Make me your fucking pozzed up cum whore. Please fuck me hard, slam your cock deep inside, show me no mercy." With that he yanked the plug out of my ass and shoved his dick in so hard it took my breath away. "Fuck me!" I screamed, and man did he ever. He literally fucked the cum right out of me. I was getting really good at cumming hands free. Scotty Later that day I received a call from the doc. "Damn Scotty you destroyed my nephew's cunt. His ass lips are so puffy but damn he's one horny slut." I started laughing, "yeah and I'm sure you didn't dive right in and help with his transformation. How many loads does he have now?" "Okay so I may have add a few but the slut's still horny." "Why'd you think I sent him home to you," I was really laughing now. "Well I have a thought. You know Jimmy, a friend of Josh's?" "Of course one of my patients." "Oh right I forget how many of us twisted motherfuckers have you as our doctor. Anyway, Josh is helping him throw a conversion party for some twink friend of theirs. He's trying to get me to go as their friend has a thing for older guys." "He won't mind if we crash?" "He asked me to invite every old poz guy I know so I think your safe. And you know Josh, all you have to say is neg hole and he'll be so far up Brandon's pussy he won't know what hit him." "Okay text me the info." The party was being held in the basement of a club. I guess Josh was friends with the owner and had even helped poz his ass. This was the owners way of giving back to the community by holding pozzing parties in his basement. I arrived around ten pm thinking I'd be fashionably late as Josh had said to get there around nine. Yep should've known better, there were only about four guys there but at least I knew most of them. "Hey Josh, I thought you said nine?" "Well turns out Jimmy told everyone to get here around ten which means they won't show until eleven." Just then doc and Brandon walked in. "Uncle Pete I thought you said there'd be lots of guys here." "Well that's what Scotty told me." "You must be the Brandon I've been hearing so much about," Josh said coming over to give him a hug. "Don't worry, there'll be plenty of guys here later. I'm sure you'll be very popular being fresh meat, oh wait you're not fucking yet right?" Brandon turned bright red. I put my arm around him and said, "actually, I think it's safe to say the only reason he's here tonight is he's hoping to collect a few more loads." "Seriously, that's great congratulations. Who popped your cherry?" "And I thought you were bad Scotty," Brandon said shyly. "Own it! I love being a slut and don't care who knows it." Josh was grinning like a fool. "Umm, it was Scotty this morning and uncle Pete this afternoon." "Good for you! You're neg right?" "Well I was this morning," he blushed again. "Oh then you're going to love this party and the guys are going to love you. This is a conversion party for our friend, so if he actually shows, you and he will be the only neg guys here." I looked at Brandon and he was adjusting his growing cock inside his shorts. A few more guys were arriving and one of them saw our group and headed for us. Damn, it was Jimmy, I almost didn't recognize him. He was covered in tattoos, had several peircings and appeared to be collared. A large daddy was right behind him. It looked like he'd definitely embraced his new life. "Hey Jimmy, Carlos," Josh greeted the newcomers. "I'm gonna kill him. He promised he would be here, that he was ready to get knocked up and now he just texted me and said he changed his mind. Half of the guys coming only agreed to when I told them it was a conversion party." Well it was nice to see somethings never changed, he was still a drama queen. I cleared my throat, "ahh sorry to interrupt but I think we can help you out. Our friend here just started taking poz loads this morning and he's still horny as fuck for more. I'm sure he'd be more than happy to be your neg bottom for the evening." I looked at Brandon, he was shaking his head yes and smiling from ear to ear. Jimmy's daddy was grinning too, "oh hell yeah boy! My friends are going love a hot little otter like you. How old are you son?" "Nineteen sir." "Fuck yeah, he's perfect Jimmy. No offence but he's a much better fit for this group of poz daddy's than your bratty friend. This is the second time he's done this now." "You're right daddy," he turned to Brandon, "congratulations, there's absolutely no way you're leaving here tonight still neg."

don't know his name but he hangs out at steamworks most every sat night. always has a room, sometimes likes to take it in the dark from man after man. always huffing those poppers.

Hey doomsdayers, I can get cancer from the stuff on my lawn and in the processed food I eat. I can get a brain tumor by keeping my phone near my head too often. I can get hit by a truck tomorrow afternoon by looking the wrong way. I can have a stroke or a heart attack next week because of my genetics. Anything out there can fuck you over. Anything - but its pretty rare. I barebacked for 15 years in almost every Country on earth at almost every bath house on the map, in the most unsafe, dirty environments you could imagine, parTying with strangers from anywhere with no regard for anything except if they had a cock they could use my holes and amazingly I am HIV-. 3 months ago I went on PrEP but I know that is just a safety net that won't work 100% and that's OK. I probably won't get hit by that truck either but you never know. Smile and relax, it's going to be OK.

Thanks Neg4PozPittsburgh for this old BBX posting.. --- I was tired of studying the other day. Logged onto Manhunt. Started jerking off. Got an email from a hot guy in his late 30s. Not normally my type but he had a fuckin banging body. Huge pecs, sleeve tattoo on his arm. Great bulging biceps. Thick uncut dick. He had a tidy trimmed black beard, brown eyes, a thick, manly forehead and black hair. His hairline was receding some which turned me on. Our dialogue follows. "U horny?" he asked. "Yeah." "Hot pics." "thanks. u 2." "U live alone?" "Have a dorm room but its a single." "Want me 2 cum over?" "Yeah." "I don't have condoms." "I don't either. If u want 2 fuck better pick sum up on way here." Twenty minutes later my room phone rang. He had arrived. I let him in. He was taller than I and power flowed from him. We made chit chat for a while and sat on my bed drinking Coronas. His jeans sported a hefty bulge in the crotch. His hands were calloused from hard work and his skin was tanned. He told me he was a builder. Then he leaned over and kissed me. It was long deep and passionate. He pushed me onto my back, pulled my shirt off. In no time we were naked and I was on my knees sucking his big floppy dick which stood hard as a rock about eight inches in front of him. He had a great furry chest and legs. Even his hard abs had a black furry coat. Then he pushed me back on my back and sucked me off for a long time. He sucked my balls, licked my piss slit, licked my ass. His tongue got real deep and felt real good. Then he fed me his dick some more and filled my throat. I could barely take it and tried to pull off but he insistently kept his big uncut manrod lodged in my gullet. "You can do it" he said gently. "Take it. Make me feel good." He was gentle but I knew I had no choice. He fucked in and out, in and out. Then I felt his thick, rough fingers probing my hole. He got out some lube and started sliding more fingers in. It was like sandpaper in my ass and I tightened up. He scraped away. Next I noticed him lubing his cock. "Did you stop to get condoms?" I asked. "No" he replied. "That sucks" I said. "We can't fuck then." "Shhh" he said gently. "Just let me poke the head in for a second." He poked in. "See not so bad" he said. I reached up and touched his huge muscular chest and stroked the hair. My hand touched his face. His beard was soft but prickly under my fingers. His dick kept poking deeper and deeper. I pulled him by the neck down to kiss me. He made out with me frantically. I could feel my heart beating like crazy. His raw dick pushed deeper and deeper into my ass and I closed my eyes to picture his precum coating my insides. I moaned. "Ok we should stop" I said. "Yeah, we should" he answered. His chocolate brown eyes connected with mine. He didn't even pause. His dick kept on pushing on in. That's when I felt his balls against my ass. "Oops all the way in" he said. He kept eye contact. "It feels real good." "Are you negative?" I asked. "Yeah, completely" he replied. He started fucking in and out. "Wait stop" I said. "Shhhhhh" he said gently. "It's great. You feel so good. Let me make you feel good." "We should have a condom" I said. "Its ok I trust you" he said, fucking harder and harder. The piston fuck was the most intense feeling of my life. "No, stop" I said. "I'll pull out in time to cum, I promise" he said. He grunted, fucking up a good sweat. My worries slowly melted and I gave over to the sensations I was feeling. Something huge was invading my guts. Pummeling in and out. "Fuck yeah" I finally said "Bareback me." His eyes lit up. "Yeah, you like that fuckin' raw dick in you?" "Fuck yeah" I said. "Give it to me raw man." "Fuck yeah, pussy boy" he hissed. "Take it. I'm gonna give it to you good." "FUCK yeah!" I said. I got more and more into it. Eventually he bent me over the bed and rammed me from behind. Then on all fours on the floor. Then he laid on his back and I slammed myself with all my might, up and down on his unprotected fuckpole. Then he got me back on my back, put my calves on his shoulders, and fucked me till he was red in the face. A big vein started to bulge in his head and he started to breath deeper. "I'm gettin' close!" he said. "Don't cum inside" I begged. I grabbed my own cock and started jerking for dear life. He gave me a few more frantic dick plunges then pulled out with a cry, "FUUUUUUUUCK!!!" He pointed his dick DIRECTLY at my hole and let loose what felt like a firehose blast of hot cum right on and in the gaping orifice. Then he plunged back in, balls deep and growled like a hungry angry predator, "SHIT!! SHITT!!!! YEA! FUCKIN SON OF A BITCH!!! OH, YEAH!!!!" He looked me in the eyes panting. "Oh that felt so good" he commented. My own dick was still hard in my hand. "Told you I'd pull out in time" he said. "But you just" "Shhhh" he cut in. "It feels really good. Enjoy it." I could feel tons of liquid dripping down my asscrack onto the sheets. "I'm still hard" he remarked, adding "I'm going to cum again, but this time inside you." He plugged my protests with his tongue and his bearded mouth enveloped mine. It hurt when it scratched against me. He started fucking in and out with his cock which was still rock hard. My ass was slick with cum. I kissed him back. It felt so fucking good. I gave over to it and let myself become his cumhole. He made love to me but also made me his object. "Fuck yeah" I groaned. "Yeah, you like that?" he asked. "Yeah" I answered. "You want my cum?" "Yeah, fuckin' cum in me." I was jerking off now. He piston fucked for about 30 seconds then started grunting. "Here it comes. Here it comes. HERE IT COMES!!!" Then his face contorted like crazy and he let out another animal, angry, vicious growl. "FUCK yea! TAKE my fuckin' load! TAKE IT!" My dick started shooting squirt after squirt of jizz all over. His cum kept dribbling down my ass as he held his dick in me for a long time. After several seconds he remarked "That was hot." "Yeah, it was" I admitted. He stood and started getting dressed. On the small of his back I noticed a little biohazard tattoo. "What's that?" I asked. "Souvenir tattoo from Miami" he said with a laugh. He kissed me. "That was a great time." I kissed him back. I felt his cum smeared dick getting hard again. "One more" he said. He shoved me face first onto the bed before I could reply and he rammed in balls deep. "AWWWWWW!" he groaned. "FUCK yeah. FUCK!" One stroke, and he shot and just came as deep as he could. "FUCK that's hot. I'm cumming in you." He dressed and left. Now I'm sitting here online looking up what the biohazard tattoo means and I'm getting worried. But it was the fucking hottest time ever. He came over again yesterday. Maybe I'll tell you about that later.

Part 1 - The Early Years There are two things in life I found I liked from a young age, reading and keeping a journal. Books were my everything at a young age since they kept me out of harms way and blissfully ignorant to everything that went on around me. Was I a sensitive child, pretty much so but also very impressionable with an erratic behavioural pattern that surfaced when least expected. Secondly my journal, I discovered I had a flair for writing growing up. It was a way of expressing my thoughts and frustrations, but also secrets. Some were not my own to hold but I became the keeper of them without any one knowing. So the impressionable part of me very much shaped my upbringing, sometimes life can cause things to happen that you never thought possible or needed until they presented themselves. My life was complicated from a very young age, some would say in a bad way, others would say it was destiny and things happened for a reason. I also had two people who played a very instrumental part in my life, one from a young age who would be by my side as we grew up then leave and come back in to my life when you believe there is no hope of finding a true path to happiness. The other person trusted his intuition about me and helped me become the confident assured person I am today. When you stand at a fork in the path and can't decide weather to go left or right, you simply go down the middle and to hell with it. Yes it will upset some people but it will force them to show their true colours and love you no matter what, hopefully that is. So who am I you may ask, you have probably seen me but never knew what lay behind the page or billboard since I keep my life very private. It doesn't matter how famous you become, the one thing you learn is never trust anyone on face value as information is power and the last thing you need is someone having power over you. That way you keep control of your life and protect those you love and hold dear to you. But I will tell you this, my name is Tom and that is what I prefer, annoyingly my mother still insists on calling me Thomas when she is mad at me and Tommy when she is doting me. I am a 24 year old rustic blond so I have been told by photographers. At five feet nine inches tall or short depending how tall you are, I have what was described to me as the most finely sculpted face and body. Now I don't assume myself to be attractive by any means, after all I just see Tom in the mirror who is an ordinary Texan lad. But all of that will reveal itself. So I will tell you the secrets about me that my journal holds but in a way for you to understand me better and how I ended up here. The problem with me is that I lived through my journal and held things in there that could have destroyed lives and nearly did as you can never predict how a person would react. That happened when I was 20 but it changed my life in a way I never thought possible. Should I have been more careful to hide identities instead of blatantly writing them down to be discovered? Yes, but then what? Wouldn't I be living a life full of lies or where I am now. I will start were things really began to shape my life in a way I had no control over and that was when I turned 8 years old, it started when my parents finally split up. I cried and screamed as my mother dragged me out of the house and placed me in the car with our belongings, at such a young age I had no idea why this was happening and being taken away from my father. I knew they argued and understood that their marriage was in ruins and she had to break free, but I never realised it would involve taking me with her. It's not your fault Tommy she would always tell me, but my father had put up with enough of her hard work ethic leaving him to look after me albeit I was a little out of control. I loved my father but also liked to play him up as much as possible by throwing tantrums usually when mother was out of town on business and father had his bit on the side over, he never suspected that I knew what was going on. I was an only child desperate for a sibling but that was not going to happen now. We must have drove some 50 miles to the large town where my mother worked, little did I know then that she was also seeing another man and that had become serious. Seth as it turned out was a few years older than my mother, at 30 he had dirty blond hair and stood an impressive six feet and still retained a muscular jock build from his school days, he was pretty successful with his small company and lived quite well in a sprawling ranch house in the countryside. Gradually I was introduced to him over several weekends, I didn't care much for him after all he wasn't my father. Seth was divorced and had a son who was 10 years old. At the time I paid little attention until the day my mother sat me down and explained that we were moving in to Seth's house in the country. Not only was I contending with a new school but now I was to be uprooted again to a different place to live, strangely I had calmed down a little by this time and was studying diligently at school, I showed a love for some sport especially wrestling, you could say I had become a model child. Maybe my father was the cause of my bad tantrums and his lack of love to my mother and me. At the start of summer holidays Seth arrived and began helping my mother to move whilst I sat in my bedroom head in a book as usual. I had packed my clothes, books and Xbox as that was all I needed in life to keep me happy. Seth was unlike my father he actually showed an interest in me from what I liked reading to what sports I did at school, I was torn between my loyalties and slowly I put up a barrier between Seth and me to prevent any closeness developing, but he was persistent and told me how I would really get along with his own son Brad who was 2 years older than me. Personally I couldn't see how on earth we would connect and it is what scared me the most, as much as I yearned for a sibling I never bargained on getting an older one. I carried my book out to his black BMW X5 which towered above me, for a eight year old I was fit and healthy albeit just five foot five inches with hopefully more growing to do, it still seemed like a big climb as I heaved myself in to the back seat and settled down. I was also trendy for my age with the latest haircut of buzzed sides and longer on top that was neatly combed, I took pride in my appearance as I knew it would help me get the right girls as school. Being gay or even thinking about it never crossed my mind but life has a way of turning your hand over before your eyes so I found out. My mother said goodbye and I panicked looking at her but she smiled and said she was following on in her car as there was no room for me to sit in there. I opened my book and stuck my head firmly in to it, I had never been alone with Seth and it was going to be 40 minute drive out of town. Briefly I looked up with what must have been eyes full of fear as Seth sat in the drivers seat and he glanced at me through the rear view mirror switching the engine on. Seth backed the car out of the short drive "It will be okay Tom" he said pulling away from my home. I watched out of the window as we moved away from my familiar surroundings "Really?" I replied. "You and Brad will get on just fine and he is excited to meet you" Seth said glancing in the mirror. I looked over at the mirror to see his eyes looking at me "Right" I said and faced back to the window. "You said you like wrestling at school Tom?" Seth asked me trying to engage me in conversation. "Yes" I replied without moving my head as a tear rolled down my cheek in sadness leaving things behind again. Seth smiled "Brad does wrestling and likes to work out so you have something in common" his eyes watching me. "Great" I replied emotionless wiping the tear from my cheek, the rest of the journey was silent. The car stopped "This is Medina Ranch" Seth said coming round to the boot of the car and opening it. "You have to be fucking kidding me, where the fuck are we?" I said kicking the gravel hard on the driveway. Seth didn't even look at me "Use those words again and you sleep in the barn" he said smirking. My mother pulled up in her car "Tommy what's wrong?" She asked walking towards me. I looked at her "How could you bring me here?" I angrily asked waving my hand at the expanse of greenery. She stopped at looked around "It's beautiful here Tommy you will love it" she said trying to calm me down. Seth watched me walking off "Leave him, let him get it out of his system" he replied shrugging it off. Julia turned to Seth "I really thought he would embrace this new life" she said. Seth pulled a box out of the car "He will come around Julia". Okay so underneath I wasn't quite the model child Seth had expected but little did I know my anger and frustration was born out of who I would eventually become as I grew older and understood myself better. In the meantime I found a quiet spot nearly half a mile from the house under some large trees where I sat down and cried my heart out, the thought of spending six long weeks with no signs of life or friends ripped through me in boiling anger. Seth took all my belongings and put them in the garage telling my mother that I needed to learn and will have to move my own belongings and grow up. My mother felt ashamed of my behaviour but Seth casually waved it off saying he had been through that with Brad. Guessing I must have been out for nearly three hours before realising that no one was coming out to look for me, hungry and thirsty I stood up and walked back towards the house, I got even more wound up and annoyed as I had got dirt on my book and frantically tried to clean it as best I could. In my tantrum I hadn't even looked at the house which stood imposingly on the plot, part single and two story sprawling ranch style it was definitely bigger than any house I had lived in, I stood looking at it with dread as it was to be my prison until I could move away, well that was how I saw it since nothing else seemed to be living around here. Walking up to the doors I opened the left one and let myself in and stood in the large entrance hall, I could hear my mother and Seth talking and walked towards the voices finding myself in the large kitchen and dining area. "There you are Thomas" my mother said reverting to my proper name, I knew she was angry. I looked at them both "I've ruined my book" putting it down in front of my mother. Seth turned the book around "I have a copy of that in the library you can read" he said looking at me. I sat down opposite them "Thanks" I replied with a genuine tone for the first time. My mother retrieved a plate from the refrigerator "You must be hungry Tommy" she said placing a sandwich by my side. "I am, thanks mum" I said already devouring it as she brought me a fruit juice as well. "When you finished I will show you where you will be sleeping" Seth told me with a smile on his face. Seth and my mother escorted me along a wing of the ranch house in to another lounge area that was clearly used by his son and then in to a large bedroom suite with two double beds, to be fair the room was almost as large as the apartment we had just left. It had an en-suite bathroom and wet room and overlooked the back of the house, the room angled around the pool area and my heart lifted seeing the large pool. Having never had a pool before I had not learnt to swim but the thought of being able to sit in it and paddle around made me smile. When they told me I would be sharing this area with Brad I argued to the point I upset myself realising it was a futile argument. Seth told me I would get along just fine with Brad and they turned to leave me with Seth pointing out my things are in the garage and to move them. I sat there alone putting my head in my hands cursing at my new life, I knew my mother was going away tomorrow for a couple of days with work which hastened the moving in. Residing to my fate I decided to make the best of a bad thing, I mean how much worse can it get. Eventually I found the garage and started moving my things in to the room, I was getting hot and sticky with all the walking and unpacking, I stripped off down to my shorts as I began unpacking my clothes and putting them in the walk in closet on the side that was empty. Outside and unknown to me Brad had returned on his quad bike and parked it in the garage, for a 10 year old he could easily pass at being 15 or 16 due to his tall broad build that he got from his father. Inheriting the dirty blond hair and striking blue eyes he was pretty well muscled up and had a very solid build for a kid his age. He carried it off well, even the seniors at the school daren't get on his bad side, he had a wonderful relationship with his father unlike me with mine. Brad walked in to the house and headed to the kitchen in his polite and mesmerising manner he sat and chatted with my mother until Seth said for him to go and meet me as they were going out to dinner and the housekeeper would prepare our dinner. Brad walked along the wing to his pad as he called it and saw the lounge area remained as when he left it that morning. He waited watching for his father and my mother to leave before he walked towards the bedroom, it was quiet apart from the clanging of coat hangers coming from closet. He looked at the bed seeing a few books strewn across it, he had never shown any inclination or interest in reading books unless he had to for school. He turned and walked towards the closet, standing at the doorway, I was unaware of Brad's presence or that he was scrutinising me from behind. "You like being in the closet" Brad asked making me jump that I missed the rail to hang a shirt on. I quickly turned frightened "Fuck don't creep up on me like that" were the first words out of my mouth. Brad's eyes looked at me trying to figure me out "Didn't mean to scare you" he said I could see the muscles in his arms and thought twice about hitting back "I'm Tom" I said shyly. "I'm not stupid I know who you are" he turned and left me in the closet. I walked in to the bedroom "I never asked to be here, so don't take it out on me" I said picking my books up. Brad was taking his t-shirt off "Yeah well were both stuck with this". I guess I must have been staring at him before I asked "How did you get so big?" then blushing at my upfront nature. Brad looked at me with his head to one side sizing me up "Working out and a muscle building compound". I nodded and went back to my unpacking, he ignored me listening to the music on his phone. Finally I finished after checking the clothes were hanging in an order that I liked and wiped my brow from the humidity. I had a quick shower to cool down and decided to look outside since Brad showed no sign of wanting to show me around. All I wanted to see really was the pool and I wasn't disappointed as it was large and plenty of shallow water at one end, I did a quick look around and took my reefs off and paddled in the shallow end for a few minutes enjoying the cool water over my submerged feet. "You can go in if you want" Brad said standing at the French doors watching me. I felt a little shame "No it's okay" I replied without looking at him. "Can you not swim?" he asked me walking out and joining me as I paddled. I hesitated "No" I said quietly not wanting to embarrass myself "I want to but never had a pool where I lived". Brad sat down on the edge of the pool dangling his feet in "I can teach you if you want". I looked at him but he was staring at the water "Really, you would?" I asked him surprised. Brad looked over at me "Yeah, well we got all summer vacation and there isn't much to do around here". I walked over and sat beside him "Thanks, and will you help me get muscle like yours?" I nervously asked. Brad laughed "If you want but it's hard work" he said nudging me "What are you going to do for me?" he asked. I chuckled "I have nothing to offer, I like reading and playing on my Xbox" I said to him. Brad smiled at me "You can read to me" he replied "you know the books I have to read for school, you can read them to me". That was the moment that we became friends, not quite step-brothers just then, but friends was a good place to start. The first few days I had terrible stomach ache as my body adjusted to the high protein muscle building compound, I think Brad got quite a lot of enjoyment seeing me running to the toilet. He told me not to worry and it will settle down in a few days, he introduced me to the gym by the pool house and got me lifting weights for half an hour in the morning and evening. True to his words he began to teach me to swim and by the end of the summer vacation I was at least no longer afraid of deep water and could happily manage a couple of lengths of the pool without loosing my breath. A week into our new found friendship Brad invited me to go for a ride on his quad bike, he packed some fruit and water along with a book in to his rucksack and gave it to me to put on my back. I was a little scared as I had never been on this type of bike but he drove slowly with me clasping him tightly in case I fell off we drove for about 20 minutes, passing fields and wooded areas until we hit an open expanse where I could see a line to trees and bushes stretching as far as the eye could see. Coming to a stop we walked a few meters in to the clearing by a shallow river the flowed gently meandering out of sight. "This is the Medina river" he said taking the rucksack off my back. I looked around "It's really pretty here" I said taking it all in. Brad smiled sitting down on the edge of the stream "My favourite little hideaway, the ranch is named after it". "Ah right" I replied sitting next to him. He pulled the book out of the rucksack and handed it to me "Your end of the bargain now" he chuckled. I took the book and laid on my stomach "Okay" I replied. I have to admit I started to find it intoxicating being here, the gentle sound coming from the water in the river flowing over the pebbles, the sun beating down and reading aloud was my idea of paradise, I even left my hair messed up from wearing the baseball cap. I kept looking at Brad when turning the page of the book, his eyes were closed hand clasped behind his head, whenever I stopped reading he would open one eye to check on me causing me to giggle several times. There was no doubt about him as rough and tough as he was on the outside he was a very different person underneath. I must have read nearly a hundred pages before he put his hand on the book to stop me reading and handed me some fruit and water. We walked in the stream hardly saying anything to each other until we returned back to our spot where he handed me the book again, I read a further 3 chapters before I put the book down and laid on my back looking up at the dappled sunlight coming through the trees. The rustling in the trees signified a change coming, Brad only to aware jumped up and packed the rucksack telling me there was a storm coming in, something that was quite usual for this time of day when the heat rose sharply like it had during the afternoon. Sure enough just a few hundred meters from the ranch house the heavens opened as the wind picked up in velocity driving the rain in to our faces. The storm lasted for an hour before the sun appeared again. We stood in the garage soaking wet and just laughed as puddles began forming at our feet, from that day we found our sense of humour to be very similar. A few days later at lunchtime we were heading out to the Medina River again, today the sun was already blazing hot in the sky so I sat down right the waters edge so I could dangle my feet in the water to cool them down as I read aloud to Brad, he sat a little further up so I could only see his legs, after an hour I turned on to my stomach and laid down resting on my elbows continuing to read. He did make me laugh seeing him chilled out chewing on a long stem grass, his eyes closed hands clasped behind his head. We walked a mile down the stream and back again before heading home, this afternoon was different as we chatted a little more finding our feet with each other. As the days passed we spent more and more time together bonding and enjoying working out then spending afternoons at the Medina river. By the time the vacation ended I was ready to return to school, it was my first day as this new school, as nervous as I was there was nothing to worry about as I fitted in straight away, Brad looked after me since we had become inseparable over the summer vacation. Those long summer days turned me in to a somewhat confident swimmer, I was beginning to show some muscle tone which I loved and many kids in my class commented over. Never would I realise how much of a catch I was to the girls and was never short of attention from them in my year and even some of the senior girls flirting with me. One thing I was probably more dumbstruck by was hearing them remark how attractive I was. It got worse as I aged, well I thought so anyway, it seemed almost all the school wanted to hang out with Brad and I, himself turning in to quite the muscle jock now having hit puberty. I felt a little overawed by all the friends and attention but there was something missing and that something was slowly beginning to show it's hand the older I got. It did take a couple of summers before Brad actually referred to me as his step-brother, after our parents married he began referring to me as his brother and it was this milestone that I articulated in my journal. I would usually write my journal sitting by the stream I found it gave me more flair when transferring my thoughts to paper. Brad would often sit there watching as I wrote, he knew I kept a journal and read it once when I fell asleep but he got bored as it contained nothing of interest at that point. It was from them I began hiding it and only writing when something needed to be downloaded out of my head, it had become my secret keeper. My reading to Brad had got him interested in books and studying and he did rather to well in his final years and won a place at a university some 300 miles away. Our years together were for the most part idyllic and every summer we shut ourselves away at Medina doing our own things. Our bodies changed but we both retained our looks and I grew from strength to strength with Brad's help. On his 16th birthday Seth allowed Brad to get a tribal tattoo down his arm. I sat with him and Seth as the artist worked for nearly 3 hours until finished. Sitting there I realised how much Brad was growing up and beginning to show independence, I knew our summers were going to come to an end soon enough. At 17 Brad was a real crowd pleaser and was now more often out than at home, I had heard rumours at school that he was bedding girls like there was no tomorrow, when he was home we would still go to the Medina river for some peace and quiet escaping life. I relished those days as I missed him like hell and was only too happy to read to him. At 15 I had a growth spurt and stood at my now five feet nine inches, I was pretty happy with my height, but it also caused my looks to intensify and muscle definition to proportionise itself to my body. It was several months after my birthday that I wrote down one of the most revealing feelings about me 'I feel my body has changed, I have hair appearing in places not much but enough, my voice is slightly deeper and I am beginning to feel like the boy in me is forever being lost. I like guys. Don't aske me how or why, I just do. I like their bodies, I like the masculinity of a guy who is very close to me. I never really thought I would write this down but somehow I need to express me and who I have become. I just don't seem to have any interest in girls and yes I know what this means but I am not ready for it. I need to come to accept it first and be happy about why my body and soul has gone this way. As much as I rack my brains trying to think why, there is no answer. No significance, no turning point, it has always been there waiting for the right time'. I put my pen down and watched Brad sleeping in his bed, discreetly hiding my journal as I knew that it was more important than ever to keep it hidden. I never wrote a lot down or did it on a daily basis, it was one of things I kept as a reminder of important things or situations now. I wondered if it showed on the outside that I was gay, I only questioned it as I saw less and less of Brad during that last summer before he headed off to university. It seemed his new friend residing in his pants was busy around and he started dating the head cheerleader from the school, Melinda. It was to put it bluntly my year of turmoil, I felt like my gut had been wrenched out the day he finally left. I knew he wanted to break free and be his own person. He left me fighting my demons, I was literally destroying myself inside out and it was after my 16th birthday I sat down for dinner, I plucked up the courage to discuss it with my mother and Seth since they had noticed I was becoming more introverted during this time but they put it down to Brad leaving home. Opening up to them about my feelings seemed to lift a massive burden off my shoulders, my mother was sceptical saying it wss just a phase where Seth appeared to have more control over the matter and I still remember his words to this day 'Don't hide or run from it, just let you discover you and who you are'. I kept my secret hidden at school and concentrated on getting my education over before deciding weather I wanted to go to college or university, rumours did surface occasionally as I had plenty of friends that were girls but never date or kissed any of them, I never acted gay or gave any one cause to question my sexuality. Not one for wanting to be away from Medina ranch I choose college and long distance studying, the benefit of which meant I could take my laptop out with me to the Medina river and study there where I didn't have to go in to college for assignments, tests and exams. So it wasn't all that bad coming out to my mother and Seth, they just let me get on with it. I was surprised that Seth would without fail every week sit down and chat with me about how I was feeling, I looked on him as more of a father than my blood father who I hadn't seen since the break up. Seth was reasonable and considerate, never judging me but always supporting and being there if I needed help. The year dragged by and Brad returned home for the summer vacation, he entered the house like a whirlwind and swooped me up in his arms hugging me. "God I missed you Tom" Brad said putting me down. I hugged him back "It's so lonely without you here" I replied. "Well I am here for several weeks book worm" he said using his nick name for me. It didn't take long for our routine to slip in to place, only now it just felt awkward as I was hiding the real me from him. I just couldn't bring myself to tell him, I didn't really know why at the time but I thought it would be best to keep that part of me in the shadows. All to soon his few weeks at home had come to an end and that last evening I heard Seth and Brad having a very stern discussion in the library. It was pretty fiery so I made my way back to our room and listened to some music reading a book. When Brad turned up he seemed his cheery self and said nothing about the argument going on, he showered and changed then headed out to meet his latest girl. A few days later when I asked how Brad was doing just out of normal conversation I got a strange look from Seth. He would not talk much about Brad just that he was doing okay, I knew he had gone to university several times to talk to him, and I overheard him and my mother talking about Brad's disciplinary hearing but nothing was ever said directly to me. I had no idea what was going on or what trouble he had gotten himself into. I had just celebrated my 18th birthday and was studying on the pool terrace late one morning when I heard Seth in the kitchen cursing to himself and grabbing his keys, I heard him talking to my mother on the phone to say he was having to drive up to the university. By the time I got to the kitchen he had already stormed out leaving the letter from the universities disciplinary committee on the counter top. My mistake or maybe it wasn't, I picked up the letter and read it. I couldn't believe the words of the last paragraph 'As such situations arise when a student is in possession of any form of drug the course of action is to expel them from the campus and forfeit their position. Whilst the committee have noted that no further action is being taken by the relevant law enforcement agencies we are in no doubt of possession and intended use or distribution and as such the student has been expelled. The committees decision is final and will not entertain any appeal to review'. It was almost like a standard letter but I felt really sorry how his life had spiralled out of control in this manner. Seth returned later that evening tired and upset, I listened at the door as he told my mother that Brad refused to see him point blank. I walked in to the lounge and they both stopped talking. "Are you going to tell me what is going on with Brad?" I asked standing my ground. Seth shrugged his shoulder "There is no point Tom, he won't see or speak to anyone" he replied. I sat down next to Seth "How bad is it?" I asked him. Seth looked at my mother "He has been expelled, he needs help but he can't see that or accept it". That evening was one of the longer entries in to my journey as I was troubled all night, when I woke early that Saturday morning I sneaked down to Seth's BMW and turned the key and looked at the SatNav which gave me a location near enough to where Brad was staying. I got my keys and sped down the ranch driveway and headed to Dallas, I almost stopped several times wondering if I was doing the right thing but I kept going on the 5 hour drive. I knew I was in the right place but I had no idea which building he was in, I stopped a student wandering by just on the off chance and asked if they knew Brad Felshaw, he laughed and said yeah building 2c Room 235. I rushed over not knowing what I was going to say to him as I reached the door, I knocked three times but waited to hear if there was any movement when another student walked past and smiled 'good luck getting him to answer' they said carrying on down the corridor glancing back at me, I now banged on the door louder this time. "Go away" he shouted through the door. "Brad" I waited for a moment "Brad it's Tom, let me in please" I pleaded through the door. Eventually I heard the lock clicking and he opened the door "What do you want?" he asked. "I came to see you" I said through the crack in the opening "are you going to let me in?". Brad was reluctant "Did my father send you here?" he asked. "No, he doesn't know I have driven here" I replied, he hesitated then opened the door inviting me in. He looked dishevelled and not the Brad I knew "What the fuck has happened to you?" I asked closing the door. Brad sat on the bed head in his hands "I lost control and fucked up really bad this time". I sat down next to him "Everyone is worried about you Brad. It hurts to see you like this". "Like what?" he asked in an angry tone. "This is not you, not the Brad I grew up with" I replied looking at him. He stared at me "Your not the Tom I grew up with are you?" he stated in a matter of fact way. I looked down "It hasn't change me Brad, I haven't come to terms with it myself" I said shyly. "Is that so?" Brad replied somewhat confused. I took a deep breath "Come home with me, I will sneak you in and look after you". He looked at me "I can't deal with my father he is so angry with me" he said looking sad. I put my arm around him "He is not angry Brad, just upset and very concerned" I assured him. Brad stood and paced around "Are you sure you want to do this Tom?" he asked. I looked at him "Are you an addict?" I asked. He shot me a look "No, I only did it 4 or 5 times" he paused "but I am getting drawn to it". I don't know how I did it but he agreed to come home with me after I promised not to let anyone know until he was ready to face them. He slept for most of the journey back home, I could have sworn he cried a little or at least his eyes watered seeing Medina Ranch at the end of the access road. He slid down in his seat to avoid being seen as I drove in the garage. I checked the house to make sure the coast was clear and walked with brad down the wing to our end of the house. Telling him to shower and as he did I quickly rifled through his bag to make sure there was nothing hiding in there and also the clothes he had worn home. I kind of felt guilty and didn't really know what I was doing, his hand grabbed my arm tightly 'there is nothing there' he said letting me go again, he certainly hadn't lost any of his muscle or strength. Something inside me caused me to stand up and face him, I was speechless and I couldn't work out if I got a kick out of him touching me aggressively like that. He backed off in obvious concern at what he did. At 20 Brad was a walking sex machine and it was hard to keep my gaze from looking at his body, I had still yet to explore my sexuality but I knew he definitely aroused me. I tried to keep a close reign on my preference for the male body whilst living in small town Texas, the last thing I wanted was to be out and branded like the cattle in this state. He looked at me "I'm sorry if I hurt you" Brad said drying his hair. "Promise me you have none of it here?" I asked watching him look me in the eye nodding. Brad slipped in to his bed "Promise me you won't let on?" he asked resting his head on the pillow. I looked at the sight of him staring at the ceiling "You have my word Brad" I replied picking up a book, I knew I would have to keep a very close eye on him. Sitting on the bed next to him he smiled for the first time "You going to read to me?". I nodded "Yes that's if you don't mind me sitting on the bed next to you?" I replied. Brad smiled "Of course I don't" he said getting comfortable. It took me by surprise and at first I wasn't sure if it was him accepting what he knew about me or just the brotherly part coming through. I read to him for an hour until he was sound asleep, it was only 8pm so I crept out and had dinner with Seth and my mother, it didn't take long for the conversation got around to where I had been all day and I told them at the Medina river and also headed in to town to see a friend. As far as I know they hadn't suspected a thing and after dinner I grabbed some fruit and went back to the bedroom to find Brad still sound asleep. I kept the curtains closed that overlooked the terrace and the French doors locked. I can't recall what time it was but I was woken by the sound of Brad, I could make out that he was sitting on the edge of his bed shaking and panting. Thankfully I had done some research on the internet after I returned to my room and believed this to be his body reacting to a lack of whatever drug he had taken. I turned on the bed side lamp and could see he was also sweating. I walked over and asked him what I could do to help but he looked at me like a helpless child tears streaming down his face. Trust me I said helping him stand up and took him in to the wet room and turned on the cold water, I sat next to him in the shower letting the cold water cascade over the both of us until his shaking ceased. I helped dry him and took him back in to the bedroom to my bed and laid next to him, so much of me wanted to cuddle him in this fragile state, he looked at me and quietly said thank you and falling back to sleep. I watched him as long as I could until my body surrendered and my eyes closed. I had one of the best night sleeps that I could remember, waking up I found my body was being held and my eyes snapped open. His arms were wrapped around me and he was cuddled up very close, to close for comfort was my initial diagnoses. Escaping was the first thing in my head, then the awkwardness of this as me moving would certainly wake him up and he may freak out. I laid there silently for several minutes until Brad shuffled and turned over releasing me from his arms. Silently I crept out of bed and let him sleep, picking up my journal I wrote a few words 'Woke feeling like I had a perfect sleep. Shaken I found my step-brothers arms wrapped around me, his body touching mine. Disturbing to say the least but somehow I find myself turned on as my whole body seemed to be in a state of flux'. I hid the journal and showered, when I came back in to the room Brad was awake and just acted normally. I came to the conclusion that he probably didn't even know, for the most part Brad seemed to be returning and the next few days I studied and didn't leave his side except to fetch food. Keeping him hidden seemed pretty easy and his withdrawal symptoms vanished which confirmed my suspicion that he had probably told me the truth. I guess I got to cocky at this hiding Brad game and he slid down in the seat of the car as I backed out of the garage and drove us to the Medina river again. I sat down on the banks and started reading, Brad laid on his stomach his head inches from the water resting on his hands watching the water flowing by. He wore only shorts taking his t-shirt off as we arrived since it was another scorching day. It was very distracting, I just wanted to touch and hold the body laying there, it was so perfect and the temptation to tickle his bare feet his toes wriggling in the sun crossed my mind. Refocusing I continued reading for an hour then we waded in the river and walked for a couple of hours. On the walk back to our spot Brad put his arm around my shoulder, something he hadn't done since we were younger. I felt like our bond was stronger than ever having faltered when he found out what his cock was for and put it to use. I rummaged in the rucksack and gave Brad some fruit and a bottle of water, if people saw us now they would think we were a perfect couple. I grabbed the book and sat down on the waters edge, before I could even get it open he had sat down behind me, his legs either side of my body and his arms wrapped around my body with his chin resting on my shoulders. It was one thing accidentally cuddling me in bed but this felt strangely weird but I carried on and opened the book to the page where we had got to the previous evening, he watched me leafing through to the pages but my mind was elsewhere as my body tingled by his touch. "Can't believe how much you have grown up and changed Tom" Brad said as he watched me turning the pages. I smiled but didn't look at him "We have both grown up Brad". Brad rubbed his chin on my shoulder "Yeah but at least you didn't screw up like me" he sighed. I looked up at the sky "I am just as screwed up if not more but in other ways". Brad stopped and looked at me "You are far from screwed up Tom, your confronting things head on" he said. "Well it's my turn to return the favour, you looked after me growing up" I said reminding him. Brad chuckled and waved it off "Was it hard, you know growing up feeling the way you do?" he asked me. "What way?" I asked oblivious to what he meant. Brad rubbed his chin on my shoulder again "You being gay" he said, I was slightly taken back. I turned and looked at him "It still is, I try to work out why but I end up even more confused" I said looking at the book. Brad ruffled my hair "Your still Tom to me. It is what is in here that defines you" he said tapping my heart. I sighed "I'm so lucky having you as a brother, as fucked up as you are" I laughed more out of nerves than anything. His hands hugged me tighter "You have helped me so much Tom. And now?" he whispered "Have you a boyfriend?". I stared at the words on the pages "No" I replied "How come you haven't got a girl?". "Don't know" Brad said "Melinda was mediocre for sex but she was getting to needy and I got nothing out of it". Brad lifted his head "Stop changing the subject. Why haven't you got a boyfriend?" he asked. I sighed "I am not ready to explore yet" I replied, it was the truth as I had no courage or even knew where to start. Brad hugged me tighter "Who ever get's you will be one lucky person. Come on then read to me" he said. I wondered if I was becoming a bit of a shady pervert as I settled back in to his arms reading the book. It is a strange feeling when your step-brother is the closet another man has ever got to you, sitting here time just seemed to get away from us. We hadn't realised how late it got and headed back home, no further mention was made by either of us about that afternoon, assuming it was just us rekindling our brotherly love for each other. I checked the coast was clear and we wandered down the east wing of the ranch house in our lounge and found Seth sat there waiting for us. Brad stopped dead in his tracks and Seth stood up and walked towards Brad, I didn't know what to expect, I stood ready to defend him. Seth looked at his son and hugged him, Brad kept apologising for screwing everything up, he told Brad he was just happy to his son back. Seth looked at me "Thank you Tom" he said. I put the rucksack down "I'm sorry for going behind everyone's back". Seth walked over and hugged me "You had us worried behaving weirdly at first". "You knew?" I asked Seth who nodded. "They described you and your car as taking Brad away from campus" Seth said to me as I stood looking ashamed. It was obvious Seth was pleased that I managed to get through to Brad when no one else could. As Brad slept I retrieved my journal from the hiding place and wrote things in there again that should never have been down on paper... 'A strange yet weirdly happy day as we went to the river only this time I felt like I was sat there with a lover. His hands around my waist and head resting on my shoulders. I know this is my step-brother but sometimes feelings are stronger than actions and he wakens me in a very extraordinary way'. I looked debating weather I should have written this but my journal was holding the true me, quickly I hid it away again. Brad was left alone in my company for a week partaking in meals with the family in the evening for as long as he could tolerate it. At night I would read to him and we often fell asleep in the same bed, it was as if we were 8 and 10 again. Brad got his life together and started working for his father whilst finishing his education. So that was me growing up and how I helped my step-brother through his problem, oh, and fell in love with him. The table would turn in a few years time but that was something I could never have seen coming, especially when your so blinded by what you think is love but in reality was the opposite. I became the closest friend to Brad as well, we would tell each other everything and before you ask, no I didn't write those in my journal. I knew they were things best kept between us. Part of me was broken but happy when Brad started seeing Melinda again in this on off story of theirs, so much so that it became probably the most serious relationship for the time being. As if you hadn't guessed by now, Brad was the first instrumental person in my life, he shaped me as the person as we grew up together in a very unshakable way. We stuck to each other like glue and did everything together. My life really took shape and turned upside down a week before my 19th birthday celebrating a belated 18th birthday present, and this is where my story really begins to unfold...

Two years ago I was in DC at the Eagle and two muscular black guys in their mid-30s in harnesses and I were cruising each other. I was 38 at the time, smooth athletic build and wearing jeans and a t-shirt. I finally went over to talk to them and one of them said "Come on. You're going back to our place, you fucking pig." Sounded good to me so I followed them back to their place. We get there and they tell me to strip down to the black jock I was wearing, and to get into the sling. They also stripped, although they left on their harnesses. Next thing I know my right arm was tied above my head and one of the guys asked me if I partied. I said I smoked some T before, but not much. They just looked at each other. They asked if I was poz, to which I answered "No, I'm neg." Another look. Next thing I knew I saw three syringes with orange caps. Being tied-up in a sling, I started to panic a little, but the bigger of the two guys, Terry, said "Relax, we got ya." I responded "Please, don't." Terry replied "You're still our slut for the night." Next thing I knew he wiped my forearm with an alcohol swap, and inserted a needle into my arm. I saw a tinge of blood enter the syringe and then he depressed the plunger, injecting the liquid into my arm. I completely lost my breath and gasped, but Terry encouraged me to take a deep breath. I coughed three or four times, and then felt warm and tingly. My ass felt as if it was on fire. I just looked at Terry and Tom, the other top, and blurted out "Please, fuck me. Please, give me your cock." The two guys laughed at me and said "Good boy, now we have you the way we like you - a hungry Tina junkie, begging for cock." Tom approached to fuck me with his 9.5 inch big black cock. When I realized he was not wearing a condom, I said "No, not raw, please, SIR" but he responded "Shut up, slut and take it" and with that he rammed his entire raw cock into my ass, and all I could do was beg for it. He chuckled "What do you want, white boy?" I answered "Please fuck me SIR." Tom yelled "You want this nigger cock boy?" I muttered "Yes, SIR." I didn't wanna say it. but he made me, and finally I screamed "Fuck me SIR - give me that huge nigger cock up my pussy." Good slut" he replied, and proceeded to fuck me then grunted "Take my poz load boy - here it comes." I was so high I begged him to breed me. When Tom withdrew, Terry was next at bat, and Tom disappeared downstairs. Same thing - another case of "Take my big black cock boy" and as he fed me his 10.5. inches. It was so fucking thick I kept the poppers handy and was begging for it up my pig cunt. He also bred me and as he blew his load I found myself saying "Feed me your cum SIR, breed me" to which he responded "Here it comes, boy - another poz load for your pussy." When he pulled-out and I could feel cum dripping down my legs. My hole felt so empty and I squirmed in the sling, at which point Terry pick-up a huge red butt plus and proceeded to shove it up my pig cunt. It felt soooo good to be stuffed. Then he disappeared downstairs for a good 15 minutes. Next thing I knew, Terry, Tom and two more huge black muscle guys walked into the room. Terry (or was it Tom?) said to the guys "Here's the junkie slut we are pozzing. You want some?" The guys immediately stripped and proceeded to slam themselves. While they were prepping themselves, Tom asked me "You need another slam boy? This time its gonna be a big one - we want you really fucked up." Tom proceeded to stick himself and draw some of his blood into the syringe. As I watched, he depressed the plunger only a bit. The next thing I knew he pulled it out of his arm and stuck me with it - injecting his poz blood into my arm. No sooner had the contents of the syringe entered my blood stream, well, I was flying! I coughed even harder this time and all four of the guys laughed at me. Tom said "Good slut - I just gave you a .5 slam." My pussy was on fire like never before. They untied me from the sling and put me on the bed where they proceeded to take turns on me for over three hours. They even double fucked me. My pussy couldn't get enough bareback cock. The two guests also bred me, so I had four loads in my pig cunt when one of the guys brought out some huge fucking dildos. I honestly didn't think I could take them but certainly wanted to try. I took a deep hit of poppers and the guys proceeded to wreck my hole with extra large black dildos, eventually shoving two in me at once. Sometime later the two guests left, and Tom and Terry fucked me some more, eventually depositing loads five and six in my ass. Late morning I left, and as we parted, Terry and Tom said "Good slut - we want you again. Welcome to the world of poz pig play - you fucking Tina slut." Part 2 next time.

Introduction “What can be done for him” she said, “I can’t live a life with the shame of his perversion” “Remain calm, I know of a place that can treat his illness,” the man behind the desk said. I sat there staring into the space between them, replaying the series of events that got us here. The muscle men magazine I had hidden and she found. The time she walked in on me in the shower when I was jacking my cock. Her last straw was catching me again jacking but this time sliding a cucumber in and out of my hole. Each time, I heard a lecture about how it was sinful and that her version of God was watching and was disappointed in me, that I needed help with this sick perversion. Then she dragged me here. This man kept saying I could be cured, I could be free of my urges. “Take him,” she said, “he can’t live this way” I hung my head as she stood and left, she didn’t even look at me, touch me, or say anything. Once she was gone the man got up and walked over to me. “Don’t worry son, the place you are going is going to help!” I just sat there looking down. I was loaded into a van with no windows, you know the kind that your mom would warn you about when you were little. A black fabric bag was placed over my head - why I don’t really know since I was facing backwards and there were no windows. “You’re going to a place to help with your sinful lust urges” a voice said as the van started to move. I didn’t know how long had passed or how far we had traveled until the van stopped and I was helped out if the van. I was led up a set of stairs and into an unknown building. It wasn’t until I was in a windowless room, when the hood was removed. In front of me was two huge muscle men dressed in white. Their clothes were stretched to the limit of the fabric. My cock was slowly getting hard in my pants. “Strip” one of them ordered. I just stood there looking at them. I wasn’t going to strip in front of them. “Strip now! You don’t want us to do it” I pulled my shirt over my head, kicked off my shoes, then dropped my shorts leaving my underwear on. I put my hand in front of crotch to hide my hard cock. “Lose the fucking underwear!” I turned away and bent over pushing my underwear to the floor. “Damn look at the pussy” My eyes widened, shocked of that I heard. “Let’s go its time for your first treatment”

Christmas is a time for kindness, right? So last night I sent a message to an occasional fuck buddy, asking if he might be so kind as to give me a rough fuck at some point during the night... I had been feeling horny a bit on an off during the evening, so obviously something had to be done about it, and as the guy was kind enough to invite me over for a bit of cock I found myself across town at some point after midnight! We hadn't really arranged anything other than me showing up and eventually leaving with a fucked hole - but hey; I know his style and it's never disappointing to visit him. So when I arrived at the door to his apartment it was slightly ajar and there was a blindfold hanging on the door handle and a small bottle of poppers just inside the door. Well, that's me in my right element!!! So I went inside, closed the door behind me and got naked before putting on the blindfold and taking 3 deep hits of poppers. I knew he'd be listening to me, so within seconds a door opened and a hand grabbed me and led me into another room and pushed me down on the floor. I love being blindfolded on hands and knees, not knowing which hole the guy will go for - but always hoping he'll go for my arse!!! And he did... A squirt of lube on the hole, then he rubbed his cock around in it a bit, sliding it up and down my crack before shoving it inside me deep and hard! Well, that was me happy already! I was blindfolded, high on poppers and with a big, hard cock inside me... He fucked me like that for a while; hard, deep strokes that made me whimper each time he struck deep. Classic, but perfect... Just me on hands and knees, him on his knees behind me pounding away in my hole. And then his pace quickened until he kept still deep inside me and I knew he was breeding me. Oh, the satisfaction!!! I did my best to clench my hole around his cock so not a drop of sperm would leak out when he pulled out, and then he guided me up to a standing position and led me into the entry before closing the door and leaving me to take off the blindfold, get dressed and do the walk of pride home with a good load in me!

Would someone please turn me into a cumdump whore? Will travel within reasonable distance from Philadelphia, PA.

Fuckin'Oink🐷~! Thanks for sharing your honest🙌 experiences here on BZ. I think Woodrow can teach me about dating profiles and hookups. I live in St Louis, MO. I am aware prosecutors in the next county, St Charles, have successfully gotten convictions on failure to disclose, butt that was like 5 years ago. I think STL prosecutors have little interest in non-violent crimes. My county has not processed a rape kit in like twenty years, so difficult for me to believe they would have resources for a gay crime. My lover was murdered in 2008, perp plead guilty to manslaughter and was sentenced to one year less time served awaiting trial. My disclosure is not about legal issues or laws of Missouri. My issue is I prefer to sleep at night....after a good breeding. xox

I want it all the time -- I get fucked thru gloryholes in adult bookstores -- but yeah, sometimes I want it even more than others. I've been itching for a good double penetration session for a while now and can't seem to put one together.

It's a really hot story, but, personally, I detest the 'N' word.

I agree - i get more meets when i offer ass up, blindfolded, no words cum-n-go's. I have a regular top who only ever fucks me when im hooded. Faceless profile that changes every couple of months. He must have cum in me more than 50 times - we have never spoken (other than grunts or orders) and i haven't a clue who he is.

There was a straight guy I sucked off at least a dozen times at one of the dirtybookstores in Missoula Montana. He had a stern expression, a very hard solid body, & a longer & thicker than average cock which always got rock-solid! More than once I could taste & smell his wife's cuntjuice on his cock. One day I was out garage-saling & I pulled up at a house & there he (& his wife) sat, conducting their garage sale. He got a completely mortified expression on his face, recognizing me from the dirtybookstore, but I was nonchalant & just checked out the stuff in his garage. His wife was pretty, but I'm glad he still went in for suckjobs from me!

I love sucking off str8 guys. In fact, I'm sure that the vast majority of guys that I suck off self identify as str8. There are some str8 men that I've been orally servicing for close to 20 years. They still keep coming back to use my mouth. I really can't explain why I find getting a str8 guy off is such a turn on for me. But, I'm just grateful that so many str8 guys turn to us gay men to get off. I was just at my favorite abs here in Vegas last week and sucked off 3 str8 guys in 40 minutes.

Give a few Oinks (I LOVE a bottom to make that sound, especially during). 🐽 Get plugged to keep that load INSIDE (unless I have a friend(s) over, then it's time for a second/third load prior to any plugging). Clean my Dick, obviously. Boot licking if in gear. Foot rub. Pot of Tea (I'm British, what can I say) ☕

I dont believe mother nature created aids i think its man made thing.Men have been fucking each other for thousand of years,aids has only been with us for about 40 years

Chapter 18 In the afternoon I received a call from the doc. “Hey Scotty, thanks for letting Brandon run with you today. He can’t stop talking about you and going hiking tomorrow. I think he’s smitten. I really appreciate this.” “My pleasure. He’s a good kid. Fucking sexy as hell too! You’re welcome to come with us tomorrow.” “Me hiking? Yea, I think I’ll pass but I am taking him out to get some new clothes this afternoon.” “Good idea. His running shorts are going to get him attacked. It was all I could do to keep my hands off him.” He chuckled, Yea I noticed that when he left here to go met you. I’m surprised you didn’t make a move yet.” “He’s a bit skittish so I didn’t want to move too quickly and scare him off. We’ll see how tomorrow goes.” Now I have to admit I started hiking because of the cute outfits. One look at a hot guy in shorts and those hiking boots and I’m rock hard, don’t judge, trust me you would too. And if I’m perfectly honest with you I look damn good myself wearing that outfit. So yes, Saturday morning I was wearing my lucky hiking shorts which made my legs and ass look amazing. I also decided to wear a tank top today. Brandon liked looking at my tats so I thought I’d give him a better view today. We met at the train station and headed out. “Thanks again for letting me tag along.” “It’ll be fun.” “Can I ask you a question?” “Of course.” “Did it your tattoos hurt?” “Well you’re having a needle poked into your skin over and over so,” I grinned at him, “it's not too bad and I think they’re worth it. Why? You thinking about getting one?” “Umm, not sure but I do find them really hot on men. “I totally agree with you on that!” I said, winking at him. He blushed. Damn he was so easy to embarrass. “Any idea what you’d get?” “Not sure, but I think yours are really hot.” “Thanks, I’m kind of addicted. It’s been awhile since my last one I’m thinking I need to get a new one soon. Just haven’t decided on the design yet. You’d look really great with some on you.” Sitting across the aisle from us were two really cute guys, both with tattoos. I saw Brandon checking them out. “You think they’re hot?” “Umm, well, umm.” “It’s okay to admit it. They are hot, and I’m guessing both play for my team.” “What makes you say that?” “They’re both checking you out like crazy. I think they’re into you.” “They are not. If they’re checking anyone out it would be you man.” He blushed again. “Brandon you sure turn red a lot,” I grinned at him. “Trust me son, if you wanted to experiment with guys you won’t have any problems finding lots of men to volunteer to help you out.” “Umm, really, you think guys would want to be with me?” “Brandon, you have no clue how cute you are.” “You think I’m cute?” “Oh yea son, you’re very fuckable,” I winked at him again. We arrived at our stop a few minutes later. I think he was both relieved and disappointed our conversation was interrupted. We made our way to the trail and began our hike. It was a prefect day, nice and hot so lots of guys on the trail had their shirts off. I’m not sure how much Brandon enjoyed it but I was in heaven. After awhile I started sweating pretty bad so I took my tank top off. He was following behind me so he got a good look at my tat. I heard him sigh, “wow that tat on your back is so hot. I love that design. Uncle Pete has a simpler version of that on his hip.” I turned around and pulled down my shorts just a bit so he could see the biohaz on my hip. “You mean more like this one.” He caught his breath, “exactly like that. Damn that’s so cool you have the same tattoo. It’s almost like you’re in a club or something.” “Or something,” I winked and ruffled his hair. I saw his eyes go down to my crotch so I’m sure he could see my dick starting to get hard. I turned back around and continued down the trail. Now the trail I take has a smaller one that branches off about a mile from the start. I stumbled across it on accident my first time out here and discovered it was a very active cruising stop. I figured Brandon wasn’t quite ready for that yet so I’d planned to just stick to the main trail, but as we were getting close a hot guy who I’d managed to hook up with before happened to come out of the side trail. He saw me, grinned, came right up to me, kissed and hugged me. “Damn Scotty I wish I wasn’t in a hurry today I’d love to take another load from you.” I grabbed his ass and felt a wet spot on his shorts. “Feels like you managed to to do all right without me.” He chuckled and said, “I did but with yours I know for sure I’m getting a special blend.” He pulled away and noticed Brandon for the first time. He whistled, hot damn, boy you’re going be popular. To bad there’s only a couple of guys down there right now but I’m sure they’d love to load you up.” Brandon suddenly got this panicked look on his face so I quickly jumped in, “no I wasn’t planning on going down there today. My friend and I are just having a leisurely hike today." “To bad,” he said licking his lips and eyeing Brandon up and down. I was trying really hard not to laugh, not to mention my cock was rock hard now. “Catch you later Scotty. He turned to Brandon and said, “enjoy your hike, sexy,” and headed back down the main trail. We didn’t say anything for about a half hour just continued our way along the main trail. We reached an overlook spot and stopped to take in the view. I could tell he had something on his mind. “You can ask me anything,” I said not looking at him, just gazing at the view. “Yea, umm, well I was just wondering about that guy we met on the trail. I take it he’s a friend of yours?” “Well I couldn’t tell you his name and not exactly sure I’d call him a friend, more like a fuck buddy.” “A what buddy?” “A fuck buddy. Someone you hookup with just to fuck.” “Damn I have so much to learn.” I wrapped an arm around his shoulder and gave him a squeeze. “Hope that doesn’t shocks you. I’m a very sexual guy and love to fuck all the time.” “So if I wasn’t here with you today,” he let his question just hang there. “Yep, I’d probably have my dick buried in some guy.” “Okay, wow, umm I’m sorry I interrupted your plans.” “Brandon don’t be silly. I’m glad you came with me. That spot is always hit and miss anyway. There’s lots of times I come here and don’t see anyone and other times it’s very active but the main reason I come is really to hike.” Okay that wasn’t really the truth but he didn’t need to know that. “We should probably call it a day,” I said giving his ass a pat. We turned around and went back the way we'd come. As we were nearing the turnoff for the other trail, Brandon slowed down and came to a stop. He looked at me shyly and said, “you know if you want to go down there it’d be okay with me. I mean I don’t want to participate or anything but it’s cool if you want to and maybe I could just watch if that’s allowed.” He stuttered and was trying not to turn even redder. “You sure? You’re apt to see some rather steamy stuff, but you definitely don’t have to participate if you don’t want." "If I can just watch I think I'd like to go." He was so damn cute when he blushed. He followed me down the trail and we headed further into the woods. We walked for about fifteen minutes, "you doing okay back there? It's not too late to change your mind." "I'm good, just a little nervous." We went around a bend and came to a clearing where there was only one guy waiting but he had his dick out slowly stroking. I heard a gasp next to me. “You okay kid?” “Yea sorry just didn’t expect to see someone out in the open like this.” “You sure your ready for this?” “What are you gonna do?” I walked over to the guy. He smiled, dropped his pants, turned around and presented his ass to me. I bent down and started fingering the guy. “You want me to fuck you?” “Yes please, breed my cunt.” I slammed my dick inside him started pounding his ass. I noticed Brandon off to the side massaging his hard cock thorough his shorts. "Pull your dick out and come over here?" He hesitated for only a second before he had his cock out and was standing beside me. Let this slut suck you off." Brandon wasn’t sure what to do do the guy helped him out by grabbing his dick and sticking it in his mouth. Brandon started to moan. I didn't think he was going to last long. He called out "oh fuck, I'm gonna cum." As the guy started swallowing Brandon's cum he clamped down my cock and I started filling his ass with my load. I pulled out and the guy flipped around to clean me off. He pulled up his shorts, said thanks and walked off. I turned to look at Brandon and he had a goofy grin on his face. "You okay there?" "Holy shit he swallowed my load, I can't believe he swallowed my load." "The question is, did you enjoy it?”

We jumped into my rental car, me driving and Dave navigating. Soon we were heading up into the foothills of the mountains, enjoying the views as we drove. We eventually drove through a pass and started climbing higher up. ”How far up we going?” I asked “We’ll be at about 8 thousand feet when we get to the point. The turn off is just up ahead. See it there on your right?” I could see a “Park” sign just ahead. Turning in we followed a winding road further into the hills around us trees almost hugging the road, it was like we were in a tunnel. After about a mile we came to a clearing with a parking lot, it was empty. ”I was hoping it wouldn’t be busy today” Dave said. “This trail head usually isn’t, but sometimes there will be a few people here. Just park over there on the right.” I steered in the direction Dave pointed to and parked in a slot in front of a trail head leading up and to the right. ”Alright babe, you ready?” Dave asked ”Yeah! How far we heading up?” ”It’s about a mile up to the point. Mostly flat until the last few hundred feet. It’s a pretty easy hike and the views are awesome!” We got out of the car, grabbing our hoodies and backpacks. Standing there in the mountains you could hear the light wind rustling through the trees, the air was fresh and cool. The sun warming us. We headed up the trail and started into a steady climb. ”Let me know if you get tired Mike, we can stop and take a break. I know the air is thinner up here.” ”I’ll let you know” I said laughing. we continued up and were about a half mile up when we cleared some trees and could see the valley below us. To our right a little north and east there was a lake below us. It was completely flat and you could see the reflection of the mountains in it like a mirror. I stopped and just stared at it for a while. Dave was looking at me smiling. ”What?” I asked ”Nothing, this view is always amazing to me, but to see someone’s expression that hasn’t seen it before is priceless” “It’s beautiful, I could honestly stay here forever. Man I love the mountains!” ”Well the view gets better above us, let’s go!” We continued on, climbing higher and higher. I could feel myself getting winded, not being used to the altitude. We broke into another clearing and in front of us was a large rock face that jutted out over the side of the mountain. ”We’re climbing that” Dave told me. “That’s the view you need to see” “Alright” I replied. Looking up at the rock formation. ”If we head into the trees here on the left, there’s a path the leads to the backside of the rock and it’s much easier to climb. Come on!” I followed Dave into the trees and sure enough there was a little path that followed along the side of the rock. We reached what I assumed was the back in a couple minutes and I saw a little clearing and the back side of the rock. It had what almost looked like steps built into it. Dave started to climb up the backside. Grabbing handholds and pulling himself up. I followed behind him. We got about halfway up when he stopped to take a breather. Both of us now sucking in the thin air. ”Let me know when your ready” Dave said panting a little. ”I think I’m good” We continued up the rock and as we got towards the top it became easier to climb. We reached the top of the rock and stood up. I realized for the first time that there was a big grove of pine trees growing on it and it was much bigger than I had thought it was. ”Come on Mike, almost there. Just through the trees here on the other side” I followed Dave into the trees ducking under some branches, feeling the soft bed of pine needles under my feet. It was much cooler under the canopy without the sun. We weaved our way through the trees and I could see light in front of me. We broke through the last of the trees and were on the ledge of the rock face. It stuck out about twenty feet in front of us, we walked up to the edge and I was in complete awe. Just below us was the lake stretching out to the east. Completely flat and reflecting the mountains to the northwest. I could see for miles as the mountains and hills just seemed to keep going and just beyond them the flatter lands. ”Oh my god! This is beautiful Dave!” ”I knew you would love it! This is my favor place to come and just “be”. Just listen, just the light wind and nothing else” “It’s awesome. I can see why you like it so much.” I pulled my backpack off and opened it, grabbing my Nikon out I started snapping pictures. ”I didn’t know you were a camera bug Mike!” Dave said laughing. “Yeah, photography is one of my hobbies” “Well you keep snapping pictures, I’ll be right back” ”Where you going?” I asked “Just need to grab something” I looked at Dave questioning, he winked at me and walked back into the wooded area. I turned back around and started snapping more pictures and got lost in it, it took me a few minutes to hear the noise behind me. I turned around and Dave was there behind me with a bag, he was unzipping it, I started to move towards him and could see he was pulling some stuff out. ”Whatcha got there?” I asked “It’s my little stash I keep up here. Theres a couple of little alcoves in the trees that have good cover, I keep everything in a waterproof container.” I could see that he had pulled a few blankets from the bag, as well as a few towels. He took the empty bag and folded it up. Then started to unroll one of the blankets in a flat spot on the rock, he then unrolled the second blanket on top of the first. He put the towels on one end still rolled up and threw the third blanket on top of the others still rolled also “Ready to get naked” He asked, winking at me.

Chapter 14 Brody and Mike came back over Saturday and we spent most of the day exchanging loads. They were a lot fun and it was so hot how bad they wanted the bug. They left around 6pm and I was just stepping out of the shower when there was a knock on my door. I figured the boys must’ve forgotten something so I just had a towel on. Imagine my surprise when I saw it was my oldest son on the other side. “Hey dad, can I come in?” Okay, I need to back up here for a second and give you some background on my oldest. His name is Tony, he’s 27, and if you thought Jimmy from a few chapters ago was a drama queen, well my son could run circles around him. I loved him, I really did but he had a way of turning everything into mass drama all about him. When his mom and I told the kids we were getting divorced and I was moving back east you’d have thought we were dying. To make matters worse he blamed me solely for the divorce and was sure I had cheated on his mom. To put this in context, my daughter, and youngest, Josh, were both like ‘it’s about time, finally, you guys were more like business partners than husband and wife.’ Not Tony, we were ruining his life. So needless to say he hadn’t spoken to me in a couple months. I had texted him to let him know I’d be in town but he never responded. So he was absolutely the last person I expected to see today. “Of course you can come in,” I said moving out of the way. Make yourself comfortable while I put some clothes on.” My room had a little sitting room so Tony sat down while I dressed. “So I have to say I didn’t expect to see you while I was in town,” I said joining him on the couch. “Sorry dad, I’ve just been going through some things and when you and mom told us you were divorcing I just kind of freaked.” “Kinda freaked?” “Okay I had a full on diva meltdown,” he said with a small smile on his face. I always figured if one of our kids was going to be gay it would be Tony. When Josh came out I was shocked. I didn’t care he was gay, I just truly never would’ve thought it, but if Tony had said ‘hey world I’m gay’ we would’ve been, ‘yea of course you are son we’ve known for years.’ Just goes to show with some people you never know. “It’s fine son. So what changed your mind?” “Well mom and I had a heart to heart. She explained again everything that happened and introduced me to her new partner. I know I over reacted.” “You think?” He smiled even bigger, “you know me it’s all about the drama. Anyway I was talking to Josh and he mentioned you were sick with the flu so I thought this would be a perfect opportunity for me to come take care of you but it seems you’re feeling better.” “I am feeling much better but it’s great to see you. How’s Becky?” “Oh we broke up.” “I’m sorry to hear that, I always liked her.” “Thanks, but it’s cool. It really was for the best. We weren’t very compatible. When you and mom split I started thinking that I didn’t want to end up like that so I called it quits. She’s already dating someone else and I hear he has a huge dick. She always was a size queen.” If I’d been drinking I would have done a spit take. “Wow, what about you, anyone new?” “I’m just kind of experimenting right now, so nothing serious.” Experimenting huh?? “You hungry? I’ve been cooped up in this hotel room all week and would love to get out of here.” “That sounds great, thanks dad.” We made our way to a restaurant nearby and for the first time I really watched my son. He was cute, if I do say so myself, on the short side, about 5’6”, skinny but toned, he was lightly tanned with brown hair. The last time I saw him his hair was really short but he’d let it grow out and he was wearing it a little on the longer side now. It looked really good him. He was also very hairy, I could see his chest hair sticking out from his t-shirt. But what I found the most interesting was watching him watch all the hot guys. Damn maybe I hadn’t been wrong about him after all. My dick suddenly started to chub. Our waitress was cute but my son didn’t even give her a second glance. The hot older gay couple sitting close by us, on the other hand, he couldn’t take his eyes off of them. Interesting. I’d have to give this some serious thought. That night I gave Josh a call. “Hey dad, how you feeling? Everyone here can’t wait for you to get home so we can properly celebrate your new status.” “I’m feeling much better, thanks and I’ve already started sharing my gift.” I told him all about Brody and Mike. “Damn look at you wasting no time. Good job. I don’t suppose the drama queen known as my brother reached out to you?” I started laughing, “now be nice to Tony.” “Really dad, you know how he is.” “I know he’s definitely the dramatical one in the family. But yes, he came by and saw me today. We had lunch it was nice. I have to ask you though, has he ever discussed being gay with you?” “Tony,” he was dying on the other end, “he’s even more in the closet than you were dad!” “So you think he’s gay too?” “Oh please dad, no question in my mind. With you I had a suspicion you might be, with Tony oh dear god he’s gayer than Jimmy and that’s saying a lot.” “Oh my god! I had that exact same thought when I was with him today. You know he broke up with Becky, right?” “Dad Becky’s been cheating on him for years. She just didn’t have the heart to break up with him, plus she loved his cooking. She called me after he did the deed and she was so relieved.” “I forgot you and Becky were friends.” “Oh yea, she told me things about my older brother that I can never unsee in my mind. Apparently he inherited his dick size from your side of the family, unlike me.” I was laughing so hard at this point it hurt. “Well it seems he may have a thing for older guys. He couldn’t stop staring at these two hot daddy types at the restaurant.” “That doesn’t surprise me. He always did have a thing for our friend’s dads while we were growing up.” “Well, I’ll just have to see if maybe I can’t help your brother discover his true place in this world.” “Fuck dad can you imagine if all three of us were poz, spreading the gift.” “That would be amazing but I have a feeling that your brother won’t be topping anyone. I get the strong impression that he’s going to be a total bottom especially if his dick is as small as you say.” “Damn you’re right! I can totally see with a strict daddy or master to keep him in line.” “I don’t think your brother has any clue about what’s in store for him.”

I get this, too. Their fantasy is better than the reality.

Nothing is 100%, other than death and taxes. This thread is hysteria at its worst.

CTI THE FIRST TREATMENT We left the room with me hiding my naked, hard cock and in between the two muscle men. The each grabbed my upper arms, pulling my hand away from my crotch allowing my cock to voice free. As we moved down the hall, I could hear moans and grunts coming from behind the shut doors and at one door I heard “Oh fuck yeah, infect me! Give it to me” We arrived at an open door and went into the room. On one wall was a huge tv and in the center was a line wooden chair. Some sort of machine was under it, but I didn’t know what it was. I was moved to the front of the chair and I saw that in the seat was a hole about six inches in diameter. The muscle men turned me and pushed me down in the chair. One secured my ankles to the leg of the chair behind them, the other secured my wrists to the arms of the chair. Then one got down behind the chair and did something unknown to me as the other man reach down between my hips and the chair and pulls my ass checks apart. I felt something cold touched my hole The last thing they did was put when looked like an oxygen tube, like the ones from a hospital under my nose. As they left one said: “Breath deep through your nose abs enjoy the show” The tv came on and a blue screen was illuminating the dark room. A voice from nowhere echoed the room: “When you see the word ‘Hit’ breath deeply through your nose. When you see the word ‘hold’ then hold your breath. When you see the word ‘release’ you exhale” “Are you ready to begin” “Yes” I replied The screen lit up with an image of a naked man with a huge hard cock, then switched to the words “you crave cock” As the screen switched to another imagine I felt something pushing to get up my hole. As the images of nude men continued to change on the screen, the object pushed into my hole, sliding in deep. The word HIT popped on the screen so I breathed deeply through my nose, then the picture of a hard cock flash then back to hit - I did a hit again as the rush of poppers flowed through my body. Then a cock again then Hit. I followed the directions. The the word Hold flashed and I held my breath until the word release flashed The images changed to short videos of men sucking cock, licking nuts sacs and then sucking again. The object in my hole was sliding in and out of my hole at a steady pace, bring me pleasure. My cock was hard and leaking. The would Hit last again and I followed the instructions, hit again and again until I had hit five times then held for about fifteen seconds and then released At this point the sucking videos had been replaced my fucking, bareback fucking. The object picked up a little speed and my leaking increased as my cock bounced. Plus pleasure. The videos changed showing up close fucking with raw cocks sliding in and out of holes, to far away, then back close up. The instructions to hit again popped up again between the videos over and over until I had hit ten times and held and released. The rush was intense. I felt my inhibitions slid away. My mouth watered, my cock throbbed and my hole relaxed as the object again sped up. The raw fucking videos now showed men getting bred and I would hear sayings. “You want raw cock” “Your hole was made for cum” “All loads should be taken none refused” Then more instructions on hitting appeared. I did as instructed. As the videos of fucking and breeding continued. “You crave infected cum” “You want the virus” “Sexual Suicide is what you want” “You want HIV” “You crave toxic loads” “You want poz loads” “You want AIDS” In the videos I saw biohazard tattoos and tattoos of scorpions on the men getting fucked. Then more popper instructions. The rush flowed through me. The machine was fucking my hole quickly, hitting my g-spot and causing more leaking from my cock. “Tell me what you want!” “Poz loads” I replied “Where do you want them” “Up my hole” More popper instructions, that I followed. My head was swimming Fromm the rush and I could feel my heart beat in my temples and my cock. My hole relaxed even more as the machine fucked me quickly. “You want infected seed in you” “Yes” I screamed My balls were so pulled up tightly that they ached. I could feel the warm pre-cum puddling between my legs. I know I would not last long. The machine was fucking me faster. I screamed in pleasure and my load shot out my cock and flew high in the air. It was a massive load. As I shot the machine stopped and the object was pulled out. The video also went dark. I sat there breathing heavy coming down from the rush. I head the door open behind me and soon saw the two musclemen. “Damn never seen someone turn that quickly” one said They released me and half dragged me back to my room.

Part 6 - Return To Medina I managed to stagger towards the bedroom with the aim of getting to the bathroom and lock myself in there. I got through the door frame of the bedroom when he grabbed me again spinning me around then pushing me with such force my feet left the ground and I landed on the bed face down. His crushing body weight landing on top pinning me down on the bed, his hand quickly began working my shorts free from my waist to expose my ass for him. I could hear a knock at the door and tried to call out but his hand quickly pushed my head down against the bed muffling any sound I made. Brad and Mike stood outside the door and knocked for the third time almost hammering it and calling out my name, they could hear I was inside but had no idea what was playing out behind the front door. There was no way this was going to happen again I told myself, the adrenaline was pumping around my body as I started to rise and fight back. Eddie and Steve stepped out the elevator seeing two men outside my door "What are you doing?" Eddie shouted. They both turned and Brad recognised Eddie from a picture I had sent "Tom is not answering" he said. Eddie looked at him "Brad right?" he asked and Brad nodded "Is he in there?". Brad and Mike nodded "Yes we can hear movement but he is not answering" Mike replied. "Oh shit" Eddie said rushing towards the door. My struggle began and Eric had not bargained on my retaliation at his own assumption I would lay down quietly. I managed to get hold of Eric's arm and using the wrestling I learnt at school, twisting his arm in to a painful arm lock causing him to release his hand from holding my head down. I managed to raise my head and cry for help, within seconds the door broke open with Eddie rushing in straight to the bedroom. He punched Eric in the back causing him to let go of me completely. Unlocking my arm from his Eddie grabbed his legs and pulled him off the bed and continued to punch him. Brad rushed in to the bedroom and grabbed hold of Eddie 'Stop' he said seeing the tear running down Eddie's face. Eric fell to the floor moaning. Brad took Eddie and hugged him holding him back from Eric as Steve and Mike came to my side checking I was okay. My shorts half over my ass I pulled them up, Mike held me in his arms tightly and my body began relaxing the adrenaline levels slowly abating. Eddie walked over to me with Brad and looked at the marks on my neck, he leaned over the bed and picked me up. He looked to Steve "Clear all his things out I am taking him back to my place" he said carrying me. Steve nodded "Can you help please" he asked Brad and Mike, "Meet you down at your car Eddie" he said. "It's okay Eddie will look after him, I'm Steve a friend of Tom's" he said introducing himself to Brad and Mike. Brad was still upset looking at Eric "Sorry, I'm Brad" he replied. "Brad, oh yes Tom talks about you all the time" Steve said looking him over. "He does?" Brad asked he looking at him, he really wanted to ask more but now was not the time. Steve could see why Tom had a crush on his step-brother "All the time, almost like you are husbands". Steve saw Brad grin "Sorry this is Mike" said introducing him. "Hello Mike" Steve said catching Mike's eye who flashed him a beautiful smile "You from Texas as well?" "Hi" Mike replied grinning "Yeah cowboy through and through but work on the airlines" he said. Steve grabbed a pile of clothes "Are you all so god dam hot in Texas?" he asked looking at Mike. Mike smiled "Hot and tender" he replied as Steve nearly dropped the clothes fumbling and giggling. This strange evening was how Mike met Steve and how Steve and Mike married a year later. They gathered all my belongings whilst Brad stood over Eric who didn't move from sitting on the floor in the corner nursing his bruised face. Thankfully I didn't have much to gather up, only clothes and the 3 of them made light work of packing it all and left the apartment and Eric. Mike stopped "Oh hang on, I forgot something" he said going back the bedroom then hearing a painful cry from Eric. Brad and Steve looked at each other then Mike appeared "Just had to do something" he laughed. Brad looked at him "What did you do?" he asked. Mike got in the elevator "Stamped on his balls and told him our paths should never cross again". Steve gulped "Are you a psycho as well?" he asked jokingly. Mike smiled "That's how you treat bulls in Texas, bring em down hard" he said looking at Steve. "Remind me never to get on your bad side" Steve said as Brad got in the elevator with the last bag. Mike put his hand on Brad's shoulder "It's okay Brad" he said. Brad looked at them both "Thanks both of you" he said then smiled shaking his head. Mike looked at Steve "I don't usually let people see my bad side, they usually see the top side of me". Brad felt embarrassed as he could see the sparks with them "Fuck you two get a room" he said grinning. Mike chuckled "Just don't go getting a boyfriend until I have had a shot at you" he said to Steve. Steve smiled watching the numbers of the floors going down "I won't" he replied "Just don't take to long". They packed all the things in Eddie and Brad's car and drove down to Huntingdon beach where Eddie had his apartment. It was a lucky escape they turned up otherwise I would have easily broken Eric's arm. Eddie seemed more upset and was quite obviously going to destroy Eric if Brad hadn't stopped him. It was the first and only time I saw Eddie's place and I soon found out why, it was a home for him and his partner on the west coast and contained many personal things. Eddie was on the phone with his partner explaining that I was there and would be staying over, Brad came over and sat next to me. "Why did you never tell me about this guy?" Brad asked looking at me. I shrugged my shoulders "I didn't want to worry you, you have enough on your plate". Brad shook his head "I could never live with myself if something happened to you" he said. I smiled and patted his leg "I want to come home" I said quietly to him. "What about your job and this Jacob guy?" Brad asked "I thought you and he were friends?". "I quit my job today and Jacob can't talk to me for 3 months" I said explaining about the gagging clause. Eddie walked over "Listen guys I was not with you this evening you understand?" he said to all of us. Everyone nodded "Of course she has one on you with models as well" Steve said referring to a gagging clause. Brad nodded "Yeah so you haven't seen me this evening" he said seriously. Steve sat down "You know how pissed she is, she was shouting at everyone after you both left" he said. I looked up "I thought she would be glad" I said jokingly. Steve chuckled "You were her most valuable asset Tom of course she is mad, you need to check your bank account". I did and sat forward when I saw my balance "Shit I have nearly $300k in there" I said looking at Steve. Steve laughed "There is another $50k from last week yet to go in. Don't worry I will make sure she pays up". Eddie smiled "Now do you believe me when I said how special you were" he said sitting the opposite side of me. I looked at him "But you only told me that in bed" I said laughing, Brad screwed his face up. Mike got off the phone and walked inside from the balcony "Brad and you are on the 8.30am flight with me". "Oh you going?" Steve said to Mike looking up disappointingly. Mike smiled "I have to work, but I change my rotas to overnight here more frequently if you like". Steve smiled "Really?" he said "I mean yeah I would like that". I laughed at them "Why don't you two go out for dinner and do whatever you need to do" I said. They eventually were persuaded to go out leaving Brad, Eddie and myself alone. It turned out to be the most weirdest evenings as Brad looked quite besotted by Eddie and loved comparing and feeling his muscles and admiring the tattoos. The one thing Eddie noticed was how Brad looked at me, to him it was way past a brotherly kind of look and he did wonder. The three guys shared the spare bedroom and I stayed with Eddie. I finished undressing "Does it hurt?" Eddie asked touching my neck. "No looks worse than it is, but fuck he had a tight grip on me" I replied "Thank you for being here". Eddie smiled "Can I ask you something, but tell me if it is none of my business?" he asked. I looked at him and smiled "You want to know about Brad?" I asked and he nodded. "Yeah I mean you know he is in love with you right?" Eddie said out of the blue. I stopped "He is straight" I replied "but what makes you think that?" I asked him. Eddie sat on the bed "The way he looks at you and goes all sheepish talking about you". I straddled across Eddie's lap "I think you might be reading to much in to it, he has a girlfriend". Eddie kissed me "Don't be fooled by that Tom, anyway he is a step-brother so it's not illegal" he said. I threw my head back and laughed "That is just simply not right". Eddie smiled "Sorry I shouldn't pry really. But I know that look when I see it" he said. I looked Eddie in the eye "Can I tell you something but promise me you will never say anything?" I asked. Eddie nodded "You know you can trust me Tom" he replied stroking my back. I took a deep breath "I have been in love with him for years, I think it is going to destroy me". Eddie wrapped his arms around me "You must not let it get to you Tom, your young you will find someone". I nodded and kissed him as we settled down in bed "Anyway I am so done with all this" I said to him. "What you mean all this modelling career, just like that finished?" Eddie asked sounding surprised. I nodded "Completely, it was never a career for me. I am going back to Texas life away from this". Eddie pulled in me tighter "Going back to just Tom from Texas?" he asked. "Yes, we will ever see each other again?" I asked running my hand across his chest but I knew it was over. Eddie shrugged his shoulder "We are two worlds apart Tom, my life is here and New York". I kissed him "I owe you so much Eddie" I said "being with you has been amazing". Eddie looked at me "You breaking up with me?" he asked laughing "let's get the 3 months out the way first". Eddie ran his finger across my top lip very slowly then along the bottom one, despite everything that had gone on when you lay in bed next to Eddie it was to hard to resist. I pushed him over on to his back and climbed on top of him, he chuckled and smiled 'This is new' he said quietly amused as I leaned forward and kissed him. His hands quickly exploring the body he knew so well now, stopping and cupping my ass cheeks. Returning my kissing in a gentle but assuring way he moved his hand and freed his cock from underneath me placing it in between my ass cheeks and rubbing against my hole. It seemed like a good idea at first, I managed to wriggle my ass forcing the head of his cock in inside my hole, I gasped at the initial pain then returned to kissing him as I slowly wriggled and lowered my ass down taking the shaft of his penis inside me. I sat upright and winced feeling him going deeper inside, I looked down at him and he laughed guessing I had no idea what to do now I was on top, after all I was usually the one underneath him and never had to work for it. But tonight over the few hours I learnt how to ride and tease with Eddie's guidance. I began to rub my ass against him in small back and forth motions, Eddie held on to the headboard and moaned, getting louder the harder I pushed down and the quicker I moved, then slowing down and feeling him inside I looked up at the ceiling 'oh fuck' I muttered. My body pulled down in to his arms his legs moving up he ground his cock in my ass and gave several hard jerks upwards and kissed me deep before releasing me. Sitting upright again his hands held my hips guiding me up and down teaching me, I could only raise myself an inch or so. Each time I sank back down he raised his hips up meeting me. I moaned in pleasure at this new experience that coursed through my body, it hurt more but also felt incredibly good being the one in control. Our hands met holding on to each other as I continued riding him, changing the pace and rhythm, all the time we looked in to each others eyes. Letting go of my hand he grabbed my cock and began rubbing the head with his thumb, I squealed in ecstasy rather to loudly but it drove me to ride him harder and faster. His hand clasped around my cock and my movements from riding his cock was jerking my cock off in his hand, I was uncontrollable, my hands grasping his legs, his arms, his legs trying to stifle my moaning. I could feel the pressure building in my cock 'oh fuck Eddie' I cried about to blow my load. As much as I thought I was in control I soon realised that Eddie was just way to good and knew exactly what we was doing taking us both on journey. Instantly he took over and began hammering harder in to my ass, I threw my head back and took a sharp intake of breath as my load jettisoned across Eddie's chest and against his neck my balls ached from the force or my orgasm. Eddie pushed up hard moaning and grunting, I could feel his cock jumping inside breeding my ass deep. My ass clenching from my orgasm sunk even deeper on to his cock. Wave after wave of post orgasm pleasure rode over me, unable to make sense of anything for several minutes until his arms pulled me back down. My lips eagerly attaching to Eddie's, his tongue pushing in to my mouth. We laid there kissing until I felt his cock soften slightly and I was able to release myself from him and collapse against his muscled chest his arms securely fastened around me, I felt so wonderful. We both fell asleep in each other arms a fitting way to end this little episode of my life with Eddie, guessing this would probably be the very last time I would feel the warmth of his body close against mine in this way. In the morning Steven and Eddie said goodbye to me at the apartment so we were not seen together in public, fortunately Eric didn't leave any bruises around my neck and the red marks had all but disappeared so I looked pretty normal again. In a way I was sad but glad to be going home, Mike had got us in first class for the flight and we arrived an hour earlier than most passengers since Mike was working the flight, Brad and I went to the lounge waiting for the flight. One of the female passengers was reading the fashion section of the LA Times and kept looking over at me and smiled. Brad was watching the planes and turned when she approached where we were sitting and put the article down in front of us and winked at me before she turned and headed for her flight. I looked down at the open page 'The Model Called Tom shopping in Bloomingdales', the article was only a small piece but is said a thousand words of praise from the staff of the menswear department who were thrilled at meeting me and how I spent time having photos and talking to them. Brad mocked me as usual but he kept the paper as we stood and walked towards the gate. "Not quite the same as when we last left LA together" Brad said to me as we stood waiting at the gate. I looked at him "No, did I make the right decision?" I asked doubting myself as a tear dropped down my cheek. Brad's hands grabbed my arms and pulled me in holding me tight, several passengers turned to watch the commotion happening by the gate. Somehow he made everything alright and could feel the love in his arms holding and reassuring me, I pulled away a little from him and his arms and he let me go. Brad wiped the tears from my face slowly and his hands held my face, the intimacy of our closeness was palpable and Brad looked at me in a way he had never done before. "There was no way I was going to leave you here" Brad said to me. I looked at him "I guess were even" I joked "now that you have rescued me, who said I didn't screw things up". We boarded the plane and sat quietly for most of the 3 hour flight, Mike looked after us and said he would pop by on Sunday to the ranch to see us. I soon realised that I wasn't that upset looking out of the window at the flat Texas landscape that grew nearer with the plane descending I was looking forward to getting home. In the short space of time that Brad came to LA it felt weird as if the dynamic of our relationship had changed, I couldn't quite put my finger on it and Brad had not mentioned his girlfriend who was still pestering him after another break up when she wanted commitment. We arrived back at the ranch mid afternoon, Brad had to get to work for a meeting with his father, I walked in to the bathroom showered and went to bed. Brad came in to the bedroom just before midnight, I knew he was going to tell our parents everything and they allowed me to have some private space and time to deal with things. Brad undressed down to his underwear and sat on the bed next to next to me holding a book, I didn't need to ask and just cuddled down, he put his arm around my neck holding me close reading to me. I hadn't realised that my hand was stroking his chest and he continued to read for half an hour. He gently took my hand off his chest after I fell asleep and he went to his own bed. When I woke in the morning Brad was already up and his gym wear was gone. I retrieved my journal and looked at the page from a few nights back that I wrote about Eric and what I remembered happening, it was strange reading it back. I turned the page and picked up the pen 'Last night for the first time ever Brad read to me and I felt the closest I have ever been to him, my love for him has crossed boundaries and gone way past normality. This is going to destroy me and I will never find the right kind of happiness, he will always be there in the distance, untouchable and unlovable to me. Maybe I should get out and leave Medina for good and find a proper job, journalism is coming up as a top favourite at the moment. Mostly I need to distance myself from my feelings for him and maybe then I can really move on'. I stopped and quickly hid the journal hearing Brad coming through the lounge towards the bedroom. I sorted the lease on the apartment and told the owner that someone tried to break in which is why I left feeling unsafe, job done. The next was trickier and didn't take long, Patricia made it clear that I to have no contact with anyone who I modelled for including photographers and it was in force for 3 months from yesterday. She then tried a different tactic apologising for not understanding, then asking me to come back and carry on as normal under a renegotiated contract. When I said no defiantly she made it clear that I was blacklisted for other agencies and the call ended. I stood up 'fuck it' I shouted loudly and went to find Brad and drag him back to the gym to work out with me. Hell knows what came over me but I just wanted to work out some anger. For the first time in ages that evening I sat down and had a family meal, Brad and I walked for a couple of miles afterwards around the ranch. I remembered my first day here and how I hated it so much, but it was home, the peace and solitude of the place was all I needed right now. Returning to the ranch house and our bedroom I collapsed on the bed, Brad stood there and threw a book at me that landed on the bed beside me, nearly naked apart from his underwear he sat on the bed and looked at me. I smiled and picked up the book and he swung himself on the bed laying next to me, his skin touching mine, it felt more electrifying than ever. I had to turn over and lay on my stomach to hide my sexual feelings for him and I could have sworn he noticed and he never said a word, waiting there patiently for me to start reading. It wasn't long before we both fell asleep still holding the book and Brad was sleeping on his back, our parents crept in to make sure I was alright and my mother looked at Seth seeing us laying there on top of the bed 'they have just never grown up' Seth said to her, she nodded and turned the light out leaving us there. My mother and Seth just looked at each other and never said a word to us. I woke with Brad's arm strewn across my back and giggled at the situation as the sunlight seeped through the crack in the curtains. Brad woke up as I climbed off the bed neither of us spoke, we just grabbed our gym wear and went to work out and had breakfast. The mail man arrived with a recorded delivery for me, an envelope from Manon International and the letter inside was all business like explaining my fees were paid up to the last day I worked and calculated commission paid in to my bank account. The last paragraph explained that persons or companies who have engaged in third party modelling assignments are not permitted to contact individuals for 3 months. At last I could put this episode behind me once and for all and move on. Checking my banking app I saw that my wages was paid up to date and another $100k in assignment commission. I thought Steve was joking when he said $50k but I never expected that much, the work I did had earned me just under $500k in total. I suppose I thought this was normal in modelling as I never really paid much attention of the commotion my photos were causing. I quickly wrote in my journal as Brad showered 'Fell asleep last night doing what I love best, reading to Brad, I do wonder if it is natural or have I completely lost my mind. I love him, fuck I do love him, I can help thinking that if I stay here it is going to ruin me if not both of us'. I quickly slipped it under the mattress pretending to make the bed as he came out drying his hair. I was then heading out with my mother for a catch up but I promised to be back so we could go down to the river later for some alone time and reading. I can only assume what happened that morning after I left to go out with my mother. When I got back home and went to change and noticed that my journal was visible poking out from under the mattress, my heart sank as I couldn't be sure if Brad had actually read it, I mean he use to joke about it a lot when we were young, but it also didn't contain anything so secretive back then. If he had then life was about to deal me another devastating blow and things were about change. I felt physically sick and knew he was waiting for me in the family room to spend the afternoon down at the river. I moved the journal to somewhere else and hoped that he hadn't seen it as I had remembered when I left it was sticking out and it was one task I was to do but forget to push it fully under. I changed and gathered my thoughts nervously walking to the family room where he seemed to be the same Brad I left that morning. "You models take your time getting ready" Brad joked as I walked in. I chuckled "Sorry and I am not a model anymore" I said to him. Phew I thought, he hasn't read it so everything was okay and we drove down to the river and to our spot on the bank stretching out I opened the book and started reading. After a while Brad got up and sat at the waters edge, he turned back to look at me as I had stopped reading 'carry on' he said, picking up some pebbles and throwing them in to the shallow river. I was distracted by him when he passed me the sun protection bottle and asked me do his back. He continued picking small pebbles up and watching them land in the water, I poured some cream in my hands and kneeled behind him rubbing it in to his shoulders and back. "That feels good" Brad said picking up another pebble and watching it fly "Do like you doing that?". I stopped and put the cap on the bottle wiping my hands on the towel "All done" I said picking up the book. "Did you mean what you wrote, that you would leave Medina?" he asked without looking at me. I put the book down "You read it?" I asked with a horrified look on my face, he still didn't turn to face me. I could see him nodding "Yes, I saw it sticking out under your mattress this morning". "How much of it have you read?" I asked wishing the ground would swallow me up. Brad stood up "Does it matter?" he asked then answered himself "quite a lot it". I put my head in my hands "I'm sorry Brad, no one is suppose to read it they are my thoughts" I said. "I can't believe you would even contemplate leaving here again" Brad said finally looking at me. I was confused and stood up "They are just thoughts and feelings Brad nothing more". "They are real feelings though otherwise you wouldn't have written them down" he said standing looking at me. I felt peculiarly hot unsure if it was from the sun beating down on me or if I was really embarrassed. Brad stood there and just looked at me in such a strange way, I didn't know what to do or what he was thinking. I couldn't stand here much longer he knew that my brotherly love went way beyond. He stepped forward and held my arm "What if I don't want you to move away again?" he asked. Looking at his hand avoiding his eyes was hard "Being around you I am finding hard each day" I replied. I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me, Brad moved close and put his arms around me hugging me hard. My arms stayed by my side not wanting to hug him but he held and held me. The closeness of his head against my neck he whispered 'I want you to stay' he moved his head back upright our noses almost touching from how close he now stood in front of me. Brad wasted no time as I saw his head move forward and slightly tilting to the side he kissed me on the lips briefly, instinct raised my arms holding him on his lower back. I tried to make sense of this but his lips touched mine again lingering for a few seconds until he stopped. My heart was racing and pounding in my chest, his arms circled further around my back and he kissed me, lips parted meeting my eagerly waiting mouth. I knew this is what I wanted, a little bit of selfishness creeping in having waited so long for something I never thought would happen. Gradually I could feel his lips parting further his tongue passing over my lips and in to my mouth. He stopped and pushed me away holding my upper arms keeping me at arms length. He looked to be having second thoughts and like he was about to hit me, but something overruled him and he pulled me back quickly and speared my mouth with his tongue kissing me frantically. Confusion rained down on me like a torrent of water, Brad pulled his shorts down with one hand exposing his cock. His hands moved to my shoulders and he pushed me down hard so I was face to face with this cock. Taking the hint my lips surrounded the head of his cock and I gently caressed it throwing in the flicking of my tongue against it and hearing him moan. Oh he tasted good I thought his hands now on my head pulling it forward to take more of his cock in my mouth, it was difficult at first but the more saliva I coated the shaft of his cock with made it progressively easier for me to pleasure him. Applying more pressure from my lips I could see his leg tremble nervously, his hand holding my head in position he began to move his hips forward and back rapidly. I choked a couple of times when his cock pushed against the back of my throat, I didn't care though, I was in heaven my head bobbing in time with his hips. His grip on my head hardened pulling me forward and holding me there as he let a guttural groan from his chest 'Fuck' he cried out. His cock pulsing in my mouth as I tried to moved my head back a little but it was too late. My mouth filled rapidly with his semen, using my tongue I tried to stop the rapid firing my hitting the back of my throat but he constantly kept pushing his cock forward. I swallowed without thinking closing my eyes, when I opened them the head of his cock rested on my lips. He had a look of horror on his face as if he had just realised what he did "I'm not gay" he said. I coughed and wiped my watering eyes and looked at him "It's okay, you can be whatever you want" I said backing up slightly looking worried. He turned and packed the rucksack "We better get back" he told me sounding a little angry. The strange salty taste from his cum still rang around my mouth, I grabbed the bottle of water from my ruck sack and took a hefty swig to get rid of the taste. When I got in the car he was looking straight ahead avoiding my gaze or any conversation. To me I saw the end of our relationship, a 5 minute blow job and walls tumbled down. It was a very quiet drive back to the ranch house and I slipped out after we go home to walk on my own and clear my head. Whatever he thought he was keeping it bottled up and that evening Brad went out, he never told me where he was going so I assumed it was back to Melinda to assert his manliness and how straight he was. I never heard him coming home or leaving in the morning for work, in fact over the next few days I saw Brad only a couple of times and his conversation to me was very limited, what struck me was that he couldn't look me in the eye. How I needed Eddie or Jacob to talk to right now, they could probably make sense of this. I though about Mike but he was friends with Brad as well and I didn't want to cause a rift. My return to Medina hadn't gone quite as smoothly and it was causing me to question my decision making again. I grabbed my journal and pen 'I have never hated myself so much and I feel so down, I thought coming back to Medina would bring some normality back to my life but it has made it worse and now I fear that things are never going to be the same. The one person I thought I could have faith in has turned their back on me, one stupid thing has done this, but then I never instigated it. I am going to free myself from all of this once and for all'. I stopped writing to answer my phone and saw Mike was calling, we had quick conversation and he invited me to his for the weekend. It was an opportunity so I said I would drive up on Friday since Mike had a few days off. I didn't see Brad Thursday evening either and by Friday lunchtime I was on the road and felt kind of relieved to be away for a few days. We had a quick catch up before heading out in to the city to go wandering around, keeping Brad out of the conversation Mike sort of knew something was up but in all good conscious he refrained from talking about him. We went into one of the big malls had a late lunch and wandered around some department stores. Mike laughed and pointed me towards the menswear department and the Jacob Jansen section, there were photos of me all over the place. Mike swooned when he saw the photo of me in the baseball cap, polo shirt and jock strap (or Jacob strap as I called them). The poster contained a watermark 'The Model Called Tom' at the bottom, okay so it made me laugh and cheered me up especially when Mike grabbed one of the baseball caps and shoved it on my head then making me stand next to the poster. He took a photo of me and we both laughed loudly until the floor manager walked over and did a double take when seeing me. As it turns out I still had some pulling power and he gave us two baseball caps and took a photo of me next to the poster for their staff magazine. Laughing we continued on this bizarre shopping expedition, Mike turned to me and said he knew where we should go now. Back in the car we drove in to the centre of the city down a street I didn't know, but in Dallas it was where all the expensive shops and boutiques were. Standing outside the store front almost half of the window was adorned with several large photos of me wearing JJ's clothing, I looked up at the two letter J's over of the front of the store. It reminded me when Jacob took me in to his store in LA. Mike looked at me and I smiled and nodded opening the door and walking in. It was exactly the same as the LA store, I took off my baseball cap and immediately one of the assistants came asking if they could be of any help. The fun part was she didn't recognise me at first that is, but the manager had, picking up his phone he was talking away looking over at us several times as we browsed around some of the casual clothing. I found it utterly interesting as the last time I was in one of Jacob's stores I didn't get a chance to browse, the range of clothing he had for men and quite clearly designed with the gay man in mind and it was astonishing, so beautifully designed, crafted and well, expensive. Mike walked up besides me "Amazing stuff but fuck it is expensive" he said to me looking at a shirt. "I never knew how much his clothing cost" I replied looking surprised "I must have a fortunes worth of briefs". Laughing Mike showed me the strap of his underwear "I wear the two you gave me" he looked at me smiling. "Excuse me gentlemen" a voice behind us said and we both turned and he smiled at me. "Hello" I said "sorry we are just browsing". Mike chuckled "I am wearing" he said showing the strap to the man. Brodie laughed "I can see, I am Brodie the store manager, please follow me Tom and guest" he said gesturing. I guess the look of surprise on my face at him knowing my name made him chuckle as he turned, Brodie was very discreet and didn't mention Jacob or Marcus by name but explained we could choose a casual and polo shirt each compliments of JJ's. As we left I asked Brodie to thank the benefactor and tell them I am okay, he smiled and winked closing the door as we left the store. We laughed and joked all the way back to Mike's place, by the time we got there it was already 8pm and we settled for a quiet night which quickly spiralled out of control as he did internet searches on me, dumbstruck I was coming up all over the place and a few articles were written about The Model Called Tom, much of it was guess work with very little actual clue as to who I was or where I was from. Mike stopped giggling and turned his laptop to me telling me to read this press release, I leaned over and saw it was an article in the fashion section of the LA Times 'Manon International announced today that their most popular model has retired after a brief spell of one year modelling. The Model Called Tom decided to return to his life outside of fashion, an insider stated that Tom is a great guy but only tried modelling for a year whilst finishing his studies. LA Times also learnt from sources that renowned photographer Eddie Morales quit working at Manon International after a fall out with it's owner. Word is they both left Manon on the same day but as usual the industry is tight lipped if anything was going on between Tom and Eddie. We checked @TheModelCalledTom's twitter account which has been silent for several weeks but still has a following of 360k people'. Under the article was a photo Eddie took of me and one of him at some gala in New York, I turned to Mike and laughed but he was looking at me with a shocked face. "Do you really have that many followers on there?" he asked. I shrugged my shoulders "I don't know" I replied as he held out his hand for my phone. He sat there looking at shaking his head "No you don't have 360k following you, it is 435k" he said handing it to me. "Oh right, I suppose I should keep posting stuff every now and then" I said. Mike smiled shaking his head "You need to get a grip on reality Tom and how popular as a model you are". "I guess, what shall we do?" I asked him Mike stood up "Put the shirt on from JJ's". Well Mike was no photographer but we both found it hilarious trying different poses, then he caught one good shot where you could clearly see whose shirt I was wearing and my head turned to the window 'Perfect' he said handing me the phone. I nodded and smiled agreeing with him that it was a dam good photo. What the hell I said and uploaded the photo with a tweet 'Friday evening, have a good weekend guys', I posted it and within seconds I was getting tweet back and likes in the hundreds no thousands. Many of the tweets back were wishing me a good weekend and asking if it was true and I have quit modelling, I asked Mike what I should say and he said just tweet your finishing your studies. Suddenly a retweet came in from JJ's store in Dallas 'Great to see you wearing the shirt you got today from our store'. Mike was having a ball reading the tweets coming back and we spent several hours watching it in amazement, what also surprised us was the number of modelling offers coming direct from stores and fashion companies, not just in the US but from Australia and Europe. In New York Eddie and his partner James were having dinner with Jacob and Marcus. Marcus saw the tweet appear and looked up at them all 'Tom is okay he just tweeted something' he showed them all the photo. Eddie went quiet and James kissed him 'I know how much you liked him as a person and toy' he laughed. Eddie smiled and kissed James. Saturday Mike took me to his gym at the airlines offices out at the airport, it was a long way to go to work out but it was free and Mike sat there enjoying the scenery since the only workout he did was walking up and down the aisle of an aircraft. It seemed to be doing the trick though as he was pretty healthy and fit. We spent the rest of the day visiting different places around Dallas and I got to see a side to the city I had not known, we got home around 6pm and had a bite to eat. Mike sat down at the table "So are you going to tell me what is going on?" he asked picking up his fork. "What do you mean?" I asked carefully avoiding his gaze. Mike put his fork down "You haven't spoken about Brad at all, did something happen?". He was waiting for an answer and I looked at him "I don't think it is fair to involve you" I said. "Oh okay, you think I can't be friends with both you without making a judgment?" he asked picking at his salad. I smiled "Kind of like that" I said spearing tomato with my fork "yes something did happen". Mike looked up at me "Did you fuck?" asking straight out. I shook my head "No, but I sucked him off. Now he won't talk or even look at me" I replied. "Hell Tom" he said surprised "Well I won't get involved but it is a dangerous game to play". "Bad decision more like" I said looking over at him "I have to leave Medina it is so difficult living with him". Mike laughed "You two have shared a bedroom for so long I don't think either of you can cope without the other". I laughed "I know, but it has to end and now is the best time to draw a line" I said putting down my fork. Mike looked over "Right, come on were going to a gay club, see how many numbers you can get". I looked shocked at the suggestion "Err.. Okay fuck it lets go" I replied laughing. In the countryside of Texas Brad turned on to the access road to the Medina ranch, parking in the garage he said hello to our parents who told him that I had gone to Dallas to visit Mike for the weekend. He played it cool in front of them and went down to the wing where our bedroom was. Brad found it strangely quiet again like it was when I lived in LA, but he had one thing on his mind and he started searching for it as soon as he closed the door, my hiding place was not so secretive as he found it in my closet, he sat on the bed and opened it reading all the entries in it and more specifically the ones relating to the last few days. Finally feeling like I could let my hair down, Mike by my side who promised to look after me we entered in to one noisy gay nightclub. It was busy and there were men of all sorts sprawled on the dance floor and sitting at tables chatting cruising everyone who walked by like some blood sport was in full swing. Muscle men, bears, otters it was a buffet of surprises in front of me, not that I had a plate in my hand and ready to delve in. It was just interesting and quite eye opening. We found a spot at the bar and Mike ordered two sodas, we turned leaning back against the bar overlooking the nightclub. Okay I will admit there was some seriously sexy men in here, as expected most of the muscled men were dancing with no t-shirts on, their bodies glistening in the lights that flashed over them sporadically. Mike turned to face me "And so it begins" he said "Your catching peoples eye" he smiled. I laughed "Let them come to daddy" I said causing Mike to nearly spit his drink out from laughing. He wasn't wrong men walked past having a good look at me before wandering off lurking in the dark corners then reappearing again often smiling or winking at me as they walked past. Mike told me to look after his drink as he needed to use the facilities, watching him I saw him wave and chat to a couple of guys who he appeared to know. Across the room one guy caught my attention and I had caught his, a fleeting glance that made me smile, I turned to face the bar guarding Mike's drink. It wasn't long before I had the sensation that I was not alone...

Being "in heat" is how i have long described my state of desire, makes total sense to me as a bottom that other bottoms would relate as well. As a little kid growing up in LA, before i was sexually active, i remember seeing a large number of male dogs around a house (maybe 15 to 20). i was informed that there was a bitch in heat inside the house. The owner came outside in an attempt to chase them away and in the process, the bitch go lose and came outside. What transpired was the first group fuck i ever witnessed. Two dogs would get knotted, but that didn't keep the others from waiting their turn. Even at that age, before i really fully knew i was a gay bottom, i remember being envious of the bitch.

It’s difficult to express. But they are correct. Faggots cannot be raped. Faggots enjoy rough sex and being sexually used and abused...that is how they get off. How can you rape someone like that?

Fuck - I’ve been wanting to experience this exact scene in real life. There’s just something about the thought of being up in a sling and given a series of non-stop slams to be transformed into an insatiable cum slut for BBC that’s beyond hypnotic for me. It’s been a fantasy/obsession of mine for as long as I can remember. If there’s anyone in the New England area that is willing to help make this a reality for me please feel free to contact me & we can work out the details.

Part 23 - The Return To Fabian The week was speeding by, Jacob was getting on well at work and Paul was incredibly impressed with him, he came by every evening after work to use the gym and pool, much to Ben's delight, but he kept this as near to normal as possible. Jake's tattoo had healed up quickly and by Thursday Brad said he could start swimming again, he was sat with Marco on the deck. Jacob and Ben appeared to quickly grab some food, fortunately the kiss incident had been forgotten about. Jake was side lined for Ben by his brother, he didn't mind as each day his brother was changing in his attitude and personality, and was seeing more of the Jacob coming through that he knew. Like himself he saw that he grew in his own confidence, held his head up, he also got on very well with Fabian and was not afraid to be solely in his presence, they had even worked out together. "Jacob seems to have joined the family of sorts." "Why do you think that is Marco?" "Fabian obviously really likes him." "In a sexual way?" "No I don't think so, I think he sees a lot of his own brother in how Jacob started out." "He has a brother?" "Yes, a year younger than him, he lives in Spain with his wife, unfortunately it is a loveless marriage." "That's sad." "He always thought his brother showed gay tendencies but was scared to let his guard down so he married." "Do you think he sees that in Jacob?" "I think he sees some similarities, so being here with us will tell eventually." "Is it that different from his brother?" "He was seen visiting a male prostitute one evening by a friend of Fabian. It upset him that he was to late to help." "Marco, can I ask you something?" "Of course." "Would you be upset if I went with Fabian?" "Not at all, I think Fabian would be more upset if you didn't." "It's just he has given me all of this and brought you in to my life." "Don't do it out of guilt or gratitude Jake. Do it out of love for him." "I do love him, but in a different way to you." "I would hope so!. I know he will be alone this evening, Paul is going to Andrew and Brad's for some fun." "Paul?" "Yes, you probably never noticed but Fabian and Paul are married." "Does Paul spend a lot of time here, I have never noticed?" "He spends most nights with Fabian. Anyway if you don't mind I would like to see Spencer and JP tonight." "Oh." "I don't have to if it upsets you." "No it doesn't you go ahead, maybe we could do it together one night?" "I would love that and I know Spencer and JP would to. JP has a thing for you, and Spencer has been wanting to get you." They both laughed and kissed each other as Jacob and Ben resurfaced from the kitchen. Ben tutted and Jacob looked at the passion between them before realising they had an audience. It was getting towards 9pm and Jacob gave Ben a hug as it was time for him to go. Jake walked with his brother as Marco and Ben decided to go for a dip in the pool. "Wish you could stay around more. You have fitted in well and everyone likes you." "It's a different world Jakey." "You haven't called me Jakey in years." He hugged his brother and unsuspectingly Jacob gave him another kiss on the mouth followed by another hug, he let go and started to walk down the drive way before turning back and telling him he would see them tomorrow. Jake went up the stairs and turned down the opposite direction for the first time in days towards Fabian's room. He knocked on the door but there was no answer, unsure if he should go in or not he turned and walked back. Fabian was just reaching the top of the stairs. "What's up Jake?" "Oh, I just knocked to see if you was in your room." "Is something wrong?" "No, come here I need something." Fabian looked a little worried but Jake smiled as he got closer to him, he put his arms around Fabian's neck and kissed him deeply. His body rose off the ground, his legs flew around Fabian's waist as he carried him back to where it all started. Through the doors and on to the bed, his clothes being pulled from his body until he lay naked on the bed. Fabian stripped his clothes off and climbed on the bed in between Jake's legs, he pulled his legs up and hooked them around Fabian again as their mouths locked in a deep passionate kiss. He wasted no time pushing his cock towards Jake's hole, pausing slightly to tease before he pushed in slowly and steadily. Jake's back arched and he moaned in pleasure as his hole gave way to Fabian entering his body. All the time he felt on fire as a constant wall of pain as Fabian's cock pushed deeper. He forgot that Fabian's cock was slightly thicker than Marco's, but he didn't care, he wanted Fabian badly. The kiss never stopped, Fabian was steady as a rock as his undulating hips thrusted in and out of Jake's arse. Jake's arms were clenched around his shoulders hanging on for dear life, moaning and arching with every inch of Fabian inside of him. Without warning Fabian locked his hips up deep against Jake's arse, he kissed him back with more intensity as Fabian grunted loudly in to his mouth. the pulse of Fabian's cock sending shock waves through his body as he felt the volleys of that familiar toxic seed flooding deep in to his arse. Jake never the one to be left out raised his hips higher as his own orgasm played out coating both of their stomachs with Fabian's toxic strain. They continued kissing each other in the same position for over an hour, Fabian giving Jake two more loads until they collapsed exhausted. "Thank you Fabian. I've missed you." Fabian stroked Jake's face. "I have missed you as well. But never forget where you true love lies." "It lies with all of you, but most especially with my lover." They kissed and fell asleep in each others arms. They both stirred as Marco slipped in to bed beside them. "What time is it Marco?" "11 Jake you look exhausted." "I Hope you didn't wreck my lover Fabian." "I may have over sexed him." Jake turned to face Marco and kissed him as he cuddled up closer to him in his arms, he pulled Fabian up to his back as the three of them huddled together and quickly drifted off to sleep. Jake woke startled as a figure stood over them. He raise his finger to his lips and realised it was Paul. It was still dark outside, Paul slipped in to bed next to Fabian and cuddled up to him. By morning Jake woke to the sound of hushed voices, Paul and Fabian were sat by the balcony drinking coffee as the sun was rising. Marco was still flat out so he gently eased out of bed not to wake him. He went over and kissed Fabian and Paul and sat on the opposite sofa, he couldn't help but look at them side by side they looked the perfect couple. "Coffee Jake?" "Yes please Paul." "What's on your mind Jake?" "Sorry Fabian just in my own thoughts." "Are they interesting ones?" "Not really. But I was just thinking how good you two look together." They both looked at Jake in mild amusement. Marco woke up as Paul laughed loudly forgetting he was still sleeping. He got out of bed and headed over wanting to know what was going on. Jake wanted to ask Paul about his brother. "So Paul, sorry to break the mood, how is my brother getting on?" "Really well, he is a quick learner, and the college have allowed him to do is technical course from his place of work." "Thank god. I was a little bit worried." "It's all good and he has change so much over the week. And I can't thank you enough for Dave and Joe they are fantastic." "I think Jacob had a little pressure from mum and dad not to screw this chance up. "Speaking of work, I need to get going." Fabian went in to the bathroom with Paul and asked him he could poach Jake away to come and work for him, he had no problem with the idea and said it would give him the opportunity to move Jacob up as he was doing so well. Fabian kissed him and said he would talk to Jake in a few days, there was no rush. Back in the bedroom Marco rubbed Jake's head telling him it was time to hit the gym, Fabian came back out and his gym clothes as they all headed out.

Part 16 - The Lovers And Generosity "Happy Jake?" "Incredibly, I still ache a bit. Are we having sex?" "Not tonight Jake, I want you to be completely well. Anyway we won't be having sex." "What do you mean?" "You and I will only make love never just sex." "I never have thought about it like that, or even had the chance. Fabian was the closest thing I ever had to intimacy." "The best thing about our family is you can indulge with whoever you like." "You mean have sex with them?" "Absolutely, Fabian especially. But most importantly you must feel free to enjoy the family, it's what makes us all close." "It may take me some time to get use to this way of thinking." "Of course, I know this is all new but never be afraid to express yourself." Marco reached up to take Jake's shirt off. He stopped him and told him he was only ever allowed to undress him in the course of making love. Marco kissed Jake and began to strip. Jake sat and watched as Marco took off his shirt, he loved looking at the tightness and definition of the muscle in his arms. His beautifully crafted torso gave him an adonis stature. One thing he couldn't fathom was why Marco was so drawn to him when he could have the pick of the crop. Jake stripped then climbed in to bed next to Marco. "Marco, I don't pretend to understand many things. Why you and I are here now is one of them." "People get drawn together in many ways, it is just something that fits in to place and you know it is meant to be." Jake wrapped in Marco's arms gave him a tender kiss as they both laid looking at each other. The fight to stay awake was being lost, Jake's breathing eased in to a steady rhythm as he drifted in to sleep. Marco continued looking at Jake, had he really found someone who could love him unconditionally. He kissed his forehead before his eyes closed. Jake's eyes slowly opened, he was laying on his side with Marco spooning close against him. His body felt normal and his ached had disappeared, this he put down to being in the arms of his new lover. He climbed out of bed and looked at Marco who stirred and rolled over. Walking through to the lounge area to the open balcony doors and stood there, it looked over towards Spencer and JP's house. It was really dawning on him that there must be some serious amounts of money here, a fact he had never really given thought about, except what Fabian said to him, that he would look after him no matter what. Jake was from a home that got by, no extravagance or big holidays, just your average life. At some point he would have to confront his own family, they knew about him being gay but very guarded and disapproving over this matter and didn't talk about it. His only brother, Jacob, was a bit of a rough kid on the block, 2 years older, tattoos and always getting in to fights and no job. He loved his brother, but recently he had began tolerating him for the sake of his family. He only referred to Jake now as 'Queer boy' which he hated. They were all a world away from where he stood right now in the plush surroundings of Wimbledon, beyond the trees in Wandsworth his family would be getting ready for the normal daily routine. Jake stretched raising his arms high, he jumped as two defined arms circled around him from behind. Grabbing them he pulled them tighter around his body as Marco kissed his neck. "Morning handsome, how are you feeling?" "Wonderful now you are here." Before he could say anything more Marco spun him around, gently kissing him, he stroked Jake's face then picked him up. They kissed as he carried him back to the bedroom. Jake's legs were wrapped around Marco, without knowing it he was making little sounds of delight. Still holding him in his arms they reached the bed, Marco climbed up and laid Jake down. The kissing began to take a more sensual and erotic intensity. Jake's hands caressed Marco everywhere they could reach, his cock was wanting to burst showing his love for Marco. He tried to gain some composure but his attempt were futile. Marco's cock leaking precum like a dripping tap. Their eyes both wide open looking at each other as they kissed, yearning and desire was evident in the depth of their gaze. Jake felt the head of Marco's exquisitely crafted eight inch cock applying pressure against his hole, his desire and lust for Marco showed no resistance as finally he felt his lover penetrating his body slowly. Jake kissed him with more passion than ever, as he teased Jake's hole with slow tender thrusts. Marco could not hold back any longer he had to have him, he gyrated his hips several time as inch by inch he slipped deeper and deeper inside Jake. Jake moaned as a complete happiness took over his body with every thrust from Marco's love. He raised his head a few inches above Jake before whispering "My lover", he let out a loud moan, Marco's cock swelled. Jake knew they were about to seal their love for each other. Marco held Jake in his arms, his hips pushed up hard against Jake forcing his cock as deep as he could get hitting Jake's spot. Jake cried out "Marco, I love you.". Marco kissed Jake's neck as his semen pulsated up his shaft and entered in to Jake's body, sowing his seed of love. Jake tightened his legs around Marco as he simultaneously began shooting Fabian's strain of seed between their stomachs. Marco collapsed on top of Jake penetrating as deep as he could, steam after stream of seed being given to Jake. He held Jake tight as they continued to kiss, Marco was not finished with Jake yet. He continued fucking Jake, their mouths still devouring each other. Jake moaned again in pleasure as Marco began to pick up the momentum. Locked in their world, Jake held Marco around his neck, his legs still wrapped around Marco moved caressing his hips. Marco's hips once again pushed up hard against him, he moaned in to Jake's mouth as he shot his second load into Jake and then collapsed on top of him. Marco looked at Jake who just laid there with the biggest grin on his face. A look of pure satisfaction on both their faces was a sight to behold. Marco kissed Jake's nipple and worked down his naval and began lick the now sticky mess off his stomach. Jake stroked Marco's head giggling at the tender tickling the tongue performed on his body. He would have been more than content to just lay here for the rest of his life with Marco by his side. Marco glanced at the clock before springing off the bed dragging Jake to the shower. It was 9am before they made their way downstairs. Marco telling Jake he must ensure breakfast is ready for Fabian. The walked in the dining room to find Andre finishing off the table. "Hi Marco, hi Jake, I think it's all done. You need to show me how to do this properly tomorrow." "Morning Andre, why have you done this?" "Fabian wants me to take on more around the house, didn't he tell you?" "Oh, a lot happened yesterday." "No kidding." Andre looked in Jake's direction. "You look perky this morning, did you make love?" "Andre, behave and show some respect." Fabian had walked in to the room laughing at Andre's up front questioning. He gave Marco and Jake a kiss before looking at them and gesturing in a "Come on do tell" kind of way. Jake just smiled and winked, that was all that was required. "Oh and Marco, I want Andre to take on more butler roles around the house and you to work more with me as a personal assistant." "Of course Fabian." "Hopefully it will allow you two to spend more time together. Did you manage to sort the card out for Jake?" "Sorry Fabian not yet, I will do it after breakfast. What type of card?" "I think a black one, 500 should cover it." Jake just looked on confused and didn't understand all this code going on. He decided to have fun with Andre, he went round the table moving cutlery quicker and quicker, Andre running behind putting it back in it's place until he caught up with Jake. He grabbed his arm and forced him down on the ground, he straddle Jake pinning him on the floor. Andre began to pinch Jake's nipples causing him to cry out in laughter. The other side of the room Fabian and Marco held on to each other laughing their socks off at the antics of the young men. before he turned to Marco. "You need to get him to work out more otherwise Andre will make him his bitch if he can't match him." "Don't you feel a whole new energy in the house since he arrived?" "Totally Marco, shall we go rescue Jake?" Fabian bent down and heaved Andre off with one arm. Marco looking down at Jake who was still laughing holding his nipples to cover them, Marco noticed Jake was obviously a lot better and horny as his shorts gave everything away. Jake laid on the floor until he regained his composure. Andre straightened himself up but was grinning from ear to ear. Fabian was sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee. "Marco, Jake, come sit. Jake this is as much your home now as mine." "I don't know what I have done to deserve your kindness Fabian, but thank you." "You are welcome Jake and enough of this thanking me. This is your home now as well." Andre served up breakfast, then placed a plate of food in an empty seat next to Fabian, gave him a kiss and sat down to eat with them. As soon as breakfast was done Marco sent Jake to get his work out clothes on and meet him in the gym. As he disappeared he went in to the office next to Fabian's and made the call to sort out a card for Jake. They were showering in their room having returned from their workout and swim, Marco said he had some work to do with Fabian, he suggested Jake and Andre go for a walk through the village to his flat and put together what he needs and they will collect it in the evening. Since it was a furnished flat it would only be his clothes and a few pictures. One of which was his grandmother Ellen, he doted on her as she looked after him a lot, growing up his parents were always working. He knew he had to go see her in hospital as it head been nearly a week since his last visit. Andre and Jake had a great time together, being close in age they could almost pass as brothers, except Andre sported a pretty fine physique. Jake just thought he looked plain and told Andre so, but Andre would have none of it, exclaiming that he was very attractive and real London looking. They giggled a lot as they came up to the security gate. Andre tapped his index finger on a pad above the lock and it magically swung open. "That's amazing." "Oh yeah, it is pretty nifty but not when you got sticky fingers, I was stuck outside here once for 15 minutes in the rain." "How did you get in then?" "Pressed the button and security had to open the gate." "What is it with the security?" "Fabian like his privacy. You don't know much about him do you?" "Not really, I love him in a way but not like Marco." "You should ask, he will be honest and tell you most things." "Maybe I will, but really all I need is a roof and food and of course love as it turns out." "To get Fabian's trust and respect as much as you have done is not easy. And you get a card." "What is this card?" "Marco and Ben are the only others who have cards, other family member are wealthy in their own right." "But what is it?" "You will find out soon enough. I don't need one as I only have to ask Fabian if I need anything." They entered the house and saw Marco and Fabian in the Orangery drinking coffee and mindlessly talking to each other. Jake walked in and gave Fabian a kiss then over to Marco and gave him a full on snog. "Everything sorted then Jake?" "Yes Fabian, just 3 bags of clothes to collect later, I brought some pictures with me hope you don't mind." "Of course not. Andre would you like to do lunch, Marco will show you." "Consider it done Fabian, come on Marco." "Jake come sit with me I have something for you." Jake sat next to Fabian and put his hand on his leg. Fabian produced a small envelope and gave it to Jake. "What is it?" "Open it silly and you will find out." Jake opened the envelope and a black card dropped out, he could just just make out the deep grey writing 'American Express'. "It's a credit card." "It is, but not just a credit card." "How so?" "It get's you in to some of the most exclusive places in the world." "But why would I need one?" "I want you to have it, that is your own personal expenses to do with as you wish." "Does it have contactless payment?" Fabian roared with laughter and gave Jake the biggest hug. "No Jake, it can do many things but not that." "So does it have the same limit as my other credit card of £1k?" "Not nearly close, it has £500k allowance per year." "Your kidding me?" "Not at all." "I still don't think I need it, but thank you Fabian." "I think Marco will take you out later in the week to do some shopping. You can see what doors that card will open for you." "Can I buy anything?" "Yes, but be careful and don't get carried away. Who is the picture of Jake?" "My grandmother, she looked after my brother and me a lot whilst my mum was working." "You have her eyes Jake. What's wrong?" "She is not well and in hospital so I do need to see her." "You must do that Jake, as you know family is key. Do you want me to help out in any way?" "Don't suppose you could tame my brother." Fabian mused this weird unsuspecting answer from him.

Just to give an alternative view and a shout out to submissive black men- I've been serviced by a few black men, who sought me out, wanting me to dominate them as well as be very degrading and racist as I did it. Not sure of their cock sizes as I didn't care since I was getting sucked or fucking, but they loved taking my dirty load where ever I wanted to put it. Something to remember next time you see a black man- he may not be a dom. Every person is different.

If you let a guy fuck you bare expect his load in your hole too. Otherwise simply don't fuck bare. Period.

Love black cocks. First experience was at a porn cinema years ago. Was sat down and the only black guy in there that day moved seats and sat next to me. Felt my heart racing as he started to undo his trousers and took out his cock. All eyes where in me, could see guys wanking and watching what was about to happen. He was mid forties and about 6'4" tall and about eighteen stone. I was probably the youngest guy in there and he started to wank his semi hard cock and told me to suck it. I did as I was told and lowered my head down onto his black cock. It was big, super thick and could feel it stiffening as I moved my mouth up and down on it. Once fully erect he was about ten and a half inches by six thick. He pushed down hard on the back of my head, forcing me deep until I gagged. Sucked him for a good five minutes before he'd had enough and move to the other room. He never came in my mouth but that moment of being selected and made to suck a black mans cock in front of an audience turned me on so much.

I was in the city heading to a hookup, but it didn't work out. Well, I was really horny and I was able to use my PDA phone to get on-line with Manhunt to seek out someone else who would want to have some wild intense sex. After about an hour or so, I was about to give up, but then this guy I played with over two years ago sent me a message. Now, two years ago, he and I met up, slammed and had some very hot sex, although I was, and still am, mostly a top. He was interested, and wanted to slam with some new stuff he had just purchased. I had to stop by the pharmacy to get a few supplies to bring over and then I arrived at his house. Now, this guy is a really hot daddy, and ever since we had sex a few years back, I always fantasized about him fucking me. He has a VERY THICK cock, and I'm just not used to gettting fucked, so I didn't know if it would happen or not. He had a sick relative staying in the other room, so he told me that we could play in the outdoor garden, although it would be dark and we would have to be quiet. I'm the kind of guy who likes to moan and talk dirty while having sex, so if I was to slam, then I was not sure if I could vocally control myself. We went into the bathroom; he slammed me first, then himself. Holy Shit!!!! Oh My God! I hadn't gotten 'the cough' in ages, and this was very very powerful. I sat down in the bathtub as he was doing his slam. I heard a ringing sound and was getting dizzy, but oh, I wanted some hot sex. We went out into the garden, and I felt a bit odd that he took the needles with him. So far, I'm still negative, but if I become poz through sex, that would be okay. Even so, I don't ever want to share needles, so to the fact that he brought them with him out there, I didn't feel very comfortable. We talked and felt each other up, yet the space itself was pretty uncomfortable since we were in a sort of enclosure. I so wanted to have him fuck me, but it didn't happen quite yet. A little while later, he suggested that we do a second slam. I agreed, but I didn't realize that he actually put more tina in the second syringe than what I had expected it to be. Let's just say WOW!!! It was getting a bit light out so we were able to slam in the backyard. Now, I was instantly turned into a major PIG!!! I wanted his huge raw cock inside my ass. I kept saying, "Oh Fuck!" He took the cue and placed his cock in to my lubed-up ass, and slid in there in no time, even though I was usually quite tight. I was getting fucked by this incredible hot daddy who chemmed me up to use me and make me his totally uninhibited pig. About thirty minutes had flown by, he shocked me by taking out another syringe full of Tina and asked me if I wanted it. I was in no condition to refuse, and he slammed me again. Damn.....he fucked me really good. He gave me a hot poz load, perhaps the first one I ever took. Afterwards he pissed up my ass. Somehow, however, although I had not really hard earlier in the night, something had clicked in me, and I had a raging hard-on. I bent over the hot daddy with his leather harness outlining his back and perfect bubble butt, and I fucked him raw, only to have him flip-fuck me, over and over again. That was fucking incredible. I would say Tina allowed me to reach my ultimate piggy state. I hope we can do that again real soon. Let me just add something that I should have stated, which probably was a major factor in my experience that night, and which also got me thinking. Before the second slam, the hot daddy kept suggesting that bad things happen in life or as he called them, obstacles. However, one must always see the silver lining in those experiences. I'm sure he was implying I should take his poz load, and if I seroconvert, then I'd be more free to have wilder and wilder sex without the many limitations that I place upon myself. He kept using the word positive when he said that one can become more positive about life and less negative. Before you think that I was just tweaking, realize he wanted to breed me big time, and I still wonder why he brought out all those other needles. After I had told him that it would make me feel odd - as I did in the beginning. Hmmmmmmm.