tallslenderguy

p.s. when it comes to piss, not so much into the smell of it, but I love it when a top pisses in me (or even on my ass, though I really want it inside me). One scent that is a real turn on from me is when a guy pisses in me, I hold it for hours and end up absorbing a lot of it. I've noticed when I do that that my piss takes on the tops scent and I think that is FUCKING HOT.

Ditto this. It is complicated. I'm not into pain, but find myself drawn to getting spanked when I watch some of the porn. Not sure I'd enjoy the reality as much as I enjoy the porn though lol, and I suspect that is true about at least some who chase? The other side of the coin is "gifters." I was cruised by a guy once who wanted me to come to his house and get bred. As we were working out the details, he told me he had a new toy he wanted to use on me first. When I asked him what it was, he didn't want to tel me saying I wouldn't want to do it if I knew. Finally he told me it was a tooth brush. I ended up not going over because I thought he might be wanting to poz me and that's why he wanted to use the toothbrush first... he claimed to be neg though. I know the risks I take being a bottom cum slut, but I still ask about status in a tiny attempt to protect myself. I don't consider myself safe, but I'm not purposely trying to catch anything. I get bummed even when I get chlamydia. I went years without ever getting sucked because it seemed every time I got a bj id end up with chlamydia... but I never skipped getting fucked, so I don't consider myself even safer because I don't want a disease, I just don't want one and don't understand those who do.

It is "difficult to get into somebody's head and see why..." that's why I am asking :-). The point of this post/question is not to judge, it's an attempt to understand. As far as "caus[ing] very serious self harm," what is your definition of "serious self harm?" Does trying to catch a potentially deadly disease qualify as "serious self harm?" I took care of a patient with hep C this week, I had to give him 2 units of blood because he was bleeding from his esophagus, a side disease caused by cirrhosis of the liver that results from hep C. That seems serious to me.

Hey guys, I am mystified and would like to understand the reasons why guys want to be poz'ed or want to catch other diseases. I'm a critical care nurse and often take care of people who have the diseases that some on here "chase" and/or want to catch and I want to understand the reasons why. I personally hate it when I get sick in any way, even just a cold, and would like to understand. Thanks for sharing.

Hey Chubtop, thanks for your post. Here's my perspective. I'm a tall slender guy, visually I like slender, so I work at staying that way. Having said that, as a total bottom slut, I don't care what my top looks like or how much he weighs. I generally get fucked the way you describe a lot of your experience (i.e., anonymous walk in breed and go), so I don't see the guy fucking me anyway. Removing the visual an enhance the other senses for me, but thats all another topic. Before I moved, I had a regular FB who I'm guessing (by feel) weighed about what you did/do. I always enjoyed hooking with him and he'd breed my hole about once a week, sometimes twice. He was really large and had a particularly short cock, but the cock girth was good. That to say that he had the added challenge of a small cock on top of having a big body. I was always a little surprised that he could fuck, given both challenges. But he had it down really well. He liked to straddle my slender legs and ass vs have me spread them and he would always be in a sitting position. He usually managed to get it in that way, cream me, then leave. A couple of times he had performance anxiety and was unable to get it up, I'd tell him no worries, it happens. And that's how I honestly felt. I really enjoyed getting bred by him and wanted him to know it. And I guess that's what I'm trying to convey, there are bottoms out there who want you no matter what and I think if you realize that, you'll want it too and the issue will cease to exist. Sure, there are bottoms who will have an issue with it, but thats just some... there are plenty who want your cock and load and your worries are unfounded.

'damn it Jim, I'm a nurse..." (points if you're a nerd and get the reference)

nope... not really into the heavy smells. love the smell of cum, but a dirty hole or really smelly groin or pits is a turn off for me. I love all those parts, but love them clean with just the subtle scent of the guy.

it is stereotyping, butt gotta confess that some of my fondest tops have been black. Almost every black guy who has fucked me has been an artist (when it cums to fucking). Not sure how to put it, but my experience with black guys is I usually feel like they are as much into the affect they are having on me as they are into pleasing their self. The black guys Ive been with seem to enjoy bringing out the lust in me vs just using me.

LMAO, you're such a buzz kill

not sure I'd go as far as "hate", those are some pretty hot pics lol... but as a bottom, I prefer jocks over thongs. The idea of wearing material that blocks my hole is kinda counter productive. Unless it's got a use, like holding a butt plug in place, I don't want something blocking access. Don't think I mind it on a hot top though, since I don't really want access to their hole :-)

I'm getting quite a collection of toys... I end up buying them when I'm in heat lol. I've too have bought several things from FT, but really think they are overpriced. As a side note, I'm currently building a 3d printer and hope to be able to make some of my own toys :-). While I seem to be getting quite a collection, I'm more a fan of others having toys and wanting to use them on me than I am of using them on myself. The sexual sub in me doesn't feel that satisfied by fucking myself. With that said, I have a couple of dildos, one is a nice fat lifelike one with balls, definitely a stretcher and I use it with cum lube and take pics, most guys think it's a real cock. I also have a long, fairly hard cock dildo, recently using that for depth and getting past the second sphincter, but it's a little hard for my taste. I use that after using some anal beads, which are kinda cool for opening the second sphincter, but also a little small (only about an inch). Good for depth, not so much for opening. Last night I got turned on while using the anal beads and longer dildo and ended up ordering 2 colon snakes from FT. I used to have one of theirs, but it was too big for me (then anyway), so I gave it away. The ones I ordered last night: one is long but smaller diameter, more for depth... the second has balls every few inches on a colon snake... that looks pretty hot, we'll see. Also own a "rawdawg", hollow butt plug and 3 speculums, some electro stimulators and a prostate stimulator (battery is way to small). The above list is really toys I own, but wish a top FB would own and want to play with my hole with. I get really turned on by tops into hole play and ass opening. It's not that I'm so into opening my ass, otherwise I'd probably play solo more, it's the attitude and lust of the guy who is into doing it that really turns me on. Before I moved I had a FB totally into it and he is responsible for turning me into a bottom slut who enjoys ass opening. He groomed me and slowly developed that part of me, a process that was/is totally fucking hot. Since I moved, have recently found a FB who is into making a hole sloppy... he's kind of new at it, but pretty naturally inclined that way, if not developed. He's good, but uses my toys... which kind of detracts from the experience for me because it's not about the toys, it's about the user.

I'm curious too. As noted initially, I'm more intrigued by the idea of hypnosis than I am convinced of its uses. I go back and forth between seeing it as a valid science and agreeing with not_sure_bb (i.e. "it's all bs" lol). The edgy stuff on sites like "warpmymind" are a turn on, mostly because of the idea of it. I don't but much weight on it, but still think it would be a turn on if a guy tried using something like that with me... kind of pushes the sub button in me.

took 4 at the local ABS, guys watching then taking a turn. almost passed out after the third, being bent over too long and maybe dehydrated. i laid down on the cum splattered floor after number 3 and kind of recovered and heard a guy in the next booth and rallied, he was number 4. came home still horny and ran a CL ad advertising my cum sloppy hole and got an immediate taker, so number 5 just left. he left a sweet load very deep. damn, i want more please. oh, forgot to say, load number two was a guy wearing a ribbed condom, i had sucked him then presented my ass, at which point he put a condom on, after awhile of fucking he started to go soft, so i took the condom off and sucked him hard again... then bit a hole in the tip and mounted his cock (through a GH). after while I noticed the condom had slid down on the base of his cock... and so did he, he just kept fucking then announced he was cuming. sweet

I top maybe once a year when the planets are aligned and I see a particularly fine ass that (I love a mans ass even though I'm a bottom). That it's "virgin" means inexperienced and possibly not clean to me, not particularly turned on by either... I like a bottom who's eager, and a virgin is usually anxious. As an aside, I often laugh when I see profiles on the various hook up sites where a bottom has been advertising he's a "virgin" for several months or years... I get the impression that some bottoms think that is a selling point, so they keep using it, even if their hole is used ;-)

I wasn't sure how to title this, but a couple of things struck me as funny recently and I thought I'd start a thread of funny things that happen when your life isn't quite mainstream. I had a friend visit a couple of weeks ago, she knows I'm gay, but I still did a once over of the house and made sure I hadn't left any dildos laying around or my douche set up in the shower. And I told her to make herself at home and help herself to anything in the freezer... what about that cum sickle? I got a review request from Amazon today: "how do you like your 'Men's Breathable Lace Sexy Underwear Thong Briefs'?"

I was 27 my first time. I grew up in a very religious culture. When I was 19 I got up in front of my church and "confessed" my attraction to guys. Gay was not an option for me. I married a woman, who happened to be a member of the church where I had "confessed" and was present when I did. They all circled around me and prayed for me, nothing was ever said after that. I was very tied up by my ideas about god and that's why I was 27 before I had my first gay experience. In keeping with the situation... I was living in L.A. at the time. A religious organization I supported had just bought a large ship and was docking it at San Pedro. The ship was being converted into a hospital ship and I would help on Saturday, spend the night on board and leave on Sunday. The first time I worked, they bunked me in a room with "Skip." He was a cute guy, about my age. After work, he took me on tour of the ship. He had a great ass and wore short shorts, was nice going up the ladders behind him. That night, I turned in before him. I have no idea where he was, he lived onboard and was somewhere on the ship with friends. When he returned to go to bed, it was late and the small berth where we were bunked was very dark, you could only see shadows. I stared hard in the dark, pretending to be asleep, as he undressed down to his underwear and got under the covers on his bunk. Over the next few hours we played a game of cat and mouse, each of us moving provocatively, slowly removing our covers and stripping off our underwear while we were each on our own bunks. It's like we were giving each other a slow, erotic strip show, but it was so dark you could hardly see anything, and it was impossible to be sure of what was really happening... there were supporting sounds, but.... After a few hours of this I got so horny that I crawled over to his bunk. It was hard to make anything out in the dark, but without a word, he turned toward me and guided my mouth to his cock. It didn't take long at all, and my first cock exploded in my mouth and down my throat and I hungrily swallowed. After he came, he turned over without a word and I crept back to my bunk and fell asleep. In the morning when I woke he was gone and I never saw him again.

I had an older brother who was gay (he died from AID's during the 80's). A nephew who is gay. Also, my brother in law... well, maybe bi? He identifies as straight, but we were hot for each other before I divorced. We used to help each other with construction projects around at each others houses. If we were doing something that required 4 hands, ladders, etc., I'd always subtly lean or rub up against him. If I was on a ladder, I'd make sure my shorts were loose enough to see up and have no underwear on. He did his share of seduction as well. We never actually did anything... well, he kissed me. He was very religious and couldn't come to terms with who he is. He seemed pretty gay to me though.

This is a curious topic for me. I've recently been courted by several different doms (4). There's so many things about a slave relationship that are appealing to me as a sub, but other things not (i don't really wanna wash dishes or lick the bottoms of boots lol). The more I talk to guys about this (both dom and sub), the more I believe this kind of relationship is better for both sides if it is customized vs generic. Out of the 4 doms courting me, 2 are turning into incredible fits on both sides, the other 2 not. One thing I'm finding is 'customization' requires a lot of communication, especially initially, to determine fit.

Ditto Tiger. I rarely find a versatile who isn't a bottom, so I don't even approach a person who says they are. I get it I guess. I top maybe once a year, but always label myself "total" or "strict bottom" and amazed at the guys who still want me to top or be versatile, I've even gotten to the place in ads of saying I only get fucked, not into oral, etc. I'm nice about it, I respect everyone has their taste, I'm just trying to save us all time and find the tops who only want to breed ass. When I describe myself as a bottom cunt cum slut, I generally get the kinda guy I'm looking for, no confusion. :-)

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Used to be a Vice President/Regional Director of a company for 21 years. 6 years ago I decided to go back to school and do something totally different, got a BSN and spend my days keeping people alive as a critical care nurse.

"Anyone got an Ugly Fuck Bud?" I don't know, most of what I get is anonymous. I am face down on my bed, naked and ready to fuck... I never look up unless the top flips me, and then I often close my eyes or am blindfolded. Even with regular FB's. I've mentioned on other threads that I had one regular FB before I moved who'd breed me a couple of times as week (I miss him). I could tell his body was really big (I don't find "big" visually appealing), he'd have to sit up and straddle my legs to fuck. He also had a really stubby cock (like 2-3 inches, but big enough around to feel). He had enormous, low hanging balls that were full of cum and he would leave me REALLY CREAMY. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be visually attracted to the larger percentage of the guys who breed me, but really like them all, especially the regular FB's. For me their beauty is in their seed that they leave in me. I really end up feeling that way. I don't want to see most of the guys who fuck me, it detracts from it for me, and I like that most of them don't care about my face, they care about my ass.

HI nelliess, yeah, it makes since to me to distinguish between sub and slave (yet another distinction). I find I will end up sometimes wanting to do things a dom wants that I didn't want to do before, not because he forced me or I felt obligated because I assumed the label "sub," but because he elicited something in me that made me want to, which I think is really hot that he has that kind of control and a lot more complex than just telling someone what to do. To me it doesn't sound contradictory for a person to push your limits while respecting them, it sounds like balance that requires intelligence and attention. An artist can bend a hard piece of wood into an art object by applying measured heat and pressure, the inexperienced or non artist just ends up with a broken piece of wood.

This is a vast topic, and I'd enjoy hearing other peoples thoughts, feelings and experiences. As for my own? "Sub" is a label I have only recently identified with. It's not that I think I am newly sub, just that I have more recently begun to explore and think about it (this brought on by having a few dom guys court me more recently, bringing out stuff to a conscious level). Part of me has always shunned the idea of being sub. I think that's because I had not, until recently, really defined what dom/sub means to me. I know it can means something different or the same, depending on who you are talking to. I understand if I don't define it for myself I'll be leaving the definition up to someone else (which I know some will say is "a sub thing to do" lol). To me being sub isn't about being a nonentity. Something that really helps me clarify who I am is breaking definitions down further. To me it seems that Dom/sub often gets treated like S/m. I know there can be overlap, but to me they're different. I identify as sub, but I don't identify as a masochist. I see a lot of subs who are also masochistic. Conversely, to me Dom and Sadist are two different things. Even though they often overlap, or even go hand in hand, they don't have to. Or, when they do, they can do so at varying levels depending on the individual. I have met many guys who identify as "Dom" and insist that being sub means doing whatever they say or want. For instance, over the last couple of days Ive been bred 3 times by a young guy (21) from grinder. Yesterday, just before I went in to his place (anonymous fuck from behind), he texted me and asked if I like to eat ass. I responded that I'm really a bottom cunt slut and not very oral. He texted back "well I want you to eat my asshole clean. Got it!" I literally lol'd and texted back "nope, ttyl." He texted back "fine then, we won't do that, just get here I want to nut inside u." Some would call him Dom and say I wasn't sub. But to me, he was just being a bully. I hate bullies. I was bullied a lot as a kid. As an adult, I got a second degree black belt and pity the mugger who ever approaches me (he'd have all my childhood rage unleashed on him lol). Until recently I saw a lot of guys who identify as Dom, who to me, are just bullies. This kind of person brings out the opposite of sub in me. To me, this person comes across as really insecure and is looking for security through control and is a total turn off. I've had to restrain myself from back kicking him into the next room a few times before when a top got what I perceived as abusive while fucking me. But over the last year I have met several different guys identifying as Dom who are very different from what I've described, yet are similar amongst themselves. This is already getting long, but briefly, the effect this type of Dom has on me kind of amazes me... it's like I just want to lie down and spread my legs and give them full access to my soul. Which is a really different feeling for me that ventures into relationship vs hook up sex. In short, it's that they know which buttons to push in me that make me want to submit... which is totally different from just telling me what to do. This, to me, is a really intelligent and well thought out form of sex/relationship and the idea of it has me really interested.