tallslenderguy

I rarely get hard when bottoming and my erection is pretty dependent on the attitude of the other guy. Guys who are verbal and descriptive about what they want usually make me rock hard, but once I'm mounted and getting fucked all the focus seems to go into my hole. I used to jack while getting fucked, but I like getting fucked so much that I come really easily while getting fucked, so I usually end up hands off and that just ends up making me sluttier.

As my name indicates, I too am tall (6'5"). I have never been fucked doggie style with my knees and feet together. Frankly, I rarely get fucked on all fours at all because most soon discover I'm way to up there for them, even with legs spread, so most end up fucking me face down (prone). As to legs together or spread, I find most guys like to alternate between having me open or close my legs. Since I'm slender, I'm pretty easy to straddle with my legs closed and get penetrated deeper that way.

I had a FB (before I moved), who loved open hole. He seemed to love opening a hole more than he liked to breed it. Actually, what he really liked was to breed a very opened hole. His favorite way to find me was blindfolded and face down on my bed, naked and ass up. He'd spend lots of time alternating between fucking, fingering, eating and using toys on my hole. He was so slow and purposeful about his technique that I often couldn't tell how far he had gotten me. One time he spent a lot of time eating me and using toys and his hand. Before he left, I heard a "click" and later on he sent me a picture of my hole rose budded. I didn't even realize he had done it he had me so worked and excited and relaxed at the same time. He told me that when he was eating my hole, he was actually sucking on it so he could make it a rosebud. once he got it like that, it was his favorite type of hole to breed, so he bred it then snapped a picture for his trophy case. the whole idea of him doing that was a huge turn on for me, I miss him.

I'm only guessing, but given your screen name I'm making the assumption that the "deviant lifestyle" you refer to is "chasing"? IDK. Other's have already made some great points about your use of the word "deviant." Also, if you are going after the cost of barebacking, it's fair to also bring in practices/lifestyles that lead to diseases like diabetes, heart disease, stroke, obesity. I'm a critical care nurse and I can count on one hand the number of HIV+ patients I have cared for. I cannot begin to count the number of people I have cared for who have preventable diseases related to diet and exercise. But others have noted this too. The "truth" is we would be hard pressed to find a person who does not have some practice or habit that is not healthy. Heck. look at the cigarette culture of the first half of the 20th century. Alcohol is a known carcinogen. I think more focus needs to go on the profitability of sickness. I think it's a little mercenary how "civilization" still makes huge profit from things like war and sickness. I'm all for paying the scientist or doctor who spends years learning to be able to help sick people. I'm not as sure I'm in favor of paying a corporation profits made on the backs of these people. As already noted, the cost of HIV meds is far lower than the price tag (i.e., there's a lot of profit added in). Why? I think we miss the boat in society when we allow profitability to control the supply or development of meds or the provision of healthcare. When I say "profitability," I do not refer to the wage earned by the scientist or caregiver, I refer to the people who hire these people and then make a profit from their labors. I think our taxes would be better spent paying the scientists and caregivers the same amount, but removing the people who exploit scientists and caregivers to make a profit.

Wow Bearbandit, Thank you for taking the time to write that out, this is extremely valuable information, made especially so because it has your added experience. This is very helpful.

Thanks bear, I have been reading up on the meds, so far "Genvoya" looks like one of the better options. It looks like a variation on Atripla, but supposedly with fewer side effects. Since it was just FDA approved in November 2015, I'm not sure if I would want to start on something that doesn't have a longer history of use. I can take it since I am ARV naive and it looks as if it avoids some of the side effects (kidney and bone density issues) that some of the other meds still have, but at the same time, those are still possible side effects. Not sure of all the criteria the infectious specialist uses to choose an initial med, but seems close kidney and liver monitoring are important components of ongoing testing, along with viral load monitoring.

Just went online and looked at my actual viral load test and it wasn't 85,020 but 8520 QN PCR copies per mL. I'm going to have to research what this means, but it seems pretty low to me? Like maybe we caught the infection at the beginning stage? IDK.

Hey guys, Thank you to Rawtop and moderators on this site, and also to those of you who take the time to contribute thoughtful input. I know we all come from different backgrounds and life situations, and it's really been a rich experience for me to be a part of a "counter culture." [laughing] For me it's a swing in the extreme opposite direction having grown up in an era and culture that treated being gay as "sick" (at best), and a "sin" that provides you with a first class ticket to hell. One of the things this site provides to me (and many others from what I have read), is a relatively safe place to be and express exactly who/how we are. I think many of us know what it's like to be alone or isolated or rejected in life, and this place allows many of us to feel a part of something, accepted. It's really nice (understatement). It's kind of a funny experience for me because I spent most of my life in a religious culture that maintained that only people who believed as they did were "good" or "loving," but I have found more kindness, love and goodness on a 'porn' site than I ever did in church. I love that irony. Anyway, thanks to you guys, I appreciate and love you.

Hey guys. just wanted to post a progress report for anyone following this thread. I just got my VL number, 85,020, am going to have to read up on what that means (my CD4 was 343). I also got an appointment to see a specialist for the 25th of this month (today is 2/5/16). That was my first time telling a healthcare minion that I'm poz. The person calling to set an appointment (from my PCP referral) told me that was the earliest appointment available, so I told her that I'm HIV+ and she pretty much said that doesn't change anything... so, apparently having HIV+ isn't considered emergent in the infectious disease world. If I had an opportunistic infection, I'd likely get in sooner, but since I am healthy, guess this is the way it works. Am completely ready to get on meds and am kicking myself (just a little) for not testing sooner. For me it was a question of fear. I knew it was irrational (hey, of course it was, it was "Fear"), but always had to talk myself into testing. It had been about 26 months since my last test this time around, but previously had generally tested annually. Really, should have been more proactive and looked at Prep more closely, but again there was an irrational side to me that was always afraid of facing the test. The truth is I've been really lucky and pretty much dodged the bullet for 30 years. I'm grateful this disease can be managed now, I'll post and add my info to the pot as I go along, hopefully contribute worthwhile info for others.

Hey Locomotion, I'm curious why, after a lifetime of being careful you would now choose to expose yourself? After exchanging emails with a nice guy on this site I had actually resolved to go on prep this test, a little ironic. It makes more sense to me to be on prep than HIV meds. Unless you've done a 180 and want to be poz?

used to work in an office building, corner office that was solid glass windows on two sides looking out over the parking lot. There was one guy who fucked me once in the downstairs rest room, and after that it kind of became a habit. He'd drive by my office and park where I could see him from my office, then go in the downstairs restroom and wait. I'd go downstairs and go in the stall next to him and he'd spit on his cock, slide it under and I'd sit on it. He'd breed me on a regular basis that way. Had another guy from a hook up site who bred me in my office several times. He was a really hot black guy with a large cock, he'd sit on one of my chairs and i'd straddle him facing him and he'd breed me in the dark.

like what? ;-)

I just learned I'm poz about 10 days ago, so am still navigating the waters. I've been reading through the posts on this thread (i.e., "What it's like to be poz") and it's really good to not be alone, even though there are so many mixed reactions to being poz. I've wondered about the attitude, that seems almost universal, that once your poz you at least lose any inhibition about taking any load. Honestly, my desire to get bred always overshadowed any inhibition I might have had. The only time I felt inhibition was when I got tested. I dreaded getting tested and finding out I was poz. I have since discovered that my dread of finding out I was poz was greater than actually finding out I'm poz. Weird. Anyway, my question: Is there a risk of catching a different mutation of HIV once you are poz and on meds? Or do the meds act as a preventative for getting a new mutation as well as keeping the infection under control? Does my question make sense?

Thank you guys for taking the time to read and reply, for your kind and encouraging words. I know it's a good idea to seek out face time with others who are poz and have gone before me, there's a lot to be said about experience. I went to my PCP today and she gave me a list of support groups, I'll be looking into that. I have 2 referrals to HIV specialists, one local , the other about 40 miles away. Now I'm in the waiting mode to get an appointment and get meds started.

I found out I'm poz a week ago and it's still kinda new to me. I'm not in a cold panic, which is sort of weird to me, am wondering if I will have a delayed response... but it's been about 10 days now. I found out my CD4 yesterday (340), but the lab didn't run a VL. I found out after dragging myself in for routine testing... well, more honestly, I have been talking to a guy from OKC who I like and who seems to like me and for the first time in a long time have been hopeful about a relationship, so I really got tested because of him. I told him and he hasn't rejected me over it. He's the only person who knows other than my Primary Care Provider (PCP). I'm fairly new to this area, so my PCP is someone I found on the internet and just met. She's a physicians assistant and has been totally cool about this and will be referring me to a specialist. I'm pretty used to being alone, coping alone. I come from a religious background and was married (to a woman) most of my life, when I accepted myself as gay, I lost my family and friends because they were all a part of the religious culture, but the truth is I was alone when I had them. So having friends who know and accept me for who I am is new to me. I came out to lots of people about 10 years ago with mixed results, lots of rejection. I moved, started a new life and found acceptance. Lost my very lucrative livelihood during the economic downturn of 08, went to school and remade myself (got a BSN), but part of that process has involved moving a few times, so I have to keep starting over with making friends. I'm in a new place, but can finally settle down, just bought a house, so at least I can make some more permanent friends. HIV isn't something I will disclose to just anyone. I can't. I've just been to conditioned by rejection to just be wide open about it. No one at work even knows I am gay. Not because I'm closeted, but it just doesn't come up. Not sure what to do now. I'm a critical care nurse in a hospital. I'm looking at getting a specialist 40 miles away in another city because I don't want everyone at work to know I'm poz, I just do not want to face the rejection... even though I know most would likely be cool, there's always that element. Sorry for the ramble guys, but this place has been a refuge for me the last several years and a safe place for me to disclose myself. Your the second people to know. It's been comforting to read through some of the posts here. Reassuring. Even though I'm an educated health care professional and I know HIV is not the death sentence it once was, there's still the emotional and social side of it that I'm gonna have to deal with. Thanks for listening.

LMAO

As a bottom, I've never had this happen to me, but there's been times when I get home and realize how close it was to happening. I clean deep, but the colon has twists and turns and it's possible for water to go in to a part of it and not come out immediately. That's probably why you hear a lot of experienced bottoms talking about how much time it takes to clean out. There is 24 to 27 feet of intestine, about 4 feet of colon (which is the part we are talking about "cleaning"). I doubt most bottoms approach douching all 4 feet of the colon, especially on a regular basis. Douching the whole colon would throw off electrolytes and upset intestinal flora. All 25 feet or so intestine is always in motion, so eventually stuff is gonna move down. A bottom may start clean, but nature will eventually take it's course, so if the bottom cleaned out 8 hours ago the odds have changed. I use a long shower douche nozzle to get past some valves. I "rest" after the water is running clean and I insert a colon snake to try and free any trapped water. Then I douche some more to make sure everything is clear. This takes time and I find lots of tops who don't have a clue what it takes to make things nice for them (like when they email or text and want it "now" lol). Also, when I know I'm feeling in heat and am gonna want to be on the prowl for hours, I usually don't eat anything that day.

...sink ships?

Nay80, that is a fucking sweet hole... made my cock squirm (and I almost exclusively bottom). can imagine sliding all the way in to that, balls and all swallowed.

This is an interesting topic to me. I was married most of my life (to a woman). I was really frustrated because, for whatever reason, I'm a bottom who wants to get fucked and bred. Of course, she couldn't do that, even if she had been inclined. I know there are dom women who will use a strap on, that doesn't do a thing for me (no cum for one thing). I love to get fucked, so your love of breeding would work great with me. I'm less oral, buy do it as a prelude to fucking. Feet? Well, maybe if you try and slide it up my ass (kidding, I've never even had a hand, but the idea appeals to my bottom nature). To me it isn't selfish for you to like to breed and me like to get bred. To me, where the selfishness comes in is being inconsiderate. That can happen on either side. Like others have alluded to, how you fuck is the question, not that you prefer fucking.

not sure how I feel about fisting, maybe ambivalent still, I'm such a slut I love getting penetrated by a guy who wants into my hole. I tend to spread my legs to any guy who wants in, I love his desire.

lately I've been hooking up at a local ABS. I've moved 3 times in the last 5 years, KY>VA>OR. I've used the usual online hook up sites/methods, and have found ABS/theaters in each of the areas. Kinda like ABS/theaters for the instant possibilities they offer vs the frequent flakes you encounter on online sites, plus all the arranging and qualifying that goes along with those who are legitimately looking. I've been pretty lucky at the ABS I go to in OR, seems to almost always be 3-5 guys who wanna breed, usually through a GH. Something else I have noticed is there seem to be more guys into fisting than I have ever encountered before. I wonder if that is just a local thing or if fisting is becoming more mainstream? It seems about every other time I go to this ABS, someone (never seems to be the same person) tries to get their hand in my hole... through a GH. I've never taken a whole hand before, but it is in my bottom slut personality to enjoy any kind of attention my hole gets (as long as it's not painful). There's something about a top wanting to dominate and make his mark on my hole that is a total turn on for me. Any other bottoms out there finding more guys wanna get their hands in you?

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Wow, amazing you have not gotten any at those kinds of places or events. How often do you try? For me I can go to the same place on different days and one day get 5 loads and another day nothing. Depends on who's there, etc. as for signals, there's a bunch. If I want a guy to fuck me and I'm at a cruisy place, I'll position myself somewhere in front of him and lower my pants enough where he can see some ass, that usually does the trick, instinct seems to take over and they cum up behind me, expose my hole and slide in...I'm pretty bold about asserting my ass, if I guy shows no interest, I move on.

I like a cock ring on a top, I think they are hot, especially the ones that stretch or separate the balls (it is so fucking hot to have a guys balls slapping my taint while he fucks). As for wearing one myself? I've never noticed that they make me harder or cum harder. To me they become uncomfortable to wear after awhile. I like that they keep my balls in place, my sack gets really tight when Im turned on and my balls tend to float up, so it's good for keeping them in place. As to it being the hottest piece of jewelry a guy can wear, my vote goes for a PA. A PA makes my legs spread involuntarily.