tallslenderguy
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"Refreshed passion" is something i experienced too. For me, i genuinely believed that being gay was wrong and something to be overcome. i hated myself every time i cheated, and hated the lies to cover it even more. i became scrupulously honest in other ways as a way of distorted compensation. Cheating and lying made me feel invisible. Conversely, i believed being straight was what i was supposed to be. Cheating sex with guys was a relief of affirmation of who i am, it wasn't just wanting to get off, it was my only acknowledgement of being gay. Once i had been with a guy, it sort of relieved the need to be, freeing me up to do something i wasn't really suited for (topping a woman). After i divorced, i dated a few women, thinking i might be Bi since i'd been able to perform with a woman for so many years while married. i've had several chances to be with women since divorcing , but never have. my former wife is the only woman i have ever been with... turns out, i'm gay lol. A feeling i did have while dating women after i divorced was that sex with them would have been cheating on my former wife.
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when i was married, i cheated... a lot. i tried not to, even tried "reparative therapy" (was religious) and couldn't stop. i couldn't help it, i never felt so powerless in my life as when i was married to a woman and needing to be the one being bred. i was good at doing her because i knew what i wanted. i'd usually feel more like fucking after getting bred... i wonder if it was some sort of transferance?
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What the act of bottoming represents
tallslenderguy replied to Anonversecuck's topic in General Discussion
Not sure how I missed this thread when it first started, great responses! i’m like those who get as much or more from the mental fuck as i do the physical. For me the focus is maybe similar to DannyBoy in terms of getting pregnant...and different too from other posts ive read of his? I have no desire to be pregnant with an actual baby, but aspects of pregnancy, like having my body ‘marked’ or impregnated by a part of my Top, especially when that’s His intent, is essentially my sex drive. It’s His intent as well as His seed inside of me that makes the act complete for me. Knowing that He feels a completion by placing part of Himself in me, fucking awesome -
I love the idea, but locking myself feels to much like trying to be my own Dom... a little weird, I know, I’m the same way with toys.
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i typically cum every 7-10 days. I don’t really wanna cum as a bottom, I like to stayhorny forTops. I will edge a lot while looking to be bred, so I stay super horny. Consequently, whenever I do cum, I shoot over my head (I’m 6’5” lol), and a lot. Semi creamy, not watery.
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Lol, not my favorite way to put it, more the idea that a Top/Dom puts something of Himself in the bottom/sub with the intent of altering him, ‘marking’ him, but I don’t see it as a solo thing, but a yin/yang combining of opposite energies... again, I can get pretty cerebral about it
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😉 im very into mind fuck and my thoughts and imagination are linked to different forms of impregnation. For me, the Top/bottom D/s dynamic is about the former putting something of their self, physical and emotional, in the bottom... the bottom is a resepticle and the two together make a ‘baby’ of sorts... really the result of the two combining
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on the other hand, started thinking of this. "Rough" and "Dominant" are not necessarily synonymous. i shut down when someone is rough with me, or i deliver a back kick if there's a certain bully attitude. Nothing brings out the sub in me more than gentle Dominance (for lack of a different descriptor). When i see the pleading lust in a guys eyes, He can get away with just about anything. There's also a matter of fact attitude that some Dom guys possess that just completely collars me then and there. They don't have to rely on rough because their confidence is so complete, they just assume i want to submit... hard to explain. sorry, this may be a bit off topic
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i've written this elsewhere, but i've had many a small cock. i had a regular fb who had a very large body and a very small cock, i was always surprised and impressed that he could get it in, but he always did and always shot a nice, creamy load. He fucked me on a regular basis, was always anonymous, me waiting face down on my bed, but i grew to have affection for him. my first love is not for cock, it's for men. i love guys. If a guy wants to breed me or wants his cock sucked, my buttons are pushed and i'm on it. If a guy has a cock in his own mind, He has a cock as far as i am concerned, size doesn't matter to me.
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One of my first childhood crushes was on my cousin, nothing ever happened, but i still have dreams about Him to this day.
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or this lol
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sounds like he was conflicted... he did want you, just wanted you to be less rough. my guess is he was afraid of offending or turning you off in the process, so waited till after the fact to express his feelings. i don't think that's the right way to go about it, but i've experienced more guys who are poor communicators than guys who know how to articulate what they are feeling.
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Thank you for your (as usual) thoughtful reply Eros. This makes complete sense to me. i've thought and thought about this topic and reached a similar place. i too am not sure i completely understand,but believe i reached a better place of understanding when i too connected that "i'm not actually humiliated by it" but "affirmed." i've come to believe that the contradiction is between socially/culturally imposed standards and reality. Many consider what and who we are as less than, if not down right 'perverted,' and many of us have been fed this message all our lives. Some of us have hidden in shame or still keep many of our own desires or needs deeply buried, secret. Then along comes a Top with the complimentary need or desire and, like and proton and electron, we're pulled together by a force we don't understand. For me, it feels like reducting something more profound to explain this in terms of physics, because of the emotional component, i guess? i feel like the Top also takes a sort of risk when exposing His need and desire and that it is just as affirming to Him to be able to be who He is with another guy.
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i love foley, especially the idea of a Top inserting a cath in me to empty me, then connecting a cath that He has inserted into His full bladder, or maybe one of these condom caths, and Him pissing my bladder full of His piss, then clamping the tube so i hold His piss in my bladder. i also think it would be hot to have a Top with a catheter in and He inserts the other end of the of the tube into my hole instead of connecting it to a bag.... like i become His foley bag. i think a hollow butt plug could be fashioned to hold it all in, or an inflatable enema plug.
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Man, you are way to hot to withhold your ass. i've been known to buy a bottled water and douche myself in a public restroom. Pretty interesting going in and out of the stall refilling the water bottle, but it works. 😉
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i've written this one elsewhere, but it fits here too. When i did a stent at a hospital in Virgnina, there was a cruisy park on a river with this bridge. At sunset i'd stand in the center and pretend to be bent over the rail looking at the water. When i would see a guy step onto the bridge from either end , i'd lower my shorts just enough to show a little ass for him to see when he walked by. If i felt him pause or thought he was looking, i'd subtlly lower them a bit more to encourage him. Can't count the number of times a guy would come over to me, wordlessly pull my shorts down the rest way, slide his cock in and breed me right then and there, then walk off after unloading leaving my loaded bare ass. Sometimes others would see and take their turn. With all the wood work and at dusk it's hard to really see what's going on on the middle of the bridge unless you really look. Enough to wonder if you really saw what you thought you did? But was long enough to pull your shorts up if you saw someone coming from a distance, so even if they saw you, there'd always be a question: "did i just see two guys fucking?" lol, was very hot
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Funny how things can change. Went back and read my response to this 3 years ago, and while i still am not into smelly cock, i won't reject it even if i don't like the smell. i'll still suck any cock.
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lol, this is about as subtle as a train wreck, but the guy did have guts and style. i think the internet is changing/has changed our skill set for connecting. Before the internet an hook up sites and aps, we "cruised." Yeah, some cute guy/s came up with hankerchief codes, but we also ended up coming up with a term "gaydar" to try and explain the subtle commumication, the visual and other cues that we developed and used to identify each other. For a long time, that was prolly hugely related to survival, being to overt could get you bashed or worse. Here's a few visuals: staring at a guys cock till he notices you looking, then licking your lips. There's been occasions where i felt bold enough to 'accidentally' brush or bump his crotch. If i wanna get fucked, bred, i'll present my ass, maybe scratch my ass... but a more sensuous 'scratch' , more of an invitation. Depending on circumstances, i may lower my pants/shorts to show some crack. If i am standing at a urinal in a restroom, i'll often lower my pants enough to show some crack/ass.
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This is a topic that effects me and, from posts i have read here, seems to effect a lot of guys? i use the word "humiliation" for lack of a better descriptor, but i think most will get the general idea. This is a mysterious topic to me. i don't feel like i 'suffer' from issues of self esteem. i don't hate myself or being gay or being bottom. i don't think i am bad or wrong. Yet, there is something inside of me that responds with a response close to adoration when a Top exercises a kind of affectionate, matter of fact humiliation on me. It feels powerfully affirming-which i find paradoxical, and it is one of the deeper, more vital parts of my sexuality. i know this is where we'll likely find a lot of variety of response to this, because i know a lot of guys get into "rough" or "bullying," or "force," etc.. All are welcome to discuss their thing, this is not a judgement or attempt to set a standard, but an exploration of the overall topic of humiliation. What kind of humiliation to you like (if any) and what is it about giving or receiving humiliation that you like? What are your thoughts and feelings on the topic?
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There is an entire culture (often religious, like Pence's) that believes that there is no such thing as 'being gay.' I.e., they think we are "broken, perverted, sick, etc. etc.." They even developed a whole system to de-gay guys (and chicks) called "reparative therapy." Guys like Pence think they know "God" and, additionally, they think they know what "God" wants and what "God" doesn't want. So, they try and enact laws accordingly. It wasn't that long ago that a gay person could get arrested for fucking with another guy. The Trump administration and it's supporters scare the hell out of me. There are so many similarities to Nazi Germany, it's spooky. Not many people realize how progressive and liberal Germany was prior to Hitler and his ilk. i love the movie "Cabaret" for it's representation of culture prior to and after Nazi's got in power. i don't doubt for a second that if guys like Pence had their way, being gay would be illegal, sites like BZ would not exist and many of us would be in prison. We might be given the 'choice' of reparative therapy at our trials.
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i work in healthcare (critical care nurse), so naturally my mind sees other uses for stuff used at work. Here's a fun one, "condom catheters." A tube is attached to the end of these so the urine can flow into a bag... but of course, the end of the tube can go anywhere you like 😉 https://www.shopcatheters.com/p-coloplast-freedom-clear-silicone-self-adhering-male-external-condom-catheter.html?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIjeP0l5794QIVgsVkCh1o9AFoEAYYBiABEgIuz_D_BwE
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This is what i use. It's a 60ml syringe. By contrast i think the blue one pictured is 10ml in size?
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i don't think i'd go to the trouble of trying to get the cum from a condom out of the condom and into this. i have a simple method when i find a used condom where i just put it in my hole while turning it inside out. I.e., i put my finger on the filled in and push that part into my hole. The friction from the sides of my hole wipe all the cum off the condom and leave it in my hole... where it belongs 😉
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Ha, interesting. That almost seems kind of obvious when one looks at it, but i never connected that. i have a long term fantasy of being stealth booty bumped, but suspect the reality would not be as hot as the fantasy. i have 50 mL syringes that i fill with Elbow Grease lube and leave out for hook ups to use on me when they find me presenting my hole for them. i have yet to ever have a guy use one of them one me? They always go for the jar or bottle of lube? As for using it for cum? i wish more guys valued their seed and were careful/thoughful about wasting cum when jacking off. i wish all Tops saved their cum with the intent of eventually insemenating a bottom with their seed. If that were common mentality, these things would be common too?
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Ditto this. Kissing is a mystery to me. i'll take and love any guy who needs/wants to breed, but my response to kissing is more emotionally refined? That may just be a matter of evolution for me, because i didn't always have the universal love for guys that i do now. I.e., there was a time when i was selective about who's cock i took. Now, sex is so much deeper than a physical act for me, at the risk of sounding flakey, it's practically spiritual. It's important to me that the guys i'm with know how much i love and appreciate them, and i find that isn't hard to do the more i do it. It seems most guys are more experienced expressing their selves with their cocks than they are with their lips (i.e. "kissing"). Just like their are guys who are more in touch with what they are actually doing with their cocks, their are guys who seem more in touch with the effects of their kisses. To me, the "art form" involves reading the responses of the kissed guy and kissing accordingly. i've had guys who were so good at this that their kisses seemingly put me into a trance. i've also had guys who were so disconnected and unaware of the effects of their kisses, it was like kissing a vacuum cleaner instead of a person. So, to me, kissing art form involves self awareness and observational skills that increases that awareness to their partner.
