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Alright guys. I’ll try to be as detailed as possible. I’m about to turn 30, not a Prince Charming but I often get people telling me how good looking I am. I’m 5’8, 180lbs, average to muscular body, white skin, big lips, blue eyes and hazel hair. The thing is, no matter how independent, successful and “good looking” The BB allay scene is always on my mind. 24/7. - I have considered to go see a psychology to check whether I should look for help or not. The place I live (Miami, FL) is the most superficial and snobby place you could be. Guys in sex apps are always looking for the most ripped bodies, the biggest asses and the super fat big cocks. As I mentioned, I look good but the competition here in town is pretty heavy. Since the tops are rare down here, every time the urge of some kinky fun crosses my mind i pack, book a room at Days Inn in Fort Lauderdale and head out. And that is exactly what I did yesterday. I left my place around 5pm but before leaving I made sure to change my BBRT location to Fort Lauderdale as well as posted an ad on the ad session. Fort Lauderdale is SO SIMPLE and EASY. By the time I got to my hotel room I had received over 12 messages. All types of guys. I typically go for either undetectable or PrEP guys though I was so horned up that the “no fucks given” button was on. I took it all. Sunday night, around 6:30 the first guy come in. Not a monster cock, white fit average 6 inches but he had a five day load so no better way to start it off that party. He got in, ate my ass like a champ and started fucking me. Lasted for about three minutes until he shot inside. I could definitely feel his warm load inside up my guts. He left, I brought weed with me so as soon as the first guy left I smoked some to keep myself on the whore out mood next guy, another white man. Much bigger cock. Typical North Carolina man. On his 50s. One of the most beautiful cocks I’ve seen to date. White, cut, around 8 and according them 6.5 girth. That man was hungry and he fucked me good. Last time I had had a cock before last night was about two weeks ago so I was pretty tight. He was so into it that as soon as his fame his hole body had little spasms from time to time. Onto the next one. That was a buddy of mine. Totally fucker who lives in the area. Latino, beautiful shaped thick cock. One of those guys that definitely know how to fuck a hungry hole. We spent some time together. He fucked me on fours, missionary, in front of the mirror, on the couch. The other two loads were so big that we could hear how sloppy and wet my ass was. He shot inside and left. Next... this was a catch! Temessean guy. Visiting. 6’4, around 190 pounds, bi according to him and new to the gay life. Huge feet and typical southern white cock. 7.5 super, extremely thick, one of those you’re proud to call beer can. He wanted me to ride him, so I did.... SO MUCH CUM DRIPPING OUT FROM MY HOLE!!! That man was rock hard. Going nuts and deep in me. I remember feeling it all that jizz leaking down through his cock. We did feel a connection in between and decided to trade numbers. He will be back in town in a week or so so hopefully we can connect again. One of those cocks you want to keep it close. The next guy on that night was a super chub, with a 6 inches cock. The next was another super chub, sleazy looking. Three day load. He did his job and left pretty quick this next one was handsome. Like very handsome white dad. Beautiful body, beautiful cut thick cock. But I’m oretty sure he was high on meth. Those tiny tweaked eyes said it all. I haven’t ever done tina in my life but maybe you guys can tell me? His cock was super soft but then I started sucking it and he got rock hard, like extremely hard. I didn’t ask anything but he was hungry for that ass. Fucked me deep, loud, hard, no shame. It felt like that man was born to fuck. it was already 2am or so so I decided to go to bed and set my alarm to 6am so I could catch that crowd who likes to drop some loads right before work. Another post on BBRT. Less messages back of course so I decided to try Grindr. For my surprise I had this black guy really close by. He offfered, I couldn’t say no. 8x6 cock, huge feet, slim and tall. Although I douched that morning I still had some fun left right there deep. He loved it. Fucked me like he hated me. Deep, it reached places that the other guys didn’t. Shot his nut pretty quickly and left them after him I had a couple, one poz another negative. Nice cocks, I’d say one 8 and 4 girth the other 8 by seven. It was massive ! Next man was probably high as well. Couldn’t keep his eyes open and rock hard cock all the time... I was about to leave the hotel at 1pm and it was 10:30 so I needed to rush. So I sent a shout on GROWLr. Got literally 50 messages in 10 minutes. Could only get two guys from there the first, a tall beautiful muscle bear, white blue eyes, average cock but a total whore in bed. Licked my ass, my soles, are the guy left in my crack and fucked the hell out of me. The next one was also from GROWLr. Daddy on his 60s... total fucker. Not a big cock but definitely experience makes all difference. He fucked so good that my second hole was totally open by there. So opened that the soreness had disappeared in a blink of an eye. No more success on GROWLr so back to BBRT. I don’t even waste my time with Grindr anymore. It doesn’t work. Not a success in Miami, not Fort Lauderdale or any other place I’ve been. Grindr is back and forth all the way and no meeting at all. Back to BBRT... got a couple of messages there. It’s funny because the more loads o get inside the bigger the cocks I want it. So my goal for that last hours at my hotel was to have my ass filled up by heavy thick meat. I then started scrolling BBRT and unlocking my profile pictures to all guys with either a Large or Holy shit type of cock. It didn’t take long until I started receiving some replies back. I was lucky because the lunch time was approaching so guys were looking for ass... the last two guys of my journey came together. A daddy on his late 50s, poz look, humangous cock. (Another observation, most poz guys carry huge cocks... anyone know why?) it was easily 9.5 long and 6 or 7 thick. I’m a power bottom but trust me that dick was a struggle ! I was a bit high on weed and sniffing poppers like a hoe and STILL, it was painful. The other guy was a muscle bear with a pretty thick dick. I assume somewhere around 7x6 or 7x6. They both take turns, they went deep, hard, made me moan uncontrollably, once my second hole was right there opened I could’ve taken all cock sizes, even fists. Totally not into fisting but the hole was wide open. They eat it, fuck it, dropped their loads inside like two hungry pigs. The huge cock guy asked me if he could piss inside and all of sudden my dick got rock hard... he saw it and I didn’t even need to respond his question. Put me on fours, ass really up, started pounding my sore swollen hole until he shot his cum. As soon as he did, he was like... don’t move don’t move... he stayed inside for around five minutes then suddenly my whole intestine was getting full with piss. It was one of the hottest things I’ve ever done sexually. The feeling of having my sloppy hole that full with piss made me so slutty... they left, I showered packed and head out to home this afternoon. Back to return to my “regular” life at the office tomorrow. I have a very young looking, kinda guy next door, no one can say a big of whore I am... I have my prep appointment on Wednesday so this time I am sure an STD will say hi but to be honest as bad as they are my whole adventure was paid off. Here is a pic of my ass for you guys Hope you guys like it

Part 17 - Back To College Angelo was feeling quite sad that Ethan was going back off to college, he had got use to him being around and love chatting to him during the day from the office. But today Ethan was going back to a somewhat normal existence and studying 5 days a week, he came down the stairs after breakfast fully dressed with his books ready to go. Adam arrived on cue at 7.30am, Angelo kissed and hugged Ethan not wanting to let him go but finally he released him and Ethan opened the car door before looking back at Angelo 'Love you' he called as he got in the passenger seat. They hardly seemed to be on the road very long as Adam parked the car and they walked over to the common room and cafeteria as they had some time to spare before lessons started. Adam pointed to a large table telling Ethan to sit down whilst he grabbed coffees. Javier came in and stopped seeing Ethan sat there at the table, he also noticed Adam at the counter. Ethan glanced up trying to hide that he was looking at Javier who was acting as though he wanted to come over and say something but instead he turned and took a seat at the opposite end of the cafeteria. Javier's brother walked in and watched him sitting at a small table in the corner, he shook his head and seeing Adam he went over to join him at the counter. They chatted and wandered back over to where Ethan sat, Adam introduced Juan as they sat down, initially Ethan felt a little out of place with Adam and Juan as they quickly caught up about the last few weeks. Juan then started questioning Ethan and including him in the conversation, Ethan couldn't help but seeing Javier in him until his gaze averted across to the entrance as Ben walked in behind a small group of students. Instead of going towards Javier he went in the opposite direction and sat down with some girls from their class. "Don't worry about him" Javier noticing Ethan's eyes wondering to Ben. Ethan looked at Juan "What do you mean?" he said quietly. "Javier has been told not to socialise with Ben" Juan responded. Ethan sipped his coffee "Why is that?" he asked Juan. "He is a bad influence on my brother and also what happened in the Diner" Juan looked at Ethan nodding. Ethan had a surprised look on his face "Never thought that everyone would know". Juan laughed "It has been the topic of conversation the last few weeks". Ethan looked down embarrassed "So everyone knows I am gay then?". Juan put his hand under Ethan's chin holding it up "Yes, but no one is judging you". Ethan smiled "You are quite the charmer Juan". Juan smiled "Don't get any ideas, strictly girls only here" he laughed. Adam re-joined the conversation "My mother put word out about the lunch episode, but everyone knew anyway it got round very quickly". Juan nodded "And I.. lets say just had a little word with my brother about his attitude". Ethan looked back at Juan "You mean towards me?". Juan nodded again "I made it clear that loosing friends like you is not the best way forward". Adam and Ethan were in the same lecture for the morning and headed out of the cafeteria towards the classroom. The walk was unusual for Ethan as many students now said hello to him, whenever Adam spoke to anyone they looked at Ethan and greeted him by name as well. Adam would quickly summarise gay or straight with a little background, the short walk to lectures had revealed 3 more gay students in that space of time. They took their seats together in the classroom then Ethan spotted Franco coming in and sitting at the back with his group of friends, Franco was the same age as Adam but he was built like the proverbial brick house and sported some tattoos on his neck and hands which most of the teachers deplored and made him sit at the back. Surprisingly though he was very well educated and smart but played it down a little. People mostly clung to him as they didn't want to be on his bad side, his reputation as a bit of bruiser if anyone annoyed him made them all worship the ground he walked on. He was from White Plains the next town over but his parents sent him to Harrison to be educated due to the college's reputation of turning out scholars. Adam turned to Ethan and quietly spoke "Makes me orgasm every time he walks in the room". Ethan burst out laughing and Adam play punched him on the arm "You are such a slut Adam". Adam leaned over "Tell me you wouldn't if you had the chance". Ethan smiled and nodded "But I have my Latino god. Do you know Franco?". Adam shook his head "I think he would probably punch my lights out if I spoke to him". Ethan laughed and nodded in agreement "Yeah your probably right". They struggled to keep their focus through the first lecture as it droned on and on, but they both diligently took notes and breathed a sigh of relief as the bell rang at midday. Adam and Ethan sat outside for a while until a rain cloud threatened to expose itself so they headed towards the cafeteria to grab a coffee. Ethan paid the cashier as they hunted for a quiet table to sit and chat, being lunchtime it was pretty full but they spied a couple of seats at one of the larger canteen style tables. They chatted away about the morning lecture oblivious to everyone else but it was Ethan who spotted Franco sitting opposite them on the next table. Ethan never meant to but he looked and made eye contact with Franco, he quickly averted his gaze hoping he didn't get noticed and focused on Adam, his eyes kept darting behind Adam and every time he found Franco starring at him. Ethan leaned over to Adam "I think we better go". Adam looked questioningly at him "What is wrong Eth?" he replied using his new nickname for Ethan. "I accidentally made eye contact with him and now he is starring at us" Ethan responded. They both stood trying to be as casual as possible chatting and not making eye contact with anyone. Their exit from the cafeteria complete Adam laughed whilst Ethan's heart was pounding in his chest, he leaned back against the wall and laughed. "I don't want to get on the his bad side on day one" Ethan said not realising that Franco had followed them. "Whose bad side" Franco remarked. Ethan turned "Oh fuck" he spurted out and clamped his hand over his mouth quickly to silence himself. Franco looked at Adam "Disappear" he said to Adam. Adam shook his head and stood his ground "No, I have promised to look after him". Franco laughed "You his bodyguard then?" mocking Adam as he said it. Ethan put his arm in front of Adam "Listen don't want any trouble with you, sorry I looked at you in there". Franco looked Ethan up and down "Why did you look at me, do you like a bit of Latino?". Ethan shook his head "Sorry I didn't mean to you were just in my line of sight". Franco laughed and told his group of friends to disappear "Come with me" he said to Ethan and Adam. They pushed the doors open to the cafeteria and walked over to a table where Franco told them to sit. Like two obedient puppies they sat down on the opposite side of the table. A few of the students watched eagerly wondering what was about to take place. Ethan wanted this over done with "Can we just get this over with whatever is it you want". Franco looked at Ethan "Got somewhere you need to be then?". "Yes I do" Ethan said in a determined manner. Franco was definitely amused by Ethan's change "And what is so important that you rush for... your lover?". Ethan stared at Franco "My life is my business, what do you want?" he spoke having had enough of Franco's game. "You don't look scared of me Ethan" Franco remarked as he leaned on the table. Ethan shrugged his shoulders "Should I be?". Franco smiled "No you don't need to be, neither of you need to be" he said nodding at Adam. Ethan kept up his brave appearance "Did you think I was eyeing you up" he said brazenly. Franco laughed "You have a thing for Latino's or did you just fall for one?" he said loving his little game. "How do you know so much about me?" Ethan asked his voice slightly shaking now. "Pretty young boy aren't you, Angelo never imagined he would land someone like you" Franco replied grinning. Ethan looked at Adam and back to Franco stunned "You know Angelo?". Franco nodded "He is my cousin, I work with Angelo during the holidays at his company" Franco replied.". Ethan shook his head in a confused state "I don't remember seeing you there". "No I came in and out quickly as I was on a job, but I recognised you straight away" Franco grinned at him. He continued "When Angelo realised I was at the same college he asked me to discreetly look out for you both". Ethan still sat shaking his head "Why didn't he tell me?". "He didn't want you think he was spying on you or anything" Franco replied to Ethan. Ethan and Adam both relaxed and stayed chatting to Franco for sometime before Adam realised the time. As they walked to the car Ethan turned to Adam and said that he could now see the resemblance between Angelo and Franco. They drove out of college and parked up at Mel's Diner to grab coffee with their mothers before they headed back to Larchmont. Life at college took on a whole new perspective and the weeks just floated by as they settled in to their routines, these now included meeting their mothers a couple of times a week and also lunching with Franco several times a week. Javier stayed well clear of Ben and neither of them was talking to Ethan, a couple of times Javier had almost tried to talk to Ethan but he soon realised that he was never alone long enough since his circle of new friends had grown. The long summer days were changing in to cooler autumnal weather and Ethan was again having problems getting in to his clothes, for a young 18 year old his body had changed through all his working out with Angelo and Adam. He stood looking in the mirror amazed at how his biceps had grown, Angelo walked out of the bathroom in to the bedroom and stood smiling at him. "Do we need to shopping?" Angelo said standing behind Ethan. Ethan looked at Angelo in the mirror "I guess so" he turned and kissed Angelo "Off to the mall then?". Angelo patted his ass "Absolutely, how about dinner at the Marina tonight?". "Just the two of us, Saturday date night?" Ethan fell back on the bed looking at Angelo holding his arms up. Angelo laughed "Yes just us" he pulled Ethan off the bed "Later, get dressed". Angelo knew what Ethan wanted to do instead of shopping and laughed when Angelo hauled him off the bed, he kissed him and found the tightest t-shirt he could find whilst Angelo booked a table for 8pm. Ethan sent his weekly text to Sofie and finished up by saying they were dining at the Marina and he would see her on Monday. Sofie walked around Harrison with her mother reading Ethan's text and debating weather now was a good time to try and get things patched up in the family, she persuaded her mother to stop at Mel's Diner for a drink. Sofie took a slurp on her milkshake and looked at her mother "Had a text from Ethan this morning". Ellie put her coffee down "What is he up to this weekend?". "Out shopping for clothes and then he is out for dinner with his boyfriend at the Marina tonight" said wistfully. Ellie looked up "Marina hmm, your father knows his boyfriend you know". "So I heard, you haven't met him yet have you?" Sofie said putting down her milkshake. Ellie smiled she knew what her daughter was up to "Are you saying that your father and I should dine there?". Sofie nodded "Maybe it would be a good idea". Ellie picked up her phone and booked a table at the restaurant "Maybe it is the only way". "I promise I won't tell Ethan and you must not tell him I told you" Sofie said looking at her mother. Ellie sent a message to Jack 'Dinner at the Marina tonight just the two of us', Jack stood on the tennis court and smiled reading the message and sent a reply 'Great idea'. Sofie's job was done she knew her father had calmed down a lot and was hiding worried thoughts about Ethan as he would not speak to him still, she had overheard many of the conversations her parents had behind closed doors. Sofie waved them off as the taxi arrived to take them to Larchmont for dinner. Ethan and Angelo were sat in a quiet part of the restaurant ordering their dinner. Ellie nervously stood outside the restaurant waiting for Jack to pay the taxi, they both wanted to have a drink and Jack was looking forward to a relaxing dinner out with his wife. Jack not one to pay attention to other people never saw Ethan as they passed by some 5 meters away, Ellie glanced in their direction following Jack and the waiter to their own table, she saw that Ethan was deep in conversation with Angelo and never looked in their direction. She ensured Jack was positioned facing away from Ethan, Ellie on the other hand sat down and was facing them some 6 tables away. She would bide her time and allow Jack to get relaxed, on the other hand she couldn't help but get distracted by Ethan's boyfriend and glanced whenever she could thinking how attractive Angelo was, Latin, tall and very well built with dashing looks, well Margarite had been right about something at least she chuckled to herself. Angelo and Ethan closed their menus and handed them back to the waiter ordering desert, Ethan caught Angelo looking away again for about the hundredth time that evening. "What is it, you look distracted?" Ethan asked placing his glass of water down. Angelo returned his gaze "Promise me you won't turn round if I tell you?". Ethan laughed but then went serious "Maybe but it depends". "There is a table over the other side, the woman keeps looking at us, and the man..." Angelo glanced at the table. Ethan kept his gaze fixed on Angelo "The man what?". Angelo shook his head "I can't quite see him but I am sure I know him, she's ordering have a look". Ethan turned his head and studied the restaurant "Oh no". "What?" Angelo asked looking at Ethan. Ethan's head went down "My parents are over there". Angelo laughed then smiled "Oh so I do know the man then". "Do you think they have seen me?" Ethan said looking worried but mildly amused. Angelo smirked "I think your mother knows, but you have to face this Ethan". Ellie turned to her husband "Have you spoken with Ethan yet?". Jack handed the menu to the waiter "No he won't return my calls or texts". "Are you worried about him?" Ellie held her husbands hand. Jack looked out across the marina "Yes but no, I know he is in safe hands". "Will you make an attempt with him and his boyfriend if you had the chance?" She asked looking at him. Jack turned to look at her "If he will speak to me". "I know it is nothing we have done Jack, it is who he has become now" Ellie quickly glanced at Ethan. Jack sighed "I suppose I could speak to Angelo but we left things a little awkward between us". "What is his boyfriend like Jack?" Ellie asked him. Jack resumed his gave over the marina "Certainly not your stereotypical gay guy, I got taken in by him". Ellie laughed "He must be good person if he got through you". Jack smiled "Yes, I suppose he is a nice person". "You won't strike out again at him?" Ellie asked. Jack's smile disappeared "I think Angelo will hit me if I do. When he is ready we can talk". Ellie smiled "Be the father you should be Jack, go and at least say hello to him" she nodded over Jack's shoulder. Jack turned his head and saw Angelo sat with Ethan in conversation "Do they know we are here?". Ellie nodded "They have just realised we are sat here". Jack sat motionless after turning back to face Ellie, he was conflicted about what to do after all the last time he saw Ethan he had hit him and thrown him out. One thing he didn't expect to see this evening was Ethan with Angelo, it was hitting home hard. Everything Ellie had told him about Ethan doing okay in the big world with the man he loved came flooding back. Underneath he knew that whatever may be, he couldn't just ignore him and had to at least make some effort to start communicating with Ethan properly. He looked at Ellie who sat there watching him and poured him another glass of wine "Think about what you want to say, don't just go over without a plan" Ellie said putting the bottle down. Jack bided his time and allowed Ethan and Angelo to finish their dinner first. He placed his napkin on the table and stood up seeing Ellie smile he turned and walked over towards the table as Angelo caught his eye. Unmistakably he saw Angelo give a little nod as he got closer. "Angelo nice to see you, Ethan how are you?" Jack nervously spoke standing in front of them. Angelo stood up and held out his hand "Jack great to see you". Jack shook his hand without hesitation and looked at Ethan who stared ahead "Ethan can we talk?". Ethan looked up worryingly "I guess so, pull up a chair". Ethan did not feel afraid of his father but he knew that he was cornered into talking to him, and he also knew that Angelo wouldn't let him get off so lightly now his father was in front of him.

Worst thing I ever did to a last minute flake (and yeah I do feel a bit bad about it now) There was a bi guy in London when I was visiting, wanted to fuck me, I need to keep it discreet though ok? My girlfriend can't find out. Fine, I'll be discreet. We swap pics, including crucially his face pic. Later that afternoon I travel for an hour across London and I arrive at his place when suddenly he cancels on me. An hour of travel and I'm right there outside the door of his apartment block and he's like no can do sorry. I was beside myself with anger. A couple of minutes later, coincidentally, a woman leaves the apartment building, and I think right, fuck it. I smile at her and try to politely ask her if she knows this guy - show her his face pic from my phone, tell her his name's Mike. Oh yeah, I know him... well I know his girlfriend really. Well I say you tell Mike that escort rent boys don't like being called up then cancelled on at the last minute! Turned tail and stormed off, leaving her to make whatever conclusions she wanted to. God knows what happened next but this was one flake I definitely blocked! I was so fucking angry!

I live in a city (Leeds, UK) that is kinda notorious for flakes, no-shows, cancel-at-the-last-minute (with a shit excuse) or go silent a few hours before we arranged to meet. So I can get pretty ruthless at times - if its a grindr quickie and they started to back out i give them 10 minutes to man up - and I tell them this. I never block a flake - if he contacted me, he must've thought I was hot and fuckable. Not blocking him means he still sees me on his grids (grindr, bbrt etc) but i will never reply again. Sometimes I even send him naked pics to wordlessly suggest: here's what you missed Recently one guy who wanted to fuck me and load my ass in his deserted office backed out at the last minute. Then, hang on maybe I can. I said right, you got 10 mins or i'm done. 20 minutes passed and suddenly he's back. My reply: Time's up - C ya. I landed another random fuck off grindr less than half an hour later. I was in his area again today, and guess who messaged. Still wants me, it seems, but cancel-at-last-minute flakes only get one chance. For me, integrity is important, in every part of life, including this one. If you contact me in advance saying you can't make it, sorry etc, it's fine with me. Cancel at the last minute and you never hear from me again, and I have a near eidetic memory for this kinda thing.

Just got back from a meeting in London. I slipped away early and vsited a sleazy gay cinema near King's cross. It is small and dark and normally full of old trolls wanking off to the movies. You can stand at the back and pretty much do what you want as the management never seems to down into the screen room. It smells, and the floor is always slippy with cum. I descended the stairs and went into the small theater which has about 20 seats. It was unusually full with a number of guys standing at the back. They were all middle-aged or older and watching a tall, thin black guy of about 50 or so who had his trousers and pants down and was jacking off a long, smooth cock. I opened my fly and dragged out my cock and rubbed it hard. The black guy flashed me a grin and beckoned me over. We jacked each other for a while and then I bent over and sucked his dick which was drooling pre-cum. I noticed the men around me start to get their cocks out. The black guy started feeling my arse and I undid my belt so he could push my pants down and expose it to his probing finger. I stood up and let my trousers fall to my ankles. We kissed and then he turned me round and I felt his cock pushing between my arse-cheeks. He bent me over a seat and spat on my hole. I felt my heart start to pound and then he pressed some poppers under my nose. I was lost. My head swam and I felt my arse-hole open as his cock slid in me - bare. No question of condoms. It was deep and smooth and I groaned as he fucked me. The men clustered round, and I was surrounded by stiff cocks. I took one in my mouth and felt horny old fingers spreading my cheeks so they could see the cock sliding into me. After a while, he bent over me and I felt his hot breath on my ear. "You're a dirty slut, aren't you?" I could only nod in reply. "I wanna see all these men fuck you" he whispered. I shuddered and reached for his poppers and took a deep sniff. I heard him chuckle and then his cock left me. I looked over my shoulder and saw him beckon to a fat old man who had taken off his shirt and dropped his pants. His cock was fat and white in the gloom. The old troll waddled over and I felt his cock nosing into me. I panicked and tensed up, but the black guy fed me more poppers and whispered "Relax, baby. Go with it. You know you want it, don't you?" The fat guy was in me now, huffing and blowing as he fucked me. He didn't last long. Before I knew it, I felt him throb and my arsehole went wet with his sperm. What had I done? He pulled out, and the black guy held my shoulders down. "Who's next?" he whispered. And then another cck slid up me and I felt myself letting go, giving myself up to it as the second cock spurted in me. As a third one slid up me, the black guy bent and whispered in my ear. "You're really fucked now, baby. When he's done I'm going to fuck you too and give you my gift. Welcome to the club"

A few weeks before Tumblr died and went to conservative shareholder heaven, there was a Dom Top guy who asked on his blog if anyone had had sex which was non-consensual but also not rape. I knew immediately what he meant, and I think that headspace does exist because I've been there. there have been times, particularly if I'm face down, ass up, or in a group of tops and dom guys who just start to rut at me - and stop giving a fuck what i want because i'm just a couple of fuckholes to them - where it's gotten so rough or aggressive I want it to stop, but I can;t revoke any consent because I cant speak or they're not listening. Or I';m tied up, gagged, whatever. so i just kind of surrender to the moment and wait for it to finish, brace myself in to minimise the damage and ride it out. i am no longer consenting, but i recognise i'm here til he, or they, decide when they're done. And I am paradoxically fine with that, even though i want it to stop now. it's a strange headspace. it's kind of fucked up during, and it hurts, physically and emotionally, but afterwards, once i am free again, i get so boned about it and glad it happened, and glad i took it. this has happened to me a lot of times. I;ve also been actually raped a few times but that's a whole other story, and tbh, no regrets there either.

Last night 12 of our closest friends came over for some fun at our play room. In the menu was me, my holes and anything goes, as long as it’s hard and rough ? i was immediately put in position (doggy) and had cocks in both ends and was fucked rough and got 6 loads, then the boys took a quick break for drinks and greet some more guys that arrived. After a quick break the fucking resumed and boy, was I in heaven!!! I was fucked HARD and rough, Double penetrated, fisted, buckets of cum in my pussy and down my throat cause most of the guys came at least 2-3 times, drinking piss and also got pissed all over. I was so exhausted at the end of the night after being used for nearly 5 hours my bf cuddled me in the play room, making love until we both fell asleep with him inside of me. Heaven! I don’t know the exact count of loads (I should really start counting better!) but my guess is something between 30-40 ??

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aspieboy - You sat that you only infrequently act upon your frequent urges, but you don’t really explain what the reason or obstacle is that prevents you from doing so. The title of your thread suggests it has something to do with “acceptance of your role”, so the issue sounds as though it might be more psychological than situational. If you’d care to provide a bit more detail, we may be better able to advise you.

As I write this, I see my BF Thad deep in thought of work, while my brother is sleeping with a face of contentment after spending four days at MAL. My brother Jess took maybe 30 loads and almost took Fred's fist, but Fred did not want to push it anymore. Fred told my brother to stay in the sling as Fred cleaned up. At 70 years old Fred is in great shape as he comes out of the bathroom with a raging hardon with a P.A. he goes right up to Jess lays his dick on Jess hole and smiles and pushes in balls deep. Jess is smiling, and if Jess were not in chastity, Jess would have been exploding. After the puppy mosh pit Jess ask for my credit card as he wanted to do a little shopping, that was a big mistake on my part. When Fred was fisting me, Jess was on the bed next to me, and a few friends were fucking him. I was so proud when after taking a load Jess turned around and offered his ass to the one he was sucking their dick and cleaned the dick that just came out of his ass. That weekend I saw Jess become what he said he wanted to become a PIG, I saw him in the bathroom being used as a urinal as any PIG would do. Back to how I think I was POZZED. Fred was right about my hole soon being filled up as I was introduced to 2 Nigerians. They are both skinny, maybe 6feet but it what between their legs has me drooling. They are flaccid but WOW just hanging has to be a beer can in diameter and 11 inches long, I wonder what they will get if I inject them with Caverject. The country of Nigeria is the worst place to live if you are Gay. If you live in the North, they kill you. If you live in the South, they put you in jail. Nigeria has one of the highest levels of people who are HIV. In Africa the HIV-2 strain most have as in North & South America and Europe HIV-1 is seen more. We talk for a few minutes, and at the age 15 their family moved them to Germany and being Gay there is like being heaven. They want to party, and so do I, so I get so Molly, Tina points and shards and Caverject for them. Looking at there dicks it's like a PIG going to heaven knowing that they will soon be in my holes. The first one I ask if I can inject the Caverject into his dick. I wipe the area off with alcohol stick the needle in and push the plunge in when I withdraw the needle there is a little blood, so I lick it clean, as the other Nigerian has slammed himself. I now have 2 Nigerians with monster dicks loaded with Caverject, slammed and the fun begins as they take my arm and slam me heavy. If I had not been with Fred before they would have split me open as it feels like I feel like I'm being fisted again. The fullness of their dicks in my holes and the amount of cum they are producing is putting me in another world. As I'm face to face with the one on his back and his dick in my ass the other Nigerian is behind me starting to put his dick in my ass, and it feels just like being fisted and since they both have P.A.s it one of the few times I feel them in my hole. For the next two days, I was their fuck toy, and the loads they shoot are massive. I like licking the cum up and I see blood in it sometimes but the only thing I have on my mind is getting slammed and fucked by them. Like me, Thad had been missing his PrEP and parting like a rock star and taking every raw dick he could find. Around Chrismas, Thad was not feeling great running a fever for two days, and it was over for him. We were planning to go to a New Years Eve party, but I started to feel funny, and by New Years Day I was sick running a fever, body aching and just like total shit. By the fourth day of this and the fever over 101 degrees, Thad called a cab and took me to the Hospital. In the emergency room, the nurse starts to ask me questions. Do I do drugs? Yes What drugs do I take? When I say Meth, Molly, GHB, Ketamine, she was thinking like blood pressure meds. Then she changed the questions. Have taken any of the drugs IV? Yes Do you practice safe sex? NO When was the last time I had unprotected sex? 10 days ago The nurse takes blood from me, and I put into a room that I was in for five days till they had the fever under control, and I started to feel better. One of the things I was not aware of is my boys as they put me on the scale and my weight was 100 LBS. In the mirror, I was nothing but skin and bones with ribs showing. I know I was over 120 LBS. months ago so I lost close to 20% of my body weight. The doctor came in and informed me I was POZ and gave me the name of a Doctor to see who treats people with HIV. I told Thad I was POZ, so he went out and got tested, and he is also POZ now.

This couldn’t be stated more perfectly. I’m Cuban - and I get tired of being hit up all the time by guys in search of a specific stereotype and scripted experience. Yes I speak Spanish, yes my family are immigrants and yes i’m a totally oversexed horndog....but I’m not your papi, I’m not gonna shake my ass like Ricky Martín for you, and I’m not some horse-hung baseball player with a huge, dark uncut club who’s gonna fuck you into next week. Enough already. Being Latin or Black or Asian or Middle Eastern doesn’t make us all picturesque stereotypes to enjoy whenever you feel like adding a little flavor in your sex lives. We’re real folks with real jobs and real lives and we’re looking for the same things as everyone else.

Hey, Rawslutz! Yesterday, despite the bitterly cold temperatures and recent snowstorm in Toronto, I decided to haul my daddy ass to the FukdTo bb sex party at Club120 from 4-8 PM. I got to the Club at 4:30 and some guys were there already. No much action yet. I must agree with Felching Pisser that the fuckmaze is AMAZING (pun intended)! Tarps were hung and are pretty easy and fun to navigate. Holes to stick your cock in or get fucked are spread out all over the fuckmaze. A sling was set up in one corner, a fuckbench was positioned on the opposite side of the fuckmaze. Guys on level 2 could see and jerk their cocks what was happening downstairs. I was told by the organizer that the fuckmaze is up ONLY for the last bb party of each month. My guess is that it takes the setup crew a long time to set up these tarps due to rentals of the club before and after the FUkdTO bb sex parties. Oh well, such is life. Guys, you gotta come to Toronto to experience this FUkdTO bb sex party with its slings, fuckbenches, and fuckmaze!! After being out of commission for a while, I wanted to blow a big load I was saving and have some raw fun. I stayed until around 7 PM. Here's who I met: 1. An acquaintance -- a big bear of past parties has been after my daddyass to break it in. I did douche thoroughly before and was ready to be vers yesterday. Well, he got his wish to open up my hole. He opened it but didn't come in me. 2. I met a tall black guy with a great dick. He was off to work but told me he already came in someone. I love how his dick fucked me in the past. He said he was a one-hit wonder. I hope to get his load next party. 3. There a white-haired bottom parked on a fuckbench in the fuckmaze. My bear acquaintance said for me to fuck his ass. I fucked him for a bit, a bit tight for my wanting. 4. In the fuckmaze I met this amazing younger Columbian guy. He told me that Columbian guys love to fuck bareback. His boyhole felt amazing. I fucked him in the fuckmaze. He's a fellow slut who used to love vanilla sex only. Upstairs I met up with him again, fucked him for a bit. He invited me to taste the loads in his boycunt. He pushed some out and I kissed him with these loads and his ass juices. He kissed me deeply and was playing with my nipples. I felt myself getting closer to cum. I told him I was about to cum, he turned around ass up, I went back in and could be the joy and relief of me spurting in him. He grabbed my ass cheeks and wanted to stay in him a bit longer. I love doing this! 5. Another young guy saw us. He too was from Columbia. Both of them talked in Spanish for a bit. I took the second Columbian's hand and wanted to rim and fuck him for a bit. I thought I could give him a second load. But for me, either it happens or it doesn't. Well it didn't. He said to me, "Next time, Papi!" and kissed me on the lips. I really get turned on by South American men, as well as Mediterranean guys and South Asians too. 6. I did get cruised by this young tanned guy I met at Steamworks some months before. He was really. I got to kiss and lick his boycunt a bit. He kept grabbing my hard daddycock. I felt him up, his whole was slick. I was right up against his boycunt lips about to go in when he left. Oh well, I'll see him again, I hope. 7. A black older man with a curved thick dick did come over to fuck me. He did fuck me before. My hole just could take the head this time. He noticed he couldn't go in any further and went off to fuck other guys. 8. I met a younger, Greek guy, who has a bubblebutt. I want to eat him out (I have a fondness for bubblebutts!). But he said he was a voyeur ONLY, no sex. I thought WTF!? In my thinking if you're a voyeur and no sex kind of guy, you're missing out on all the bb sex around you. The guys yesterday weren't as picky, more sluttier (the kind I like). A lot of new faces and asses and cocks. The FukdTo bb sex parties are Toronto's little gem on this side of the Atlantic Ocean. Well worth the visit and experience!!

Got some sloppy seconds last night. I stopped by my buddies house, only to discover he had a trick still there from earlier in the day. My buddy is 50, and the trick is some married 32 yr old that likes to get fucked occasionally. He was hairy, chubby, and had a beard, and that's 10/10 in my book. So my buddy walks me into the bedroom, and I waste no time getting naked and under the covers with both of them. I know my negative buddy loves barebacking as much as I do, so I'm not surprised when I start rubbing the tricks hole, it's got cum inside and out. Instant hardon for me, so I maneuver to get in spooning position, and soon my cock is rubbing his wet hole nice n steady. My buddy starts sucking his cock, and I slide in raw and give him a slow steady fuck, rubbing his nipples as I do. After about five minutes he says he's cumming, and I feel him clamp down on my cock like a vise. Oh man that sent me over the edge and I began nutting my strain in his ass deep. I kept stroking his ass until my cock plopped out, then pushed him on his belly so none of my cum would run out. I fingered him slowly for a while, doing my best to give him a few scratches inside so my load would take. Sadly, he had to get going before I could fuck him again, but he said he loved being our bottom pig so maybe I'll seed him again.

Part 50 　 I made it to work the rest of the week alright. Took my meds as prescribed. In the evenings, which I spent mostly alone, I thought about what the heck I had done. Hank came over to talk a couple of times, mostly just hi and regular talk. He always had on shorts and I always had trouble keeping my eyes off of his crotch, knowing how good that could make my whole being feel. 　 Friday night came and I knew this would be the toughest test so far. I started to stay home and then decided to go out anyway. Went to my fav. bar and ran into some old friends. They were all kidding me about being gone so long and I told them it was only a couple of weeks. 　 It was kind of a nice time, seeing and talking to my old friends. A couple of times, women we knew stopped by and at least twice it seemed like they were hitting on me. I was interested, somewhat, but just didn't feel quite right about them after last weekends goings on. I still felt an attraction and kind of wanted to 'sample' the goodies offered, but did I really want to or just a longing to go back to...what? 　 As the night wore on, more and more of my old friends hooked up or called it a night. Soon there was just two of us left. Both of us had had more to drink than we should have. My, last friend standing, I knew had had too much to drink to be driving. He was married and lived quite a ways away, too. I told him he better not be driving home. He was out of it and didn't argue much. I told him I was calling his wife and tell her he was going to sleep it off at my place. She was upset when I called her, but thought it was really nice to have a friend like me to help out. She just wanted his butt back home with a good explanation the next day. LOL. 　 I got him loaded into the car and we were soon back at my place where I helped him in and he practically collapsed on the couch. He was still awake but I don't think he had any idea where he was. We talked a bit, or I should say I talked and he mumbled, then I headed up to drain my bladder. In my bathroom, I could hear noises, again, coming from next door. I leaned in and sure enough, they were definitely fucking over there again. Seems like every weekend. I listened for a bit and decided it had to be Hank drilling the ass of some guy good. My own cock stood up as I heard them. Damn, got to quit listening. 　 I didn't move away though and finally could tell for sure it was Hank when he spoke up good and loud that he was cumming and going to POZ that guy's hole but good. I just smiled, knowing what that guy was feeling and my own damn cock jumping around as I heard them. I then, said to hell with it, and went into my bedroom and got my clothes off and some pjs on. I started to climb in bed when I decided I was thirsty and headed down to the kitchen to get some water. As I was getting it, there was a knock on the door. I was pretty sure who it was, but answered it anyway. 　 There stood Hank, naked like normal and his cock standing at attention, even after the fucking he had just done to some guy a few minutes ago. He just grinned, when I looked up finally, and told me he knew where my eyes would be when I opened the door. We both laughed and then I remembered about my friend in the other room and whispered to Hank that we had to be quieter. 　 I crossed the kitchen and took a peek into the livingroom. My friend was sitting on the couch with his head back and I don't think he heard anything at all. Hank was looking over my shoulder and asked who that was? I told him about going to the bar and meeting up with some old friends and this one, married, was too drunk to drive home and had asked him to stay the night and sleep it off. Hank just laughed quietly. He knew what that was like. 　 Hank told me he had better get back over to his place as he had three guys over there wanting some pozzing tonight. He left and just as I was headed up to bed, I heard my friend, get up off of the couch. I stopped to see what he was doing and it looked like he was about to get sick. I grabbed him and the closest place was to the backyard and we barely made it before he was down in the grass and heaving his insides out but good. I stood and kind of watched out for him for a bit before I suddenly realized we had company and turning found three guys on the picnic table watching and all naked as the outdoors. One of them was Randy and he immediately got up and came over to offer assistance if I needed it. I told him it was just an old friend who had too much to drink. He laughed good. 　 My friend didn't want me to help him up yet, so I decided to go back inside and finish my drink of water. After downing my water, I headed back outside to get my friend up and in the house and tucked in for the night. I was completely caught by surprise when I found him bent over the picnic table, pants at his ankles and Randy's huge cock pounding away at his hole. 　 I ran over and asked what the hell was going on? I told them he was a married man and didn't do this kind of thing. Randy just grunted and laughed and told me it was too late now, as he had just cum in him deep. My friend was passed out and had no idea at all of what had just happened to him. I was panicky. What was I going to tell him or his wife or what the hell was I to do? 　 Randy just told me he thought he had wanted it as when he had got up from the ground he had dropped his own pants and took a piss and then had bent over the table and was out. His nice bare ass was just too much to ignore. With Randy's hvl, it was probably in his bloodstream already. What to do now? uch to pass up. I took one look at my friend's ass and knew he was probably in trouble as there was cum and blood showing all around his hole. With Randy's hvl, it was probably in his bloodstream already. What to do now?

PART 12 The next day I was just wrecked. Besides my hole being super sore from all the cock I had taken at the bookstore, even my legs were sore from holding myself up so long. That didn’t stop me from jacking off thinking about what had happened in that 90 minutes or so I was in those booth. All of the guys had been hot older guys with big cocks and every one wanted it raw. I had done my best to keep all the cum inside me. It seemed important to have it soak in. And then there was the last guy, Ted. He had been the hottest. And he seemed to really like fucking me too. He had even given me his number. By the second day, I was feeling a lot better and by late afternoon I had looked at that phone number Ted had given me enough to have it memorized. I was so nervous but I kept repeating how amazing his cock was and how his cum shot so hard I felt it. His cum. His hiv positive cum that had been shot into once already after three other guys had wrecked my hole. But he was so sexy. And confident, as if he knew I wouldn’t be able to resist him and his giant poz cock. Isn’t that the world he used? Poz. I knew it was dangerous. I knew I shouldn’t have anything to do with him. But by 430 I was calling him. He answered on the third ring. “Uh hi, this is Chris. I met you at the, um, at the bookstore like two days ago.” I said, as nervous and awkward as could be. His tone changed from the gruff hello he had answered with. Now in a smoother gentler sexier voice he spoke back, “ I knew I would here from you. My new little 18 year old bareback bottom. You want to come over now don’t you Chris?” I was rock hard, even though I was also embarrassed to be called out like that. Still, I answered, “yes, really badly.” I could almost sense his grin thru the phone line. “Why do you want to come over Chris? What do you want? What do you want me to do to you?”, he said in that low voice. He was gonna make me say it. “I... I want you to fuck me again. Like the other day.” I whispered. “You want me to cum in your hole again dont you Chris? That’s what you are really hungry for isn’t it?” He had me. He knew it and i knew it. I was only 18 and totally new to man sex. Ted had been around enough to spot young guys discovering that they are meant to be cum sluts. He knew before I did what it was I needed and how bad i wanted it. And he wanted to feed my addiction. “I think you need to get here quick Chris. I have a nice big poz load for that boy hole.” He gave me the addresss and I was cleaning up and in my car within 20 minutes. All I could think about was how hot Ted was. That thin body offset by that huge cock and those giant low hanging balls. The fact that he had HIV was totally in my mind, but the overwhelming feeling was it was worth any risk. I just had to have it. I had to offer up my asshole to get fucked raw. And he was so tall and so skinny. It made his dick look even hotter. And he really wanted to cum in me. Thst just made it hotter, pleasing him by totally giving him my hole. My Dick was hard the whole ride over. As I tried to adjust myself as I walked to his apartment door, I thought one more time. I was about to go in to a strAngers house to have unprotected anal sex with a an older man that I know has hiv. It’s in his cum. And his cum had literally shot so hard I had felt it, a huge hot load of man sperm. And my thoughts weren’t fear or worry. My only thought was I hope I feel it when he shoots his cum into me. A I knocked, I was aware how the nerves had changed from fear to just excitement. I couldn’t wait to see Ted and be his bottom. To take his cum. Beg for it even, if he asks me too. And when he answered, the shiver of anticipation that ran thru me felt so hot. I couldn’t wait. And now here he was opening the door for me, guiding me in. And i couldn’t wait to go.

Part 13 - Ladies That Lunch Ellie arrived at the restaurant and found Margarite sat at a quiet table in the corner. Margarite stood and gave Ellie a kiss on the cheek and they both sat down as the waiter brought the menus over, they chatted about the Hamptons and what was going on in Harrison over the last few weeks. Ellie talked about Sofie and her dance classes hoping that she would take up ballet. Margarite place her desert order and closed her menu. "Oh I spoke to the Guttenburgs last week" Margarite piped up. Ellie ordered her desert "They only stayed a couple of weeks in the Hamptons this year". "Yes, said they had a lovely beach BBQ at yours" Margarite laughed. Ellie laughed with her "Well he nearly lost his eyebrows at one point, you should come next year". "Husband likes to jet off for holidays, I do try to persuade him" Margarite said looking disappointed. Ellie smiled "Mine wants to go to the Caribbean again in November". "Will all of you go?" Margarite asked. "Ethan probably not, he has his studies and is doing really well" Ellie remarked with pride. Margarite smiled "Ethan looked so happy when I saw him in Larchmont a few weeks back at the Marina restaurant". "Oh, he never told me he went there for dinner" Ellie looked surprised. Margarite leaned forward "He certainly looked all loved up with his date". Ellie grimaced "Well as long as he is happy but doesn't get to serious at the moment". "Of course Ben told me had some suspicions that there was something going on" Margarite casually said. Ellie smiled "Well they are young". Margarite leaned in again "But a Latino, I would never have saw that coming" she looked at Ellie. "Latino?" Ellie remarked "Do you mean Latina?". Margarite shook her head "No Latino, rather sexy as well and very fit, a little older than Ethan I would say". The colour drained from Ellie's face "You must be mistaken". Margarite sat back "Ellie didn't you know?" she feigned a look of shock. Ellie tried to compose herself "Probably a friend from college". "Ben confirmed to me he was the other day" Margarite was enjoying her time immensely. Ellie saw the look of satisfaction on Margarite's face "Gay son, well at least that puts me above the rest". "You don't mind Ellie?" Margarite looked at her. Ellie smiled "At least we have a diverse family unlike the bog standard ones in Harrison". "You know there are other's around here in fact Ethan hangs out with one of them" Margarite played on it. Ellie suddenly guessed "Oh you mean Adam, such a lovely mannered boy we loving having him round". Margarite knew it was backfiring "You do know that Ben and Ethan had a falling out?". "Oh dear is your son not so accepting and open?" Ellie had Margarite on the run and loved it. Lunch over Ellie sat in the car fuming and sent a text message to Ethan 'Where are you?', annoyed at all the networking she had done to pair him off with some of the most respectable girls in Harrison. More than that she was angry that Margarite had to tell her, on the drive home she couldn't work out weather she was really upset, angry or just against it. Ethan's response text came as she pulled up the garage 'Back at 7pm'. She suddenly stopped and realised that Adam was in the Hamptons with Ethan, but no he wasn't a Latino so it couldn't be him. Head full of emotions she decided to sleep on it before confronting him and telling Jack, she knew she would have to before Jack found out from someone else in Harrison. Ethan put his phone down and settled back down in Angelo's arms as they watched the storm raging on, he thought it strange his mother would send a text asking where he was and began to feel a little on edge. An hour had passed and Ethan was packing his bag when his phone pinged again, he saw a new message but this time from Ben, he opened it and read it then dropped his phone. Angelo looked over at his worried face. "What is it Ethan?" Angelo walked over. Ethan sat down "My mother knows, Ben's mother had lunch and told her about us". Angelo sat down besides him "You are going to have to face up to this Ethan". Ethan nodded and looked outside "I think the storm is about to get bad". Angelo put his arm around him "We will deal with what ever happens Ethan". "Really?" Ethan looked at Angelo who nodded. It took nearly 5 hours to drive back as the Hamptons roads were flooded and traffic was slow. Ethan finally walked in to the house at just after 9pm, he could hear his father in the study working and his mother came out from the lounge and looked at him. "You look tired Ethan, long drive back with the weather?" Ellie asked. Ethan looked curiously at her "Yes, really bad storm there". "Come on I will make you a hot drink" Ellie turned and walked in to the kitchen. Ethan sat down "Thank you" he said. "So how was your weekend, you don't seem very happy" Ellie was watching the coffee machine. Ethan looked at her "It was good swam a lot and relaxed". Ellie put the coffee down in front of Ethan "I had an interesting lunch today with Margarite". Ethan looked at his cup "I know". Ellie had a surprised look on her face "How do you know?". "Ben sent me a text gloating, you know we fell out" Ethan wiped his eye. Ellie nodded "I know and I know why" as much as she wanted to be angry with him she couldn't do it. "Oh" Ethan sat starring at the cup "does father know?". "Not yet, I wanted to speak to you first" Ellie closed the kitchen door "Really Ethan?". Ethan looked up at her "Yes, I tried to play along with your matchmaking but it isn't me". "Your only just 18 Ethan we will find you a nice girl to settle down with" Ellie was testing him. Ethan shook his head "It would be living a lie mother, I am just not attracted to girls". "Is it Adam your attracted to?" She asked. Ethan shook his head again "No, he has been very supportive and more loyal as a friend". "I can't say I am happy about this Ethan, it is not who you were raised to be" Ellie looked on disappointed. Ethan stood up "It has nothing to do with being raised it is just who I am inside". Ellie shook her head "Go to bed Ethan". It was tense and Ethan walked in to his bedroom feeling sick, he sat in the bathroom on the floor and cried. Over the following days he kept out of everyone's way at home when he could and had several conversations with Angelo and Adam who had wanted to come over and see him, he had put Adam off for now as he didn't want to antagonise the situation. The first Saturday approached and Ethan quietly slipped out in the afternoon and spent the day with Angelo, it was breaking Angelo's heart to see Ethan so quiet and distracted. By 7pm Ethan asked Angelo to take him home as he shouldn't spend the night out of the house at the moment. Angelo watched Ethan get out of the car "Ethan if things get bad call me, I am here for you". Ethan nodded and kissed Angelo "I promise, I just need this to be out of the way now, I know it's coming". Angelo called out to him "5 to go" he watched Ethan smile and nod. By the time Angelo got back home at 8pm Adam was sat on his porch step wanting to find out how Ethan was holding up. Since he now lived in Larchmont with Tony it was a blessing to see Adam there as Angelo found he needed the company to help take his mind off things. The weekend out of the way Ethan got a call from Adam telling him he would be in Harrison on Tuesday morning and would like to meet up, Ethan agreed and said he would be there by 11am. He was still keeping a low profile around his mother and concentrating on his studies to make sure he was well versed for the year ahead at college. Tuesday came and Ethan quietly came down the stairs and opened the front door. "Where are you going Ethan?" Ellie stood at the kitchen door looking at him. Ethan turned in surprise "Harrison, I am meeting Adam to catch up". "Just don't get spotted doing anything else" Ellie turned and closed the kitchen door. Sofie looked up "What's the matter mother?". "Nothing, how is your rehearsal going?" Ellie changed the subject. Sofie looked over at her "It's Ethan isn't it?". Ellie turned to face her "What do you mean?". Sofie rolled her eyes upwards "You know full well what I mean". Ellie looked shocked "You know?". "Of course, it is obvious if you only stopped and paid real attention for once" Sofie retorted. At sixteen Sofie was not above speaking her mind in front of her mother. She kept her ear to the ground and knew what was going with Ethan through her own circle of friends. "What do you mean by that young lady?" Ellie lost her patience with Sofie. Sofie shook her head "Really mother, you and father don't know Ethan at all, he is just a puppet to you". Ellie sat down "Is that what you think?". "Ethan's life has been mapped out by you both, somewhere along the way you lost sight of him" Sofie replied. Ellie knew she had hit the nail on the head "Is that why he rebelled like this?". "He hasn't rebelled he just likes boys, why don't you find him one instead of a girl" Sofie chuckled. Ellie looked at her "It doesn't bother you?". Sofie laughed "Of course it does, I have to worry about competing against him for boys now". Ellie laughed for the first time in many days, chatting to Sofie had shone a whole new light on things seeing her daughter quite open and happy about a gay brother. Ethan shook his head in disbelief and walked up the drive and along the lane towards Harrison, his head conflicted not really knowing where his mother stood, he was happy to finally see Adam and be able to talk to him. Although brief Ethan felt a lot better and walked back towards home. He said hello to his mother and went up to his room. Jack had finished early and headed home pulling up the driveway just after 2pm. Ellie made him a sandwich and took it to the study where Jack was catching up on some emails. She waited until he had finished and wondered in. "Jack we need to talk about Ethan" she closed the door and walked over towards him. Jack looked up "Has he got in to trouble?". Ellie nervously laughed "No, well not quite but you should know he is not interested in girls". "Not interested in girls, you mean he doesn't want to marry?" Jack looked confused. Ellie shook her head "Not quite, he is.. well gay". Jack looked at her "What!, when, are you sure?". Ellie nodded "Yes he is Jack". "Not in my house he doesn't I won't have it" Jack stormed to the door and shouted "Ethan get down here now". Ethan shook as somehow he knew his mother had just told his father and could tell by the way he was summoned that he was angry, he slowly made his way downstairs he walked in to the study where Jack gabbed his arm and spun him around. "Well is it true, you fuck around with men?" Jack shouted in his face. Ethan stepped back looking afraid and nodded "Yes". Quick as a flash Ethan felt the stinging pain across his face as his father struck him with hefty force, his eyes filled with tears at the pain and he wiped under his nose to see blood. Ethan had fallen to the floor and stood back up. "No son of mine is gonna be gay" Jack screamed at Ethan. Ellie was horrified and upset "Jack please calm down". Jack continued his shouting "Get out of my house, pack your things and fuck off out of my house". Ethan looked "Father please". Jack repeated louder stressing his anger for Ethan to get out of his house and raised his hand again. Ethan reacted quickly in self protection and punched his father in the face with all his might sending him toppling over the sofa. Realising what he had done he ran out of the study and up to his room and locked the door. He sobbed for nearly an hour in the corner of his room, his face still sore. Eventually he stood up and went in to the bathroom and looked in to the mirror, he had blood stains running down over his lips and chin and several splatters on his t-shirt. He wiped his eyes and went back to the bedroom to get his phone and rang Angelo, the phone rang and rang, he called the number again but it went to voicemail he left a message 'Angelo, please I need you' he put his phone on the bed and sat waiting. Ethan could still hear his father ranting downstairs, Ethan had never hit anyone and to do it to your father was something he couldn't fathom out where it had come from. An hour had passed and he heard nothing from Angelo, he was now beginning to fear the worse that Angelo was not turning out to be the real deal and had lead him up the garden path, had he played him for a fool and left him to deal with his own consequences. Ethan cried again and began packing some of his clothes and college work in to a couple of large bags he had for weekends away. He picked up his phone again and tried Angelo's number but it rang and eventually went to voicemail again. He sat on the bed all cried out, he had nowhere to go and no idea what he was going to do, he sat for a what seemed like hours. He packed a few more things and thought to call Adam and Tony and was reaching over for his phone. Angelo was finishing his meeting and returning to his office when Mark, his assistant, told him his personal phone had been going off like crazy. Angelo saw the missed calls from Ethan and listened to the voicemail. He ran out of the office and called to his assistant that he would be back in the morning. Angelo jumped in to his car and put his phone on Bluetooth, he sped away towards Harrison and called Ethan's mobile. The phone rang and Ethan saw that Angelo was calling him "Angelo". "Ethan what's wrong" Angelo asked urgently. Ethan sniffed "Please come and take me away..." Angelo stopped him "I am already on my way, you are coming home with me where you belong". "Thank you Angelo" Ethan hung up and wiped his eyes. He felt an immense sense of relief that he had somewhere to go, but more so it would be with Angelo. He picked up his two bags and quietly walked down the stairs the study door was closed and he could hear his father had calmed down and was talking with his mother. Unmistakably he heard his name mentioned several times and a banging sound from his father hitting the desk with his fist. Sofie appeared over the stairs "Go Ethan I love you, will text you later" she said quietly. Ethan smiled but with sadness in his eyes and opened the front door then quietly slipped out, he went round the side of the house to avoid being seen walking up the drive. He threw his bags over the wall and climbed over then sat on the grass, he had been there only seconds when he saw Angelo's car approaching. Angelo jumped out of the car and saw the blooded t-shirt and redness around his nose and chin. He shook his head and hugged Ethan. "Did your father do this" Angelo said. Ethan nodded "Yes, but he was angry". Angelo looked angry "Fuck Ethan that is no excuse, if he wasn't your father I would beat him to pulp". "It will just make things worse. I thought you had changed your mind when I couldn't get hold of you" Ethan said. Angelo kissed his head "Never Ethan, you belong with me". Angelo put Ethan and his belongings in the car and drove off towards Larchmont, Ethan looked back tears running down his face. Sofie went in to the kitchen to fetch a drink and as she closed the refrigerator door she heard the door to the study open and Jack walked in. "Oh, thought you was Ethan" Jack looked at her then shouted up to Ethan "Ethan come down". Sofie passed by and climbed the stairs "He won't answer you father" she looked at him. "Can you talk to him Sofie?" Jack asked Sofie shook her head "He left about 15 minutes ago". "Left, what do you mean left?" Jack replied looking more annoyed. Sofie continued up the stairs "You told him to leave, so he has". Ellie burst in to tears "See what you have done" she ran up the stairs towards Ethan's room. Ethan was asleep when Angelo arrived home, he got out of the car and put Ethan's belongings in the hallway before going back to the car to wake Ethan up. Angelo helped him out of the car and picked him up carrying him inside. "Do you want to have a bath?" Angelo asked putting Ethan on the sofa. Ethan nodded "Please". Angelo ran a bath and Ethan walked in to the bathroom naked "Take your time, I will make you something to eat". Ethan looked at Angelo "Thank you Angelo, for being here" he smiled and kissed him. Angelo smiled "Ethan you don't need to thank me". Ethan climbed in to the bath "You still love me then?" he looked at Angelo. "Very much so Ethan" Angelo stroked Ethan's head "I will get you a set of keys tomorrow". Ethan hadn't computed things properly for a while and looked confused "Keys?" Angelo smiled "Yes, that is if you still want to live with me?". Ethan smiled at Angelo "Yes but I don't want you to think it is because of today". "It is earlier than anticipated but it doesn't change anything" Angelo kissed him on the head. A heavy downpour of rain had suddenly appeared and Angelo picked up the blood stained t-shirt looking at it, he felt angry at Jack for hitting Ethan, he took it to the laundry room then brought Ethan's bags upstairs to the master bedroom. Angelo's anger dissipated and was replaced by real happiness that Ethan would now be living with him, he knew there was a lot of recovering ahead for Ethan but at least he could be by his side. Angelo stood in the kitchen making a sandwich when there was a knock at the door, he wasn't expecting anyone he looked at the door cam and saw Adam standing there looking anxious, Angelo opened the front door and saw a drenched Adam standing there. "Angelo is he here?" Adam asked looking worried. Angelo nodded and pulled Adam inside "I picked him up about an hour ago". "Thank god, his sister sent a message to my sister, blah blah you know what girls are like" Adam spoke fast. Angelo shook Adam gently "Hey calm down Adam, Ethan is okay, a little upset and soaking in the bathtub". Adam breathed and hugged Angelo "Did he leave home?". Angelo nodded "Yes, but you need to get out of those wet clothes Adam". Adam undressed "His sister said there had been a big fight" he said standing holding his clothes. Angelo brought Adam a dressing gown down and put his wet clothes in the dryer "Yes" Angelo held his breath. "Angelo, please don't do anything crazy" Adam held Angelo's arm. Angelo looked at Adam "He hit his own son and my boyfriend, god it makes me angry thinking about it". Adam hugged Angelo "You must let it go Angelo let it sort it self out". Ethan walked in to the kitchen he had heard the last part of the conversation, the sight of Adam hugging Angelo in comfort was a big step with Angelo showing his emotions. Angelo wiped his eyes and told Ethan to eat his sandwich, Adam came over and gave Ethan a hug and sat down next to him. "Are you working tomorrow Angelo?" Adam asked. Angelo nodded "Yes I have a busy couple of weeks in the city". "Do you want me to come over in the morning and be with Ethan" Adam suggested. Angelo looked at Ethan "Thank you that is if Ethan wants the company". Ethan nodded "Yes, I don't want to be alone and dwell on today, I want to move forward" Ethan had put his phone on silence and refused to answer calls and messages from his mother and father. He sent one message to his sister telling her he was fine. Ethan climbed in to bed next Angelo his face was still sore and a small bruise was appearing under his left eye, Angelo put his arm around Ethan and allowed him to cuddle up. Ethan had no idea how long he had been asleep but his dreams replayed the fight with his father and he felt he was struggling to be free and sat bolt upright gasping. Angelo sat up and put his arm around Ethan who flinched at the touch thinking he was still dreaming. Angelo knew this time he was not flinching at his touch 'Ethan it's alright you are safe' he whispered, Ethan turned and kissed Angelo and settled back down in his arms. Angelo stroked his head 'Never forget you are loved and wanted' he whispered cuddling him. Finally Ethan settled back down but was wide awake, he slipped his hand down Angelo's body and was rewarded feeling Angelo's aroused state, Ethan kissed him lovingly and rolled on to his stomach. Angelo didn't need any prompting as he guided his body over Ethan's and rested on his back slowly kissing and biting his neck working his way towards Ethan's mouth, Ethan responded with small moans of pleasure and pushing his ass up grinding it against Angelo's cock. The magic between them showing it's hand as Angelo slipped his arm around Ethan's neck firmly holding his shoulder, Angelo raised his hips and let his cock slide between Ethan's ass cheeks. Angelo moaned in excitement feeling his cock slipping inside, Ethan raised his head turning to kiss Angelo, he moaned and whimpered between kisses as Angelo pushed his cock in deeper until his hips rested on top of Ethan's ass. Ethan pushed his ass up and Angelo forced it back down with his hips causing Ethan to cry out in pleasure, Angelo held Ethan closer to him and began moving his hips up and down in a tender loving motion. They continued for nearly half an hour with Ethan feeling more than ever this was what he needed and wanted. For the first time Ethan moaned louder and begged Angelo to fuck him harder, no sooner had he said that he felt the pressure increasing from Angelo as he pushed past any resistance from Ethan's ass. His hips slapping down harder withdrawing more of his cock each time and ramming it back in, Ethan's legs shook through the excitement and his toes tried curling in on themselves as every fibre of his body cried out for Angelo's sex. Angelo kissed Ethan's neck and continuously telling him how much he loved getting fucked by him. Ethan had never endured such powerful emotions his head buried in the pillow he cried out 'fuck me Angelo, show me you own me' he pleaded. Angelo gave Ethan one last kiss and raised his body up and began relentlessly hammering his cock in to Ethan, precum leaking from his cock coated the inside of Ethan's ass, his cock sweeping in and out with ease. His balls suddenly tightened without warning his hips pushed down hard as Ethan gasped and moaned, Angelo's hips kept pushing hard up against Ethan's ass as the seed from his cock erupted in to Ethan's body, he grunted loudly and cried 'You belong to me Ethan, I own you forever' Ethan's eyes were watering from the hardest sex he had willingly endured, his head jolted up with every clenching movement of Angelo's ass checks that forced the cock deeper inside his ass. Ethan collapsed on the bed his ass wriggling in happiness as he tried to catch his breath. Angelo collapsed on top of Ethan his hips grinding hard against Ethan's ass showed no sign of stopping imminently. Ethan moaned and turned his head to look at Angelo "I love you and belong to you". Angelo slipped his tongue into Ethan's mouth kissing him "That's everything I wanted from you". Angelo pulled Ethan on to his side still holding on to him as they both fell asleep and slept through the rest of the night. The alarm woke Ethan abruptly and he sat upright still slightly confused until he felt Angelo's arm pulling him back down to lay by his side. "I guess I have to get use to this" Ethan said cuddling next to Angelo. Angelo stroked his shoulder "How are you feeling?". Ethan rolled on to his back "I don't know, upset, angry you name it and I am probably feeling it". Angelo got out of bed and looked at him "Loved?". Ethan smiled "Very much so". Ethan settled in and with Adam as company he was putting he worse behind him, after 3 days Ethan eventually relented from the continuous text messages from his mother and told her he was doing well and would return to college in two weeks. He was being evasive and wouldn't let on where he was living or with who, but his mother bombarding him said she wanted to meet to talk. Cutting all his family out was the last thing he wanted to do and after much deliberation and coercion from Angelo he agreed to meet her on Monday in Harrison at Mel's Diner for a coffee. Adam who was now sporting a car of his own said he would drive Ethan and look after him to make sure nothing happened. Ethan was learning how to cook with Angelo and he was making himself useful tidying and cleaning around the already spotless house thanks to the cleaner.

What day is it? I’m not sure anymore. I don’t even know, really, where I am. Or how many men have fucked me, or had their fists deeply up my hole. I can’t even tell you how long I have been in this rubber suit. You could say it’s my own damn fault. And you would be right. But isn’t it ok to look for a good time? You know how they say be careful what you wish for? They aren’t kidding. For years, I have fantasized about edgy play. Bondage. Some SM. Leather/ Rubber Master/ slave. You get the idea. But could never really run into men who wanted more than just fantasy phone/cam/cyber sex. Yeah, its everywhere, I know. So I got bored with the everyday status quo, and managed to find this website that catered to pigs, and guys who were not afraid to say they were into. Stuff that was not “politically correct”, if you get my point. WOW, well sign me up! Posted a profile that stated my interests. Would love to try a scene with a guy that was into heavy assplay. Bondage. No limits sex, but more so, “involuntary” play. I was hot for anything. Only thing was I needed to trust the man I would play with. I was not looking to end up in hospital. Well was I surprised to get a message from this guy. Not a model. No six pack abs, and all that shite. But he looked GREAT in leather and came across as a well sorted bloke. So we agreed to meet at a local pub. He seemed well sorted. Handsome but not stunning. In short, an average guy. Best of all, did not come across as a thick one! We spoke for hours. Talking about what we liked, didn’t like, turn ons and offs. This one was a kinky twisted bastard! Into electro, flogging, aggro, and into heavy bondage. Also LOVED to open up a guy wide open. But the real kicker was that he asked about how far I was willing to go. All the way. No limits. No escape. No choices. Although, I was thinking only of a scene with this guy. He offered to take me someplace “new” and if I trusted him. No reason at this point not to. So we agreed to meet again next week. He told me to take a few days off of work so that there was plenty of time for a long play session and we both left. The next week, I met him at the same pub. We chatted a bit more. Mostly about limits and the other usual stuff you talk about when you first meet a guy. He asked me a lot of questions though about my health, which I found a bit odd, but chucked it off as his personal quirk. After a couple of drinks, I was feeling no pain, and actually later felt a bit warm, like a flush coming over me. The real odd thing was, I found myself totally hot for this guy all of the sudden, as if a mad rash of passion came over me. I was ready to suck his cock right in the pub! Only later did I find out he had slipped some MDMA in my drink while I had gone to the loo. He just looked at my eyes and said “yeah, your ready.” Not sure what that meant. “Give me a kiss”, he says. Which I jumped on. He stuck his tongue way down my throat feeling my teeth, and around my tongue. “Well those teeth may need to go.” What an odd thing to say. “Let’s go back to my home. Ready for a one way trip?” Let me tell you mates, at this point I would have done anything to shag this guy; I was so hot for him. So we left the pub and got in his car. Not sure where we ended up as I had not been to this part of town before, but we went into the building and up to his flat. Once in, there was not much to see. It was more posh than most, but not out of this world. However, once I was through the door, he had set aside some stuff for me to wear. I was asked to get out of my clothes, which he put into some box, with a lock for “safe keeping”. Normally, I would have freaked out and left, but I was still feeling oddly happy. Then I had a metal collar snapped on, and was put in a leather chastity short, it felt great really, and got a little tighter once the locks were put in place. Finally, there were some wrist and ankle restraints and a nice large gag with a ring to keep my mouth open. He walked me into a room, which was painted black with all kinds of stuff on the wall, such as floggers, bondage equipment, and other gear. He also had a bondage rack, cage and a cross like thing. Man was it HOTTT! He put me in the cage, and told me to wait. It must have been about an hour later when he came back in boots, leather chaps, which outlined his nice cock and a harness. He pulled me out of the cage and shoved me down on his boots. I knew I was to lick them and man did I want to, but it was hard shoving my tongue through that ring gag to lick the boots, but it didn’t matter as I was soon brought up to his cock, which he stuffed in my mouth and started to piss. “You need to get used to this hole, as you are now going to be a full time urinal. Got it?” he said. He lifted me up and took out a bottle, spraying something into my nose a couple of times. Funny thing was it had a real bitter medicinal taste. He then walked me over to a table and restrained me down with the restraints on my hands and wrists. After I was tied down well, He came over to me and leaned over looking into my face. As I was looking at him, the weirdest thing started to happen. Man, I was excited, but also a bit spooked. First the room started getting brighter, but then everything started to get distorted. It was like one of those fun house mirrors, where you look out of shape. The entire room began to sway a little, and “twist” is the best way to describe it. As it kept twisting I felt is I was sinking into a well, looking up to see the light at the top. I was aware of what was going on, but not really able to talk, or move, but it was not like I was even trying to move. A couple of other guys came next to me. Looking down at me. They were wearing executioner style masks, but I could not see what else. I felt the gag, chastity shorts, and restraints come off. No point in them now, I could not move anyway. “Ok, Let’s start getting him ready for the big event guys.” said the Bossman. The guys started to get to work. The razors were brought out, and I was quickly lathered up head to toe. Those guys took every damn hair off my body. Eyebrows included. After being flipped over and having my backside done, they stuck a tube up my arse, and started to clean me out, I guess. I could sense my guts filling up and then going down. “Add some K into the mix. We don’t want him coming out of the hole just yet.” The next thing I knew, there was some big fucking plug being shoved up my ass. DAMN, it must be huge! I would never have been able to take something that large before, but this time it just slid right in! What a rush when that fukka popped into place! Time to get turned over again….. One of them, started to work on my balls, pulling them deep into the sack. A heavy metal ball stretcher was put on me. Mmm… I started to get a little woody at that one. But before I could grow anymore, they squirted something cool into my cock, and worked it into some kind of cock cage. I suppose like a CB-3000, and locked it on. The last thing was a tube being shoved into my cock. It stung a little as it went in, but otherwise was ok. I was looking up, and saw the Boss looking down at me. He seemed so high up from the bottom of the pit I felt I was in. “Well pig boy, you’re going to get your heart’s desire now. Probably not what ya bargained for though. By the way, in case you thought this was going to be a short weekend scene, it’s not. I have been looking for a long-term pig like you. Got your cage all ready for ya!” He then held up some kind of rubber suit for me to look at. “I’m going to be putting you in this shortly, before we give you a little treat. You’ll be spending a LOT of time in rubber and leather. But that’s what you wanted, right?” I could not really make it out, but it looked like this suit could cover an entire person. I just laid there, not being able to say a word. The Boss then leaned over to me, and poured something tasting of bitter lemon and VERY salty in my mouth, which I swallowed. Not long after that, I was sound asleep. When I woke up, I was still a bit groggy, but was surprised by the plug in my hole sort of fucking me, as it was hooked up to some electric thing. My cock shaft was also tingling, as were my balls. As my head cleared a bit, I began to take stock of my situation. I could tell that I was hanging in air, as I was rocking a bit, must be a sling. I was completely covered in rubber. Feet, mitts on the hands, arms and my entire head! No eyes, or nose holes. Only a gag and tube to breathe through. I could also tell that my legs were in some stirrups or restraints. There also must have been a strap around my chest holding me in, along with my head. I really began to get a bit spooked now. “He’s awake now. Let’s get started. You men ready?” I heard a zipping noise to my side and felt air on my arm from the clinginess of the rubber. Something wet was rubbed on my arm and it was very cool after. Something like a tourniquet was wrapped on my upper arm and it suddenly hit me what was happening and I was scared shitless now. But there was no way I could move. “Ok guys, then let’s get started.” A pinprick hit my arm and entered it. “Ok I’ve registered. Nice red flash. Put on the headphones and get ready to crank up the electro.” Someone put on a set of headphones on me and I began to hear some horny techno fuck music. Soon after I could feel a tingling running up my arm, it then hit my tongue and I “tasted” something I can’t ever describe and I coughed into the gag. Within a second……… POW! I completely went flying. OH SHIT! I relaxed almost instantly and could barely move. The music began to buzz and went from electronic to electric. While I could not see a thing, there were flashes of light in my vision and the darkness broke up into patches, shifting around like puzzle pieces. Then my ass and cock exploded with electric pulses. My ass lips were clamping down on that plug in a rhythm that would never let go. (PLEASE SIR, I MUST HAVE MY ASS FILLED……… PLEASE……… I’M BEGGINNNNNGGG…….) “Ok, he’s ready. Take out the plug and lets start getting that hole open.” The plug was removed and a series of ever increasing sized instruments were put in. Each one felt better than the last, yet I NEEDed more….. I wanted more. I would do anything to have my hole filled. In. Out. It was a rocket to ecstasy mate. Who knows how long it had been. How many loads had been put in my arse. How wide and sloppy my hole had become. “Ok, he’s coming down now. Lets get him ready for a real deep fisting.” The world had stopped vibrating, and the music coming through the headphones sounded normal again. I was still feeling hungry, but riding the rhythm. “We set? Put in the real dark piss and plug him so he holds it. Want to make sure it blasts him.“ The zip in the other arm was opened again and I felt the cool wipe, as the tourniquet was wrapped around my arm. Another pin prick soon followed. “Got a register already. Hit him with the smoke.” I was still breathing rapidly through the tube in the gag. Then I was hit by a cool taste. Then it hit. Not as wild as the first, but I started flying again. WHOA…. Once again I was seeing the vibrating lights in my eyes. Then…… “Pushing now.” Here it comes the tingle, the taste on my tongue…………. “mmmmmyyyyyyyllllllll wwwwooooooooooooooollll…..” Iiiiiii’’’’mmmmmm vvvviibbbratyiiinnggllllll odooooogo doon’t knnnooww whhhlll.fa goaaupgl.. “ “Damn, man he is so fucked up. Never seen a lad that messed up before.” I was aware of what was happening, like it was a dream, but I had an idea of what was happening. Who were these guys? My hole was so hungry though and a mile wide. “Ok, he’s ready. He’ll take anything we give him now.” “Yeah, I’m already past the second ring. He’s just sucking me in now……….” How many fists did I take? How far did they get. I have no idea. I’m just in my cage now. Straightjacket. Mask. Gag. Plug. Waiting, for the next session.

I'm at work on New Years Eve day and I am horny as hell wondering what I am going to do for the evening. I want to go and find some cock but I'm not really looking forward to dealing with the bar crowd on New Years Eve. I finally decide to go home after work and get cleaned up and then go to one of my favorite Adult Book stores and see if I can find any cock and if not then I will maybe try a couple of bars. I get home and cleaned up and headed to my second favorite ABS because my favorite one is closed on Sundays and Mondays. I get there and see a couple of cars in the lot so I'm thinking chances are fair that I might find some cock to suck. I go inside buy some tokens and head back to the arcade. I see the light on two booths and figure they are the ones the cars belong to. I stand around and wait for a few minutes and one of the booth doors opens and the guy heads for the back exit of the store. Just as I am entering that booth to look through the gloryhole the door opens and that guy heads out the back exit door also. My heart sunk knowing as of that moment I was the only one in the arcade. So I sit down in the booth with the door open and put a few tokens in and start to watch some videos. My token time ran out and I exited the booth and heard the bell for the front door of the store ring, signaling that had just come into the store. I positioned myself to see who it was that came into the store. It was a nice looking guy that I had seen in the arcade a few times before. He is tall and in his mid to late 30's and from talking to some of the guys that frequent the store say they heard he is hiv+. I watch as he buys tokens for the back so I go to a booth with a nice size gloryhole between them close the door, put some tokens in, unbutton my pants and drop them to my ankles, sit down and start stroking my cock. Just the thought that this guy might be poz is such a turn on. I mean I have never talked to this guy to find out if he really is poz and if he is poz is he undetectable. It dosen't take long and I hear him enter the booth next to mine and I look through the hole to make sure it is him and it is. I watch through the hole as he takes his coat off and sets it on the chair in his booth. He kind of bends over and looks through the hole I assume to look at me. He stands back up and unbuckles his pants, opens his pants and drops them to his ankles and starts to rub his cock through his underwear. I am looking through the hole stroking my cock watching him rub his cock then he moves towards the hole. Once his cock is close to the hole he pulls his underwear down exposing his half hard cock. Now I didn't have a tape measure but this guys cock semi hard had to be a good 6 inches to maybe 7. I position myself on my knees in front of the hole to get a good look at his cock when I notice a tattoo a little above his cock. It's a bio hazard tattoo! My cock twitches and my heart starts to race like crazy. I put my fingers through the hole and touch the top of his cock right below his tattoo, then I slowly move my fingers up to his tattoo and as soon a my fingers touch his tattoo he starts to pull away and turn away from the hole. I didn't know why he did this but I reached further into the hole and held his cock in my hand and started to stroke him. As I stroked his cock I gently pulled it towards the hole hoping he would slide it though the hole for me. I am so fucking turned on right now knowing that I am playing with a poz cock and not knowing if it is undetectable or if it is toxic. I keep stroking his cock gently trying to guide it to the gloryhole and he finally gives in and turns his hips toward the gloryhole and moves forward sliding his cock through the hole for me. I continue to stroke his cock and he is starting to get harder the more I stroke him. I hold onto his cock with one hand and place the head of his cock to my lips and I give the head of his cock a lick. His cock twitches and really starts to grow harder and harder. I see a little pre-cum at the head of his cock and I give it a lick loving the sweet taste. I can't help myself and I take the head of his cock into my mouth and start sucking all the while thinking in my head that I have an poz cock in my mouth and I am so fucking horny I can't stop myself. As I suck his cock I reach into my coat pocket and get my bottle of poppers and take a good hit and as I exhale I slide his cock as deep as I can into my mouth until I feel it hit the back of my throat. I can hear him moan softly as his cock hits the back of my throat which turns me on even more so I push my mouth onto his cock harder and force it into my throat and hold it there as long as I can and then I pull back to catch a breath. As his cock slides out of my mouth there is some of that real slick throat spit on his cock so I pull most of what I can from his cock and I spit some more from my mouth into my hand and as I slide his cock back into my mouth I move my hand to my ass and lube up my hole. I just know that I have to feel this guys poz cock in my ass even if its just a little part if it and for only a second. As I am doing this I hear him moan again and he starts to move his hips and he is fucking my mouth. He pumps his cock in and out of my mouth for a few strokes and he pulls his cock out of my mouth and turns his hips away from me and then back towards the hole again. He does the a couple of times and I know he is signaling me to put my ass to the hole. With great excitement and hesitation I stand and turn my ass towards the hole. I leave enough room between the hole and my ass so that I can watch for his cock and sure enough his cock slides back through the hole. I spit into my fingers again and lube up my hole some more with one hand as I hold his cock with my other hand. I have my bottle of poppers ready as I guide the head of his cock to my spit lubed hole and rub it around loving the feeling of his hard cock in my ass crack. I take a hit off of my bottle of poppers and as I exhale I slide just his cock head inside of my hole. My head is spinning from the popper hit and in my mind one part of it says what the fuck are you doing and the other part of it says just do it and give up your ass to this guy. I pull my ass away from the head of his cock and I move back again sliding his cock into my ass a little more this time and hold it there for a few seconds. Damn I love the feel of his cock inside of me but the taboo of knowing his cock is poz keeps my mind in turmoil. My ass is still far enough away from the hole so that I am still in control. I can slide his cock in me as far as I want and I can still pull away if I chicken out. I slide his cock out of me again and then I slide his cock back into me a little farther this time. This guys cock is an easy 8 inches if not 9 inches and I have about 6 inches of it inside me right now and my mind is fucking with me. I want so bad to let myself go and give my ass to him but the other part of me screams no... no. I slide his cock back out of me and rub the head of his cock on my hole a few times and line it up and slide his cock all the way into me and then I pull off of his cock real quick. Damn that felt so fucking good! His cock went so deep inside of me. I couldn't seem to get enough of that feeling so I slide my ass back onto his cock and buried it as deep as it would go and slide it back out again really fast, all the while my mind was going crazy and my heart was racing. I can't make up my mind, my ass wants this cock deep inside of me and my mind is telling me not to let this cock in me anymore. I place the bottle of poppers up to my nose and I inhale deep into both nostrils and as I exhale I get a super head rush and my mind finally gives in. With my head in a fog I push my ass back up against the wall and leave it there and it is like the guy knew that I surrendered my ass to him because as soon as my ass hit the wall he started pumping his cock in and out of my ass. Fuck that felt good feeling his cock hitting me deep inside. My popper hit was starting to wear off so with this guy fucking my ass with his poz cock I put the bottle of poppers to my nose again and take a deep hit in both sides my head starts to spin and I am feeling so fucking good with this big poz cock fucking away and my brain fogged up from the poppers I hear him grunting and I feel a hard deep push and I know his has his cock planted as deep inside of me as he can get through the gloryhole and I can feel his cock pulsing, shooting his poz cum deep inside of my ass. My mind starts to come back into focus as he pumps his cock in and out of me some more making sure he has milked all of his cum inside of me. I feel him slowly sliding out of my ass and I pull my ass away from the hole and quickly turn towards the hole and I see the head of his cock pulling back through the hole with a drop of cum still on the head. I reach through the hole and pull his cock back to me and I lick the drop of cum from the head and place it into my mouth. He pushes his softening cock back through the hole for me so I can clean his cock. He lets me clean his cock for a short time and he pulls it back through the hole gets himself back in order and exits the booth and out the back door. I place my fingers to my hole and I can feel his cum just starting to leak out of me. I scoop up what I can and bring my fingers to my mouth and lick them clean and I try to keep as much of his cum inside of me as I can as I get my pants back up. I get myself straightened up and exit the booth and start to walk to the front door to leave all the while I can feel his cum leaking into my underwear. I get into my car and start to head home wondering if I had just got a new present to start my new year. Only time will tell........

Over the last few years, I have come across two different 'very' hot guys that absolutely wanted to fuck me.... but would only do it 'wrapped'. In both cases, I let them wrap up and the sex was very hot.... and when finished, they both said it was better than they possible thought (muscle control LOL). But I realized it would have been hotter for ME had I felt those hard uncut cocks spreading my hole open, and dumping a hot load deep inside the second hole. When Guy #1 and I met in the spring and fucked, he said he ‘had to’ wrap up. At that point I was hot as fuck for his big uncut cock and I wanted to see if that big cock was going to feel good as it looked… so I begrudgingly said yes. Apparently blew his mind (amongst other things) and he texted a few weeks later and wanted a repeat - but wanted to wrap up again. I realized it was more fun for him than me, and it wasn't going to happen.. so I politely declined. He was cool. I was cool. We're done playing. Guy #2 and I met in early summer. He was a divorced hot uncut Brazilian who had just started to experiment with man sex. Newly experimenting. Last minute he announces that he wants to suit up. We fucked. It was mind boggling hot and sweaty and lots of dirty talk about fucking me and cumming in my hole. Big turn ON for both of us. We both blew our loads. Afterwards, he asked me why I was ok with getting fucked raw? And we had a good chat about PrEP and stuff after our 'suited' romp. He was a sexy smart dude and wanted to understand the whole risk thing. I explained that in Canada in the clinic I attend, I have to agree to be tested every 3 months. They monitor the potential side effects of the drug and I am tested regularly for 'everything'. And so, I had a good handle on my personal situation and it worked for me, as I preferred to fuck raw – topping or bottoming. He thanked me for all the information. Guy #2 texted a couple of months later. Asked if I would be around in the next couple of days for a repeat? He said he enjoyed our talk and that he had enjoyed my ass so much the first time that he was absolutely stoked about fucking me raw next visit.... if I was OK with that?? Hell ya!!! And what a memorable fuck it was... I used every cock milking ass muscle trick I knew to make sure that bare dick touched places he had never felt. I made sure he would remember his first male raw ass fucking. He took his time. He fucked me six ways to Sunday. Slow. Fast. Shallow. Deep. He blew his load. He took his time churning it around and feeling the hot cum around his cock and told me how much he enjoyed feeling his hot cum and my hot guts. He got totally into it all and was just a regular piggy mouth. He said he was going to come back and breed me again. And after he pulled out, he told me push his load out of my hole for him to see. He fingered my hole the entire time I was pushing his dripping cum out across his fingers. He has been back for more raw fucking a number of times. His cock is a meaty, uncut 9 inches and has a perfect angle. Now that he feels more comfortable about teasing and punishing my raw hole with that big cock, he really gets into telling me how much he enjoys feeling his cum and my juices. He also knows I clean out really well before we fuck. Last night he was here and we fucked for about an hour before he dumped one of his famous BIG loads way up into my guts. He always starts out face to face and pumps nice and slow while he grinds that big hard latino dick into me. And typically, flips me over onto all fours and really rails on my ass and dumps a load deep. This time though, he fucked me on the edge of the sling. A nice steady pumping of my hole. Talking dirty to me and telling me he is going to seed me. And then of course, the major cum flood. Last night he surprised me and pushed my legs back on either side of my head and licked my hole clean. He licked around my hole and told me he wanted to clean it all off. I was amazed. He had never shown any interest in my ass, except to fuck it. Last night, he was rimming me and taking broad licks all around my hole to gather cum. He looked up at me and opened his mouth and swallowed. Then he leaned forward to my hole and told me to push out the rest of his load. I could hear him slurping as I pushed the warm juices out of my hole. He was moaning and slurping and probing my hole deeper while pushing my legs wider yet. I was in heaven as his tongue worked on my stretched hole. He slid in two fingers and scooped out some cum and help it up to my mouth for me to lick off his fingers. Then he let me go and we both sat on the floor breathing heavy. He said he loved it. He told me I am the only guy he fucks raw and he loves it. Apparently, I am his fantasy fuck and he is happy to let himself go and enjoy a good raw fuck and dripping loads. He had always been curious about the taste of his cum and he knew I would be open to it all, so he had held off cumming for a full week to save this load up for my hole. With every intention of eating it all out. Just talking about his ‘fantasy’ got his cock coming back to life. This time, I rolled onto my knees on the floor with my back arched and ass in the air… waiting for his hard cock and load two. He didn’t disappoint. He started out nice and slow while telling me how hot it was to feel his cum in my hole and eat it all out. As he talked about what had just happened, he picked up speed. He was talking faster about how he wanted to plant another load deep in my ass shortly. And then he really leaned into it and pounded the fuck out of my hole. Thankfully he lasted long and gave me a solid fuck before unloading a second huge load deep inside. I could feel the warmth spreading inside of me as he groaned and pushed his cock as far inside as possible. When his cock slipped out of my hole, I turned around and took it into my mouth and cleaned it from top to bottom. I licked all around his shaved balls and down his crack. Made sure he was licked as clean as a whistle. He’s one of my fave fucks and now he always gives me a huge load deep in my hole.

I’ve been seeing this cute Asian guy for a couple of years. He drops by on Saturday mornings, does his thing then leaves, your typical quick fuck and go. He’s so adorable, only 5’ 2” with a 5” cut cock, not huge but stays rock hard. He came by yesterday morning after not coming by for a couple months. I texted him earlier to see if he could play and was happy when he asked me when he could come by. I told him to give me half an hour and that I would leave the front door unlocked as usual. I was already naked but lubed up some more then watched porn on my tablet until I heard the front door open. I put the tablet down as he came down the hall to my bedroom. I laid on the bed naked and he had a big smile on his face when he saw me. I got up to greet him and he said, “I’ve missed you and am so horny.” I pulled his shirt over his head then he unbuckled his pants and pulled them off, already naked with a hard cock. ”Show me how horny you are,” I said. I am always the one to drop to my knees to get things started but this time he was first to his knees, taking my cock in his mouth. I was pleasantly surprised as he gave me a nice slow blow job. We were in front of the mirrored closet door and I saw he was watching himself sucking my cock. He was completely turned on. I have an ottoman in front of the closet. When we first started fucking around he always resisted when I touched his asshole but once he experienced getting rimmed he was hooked. This morning he got on to the ottoman on his hands and knees, offering me his sweet hole to eat. I couldn’t resist, first lightly licking him then putting my tongue deep in his hole, lapping him and getting him wet. Now, he is a total top but I had my tongue getting his hole wet and loose, sliding first one then two fingers in. He didn’t resist when I stood up and began sliding my boner along his ass crack. His hole got wetter with my precum and I was so tempted to slide in to him but I knew he would freak out, plus I was sure he wasn’t cleaned out for fucking. He rolled off of the ottoman and told me to get on the bed on my knees. He began rubbing his cock on my lubed up hole. Now I was getting very excited because he always fucked me with a condom. He pushed in just a little then said he had to put a rubber on. Damn! I almost had him! He rolled the condom on and pushed his cock in to me. He opened up my hole, slowly fucking his rock hard cock in to me. It felt great as he picked up the pace. He pushed me up on to the bed and positioned us so he was behind me laying down. He lifted one of my legs and slid his cock in to me so he could watch himself fuck me in the closet mirror. It was hot with us both focusing on his cock pounding my hole. He pulled out and flipped me on to my back. He pushed back inside of me and started piston fucking me fast, just like the Energizer Bunny. “Fuck, I’m close,” he yelled. Every time we’ve fucked before he has taken the rubber off and shoots his load on my hole. I love the feeling of cum on my asshole and he always accommodates. Well, he’s fucking me hard and says again “I’m close!” He pulls out and I hear the sloppy condom hit the floor. He’s stroking over me and I lift my ass up so he has a good shot. Usually he cums fast but this time he kept stroking and again cried out, “I’m close!” He’s stroking fast and I feel his cock graze my hole and I’m waiting for his load on my offered pussy. He keeps stroking and telling me he’s close when I feel the head of his cock enter me. I’m loving it but expect his load outside on my hole. He’s stroking his shaft while the head of his cock is in me. “Yes,” I cry out. “Cum on me!” ”Oh fuck!” he cries out and pushes all the way in to me. His hands are planted on the mattress and he’s pounding my hole with his bare cock. He doesn’t cum right away, enjoying the feeling of his bare cock in my cunt. In and out he goes and I hear the sloppy wetness of my hole being fucked. ”Oh god, I’m cumming” he yells and I urge him on, clamping down on his cock with my pussy, squeezing as he throbs, pulsating cum deep inside. He collapses on top of me, both of us dripping with sweat. He holds his cock in me as we lay on the bed. “What have we done?” he asks, his cock still in me. ”I’ve wanted this for a long time,” I said as he rolled off of me. I curl up next to him, caressing his chest, playing with his nipples. My hand glides down his belly, fingers in his bush then finding his cock, surprisingly still hard. I lick at his nipples, licking slowly down his belly, finding his cock. I lick at the tip of his dick, tasting the last of his cum leaking out. I lick the entire shaft, finding a pool of cum at the base that had oozed from my used cunt. I lick it up then take his cock in my mouth. I suck him fully and now he’s rock hard again. I get between his legs and suck that delicious cock. I go down and suck his balls, rolling them in my mouth as I stroke his hard cock. I lift his hips and my tongue finds his hole again. I’m rimming him and stroking him and he’s moaning. I want him in me again. I lick his balls, then his cock, then back up his torso. I have my hips rubbing on his cock, rocking so my hole is positioned to take him again. I grab hold of his cock and sit down on it, grinding it deep in to me. I’m now bouncing up and down on him and he’s loving his bare cock in my hole. ”I want to watch again,” he says. I get off and he positions himself in front of the mirror. He holds his cock straight up and I sit on it again, facing away from him. I lean back and he looks over my shoulder as his cock fucks my used hole. He’s pumping hard, focused on his now pumping cock. Faster he goes and he’s cumming again, cum flying out of my cunt as he fucks me deep. This time I roll off right away, get on my knees in front of him and lick his cock completely clean. I finger my ass full of his cum as he watches in the mirror. His cock finally goes soft, I take one more lick at his asshole, then get up and give him a kiss. ”Damn, we can’t do that again,” he says. ”Mmmhmmm,” I say. We’ll see what he says the next time.

I'd been working hard and had been seriously stressed out so I decided to take some much needed time off and decided to head to Las Vegas to relax at my condo and hopefully get fucked. Man, did I get way more than I expected. I got home, aired out the place and took a shower. I cleaned out really well in anticipation and once I was settled in, I smoked some weed and went online to look for that evening's entertainment. Being the usual workaholic that I am, I hadn't checked my email on any of my websites or apps in almost a month so I knew I'd have some catching up to do. I signed into BBRT and was greeted by almost two dozen messages. Right towards the top, one message in particular caught my eye "CumUnion - Las Vegas: Saturday May 16th." "Holy fuck," I realized, "that's tonight!" Right then and there I made up my mind to finally attend a CumUnion party. Over a week later I'm still in a post fuck glow. Ha ha ha. I decided to kill some time and had a few Jack and Cokes and smoked another bowl so I was pleasantly high and buzzing. At around 8:00 I ordered an Uber and headed over to Hawk's Gym. Luckily, there were a couple of rooms left so I got one towards the back facing the main corridor. After undressing, I went in search of some fun. I went into the dark room first and saw a couple of tall muscular bodies standing like wallflowers, each of whom was fondling a huge bulge under his towel. I made my way to a platform in the rear of the roomlooked like huge bulges under their towels. There's a platform made from sectionals which were positioned in the rear of the room. I walked over, dropped my towel and knelt on the platform, face-down, ass-up and pre-lubed for whoever wanted to fuck my tight hole. In less than 15 seconds I felt a huge, rough calloused hand stroking my ass cheeks and a thick finger shoved into my hole. I relaxed and enjoyed the ass play for about a minute when suddenly his hand retreated. The next thing I felt was a softball sized cockhead stretching my hole to its limit. I hit my poppers and felt my hole relax that final inch it needed for the huge cock to slide balls-deep inside me, filling me more completely than I had ever before felt. The cock must have been at least ten amazingly thick inches. The guy fucked me with a rough but steady rhythm. I still had no idea what he looked like and neither one of us had said a word. He fucked me roughly, grabbing my hips and squeezing my ass cheeks with each hand. The whole time I was hard as a rock and on the verge of cumming but I fought the urge to cum with every ounce of will power and gave into the shiver inducing pleasure, milking his cock, or at least trying to, given my hole was wrapped tight around his dick. He fucked me relentlessly for a few minutes and all too soon, he shoved in as deep as he could go and I could feel his huge cock pulsing and throbbing as he groaned and I felt a warmth spreading inside me letting me know that I was getting bred. He squeezed my ass tight, forcing me to clench my ass as he pulled out and I did not lose a single drop of his seed. I was flying from the poppers and as I lay there catching my breath, he walked away and all I saw was a manly silhouette as he exited the dark room. I lay there panting and was about to get up and stretch my legs when I felt the other guy who had just watched me get barebacked put his hand on my upper back, bent me over again and started slapping my hole with his equally impressive cockhead. With no further foreplay, he started sliding in with no more lube than what was already around my hole and I felt him go about another inch deeper than my first fucker. This new guy was out to get his nut and started almost hate fucking me. I loved every fucking second of his thick cock banging against my prostate and I started building up towards my own orgasm. This guy's brutal pounding was almost too much for me and I started groaning and moaning. He also fucked me for a few delirious minutes and as he hilted himself in me and started shooting his cum inside me. Icouldn't hold back and my own dick started spurting my own load. I collapsed onto my stomach as he held his dick in me until our respective spasms subsided. As he pulled out and walked out of the dark room, I turned and caught a glimpse of a tall bearded 20 something white stud with an impressive thick cunt wrecker leading his way. Draping my towel over my left shoulder, I walked back out into the main corridor where I caught a glimpse of a cock. I had been at CumUnion for only 20 minutes, and already had two loads inside my ass. I went in search of more loads, knowing the night would be amazing.

Went out this afternoon to one of my favorite watering holes in the SF Valley. Got at least 8 cocks stuffed into me, and I took 3 huge loads. In fact, the last couple of guys commented about how much cum was up my ass. I could literally feel all that sperm churn about as each guy fucked me. To get myself off, I stuck my finger up there, pulled it out to slurp up all that pearly seed. I love being a cum dump!

This is so good that I’m thinking about stopping prep

I find that either after getting fucked or playing with my toys Im loosend up for about 48hrs or so. Im sure mileage will vary though.

Hey guys, I had a ton of fun at MAL this year and enjoyed shopping at all the vendor booths. It got me to thinking — what are some of everyone’s favorite (non-chemical) gear, toys, devices, etc. to enhance your play sessions? Would love some recommendations from some other pigs!

Opposit for me, however I havent stopped PrEP since I started taking it, before Id only BB with my ex and a FWB I had been seeing for years. After I started I entered a major slut phase that has yet to end.

Freshly shaven submissive going to Carnival II 1778 North Delsea Drive (rt47) Vineland, NJ 08360 today 1/22 around 11 am looking to service all and get my fuck hole breed- flooded. Even open to someone slipping me a booty bump for the first time. KIK me “breeding zone” to “bigbull4you69” if you want updates when I am on my way. My Eddie Crowdpleaser

Ive started to accept that asking dom tops to wear condom could end in me being forcefully seeded, especially if im outnumbered. I think the dom tops actually like it when i to struggle

There's a porn arcade at the corner of Victory and Tujunga. The booths towards the back have GHs. The neighborhood is working class Latino, the porn arcade's got papis cruising on the down-low. The clerk in the front doesn't seem to care what goes on in the back.

It’s up to 258 so far ?

I’m curious, do you just keep shooting wads for ages like in the videos out there, and if so are you orgasming the whole time? Or do you just orgasm at the start and have to twiddle your thumbs/read the paper until it stops? Very jealous if it’s the former

Being an exhibitionist I’m always on the lookout for fun new places to have sex. I’ve done it everywhere - the usual tearooms, parks and nude beaches are always fun but so are stairwells, balconies, roofs, elevators and parking garages; cars, buses, trains (subway and railroad) and boats; offices at work; department stores (not just the changing room or the mensroom - one piggy store employee actually got down on this knees in the middle of a circular rack of clothes, fished my cock out of my shorts and sucked me off while I stood there). Had sex in a portajohn once or twice, and (one of my all-time favorites) the 110-degree heat of an equipment shack of a construction site in downtown DC one summer where I literally had my suit and shirt ripped off by one of the burly, macho Homduran construction workers. I wound up on the subway home afterwards in my soaking wet suit and no shirt (no point since the buttons all popped off when it was ripped off me), reeking of sex, sweat, spit, cum, and i think maybe even a little piss. Just thinking about it still gets me going.... The rush I get from public sex is comparable to a drug high sometimes it’s so incredible.

Yesterday night I hosted a small group of daddy tops and friends #8 - married Long Island muscle daddy fwb came over after work to use me (attached is his body pic before he nailed me) #9 - salt and pepper friend. He was my designated party helper; assist with the door while I'm getting fucked, greeter, making sure guys don't steal haha #10 - vers daddy neighbor. We met recently on BBRT and turns out he lives 1.5 blocks away. He has a sexual appetite almost as large as mine! We flipped each other. #11 - hot middle eastern guy in his late 20's. We never met before and it was clear he was a little uncomfortable w/ the scene. But I'm glad he fucked me a little before he decided to leave early #12 - mixed Latin/White 29yo guy who I met at a sex party last month. He's beautiful and everyone wanted a piece of his ass and dick. I'm seeing him again tomorrow. #13 - 30 something year old white guy who I met in the Midwest a few years ago. Poz undetectable muscley stocky build with tats. We were so excited to see each other again #14 - 6'3 muscle otter 30's, huge thick d. We fucked a few times before, but he always is busy. Glad he found a half hour for me. #15 - friend who is turning 50 next week (he got an AIRBNB next weekend and is throwing a birthday party/orgy with 30 of his closest friends). A little chubby, but a huge pig and a sweet fuck. Beautiful face. At this point, my ass was spewing cum and it didn't take him long to get off. I think 15 is going to stay my record, but never say never, right? ?

I used to be like that. Now that I'm pushing 40, and my sex drive is way lower than it used to be, I find the loads are coming up fairly average. Sometimes there's a lot, other times it's just normal. I haven't figured out what causes it and why it fluctuates.

Surely you would want a decent quality VPN, anyone who is sincerely interested or thinks it's worth their time could probably hack you anyway, but then surely they'd be doing that regardless, on the Deep/Dark web or not? I would imagine anyone who had that kind of knowledge or experience would attempt to hack major players and not your average Joe? Not worth their time, effort or risk?

I had gotten dressed, and then with my cunt plugged and my cock locked, left Sir’s apartment. He had given me an address a few blocks away and no other information. My heart was pounding and my cock was drooling through the slit in my cage. I had no idea what to expect. Holding the fat plug in my well used hole made it difficult to walk as quickly as I wanted to but I made it to my destination quickly. The plug pulled at my hole as I walked. I loved it, it felt like I was still getting fucked. I rang the apartment number Sir had given me. The door buzzed open, and I walked in. The apartment was on the third floor of the walk up, and looking at the stairs I felt my hole contract around the plug knowing the struggle I was going to have keeping it in and getting up the stairs. The plug banged against my prostate each time I climbed a step and by the time I got to the third floor I was out of breath, and my cock was leaking so bad that there was now an obvious wet spot in my shorts. I knocked quietly on the door to the apartment and it swung almost immediately open. I was a little taken aback to be greeted at the door by a twink who had to be barely 21. “Come in,” he said, smiling. He had light sandy blonde hair, bright blue eyes and wore nothing but a jockstrap. His thin body was almost entirely hairless apart from a little blonde trail sticking up from the band of his jock. “Take off your clothes,” he commanded as he closed the door. “Yes Sir,” I said and pulled my shirt off over my head. He laughed lightly and smiled a broad toothy smile, “I’m no Sir. I’m a pig cunt like you, well like you’re going to be.” He pulled the front of his jock down to reveal a shockingly tiny metal cage where his cock should be. “Sir is waiting for you in the bedroom. He loves breaking in new boys. Although,” he reached behind me and patted the base of the plug, “from what I hear you’re pretty broken in already tonight. Just through there," he instructed, gesturing towards a half-open door at the end of the hall. The twink walked away through another door, and I walked down the hall. I opened the door to find a dark basically empty room on the other side. The only thing in the room was something I had only seen in porn videos before, a sling. “Get in the sling faggot, I don’t have all night,” said a deep voice from behind me. I turned around to find myself face to face with a handsome black man of about my height. He had a square jaw and clean-shaven face. His hair was so short it was basically stubble. He was stouter than Sir but looked strong as hell. My eyes continued south to his cock. I almost gasped. I can only describe his cock as mammoth. He had the dimensions of a tall boy of beer. My cunt throbbed around my plug and a string of precum oozed from my dick. “Get the fuck in the sling,” he said again, and came towards me. I backed-up into the sling and then, grabbing me by the waist, he tossed me into it. Automatically I flung my legs up and stuck my feet in the loops in the chain. “Look at this fucking cunt. Michael’s done a good job cunting you so far. I see why he sent you to me. Normally he waits a couple of days before sending me a new boy. My cock tends to make them nervous but in the end, they all end up begging me for my seed. Do you want my seed too boy?” “Yes Sir!” “You want me to breed this pathetic faggot pussy, and pump you full of my cum?” “Yes Sir!” “Good. Push that plug out of your cunt then boy. I wanna see your pussy gape.” I closed my eyes and pushed, slowly at first and then harder. The plug was stuck deeper than I had realized and it took a forceful push to get the base past my cunt ring. Once it did though the plug shot from my hole and landed on the floor below with a dull thud. I could tell my pussy was gaping open. It felt cold and I could feel air inside myself. “Fuck. You sure you only started wrecking this cunt today?” “Yes Sir. I’d never been fucked raw before today.” “Damn bitch. Your cunt was made for this then. You’ve already got the lips of a blown-out pussy. It took my bitch months to get this sloppy.” He rubbed his fat cock head against my pussy and moaned. Without any effort, his head was slipping in and out of my hole. Being plugged for so long along with the loads I was still holding inside of me had made me looser and wetter than I knew was possible. He dropped a big wad of spit onto his cock and, looking me dead in the eyes, slammed his cock balls deep into my cunt. I groaned, his cock was wider than Sir’s and possibly longer. My pussy stretched just a little bit more than it had been before. I loved it. I didn’t have to wait to get used to it. There was no pain, just the glorious feeling of my hole stretching around a beautiful, perfect cock. He pulled his cock completely out of my hole, and turning to the open door shouted, “Get in here boy.” The twink appeared almost instantly in the door way. Now completely naked, his silver cock cage glinting in the light. Without being told the boy fell to his knees next to the sling and opened his mouth. The man shoved his cock down the boys throat and at the same time shoved four fingers into my cunt, “Lick this boy's cunt juice off my cock and get me wet again for his pussy.” After a few minutes, he tore his cock from the boy’s greedy mouth and replaced his probing fingers with his cock in one deep stab. I grunted again. The boy got up off the floor and walked over to the corner of the room where there was a small chest of drawers. He grabbed a phone and started taking video. The man was pulling his cock completely from my hole and slamming it back in over and over again. I was a whimpering mess and the twink was zooming in on my face to catch every moment of my ecstasy. “Come over here and film this boy’s cunt. He’s going to want to see his pussy take my cock later.” The twink moved next to his Sir as he changed his pace and started quickly hammering me. I felt like he was slowly pulling my guts out of my body, like my internal organs were being rearranged for me and there was nothing I could do about it. My moans changed to yells and his cock slammed past my second hole breaking me open. My legs were shaking and my arms had gone limp. I couldn’t move or do anything. The rocking of the sling kept ramming me back harder and harder onto his cock. I had completely dissolved into a silent mess by the time he said, “I hope you’re ready for this seed boy. I’m going to change your life.” He grabbed the chains and pulled me to a stop as he bottomed out deep inside my cunt. Growling, he pumped his seed into me as far as he could. My body felt numb but my hole was alive with electricity. I felt his cock swell with each pump, and I swear I could feel his flooding me. When his cock finally stopped throbbing he shook his head a little and breathed for a minute. Then he withdrew his cock from my cunt and left the room saying to his boy “Plug that faggot up and send him back to his Master.” The twink picked the plug up from where it had fallen on the floor and pushed it back inside me. I barely felt pressure now, my hole just welcomed it back inside me. He then helped me out of the sling and handed me my clothes. Just before opening the front door he said, “You did really well. Your Sir will be pleased.

IMVHO You should do all the best to make sure you minimize the chances to catch a stds, so You can focus on having fun, get tested regularly to make sure that if something happens, you react and cure it as soon as possible, as fast as possible. I'd like to share my message from another thread: - HPV-9 vaccination; - Hepatitis A + B vaccination; - To reduce Hep C try to follow NoMoreC guidlines ; - Quadrivalent anti-flu vaccination at the beginning of november every year (yes, not really STDS related, I know :P); - Flush your mouth with this before fun to reduce gonorrhea risk; - PREP everyday; - Use a lot of lube; - Avoid washing too aggressively and always uses a nourishing cream in order to keep the skin soft and elastic, thus reducing the risk of micro-cracks; - Take a supplement with probiotics and prebiotics together like this ; And You got a really good protection against the most severe MST. Have fun!

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The Confession Here is where the fiction comes in. I begged the Priest to let me visit as I had a confession that I needed to get off of my chest. He agreed to let me know as soon as his family left, and he was able to set up the “church.” In my mind, it was just another time that he would flake out on me, but I remained on Grindr awaiting a message from him. To my surprise, I received a message from him later in the day, saying that, “the Temple has been set up, and I should come over for a service.” He gave me his address, and instructed me to wear appropriate church clothes, which included gym shorts, a tee shirt and jock strap only. I was already cleaned out, and told the Father that I needed his address. Once he gave it to me, I informed him that I would be over in 15 minutes. He just said “Good Alter Boy, and that when I arrived, I should just knock on door 3 time, no more, no less.” I arrived at his place as scheduled, and knocked three times. The door opened just a bit, and I couldn’t see much. The room was very dark, and I could see some sort of table, which was covered with a black shroud, and two red candles lit on each side, holding it down. Besides the table was a modified kneeling bench. His hand reached through the door, handing me a leather mask, with no eye holes, and told me that this was a part of proper church attire, and I needed to put it on before entry. I quickly did as instructed, and he grabbed my hand and led me into his temple. I was a bit nervous, but I just knew I would receive the Fathers blessing. Once inside, he instructed me to strip to just my jock, which I quickly did. As I was hooded, I couldn’t really tell what was going on. He began by tweaking my nipples quite hard, and then instructed me to turn around, to which I complied. Once I turned around, he grabbed my ass cheeks and started feeling them. He then instructed me to bend over, and I quickly obliged. As a did, I felt his finger enter my ass. As he worked it, I was moaning in pleasure, and it wasn’t long before a second finger was inserted. After about five minutes, he removed his fingers, and something strange took their place. I had no idea what it was, but it felt amazing. After he removed the object he instructed me to stand up and turn around again. This time he grabbed my hard, yet pathetic cock through my jock. He asked if I was there to confess about my pathetic cock, to which I replied no, but I knew it was pathetic, and that is why I am a total bottom. He said good choice my son. He grabbed my hand telling me we would discuss further in the confessional. TO BE CONTINUED!

My husband loves to fuck my hole after it is sloppy with cum... so to celebrate his birthday we are on a weeklong trip to Toronto and Montreal. Last night, we went to Steamworks Toronto for their black out party. I was in the sling in my room with a blindfold on... 4 loads in and tally marks and graffiti all over my body... fucking hot! Let's see if we can add to it this weekend in Montreal!

The uglier the better.. I'm just a faggot whos job is to take cum and cock from whoever wants to give it to me,.

Since converting a short time ago, I've been suspended for posting in the wrong place. So here is an update. I met to young black guys, in my local area. They Are both poz. I invited them to fuck me, while I was converting. But ended in hospital with pneumonia. When I got back home, they came over to help me get back on my feet. I wanted them to fuck me. But told me to wait until I got better. I met them last weekend at the pride parade. They had a cute white boys with them. He's 18 but looks like 14. He told me the to black guys had agreed to poz him. I invited them to my place to do the deed.

I can't decide if this is a legitimate request for perspective and knowledge or if it's bait to start what would very easily descend into a very heated argument over stigma and semantics. "Was it worth it?" Was what worth it? Are you asking about the initial transmission of HIV or are you asking if not seeking treatment and allowing HIV to progress unhindered to the point where an AIDS diagnosis is given? Either way, I know I personally wasn't gambling the pleasure of a particular situation against the risk of contracting HIV, and my decision to stop taking antiretroviral therapy was a conscious one made after much deliberation and with full understanding that AIDS was an inevitability if I continued to abstain from meds. It was three-and-a-half months after my 18th birthday that I started dating the man who, as I came to discover much later, intentionally gave me the virus without my knowledge. In the spring of 1993, having enlisted in the US Navy and tested into the nuclear program, I received a call back to MEPC to speak with the Chief Medical Officer, who relayed to me that my tests had come back positive for the HIV virus, and as such, my oath and enlistment were revoked. He told me I wasn't eligible to serve because active military personnel must be able to donate blood to other soldiers or to civilians in times of war. By the time I tracked down my (by then) ex-boyfriend, he had infected 11 other young men and had committed suicide rather than endure the pain of a slow death from AIDS complications. I was surreptitiously infected with HIV so long ago that I have lived more years with the virus than I'd lived without it. All of the important little psychological finishing touches that happen as adolescent males become mature into fully grown adults were shaped by the stigma and shame surrounding my diagnosis. Fast forward 25 years, past two failed suicide attempts and the deaths of most of the friends and acquaintances I'd known from back then. Perhaps you can understand the state of mind I was in when I decided one day to stop taking HIV meds and just let the virus do what it would until the end finally came. An end, I might mention, that I'd been anticipating for most of those 25 years, coming to terms time and time again with the eventual reality of a death much like the agonizing, humiliating one you describe in your post. When you've had that long to ponder such an end, even trying twice to beat Death to the punch, the concept of dying becomes much less frightening. Last January (2017), I had been off of all HIV medications for 4 years. An unfortunate run in with the flu motivated me to visit an Urgent Care, where they discovered my CD4 count was down to only 30. Soon thereafter I developed a case of thrush, which led to another visit with a doctor for the necessary prescription. Thiat time I walked out with an AIDS diagnosis on my medical record and a lengthy scolding from a particularly insightful Infectious Diseases specialist. I wasn't in any pain. I led a normal, active life and had no issues with mobility or cognition. I fed myself maybe too well and never had trouble drinking. Looking at me, no one would have considered it even possible that I had AIDS. But I did. It was in May of last year that I decided I wasn't ready anymore to let the virus have me. I wasn't done with life. There were things I still wanted to do. So I got back on meds and started to rebuild my immune system. It took me being vigilant in taking my medicine every single day for over 7 months to finally get my CD4 count back above the 200 cell threshold, even though the viral load immediately went undetectable. Was what worth it? Considering the fact that I'm no better or worse off today than that naive 19-year-old boy was back in 1993 when he was first diagnosed, I'm having trouble framing the context of your question. Has the stigma beat the shit out of my confidence and self-esteem over the past two-and-a-half decades? You bet your ass it has, at every turn and from every direction. Has the virus won? Not yet, that motherfucker hasn't. I control the virus now, not the other way around. And I'm past the point where ignorance and fear in other folks' reactions can bruise or batter my sense of self-worth. Those ugly flaws are now reflections of their value, not mine. I'm happy to educate and always forthcoming about my status with every potential sex partner I meet. I can't even pass up an oddly worded post in an online discussion forum without taking the time to address the topic of HIV/AIDS. ;-P

OMG this cute little boy reminds me of me except I was 17 and bug chasing before I knew what the term even was....I would go to rest stops and seek out old men with facial wasting to poz me. Oh, and I fucking loved every minute of it.

Had to think hard about that one. First one who came to mind was George Clooney. But then I thought about Greek prime minister Alexis Tsipras. I don't think he would mind plowing an ass when he can get away from his bossy wife. And going Greek is how it started isn't it? LOL. But I also fantasize about random guys from pics I found on the web. Like some of these:

Damn, I was horny that night. And I was tired of the same old tail here in Jersey. So I made the decision to go into The City (New York, that is) to get me some new boi tail. Cleaned up, got into the pickup truck, lit a cigarette, and I was on my way. I had posted a notice of my intentions on barebackcity.com in hopes that someone fitting the description of what I wanted would call me on my cell phone on the way. I got all the way into Manhattan, and the calls were sparse, and not promising so far. So I went into a local gay pub in the West Village, and had a drink. The usual crowd. I went back out to my truck parked outside on Christopher St., and checked my cell phone voicemail. THERE HE WAS!!! "Hi, my name is ___ and I'm 24 years old, blonde, blue eyes, slender, and a bottom. Please come over to my apartment at _____ and you can call me at _____." It didn't take me but a few seconds to call him back and turn my truck around to the East Side towards his place. He met me at the door, and my jaw dropped. DAMN, what a pretty boi! Tall and lean, smooth and creamy-skinned, a boyishly handsome face and big pools of medium blue eyes that I could've drowned in. We made very little small talk, but took a minute to burn one. Then it was OFF to his bedroom and OFF with the clothes. He sucked on my already hard dick, which I enjoyed seeing going in and out of those thick sweet young lips. Then I jumped on top of him, and started making out with this hottie...kissing him deeply on the mouth, our tongues darting in and out as we began the dance of male bonding that only guys like us can know. Finally, I had to taste that ass. He got up on all fours on his bed, and I was presented with an absolutely perfect lilly-white ass with a sweet little pink asshole surrounded with just enough dark blonde hair. With my mouth watering, I dove in and ate that hot boi ass for all I was worth...licking it, chewing on it, savoring the musky boi smell and taste that I was getting from him. It was time to get inside him. Getting up on the bed behind him while he was still on all fours, I mounted him from the rear. Oh, man, it was hot, sweet, and tight in there. He indicated that I should go a little slower, so I gave him time to adjust to my 8+ inches. Finally my pubes were resting against his smooth young asscheeks, and I began to slowly saw in and out of my boi. It suffices to say that this topman was in Heaven at that moment, and the best was yet to come (or cum, that is). I asked him after awhile to turn over on his back. Once again I entered him, but with his legs around my neck over my shoulders, so that I could fuck him and at the same time look into those beautiful blue eyes. He was tall, and so am I, so we kissed and fucked at the same time. I couldn've popped my load during that time, but held back to savor the wonderful experience awhile. While I had his legs over my shoulders, I also began to nibble on his blonde furry legs and on the edges of his big boy feet. There was a bonding that took place during these moments as we were making love that I have rarely found recently, and I found myself being grateful for every single moment to be inside this boi. And so we began the dance of male bonding in earnest. Finally, I turned him back over on his stomach and entered him from behind above. It was then that I decided it was time to pound, and the more I pounded, the deeper grew his moans. Indicating that I was about to pop my load, he told me "Oh yes, man, shoot your load inside me!" so after a minute of heavenly fucking, my load boiled up from my balls and screaming out the head of my dick into his hot tight willing assguts....again and again....shooting teaspoons of my male DNA as far inside him as I could. It seemed like that it would never stop, and I didn't want it to. But my blonde God bottomboi about then started clenching his ass muscles around my cock and moaning louder, and began shooting his hot load beneath us on the sheets of the bed....milking the last drops of oozing cum from my cock in the process. We collapsed on the bed, with me on his back still having my cock buried in his butt. We laid there for a few mintues, kissing and rubbing against each other for awhile. God, life was good that night.

In the steam room at the gym last night. i had been cruising this totally hot stud and His equally hot work out buddy all night long. They cruised back. All three of us finished working out at about the same time and headed for the locker room. I stripped, showered off and went to the steam room to relax and unwind from a particularly strenuous weekend (7 loads Friday night, 9 loads Saturday). Within seconds Stud and His workout buddy were sitting one on each side of me. Within minutes, i was giving work out buddy the blow job of His life while Stud was fucking my cunt with His magnificent cock. i tried to make it last but they both shot, simultaneously, in less than two minutes.

Sunday afternoon I met a couple I've played with before. We'd always played safe before but we had all talked about my fantasy of them both fucking me bare. It happened. We played, sucked, all fucked each other. Then one of them was fucking and got into a good rhythm and blew his load in me. I thought it was an accident but he told his partner, you turn. And he started jacking off and just before he came, shoved it in me. I left with both their loads dripping out of me. A first time for me. Very damn hot.